I Don't Believe In Being Lonely

Desperate, A Little Delusional

2010-09-27T23:32:11Z

This fanmix is an ode to Dean Winchester. Because I love him. I'm not too sure if the song choices will make sense to anyone who isn't me though. The songs are vaguely chronological, although they get a bit tangled in the middle, but lets just say the last few songs are definitely about Swan Song and the year between that and Exile on Main Street. Some songs are specific, like Clean Getaway and In Our Bedroom After the War and others are more general, like I Want Blood. Some are both, like I Don't Want to Die (In The Hospital) which reminded me of "Faith" in season one, where Dean refuses to remain in the hospital even when he believes he's going to die, but also reminds me generally of season 3. Some songs are just about Dean's general enjoyment of what he does earlier in the series (Fair Game) and others are darker as his burdens grow heavier (Help I'm Alive and I'm Dying). But most of all, it's a Dean mix, his personality, his trials and tribulations, his love for his family.

I Want Blood - Empires
And I want blood, I want blood from you
If it ain't your love, I want blood from you

Combat Baby - Metric
Get back in town I wanna paint it black
I wanna get around
easy living crowd so flat
said it all before
they try to kick it, their feet fall asleep
I want to be wrong but
No one here wants to fight me like you do

Combat baby come back baby
fight off the lethargy
don't go quietly
combat baby
Said you would never give up easy
combat baby come back

I Don't Want to Die (In the Hospital) - Conor Oberst
I don't give a damn what the doctors say
I ain't gonna spend another lonesome day
I don't want to die in the hospital
You got to take me back outside

And they don't let you smoke and you can't get drunk
All there is to watch are these soap operas
I don't want to die in the hospital
You got to take me back outside

Fair Game - The Like
Have you got the heart and have you got the guts?
It's not a sport but who says life should be so boring?
We find your rules a bit extraneous
We leave you breathless, right?

Its all fair game, anyway

Make Me Feel Human - Kyle Andrews
Obey me to the grave
And when you're diggin me up
use a kind word
whisper in my ear
I wallowed in the dirt
just to have you near
I wallowed in the dirt
just have you near

Help I'm Alive - Metric
I tremble
They're gonna eat me alive
If I stumble
They're gonna eat me alive

Can you hear my heart beating like a hammer
Beating like a hammer
Help, I'm alive, my heart keeps beating like a hammer

Bloodsport - Sneaker Pimps
I want to be a kid again
Come down having Sunday best
See me staying home bunking school
Knowing wrong from right just rules

'Cause love is just a bloodsport

I'm Dying - Vast
Not one days goes by
That I don't compromise
Your love for the cold love of the world

Not one day goes by
That I don't know
That I'm dying

Club Called Heaven - Black Cards
See myself in a long black car
With the windows up heads down
And the cops in front of me
With high beams holier than thou
They say that this life is just a lease from God
Yeah I'll start the party if the gates come off

Hell is filled with broken dreams
And I know the doorman personally

And we're dancing, in a club called heaven

Worry About You - Ivy
Bye, bye, baby
Don't be long
I worry about you
While you're gone

Clean Getaway - Maria Taylor
I made my place by the door
I didn't know what I was waiting for
It felt just like home
Except no grass, no yard, no pictures hung

I finally made it
I made a clean getaway

In Our Bedroom After the War - Stars
Lift your head and look out the window
Stay that way for the rest of the day and watch the time go
Listen, the birds sing, listen, the bells ring
All the living are dead and the dead are all living
The war is over and we are beginning

We won or we think we did
When you went away you were just a kid
And if you lost it all and you lost it
Well, we'll still be there when your war is over

Zip

3. The Sign of the Four

2010-01-31T00:04:02Z

Book number 3 of the year, and second of Sherlock Holmes:

The Sign of the Four by Sir Arthur Conan Doyle

"'For me' said Sherlock Holmes, 'there still remains the cocaine-bottle.' And he stretched his long white hand up for it."

|A Study in Scarlet - Sir Arthur Conan Doyle|Dispatches from the Edge - Anderson Cooper|The Sign of the Four - ACD|

I'm not sure if I should be including short stories and essays in these. I mean, I intend to read the Sherlock Holmes short stories, and I feel like its a legitimate thing to record, so I shall, but separately from the books:

|The Death of a Moth - Virginia Woolf|Transfiguration - Annie Dillard|Toys - Roland Barthes|Souls on Ice - Mark Doty|

2. Dispatches From the Edge

2010-01-24T03:36:29Z

Book number two:

Dispatches From the Edge by Anderson Cooper

This was a really great book, even if it could at times be a little repetitive. It really puts thing in perspective. The stories about malnutrition in Niger and Somali were pretty hard to swallow. The chapters about Katrina, however, are particularly striking.

