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kitty hi

esteefee — Mon, 23 Mar 2026 05:32:45 GMT

my kitty Rocket wants to say hi to kayerox and her Bengal!

tag test

esteefee — Sun, 13 Mar 2022 11:16:53 GMT

oh hello! testing tag posting for the IFTTT trigger of my RSS feed. don't mind me!

testing crossposting to dreamwidt 2

esteefee — Sat, 12 Mar 2022 14:12:38 GMT

don't mind me. if this works, I'm hoping to spread the love to others who want automatic backups to DW. this is using IFTTT's IF new rss feed THEN email dw posting feature.

Happy Birthday Popkin!

esteefee — Sun, 25 Jul 2021 07:13:34 GMT

LJ say it's your birthday
so happy birthday my friend!
all the best things to you, popkin16!

Oh, dear

esteefee — Fri, 30 Dec 2016 07:29:21 GMT

All: it appears LiveJournal has moved all their servers to Russia. As a result, I have decided I no longer want to post content to them.

This will be my final cross-post from my Dreamwidth account, so if you want to continue to receive journal content from me and you are reading this on LJ, please create an account at dreamwidth.org and subscribe to my circle/ask me to friend you (I'm esteefee there).

If you are reading this on DW, obviously you need do nothing at all. ~:

If you are looking for any content that is located on my LJ but seems to be missing thanks to LJ's new, draconian rules, go to my DW account and use the tags or my memories to try to locate the story. Or simply go to my fiction on AO3 and search for the story there. I am pretty religious about cross-posting.

Farewell, LJ. It's been a long and interesting road.

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my hero

esteefee — Wed, 28 Dec 2016 06:20:42 GMT

farewell to the space princess
who took over her own rescue
she was a general, a senator
and a rebel
and a friend
to robots
leia
<3

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SGA Fic: This Gun for Hire

esteefee — Fri, 16 Dec 2016 07:58:04 GMT

Title: This Gun for Hire
Pairing: John/Rodney
Rating: PG
Categories: PWP, FT, Drunken kissing and frottage
Words: 1,086
Warnings: none that I know of
Beta: em_kellesvig
Summary: John is outraged, outraged on Rodney's behalf.
A/N: From an idea Mischief and I had.

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em_kellesvig

SGA Fic: What We Are Now

esteefee — Mon, 31 Oct 2016 21:31:58 GMT

Title: What We Are Now
Pairing: John/Rodney
Rating: PG
Categories: AU: Sentinel/Guide, coda for The Return 2
Words: 2447
Warnings: none that I know of
Beta: em_kellesvig
Summary: John and Rodney are a platonic pairing. They're fine that way. Look, they just recaptured the City of the Ancestors from the Replicators, so they must be doing something right.
A/N: Happy Birthday, keiramarcos!!

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it was my brother’s fault

esteefee — Fri, 14 Oct 2016 07:20:39 GMT

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let me tell you about the time I epoxied my eye shut.

see, my brother asked me to hold the nose of his plane while he used one of these to wind the big rubber band. so I did, because he would do the same for me shortly, only I didn’t know he’d sanded down his nose too far and had used epoxy to glue on his spinner (who does that?), and then I happened to rub my eye (I was like 7 okay) and–

“why are you squinting at me?” he says.

“i can’t open my eye.”

“why not?”

“because it’s stuck? this stuff is gooey”

“...! WE HAVE TO GO SEE MR. WARNER NOW.”

Mr. Warner was our super fabulous aeronautics instructor who made us our own airplane kits and would demonstrate how a jet engine flew using a hand-made model and a popped whippet canister. I’m pretty sure I now know what he was doing with the spare ones after class to deal with idiots like me who showed up with their eyelids epoxied shut.

[background babble: all the summer school parents now freaking out at my seven year-old eye glued shut. my parental figure was teaching his own class at the time and not there to freak out. my brother was pissed because this was cutting into his flying time out on the tarmac.]

