Alexa

fallenslayer @ 2008-07-25T18:02:00

2008-07-25T22:03:45Z

anyone alive still have me added? i want to bring this journal back :]

fallenslayer @ 2006-06-21T12:56:00

2006-06-21T16:58:21Z

YAH I MADE ICONS OMG SHHHH. DONT TELL ANYONE.

(ICONS HERE)

ADD MY NEW JOURNAL

lanymphet

fallenslayer @ 2005-12-29T20:52:00

2005-12-30T01:53:10Z

Woah. Forgot about this journal.

I must get back into the Buffy way of life.

Hope all is well, folks. HOPEFULLY you'll hear more from me soon.

fallenslayer @ 2005-08-06T17:13:00

2005-08-06T21:14:40Z

ROFLRFO KTHXBAI.

fallenslayer @ 2005-07-31T13:15:00

2005-07-31T17:16:45Z

WILLOW AND OZ HAD BABIES: LILAH AND XANDER. WE ADOPTED DOYLE.

NOW XANDER AND DOYLE ARE GOING AWAY BUT WE ARE KEEPIN LILAH!!!!!

PSPSPS. THESE ARE MY CATZdjkflsxnhfh.

/annoying buffyverse pet post.

fallenslayer @ 2005-07-17T13:38:00

2005-07-17T17:42:23Z

Im lonely because everyone is reading HBP *points to icon*.

SIGH. So yah. That was pointlessBUT im making icons :).

fallenslayer @ 2005-07-14T13:13:00

2005-07-14T17:27:41Z

Im back with a renewed love for all things Buffy (IHOPEIMNOTTHEONLYONE). And some gifts.
My icons suck. SO.

Theyre all 1024x768. IMSRY.
PANGS Buffy/Angel
AFTERLIFE Buffy/Spike
FOOL FOR LOVE Buffy/Spike
HIM/SCHOOL HARD Scoobies
RANDOM Cordy/Angel
SAD Buffy
SEXY ALY
NOT FADE AWAY Ats Cast

I hope that you can forgive me for being

AWAY

.

And now, I make icons. Which suck (as was previosuly mentioned).

fallenslayer @ 2005-04-28T18:14:00

2005-04-28T22:27:25Z

HEY YOU!

yes. you.

Im still on your friends list. YAY <3.

WOOT.

So, like, im back. No for realz. Im back. I started watching Buffy again, making some art, working on my (and mel's) site, etc...

ALL THAT JAZZ.

sarah wallpaper 1024x768
mk&a bulletin board thingy
eliza dushku wallpaper 1024x768

And so I leave you with the fact that I am open for icon/wallpaper requests. LOVE.

p.s. i missed you fuckers.

fallenslayer @ 2005-03-21T20:02:00

2005-03-22T01:12:30Z

Oh oh oh.

YOU MISS ME.

Made some art in my absesnce.

Icons
1. 2. 3.
4. 5. 6. 7. 8. 9.

CRAP FOR YOUR DESKTOP

SMG

MK &A

RACHEL BILSON

K SO YAH.

Love ya - real update soonish.

fallenslayer @ 2005-02-24T20:41:00

2005-02-25T01:42:43Z

Hey. This is going to be a dumb post, but it needs to be made.

Its something i've been meaning to say for a long time but have not gotten around to it.

I miss Buffy.

That is all for now. Icons soon.

fallenslayer @ 2005-02-15T23:05:00

2005-02-16T04:07:08Z

Today was my birthday, and it was wonderful <3.

MK and A <33

You're my nicotine.

2005-02-06T17:18:27Z

Yes - Im alive. Just not very happy, in general.

BUT SIGH. I miss LJ *squeezes the life out of it*.

I miss you all, too *sexes*

SO SUP. Tell me something random. Or something.

NEW HEADER

I cant take the cold.

2005-01-30T19:37:19Z

I feel as if my brain has detached itself from my body in the past few days. I feel absoultely worthless, ugly and stupid. I have alot of adjectives floating in my head right now, all wanting to be chosen. But I'll stick with worthless. And fat. Ugh.

Im just so weird. I feel like its a burden to be seen with me. Especially since all of my friends are so gorgeous and perfect and crap. And then its like. Ew. Whats she doing with them? Im short and fat and I say dumb things and dance around and scream. But I think they care about me which means alot because I dont think alot of people genuinely care about other people.

And I sometimes have moments where I wish that there was someone who cared enough about me and liked me enough to actually want something more with me. To actually want to be with me and laugh and read my poems. And care.

And sometimes I think 'Fuck the World', because its all I can do. Because im helpless.

But I can change some things, and those are the things that are still under construction.