"I've always thought that New Year's Eve is proof that human beings are essentially optimistic creatures. Despite hundreds of years of pathetic parties and hellish hangovers, we continue to cling to the notion that it's possible to have fun on that night. It's not. There's too much pressure, too many expectations, too few bathrooms."

"'We look at each other with maybe too much hubris and say, "This is America, this doesn't happen here,"' Dr. Henderson says, sitting with me amid a pile of rubbish on the curb outside the Convention Center. 'This is disgraceful. This is a national disgrace. Nowhere in this country should that ever have to happen again. But unless we learn from this, it's going to be very ugly 'cause it's going to happen again.'"

|A Study in Scarlet|Dispatches From the Edge|

1. A Study in Scarlet

2010-01-23T05:56:27Z

I am determined to read more this year. Determined! Thus, meme posts! Obviously. I'm going to record the books I read this year, starting with the first:

A Study in Scarlet by Sir Arthur Conan Doyle

I'm.......probably not going to review them. Or at least not all of them. And even those I do probably not very well or very articulately.

"As the weeks went by, my interest in him and my curiosity as to his aims in life, gradually deepened and increased. His very person and appearance were such as to strike the attention of the most casual observer. In height he was rather over six feet, and so excessively lean that he seemed to be considerably taller."

"I might not have gone but for you, and so have missed the finest study I ever came across: a study in scarlet, eh?"

|A Study in Scarlet|

Musical Therapy

2009-07-07T03:23:54Z

esperar @ 2009-07-06T23:21:00

2009-07-07T03:21:49Z

Fuck you Ryan Ross.

Faith Fell Short This Time

2009-05-07T00:27:20Z

If I held onto these icons one more second, I was going to shoot myself. It would have been very messy. It's just such an effort to code and cross-post. If I wasn't such a snob I'd just use a generator for coding, but I have too much fucking pride and insist on doing it by hand. As for cross-posting...to be honest I probably won't x-post these, or at least not all of them. Some of the fandoms I have absolutely no interest in anymore (I'm looking at you Grey's Anatomy) and some of them there are just too few icons to really justify an x-post. Some of these I really love, others I really hate, but I'm finally dumping them after months of just sitting on my hard drive. It makes me sad to realize I only posted icons three times in all of 2008. And now that I've finished all the coding, I'm too lazy to x-post. Whatever. At least this is done.

[1-12] Doctor Who
[13-21] Life on Mars (UK)
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OH EM GEE

2009-01-21T06:18:35Z

EPIC SHIT MAN. EPIC SHIT WENT DOWN TODAY. AS IN BARAK OBAMA IS FUCKING PRESIDENT AND IT'S SO AWESOME AND OMG OMG OMG.

Also I'm 18. Hurray.

OMFG. Years from now I will remember this day and I will remember his inauguration and watching it with my fellow classmates and cheering and clapping like crazy and the two million people that turned out and the crazy energy and excitement.

I am fucking proud to be an American again.

And wow I never hit post. Whoops.

Jon Stewart = Win

2008-12-19T22:40:25Z

Win of epic proportions!

What SHHS Does at Prideworks

2008-11-18T22:31:10Z

100% Concentrated Awesome-Sauce

2008-11-15T02:21:38Z

Word.

I think I love MSNBC. Rachel Maddow anyone? She's awesome.

EDIT: Political Activism Anyone?

You're Making Promises You Can't Keep

2008-10-12T01:41:59Z

♥

Icons

2008-08-12T00:24:09Z

I can't believe I'm posting new icons only, what, two weeks after my last post. I also find it highly amusing that the Doctor doesn't actually appear in this batch of Doctor Who icons.