“why would you use epoxy?” Mr. Warner very calmly remonstrated with my brother as he dripped something awful onto my face that made my eye burn. “epoxy is too heavy and drags your nose down. next time, use Testors.”

“ow,” I said. but I trusted Mr. Warner. Mr. Warner once made me a dirigible out of tissue paper and balsa wood.

then he used his big ol’ thumbs and tugged down on my cheek and up on my eyebrow and my eyelid pulled open. he did it, mind you, like he had to do this all the time, like rotten kids like me showed up with body parts glued together as a matter of course.

“there we go,” he said and patted me on my 7 year-old head. “go work on your model. get her up for 4 minutes. and no epoxy!”

a four-minute+ flight was the objective of all us balsa plane nerds, and I swore, my right eye smarting fiercely as I ran after my brother, that I would beat the record.

as soon as I could catch my brother. he owed me a wind up.

Tags:model plane, sibling rivalry, childhood, klutz, do not recommend, epoxy in your eye, just saying, but mr. warner was the bomb, ptlife

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SGA Snippet: The Seer (McShep, G)

esteefee — Mon, 26 Sep 2016 01:07:05 GMT

Title: The Seer
Pairing: John/Rodney
Rating: G
Categories: Pre-Slash, Earthside (Bar) AU, +Fan Art, Beer
Words: 841
Warnings: none that I know of; let me know
A/N: Inspired by Telesilla's Tumblr prompt:
"Take the episode number away and you have a title to go with this album cover."

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SGA Vid: Unsteady

esteefee — Sat, 06 Aug 2016 08:10:39 GMT

Unsteady by X Ambassadors
McShep Vid by esteefee
Rodney h/c, UST, Atlantis taking care of Rodney <3

Rodney McKay - Unsteady (song by X Ambassadors) from esteefee on Vimeo.

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happy birthday, rabidfan!

esteefee — Wed, 27 Jul 2016 16:45:35 GMT

happy birday, rabidfan! I wish you many John Sheppards! lying broken on the floor. :D

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opposable thumbs

esteefee — Sat, 23 Jul 2016 10:07:45 GMT

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ice is very nice when you have a minor bike accident. also, sleep has been tremendously beneficial. alas, because I do not have a Service Lemur (© em_kellesvig) to sit on my arm and assist me, here are the things I have discovered I can’t do w/o two opposable thumbs, since I fractured my left one:

1. put a key on a keyring
2. tie a pony tail
3. open a childproof pill bottle (figured it out eventually)
4. clip PK’s nails (this will shortly become critical)
5. play Abe’s Oddworld

however, if you must fracture or break a fingerbone, I highly recommend breaking your non-dominant thumb's distal phalanx. you probably use your dominant thumb for the space bar already, so it won’t affect your typing, and of the list above, my biggest concern is that PK will shred my ninja pajamas before the six weeks are up.

here, have a lemur:

Tags:ptlife, lemur, pirate kitty

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Workplace Accidents - with em-kellesvig (mischief5) - McShep (PG)

esteefee — Thu, 14 Jul 2016 04:12:54 GMT

Title: Workplace Accidents
Fandom: Stargate Atlantis
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Rodney McKay/John Sheppard
Characters: John Sheppard, Rodney McKay
Additional Tags: Masturbation, Gaslighting, Humor, Pre-Slash, Hurt/Comfort
Summary:

Rodney injures himself in an unusual fashion. John just wants to understand how. Using kinesiology.

Tags:stargate atlantis, mcshep, john/rodney, with em, new fic, sgaedit, ptdw

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY Mischief!!!!!

esteefee — Thu, 07 Jul 2016 06:36:03 GMT

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY em_kellesvig!!!!!

