Desperate, A Little Delusional

This fanmix is an ode to Dean Winchester. Because I love him. I'm not too sure if the song choices will make sense to anyone who isn't me though. The songs are vaguely chronological, although they get a bit tangled in the middle, but lets just say the last few songs are definitely about Swan Song and the year between that and Exile on Main Street. Some songs are specific, like Clean Getaway and In Our Bedroom After the War and others are more general, like I Want Blood. Some are both, like I Don't Want to Die (In The Hospital) which reminded me of "Faith" in season one, where Dean refuses to remain in the hospital even when he believes he's going to die, but also reminds me generally of season 3. Some songs are just about Dean's general enjoyment of what he does earlier in the series (Fair Game) and others are darker as his burdens grow heavier (Help I'm Alive and I'm Dying). But most of all, it's a Dean mix, his personality, his trials and tribulations, his love for his family.





I Want Blood - Empires
And I want blood, I want blood from you
If it ain't your love, I want blood from you

Combat Baby - Metric
Get back in town I wanna paint it black
I wanna get around
easy living crowd so flat
said it all before
they try to kick it, their feet fall asleep
I want to be wrong but
No one here wants to fight me like you do

Combat baby come back baby
fight off the lethargy
don't go quietly
combat baby
Said you would never give up easy
combat baby come back

I Don't Want to Die (In the Hospital) - Conor Oberst
I don't give a damn what the doctors say
I ain't gonna spend another lonesome day
I don't want to die in the hospital
You got to take me back outside

And they don't let you smoke and you can't get drunk
All there is to watch are these soap operas
I don't want to die in the hospital
You got to take me back outside

Fair Game - The Like
Have you got the heart and have you got the guts?
It's not a sport but who says life should be so boring?
We find your rules a bit extraneous
We leave you breathless, right?

Its all fair game, anyway

Make Me Feel Human - Kyle Andrews
Obey me to the grave
And when you're diggin me up
use a kind word
whisper in my ear
I wallowed in the dirt
just to have you near
I wallowed in the dirt
just have you near

Help I'm Alive - Metric
I tremble
They're gonna eat me alive
If I stumble
They're gonna eat me alive

Can you hear my heart beating like a hammer
Beating like a hammer
Help, I'm alive, my heart keeps beating like a hammer

Bloodsport - Sneaker Pimps
I want to be a kid again
Come down having Sunday best
See me staying home bunking school
Knowing wrong from right just rules

'Cause love is just a bloodsport

I'm Dying - Vast
Not one days goes by
That I don't compromise
Your love for the cold love of the world

Not one day goes by
That I don't know
That I'm dying

Club Called Heaven - Black Cards
See myself in a long black car
With the windows up heads down
And the cops in front of me
With high beams holier than thou
They say that this life is just a lease from God
Yeah I'll start the party if the gates come off

Hell is filled with broken dreams
And I know the doorman personally

And we're dancing, in a club called heaven

Worry About You - Ivy
Bye, bye, baby
Don't be long
I worry about you
While you're gone

Clean Getaway - Maria Taylor
I made my place by the door
I didn't know what I was waiting for
It felt just like home
Except no grass, no yard, no pictures hung

I finally made it
I made a clean getaway

In Our Bedroom After the War - Stars
Lift your head and look out the window
Stay that way for the rest of the day and watch the time go
Listen, the birds sing, listen, the bells ring
All the living are dead and the dead are all living
The war is over and we are beginning

We won or we think we did
When you went away you were just a kid
And if you lost it all and you lost it
Well, we'll still be there when your war is over

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