[14]Doctor Who
[9]Torchwood
[5]South of Nowhere
[5]The 4400
[1]Header (South of Nowhere)
[1]Wallpaper (The 4400)

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2008-07-28T06:23:46Z

Well, at least it wasn't a whole year between posts this time. Also, I think I might be exceptionally proud of this batch. Some are several months old but others are as new as today. I wish I had more South of Nowhere icons to post but if I wait to accumulate more this spark of motivation will pass and no one will see these until October. (And since this was x-posted like, across the globe, sorry about your friends pages). Without further ado:

[18] Doctor Who
[11] Torchwood
[8] Lost
[7] Secret Diary of a Call Girl
[5] South of Nowhere
[4] Queer as Folk
[3] Twilight
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Fanmix (Archive?)

2008-07-09T03:39:02Z

Boredom begets productivity! No, not really. But in this case it begets a post of fanmix recommendations.

This is a work in progress in that I'll probably lose my patience before I finish it tonight and, of course, new mixes appear all the time and will hopefully be added later. I think all the fanmixes in this post are excellent and worthy of a recomendation, so the order in which I rec them has no meaning, it's simply the order in which I remembered/found the links to/itunes played a song off of - them.

Also, this is going to be heavy on the Doctor Who because that fandom just has so many wonderful mixes (and also I'm obsessed). And, lastly, I'm barely touching some of the large fandoms, like Harry Potter and Twilight, because theres just so much there, I'm only recing the ones that I might have currently open.

THIS IS NOT COMPLETE. IT IS A WORK IN PROGRESS.

Also, I'm not providing warnings. I'll give a time line if I can but I'm not warning explicitly for spoilers or mature content.

Doctor Who
1. Lets Become Stories - dallowayward
2. As The Story Goes - dallowayward
3. Man of Steel, Man of Heart(s) - dallowayward
The above three mixes are a set, covering seasons one, two, and three respectively (season four soon to join them I'm sure). All three are excellent. The combination of music, cover art and presentation is tasteful and fitting. Perhaps one of the best qualities, the mixes are appreciative of all characters and unbiased in relation to relationships. They present the seasons episodically and provide due attention to all important events and people.

4. Ephemeral - boxed
boxed has many fanmixes, most of which I have not yet had the chance to listen to, but this one is excellent. It's a Ten/Rose mix, and the songs follow their many adventures together. The cover art is gorgeous and the presentation is clean and simple though devoid of a specific time line.

5. Don't Know Where, Don't Know When - uptheapples
This is a lovely Doctor/Rose mix. It begins at the end of season one, continues through two and doomsday, speculates on feelings through season three, and incorporates early season four foreshadowing. Nice front cover and simple presentation.

6. Leave Me Your Stardust - starsburn
Another lovely Doctor/Rose mix (I promise I'm going to include non-Doctor/Rose mixes in this post too! Swear!). Beautiful cover art, nice presentation, excellent music choices. No real order or time line, the mix mostly describes post-doomsday feelings of longing.

7. She Dared To Dream - kit_kat1990
8. Dancing In Your Wedding Dress - kit_kat1990
9. She's Got Heaven in Her Eyes - kit_kat1990
Three wonderful mixes for the lovely and tragic Donna Noble. The cover art is just fantastic, the music choice beautiful and well chosen. Definitely some of the best mixes in the fandom.

10. Never Just a Passenger - darkangsty42 and knightbusdriver
A wonderful mix for the kick ass Martha Jones (has anyone else noticed that RTD seems to have an unhealthy admiration for the surname "Jones"?). It was a collaborative project and it has some nice cover art but no detailed time line. A bit of unrequited doctor love in there too, as this is, after all, a factor in the shaping of Martha Jones. But if you're a Martha fan, this is a mix for you.

11. The Future, Wouldn't That Be Nice? - claidi_art
One of my favorite Doctor/Rose mixes (oh you thought I was done with those did you?). Lovely art, great music, what more can I say?

12. I Feel It All - aderyn
Short, but no less sweet, I give you another Martha mix. This focuses on The Last of The Timelords and the aftermath (which was life altering for Martha, obviously). I'm not sure why, but the simple cover art really attracts me, something to do with the shapes no doubt.

13. Everything But Stop Time - colorbox
Short, poignant, and pretty cover art. Doctor/Rose. A lovely intro paragraph as well. Colorbox has several other fanmixes as well, check them out.

14. Beginning After The End - builtofsorrow
This isn't just a fanmix, its a ficmix, and even if you don't like the music, stick around for the fiction. Its a Martha mix (with a bit of Jack mixed in), post season three. And its beautiful, both the music and the writing.

