we are boats, remember?

eudaimon — Sun, 19 Mar 2017 19:27:11 GMT

State of Me:
I am...doing okay. I got through the fourth anniversary of my dad's death relatively unscathed. School is about to turn into hell until we get through the exams in early June. I'm beating myself up about not writing a lot, so I'm trying to be better about that. I'm not really very good at communicating right now, but I love being talked to, so if you want me, DMing me on Twitter is probably the best way to get me.

Onto...

Newt | The Maze Runner | thebloodyglue
So Newt hooked up with Even while out at a club, and that was fun. He has no particular urge to do it again, so I guess I'll play it on a case by case basis. Newt's in his second year in college now, and I created a cafe to give him a part-time job. There are a lot of people I haven't threaded him with for a while - Yona, Tris, etc. So I'd love to get a chance to thread with them. We're planning on doing a wedding reception in the early summer. He's just lovely. ALSO. They ARE FILMING THE DEATH CURE. THEY'RE FILMING IT. WHICH MEANS MORE CINEMATIC NEWT.

Kaz Brekker | Six of Crows | everymonstrousthing
Kaz and Inej continues to be delightful. We still haven't done anything with them getting into trouble about debt, which...we probably should, and that might be an EP. ALSO, Kara and I were going to do a Matthias and Kaz play video games and we never did, so I think we should do that! I want to reread SoC/CK but I'm trying to read 50 books and I have this weird block about rereading, so...at some point? I will do that? If nothing else, I'll take them on honeymoon on my Kindle. I completely fell down on sexswap but...whatever :/ There will be other chances to do fun things with him!

Jack Vincent | Night Owls | rockabillyboy
Another one I'm due a reread on. Jack remains delightful. I never, ever expected to actually get a Jillie and having her is completely and utterly amazing. Things with Poison continue to be superb, too - I think there's a plan to fuck with him when Kavinsky goes through age-swap (and has a familiar face as a PB), so I am looking forward to that! Also, I REALLY enjoyed threading him with Rachel, and would love to do more of that.

The Girl/Sunshine | The True Lives of the Fabulous Killjoys | madesomenoise
Still zero plot! We're trying to kickstart her relationship with Carson at the moment, so hopefully that'll continue because I love it. She's another one where I haven't threaded with friends in a while, so...yeah. Reconnecting!

Isak Valtersen | Skam | lifeisnow
I CAN'T BELIEVE I FORGOT ABOUT ISAK! He's pretty much adorable. He's got his boyfriend, he's going to do his last year of high school! He made out with a hot cop. He needs to make more friends but I pretty much love every thread I do with him so far. He's a delight. And new Skam is filming and I'm HOPING Even will be the main character which will mean tonnes of Isak, so...fingers crossed.

The Future:
I finally (after talking about it since, like, 2008, apped Paul Schafer from the Fionavar Tapestry. So watch this space.

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eudaimon — Fri, 17 Feb 2017 23:07:19 GMT

State of Me:
Things leveled out? I do not feel actively unhinged anymore, so that's positive. Winters are always a hard time for me; I drag. So I've been giving myself permission to take things easy, to take days off from tags, that sort of thing. I think it's going well! ALSO, the maternity cover that I was doing at work finished TODAY, so that's a weight off, too. And I'm getting closer and closer to getting married, which is both delightful and terrifying.

ANYWAY.

Newt | The Maze Runner | thebloodyglue
So Newt got married, which is DELIGHTFUL and him and Kavinsky are settled and soft and lovely and it's sort of impossible to figure out how they came this far since they met like, a year and a bit ago. It's ship that I really, really love and I love how organically it's grown. Today, these photos of them shooting a ten minute sequel to Love Actually, so there are all these new photos of Thomas Brodie-Sangster with longer hair and layers and he looks SO NEWT and he's been so loud in my head all day. I've been thinking about, maybe, having him look outside of his relationship with Kavinsky, just because I've always thought of him as being essentially poly in the Glade. Still, I don't think he's going to do a casual hook up, so it'd have to be someone special? IDK. It's an idea that I'm kicking around. I think I'm going to EP him at a club while Kavinsky's at work.

Kaz Brekker | Six of Crows | everymonstrousthing
Kaz is so painfully, painfully in love with Inej. He's still getting over Jesper's disappearance, but that's something that he's mostly coping with by blaming Jesper for fucking up. As usual. I know that Tony and I have got plans to have Inej and Kaz get into a little trouble with the aftermath of Jesper's debts, etc. He can also get another item at any point and I decided that Halsey was the perfect sex!swap PB, so, yeah. No shortage of ideas here.

Jack Vincent | Night Owls | rockabillyboy
Jack is sort of back and forth on the idea of Kavinsky at the moment. He made this stand about Kavinsky being married but he misses being with him and IDK. Is trying to figure it out. Poison is getting sex-swapped this week, so I anticipate Jack REALLY enjoying that? IDK, he's just really happy to have his sister and his boyfriend and his house, okay?

The Girl/Sunshine | The True Lives of the Fabulous Killjoys | madesomenoise
Zero plot atm. I never really struggle for places to play her, but I don't have anything in particular going on. Her friendships remain utterly delightful to me.

The Future:
I think I'm finally, after years of talking about it, going to commit and put Paul Schafer/Pwyll Twiceborn from the Fionavar Tapestry on reserve. I love him, okay? Wounded, Canadian, avatar of the Thunder God? Ben Barne's face? What's not to like?

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eudaimon — Tue, 20 Dec 2016 00:13:40 GMT

State of Me:
So my mental health took a MAJOR dive in the latter half of last half term, to the point where I had to go through a risk assessment at work. So. That was awesome? On the plus side, I think the drops that I made were the right choice and I feel WAY more connected to the game than I did the last time I wrote one of these, which is DEFINITELY a good sign. I am trying so, so hard, guys.

Newt | The Maze Runner | thebloodyglue
So we are currently pre-threading Kavinsky PROPOSING to Newt, which is super, super exciting and ridiculous and lovely. Newt is having kind of a rough time of it at the moment, having lost Al, but he's holding on and doing okay so far. I love him so much and he's always going to be one of my quieter pups, and that's okay. I'd still like to explore more friendships with him, though. And then I suppose there'll be a wedding to plan. Which is ridiculous and delightful.

Kaz Brekker | Six of Crows | everymonstrousthing
So Inej came back and Kaz is sort of in flux right now as he tries to figure out the fact that he's still in love with her and he's KIND of in love with Jesper and he's not entirely sure how to make those two things work together, yet (I'm pretty sure Inej is going to be the one who figures it out). Crooked Kingdom made me feel a lot better about the way that I've been playing him. The way that he's grown in game feels pretty organic and I'm looking forward to seeing how he negotiates everything. I don't think he's going to be able to cope with actual threesomes. Also, he's got an EP open, so!

Jack Vincent | Night Owls | rockabillyboy
OH MY GOD I GOT A JILLIE. I NEVER EVER EXPECTED TO ACTUALLY GET A JILLIE AND THEN I GOT HER AND SHE'S SO PERFECT GUYS AND ALL OF OUR THREADS ARE WONDERFUL. Ahem. So mostly Jack is adjusting to having his twin sister in Darrow and fussing about her health and helping her adjust. He is SUPER overjoyed that she's here, though. I am fully intending on throwing him into Cassie's yerk plot.

