ta Dr. K.

01. list ten things you want to say to people but don't think you can say to their face.
02. don't say who they are

1. I miss you already. It's pathetic, I know. It's only been a little while, but damn. I can't even make sentences. Already you make me feel unafraid. Unafraid to take a chance. Unafraid to put myself out there....But only for you. I've been hurt before in a similar circumstance, so I hope you can take care of me. I know she couldn't take care of you, so I want to do my best xx.

2. I know you won't take this as a personal attack, and fortunately it's not, lol. Get your ass into gear. I know you're dissatisfied. I know things aren't going your way, but I know you can make them. I know you're not motivated right now, but you know that sometimes regardless of your level of motivation, you've got to do some things, whether you want to or not. We've spoken about people's potential before...I know you're full to the brim with it (potential, lol) and I know you can do anything you want....But you have to want it.

3. I know that you will take this as a personal attack, so I can't tell you in person. I can't tell you how to act or what to think, but I'd fucking love to tell you to shut your damn mouth and open your damn mind. Being this or being that is nowhere near as important as just being. Your attitude sucks. The way you speak to and about people is insane. Who the hell cares??? None of it is important because when everyone else is living a fulfilled life, you'll be left standing in the dust. If you figure out who you are, it doesn't bother me one iota. There are lessons that you still need to learn, in spite of what you think. 

4. I wish we spoke more. We should. We need to. We're still the weirdest parts of the odd squad...I miss you and our friendship.

5. You're a moron. This is no way to gain a life. You're still too young. I don't care how "relaxed" you think you've become. Plain and simple. See you at a reunion 15 years down the track, 3 kids and divorced.

6. She's wrong for you. I can't say that in real life because I respect you and your relationship way too much. But you need someone sure. Someone strong. Someone in control - someone who can control you. Not so long ago, I would have said that you need me...But honestly, I'm happy you're happy.

7. I hope you grow up alright. But remember when you said "I never want to give a mother a reason to cry"...Never forget that. It looks like you're going to go down that path, but I will kick your ass if I have to to make you see that you can not live your life like that. There's a good man in there somewhere....I just hope you can grow enough to let him out.

8. How dare you do that to him??!! I know what you've been doing behind his back. He's put a roof over your head. He's put money in your pocket. And how do you repay him? By fucking around behind his back. You disgust me. He's too good for that, and if no one confronts you about it or if you don't sort it out yourself, I will do something about this. He does not deserve this. He needs to know.

9. I know this is only partially your fault, but you're an ignorant twit. What's worse is you don't even care. You think you know all there is to know. You think nothing matters. You're going to find yourself in some hard spots in life and I'm afraid for you. 20 years old only and you don't know what life is. Also, get it fixed.

10. I'm not bitter about you any more. Surprised? Me too. I thought I'd hate you forever for the things you did to me. But hate binds stronger than love and I feel neither for you. I don't wish you a good life, because that would imply I care. I don't. I don't need to worry whether you're getting what's coming to you - karma will do that job for me.

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And we're done. Bedtime for this boi *yawns*.