15. Guilty by Design - katernater
The Doctor/Master relationship is just so complicated and - lets face it - fucked up, that how can you not be intrigued? Katernater's mix really captures the push-pull of the doctor/master relationship. A little bit of the Master's twisted obsession, a little bit of the Doctor's unending forgiveness. Lovely cover art and well chosen music.

Torchwood
1. All of a Sudden I Miss Everyone - boxed
Another excellent fanmix by Boxed. This is for Captain Jack Harkness. It's just a general character mix. The music is great, the cover art is lovely and theres a very nice introduction paragraph at the top that's worth a read. Oddly enough, I think my favorite part of this mix, is the title itself. All of a Sudden I Miss Everyone is just Jack in a nutshell. It's perfect. If you're a Jack Harkness fan like myself, then take the time for this mix.

2. Young Liars - lieutenants
While Gwen/Owen is not my Torchwood pairing of choice, sometimes we have to discard our biases in the face of brilliance. This mix, a Gwen/Owen tribute, is near perfection. A beautiful intro paragraph, fantastic cover art, and of course, excellent music. It's the kind of mix that gets inside your head. You might not latch onto it immediately but you'll find yourself humming the tunes next week, itching to play them again. Have at it.

3. LIKE PAPER CUTS; you took me by surprise - frotcake
A purely season one Ianto mix. An oh, what a tortured soul Season-One!Ianto was. This song has lovely music and art. It's an ode to the great lengths Ianto is willing to go through for those he cares about as well as the torrent of emotions (particularly fear and confusion) that he experienced in season one.

4. They Rewrote the Measure of You and Me - chemfishee
Oh, Owen and Tosh! I'm still sore from the loss. This is a lovely mix for Owen/Tosh. The mix is broken into two EPs, or two sides if you will, one for Tosh and one for Owen, so its a little melancholy, but beautiful nonetheless. The mix goes all the way through 2.13, Exit Wounds.

Angel/Buffy the Vampire Slayer
1. Lack of Grace - corellianjedi
This is a fanmix for Wesley, from mid-season three through season five. Well put together with simple but nice cover art.

2. I Kissed Your Lips and I Tasted Blood - cityphonelines
A beautiful Buffy/Angel mix.

Lost
1. Not a Pretty Girl - vega_ofthe_lyre
This is a Kate Austen fanmix. It has some Kate/Sawyer and Kate/Jake undertones but that can be overlooked for the non-shippers because the music is great and the cover art beautiful.

2. 3 Figures on Your Heart - modernthirst
I'm afraid this pairing, Jack/Kate, is sorely lacking in good fanmixes, mostly a result of broken links and locked posts. But this mix had a lot of hard work poured into it. Read the explanation paragraph at the top for an idea of the themes involved and enjoy the great music.

One Tree Hill
1. The Clouds Are Far Behind Me - finn21
~~This is probably the only Tree Hill mix I'm going to rec.~~ Its a Nathan/Haley mix that covers their whole relationship, but its still a nice and reasonable size, 9 songs. Its a nice mix, good music, nice cover art. Check it out.

2. Where You Belong - kit_kat1990
I wasn't going to rec any other OTH mixes than the one above, because since I'm a die hard Peyton/Lucas fan (and mostly inflexible in this fandmo), there really isn't too much to choose from. And then kit_kat1990, author of the previously recced Donna mixes churned out this fantastic Peyton/Lucas mix and of course I had to add it to the list. So, a beautiful collection of songs and gorgeous cover art. No specific timeline is detailed but "implied spoilers for seaosn 5" is noted.

Avatar:The Last Airbender
1. Carve Our Hearts - dharmavati
This is a Pakku/Kanna fanmix ~~(because old school ships need love too)~~. Short but well put together and with nice fanart (manipulated fanart I might add, well done).

2. DESTINY CHOSE BEFORE ASKING - violensi
I don't ship this pairing and I haven't even finished the mix yet, but its so epic that I felt it deserved recing. Its an Aang/Zuko mix, but since I don't ship em, I try to look at it as more of a rivals/two-boys-who've-been-fucked-over-by-destiny mix. Enjoy.

Harry Potter
1. Now You Are Dangerous - modernthirst
There are a vast array of Harry Potter fanmixes. One would need several lifetimes to sort through them all. I'm only going to rec this one for now. Its a Harry/Ginny Deathly Hallows mix, and its gorgeous. Its got a wonderful sound and cover art as well as an interesting title/subtitle.

