:(

i made a mistake....i hurt myself...lots of cuts on my wrist...no one will see...my mistress covers it. shane did something naughty and now i think mistress is upset :(
i don't know what to do...maybe she'll be mad at me....i hope not....i tried not to do it, but my hands wouldn't listen. little blade...little cuts...no harm there...right?
mistress will be unhappy...i said i wouldn't do it anymore...i can't keep those promises...it's too hard and my hands get nervous...all of me gets nervous....nervous and scared. i'm not good enough for her...she's so nice to me and i make her worry all the time...:'( i don't know how to make them better....those noises in my head...they're all talking, telling me to do different things....the ugly one is the loudest, it says to hurt myself....makes me scared, so i do what it says....i'm starting to think i'm going insane....