The Girl/Sunshine | The True Lives of the Fabulous Killjoys | madesomenoise
Dee is just pretty delightful to play. She's never much of an effort, and I love all of the friendships and relationships that she's made while she's been in game. I'd really like to do ageplot with her because tiny six year old Girl would be a major mindfuck for Poison and I think that would be super fun >.>

FOR THE FIRST TIME IN AGES, I'm ready to consider having a queue again! Right now, I'm torn between Paul Schafer from The Fionavar Tapestry (avatar of a god, heartbroken, loyal and sad and clever) and Jake Portman from The Peculiar Children books (peculiar, brave, total disregard for personal safety) and Andrea Quill/Andra'ath who I thought was absolutely the best part of Class (alien, warrior, War Itself</i>.

So basically, if you have thoughts on this, you should definitely help me decide!

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eudaimon — Tue, 15 Nov 2016 15:14:32 GMT

So, so incredibly anxious and I don't know how to get my life to feel like it's under control again.

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SotP - October/November

eudaimon — Sun, 09 Oct 2016 12:55:24 GMT

State of Me:
I'm feeling a little bit...disconnected at the moment. I've got a lot of threads, and they're awesome, but they're mostly private. At some point, I think I consciously stopped making reqs so that I couldn't app and I had a really rough summer where my creativity was concerned and I don't think I ever really managed to get myself on track. So my aim for the winter is to reestablish the characters I'm playing, get back into the game with the ones I'm neglecting and then, maybe, I can think about apping again some time in the Spring.

Right, onto...

Beca Mitchell | Pitch Perfect | pitchslapped
Is definitely a pup that I've been falling down on. I LOVE her, but at some point, I lost touch with her and I just need to get my head around her again. Her last post was August 3rd and I haven't played her at all since then, so she's definitely overdue. I'm going to EP her out and about with Ripley this month and try and get back into playing her. Pitch Perfect was on TV last night so I recorded it and will be rewatching. Tags from friends would be VERY appreciated when she does go up :D

Newt | The Maze Runner | thebloodyglue
Newt is safely in the 'doing fine' half of my roster. I was, at one point, not sure on him, but then The Fever Code came back and he was very loud, very present, and I haven't been having any problems at all with him. He was briefly a girl, and now I've canon updated him so Newt remembers some very key things about his past which are BIG spoilers for the Fever Code. But he remembers and, as someone who's always been characterised by everything they didn't know, that's a big, big deal. He's quite content living with his boys but I do always mean to get him more friends in the wider community, beyond Thomas and Yona and the few people he does like hanging around with. So if anyone wants a thread with him, hit me up!

Kaz Brekker | Six of Crows | everymonstrousthing
The last time I wrote one of these, I was having a LOT of issues with Kaz. I'm pleased to report that that's over with. Things were a bit touch and go with him for a while after Kat dropped Inej but I held out for Crooked Kingdom and that is not a decision that I regret. While I do have some issues with that novel, it made me feel SO much better about how I've played Kaz and how he's developed since he arrived in Darrow. Inej being gone was dark but now he's fallen into a thing with Jesper, which also makes perfect sense in my head, and that's been fascinating so far to play out. Neither of them realise how much trouble they're in. Next EP will probably be the grand opening of the Crow Club 2.0.

Adaline Bowman | The Age of Adaline | juststopped
I feel like I am not currently doing Adaline justice. Ellis arrived right when I was in the middle of my depressive period and I just...haven't done much with her for a couple of months. Last use of her tag was August. I am ready to sort myself out, though. I am finally going to get her that dog! EP soon.

Jack Vincent | Night Owls | rockabillyboy
No issues at all. He got to be a girl for a while, he got his car, he's moved in with his boyfriend, he's got an 'arrangement' with Kavinsky. It's all going swimmingly. I love playing him off Poison, off Kavinsky. I do need to get him out more in the wider game; it's so easy to fall into just playing with the characters he's most comfortable with, but I do need to get him out more. It's been a while since his last act of wanton vandalism.

The Girl/Sunshine | The True Lives of the Fabulous Killjoys | madesomenoise
So we're in the process of playing out Girl's item powers which means that her powers, such as they are, will be live in Darrow soon. Basically, she's a human battery charger, very sensitive to electrical current. She can't control it, exactly. It is what it is. She's a conduit, more than anything. She's a detonator. Things are pretty serious with Carson, which is lovely. No issues here, either.

NO FUTURE because this is the perfect number of pups. For now.
If you read that, I love you. Squee makes me live.

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eudaimon — Sun, 09 Oct 2016 12:17:49 GMT

I've decided not to do Yuletide this year and...I'm pretty okay with it, I think. I just remember the whole process not really being fun for me last year - I had to scramble a lot, I felt pretty disaffected. I have no real attachment to any fandoms anymore so it seems like now might be the time to bow out. However, I've done every yuletide since, like...I don't know when, so...

It's a big change.

We're in the midst of wedding plan which is both strange and exciting. At the moment, we're trying to do the entire wedding for around £2000. My dress has been bought, both venues are paid for, we've got a band sorted, so things are falling into place. I was doing some costing for our honeymoon earlier (We're planning on two weeks in Vietnam) and that looks like it's going to cost about £3000 for flights and hotels, so...pretty cheap wedding all in? Basically I'm already over the process of wedding planning and I just want to get married now, please.

Prozac has kicked in, so I'm on a much more even keel. This was the first time I'd ever had a doctor tell me off for coming on and off medication, refer to my depression as a disability that needs management. To hear it talked about in those terms was actually...extremely comforting.

I don't know. Sometimes it's nice to get permission to not be amazing all the time.

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Rough and ready SotP

eudaimon — Thu, 23 Jun 2016 19:59:54 GMT

State of Me:
SO since the last time I did this, I got back on Prozac! So that's exciting. Right now, my mental health means I am exhausted a LOT and I'm unreliable, a little, and I get overwhelmed by my inbox a lot. So, if I drop a thread and you would rather I didn't, please tell me, and I'll tag it again! I am trying to manage self care and not making myself tag if I don't want to, which means it's kind of an all or nothing deal atm. Drugs will kick in soon, and hopefully I will level out. And it's only four weeks until the summer holidays and six glorious weeks off, so! Yes!

Beca Mitchell | Pitch Perfect | pitchslapped
Still absolutely pregnant. Due 2nd week of August. Since the last time I wrote a SotP, she's started a record label (which still doesn't have a name XD) and signed her first artist, Party Poison! Hopefully, she'll be organising more gigs, etc in the run up to omg actually being a mom and having to grow up a little. I am probably due of a rewatch of Pitch Perfect. If anyone ever wants to bring me a Fat Amy, that would probably make my life.

Newt | The Maze Runner | thebloodyglue
We're currently threading Djinn plot hallucinations and it's both HORRIBLE and WONDERFUL and I LOVE IT. The big thing since the last SotP is that Newt decided that he wanted to take Kavinsky's surname (without actually getting married), so that'll be starting to move forward soon. I don't have a lot of plot with Newt and I could really do with tagging him around more. Resolution!

Kaz Brekker | Six of Crows | everymonstrousthing
I had this real moment of self-doubt with Kaz this month. He's already come a long way from canon and I was starting to worry that I'd sort of made him really, really OOC. When I think about it, I don't think I have - I think Kaz in Darrow is just a very different thing from Kaz in Ketterdam. His development doesn't feel rushed or forced. It's just who he is now, symbolised by the fact that he's SOMETIMES wearing cotton gloves in public, rather than leather ones. Coming up, he's going to be opening the Two Crows Club, a bar with drinking and dancing but definitely no gambling. I like the idea of what Kaz Brekker is when he ends up in the light because that's where being with Inej has brought him. Finding the balance with Kaz Reitvald.