The Chronicles of Narnia
1. What Didn't Last - chipped_icons
This is another ficmix. The writing is simply beautiful. Its a Susan/Peter mix. The time line is a bit vague, but I'd place the start after Caspian. The mix is Susan-centric and so follows her life.

Rose/Doctor Care Package

2008-07-06T07:38:04Z

Spinnin'& Grinnin'

We'll All Float On Okay

Cheer up! We sorta got what we wanted! Which is better than nothing!

Just Two Words

2008-06-29T20:37:07Z

So this all started when I was at the mall, and "I Still Remember" by Bloc Party started playing while I was in the Gap and I was singing along and all of a sudden I realized the song was just screaming Rose/Doctor post-Doomsday. So out of that grew this fanmix. It loosely covers their adventures in seasons one and two, doomsday and the aftermath, and of course, the recent and upcoming events of season four. (Which by the way, yes, does mean spoilers for season four, so stay away if you don't want to know.)

I also couldn't resist adding a song to the end for the terrible peril everyone is in at the moment.

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01. take me anywhere - Tegan and Sara
I'm full of love and longing
Take me by the hand and tell me
You would take me anywhere

02. look up - Stars
Your girl, shes a renegade
a hurricane that keeps you there, safe
hurricane that keeps you there, safe
youre cold, maybe you just missed the sun
you fall, feeling like its just begun
so far, keeping it togethers been enough
look up: rain is falling, looks like love

03. the runaway - Something Corporate
If I woke up alone I won't stop till I'll find you and you are with me
cause by now, I know you better than you know yourself
and I know what you really need
what you need, or I need
but either way this is where you should be

04. boats & birds - Gregory and the Hawk
But you can skyrocket away from me
and never come back if you find another galaxy
far from here with more room to fly
just leave me your stardust to remember you by

05. lifesize - A Fine Frenzy
We lit the streets with the sweetest glow
We held the globe and made it turn
Wandered through the universe
The men of science observed through telescopes

06. something to do with my hands - Her Space Holiday
You know it saves me to think even for a little while
I owned the set of shoulders that you came to rely on

07. warm and sunny days - The Dears
We've been surrounded
For it was genius
There was no other way
And we know we won't escape
All of our time
Spent on warm and sunny days
From you there's nowhere left I want to run

08. nineteen - Tegan and Sara
I feel you in my heart,
And I don't even know you
And now we're saying
Bye, bye, bye
Now we're saying
Bye, bye, bye
I was nineteen

09. i still remember - Bloc Party
And I can see our days are becoming nights.
I could feel your heartbeat across the grass.
We should have run.
I would go with you anywhere.
I should have kissed you by the water

10. the call - Regina Spektor
Pick a star on the dark horizon and follow the light
You'll come back when it's over
No need to say goodbye

11. whisper - A Fine Frenzy
But if you keep real close
Yeah, you stay real close
I will reach you
I'm down to a whisper
In a daydream on a hill
Shut down to a whisper
Can you hear me still

12. late great planet earth - Plumb
The sky is falling
Voices crying out in desperation
Hear them calling
You can never save yourself

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When We Finally Hit The Bottom

2008-05-21T18:53:16Z

So here is my Buffy/Angel mix. I'm kind of on a fanmix making roll aren't I?

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01 How to be Dead - Snow Patrol
Please keep your hands down
And stop raising your voice
It's hardly what I'd be doing if you gave me a choice
For me, this song encompasses most of the Buffy/Angel relationship, starting with episode seven, season one, "Angel", when Buffy first learns Angel is a vampire. The song also reminds me strongly of early season two and three, when the two are struggling with their feelings and their positions, and deciding whether or not its worth the risk of getting involved. It also reminds me of "I Will Remember You" and "Sanctuary" from Angel season one. I see it as both perspectives and can be perceived as either for different verses.

02 We Looked Like Giants - Death Cab For Cutie
God bless the daylight, the sugary smell of springtime
Remembering when you were mine
In a still suburban town
A song for "Innocence" and "Surprise", the short bliss they enjoyed before "Surprise", the one night they had together, and the return of Angelus accompanied by his campaign to destroy Buffy.

