xo

expatiates — Fri, 19 Aug 2011 16:17:35 GMT

HI LJ I AM IN YOU.

mostly i post on lj anymore to complain about stuff that i can't complain about elsewhere. so like let me just get it out of the way that i have recently wanted to cut ties with (different) people elsewhere on the internet for saying harry potter is "boring" and for snottily telling me that they tried parks and rec and it was "um. not for [them]." those things are forgivable if you're my actual friend but not if you're just a twitter/tumblr acquaintance. people are also sometimes wrong on the internet about darren criss and/or chris colfer (i am pro-them both pretty hard) but that offends me less. :P

true blood is pretty enjoyable lately. bill and sookie are both MUCH more entertaining while apart, skarsgard is naked, pam is flawless, etc etc. still wish they'd get rid of tara; this shit feels like a retread of her with michelle forbes, tagging along, being a dumbass. at least that time she was under a spell.

saw the glee movie with alex and tirtzah and alison. it was so goddamn cheesy and i obviously loved it. mini-warbler!!!

billy was baptized a few weeks ago. did you know baptisms include a quick exorcism? i did not but i'm pleased to report that my baby is officially demon-free. lori and tirtzah and alex and alison all came along with some relatives and family friends of scott's fam (we had it at his parents' church in scranton) and it was a rockin' good time.

i was going to post some pics of billy but my lj app is being a whore and i don't think it's going to let me. :x if you want to see him you can always look at my baby blog on tumblr here. he looks pretty awesome.

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the north remembers.

expatiates — Sun, 17 Jul 2011 21:03:08 GMT

first of all, i saw deathly hallows yesterday with lori and it was awesome. i think overall i actually liked part 1 slightly more, but i thought part 2 was very well done. can't believe it's over. as soon as it ended i said "uh, now what?" :( also i don't hate ginny but a) the chemistry between danrad & bonnie is like non-existent, and b) the chemistry between danrad & evanna is super delicious, so pretty much harry/luna 4eva. ♥

billy was pretty excited about the movie but decided he'd wait for dvd to see it.

in even geekier news, i read a dance with dragons so

i guess i'll divide this by character?

dany: i'm an unrepentant dany stan, but this book was the first time i wasn't especially into her storyline. i hated that she married that dude (tho i understand why she did), i didn't really get the daario thing, and i hated that she had her dragons chained up underground. i also didn't really like her ending; so she's in a faceoff with some random dothrakis? do we know the khal? eh. that being said, my favorite scene in the entire book (minus possibly one other one) was when drogon re-appeared. her being all fucking alpha dragon and screaming at him and then flying the fuck out of there had me screaming in joy. bad.ass!

tyrion: didn't love his storyline either, but there were things i liked. the bridge with the stone men will be awesome/scary on tv if we get that far. i love that he's with jorah now. penny is darling and so she'll probably die soon. i had it in my head that young griff was edric storm, then realized he was too old. loved that aegon survived. love that he seems to be so much like rhaegar. (love that jon connington had such an obvious giant mancrush on rhaegar, too.) don't care where whores go, but if we don't eventually see tysha after all this talk about her i'll be annoyed. also: who is septa lemore really?

jon snow: first of all, no way he's actually dead. not sure what will happen, but srsly, no way he's dead. i enjoyed some of his stuff (the wildlings, especially val!, alys karstark, dolorous edd, jon's increasing warginess) but i hated that he sent away all of his friends. and i think i started glazing over at some points because i'm not sure why he was so obsessed with rescuing those people from hardhome or whatever it was called. oh, but him hanging janos slynt was basically orgasmic.

barristan the bamf: i love him! i did already and his POV stuff just kept the love going. the little tidbit about ashara dayne was interesting. mostly i dread his eventual death (because he's too much of a good guy to live, plus he's old-ish) very hard. i hope when he does bite the dust it's heroic. none of the major characters (except maybe syrio, assuming he's dead, or maybe the red viper, but neither of them were really major anyway) have gone out in a blaze of glory. ned, cat, robb, drogo, robert, etc etc. when barristan dies he'd better take a dozen freys/lannisters/whatever down with him.

quentyn: speaking of shitty deaths! i didn't really think his plan with the dragons stood a chance, but i was sad that he died so soon; i found him charming. plus i am just generally fond of the dornish so i wanted to see that alliance come together. and from more of an external perspective, unless drink or the big dude are going to be big characters in TWOW, it seems like his storyline was kind of pointless tbh. kind of wondering if he was the meereenese knot grrm struggled with, and he eventually just said "fuck it, i'll kill him off." :/

dorne: is areo the only actual POV we got from dorne? i think it was just that one chapter. anyway, very very excited that the sand snakes are being released into the wild, so to speak. i hope we get POVs from some or all of them in the next book, especially nymeria. i can't wait 'till the martells find out aegon is alive.

jaime: i don't remember anything in his chapter other than brienne's brief appearance, tbh. i hope she has a plan and isn't actually planning to just lead jaime into a trap. i can't imagine she'd do that but who knows? the only other jaime thing of interest to me is that he ignored cersei's letter, which pleases me because she's awful and jaime is awesome and the jaime/cersei shippers who swore he'd go to her were wrongggg! mwahaha. don't die in TWOW please jaime, kthx.

cersei: eh. still mostly hate her. lots of people seem to have important feminist feelings about her walk of atonement but considering the general craziness of the faith i didn't think it was particularly shocking or out of left field, idk. also, i love tommen and his kittens.

reek/theon: loooved his chapters. ramsay is a scary nasty mothefucker. theon is still horrible for taking down winterfell, but he was always vaguely pathetic and the shit he went through at ramsay's hands helps make up for it. fucking loved that fake arya was jeyne poole, i can't believe grrm brought her back! too bad she hasn't appeared on the tv show; i wonder if they'll try and work her into next season. it doesn't really matter that it's someone we know, tho, so they may not bother. i love that theon helped her escape. i'd love it if somehow he and jon teamed up to avenge robb but it'll never happen. anyway, i like how the chapter names -- as well as the text itself -- showed reek slowly becoming theon again. i hope alfie allen is a good enough actor to pull this off if we get 6 seasons or whatever.

asha: is still pretty awesome. glad to see she's been reunited with theon. the stuff with stannis (who's not dead, i think ramsay lied) and the snowstorm was fucking awful.

victarion: ooh, wow, don't care.

arya: baby bamf! looooved her chapters. the faceless man stuff is fascinating to me. i keep waiting for her to meet up with jaqen again, but in the meantime i'm loving her training. i wonder what major character she'll eventually end up being sent to assassinate. also, i wonder how they'll do this for the tv show...i can't imagine them recasting maisie. maybe they could do like they did with george on dead like me when she saw her family; we generally see her as herself and only see her looking different when she's viewed through someone else's eyes or in a mirror, etc.