Adaline Bowman | The Age of Adaline | juststopped
Adaline's secret is out in the open, which...was not as ground-shaking as she was afraid that it might be. Everybody knows. Nobody cares. I want her to get a dog soon; she misses her dogs. And, hopefully, Ellis will be arriving soon, so that'll disrupt her relationships nicely. I love it.

Jack Vincent | Night Owls | rockabillyboy
100% A+ in love with Party Poison, omg. That's pretty much all that I have to report at this point. He is building some lovely friendships. I threw him into Djinn plot (we're still playing it out) but I think it'll trigger fears about his own mental health re: his sister. I might give him his item next month and I'm planning cisswap in August. Lots of lovely plot; easiest pup in the world to play!

The Girl/Sunshine | The True Lives of the Fabulous Killjoys | madesomenoise
Another impulse app (I'm making a habit of this) and another ROARING success. God, I love my Girl. She's such a great character but the comic gives so much more room to develop. She's made some lovely friendships already in the City (Ellie, Kavinsky, Aggie - man, I love her having friends her age) and she's DATING, much to her (and Carson's) surprise. And she has her DADDY back and threading her with Poison is pretty much the best thing ever. AHHHH I LOVE HER. I have a really, really mean idea for an item, but it would come with the need to apply for mod approval, so...TBD!

NO FUTURE because this is the perfect number of pups. For now.
If you read that, I love you. Squee makes me live.

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eudaimon — Sat, 30 Apr 2016 20:55:08 GMT

State of Me:
I'm good! I am into the last term of my first year of the job I started in September and it's...still pretty good! I get tired a lot, and I'm basically working six days a week still, which sucks, but I have plenty of time to tag at the pace I prefer to. I'd still like to keep my roster to a manageable size, though. I'm up to five pups, and that feels totally doable, but I need to be careful as I start to move forward, I think. I know what I'm like. Last week, I interviewed for a promotion at work. It's only a maternity cover, so it's a limited term, but it's going to come with a MUCH increased work/stressload so I really need to play it by ear until I see how that feels.

THAT SAID, onto the pups.

Beca Mitchell | Pitch Perfect | pitchslapped
Continues to be pregnant. This month, I'd like to do an EP where her and Jesse find out the sex of the baby (she's having a girl - Ripley! Because Jesse). ALSO, if you have a pup who's interested in using Arch Studios, let me know. I'm always happy to do private threads set at the studio! I'd really like to get Beca out there more this month. I've been a little bit lazy about having her meet new friends, and I need to rectify that. So, yes! EP soon!

Newt | The Maze Runner | thebloodyglue
Is in a much, much better mood recently. My big idea for Newt at the moment is that I want him to get the idea that he'd KIND of like to have a surname and to float the idea of, maybe, taking Kavinsky's. I'm not saying that they need to get married - they're babies - but I really like the idea of that gesture, so I may have Newt start thinking about it this month. Newt is another pup with his little knot of people who probably needs to get out more, so I'll be aiming to tag him about this month. If you have a pup who you think would like to be friends with a Glader, let me know!

Kaz Brekker | Six of Crows | everymonstrousthing
I have decided that Kaz is eighteen next month! I have no canon birthday for him, so I've decided that May suits him. I'm going to give him my sister's birthday, 18th May - I'll be doing an EP for that. What that means is that Kaz will be able to start securing ~shadowy finance~ to open a Darrow branch of the Crow Club, which is Kaz's big business venture back in Ketterdam. With the casinos already in Darrow, I'm not sure what, exactly, this Crow Club would enter. I'd LIKE it to have gambling, so maybe I'll do some kind of plot involving organised crime in Darrow. I'm sure Kaz would enjoy that a lot. Kaz is really fun to play at the moment. He's started to think about the difference between KETTERDAM Kaz and DARROW Ketterdam; he's letting himself change, recognising that change as a good thing. He's a little warmer. He smiles occasionally. I get new canon in September and I've made the decision to do as I did with The Raven King and not read any extracts or anything in advance, so...exciting! I would like to have more opportunity for Kaz to be dangerous in Darrow; he might be softer, these days, but that doesn't mean that Dirtyhands won't show up when there's rough work that needs to be done.

Adaline Bowman | The Age of Adaline | juststopped
Adaline got a job, at the library archive, and she's been on dates with a VARIETY of men, though, so far, things are most serious with Krem and Sam Merlotte. I don't know, at this stage, whether she'll settle down/fall for anyone, but she's having a lovely time. I'm going to continue having her socialise and meet people. I've got no plans for serious plot with her atm.

Jack Vincent | Night Owls | rockabillyboy
This fucker. Jack has been in Darrow for 21 days and he has...Yeah. There's a lot going on. He's currently responsible for two pieces of graffiti in Darrow (ESCAPE outside the train station and HEAL on the shore) and I've been SUPER PLEASED and REALLY EXCITED when his graffiti has turned up in other people's EPs! He's made a few friends already (I'm REALLY enjoying his threads with Cassie and Blue). Kavinsky is developing a burgeoning crush which Jack is not yet aware of, so that's going to go well. Jack's not dealing SUPER well with the loss of his sister, Jille. She's neuro-atypical (suffering from disorganised schizophrenia) and Jack feels that, by being in Darrow, he's letting her down. He's suppressing those feelings like a motherfucker, though, so they've only really come up in one thread so far. I created a Darrow Zen Center so Jack has a job working in the bookstore there, just like he did back in San Francisco. His current plan is to work on his portfolio and apply to art school in Darrow for the Fall. Graffiti will continue to pop up every time I give him an EP. ALSO. ALLLLLLLSO. Jack has a crush. On a boy. A boy with very, very red hair. We're currently pre-playing the moment when that crush will become...more than a crush. And Jack is having a LOT of feelings. That'll become IG mid-May, so Jack will be dealing with quite a lot towards the end of the month. Last time I did a SotP, Jack was literally a whim-maybe-I'll-app-him so...yeah. Good decision!

Connor Walsh 2.0| How to Get Away with Murder | goodforonce
John Constantine | DC Comics | mortalbastard

IF YOU READ ALL OF THAT, THANK YOU. YOUR COMMENTS AND QUESTIONS ARE WELCOME ♥

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SotP | TCRPG | March 2016

eudaimon — Fri, 25 Mar 2016 22:09:13 GMT

State of Me:

I'm...okay! March is a hard month for me, with the anniversary of my father's (relatively sudden) death. On top of that, I had some genuinely horrendous health this month - my first bout of flu since I was thirteen, followed by a sickness bug (one of the benefits of being a teacher) that left me feeling like I'd been mugged. I've also been struggling a LOT with my social anxiety this month which has made tagging/chatting difficult. Still! I think I am on top of it now! I am sorry if my rambling got on anyone's nerves. ALSO, please don't take it personally if I act like I'm worried I've upset you. I'm pretty much always worried I've upset everyone all the time. It's my state of being.

Anyway. On to...

Beca Mitchell | Pitch Perfect | pitchslapped
Beca has been falling apart because two of her people were taken as part of GAPs; she'll be better when they get home. In April, she'll be five months pregnant (she's due in the first couple of weeks of August). Her plot, right now, is basically her pregnancy and her people. Motherhood is going to be a real trip for Beca so I'm content for her to be fairly low-key until August.

Newt | The Maze Runner | thebloodyglue
Newt's had a long couple of weeks. Kavinsky was kidnapped as part of the GAPs plot and Newt...pretty much fell apart, completely. My reading of Newt is that he has lost SO MANY people that he loves, in such a short period of time, and he wasn't offended the opportunity to react to those loses and he hasn't managed to move past them. He just internalises like a pro. He's also got a canonical depression that I'd like to play with more IG. Newt takes the idea of being 'the glue' really seriously and he had spent a lot of time pulling himself back from the brink. I would like to do an ageplot with Newt eventually, because I have all of the lovely pictures of TBS in Love Actually to use. Kavinsky will be home soon and Newt will start to settle (those threads are already played/being pre-played). Newt just loves his little house with his boys and his garden. He's happy. He's just not sure he trusts it yet, especially with GAPs plot feeling SO reminiscent of W.I.C.K.E.D.