Tags:stargate, stargate atlantis, happy birthday baby, for em, someecards, stole the cake girl from someecards, here have a wraith cake, ptdw

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Free to a follower! Never been opened. These came

esteefee — Sat, 11 Jun 2016 23:33:50 GMT

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~~Free to a follower! Never been opened. These came with my old phone but I have a set of bluetooth headphones I prefer. First to PM me gets ‘em.~~ They’re too pretty to throw away.

Gone to a good home!

Tags:ptlife

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Happy Birthday my Punk!

esteefee — Thu, 26 May 2016 21:32:39 GMT

Happy Birthday runpunkrun!

May visions of pretty boys dance in your head.

(why is he wearing underwear? does he know this is a press shoot?)

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Two zines for sale, one zine story posted

esteefee — Sat, 21 May 2016 09:28:53 GMT

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hey guys: back by popular demand (if you can label a handful of people pestering me as such), I’ve reformatted my old S/H novel(las) Jericho (2005) and Torn (2004) for sale on Lulu.com. See the details below. I’ve also posted a zine story to celebrate, for those who don’t do zines for whatever reason.

Proceeds from the .69/zine profits will go to the SF SPCA.

Jericho for sale on Lulu.com (with cover illustration by Lorraine Brevig!)

Torn for sale on Lulu.com

Go here for tags/warnings/details on both. They are both very S/H slashy slash slash.

New zine story posted:

Title: Never Let Go
Pairing: Starsky/Hutch, Rating: R
Originally Published 10/2010 in The Perfect Couple by Flamingo and KeriT
Categories: Starsky H/C, PTSD, First Time, post-Bloodbath
Words: 9,532
Beta: CC
Warnings: Canon-related drug references and to Starsky’s trauma in Bloodbath.
Summary: In this coda to Bloodbath, Starsky slowly recovers his disturbing memories of that shattered time, and learns something valuable in the process.

Agent Molo, signing out.

Tags:starsky and hutch, s/h, starsky/hutch, zine, zine stuff, zines, ptlife

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Movie Review: CACW

esteefee — Mon, 16 May 2016 19:38:57 GMT

Movie Review: Captain America: Civil War. Spoilery as heck! Do not enter if you haven't seen it, unless you want to be spoiled. I thought this movie was a thematic mess.

The central theme they danced b/w government control versus private autonomy got utterly lost when they mixed in the cross-theme of vigilantism. I'm not sure if that was intentional or not, but if it was, boy were they off the mark, because the ending turned the rationale of the film contradictory and foolish.

Steve thinks the Avengers should have no oversight and follow no laws of any country. He makes this very clear in various meetings they have with the Secretary of State and later. He doesn't want to lose the Avengers' autonomy.

But then you have the Black Panther, who decides that Bucky is responsible for his father's death and swears vengeance on Bucky -- more vigilantism. If Black Panther doesn't follow due process and kills Bucky, how is that legal and just? Poor Bucky was innocent. It was a set-up. And if Bucky had followed due process and turned himself in instead of he and Steve beating on and almost killing cops just doing their jobs (think of the hours of surgery and physical therapy for all these poor people!!!! And the countless injured in the car chase through the tunnel, not to mention the property damage) then the truth would have come out and there would be no Civil War among the Avengers.

They fought for nothing. And if they'd been willing to follow due process, well, that's all that's being asked, right? Respect the sovereignty of nations. The United Freaking Nations is asking the Avengers to ASK PERMISSION before swooping in and taking action. That's all. For chrissake. That doesn't seem like too much to ask, to sign an accord and stick to it. Just because you are super, doesn't mean you own the place. And then if you accidentally blow it up like you always do, at least then you can point to the U.N. and say they asked for it. Jesus.

