A normal entry.

Can't believe I've posted more than once today, lol. More than twice even....But I'm not going to count those, they lacked substance. I haven't posted something decent for a while.

You know, I feel good today. A little tired, but good. It's still strange to me - I mean, we chase happiness like people possessed and some of us just can't quite make it. It's weird that sometimes a seemingly common emotion like happiness is totally and utterly unobtainable. It fascinates me, to be honest. But now, it's there. It's not always overbearing or obvious, but yeah, I'm happy. And you know what, I'm good with that :-)

I don't know quite what it is, but I feel more settled. I mean, don't get me wrong. It's not as if my life is perfect - I'm selfish sometimes, I'm too materialistic, I want way too much and I always bite off more than I can chew...But despite all this, I feel better in myself and I feel like somethings are just slowly but visibly falling into place. Really, the only thing I have to work on is not getting my hopes up too high...Aside from that though, I have hope :-) I have faith in myself. Lol, whomever has been watching over me for these last few years can go take a break now. I think I'm well enough to start living again, rather than merely existing.

I was going to "do" my nails (less the polish and all that jazz) but I can't find my nail scissors (yeah, I have a manicure kit, lol) and it's annoying. I really should learn to stop biting my nails too, but I think I can only quit one thing at a time. 

You know, one day I should just sit here and pour out whatever's in my head. I always hold stuff back, even here in my own journal - and I think we all do it - but sometimes stuff just has to get out. Although I don't think I'm ready for that just yet. Maybe it'll be the next self-improvement thing...Just be honest. With everything; journal, people, myself. This could all get very tiring very quickly, lol.

Well, that was certainly more substantial, lol. I think I'm hungry...Maybe I'll go hunt for some substantial food and mull over some substantial thoughts...Or whatever :-P