Kaz Brekker | Six of Crows | everymonstrousthing
Has settled in really well. I am loving playing out his burgeoning relationship with Inej, working out how to manage Kaz's touch/anxiety issues in a way that doesn't feel rushed or like a magic fix. I was worried that I'd been playing Kaz too soft but what he's doing, I think, is adapting to the situation he finds himself in. He's started to make friends with a few people, particularly Rat and Krem and Alec. Which I love. The different dynamics are fascinating. Matthias arrived - Kaz doesn't have THAT much time for Matthias, as yet, but I'm looking forward to develop that - and Jesper being set to arrive is exciting because, other than Inej, I think Jesper is actually someone that Kaz might have called a friend back home. I had an opportunity to have him be Dirtyhands in Rat's last EP, and that's super fun, so I'll keep taking those opportunities. Kaz also needs to have a BIRTHDAY. As soon as I can get him to turn eighteen, I need to arrange ~shadowy finance~ so that he can open a Darrow branch of the Crow Club. Quite what that would look like in Darrow, I'm not sure but I will definitely have fun figuring it out!

Adaline Bowman | The Age of Adaline | juststopped
Is still new but working out so far! Mostly, she's just been talking to a lot of boys. In canon, she promised her daughter that she wasn't going to run anymore so she's been trying to keep that promise, even though she's lost Ellis. In April, she'll be going on a couple of extremely successful dates with Krem and Sam Merlotte and HAN SOLO IS TAKING HER TO SEE THE MILLENIUM FALCON, SO THAT'S COOL. She's going to have to settle down eventually but, for now, she's enjoying kissing boys. She's got a job at the archive, so I need to do an EP linked to that. It'll be interesting when/if she decides to tell the truth about herself to someone. Basically, I love her.

My queue is a clusterfuck. Basically. I've got John Constantine on reserve and he's COMING. FINALLY. I also really love Lydia Bramwell but am unsure whether I actually want to commit to fandom in that way XD Also, I keep falling in love with teenage boys in books. Right now, if I app anyone, it would be Jack Vincent from "Night Owls" who is a renegade graffiti artist who is sort of a buddhist and also has REALLY BEAUTIFUL EYELASHES OKAY. Also, with Tony talking about apping Ollie, I'm seriously considering bringing Connor back (I wrote myself into a corner with him the first time around and I have a lot of unresolved feelings). I would need to figure out how that would happen.

SO THAT'S IT GUYS. THANK YOU FOR READING>

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eudaimon — Fri, 15 Jan 2016 10:46:51 GMT

I am seeing parents today. From 7.45 to 6.30. Currrently three hours in, with another seven and a half to go. So that's joyous. On the whole, my new school is...it's okay. I've settled in. Things have been worse. I love my little house. I love the boyfriend. Work is never going to be my favourite thing.

Making do.

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REVIEW (Sort of) : Six of Crows

eudaimon — Sun, 03 Jan 2016 15:24:50 GMT

My first book of 2016 was Six of Crows by Leigh Bardugo and, man, did it not let me down. It reminded me, a lot, of the Gentleman Bastard books, with a little bit of The Name of the Wind. What I find, sometimes, is that books that have really great characters don't always have really great plots and vice-versa, but what all three of those books have in common is that the plot is super engaging and the characters are people who, while they might not be NICE or GOOD, are definitely people that you want to spend time getting to know.

For example: Kaz Brekker. Kaz.

I was pretty much in love with Kaz by the end of his first POV chapter. I am the first person to admit that I have a type when it comes to fictional characters, which has always boiled down to "fuck-ups, heroes and fucked up heroes". Kaz is...well. He's a bastard. But he's fucked-up and he occasionally does something heroic, usually by accident or because it'll get him something he wants.

It's a heist novel, basically, with a really diverse cast (canon POC! canon character with disability which is a PART of him but does not diminish his ability to be an absolute bad-ass! canon queer! amazing female characters!). Basically, you should read it.

Tell them I sent you.

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eudaimon — Sat, 02 Jan 2016 14:43:36 GMT

I'm starting to see people moving back into these fannish spaces, so...I thought I would give it a go, too! So, hopefully, I am going to be making an effort to be more AROUND here. Reading. Writing....etc.

Fingers crossed, at least.

I really need to renew my icons. Wow.

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eudaimon — Thu, 31 Dec 2015 17:02:35 GMT

State of me: I was so...somewhat nervous when I first applied at Darrow - I was very aware that I was starting a new job and I had no idea what my stress-levels, work/life balance, etc were going to be. Coupled with that, I moved in with my BF in July (we bought a house), which involved relocating away from my family, etc. Basically, I wasn't sure if I was going to be in the right place to make a go of RPing again.

Turns out: everything's fine! I am a lot less stressed at this job that I was at my last job (I haven't cried at work once in a whole term!), my work-life balance is...much the same as it was at my old job (if not slightly better - I get a whole extra half an hour in the morning!), BF is very low impact company (we are currently both sitting on our laptops XD).

Basically, I am SO GLAD that I finally talked myself into apping at Darrow. I am loving the connections I've made, both personally and ICly, in a relatively short time, and I am thrilled by the friendships I've managed to renew by being there.

Good things. Entirely good things. Which brings me too...

Beca Mitchell | Pitch Perfect | pitchslapped
JUST got engaged. Jesse asked her to marry him on Christmas Day, Beca said yes, it's basically a fairytale. What they DON'T know yet is that Beca is pregnant - I need to put the application in (I'm sorry, Brad, I am brainless XD) but hopefully, they'll be finding that out sometime in January, with the baby due in August). They're really young for this kind of development, but I also think it makes really good sense for them.

In non Jesse related plot, Beca is now the boss of Arch Recordings because...I said so, basically. She had it dumped on her a little before she was ready, so she's not the BEST producer in the world, but she's learning. Kavinsky works for her, which is a joy unlooked for, which I look forward to being EVEN MORE AWESOME as Beca develops into the worse pregnant lady in the history of the world.

I had a bit of jitter, post Silent!Darrow where Beca was so far away from herself that she was really hard, but she's back now, fun again, and I'm overjoyed.

Newt | The Maze Runner | thebloodyglue
Oh, Newt. Newt has all of the plot in the world. In the run up to the NYE, he, Kavinsky and Al had been settling into a triad that was totally working for them. However, Kavinsky is...a fucking trial and has been fucking around with Connor, culminating in going home with him on NYE and...exploding everything all over the place.

Consequently, Newt will be spending the first week of the New Year genuinely falling apart. The break up will be coinciding with a Flare flare-up which will land Newt in the hospital for a few days around the 7th.

I've also got in in mind that I want Newt to get a January start at College, so he'll be starting to take horticulture based classes from January.

~~If anyone ever wants to bring us a Minho/Gally/Chuck, etc my little heart would burst with joy. I don't know what I'd DO about an Alby, but Newt would be so painfully, pathetically glad to see him~~.

