but you are my storyteller

"For the last time with feeling
we'll try not to smile
As we cover our heads and drink heavily into the nights
That still shock and surprise."


they are all gentle hearts but
we all clutch silver hammers.
smile on the golden blade that banishes.
the sky is just a prop that can be broken down folded and put away.
when we take the final bow i hope my fingers are laced with yours.
sometimes the lights remind me of pixie dust and a forgotten story of neverland and boyhood loves
but sometimes its so artificial i just hide my head in my hands.
i have a different me for each person i meet and
one day i'm sure they wont be able to keep their stories straight.
there is no other now then this one. 
loss of blood vs loss of heart.
we all get dizzy now and then you just need someone to steer you straight.
she opens doors while he closes his eyes and wishes himself back home.
"mind the gap".
next time you pick up a pen think of me because i will be thinking of you.
fell out of a window wishing on a star and through scarlet eyes i saw the world fall apart around me.
when i am gone there will be nothing left i will make sure of that.
fame<infamy? i will make headlines.
i will make their heads shake and tongues wag.
and all the while i will laugh til my chest aches and keep tugging on strings.

i am a legend
but you are my storyteller.
we all get passed around like a cigarette or a last drink.
i am a hand-me-down of every greatness that has ever existed.
that one artifact that is barely reminsicent of what it once what.
just a ripped insult to what was once as big as the world.

this feels like a warm embrace on a snowy night 
more like home  than i remembered.

"They carved a message deep within our broken hearts that failed to mend:
Make out kids never had a chance to be best friends."


"And as I gently sip this drink,
I think about my lack of future,
And all the places I could learn to fall in love.

I know I shouldn't waste my time,
Wishing I'd been better designed,
yet for some reason still think

I am wrecked. I am overblown."