bran: i usually find his stuff boring (tho i love meera reed!) but the children of the forest and him learning to be a greenseer was kind of cool. i assume when theon was in the godswood and heard bran's name it's because bran was in the tree or whatever the hell goes on. pretty sure warging into hodor is a no-no so i'm interested to see if he gets in trouble from his tree teacher dude. also coldhands is still defs benjen, right?

davos: glad he's alive and going to find -- i think? -- rickon. the manderly fam is pretty fucking rad, especially wylla, omg. ♥ also i missed that there was frey pie, WHOOPS. also: vom.

melisandre: i liked getting her POV. i like that she seems well-meaning. i really like that she kept davos's other son with her for his safety. is mel/jon going to be a thing?

the prologue: was kind of awesome. i didn't really recall having heard about varamyr before but i found him fascinating.

the epilogue: had me screaming!!! i wouldn't call varys one of my favorite characters, but i've always thought he was by far one of the most interesting, so his extremely fucking badass reappearance at the end made me super-happy, especially after the end of dany's last chapter had left me so underwhelmed. shit in KL is getting so real!!!

other things:
- so the heads of the dragon will presumably be dany/aegon/jon (because R + L still = J)? i back it. also: threesome!? :P

- very much dnw zombie!gregor, ack. D:

- the hound was mentioned several times for no real reason. i take this as further proof that he's alive, and that grrm wants to make sure we haven't forgotten about him.

- i kind of missed sansa.

- i never figure this shit out, but i knew that abel was mance instantly and i was shocked when i saw some people talking about that being a cool surprise. srsly?

- i remain convinced that the real horn of winter is the one jon gave to sam.

- wild-ass theory: there's going to be a plague and it's going to kill a fuckton of people, leaving shireen one of the few survivors...and the eventual queen.

- i want to know how loras is doing.

- it'd better not be six years 'till the next one.

also, about the tv show: love the brienne casting. happy peter dinklage got his emmy nod. if maggie smith doesn't play the queen of thorns, it'll wake the dragon.

i only have 6 icons. :/

expatiates — Tue, 05 Jul 2011 20:12:10 GMT

HI LIVEJOURNAL, I AM BAD AT YOU!

my paid account expired. i am torn between wanting to re-up it (icons!) or just kind of shrugging. i hate that i post so infrequently, but between the allure of other platforms and the time constraints of having a bb, i just don't know if i'm ever going to get better. :/

whatever. billy is napping so i'm gonna post some pics of him and then talk about hbo television shows, what up.

i've already posted these on tumblr so if you're on there you've seen them.

this was taken today! we are both very excited for SOA to return this fall

b's first fourth of july

stroller & the city

b-b-b-billy and the jets

admiring my badass watermelon nails

happiest dude

i loved season one of game of thrones. dany in particular. ♥ almost everything has been perfect. however, as a hound fangirl, i'm really disappointed how much they minimized his role. i really, really hope to see more of him next year. i imagine we will, since sansa won't have many people to talk with at court. and i know GRRM is writing the episode w/ the battle of the blackwater, which gives me hope that a certain scene will occur, which will need to have some buildup over the season, so. here's hoping. i do think rory mccann has done very well with the little he's been given so far. lena headey i could do without, tbh. everyone else has been fabulous and i was especially impressed by sophie turner in the finale. jason momoa is hotter than everyone, the end.

oh, speaking of being hotter than everyone: alexander skarsgard! true blood is back. why is it so dumb? there was a time when it was actually good. i know there must've been times since, but the last time i remember it being legitimately good was the episode when godric met the sun. anyway, the fairy stuff is embarrassing and i hope we don't see much more of it this season. also, was gary cole supposed to be a replacement for niall, or...? sam's storyline: meh (tho the idea of shifting into another human is chekhov's gun, yes?). tara: meh. arlene and terry: dumb but i love terry. jason: blargh. jess and hoyt: upsetting but interesting. bill as king: i'm undecided. pam: always flawless. laffy and jesus: reserving judgment, but i hate that marnie is so mousy; in the books marnie/hallow was scary and tough and badass. or were the weird flashes of her as someone else when she was putting the whammy on eric her ~true form~?

which brings me to me real complaint: in the books, marnie put the spell on eric because he pissed her off, and he was pretty much blameless in the whole thing. i hate that on the show they had to have eric being scary and violent and presumably about to bite tara. i know alan ball is a hardcore bill fan but jfc, dude, does eric have to be BAAAAAD at every turn? i loved book 4 and i have a feeling that S4 will not play out in a similar fashion, and it makes me sad/annoyed. i predict eric will have amnesia for like 2 episodes, will probably do some unseemly shit to sookie in the meantime, and then will leave her to be eaten by those gross hotshot panthers until bill swoops and in saves her and bill and sookie have tearful reunion sex and i barf. UM I GUESS I HAVE A LOT OF FEELINGS ABOUT TRUE BLOOD. :x

uh. that's all? shit, i forgot how to write lj entries.

you win or you die.

expatiates — Fri, 03 Jun 2011 14:37:50 GMT

billy (who is amazing, fyi) is chilling right now so imma ramble about game of thrones, okay? spoilers, obvs.

my thoughts are too random for this to have any sort of flow, so here come some bullet points.

• harry lloyd absolutely KILLED IT as viserys. in the books, he was just completely vile, but on the show he was both vile and somehow kind of sympathetic, and i give a lot of credit to harry. dudes named harry are clearly magical (see also shum & potter). obvs they couldn't have decided not to kill him, but i was sad to see the end of him, if only for harry's incredible performance. his death scene was fantastic tho!

• actually, everyone in essos is fabulous. emilia clarke is flawless as dany, obvs, and jason momoa is not only SMOKING HOT but is also rocking it as drogo. dany/drogo was an otp for me in the books and is even moreso on the show, despite the absolute travesty that the show made of their wedding night. also in essos: jorah is way more attractive than i imagined, but i adore him. and rakharo can get it, but isn't it supposed to be jhogo with the whip?

• also: shouldn't dany look a little bit pregnant by now?

• mark addy was terrific as robert. i'll miss him.

• the amount of screentime not being given to the hound is bumming me out tremendously. ros (roz?) is super hot but i'd really rather have some lines for rory mccann instead of seeing her tits AGAIN. i'm still incredibly disappointed that they had littlefinger tell sansa how the hound got his burns. :( also, the fight between the clegane brothers was badass and beautifully choreographed (sandor instantly taking a knee at the king's command!!) but i randomly hated that it took place in silence. i wanted chaos and people screaming, dammit!