Connor Walsh | How to get Away with Murder | goodforonce
This fucking asshole. I threw Connor into PotF on a WHIM, did a couple of REALLY awesome threads and, before I knew it, I was writing an app for him. And I have been having so, so much fun so far. It was always my intention to have Connor in freefall for at least his first month in Darrow, and that has been going spectacularly so far. He has been at least semi-naked in most of his threads so far. He misses Olly like a PART of him, but I also think that Connor is pragmatic enough to compartmentalise those feelings so, outwardly, he hasn't seemed unhappy. He's hand a handful of threads with Lee so far and he is fighting feelings there, extremely hard. I love the idea of them as a ship so I am very excited to play out what's going to happen there.

Connor's the pup that I have the most future locked in for, atm. There's Lee, which I am thoroughly enjoying, but I also want his free-fall to culminate with an item post. I'm going to give him (SPOILERS FOR HTGAWM)the car that they transported Sam's body in, that Annalise threatened to blackmail him with. So. That'll be fun? Connor most CERTAINLY has PTSD, so, yes. I will be fascinated to see what the fallout from that is.

ALSO, if you tagged Connor's recent wet-and-mostly-naked EP, thank you! I am loving all of those threads so much!

IS A FUCKING MESS. Right now, I am thinking that it needs to be John Constantine (Hellblazer). HOWEVER, 300 issues of canon is a trainwreck that I cannot parse into a 500 word background section, so I'm thinking of using the short-lived NBC show (which, despite having issues, got John's characterisation pretty much spot on) as the basis for an app, with comic canon for supplemental details. That SEEMS to be the most reasonable way to do it?

ALSO vying for attention, I've got Adaline Bowman (The Age of Adaline), Paul Schafer (The Fionavar Tapestry - as ever, as always) and I'm about to start a book that I feel like is going to be trouble. Plus, about five pups from my old TR roster who I would really, really like to play again.

But I'd really like to be playing another girl. I've been watching a lot of Modern Family lately - don't you think Gloria would be fun?

If you made it this far, congratulations! I'm a teacher - I have gold stars <3

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eudaimon — Thu, 12 Nov 2015 19:29:12 GMT

I haven't written one of these since - God - May 2014. I've been playing at Darrow since 1st August and man am I enjoying myself. I had sort of forgotten how much fun RP could be. I am practising a lot of self-care where RP is concerned these days and so far so good! I have a tiny little roster so far, but I am looking forward to playing at Darrow for a while.

Onto the pups!

Beca Mitchell | Pitch Perfect
Beca made it out of Silent Darrow having killed Jesse. She got the shit kicked out of her and she's having a hard time being around Jesse. In the short-term, that's going to mean reverting to the slightly self-destructive Beca that we see in canon. She's going to make some poor choices involving a certain rockstar but, since certain rockstar is TOTALLY into dudes, there's a limit to how much Beca will actually do. Still, her and Jesse will have to do some serious work to come back from it. She loves him, it'll be okay but, right now, she's hurting. Threads with friends TOTALLY WELCOME. If you'd be up for a thread, let me know.

Then, in the mid/long term, once they've made up, Brad and I have decided that Beca and Jesse will be getting pregnant. Which, obviously, will be a LOT for them, with them both basically being kids, but there have been younger parents who've done brilliantly and I think it'd be really interesting character development for Beca. So, yes, tiny little girl named after a Sci-Fi legend on the horizon.

Brody Moyer | Ground Floor
I...am almost entirely sure that I'm going to drop Brody. I think I have to admit to myself that there is a certain type of 'comedy' pup that I am not good at, and Brody is one of them. Which sucks, because I love him and I love his canon, but I've just struggled to find his place in Darrow and I think it might be time to let him go.

Newt | The Mazerunner
Oh, my God, Newt. Neeeeeeeeeeeeewt. Okay, so I was so, so excited to bring in Newt because I love him and then I had the quickest app turn around EVER which was awesome. Newt's over his debut and feeling pretty good now. Silent Darrow was rough on him - he didn't go, but two of his favourite people did and he half convinced himself they were gone for good. So relief is pretty much his defining characteristic right now.

And then there's his love life. Oh, goodness. SO, he's been pretty into Al since....pretty much the first day they met and, with Al's return from Darrow, ~progress has been made. However, Al's self esteem issues are going to be an obstacle for them to get over. Which is further complicated by the fact that Newt is also well on his way to falling for Joseph Kavinsky -- which, frankly, is no surprise because I have had a soft spot for Kavinsky since I read TDT. Newt got high with/screwed Kavinsky basically because he was going out of his mind with grief/worry and now...there are feelings involved. It's headcanon for me that Newt and Alby were a thing in the Glade, probably along with Minho and monogamy just...isn't a thing for Newt. The ideal for him is figuring out a way to be with both of them in some configuration. He's good for both of them and he's good for them in different ways. His designation isn't the Glue for nothing. Whatever ends up happening (and no matter how many times he has to hear that Kavinsky is ~bad news) I can't wait to see how everything turns out.

The Future:
Iiiiii would really like to bring in a new pup at some point, but I am unsure of who that should be. I have a few ideas but the two at the front of my mind right now are Paul Schafer from the Fionavar Tapestry who has been on my mind basically forever and who I think would do really well in Darrow with his sort of god-like powers. But then there's also Danny from London Spy. I've had one episode so far and I've got no idea where it's going but god, I love him. So I suppose we'll see.

EDIT TO ADD: Or, I could just crack and put Connor Walsh from How To Get Away with Murder on reserve. One bitchy law student coming soon to a city near you! I had such fun on TD that I was helpless in the face of him. Also, John Constantine. Might be sooner than I think.

IF YOU READ THIS FAR, I LOVE YOUR FACE>

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Dear Santa!

eudaimon — Sun, 18 Oct 2015 17:59:43 GMT

As usual, as ever, let me paraphrase what I say every year:

Firstly, THANK YOU FOR TAKING THE TIME TO WRITE ME SOMETHING. This is by far the worst time of year at my job, which makes me doubly appreciative that you are taking the time to create something just for me. Please be assured that if we have matched on one of the fandoms that I have requested, you will write me something that I will love. Write a story that you enjoy writing and I will be thrilled to receive it. I am going to do a lot of rambling in this letter, but optional details are optional and I promise that you I will love anything you write for me. Feel free to ignore everything and anything here - mostly, what I want to say to you is have fun. Write a story that you love and I am sure that I will love it too.

That said, my weaknesses are many and legion. Among them are (and this is exactly the same list as i always leave):

Angst (but reasonably explained and not for the sake of it) and I like it if everything works out in the end - or, at least, if I can see the possibly of a happy ending (not necessarily for everyone); redemptive endings (not necessarily for everybody); missing moments from canon; unrequited love (but not forever); myths (in all their forms); stories within stories and, indeed, structural cleverness of all kinds; backstories and stories that go beyond the reach of canon in either direction; romance (but only in character); journeys to places that are far or near; things that span a lot of time - arcs as it were; banter during sex; good funny; well researched, elaborate AUs; worldbuilding; conversations; trains and ships; in character kink...

and so on.

Basically, I am easy to please if there's a heart in it ♥

Black Sails (Anny Bonny, Jack Rackham, Fint, Thomas Hamilton).
Full disclosure: I just love pirates. I really do. This show is one of my favourite things on TV. I love the lushness of the world-building, the moral ambiguity of the characters. One of my very few criticisms of this show is that I don't think they're doing enough with Anne Bonny. Anne is one of my favourite historical people and I would love - love - a story set after Black Sails canon when everything falls apart for them. Historical record has it that Anne Bonny disappeared without trace. Where did she go? Where did she end up? What became of everything she was? I also love the hints of Jack and Anne as a quiet but somehow epic love story. An exploration of that would be wonderful, but so would an exploration of either of them as individuals. The same very much goes for Flint or Hamilton although, what I'm mostly interested there is the journey that Flint came on, how he became the man that he became, how he would rather burn the world than live with it. Character. Get inside their heads for me for a little while and I will adore it.

