Alex's LJ

eskander — Tue, 04 May 2004 22:47:01 GMT

"She smiled at him.

His pulse began to race, his blood boil with excitement and lust, his breathing quickened and his mouth went dry. His knees went weak and he had to hold onto the trunk of the tree for support. He smiled.

Anya looked down, some of her blond hair falling in front of her ice blue eyes. She looked back up at him again and pushed the loose strands from her eyes.

There was music. An orchestra of stringed instruments playing behind him. Turning he saw five men playing music upon a dais and then they stopped. He turned again and saw her agai at the top of the stairs. Her gold streaks let down to her neck, her lips with a hint of cayenne, her blue dress fit her perfectly. He smiled at her as he saw the gold necklace around her neck. He wasn't sure if she'd wear it in public and was pleased that she was. She looked like a goddess. All eyes were on her, every man in that audience wanted her but she was only interested in one. She was looking into his eyes as she started descending the stairs and some of the guests cleared a path for her. The musicians resumed their play and the guests continued talking. She approached him always keeping her eyes to his, his heart beating faster, his hands feeling numb. Her voyage now almost over, she bit her lower lip as she approached him.
'Anya, my love.' he heard from behind him. She closed her eyes, took a deep breath and walked on to her husband. Her scent hit him, powerful and enchanting. He couldn't stand it, he must have her.

She lay beneath him, her arms and legs wrapped around his naked form. His mouth on hers as he thrust into her again. Her nails digging into the flesh of his back, she broke the kiss and moaned softly. He kissed her neck and slowly moved down to her breasts.

They lay on the red sating sheets in each others arms until the morning light. He had watched her sleep through most of the night, just like he had promised he would when they first met. He stroked her face and kissed her cheek. She slowly opened her eyes. 'I love you' she told him. He smiled and kissed her again. 'I lo...'

'...ve yo...' He was sitting in a chair in front of a fire place. He looked around trying to get his bearings. Long thick drapes on the far wall, massive fireplace, bear skins on the floor, hunting knives, bows and other weapons on the walls. Not merely decoration, these were well kept and deadly. Anya sat across from him in another chair. He smiled at her, she looked at him, deep in thought, but did not respond. Jeroy walked to her and opened his mouth as if to say something but he just couldn't hear what Jeroy was saying. Anya turned towards him and opened her mouth but there was no sound. He looked at the fire, felt the heat but could not hear any crackling of flames or snapping of wood. He looked back at Anya and Jeroy, she was telling him something. Jeroy looked directly at him, his face distorted as if in pain and his colour had turned bad, a sickly pale white. Jeroy just stood as if in a trance staring at him all the while Anya speaking. Fear struck him then, Jeroy's features had changed from sad to angry. Jeroy's face was now a bright red, his eyebrows in a sickeningly distorted angle point towards the middle of his face, tears streamed down his face, his nose started to run and his mouth turned into an ugly twisted knot, his cheek and neck musles tight with strain.

His eyes scanned from Anya to Jeroy and back again. Anya was still talking but had her eyes closed. He could make out what looked like his name as her mouth kept moving. Her head was tilted up a bit and her hands held close to her chest. She had the slightest of smiles on as she spoke. Jeroy had moved over to where weapons were hanging from a wall, he reached for a small hunting knife used for skinning.

'No...' he said. 'No...! Anya! Not again! Please no!'

Jeroy had his left hand on Anya's head stroking her hair. His right hand holding the knife just under her chin, his thumb stroking her cheek. A tear fell from his face to her's and she opened her eyes. She stopped talking when she saw he was crying. Her hand came to his face and he could only imagine she was trying to comfort Jeroy. Fear struck her then when she realized just what he had in his hand.

He couldn't move, his limbs wouldn't respond. Every part of his soul wanted to jump across the room and stop what he knew was to come. No matter how much he tried, nothing would move, not even his head. As if he was forced to watch the outcome.

Anya started to struggle but Jeroy pulled her hair bringing her head back exposing her neck.

'Nooooooooooo! Please no!'

He woke then, Milin standing over him. 'The same dream again Alender?'

Alender was drenched in sweat. 'Yes.'

'Drink some ale, it will help'.

'Nothing can help with this, friend' Alendar said turning away from his friend. He held the pendant of her necklace tightly in his hand and tried to sleep again. A tear running down into his pillow.

eskander — Sat, 01 May 2004 08:33:10 GMT

well, finished retouching the pics i got, i think i'll surprise my mom and my grandmother on mothers day although some of the pics didn't really need all that much work
i think i'll color some of them too

eskander — Fri, 30 Apr 2004 23:43:58 GMT

so far i have two other parts to this story that i haven't finished. i start them and like them but i get side tracked with the story itself and go off on a tangent, it's really annoying
this will be the third part that will probably not get finished but i'll post it tonight anyways

"Julla wasn't very happy, this blasted war had drained his funds tremendously, almost completely. The sooner he would be rid of it the sooner he could start selling again. He sat in his study going over some papers on this months operation costs and sales estimates and rubbing his swollen cheek. He didn't even want to see how his black eye looked. Down almost two hundred percent since Mizel came into town and took control of rationing the resources. Julla had been approached by Mizel when he first came to town, saying he needed supplies for the village and his army. Julla smiled as he thought about the vast profits he would make.