03 C.S. Lewis Song - Brooke Fraser
Speak to me in the light of the dawn
Mercy comes with the morning
I will sigh and with all creation groan
As I wait for hope to come for me

Am I lost or just less found,
On the straight or on the roundabout of the wrong way?
Is this a soul that stirs in me,
Is it breaking free, wanting to come alive?
This song reminds me of "Surprise" and "Innocence" as well. It also reminds me of Buffy's struggles with returning to life in season six.

04 Majoring in Minors - Sugarcult
Watching your lips move together
Nothing's making sense
Talk to me
Talk to me
I don't want to break the silence with the taste of something violent
Come to me
Come to me
This song is for the struggle between Buffy and Angelus. He's lost his soul but that doesn't mean Buffy has stopped loving him. She blames herself and she can't bring herself to kill him but she'll have to do it eventually. It can also be seen as Angel's decision to leave in season three.

05 I Don't Know If I'll Be Back This Time - Sea Wolf
Will this key work anymore?
Does someone else now live inside?
I think the former tenant died

I don't know if I'll be back this time
I might just stay here with you
Again I am reminded of Surprise and Innocence but also of the return of Angel's soul in Becoming Part Two and his return from hell in season three. The confusion and guilt he felt over what he'd done, all the while still struggling to suppress the feelings he had for Buffy.

06 Everything Changes - Staind
If you just walked away
What could I really say?
Would it matter anyway?
Would it change how you feel?

I am the mess you chose
The closet you cannot close
This song reminds me of Buffy asking for time at the end of "Lover's Walk" in season three, Angel's departure after Graduation Day Part Two, and Buffy leaving at the end of "I Will Remember You" and at the end of "Sanctuary".

07 I Know I Know I Know - Tegan and Sara
Laugh with me, shout, scream now tell me you're staying
I know I know I know, you're still my love
The same as I love you, you'll always love me too
This love isn't good unless it's me and you

Last night I was writing about you
I know my screaming and shouting won't keep you
I know I know I know, you're still my love
Angel's leaving at the end of Season three. Even though they're both in love with each other and neither wants it to end, he knows he has to let her go, at least for now.

08 Los Angeles - Sugarcult
This city's killing me
I want, I want, I want everything
This city's killing me
In the heat of Los Angeles

Come on, come on
It's alive and breathing
Come on, come on
Come alive today
Come on, come on
It's a heartless beating
I heard this song about two years ago and it immediately reminded me of Angel, the entire song just screamed Angel. It reminds me strongly of Angel's arrival in L.A. and the mission he chooses to take on, trying to forget about Sunnydale and the mistakes he's made.

09 Save Us - Feeder
Face against the ground
Torn, but you can stand
Your will is strong, but you have now
I know you can save us

Fears you can’t deny
It’s burned a hole, right through your soul
But I know you can save us
This is just a hero song for Buffy and Angel, both of them suffering endlessly through trial after trial trying to fight the good fight. They keep getting knocked down but they always get up again.

10 I'm Dying - VAST
Not one day goes by
That I don't compromise your love
For the cold love of the world
It's killing me through
My own evil pride
Angel's P.O.V., in all his angst, especially in season two with all he goes through for and with Darla. And also for Buffy, in season six, as she struggles with trying to readjust to the world after experiencing heaven.

11 03.45: No Sleep - The Cardigans
I'm dating ancient ghosts
The ones I made friends with
The comfort of fireflies
Long gone before daylight

And if I had one wish fulfilled tonight
I'd ask for the sun to never rise
This is set during Season five of Buffy, when Angel comes to comfort her after the her mother's funeral. Neither wants him to leave but the morning is coming.

12 Please Please Please - Shout Out Louds
Long time ago
The times we had were so and so
It was the worst date of your life

But yesterday when I saw your eyes in a black haze
You didn't even know my name
So I walked on pretending that you still belong
but it will never be the same no more
Again for Buffy's angst in season six and Angel's longing. Their off-screen meeting when she returns.

13 Keep Myself Awake - Black Lab
It's always cold
It's always day
You're always here
You always say
I'm all right
I'll be okay
If i can keep myself awake
Another reminder of IWRY as well, this song also reminds me of Angel Season five and Buffy Season seven. Sort of what I can imagine them feeling as they near their respective "end-of-the-world"s.

14 The World You Love - Jimmy Eat World
I got a story it's almost finished
all i need is someone to tell it to
maybe, that's you.

it doesn't seem there's hope for me
i let you down
but i won't give in now
not for any amount
Mostly Angel's P.O.V. it relates to NFA and post-NFA feelings.