As for the rest of me, Ill keep you posted. If you care.

I made icons but Im not going to post them just yet because Im not so sure people even like my icons anymore.

Melly and I opened our domain separation-anxiety a few days ago. Our Multimedia Site (Impulse) Is open (and, uh, still under major construction), but our Spuffy Site (The Years Burn) isnt quite yet.

Go visit. And download our videos. And stuff.

Do you love me? I love you.

fallenslayer @ 2005-01-23T23:04:00

2005-01-24T04:04:54Z

Im going to write a story and I want the main character to be made up of all of you. So tell me something about yourself. Something you like or dont like. Something you wear or say or do. A habit. Something quirky. Somrthing boring. Something real.

You better reply.

Im serious.

We'll forget the past.

2005-01-23T17:18:42Z

Did anyone else catch the Buffy segment on I Love the 90s Part deux? Twas interesting.

Friday was whatever. I was in a blah mood and I apologize to everyone who had to hear it (especially Julian) because I was being extra annoying. SORRY. Went to dinner with Alex/Chris and Jess/Gallego. It was fun. The waiter was weird. Then crossed the street to Main St. Got some frozen yogurt, said bye to Jess and Alex and the boys, met up with Dottie and Julian. We walked around and then eventually went to the bridge. I didnt feel like crossing because Im afraid of water. Julian stayed and tried to convince me to go because he likes me to do things I am scared to do. He sucks. JUST KIDDING!! Gosh. Went home. Watched an I Love the 90s rerun at 12 until Buffy came on. Then I went to bed.

SATURDAY was pretty cool. My aunt that i see twice a year came down from Baltimore to visit and take my sister and I shopping. We went to Aventura. I bought stuff: A shirt, pants and dress at Urban Outfitters; 2 shirts at Abercrombie, 2 pairs of shoes at Rampage. When we got home it was 9 pm. So all my night plans got cancelled. Cock.

Today my mom is having my aunt and grandparents over for lunch. Im going to go for a walk after they leave :):P:kuzxmfhgm ncfgf.

Anyone want Buffy caps? Or Angel? Im gonna watch some in a bit and I might as well cap. ANY EP REQUESTS>?!

Im working on my Spuffy 'Shimmer' video today. WHORE.

This awkward kiss that screams of other people's lips.

2005-01-19T22:23:13Z

SQUEE!! becke!!!!!!!! I got the magazine today!!! *makes love to you repeatedly*. I want to make babies with you <3.

For those who dont know, its the Esquire UK with Sarah hottness all over it *aim cool face*.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY aphroditesflesh/ANNA!!!! <3333333333 21 is gonna be a GREAT year for you!

New userinfo !!!

I ressurected alot of my current userpics (check out those descriptive keywords ROFL) from the depths of iconhell (where alllll my old icons live) for absolutely no reason. I never used most of them, I guess.

OMG I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ETA: Does anyone plan on watching Point Pleasant tonight?

fallenslayer @ 2005-01-17T18:59:00

2005-01-18T00:00:40Z

~~Girls~~ People are shallow assholes.

ETA: NATALIE PORTMAN WON BEST SUPPORTING ACTRESS!!!

I missed you LJ.... hugs.

2005-01-16T07:00:22Z

MEME TIMEE!!11!

There are 15 statements below. 10 are true, 5 are false. Comment and tell me which 5 are the decoys.

HAH. You're too late. LIES ARE IN BOLD!!!

Im a Vegetarian.
My hair is not naturally black.
I fuckin' hate Sarah Michelle Gellar.
Im a writer.
I have a Siamese cat.
I dont kiss on the first date.
I have small feet.
I hate Miami.
I want bigger boobs.
I secretly want to be a ballerina.
My room is always neat.
I watch Laguna Beach.
I want to lose weight.
Im a dog person but I own two cats.
I only drink water, diet soda, and melon gatorade. And starbucks. And tea. Green, unsweetened.

Ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

2005-01-16T04:05:36Z

Dude. I want someone to like kiss and hug and stuff.

Pacey and Joey make me sad. I want that.

Symptoms of you.

2005-01-14T01:47:21Z

Dude. Have you noticed that Sarah/Buffy pronounces the word 'Okay' as Okaii?

W T F.

Still love her though, duh.

BEETCH.

2005-01-11T02:52:22Z

IM SO SICK. LOVE ME. IN MANY POSITIONS.

Do you have an unconventional BtVS/Ats ship?!

Mine is, duh, Buffy/Oz. And Spike/Dawn........BUT I CAN EXPLAIN.

true extreme spuffy shipper for life though!

LALALA.

2005-01-10T05:43:22Z

Can anyone rec me some good literature/books?
I want to expland my reading horizons.