'Seeing as how I'm currently the only merchant inside these walls with any stock left I'll try and be fair to the cause and sell my supplies at one hundred gold raq per kilo.'
'One hundred?!' Mizel's right hand man, Hund exclaimed in disbelief. 'That's ten times the normal going rate, you can't be serious!'

'Unfortunately I must. I've lost so much business with the coming of this miserable war. My competitors have almost put me out of business. I consider myself lucky that I still have these supplies.' He tried to explain.

'Now is not the time to try and make a profit you fool. If we don't have food and medicines for our soldiers there won't be anyone to protect your stock, and what of the Ryeta when they come through here?' Hund said trying to keep his anger from showing. His face, a bright red at this point, had other ideas.

Julla enjoyed watching the young man become so agitated over this topic. 'The Ryeta, I'm sure, would give me at least that much for my supplies.' He said innocently.

'You would sell our stock to the enemy?! I should have you arrested for treason!' Hund was now standing up, his composure completely lost.

'Hund, sit. That will be enough.' Mizel's voice was calm and strong. He sat across the table from Julla but was facing his young officer. He turned back towards Julla, his ice grey eyes fixed Julla's brown. Julla shivered and blinked, looked to his desk then to the officer once again. 'Julla, I'll give you fifteen gold raq for a kilo, not a coin more.'

'I-I-I'm sorry commander, I'm afraid my prices are fixed until something further develops.'

'I understand.' Mizel rose to leave and offered his hand to the short round man. Hund was in disbelief. Mizel, a great strategist and master organizer had given in so easily. 'Hund.'

'Y-yes sir.' Still mystified.

'Have a small regiment of men open Master Julla's holdings and move the supplies to the warehouse next to the barracks, have guards on rotation protecting them and pay Master Julla two raq per kilo. Good day to you Master Julla.'

Julla's face went pale and he started sweating profusely. 'Y-you can't do that!'

'I can and just did, I played fair with you Julla but you had to go to far.' Mizel turned to leave.

Julla now furious and rose quickly, his chair falling to the floor on it's back. He pulled a long dagger from its sheath in his belt and ran towards the commander 'You bastard!'

Mizel spun on his left heel right as Julla tried to thrust his dagger into Mizel's right shoulder. The sudden move caught Julla off guard, he tripped, hit his head on a counter, fell to the floor and didn't move. Mizel closed the door behind him and told Hund to call the doctor to Julla's house to make sure he received the attention he needed and also that he get whatever medicine he would need for when he woke up. Hund smiled and left.

That was four days ago, the swelling had gone down little and he would soon have to go to the doctor for more herbs to help with the pain. Arrogant bastard, thought Julla as the door to his office opened. A dark haired man with a cloth wrapped around his head covering his left eye stood in the doorway. 'Ah, Eira. Come in, come in. Have you gotten your orders yet?'

'Yes. They'll be here in two weeks and want the bull and the wolf taken care of. My master thinks it would be easier if he didn't have to deal with these two when he arrives.'

'The effect that would have on moral in the city would be a great one indeed. Has he said how he wants this dealt with?'

'Yes, it has to be as bloody as possible. Fear is key to taking this city and just strangling them or a knife to the back won't do.' Eira started cleaning his finger nails with a blade he had removed from his sash hanging from his left shoulder. The knife was a foot long two inch wide blade, light weight, perfectly balanced and deadly at any distance.

'Hmm... Do you have any ideas yet?' Julla placed a poultice on his face, he cringed with the pressure.

'I do.'

'And what does your Master require of me?'

Eira smilled. pulled a piece of paper from his sleeve and slid it on the table.

eskander — Fri, 30 Apr 2004 20:32:26 GMT

ugh, ate too much
hate this feeling

eskander — Thu, 29 Apr 2004 22:34:52 GMT

on the way home after movies at carl's place, i had this overwhelming sense of well being. this amazing feeling of life.
the day was gorgeous, warm and windy with a little sun, just enough for me to wear my sun glasses
i look for any reason to wear them, out of all the pairs of sun glasses i've ever had only two really suited me, none as much as my current ones now
the night even better than the day, getting a little cooler with a nice slow breeze, unfortunately it's thursday and people need to get drunk and let loose on thursdays, but thats little to no reason to let it ruin my day
i get home and the house is quiet, a nice welcoming feeling. most of the day was spent with someone in the house or around me and it was nice to be alone for a little while
i get to my room and a warm sleepy feeling hits me, my bed beckons but it has to wait, couple things i have to do before i succumb to it's desires
refreshing shower and back to the bed
the only thing that can really make this day anymore perfect would be sleeping next to someone i care about

the guys always joke about how i'm the slut of the group, which isn't saying much since there's only one other person who has a girlfriend who none of us have met and could quite possibly be a figment of his imagination ;P, but i do miss these quiet sharing - sleeping next to someone times
and i didn't really get that with vickie because when i was by her i couldn't wait to leave and when she was by me i couldn't wait to get her out