Sense8
Any story you write for me in this fandom would be perfect. Any of the sensates, any combination, any scenario, before canon, after canon, a missing moment. I can't overstate how truly I mean anything. Anything would be perfect. Things that I love about the show: how Wolfgang manages to be both dangerous and vulnerable, how clever Nomi is, Kala and Capheus' heart, Sun's slowly realised self-awakening. I'd love to know more about Riley. Will is just so good. Lito and Hernando. AHHHH. Seriously. Write from your heart. I'll love it.

The Mazerunner (Newt, Thomas, Minho)
Newt. Basically. Just Newt. I would love something about Newt. An AU where the inevitable doesn't happen. A moment that slots within canon. Ship. Gen. An exploration of what brought him to his suicide attempt. ANYTHING about these boys and how they made a world together. I was also heartbroken that Alby wasn't listed in the character list for the movie, so if you can get him in, I would love that!

Whitechapel (Emerson Kent, Joseph Chandler)
If you were to pick one character that I wanted to know more about, post season 4, it would absolutely be darling Emerson Kent. I was so fascinated by his plot in season 4 (and, you know, terrified for his well-being). I'd love a story about his relationship with his sister - why was he so bothered about her going out with Mansell? What does he want out of life? I would be super happy with a case fic or with a character study or something shippy. I have a theory that Joe Chandler is a fallen angel. Really, this fandom offers numerous, legitimate opportunities to go nuts. Have fun XD

Hellblazer (John Constantine)
John. John John John. If this is the canon we've matched on then you could write anything about this mortal bastard and I would be extremely happy. A moment when his life intersected with another canon would be amazing - I loved his appearence in The Sandman, and I think he'd fit amazingly well into the American Gods universe, but I could see him turning up just about anywhere. I did watch the NBC show, too, so if you want to inform comic characterisation with aspects from there, I would be totally into it.

Rivers of London
Same request as last year!
I love these books. I love Peter and his relationship with Leslie, his relationship with Beverly. I love the way he is around women, the way he is around his mother, the way his about magic. Peter Grant is one of those characters that I can proudly label as 'mine' and I love him for it. I find him to be at utterly relatable, believable character and I love that about him. I would love anything about Peter, set during any of the books (the first one is still my favourite, but I love all of them). Peter and the Rivers is probably my favourite part of the books. I love that he manages to still quite fancy Leslie. I love that he loves being a copper and is a little bit crap at magic. I love that he loves London, strange as it is.

ALTERNATIVELY, I also would love a story about Nightingale at Ettersburg. Or in his youth. Anything about Nightingale's backstory would be excellent. Or something that stitches together the few slight things we know about Molly and how she came to be so integral to the Folly.

For reference, I think the idea of Peter/Nightingale is lovely and, if you wanted to write that, I'd be very pleased. I would be equally pleased by any het pairing for Peter - I particularly love Beverly. I am open to any scenario that involves Peter Grant naked.

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eudaimon — Thu, 30 Oct 2014 19:48:43 GMT

I am pretty much going to paraphrase the same thing as I say every year. Firstly, let me say THANK YOU FOR TAKING THE TIME TO WRITE ME SOMETHING. This is by far the worst time of year at my job, which makes me doubly appreciative that you are taking the time to create something just for me. Please be assured that if we have matched on one of the fandoms that I have requested, you will write me something that I will love. Write a story that you enjoy writing and I will be thrilled to receive it. I am going to do a lot of rambling in this letter, but optional details are optional and I promise that you I will love anything you write for me. Feel free to ignore everything and anything here - mostly, what I want to say to you is have fun. Write a story that you love and I am sure that I will love it too.

That said, my weaknesses are many and legion. Among them are (and this is exactly the same list as i always leave):

Angst (but reasonably explained and not for the sake of it) and I like it if everything works out in the end; redemptive endings (not necessarily for everybody); missing moments from canon; unrequited love (but not forever); myths (in all their forms); stories within stories and, indeed, structural cleverness of all kinds; backstories and stories that go beyond the reach of canon in either direction; romance (but only in character); journeys to places that are far or near; things that span a lot of time - arcs as it were; banter during sex; good funny; well researched, elaborate AUs; conversations; trains and ships; in character kink...

and so on.

Basically, I am easy to please if there's a heart in it ♥

Specific stuff on my requests (I don't want to get too specific about this, so really this is very visceral rambly stuff to give you ideas? Maybe? Feel free to ignore it). Also, I will probably ramble about ships a lot. I ALSO LOVE GEN FIC, so feel free to ignore anything like that:

Turn (AMC) (Ben Tallmadge, Abraham Woodhull, Caleb Brewster)
There really is nothing in this fandom that you could write that wouldn't delight me. Ship fic - polyamory would be delightful - for friendship. I'd love something set before the war that explores their friendship. I'd love something focused on espionage but, conversely, don't feel the need to include the war at all. Go wild!

Rivers of London (Peter Grant, Thomas Nightingale, Molly, Beverly Brook)
I love these books. I love Peter and his relationship with Leslie, his relationship with Beverly. I love the way he is around women, the way he is around his mother, the way his about magic. Peter Grant is one of those characters that I can proudly label as 'mine' and I love him for it. I find him to be at utterly relatable, believable character and I love that about him. I would love anything about Peter, set during any of the books (the first one is still my favourite, but I love all of them). Peter and the Rivers is probably my favourite part of the books. I love that he manages to still quite fancy Leslie. I love that he loves being a copper and is a little bit crap at magic. I love that he loves London, strange as it is.

ALTERNATIVELY, I also would love a story about Nightingale at Ettersburg. Or in his youth. Anything about Nightingale's backstory would be excellent. Or something that stitches together the few slight things we know about Molly and how she came to be so integral to the Folly.

For reference, I think the idea of Peter/Nightingale is lovely and, if you wanted to write that, I'd be very pleased. I would be equally pleased by any het pairing for Peter. I am open to any scenario that involves Peter Grant naked (especially because he now looks like Elliot Knight in my head - thank you, BBC One).

If this is the fandom that we match on, rest assured that I will have read Foxglove Summer before the challenge closes - include spoilers at will.

Penny Dreadful (Ethan Chandler, Dorian Grey)
With these boys, I'm really most interested in backstory. How did they end up how they are? Obviously, there's source material to work with with Dorian, but an origin story for Ethan would be fascinating. The fic absolutely doesn't need to be shippy but I would love it if it was! I am fascinated by Ethan's bisexuality so a fic exploring his identity would also be amazing. I love the feel of this show so much so anything in this universe would be excellent.

How to Get Away with Murder (Connor Walsh, Wes Gibbons)
I selected these two characters but, really, I'd be really pleased to see anyone show up in this fic. Explorations of character, something that happens within the current time line (either of them), something silly, something angsty, whatever! Smut! Smut would be superb! It's not like Conor's discerning.

I'll be completely up to date with episodes so please don't worry about spoilers!

In the Flesh (Simon Monroe, Kieren Walker)
Oh my heart, my heart. With season 3 still hanging in the balance, I am dying to know what happens next for these boys. Do they manage to be happy? How does their life together pan out? Does everyone leave them alone? What about the second rising? I'd love something plotty here but, equally, something fluffy and sweet would be lovely. Bonus points for use of Keaton Henson lyrics.