Anyway, back to the film. They found out more baddies are in the offing and go investigate. Tony changes sides completely and wants to wreak vengeance for his parents--more vigilantism. Shouldn't Steve support that according to his rules? Bucky is a criminal. Bucky murdered Tony's parents and so Steve should let Tony and Bucky duke it out. But no, it turns out Steve has no real morality. It seems loyalty alone is his guide--Bucky is his friend so never mind his past. And I have to say: sorry, but that's what the courts are for, to protect us from all-powerful people who use loyalty (old-boy networks), emotion, and cash to make decisions of justice instead of the even hand of the law. The laws should apply to everyone, not just to people who aren't Steve's buddies. Tony isn't Bucky's judge and neither is Steve. Bucky should stand trial, probably be found mentally incompetent for his crimes, and be treated by psychiatric professionals to get rid of those Cold War codes that are his triggers. Instead, he gets put on ice again? Poor Bucky!!! He deserves a life. He deserves warmth and friendship and not to be cold and alone. My heart broke for him. If they weren't in hiding, he could have had the world's best psychiatrists working on his problem. (Not to disrespect the Wakandan's medical services, but they are one nation, not a world-wide resource.)

And poor Tony--his face when he realized Steve knew that Bucky had killed his parents. Augh. And he's treated like an outcast for standing up for the U.N. and the sovereignty of nations. And then Clint taunts him as if it's his fault? You don't do millions of dollars in property damage, cause a permanent spinal injury to your team mate, and then high horse it, Clint.

I really didn't enjoy this movie. It seemed like a big mess, thematically, and just a 2.5 hour set-up for the 20 minute yawner of a fight in the airport parking lot, and the Steve-Tony-Bucky fight. Poorly thought-out justification for dick-swinging.

I may be done with Marvel altogether if they don't get some better writers.

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signal boost

esteefee — Thu, 05 May 2016 06:47:41 GMT

signal boosting if you love Judith Tarr's books as I do and you like horses, her retired horse farm is in dire straits and could use a helping hand if you want to support her Patreon.

Details here.

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Prince's solo starts at 3:28. Genius.

esteefee — Fri, 22 Apr 2016 00:01:52 GMT

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Prince’s solo starts at 3:28. Genius.

I mean wtf?

Tags:prince, rip, god damn it, 2016 officially sucks donkey balls, ptlife

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Plot Bunny Dust-Off Challenge

esteefee — Thu, 24 Mar 2016 07:28:44 GMT

I just found out about this, so I only have a week, but I think I'm going to try.

Click on the bunny for the master post.

The rules are here. You only have to write a couple of sentences to qualify? Dust off those plot bunnies!

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So I rode my bike in the drizzly rain...

esteefee — Tue, 15 Mar 2016 07:53:02 GMT

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[Photo credit DJS Photo]

So I rode my bike in the drizzly rain to the pharmacy and pulled up to the bike rack, where I saw, perched neat as you please and staring right at me, a Brewer's blackbird (male). He didn't budge as I approached, just puffed up a little, his feathers all misted with rain.

I said, "Hey, 'scuse me; I need to park, sir." But Mr. Birb, he paid me no mind, didn't peep or move, just stared, kind of at my shoulder, to be truthful, like he was fronting a little.

I leaned over my handlebars and stared right back, my nose about a foot from his beak, neither of us blinking. Well, I assume he didn't blink–those yellow eyes are tiny but fierce, and eventually I had to bow my head and say, "All right, Mr. Birb. You make a strong case. You were here first." So I pushed my bike around the corner and found a parking meter to lock it to.

When I got out of the pharmacy, Mr. Birb was gone. I hope he flies safe in the rain.

Tags:brewer's blackbird, ptlife, non fandom

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“Is it time for leave yet?”

esteefee — Sat, 05 Mar 2016 07:34:33 GMT

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“Is it time for leave yet?”

Tags:stargate atlantis, 04x13: quarantine, john sheppard, thinking deep thoughts, about vacation, and surfing, with em, ptdw

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Atlantis Mess Runs Out of Coffee!

esteefee — Thu, 03 Mar 2016 13:01:18 GMT

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Tags:stargate atlantis, rodney mckay, picspam, crack, 04x13: quarantine, coffee addict, ptdw

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