• sean bean is awesome. the end.

• so is peter dinklage. and bronn, too, tho i always imagined him as kind of dashing and sexy and the actor is neither. oh well.

• they must really like alfie allen, huh? theon gets more screentime than the stark boys. he's actually perfectly cast, imo, but i could do with less of him right now.

• tonks as osha is nothing like i imagined her but i'm enjoying her a lot anyway.

• SYRIO FOREL!!! :D love him. and he made me even more excited to eventually meet
my other fave ~exotic dudes, jaqen and the red viper.

• everything at the wall is fab. jon and sam are the cutest brotp!! and the old bear is EXACTLY how i imagined him.

• ahahaha renly and loras. adore!! i like that they decided to totally abandon the subtlety of those two in the books and make them suuuuuper gay. also i love that loras is sort of lady macbeth-ing it. or whatever. you know what i mean. also: blowjob! \o/

• i'm excited for grrm's ep this week! :D (i am also dreading it, based on events which presume will be occurring.)

• how are there only 3 eps left?!?!? SADNESS. but i am already excited for S2! bring on the maid of tarth!!! ♥

• cannot wait to see the reactions from the unspoiled audience on upcoming events, as shit gets infinitely more real.

• also cannot wait to see the final scene from the book, about which i will not say any more because: spoilers!

in other hbo news, i have time warner cable, which means i do not yet have access to hbo go, which means i am in a perpetual state of rage. also, i'm cautiously psyched for true blood. book 4 was my favorite of the series so i hope they don't fuck it up TOO badly.

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you know nothing, jon snow.

expatiates — Mon, 25 Apr 2011 20:07:00 GMT

i want to talk about game of thrones so let's do that. mostly i'm rambling about how well characters/scenes made it from page to screen.

JON SNOW: is my boo. kit is flawless. his face! ugh. i'd like to see more of ghost tho!

ARYA: also perfect. the arya/jon/needle scene was love. also all arya/nymeria. ♥ :(

DANY: heart! i hate the changes from the book to her wedding night (the sex was consensual in the book, for one thing), but mostly i think she's being written well, and emilia is rocking it. also: she's so pretty! *___*

NED: of all the characters from the books, ned is the most how i imagined him...but that could be because i knew sean bean was playing him when i was reading. either way, i like that they've lightened him up a tiny bit from the books (if you can believe that). the scene with lady was just awful/perfect. ;___; and the way he delivered the line "is this your command...your grace?" made me want to throw my fist in the air or something.

other actors/casting i especially like so far: cat, robert, jaime, jorah. oh, and harry lloyd is killing it as viserys.

i adore tyrion and peter dinklage, but his accent is bothering me. i read that it evens out a little further into the season. i hope so!

speaking of accents: richard madden (robb), what are you doing? your scottish is showing, bb. it was really obvious when robb & jon were saying their goodbyes. (which: *tears*)

i hate joffrey the character and i hate the actor. he's the only one i think is just awful.

i really like what little we've seen of the hound so far but i'm reserving judgement until he gets to do a little more. he's possibly my favorite character in the books so i hope so hard they get him right!

excited for: varys, renly, barristan the bold, and the knight of flowers to show up. oh and littlefinger! omg and sam!

uh. that's it for now. also, i don't want to spoil, but for people who've read the books, isn't the show just full of TROLOLOLOL? knowing about future things makes me cringe at current things all. the. time. /o\

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billy boy! <3 <3 <3

expatiates — Sun, 03 Apr 2011 20:27:04 GMT

introducing mr. william mako fusaro!
3/25/11, 7:14 a.m., 7lb13oz, 19.7 inches long

so, i went to bed at around 11:15 the night before my due date feeling like there was no way i'd be having a baby soon. i just felt much too normal, y'know? i'd watched american idol and written my recap. i knew i was due the next day, but i figured i still had a few days to go, especially with what you hear about first babies usually coming a little late.

well, 15 minutes later my water broke dramatically all over my bed. uh, okay! i always assumed i'd start having contractions before my water broke, so i wasn't entirely sure what to do, ha. i called the hospital and the doctor on call said i could wait at home or come in then, but i should definitely come in within the next 3-4 hours.

i wasn't feeling any contractions yet, so i figured i'd chill at home for a while. my mom and scott were both freaking out a little, but i felt pretty calm. i took a quick shower and when i was getting out i felt what i thought was my first contraction. it was a little uncomfortable, but no big deal, and i still figured i'd wait to go to the hospital.

well, i quickly realized that my contractions were already coming about five minutes apart, so we decided to go ahead and head out to the hospital. we arrived around 1 a.m. and went to check in to L&D. they kept me waiting for what seemed like forever as my contractions started getting closer/stronger, and finally took me into triage. scott came with me while my mom had to wait in the reception area.

i felt like i was in triage for 100000 years, altho it was more like an hour, maybe 90 minutes. my contractions were coming pretty hard by then, about 2 and a half minutes apart maybe. i was in a lot of pain and making scott harass people about hurrying up so i could get an epidural. they finally started my IV fluids and a doctor checked my cervix and found me at 5 cm.

i got admitted and moved into a room then, and was told i'd be getting my epidural shortly. contractions continued to suck royally. then...my blood pressure was high and i was told i'd have to wait to get some labs back before i got the epi. i was like "no shit my blood pressure's high, i'm in BLINDING PAIN."

and so this is the moment where i will give insane amounts of respect to any woman who gives birth naturally. if i hadn't gotten that epidural when i did, i might have thrown myself out the window. i was really scared of labor going into it and honestly it was worse than i expected. :( this is by no means to say it wasn't worth it -- billy is so amazing that i'd do it again in a heartbeat if i had to, but still...i did not find labor or birth to be in any way magical or beautiful, ngl. billy however is both those things. <3

anyway, i finally, FINALLY got the epi at around 4 a.m. and it was a goddamn miracle. i could still feel pressure from contractions but the pain was gone! it was the most incredible relief i'd ever felt in my life. the only downside was it gave me the shakes like whoa, but i didn't care, it was 100% worth it. i will never, ever want to have a baby without it, lol.

shortly afterward, i got another cervical check and i was fully dilated! the doctor said i could just start pushing then or give it a little while, so i asked if i could have some time just to relax a little bit and wrap my head around everything. the plan was for me to start pushing in an hour. i asked if i could get a little extra local anesthesia in the lady parts just to be safe but i think they thought i was kidding? idk. i wasn't. in any event, i said that while i wasn't in pain i could definitely feel pressure and the nurse suggested i go ahead and start pushing.