Orphan Black (Sarah Manning, Cal Morrison)
Oh my heart, my heart. With these two, I'm back to wanting backstory about those two months or so that they spent together that clearly had such a big impact on both of them. Cal's a fascinating character and I'd love something exploring him - what was it about him that made someone like Sarah let him in? Sarah's the most interesting of the clones to me - it seems to be that she's had to fight for everything she has and she clearly doesn't always do the right thing - something that gets inside Sarah's head, the clone club and how Cal might fit into all of that would be wonderful.

Thank you so much, Santa! Sorry again for the complete lack of details initially <3. See you in January!

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eudaimon — Thu, 30 Oct 2014 14:02:21 GMT

Dear Santa, I am so SORRY about my totally basic sign up. I blame a combination of mental health issues/thinking I had more time and no internet at home for over a week now! Provides you haven't already defaulted in disgust, there will be a letter here before tomorrow.

SORRY.

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eudaimon — Fri, 23 May 2014 19:58:43 GMT

Guys, I need your advice.

I am really, really worried that the time has come for me to drop Charlie Jones. I've been trying really, really hard not to think about it for a really long time, but it's getting to the point of being ridiculous. I should have made a post for her to have her baby a week ago and I just...don't want to. I've lost all of these connections with her over the last few years and I just...think I've lost the point that I can pull her back from, unless something changes. A lot of the things she does get handwaved - the Hub, the School - and she's just...yeah. She hasn't got many people left. So, I'm left wondering what to do. Either something changes and I can pull her back again (and she is my darling girl, I've been playing her since winter of 2006) or I drop her and I have to sort out all of these logistical things. Somebody would need to take over the Hub - I'd be inclined to futz it so one of my own pups could do that because I love it - and somebody would need to assume the headship of the school, which I think would definitely need to be down to Elissa to choose someone.

I don't know what I want to do, which I guess is where you guys come in. Help me decide what to do.

I'm in a similar boat with Jackson in that I don't REALLY know what to do with him anymore. I'm loathe to drop him with Ripper Street just starting to film season 3, but I just feel like I don't have any direction with him anymore.

IDK. I am going through one of those flat periods where I'm feeling very disillusioned by pretty much EVERYTHING, which has a knock on effect on TR. I am sure it'll level out, but I really nee to get this sorted so that I can go forward on sure footing.

Thanks for reading, if you did! Let me know what you think.

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SotP

eudaimon — Mon, 28 Apr 2014 21:55:04 GMT

State of the Mun:

I am in a pretty good place right now! I still have moments of crushing self-doubt, but I've come to accept those as a part of myself XD I am really excited about the things I've got going on with my pups at the moment and there's some fun stuff going on in the game as a whole and I feel good? I don't know. I feel good about the whole thing. My RP brain sort of functions on squee and excitement, but I feel very, very self-conscious about emailing most people about it, so...uh. Hi. If we're threading, I'm probably excited about it.

Moving forward!

Charlie. Oh, Charlie. I go back and forth on Charlie. I've been playing Charlie for seven years in December and, sometimes, I feel like I've done everything I can do with her. She was affected by an awful lot of drops through last year and it's easy to feel like I'm just holding onto her because I don't want to let her go. That said, when I play her, I still love her. Her second baby is due in the middle of next month - a little boy, this time, by dear departed Sam Merlotte. All of this waflfling basically just goes to prove that I don't really know what I'm doing these days with Charlie. Eventually, I'm going to figure it out. Right now, my prority is getting her reconnected with friends and getting through her delivery next month. If you're up for threads with her, let me know!

Lots going on with Tunny at the moment! Grantaire just told him that he loves him which is...sort of terrying, actually. Tunny's been really careful not to fall for anyone since Neil's dissapearence, but he feels...sort of the edge of it, now. I anticipate a somewhat shaky road, but he'll get there in the end. Then there's the girls and the tattoo parlour. Tunny's always managed to generate quite a lot of plot all on his lonesome. I just...yeah. I love him.

John continues to tick over. His baby is due in June - he can't quite believe that that's happening. When Bee gets back from hiatus, I'm going to need a thread with Laurence. Threads with Julie are always a joy. It's also been a while since he touched base with Priestly. He continues to run the Vet's Clinic off screen. Basically, he's happy.

The biggest development that Jackson's had recently is that Cam kissed him in the middle of the Zombie Apocalypse. Because of the sort of man he is, Jackson's not about to read too much into that, but he was very pleased by it, regardless. Jackson's in the clinic a lot. He's also now got the Artful Dodger living with him, which is a domestic arrangement which I find to be completely and utterly delightful. No big plots on the horizon.

So much going on with Rose at the moment. Currently in the middle of what migt be one of my favourite threads of all time, where Bucky's finally telling her something about his past and breaing her heart in the process; she really has come to think of him as family, which is delightful. She's started dating George Luz, which has a feeling of permenance about it - sometimes, pups just click, don't they. When Bee comes back, virginity is going to be lost, which I honestly can't wait for. I'm also FINALLY hopefully going to do her homeplot next month, stranding her in Ravensbruek to be rescued. I know that Bucky and Luz are definite shoo-ins - anyone else still want their pup involved in some way? I am thinking about dropping Rose back to the moment she refuses to build detonators for doodlebugs and is punished for it. There's a key moment where she's being beaten and loses consiciousness that I think would be brilliant (if gut-wrenching) for a rescue. I am about to begin a reread in preparation. So excited, even though it's going to be horrible.

I felt really shaky there with TomTom for a long while, but he seems to have clicked back into place. He's engaged in a...thing with Marie, which he likes - I've got a sense that he's the kind of boy who has a tendency to develop feelings all of a sudden, so it'll be interesting to see how that goes. He's overjoyed to have Charlie on the island. He's working at the Hub and, pretty soon, he's going to want to start shooting his short film (so I'll be recruiting pups to be actors). I am probably due a canon refresh, though. I should make time to do that.

Vod remains an actually joy, but I am sort of falling down with her at the moment, because she's not nearly as social as she should be. I really need to focus on getting her out there, more. I love that she has a job at the Catscratch, that she's screwing around with Charlie. I should probably go looking for some plot for her; she should probably be in therapy, like she was in canon. Does the island still have a Pscyh department? I should check. Vod is too cool a character for me to not do an awesome job, so I definitely need to sort it out.

Stiles has literally had his debut and one thread so far, but I love him so much. Writing him takes a lot of concentration at the moment to make sure that I'm getting his speech patterns right. I'm detirmined not to let him get off too easily after the Nogitsune thing, to not erase what's happened to him. He's holding it together through force of will at the moment, surrounded by strangers. Hopefully, Scott should be arriving soon and then the fallout can really begin. Stiles is probably another one who needs to be in therapy. Way down the line, I'd really like to do a Nogitsune plot and have two Stiles' on the island for a while. Because I'm cruel. He's had a pretty rough year, all in, so I'm looking forward to giving him time to be a normal teenager. Make friends. That sort of thing. I love him so much

I finally made the decision to bring Joe Liebgott back to the island, five years after I played him initially. I am bringing him from a different debut point - from the baseball match right at the end of "Points" - but he'll be arriving with island memories intact, which, hopefully, will make playing him interesting. There's a handful of faces that he'll recognise - Lip and Luz, obviously, but Jess, Sonya Blade, Saffron, Coraline, a few others. What'll be interesting, particularly, will be playing him through what he's lost - Webster, Trica, the Easy boys who aren't around anymore. I don't anticipate it being an easy road, but a recent rewatch just reminded me of how very, very much I love him. So I'll ride it out.
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Questions? Comments? If you made it this far, I'll give you a gold star.

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eudaimon — Sun, 20 Apr 2014 18:51:40 GMT

The problem with finishing a 10k fic is that I now...don't want to do anything? Ugh.