I want something good that I can learn from <3.

Current List to be updated as i get recs:

Lolita by Vladimir Nabokov
One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest by Ken Kesey
Candide by Voltaire
1984 by George Orwell
The Scarlet Letter, Twice Told Tales, and Mosses from an Old Manse by Nathaniel Hawthorne
The short stories of Edgar Allen Poe
The Xanth series of novels by Piers Anthony
The Riverworld series of novels by Phillip Jose Farmer
The poetry of Robert Frost, e.e. cummings, Emily Dickinson, Walt Whitman, and William Cullen Bryant
The Canterbury Tales by Geoffery Chaucer

I feel oddly compelled to say good morning.

2005-01-09T22:47:45Z

UMYAH.

FRIDAY went to dolphin with Dottie and Kat. Looked at sex books at Borders. Kat and I drooled over The Dresden Dolls while Dottie just said WTF!? We had lots of fun. They played DDR and I watched. Starbucks and such as well. We took a cool picture as we were stalking this guy in tight pants and no shirt. UM. Twas da best night evah.

SATURDAY Sydney Jess and Rachel came over. We went to Steph's party. Whatever. Nothing happened except that pretty much everyone EVER went. Overall, be glad you didnt go. Psh.

TODAY I went to lunch with Monica, Tina and Martin. twas fun. We talked about how Monica needs an orgasm. Psh.

How was everyone's weekend? Do you have a myspace?! WTF GIMME THE URL!?

I will never cry at night again.

2005-01-07T03:44:38Z

I am not a 'relationship person'. Why is this? Im not sure. Id like to blame it on some traumatic event in my childhood, but, honestly, its just me.

WTF is a 'relationship person', anyway? Are you one?! FUCK YOU DUDE <3.

So me and Jess had a serious talk today. I am not going to go into what about, but it put alot of my priorities into perspective. To be honest, we had the same two opinions, both opposed eachother. Its confusing. So suck it.

My friends rock. My life is crazy. I lost a pound. Im hanging out with Dottie tommorrow <3.

Hmm. So who wants me to write them a fic?!????? ANYONE!? Please. Im going nuts. Request sumthin, whore.

request: Mention Julian twice.

Julian. Julian.

fallenslayer @ 2005-01-05T22:43:00

2005-01-06T03:43:27Z

So uh, my total apologies to americus_ for taking SO FUCKING LONG ON THIS. This was my own ficathon, people. *rolls eyes at self*

01. Name/LJ username: Becky/americus_
02. Up to two other characters (besides Cordy) - optional:Angel
03. 1-3 Requirements: stuck in the school's basement,Cosmo Quizzes,Pure Fluff!
04. 1-3 Restrictions: nothing bad happening or Angst

SO UH. Cordy and Angel. S3 of Buffy. Stuck in the School basement with a Cosmo. Wackiness ensues?

"What does it look like, Cordelia?" Angel whispered as he walked stealthily down the stairs of the Sunnydale High basement.

"It looks like a...like a," She snapped her fingers as she tried to think of the words.

"A what?!" Angel asked in an impatient whisper.

"Like a little bear! With tentacles." She remembered. Angel's face twisted as he tried to imagine it.

Cordelia hesitated as they descended deeper and deeper into the basement. The last thing she wanted to do was be any closer to the hellmouth than she had to be. The school was also very much deserted
by then, adding to Cordelia's feeling of terror.

"Are you sure it came down here? Im not really sensing anything." Angel said.

And almost the second he finished speaking, the heavy metal door behind them slammed shut, locking itself automatically.

Cordelia screamed and clung to Angel's side as they were enveloped in complete darkness.

********

"Found it!" Cordy yelled to Angel, pulling the long string that hung from the roof. The room was suddenly flooded with light.

Angel took a step back and shielded himself from the bright light with his hands.

"Relax Michael Jackson, its not sunlight." Cordy said as she sat down on a blue crate.

"We need to think of a way to get out of here. Are there any other entrances to the basement?" Angel paced back and forth as he thought.

"How should I know?" Cordelia scoffed as she looked through her Prada bag.

"Because you go to school here." Angel told her.

"Can't you just..." Cordelia said as she waved her fists in the air.

"Might take some time, " He answered as he thought about actually punching his way through the thick, metal....On second thought. "Maybe we should just wait for help?"

"Are you crazy? Im not gonna sit here and start looking like your next meal" Cordy argued.

"That's not going to happen."

"Oh please. You would so bite me if you still bit people" Cordelia said.

"This is ridiculous" Angel stated before finally sitting down.

"Well, its true" Cordy said, flipping through her Cosmopolitan magazine.