i pushed for two hours, with a nurse on one leg and scott on the other, with my mom pushing up my shoulders each time. pushing was exhausting, wow. not painful, tho, at least. finally, his head was right about to come out and the nurse called the doctor to the room. i remember the doctor getting her gloves on and feeling like i'd die if i didn't push, so i was like "can i push?!?!? can i push?!?!" (i guess i was afraid he'd pop out before she could catch him? idk) and they said yes, so i started pushing again.

i have no idea how much worse it would've been without the epidural, but those last 5-10 minutes (or however long it was) to get him out HURT!!!! i had been pretty cool throughout the labor, i think, but for the end i was the crazy screaming pregnant lady. :( he finally got his little head out and the cord was around his neck, so scott didn't get to cut it, but he was fine. the doctor told me to look down and see my son being born and i leaned up slightly but couldn't see him at first, so i was like "i can't see! it's fine! get him out!" lol. but she was insistent and so i leaned up a little further and saw him!! i think it took about one more push to get his shoulders out and there he was! they put him on my stomach and i said "oh my god, he's real!" <3 because, like, you objectively know there's a baby in there, but actually seeing him was kind of shocking. he looked pretty good -- not too squished or pointy-headed, hee. his apgars were 9 & 9!

while i got stitched up (three small tears) they cleaned him up a bit, and then let me hold him for a while, and then he got taken down to the nursery to get checked out and a bath and whatnot. my blood pressure and pulse were both really high, so they kept me in my L&D room for a few hours after, so i didn't end up getting to see him again for like 3 hours, which i haaaated. i wanted a hospital delivery because i wanted pain relief, but i really wish things had been just a little more crunchy. my hospital was not as baby-friendly (a term i got from our pediatrician, who i like a lot) as i would've liked.

which leads me into my hospital stay, which i did not enjoy. the nurses were mostly nice, but i needed more help with the baby than i was getting. i was so sore and tired and i needed more support, especially at night, because they kicked out scott at 10 p.m. so it was just me and the baby, and i was trying to breastfeed but nobody was helping me, etc etc wah wah wah.

blah, whatever, i'm not going to weigh down the birth story of my little man with a bunch of whining about our hospital stay. it blew, but it's over and we're home and things are looking way up. we had a rocky start with breastfeeding, as i mentioned, but i had a visit from a lactation consultant on friday night and she showed me how to get him latched on properly, so once my poor nipples heal up (they are so shredded right now, oy -- i keep joking that we named him appropriately; his middle name, mako, is a species of shark) we'll be rocking. i'm tired, but not as dead as i thought i'd be, and billy is so sweet and cute and cuddly and i'm madly in love. he was a surprise baby (i won't call him an accident) and i was a little uncertain about becoming a mom, but it's kind of my favorite thing ever. <3

okay, now for the important part: PICS!!!
love at first sight!

ready to head home from the hospital.

yawn.

perfect face.

extreme closeup.

happy getting snuggles from daddy.

tiny hand.

sweet hangs with mom.

SO EXCITED TO BE ONE WEEK OLD!!!!!

he's here!!!

expatiates — Fri, 25 Mar 2011 13:48:32 GMT

william mako was born at 7:14 this morning, on his due date! my water broke at 11:30 last night, we got to the hospital around 1, epi around 4, started pushing around 5:35, and there he was!! :D labor was uneventful but still mostly sucked, ha. but billy is here and super gorgeous, if i may say so myself.

more later! xoxo.

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KNOPE 4 PRESIDENT.

expatiates — Mon, 07 Mar 2011 17:00:41 GMT

fandom march madness is bumming me out, yo.

barney stinson over kelly kapoor? FALSE.
neal caffrey over sydney bristow? FALSE. (i'm still pissed he beat raylan givens tbh)

ANYONE (BUT SPECIFICALLY, CHANDLER) OVER LESLIE KNOPE? HUGE FUCKING FAAAAALSE.

fandom, i am disappoint.

when you play the game of thrones, you win or you die. there is no middle ground.

expatiates — Mon, 17 Jan 2011 16:31:14 GMT

EVERYONE will be watching this, right? right?!?!

UGH APRIL 17, GET IN MY LIFE!

hi lj.

expatiates — Mon, 03 Jan 2011 22:06:33 GMT

i'm mostly just posting so my 2010 concert list (which petered out quite a bit after i found out i was knocked up, sigh) will stop being my most recent post.

christmas was great. i went down to my mom's and scott joined us, and we soaked up the warm weather and the peacefulness of the keys. we missed snowpocalypse altho the streets here (or the curbs, at least) are still kind of a mess. we then headed to his parents' house in scranton to ring in the new year. it was a rockin' eve indeed.

i'm 28 weeks and a couple of days pregnant. check this out!

i know it's a baby and whatever but man do i feel fat!

everything is progressing along fine with the bb. :D also, i don't think i posted here but his name is william (billy) blade. william for my dad, blade because it's awesome. as is he. probably, anyway. if nothing else he'll be well-dressed, i can't believe how much stuff we already have for him. to say my mom is psyched would be a massive understatement.

i'm feeling unbelievably lazy but i'm going to hoist myself off the couch and do the prenatal pilates video i just bought. i didn't kill myself to lose 50+ pounds just to gain it all back!

hope things are going okay for you, darlings. i'm sorry i'm so shitty at livejournal. i should work on that. in the meantime you can always find me on twitter (pokertrace) and on tumblr (tracybegins for regular stuff, storkattack for baby updates).

xoxoxo

oh! also! david cook! he lives! his face! etc etc!

in starlit nights i saw you.

expatiates — Fri, 10 Dec 2010 05:48:02 GMT

so apparently i am invested in simon/alisha beyond just enjoying the naked iwan rheon -- i spent the entire episode wanting jessica to get her hands off alisha's man. lol. /o\

please and thanks.

expatiates — Fri, 10 Dec 2010 03:39:51 GMT

HAI LJ!

if you have a second, do me a favor? go "like" this page on facebook and leave a comment on their wall (not as a reply to a status but specifically as a post on their wall) with my friend's name -- jovi sarmiento. i am determined for her to win this shit.

thanks and ilu lj. xoxo

also, tonight's community was flawless but you probably knew that.

hey hey, my my.

expatiates — Wed, 01 Dec 2010 19:39:35 GMT

OKAY SO LET'S TALK SONS OF ANARCHY.

i feel like i have to start this off with a disclaimer of sorts? unlike most other people i know, i had no problem with season 3. i was entertained throughout and really that's all i need. maybe that makes me an unsophisticated viewer but whatever, i was perfectly satisfied with most of the season. my only real complaint is that i'm not 100% sure i understood the reasoning behind all the stuff with the irish, mostly because i couldn't understand half of what those fuckers said. but honestly, i don't care! so, that being said, finale!