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eudaimon — Sun, 20 Apr 2014 01:36:49 GMT

but we are the crossroads (10816 words) by eudaimon
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Teen Wolf (TV)
Rating: Mature
Warnings: Major Character Death
Relationships: Scott McCall/Stiles Stilinski
Characters: Scott McCall, Stiles Stilinski
Additional Tags: Post canon, Alternate Universe - Greek Mythology
Summary:

It was only an accident. It wasn't supposed to end like this. Scott's not content to let it lie. He's always felt that he has to do something.

In which Scott is (sort of) Orpheus and Stiles is (maybe) Eurydice.
It's a long, long way down.

A/N: The Orpheus story is my very favourite of all of the myths - it's been haunting my writing for years. I started writing this halfway through 3b airing, and then had to take a break while they sort of explored some of the themes contained here-in. It surprises me that this is the first time that I've written this fic for a fandom.

I hope it's turned out okay.

(I owe a lot to the poem "Snow and Dirty Rain" by Richard Siken, not least the title and epigraph of this fic. You can read the text of the poem here).

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eudaimon — Sun, 23 Mar 2014 18:54:34 GMT

There are EPs that I need to tag and tags I need to do and other things like that but, mostly, what I want to do is read the third Fionavar book and watch Teen Wolf.

I am literally a waste of space right now.

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eudaimon — Fri, 14 Mar 2014 07:55:06 GMT

Everything today is going to be hard. Tell me nice things. Comments are screened.

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eudaimon — Fri, 14 Mar 2014 06:22:35 GMT

I wake up and realise that, this time tomorrow, it will be exactly one year since I spoke to my dad for the last time. On the morning before he died, I went to school on fancy dress, some charity thing. I was doing 50s rockabilly in a red spotty dress with a net underskirt. Sitting up in the armchair, he smiles and told me I looked like Minnie Mouse. I laughed and I kisses him and I went to work and I never saw my dad alive again.

All cancer is terrible but brain cancer was particularly bad because it took him away from us by inches. On the morning after, I sat with his body and told h that I loved him and I was glad he wasn't hurting and to go safely to wherever his destination was. To go gently.

Sometimes, it makes me feel like I haven't got a heart - my relatively quiet reactions, compared to those of my siblings. But maybe there are things you insulate yourself from, hide them away so that you can feel no more pain.

My dad. My beloved old man.
A year seems to have gone by incredibly quickly and also to slowly to be believed.

But it has gone.

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eudaimon — Thu, 13 Mar 2014 21:43:10 GMT

Charlie Jones | Heroes
Not a lot going on with Charlie at the moment. Her second baby is due at the end of April; it's going to be a boy named Gabriel. Since Guy was dropped, Charlie is the only person in charge of the school; she's also got the Hub to run so, off screen, I imagine she's fairly busy, especially since she's also serving on the Council this term. I might give her an EP next week, drowning in paperwork in the Council Office. More than anything I'd like to make some more friends - so if anyone is interested in talking to Charlie let me know and we can set a thread up!
Berry Plot: don't think so this time although actually she is a hero so it might be fun to give her an eidetic memory back to the duration of the plot.

Tunny Clarke | American Idiot
Tunny is having a relatively rough time with parenthood recently. I suddenly realised that the other day with the twins will be a seven in September so I'm playing becoming a little bit more willful and difficult as they get older. It's interesting to me because, at the end of the day, he's 22 and suddenly a dad and he isn't even that good at it sometimes. He's trying really hard to be good at it but it doesn't always work out that way. In terms of organised plot I don't have a lot of attorney at the moment. He is hanging out with Grantaire a lot and I was have fun when he hangs out with Rizzo to. I actually quite like it is taking a while to figure everything out, not rushing into a relationship with anyone.
Berry plot: not this time. THOUGH, the temptation to throw the twins in and give them something comparable to Eostre's power is massive. I SHOULD DO THAT.

John Granby | Temeraire
Oh, Granby. Again the baby is due in April so Granby had a little bit longer to get used to fatherhood. I recently gave him his item so he is due a little bit of a break on the horizon. I know that Sarah is planning Julie's home plot which of course John will be involved in. He should be given the opportunity to meet the in-laws.
Berry Plot: May Day, actually. But I've got no idea what power I would give him.

Homer Jackson | Ripper Street
Continues to be Jackson. Still working in the clinic. Still trying to get into cam's pants. Spending time with Phedre. I don't have that much plot for Jackson but he seems to keep bumbling along. I thought - for a while - that I was losing him. I had a complicated relationship l with how he was written in series 2. At the end of the day turns out that I just love him too much to let him go. So I suppose good doctor will be sticking around for a while longer– especially with Amazon financing series 3. I can't turn down more canon...
Berry plot: not this time I don't think.

Rose Justice | Rose Justice
Oh, my God - I went through a period of thinking that I really didn't have her voice, but that seems to have settled down. She has this little group of friends that I really enjoy; particularly have friendships with Kivrin and Bucky. Recently she's been flirting with George Luz; I'm not sure if anything will happen there but we'll see when Bee comes back from hiatus. On the plot front, I think I'm nearly ready to do Rosie's home plot. It's going to be a tough one because I think I want to send her back to Ravensbrueck. There is scene in the novel where she refuses to build doodlebug detonators and is punished as a result. I was thinking about landing her back in that moment which mean anyone want along with her would need to rescue her from solitary confinement. Depending how goes with her, I don't know whether they want to witness the punishments (pretty much all you need to know at this point is that it is that punishment which left Rosie with the scars on her backside and legs). It's going to be pretty horrible but I also think it would be really interesting from Rosie in terms of character development. If you are interested in your pop coming along with Rosie can you let me know in a comment? I think this is the kind of plot that I would like to keep small, but I'll try and include anyone who wants to come.
Berry plot: depending on the timing of phone plot and who else is involved, maybe.

Tom Tomkins | By Any Means
I was really, genuinely concerned about tom-tom up until Mardi Gras. Suddenly everything seems to have clicked into place where he's concerned. Having Charlie on the island is beyond lovely but he's also got this burgeoning crowd of other friends, plus a hint of romance with Marie. Or sex, at least. He might be making a short film - in which case, I'll be looking for pups to be actors and he'll be holding a premiere. I am so glad that he settled in and that everything seems to be going so well.
Berry plot: I feel like I really ought to put him into this, because he's a big nerd and he's love it! Hmmm.

Vod Nordstrom | Fresh Meat
Oh, God, I love Vod so much. She's settled into the island pretty well. She's signed on a dancer at the Catscratch Club (and, God, I had so much fun on the last Catscratch club - thanks to anyone who tagged that! XD). She's fucking Charlie O'Brien, which she enjoys, and Rizzo, also good, but she is pretty much canonically always up for easy hook-ups. And I don't think there are enough drugs on the island for her to be completely IC. I've put out feelers for her having a radio show, I think she'll take some classes at the school next term. I love playing her. I'm so glad I apped her.
Berry Plot: Nope.

THE FUTURE:
Stiles Stilinski is on reserve, currently. Basically, I resisted Teen Wolf for AGES and then I inhaled it all at once. Like, in the space of about a week and a half. Every single episode. Which means I'm caught up for the last few episodes of season 3, which is pretty much the most stressful thing ever. I'm waiting until the season wraps up so that I can pick a debut point but, either way, he's going to have a really rough time of it for the first few weeks. He's an adorable teenage boy with a beautiful face - someone be kind to him.

After that, I'm not sure...

But I'm rereading the Fionavar Tapestry, which always makes me Paul Schafer (I'm thinking Damien Molony as a PB if I do go for it) and I also love Jack Rackham from Black Sails. So...choices, choices.

But first, Stiles.

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