How does curling up and dying sound to you???
As quickly as it began, it ended. I asked her a million billion times if it was too soon, if she was sure. And a million billion times she said it was no problem, that she couldn't help the way she felt. Until it all caught up with her. So welcome back to singlesville, boi, population you.
It would be much easier if she didn't like me still, if she didn't want to be with me, but she does. And I do. I wish I didn't feel like this about her....It's wrong and far too soon - and now totally useless - but the heart wants what it wants....And screams when it doesn't get it.
I'm alright though. A bit sad and a little lonely, but it will all pass :-) Hopefully at TAFE on monday all the tears I thought I cried into extinction won't come back to bite me on the arse *crosses fingers*.
So....Due to this insanity and the actual insanity of being alone and not around people practically at all this holidays, I'm going out tonight. I'm going with Danni, Bailey, Peter and Adrian (3 gay boys and a girl from TAFE) for some drinks and fun....
Meeting up with Danni at Newtown tonight at 8pm, then meeting the boys at the Stonewall at 10ish....Then maybe onto the Sly Fox *cheers*. Yay w00t!!! Lol, I'd not be so nervous had Danni not sent me the message "wear the black jeans, boi". Hopefully I won't get myself in too much trouble :P
It would be much easier if she didn't like me still, if she didn't want to be with me, but she does. And I do. I wish I didn't feel like this about her....It's wrong and far too soon - and now totally useless - but the heart wants what it wants....And screams when it doesn't get it.
I'm alright though. A bit sad and a little lonely, but it will all pass :-) Hopefully at TAFE on monday all the tears I thought I cried into extinction won't come back to bite me on the arse *crosses fingers*.
So....Due to this insanity and the actual insanity of being alone and not around people practically at all this holidays, I'm going out tonight. I'm going with Danni, Bailey, Peter and Adrian (3 gay boys and a girl from TAFE) for some drinks and fun....
Meeting up with Danni at Newtown tonight at 8pm, then meeting the boys at the Stonewall at 10ish....Then maybe onto the Sly Fox *cheers*. Yay w00t!!! Lol, I'd not be so nervous had Danni not sent me the message "wear the black jeans, boi". Hopefully I won't get myself in too much trouble :P