01. i loved it, for starters.

02. lots of people have been bothered over various things with jax & tara this season. as usual, i am not among them. i think all of their actions over the season, even when they've been irrational, have made sense for their characters, so i'm cool. i love them and i'm glad they're back on track, and i don't care that we didn't get a scene of jax groveling and tara making him beg for forgiveness or whatever. the stakes have been too high for those kind of dramatics, imo.

03. i hope the baby's a girl. just because jax and a little girl = cutest!

04. chibs killing jimmy o was fucking AWESOME. when he whipped out those knives i was like "fuck yesssssss!!!" in my living room.

05. but opie with stahl was even better. ryan hurst is just outstanding. he was scary and sad and triumphant and resigned and just...!!! so good. and goddamn but stahl had that coming. when she told the club that jax made a deal i wanted to lunge through my tv at her.

06. sooooo pleased that the club was in on jax's "deal" all along. i LOVE twist endings so i don't mind at all that the audience was deceived...the "ohmygod!" factor and the happiness that i felt at realizing the boys pulled off a hell of a long con totally canceled out any "kurt sutter, that's cheating!" feelings i might have had. (which i didn't, but i understand why some people would.)

07. i was really scared for unser at a couple of points and i'm so glad he's okay. i wonder what'll happen with him now? will he just be a friend of the club? i assume he still has his trucking business or whatever.

08. i'm also glad that kozik survived. i had/have no idea what the plan is for his character, but i've enjoyed him so much and i'd love to see him stick around. i hope he and tig can make up someday. they were totally bff before the missy incident, i bet. (which, i said this on twitter but the fact that their giant rift is OVER A DOG just makes my life. i love it, and frankly it makes much more sense tig-wise that it's a dog and not a woman.)

09. i really enjoy kurt sutter as otto. i think he has a very...sort of appealing presence on screen. it's hard to explain. he never plays otto like a real tough guy, and altho i know both otto and sutter are kind of volatile, he comes across as rather gentle and i just think it's interesting. otto would be one of my very favorite minor characters even if KS wasn't the showrunner.

10. the hamlet-ness with clay and gemma could be interesting, but i'm not sure yet. on the one hand, the inner tensions of the club/family always make for great tv. on the other hand, JT's death has been a big question mark since the series began, especially since the hamlet comparison has been there all along. so do they follow through with it? or is it a fakeout? and if it IS true, how the hell do they come back from that? i seem to recall that in hamlet just about everyone ends up dead. not much of a show if they kill all the characters. hmm.

11. so the only SAMCRO guys currently not incarcerated are chibs, opie and piney, right? (and kozik and the prospects are around, but not members.) i wonder what they'll be doing for the next 14 months or so. i can't imagine it being easy to run an MC with only 3 members. especially with no more unser (at least not as a cop) and with, presumably, hale as mayor. i guess it's a good thing that SAMCRO is (i think?) currently on decent terms with everyone (mayans, the irish, etc).

12. in conclusion: see #1. loved it!

maybe just a cigarette more.

expatiates — Tue, 16 Nov 2010 22:00:12 GMT

i know the entire world is like darren criss overload rn, but omg. *_______*

chris colfer & darren criss // baby, it's cold outside

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

you're my future love.

expatiates — Mon, 08 Nov 2010 21:07:46 GMT

01. i went for a sonogram today, lj, and i have news! like god, i (and scott) have created man. IT'S A LIL DUDE! i was hoping for a girl but i'm over it; he's gonna be badass. obviously. BECAUSE HIS PARENTS ARE FEROCIOUS, YO. XD

currently he looks like this. which is not all that different than how he looked last time, but nonetheless, there he is!

the tech actually printed out a pic of his junk with a little arrow pointing to it that says "BOY" which i almost posted because that's hilarious, but it's too dark to actually see anything, plus i'd feel guilty for embarrassing him BEFORE HE'S EVEN BORN him by blogging his little fetal penis. so, you guys will just have to take my word for it. :P

we don't have a name for him yet. we'd settled on a girl name we both liked, but hadn't reached a firm decision on a boy name, naturally. we've been calling him/her blade for over a month now (we saw it on a list of baby names and thought it was funny), so we're sticking with that until we come up with a real name. i'm actually tempted to make blade his middle name, tho, ngl. i've sort of grown attached to it and come on, it's pretty fierce. even MY MOM is like "maybe you SHOULD make blade his middle name," lmao. for his first name, i plan to campaign for jack because uh...i like it. if not jack, probably william (billy) after my dad. or maybe robert after my mom's dad. or...maybe something else entirely. IDK!

02. also! we got married on 10/10/10. this is old news to a lot of you, probably, but if you missed it, now you know!

you can look at more pics here if you're so inclined.

baby love; my baby love.

expatiates — Thu, 07 Oct 2010 21:11:13 GMT

since i like dropping off huge life news in pictorial form:

premiering march 25, 2011 in new york city.

yup.

put a ring on it.

expatiates — Sun, 26 Sep 2010 14:54:57 GMT

in case you don't follow me on twitter, or you just missed it:

:D

more on this later! xo

i'm watching kevin arnold's wonder years.

expatiates — Tue, 21 Sep 2010 13:19:44 GMT

When you read this you're tagged! Take a picture of you in your current state, no changing your clothes or quickly putting on makeup. NO PHOTOSHOP. Show your F-List the Real You!

good morning!

i haven't made a real entry since may. whoops. i should start using lj more again. i love my twitter and tumblr, but i like having more of a record of my ~feelings and thoughts or whatever. also my dumb face, see above.

i saw ludo AND aziz ansari last week. best week ever? quite possibly.

how about some tv talk? always relevant, right?

this season of true blood was, overall, a big disappointment for me. while i enjoyed some of the earlier episodes quite a bit, it all lost steam for me about halfway through and the finale was just a complete letdown.

i realize the books this show is based on are by no means great literature, but i've honestly enjoyed almost all of them, and as someone who really, really liked club dead (the third book and the one this season was theoretically [but not actually] based on), i haaaaated how far the show strayed from the plot of the book. yes, there were elements of the story that made it to HBO, but so much of what i liked about club dead was missing. in the books, alcide is my second-favorite sookie suitor, so i hated seeing him reduced to such a bit part. in the books, sookie stakes lorena on her own, without any help from bill or anyone, and it's awesome. (then again, in the show, lorena is awesome, so when she gets staked it sucks.) in the books, club dead (lou pine's, on the show) isn't a dumb-ass trashy biker bar, it's a fairly normal bar that caters exclusively to supernatural creatures and is way more interesting for it. and claudine (who iirc doesn't actually show up until book 4) is fucking awesome in the books and fierce and sexy and passes for human. i imagined her being played by tricia helfer. she does not frolic around by a sparkly pool all the goddamn time.

