. send in the rain today.
I had these crazy frightening dreams last night. It all started with me being pregnant, and for some reason someone was forcing me to get an abortion. So to do this, they were torturing me. I was being attacked by this tall, creepy man (whom of which I can't recall the face). I could see the child in me, the body, and it had blond hair; it was like a mini toddler instead of a true newborn (and she was perfectly clean, not slimy with inside stuff). I could picture her inside me getting hurt as I was being tortured. And the strange thing, we were in a store, a dept. type store, and we were in a dark area (like the store was closed) near the toy section. (So many of my dreams take places inside stores, and it's always something weird.) So at one point he looked away and I just took off into the toy aisles. I was so, so afraid, but he yelled and came after me, so I took a right into the bathroom area (which interestingly enough, was a huge bathroom with many stalls, all grey, and there were signs saying how is was a mutual bathroom for boys and girls) and I ran through looking for an empty stall (guys were walking out of some that i dodged) and I finally reached one and slammed the door shut, terrified outta my mind. The Creepy Guy came to stand outside my door in a menacing way and I just yelled at him desperately saying that I just had to pee, let me alone, I just needed the restroom, i wasn't running away, really. (Why am I such a coward? I should have run to the front of the store and tried to get out of there. Though, I suppose I'm a large pregnant woman...but still. Coward. I pray that in real life I would do whatever I could to get away.) So he waited for me, and I remember my child bleeding inside of me, all bloody.
Then things changed. I'm not sure how to explain this, but the dynamics changed and a guy was now being tortured, but he was doing it to save his g/f who didnt know she was pregnant? or some such. I just remember this scene where the young guy was on a dock outside in the dark that was on a huge body of murky water (and yet are still in the dept store scene, but this was like a doorway opened into this hellish scene) and he was being electrocuted by Creepy Guy, and then was being tossed into the water.
Then, there was more to the scene. A part of the dept store changed into, well, everything had the same dark yellowish orange light as in the murkey water area, but it was like part of a house, and there was a party or something going on, but it was all still sinister. But now there were kids, and I was there taking care of them with a few other people my age. And there was this game thing where each got to be a different super-hero or villian, and they got to dress up as them. So the first kid was Silver Surfer, and the next was Toad from the Brotherhood of Mutants. And we were trying to take pictures of them, but then my camera died and we needed batteries for it, so then this search pursued for batteries, but quietly, so that Creepy Guy didn't know what we were doing. Because he could show up at any moment and we weren't supposed to be taking batteries. (we were searching in drawers of a kitchen) And then the Silver Surfer kid was complaining about how he was injured, his shoulder was misplaced and it he was in great pain because the Creepy Guy had tortured him. And the guy I was searching with looked at me and we were like, "this cannot go on". So we were gonna do something about it.
And then I think I woke up and the dream that I had next still had a weird vibe but it wasnt the same story line. In that one, I was in this small basement like room with a bunch of couples (i think Loryn and Alfred were there) and I was with this guy, some plain guy with really light blond hair, and a pale face with rosy cheeks. And we were laying together on a couch, but something weird was going on, and, stuff was being said that didn't make sense, and suddenly we all went into the living room area and I was being given these really hideous clothes as gifts and I had to pretend that they were fantastic (though they were old and ikcy) and my b/f was just like, (for a really grungy white top) that's BEAUTIFUL! I can't wait till you wear that, because you always wear black. And I'm like, what? I wear tons of colors! I hardly wear black. Pssh. And...it was just all weird vibey. But, hey, I had someone to cuddle with for a while, so it can't be all bad.
Really, the first dream unsettled me, because of all the torture going on. WtH? creepy.