15 Bixby Canyon Bridge - Death Cab For Cutie
Beneath the Bixby Canyon Bridge
Until I eventually arrived
At the place where your soul had died.
Buffy, Post Chosen and NFA, reflecting on Angel during her search for what has become of him.

16 You're A Wolf - Sea Wolf
Old gypsy woman spoke to me, lips stained red from a bottle of wine.
The one that you are looking for, you’re not gonna find her here.
Angel reflecting on the return of his soul, the first, second, and third times. Post-NFA finding his path again.

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Icons

2008-05-02T20:47:45Z

After last night's episode of Lost, and all its Jack/Kate scenes, I thought about holding off on posting these so I could icon that episode to add to these. But I've decided to post these so that episode can remain inspiration for another post. So there will probably be another post full of lost icons soon.
And, since my brother and I have randomly been watching One Tree Hill, I made a few animated icons from that.
I wish I had more avatar icons to post at once but I haven't gotten around to really iconing TBR.

-Lost (some animated)
-One Tree Hill (all animated)
-Avatar (some animated) (NYCC SPOILERS and One Boiling Rock Icon (not a spoiler icon))
-Harry Potter
-Lost Header and Wallpaper
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Text: (I know some of the icons are difficult to read so here's what some of those ones say)
7. Burn Burn Burn Your Life Down
26. Don't Look Back Running The Other Way
31. I Write To You Through Other Means
32. Before The Crash
40. I Want My Family Back
45. Always Catching You When You Fall
46. If You're Missing I Will Run Away I Will Find You

I Write To You Through Other Means - A Jack/Kate Fanmix

2008-04-28T23:30:50Z

So, at long last, I have finished my Jack/Kate fanmix. I'm cross posting it to fanmix too but it always takes a while for the post to get through the queue. Anyway here it is:

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Are You Ten Years Ago - Tegan and Sara
Is it right for me I never fight to see if coming clean
Would get to me I feel myself, holding back
This song is from Kate's P.O.V. The words in this song are sort of jerky and fast, kind of like thoughts on overdrive. I sort of imagine it like Kate's mind, jumping between wanting to run away or stick around Jack.

Past In Present - Feist
Gotta know who's got your back
Because they're right in front of you//
So much past inside my present inside my past
Inside my present
This song can be either P.O.V. Its about how much of their past's are playing into their present situations: the things they've done, the choices they've made. But despite history, they're still looking out for each other.

Back in Your Head - Tegan and Sara
I just want back in your head
I'm not unfaithful
But I'll stray
When I get a little scared
This song is a bit more time specific. Its Kate's P.O.V. during the season three disconnect between Jack and Kate and while she was with Sawyer.

With Arms Outstretched - Rilo Kiley
Don't fool yourself in thinking you're more than a man
'Cause you'll probably end up dead//
And if you want me you better speak up
I won't wait
So you'd better move fast
This could also be taken as either P.O.V. but I imagined it more as Kate's. Its just a reminder that they both have competition and despite Jack's confession, he's still hanging around Juliet an awful lot.

Godspell - The Cardigans
I’m one of a few survivors
In a drawer labeled "lost and found"//
You can tell by the way they move you
It's not murder, it's an act of faith, baby
More of a general song about the survivors on the island. The end of the songs reminds me strongly of Jack and Kate though.

Elevator Love Letter - Stars
And I don't know how to love//
Don't go, say you'll stay
In this song, amusingly enough, the roles are reversed. The female singer is Jack and the male Kate. It describes their pre-island characters, Kate always running away and Jack always working.

Gold Lion - Yeah Yeah Yeahs
Outside, Inside,
This is the moon without a tide,
We'll build a fire in your eyes
This song is also general. For whatever reason it reminds me of the two, though no specific lyric fits particularly well.

The Dim and The Dark - Jump Little Children
And now I know that everything is alright
If we stay between the glow and the light
This is from Jack's P.O.V. He loves Kate but he's still a little wary of her, nonetheless, he admires her.

The Mixed Tape - Jack's Mannequin
I read your letter
The one you left when you broke into my house
Retracing every step you made
This song is also from Jack's P.O.V. Its sort of what I would imagine if they'd all gotten off the island and Kate had run away. She'd run but she couldn't help but be drawn back to Jack. Meanwhile Jack would be working nonstop and wondering where she was.