and as someone who completely fangirlishly OTPs eric/sookie in the books, man, was this season a bummer. sure, they threw in some E/S on the show, but it always seemed forced, whereas by the end of book 3 they've had a few rather intimate moments and are just...ugh, so much better! :(

stuff i loved this season was mostly franklin (i know he was terrible but goddamn he was entertaining), russell, pretty much any scene of eric and pam together, and hoyt/jessica. otherwise, mostly meh. i hope tara never comes back. i hated jason's storyline. i didn't mind sam's stuff with his family but hated everything from his sawyer flashback/drunken rages on. blah blah a thousand times blah! i used to fangirl this show so hard!!!! :(

GET IT TOGETHER, ALAN BALL!!!

as for GOOD shows about vampires, goddamn do i love the vampire diaries!!!! caroline as a vampire makes me ridiculously happy -- they had better not fucking kill her like they do to every other vamp on the show whose last name isn't salvatore. >:O i want her and jessica from TB to have a show together where they're just adorable and awesome and bite people.

bonnie, on the other hand, can diaf. i don't know how much of it is the writing and how much is the actress (it's definitely a combination of both) but i cannot stand her sour little face and her constant "vampires are the worst! gtfo!" attitude. i understand that her grandmother died and it was because of vampires, and i understand that she's seen vamps (especially damon) do despicable things. i don't begrudge her feeling that way, and yet the way she expresses her feelings makes me want to punch her in the tit. stfu!

nina as elena/katherine is just fabulous. while i'm totally okay with elena/stefan, elena/katherine is hotttt! so hard to believe that it's the same actress having like 10000x the chemistry with paul wesley. (i also was kind of shipping stefan/caroline in that scene in the bathroom at the carnival. rawr.)

ian somerhalder is just made of hot, and i enjoy damon so much that i don't even really have anything to say about him. love!

i don't care about the lockwoods, but i don't mind them so whatever. ditto jeremy, most of the time.

WHERE THE FUCK IS ALARIC, THO?????

SONSSSS OF ANARCHYYYYY! SHOW! SHOW OF MY HEART!

i was so sad when they killed off hale. i thought he made a fantastic counterpoint to jax and i just liked that he was a legitimately good man -- he was against SAMCRO but i never could hate him for it. i really thought he had SO much potential as a character. i honestly have no idea why they killed him off -- i wonder if he wanted out, a la johnny lewis? hmm.

when gemma finds out about abel she is going to lose her fucking mind. i am both dreading and anticipating that day like whoa.

charlie hunnam is made of gorgeous. js.

jax and tara are such an incredibly well-written couple. snaps to kurt sutter for keeping them real and interesting without breaking them up every ten minutes. it's rare to see a couple on tv who are functional(ish) and who actually TALK about their issues and are just, y'know, awesome. ♥

so since the irish killed cameron, are they going to give abel back? or just keep him hidden? i can never understand like half of what they're saying, lol. :(

ahhhhh, it's so good to have chuck back! when i'm not watching it, i always forget just how happy it makes me. i'm definitely interested in the mama bartowski storyline (altho i still miss chuck's dad, *sniff*). and i about died when i realized it was the general sitting in the manager's chair at buy more (about one second before she spoke, hee). i didn't mind the lack of jeffster (altho i don't hate them like a lot of people seem to) but i would've liked to see awesome at some point.

oh, and morgan is my spirit animal. i love that little bearded bastard to pieces! XD

i have boardwalk empire on my DVR but haven't gotten to watch it yet -- i probably will sometime today. ditto lone star and hawaii 5-0. new shows! \o/

i also really liked HIMYM last night. i didn't hate last season as much as i guess everyone else did(?), tho. but yeah, i thought it was a cute episode and i loved the stuff w/ rachel bilson.

OH ALSO HOW AMAZING IS THE MCR TRAILER?!?!?! FABULOUS KILLJOYS!

ummm okay, that's it. XD

expatiates — Fri, 18 Jun 2010 19:50:06 GMT

i just posted this on twitter, but i figured it was worth repeating here: i have an unopened yellow ipod nano, 8 GB, that i will sell you for $100. (retail is $149.) my mom won it in some contest and gave it to me, but i don't need it and i'd much rather have cash.

if you want it, holler at me, yo.

catch a falling star and put it in your pocket.

expatiates — Mon, 24 May 2010 17:35:16 GMT

i'm still feeling lots of feelings and thinking lots of thoughts about the end of lost. now that i'm somewhat calmer than last night, i will ramble thusly:

- i loved jack's goodbye to desmond. "see you in another life, brotha" has probably been my favorite lost line of all time.

- i also loved the payoff with the cut on jack's neck.

- jack's final moments on the island were absolutely stunning. from vincent lying down beside him (vincentttttt ♥) to jack's smile when he saw the plane fly overhead...perfect.

- i guess ultimately, i warmed up to jack a lot this season without actually realizing it, until by last night i straight up LOVED him. i think what caused this was that all the things that always drove me crazy about jack, the ways he was flawed as a person and (more importantly, maybe) as the leader, were addressed both explicitly and implicitly this season, and watching him grow and change allowed me to appreciate not only the man he became, but also the man he was. (also, because i never liked jack much, i never really paid attention to matthew fox. but he was so precious and earnest on jimmy kimmel that i was utterly charmed and kind of love him now.)

- sawyer & juliet's reunion was so much better than i'd imagined. i was waiting for that moment all season and i cried like a fucking baby. and fuck, elizabeth was insanely gorgeous in this ep. ♥____♥

- jin & sun being so happy to see sawyer when he walked in (and jin's obvious amusement that sawyer was a cop) made me stupidly happy. i always loved jin & sawyer's friendship. i cried like a bb during the ultrasound scene, obvs.

- i'm sad that ben didn't come into the church, but i LOVED his final scene with locke. michael & terry are always fantastic together. i also loved the little conversation that ben and hurley had while ben was outside the church. ben's happiness at seeing him and they way the spoke to each other made my heart all squishy.

- there were some great meta moments, like kate's "christian shephard? seriously?" and flocke's comment about jack being the obvious choice to replace jacob. and while it's not meta, i loved when ben agreed to be hurley's 2nd, and hurley just goes "...cool." ♥ (jorge was just fucking wonderful in this ep.)

- also along those lines, i loved sawyer calling flocke "smokey." only sawyer would even call the monster by a nickname.