Angel looked over at her when he heard pages turning.

"What's that?" He asked.

She looked at him in disbelief. "Its a magazine" Cordelia held it up for him to see and he snatched it from her.

Angel flipped through it for a few minutes. He cringed, held it sideways a few times, and scoffed as he scoured the pages.

He pointed to a page and looked over at Cordelia "How would a girl get into - how could she-"

"Alright! Lets find something else to look at," Cordy said, a little disturbed, as she took back her magazine.

********

"Your boyfriend surprises you with a romantic-" Cordy started.

"I dont have a boyfriend." Angel said.

"Whatever then. Girlfriend. Your girlfriend surprises you with a romantic dinner on the same night you have big plans with your friends. Do you: A, Cancel on your friends, even though you know they
will be mad; B, Try and fit them in on the same night; C, Tell your girlfriend another night."

"Thats a rididulous question."

"Um, why?" Cordy asked.

"Because I-" Angel started

"Dont have a girlfriend or friends?" Cordy finished for him.

"I have plenty of fr-"

"Its okay...I dont either." Cordelia said, having a rare moment of honesty with him and herself.

They sat together in silence for a few moments, a new level of comfort settling in between them.

"Anyway.." Cordy started, flipping to a new page.

"This," She pointed at the page "looks like fun."

Angel buried his head in his hands. "What."

"What kind of kisser are you?" She asked herself in an unnecessarily loud voice.

He studied her for a few minutes as she asked the questions outloud and said 'that is sooo not me' numerous times.

What the hell.

"Let me see that." He said, taking the magazine away from her again.

"Hey! I was almost finished!" She whined. And pouted.

He smiled.

*********

"You are a," Cordelia laughed as she read Angel's results "Soulful Kisser."

"W-what? It says that?" He asked, grabbing the magazine.

"Soulful Kisser: You never kiss someone for the hell of it. If it doesnt mean something to you, its not worth it. Your ideal matches would be the Passionate Kisser and another Soulful Kisser like yourself." Angel
said slowly.

"Gee. What a surprise." Cordelia rolled her eyes. "What does mine say?!" She took it back and read her results aloud, face just inches away from the page.

"You are a....Confident kisser. You know when someone wants it and you arent afraid to make the first move because you know you're a pro. Ideal matches are a Sensual Kisser and a Passionate
Kisser.

She smiled to herself. "That sounds about right."

Angel scoffed at her "You cant be serious... these quizzes dont really mean anything."

"Yeah?" She challenged.

Angel raised an eyebrow. A very curious eyebrow.

Cordelia walked the few steps toward him and got right in his face. She looked him straight in the eye as pressed her lips against his softly.

He didnt respond.

Awkward. Awkward. Awkward.Awkward. Confidence waning. Awkward. Awkward. Awk-hey wait a minute.

He parted his lips incredibly slowly, giving her permission to continue.

She moved her hand behind his head and tried to make a bit more of the extremely gentle and silent kiss. He responded this time, only slightly.

Is he kissing back? Holy crap, is he kissing me back?!?!?!

And then the heavy metal door swung open, causing both Cordy and Angel to jump away from eachother.

And then they heard footsteps.

It was Buffy. Of all the people in the world it could have been, it was Buffy.

Angel wiped the evidence of her kiss off of his mouth with the back of his hand, but the throbbing of his lips remained. By the time Buffy got down the stairs, It was as if nothing had happened.

She was taken aback at the sight of him, having lost contact since their breakup a few days earlier. She called out to him instinctively, wistfully, "Angel..."

"Buffy.." he said, taking a tentative step toward her and squinting slightly.

Cordy rolled her eyes once again and pointed at herself. "Cordelia. Im glad we all showed up to kindergarden on get to know eachother day." She was back to her normal self, fueled slightly by jealousy but
more so by general annoyance.

Buffy looked from Angel to Cordelia."What are you two doing down here?"

"We uh...We were hunting this- this tentacle demon an-and-and the door shut behind us an-" He rambled.

"What about you, Buffy? What are you doing down here?" Cordelia asked.

"Same reason, actually. Im hunting the, um, tentacle demon and all the evidence, well, actually, blood, led me down here."

Cordy looked at Angel smugly with the -Itoldyouitcamedownhere- look.

And then there was a loud bang and clatter and crash coming from up above. Buffy immediately ran to it.

Cordelia and Angel looked at each other for a moment. She half-smiled and grabbed her purse, leaving without saying a word.

He watched her go, walking with poise and grace. Venom and elegance.

The magazine, now on the floor, was left behind. He picked it up and turned to the quiz they had taken minutes before.

"Soulful Kisser". He thought to himself,"That sounds about right."