Taught To Look Away - matt pond PA
Are you listening 2,000 miles from here?
Is the same sky just as clear?
Out of the window the slow light morning
First hits your hands, touches your face
Again from Jack's P.O.V. its again a little wondering after Kate if she'd run away and a little admiring again.

Jigsaw Falling Into Place - Radiohead
Before you've had too much
Come back and focus again//
Jigsaws falling into place
There is nothing to explain
Yet again Jack's P.O.V. this is the sort of dance I imagine Jack and Kate were doing after the rescue. Between their own feelings, Aaron, and Kate's trial they've never really gotten a chance to resolve all their issues and unasked questions. They can't be too close because Jack's testimony needs to seem true without the possibility of his being in love with Kate, though he is.

Time Running - Tegan and Sara
I want a house on a beach and you in my dreams
I need water, yeah, and a love love love love
The time you've got me running
This is also the post-rescue jig only from Kate's P.O.V.

Could Be Anything - The Eames Era
I certainly hope that you are happy
With your new change of company
Surrounded by your enemies
Another time specific song, Kate's P.O.V. in season three when Jack is becoming chummy with Juliet. She longs for his company but feels the gap that has grown between them.

Swingset Chain - Loquat
I'm back to the way I was when you weren't around
If you want to know what that was like
I'll tell you first, it was way too quiet //
I'm freaking out that we've started breaking down
Before momentum picked up
Kate's P.O.V. Again this is Kate worrying about Jack and Juliet and feeling a bit hurt and a bit lonely.

The Runaway - Something Corporate
If I woke up alone I won't stop till I'll find you and you are with me
cause by now, I know you better than you know yourself
and I know what you really need
Jack's P.O.V. At this point, there's no way Jack's going to let Kate run away, though I don't really believe she would. They've gotten to understand each other so well they almost know the other better than themselves.

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Isn't This a Shock

2007-12-02T19:49:22Z

I cannot believe its been more than a year since I posted, well anything graphic related. Its insanity. Most of this stuff has just accumulated, the sad part being thats its really not that much. Only about 50 items. There are a few wallpapers and headers and random things that don't really have a name or place to go but I usually put in my user info. Some of its really not that great but I'm posting it anyway because if I don't this wouldn't be much of a post.

-Bleach
-Twilight Series (These were all made prior to the actor announcements and therefore all contain Emily Browning as Bella and Gaspard Ulliel as Edward) (Three Wallpapers)
-First Nana Movie
-Ouran High School Host Club
-Harry Potter
-Loveless
-Connor Oberst
-The 4400 (& One Header)
-Vampire Knight (& One Header)
-Death Note (& One Header)
-Paradise Kiss
-Naruto
-Fullmetal Alchemist
-Angel Sanctuary
-Avatar (One Header)
-Random

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*Ignore how that random Twilight quote icon is stuck in the middle of the Nana icons. I accidentally skipped a row when I was writing the table and I wasn't willing to take the time to rework it. So its just out of place.
**God being a reference to Jordan Collier.

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Light Flickers Menacing Shadow Faces

2007-10-24T20:42:29Z

I have no idea where the fuck this came from, but I made a mix, I made it a cover and a back cover, I zipped it all and uploaded it. What the fuck.

Dianna you can look at the track list under the cut but you basically have all this music (half of it probably came from you) so theres not much point in downloading it.

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*I love how I missed a song on the track list. Queen of Apology by The Sounds is in there too. -_-

In other news, I'm considering buying a rename token to change my journal name. No idea wtf to rename it though.

Icons

2006-10-20T20:29:34Z

OMG, Icons, holy shit its been awhile, and there aren't even a lot either. There are btvs icons in this batch, yep a relapse. I blame itunes.

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X-(7)BTVS/ATS (How long has it been since that)
X-(6)The 4400
X-(1)Bones
X-(1)House
X-(1)Bleach
X-(2)Naruto
X-(1)Physch
X-(1)Random
X-(3)Headers {1Angel, 1Bones, 1Buffy/Angel}

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2006-05-17T22:20:21Z

-15 Fullmetal Alchemist
-2 Naruto
-1 Random

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2006-04-22T23:38:01Z

-Naruto
[x]1 Kiba
[x]2 Neji and Hinata
[x]1 Sakura and Ino
[x]4 Sasuke
-Loveless
[x]3 Ritsuka
[x]1 Soubi
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