- there's still stuff about the real/island world that i don't fully understand, but i totally don't care. whether you call it electromagnetic energy or, like, the essence of life, or whatever, doesn't really mater. it was what you believed it to be, it was an anomaly, and the time they spent there, and with each other, was the most important part of their lives. i watched lost for the story and for the characters...i never really cared what the numbers meant, or why walt was special, or about the polar bears. i rarely watch or read ANYTHING for the plot, tbh.

- the sideways world as a sort of purgatory, i loved. i know some people were butthurt because initially everyone thought the island was purgatory and we were told it wasn't so this was, like, cheating or whatever, but i honestly thought it was perfect. so much of lost is about life and death and the fine line between them, that to me it was the exact right way to say goodbye to these characters. they lived. they died. they remembered. they let go. and together, they moved on. beautiful. ♥

it only ends once.

expatiates — Mon, 24 May 2010 03:45:08 GMT

SAWYER AND JULIET <3333333333333333333333
SAYID AND SHANNON <33333333333333333
CHARLIE AND CLAIRE <33333333333333

i can't even put together words right now. i loved seeing all our other losties. the ending was fucking perfect. and holy shit, for the first time possibly ever, i LOVED jack. <3

the whole sideways-world as a sort of purgatory or limbo totally worked for me. it kind of made me think of, in a weird way, eternal sunshine of the spotless mind. "meet me in montauk," you know?

maybe coherence tomorrow. but basically: i loved it. i fucking loved it.

somewhere over the rainbow.

expatiates — Wed, 05 May 2010 16:31:32 GMT

WORST EPISODE EVERRRRRRRRR ;__________;

lapidus! they never developed him that much, but i liked him because there were parts of him that reminded me of my father, and i'm sad that he died and it wasn't even mentioned really. :(

jin & sun i seriously cannot even talk about. i was bawling like a baby. speaking of babies: poor little ji yeon. ;____;

and sayid. oh, my beloved sayid. :( my favorites on LOST (altho i have loved many of the characters) have been locke, juliet, sayid and desmond (pls don't die, des, you're my one hope!). locke died such a sad death. juliet died twice, basically (once in the S5 finale and once in the S6 premiere). and sayid...well. he spent most of this season as barely himself, but at least he managed to prove with his final, selfless, instinctive act the thing we knew all along -- that he was a good man. (i just started crying as i typed that. i'm retarded.)

i find that i don't honestly care that much about the ~mysteries~ or whatever. the things i need from LOST in order to be satisfied: juliet & sawyer going dutch on coffee. desmond & penny surviving. one more instance of sayid kicking ass. happiness for john locke. (obviously i'm clinging desperately to alt-world here.)

"did you know dolphins are just gay sharks?"

expatiates — Thu, 15 Apr 2010 00:23:28 GMT

scott's dad is here (they went to a baseball game today) and now he and scott are sitting silently on the couch watching baseball tonight and i am bored as fuck.

holy fuck you guys, this season (other than the premiere) took a little while to get going, but goddamn it's awesome right now.

LIBBY <333
HURLEY <333
LIBBY & HURLEY <333

these days, with juliet gone and sayid completely zombified (which i fucking hate, fyi) desmond has officially moved into the position of My Favorite Lostie. i did not, however, appreciate him RUNNING OVER LOCKE, WTF. other than that, tho, he was amazing the entire episode and i love himmmm. and since fake!locke threw him down a well in island world (i legit shrieked "you motherfucker!!!!" when des went down the well), i guess they're sort of even. only not really. IDK.

i liked jack in this episode. his little speech about not trying to fix everything all the time was a nice moment for him, and it was the most i'd liked him in a while. i've also very much appreciated the very minimal kate in the past few eps. thx darlton!

i'm worried about ben/richard/miles. don't die, boys!

i would like to see some juliet pls. i wish V would gtfo so elizabeth mitchell could get back where she belongs, which is of course in josh holloway's arms. :D

glee was fucking delightful. my gf dianna was way scarce (as was my bf puck, for that matter) but otherwise i enjoyed that episode immensely. JGROFF! XD IDINA! *__* EMMA! <3_<3 RACHEL! ;__; BRITTANY & SANTANA! *\o/* so much goodness. i seriously cannot wait for the madonna ep next week! :D :D :D

other stuff:

i'm going to the colbert report tomorrow with themightybee, yay! i plan on spending friday making her watch sons of anarchy.

i've pretty much given up on this season of american idol. i hate almost all of them. i'd make out with lee, tho.

i've been stuck at the same weight for a week, despite working out every day except for sunday and counting calories obsessively. my mom claims there's often a second-week slump on the biggest loser, so i'm trying not to let it bother me.

seeing the hold steady on saturday with sixteenblue! fuck yeah. |m| >.< |m|

i haven't seen david cook in over 6 months. lame.

i'm pretty happy with my tv situation right now but i'd quit pretty much all of it for true blood.

can a man still be brave if he's afraid?

expatiates — Wed, 07 Apr 2010 21:28:17 GMT

HELLO LJ! like everyone else, it seems, i've gotten terrible at lj. my last entry was march 19. :/

anyway, i have things to discuss!

i've struggled with weight for as long as i can remember. when i look back at pictures of myself from high school (i'm on the right), i'm like "whoa, i was actually fairly thin and hot," but even then i was constantly trying to watch what i ate, exercise (i was a cheerleader and took dance class, so that was easy enough), etc.

i gained weight in college, like almost everyone does. lost most of it when i graduated, and was looking and feeling pretty good.

then my best friend died, and my dad died, and i just kind of gave up and never got back on track. i've gained probably 40 pounds in the last five years. that's right, FORTY. gross. seriously, gross.

anyway, so on january 30, 2011 i'll be turning thirty. i'm already a basket case about that, but i refuse to be thirty AND fat, and since i can't stop myself from turning thirty, all i can do is lose weight.

i spent all of last week at hilton head health, which is basically fat camp, lol, altho i prefer to call it a 'weight-loss spa' (which is totally valid, shut up, i got a massage while i was there). my mom and i went together and it was, all things considered, not a bad way to spend a week. you eat about 1200 calories a day and there are tons of exercise classes and seminars about nutrition, motivation, etc. it was fun!

[relatedly: i discovered that i really, really like yoga. my last day there, i took a two-hour beach yoga class at 8:30 a.m. which if you know me is amazing, because i am NEVER up that early on purpose. but i got my ass up and it was amazing. the weather was perfect, the sound of the ocean was incredibly calming, and we saw dolphins playing in the surf. i almost teared up, it was such a perfect moment.]

anyway, i came home and joined a gym that i absolutely love and bought a lot of healthy food. so far, i'm down 6.4 lbs from last monday morning. \o/ i still have a long way to go, but i'm determined to be hot when i turn thirty. i'll keep you posted. :D

TL;DR? i'm losing weight!

DESMOND! DESMOND AND PENNY! CHARLIE! DAN! DESMOND! DESMOND AND PENNY!

"happily ever after" was by far my favorite ep of the season. desmond eps are always the best, btw ("the constant" is still maybe my favorite lost episode evarrr). there were so many little callbacks and winks and nudges and just...!!!! i don't even have any real concrete things to say, i just fucking loved it. desmond/penny has been my lost otp all along, and this episode was so beautiful for them. i handflapped a few times when they met up in altworld. ♥ ♥ ♥

WHEN THEY 'SHOW' SAWYER HE'D BETTER SEE JULIET, JS.

i have vague thoughts about WHAT IT ALL MEANS and stuff, but nothing's really clear in my mind yet. it certainly seems like alt-world gives people sort of a twisted, slightly wrong version of what they lack in the original timeline - desmond gets widmore's approval but doesn't have penny (yet!), jack doesn't get resolution with his father but does with his son, locke has helen but he's still in the wheelchair, etc. assuming neither one is the "true" reality and either is viable, where does that leave us? idk. will the losties manage to choose one reality (ala the matrix or vanilla sky)? will that mean the necessary destruction of the other? or can the two realities somehow combine, meeting somewhere in the middle?

also: WHY DOES ELOISE KNOW EVERYTHING?

TL;DR? LOOOOOST \o/

i finished a storm of swords the other day, and, uh, wow! i guess i'll divide this by character, ala grrm.

dany is maybe my favorite? idk. i just love her story and her character, and i love that she's so young but she's really fulfilling her role as queen (or trying, anyway). i love her dragons, and how she's freeing all these slaves, and all the headaches she encounters while trying to do good. oh and i loved so much that the old dude with her turned out to be barristan selmy in disguise. that reveal was kind of epic and idk how they'll do it on the show (unless they never actually SHOW selmy beforehand, but only talk about him?), but i was psyched. when the series ends (if that ever actually, y'know, HAPPENS) i hope she gets her throne. team dany!

jaime is so awesome. what a really interesting, extremely grey character. i'm glad we finally get his POV in storm - i was sick of always hearing about him but never really getting to know him. for some reason i didn't expect him to really be in love with cersei the way he is (was?) but i found it fascinating and almost endearing in a sick kind of way (being incest and all, ha). i sort of ship him/brienne (LOVE her), ngl. idk.

tyrion is awesome. him killing his father was kind of awful but mostly badass. him killing shae was incredibly sad, as was her betrayal. he always knew she was a whore, and so did i, but my sappy little heart wanted her to really care for him. he's one of my faves. i don't blame sansa for peacing out when she had the chance, but i was hoping she'd end up getting to know tyrion and liking him, maybe eventually loving him.

lord commander jon snow: it kind of had to happen but it was still pretty damn exciting. i'm sad for him, as he was ready to be the lord of winterfell and all, but he's too awesome to go live in a castle and all that. sad about ygritte, tho. :( on the plus side, i love sam. :D oh and also, i always picture jon snow as jon walker, lollll. not intentionally, but it just happens.

(UN?)DEAD CAT! whoa. i was sad when she died so i guess i'm glad she was brought back, but wow, creepy. :x i wish we could get zombie!robb, too...i liked him a lot for some reason.

arya is a little bamf. love her.

the hound is endlessly fascinating to me. i hope we get his POV at some point (idk if we do in crows, i'm only a couple of chapters in). i feel like he'll be one of my favorites in the tv show if the actor's good, because he's another one of those incredibly grey characters. i'm also very interested in varys, and would love his POV sometime as well.

other stuff:
YAY FOR JOFFREY BEING DEAD, THE LITTLE DOUCHENOZZLE!
lisa arryn is just the worst.
i want to see arya's faceless man buddy again.
bran's storyline mostly bores me.
i want more of asha greyjoy.
THESE BOOKS HAVE TOO MANY FUCKING CHARACTERS, JS.
BUT I FLOVE THEM!

TL;DR? this series is insane/awesome, i'm slightly obsessed. also: you should read these books.

i'm cook.

expatiates — Fri, 19 Mar 2010 18:22:11 GMT

SKINS. WHAT.

okay, first of all, let's all agree that jack o'connell is the once and forever mvp of skins. while S4 was really uneven for me, cook was always awesome, and jo'c rocked that role completely. so on that note:

COOK; i'm a spaz and i started crying when foster showed up in the basement. i didn't REALLY think they'd end the series by killing cook (and i'm convinced he beat that fucker to death with his fists and nobody can tell me otherwise - jo'c was again AMAZING in that scene) but...it was distressing. OH AND OMG, HIS DANCING. AHAHAHA <3 i'm kind of bummed that he didn't get to win effy back. i didn't ship them super hard or anything, but he loved her and he wanted her and i wanted that for him.

effy; we didn't have all that much of her in this ep, other than the beginning. which is odd to me because altho i know it's an ensemble show, in my mind she's sort of the central character, and i guess i figured the end would involve her. i've gotten the impression that a lot of people in the fandom maybe don't like effy, but i do. she was never my favorite, but i'll probably miss her most of all.

jj; we didn't really hear much about him either, but since he was lugging the bb around i'm assuming he and lara are doing well. i would've liked to see her again; they were so cute together!

thomas & panda; it was cute, i guess. i don't really care about either of them. i rolled my eyes that both of them got into harvard. do the skins writers just not know of any other schools in the u.s.? i mean, i could buy them both getting into some school here. even the same school, i guess. but harvard? oy.

HOWEVER, panda's song for effy filled my heart with rainbows and teddy bears. that scene was adorable. i love pandora & effy's friendship.

emily & naomi; idk. i LOVED them in S3 (and the very beginning of S4, before the bottom fell out), and i guess i was glad that they managed to work shit out, but they spent so much of this season completely dysfunctional that the resolution didn't make me as happy as it could have. i cried, tho, because i'm a sap.

katie fucking fitch; somehow katie snuck up on me and became my favorite, after cook. IDK. i don't even have anything specific to say about her (probably because, other than in her episode, she didn't have much going on this year and certainly not in this ep), but i just wanted to announce my love.

dead freddie; while i didn't care that much about freddie on his own, i loved his friendships with jj and -- especially -- cook. there was really no point to his death, and if they kill someone in the penultimate episode of S6 i will throw my hands up in despair.

in any event, i loved how they all came together to celebrate his birthday, and how for a bit there it looked like a real SKINS PARTY! despite the aforemention awesomeness of cook in that last scene, i actually kinda wish the episode had ended there, in the shed - they've all been pulling away from each other, so it would be kind of nice and fuzzy to end the episode with freddie bringing them all back together.