all switched up inside now
me wanting a different lifestyle
i blame iza! :P

eskander — Thu, 29 Apr 2004 08:08:42 GMT

i need to buy more wife beaters. these things are great

eskander — Thu, 29 Apr 2004 07:46:09 GMT

looking for people to play squash with
if you don't have a racket, no worries, i have extras

my body is rather lean right now but my stamina is probably shot to all hell and i'm looking to remedy that and i'd rather not do that all by my onesies

eskander — Wed, 28 Apr 2004 17:03:37 GMT

Taken from Most of You
Think back, and choose a good memory of me. or involving me. be as detailed as you can in describing it. once you've done that, post this in your own lj for memories of you.

eskander — Wed, 28 Apr 2004 08:04:21 GMT

Big earthquake with a strength of 8.1 on the Richter scale has hit Mexico.

Two million Mexicans have died and over a million are injured. The country is totally ruined and the government doesn't know where to start with providing help to rebuild.

The world is in shock.

Canada is sending troopers to help the Mexican army control the riots.

Saudi Arabia is sending oil.

Other Latin American countries are sending supplies.

The European community is sending food and money.

The United States, not to be outdone, is sending two million replacement Mexicans.

eskander — Wed, 28 Apr 2004 08:01:11 GMT

A recent study found out which days men prefer to have
   sex. It was found that men preferred to engage in
   sexual activity on the days that started with the
   letter "T".

   Examples of those days are as follows:

   Tuesday

   Thursday

   Thanksgiving

   Today

   Tomorrow

   Thaturday

   Thunday

eskander — Tue, 27 Apr 2004 09:19:37 GMT

lol
i just realized that my fast finished two days ago :)

heh

eskander — Mon, 26 Apr 2004 18:45:23 GMT

don't waste your time on me your already the voice inside my head...

eskander — Mon, 26 Apr 2004 18:34:19 GMT

i'm in the weirdest mood
melancholic and tired mainly
today has gone unbelievably slow
i didn't even feel like doing anything with the guys tonight
last night was disappointing and confusing

left me with a feeling of 'well fuck...'
i wish i could understand people better
and i could say the right things at the right time, say the things that people need to hear

pretty much so that i could rule the world
i'd love to be a con artist...

Hello there,
the angel from my nightmare,
the shadow in the background of the morgue.
The unsuspecting victim,
of darkness in the valley,
we can live like Jack and Sally if we want,
where you can always find me.
We'll have Halloween on Christmas.
And in the night we'll wish this never ends,
we'll wish this never ends...
(miss you miss you)
(miss you miss you)

Where are you,
and i'm so sorry,
I cannot sleep i cannot dream tonight!
I need somebody and always,
This sick strange darkness
comes creeping on so haunting everytime.
And as i stared i counted, the webs from all the spiders, catching things and eating their in sides.
Like indecision to call you,
and hear your voice of treason,
Will you come home and stop this pain tonight?
Stop this pain tonight.

Dont waste your time on me you're already the voice in side my head!
(miss you miss you)

Dont waste your time on me you're already the voice in side my head!
(miss you miss you)

Dont waste your time on me you're already the voice in side my head!
(miss you miss you)

Dont waste your time on me you're already the voice in side my head!
(miss you miss you)

Dont waste your time on me you're already the voice in side my head!
(miss you miss you)

Dont waste your time on me you're already the voice in side my head!
(miss you miss you)

(miss you miss you)

(miss you miss you)

(miss you miss you)

(miss you miss you)

god i love blink's slow songs
does anyone know any others?

eskander — Mon, 26 Apr 2004 05:49:28 GMT

A Nun asked her class to write notes to God.
Here are some they handed in:
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Dear God:

I didn't think orange went with purple until I saw the sunset You made on Tuesday. That was cool.

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Dear God:
Instead of letting people die and having to make new ones, why don't You keep the ones You already have?
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Dear God:
Maybe Cain and Abel would not have killed each other if they had their own rooms. That's what my Mom did for me and my brother.
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Dear God:
If You watch me in church on Sunday, I'll show You my new shoes.

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Dear God:

I bet it is very hard to love everyone in the whole world. There are only 4 people in our family and I'm having a hard time loving all of them.

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Dear God:
In school they told us what You do. Who does it when You are on vacation?
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Dear God:
Are You really invisible or is it just a trick?
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Dear God:

Is it true my father won't get into heaven if he uses his bowling words in the house?
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Dear God:

Did You mean for the giraffe to look like that or was it an accident?
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Dear God:
Who draws the lines around the countries?
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Dear God:
I went to this wedding and they kissed right in the church. Is that OK?
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Dear God:
Did You really mean "do unto others as they do unto you"? Because if You did, then I'm going to get my brother good.
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Dear God:
Thank You for the baby brother, but I think you got confused because what I prayed for was a puppy.
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Dear God:
Please send me a pony. I never asked for anything before. You can look it up.
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Dear God:
I want to be just like my Daddy when I get big, but not with so much hair all over.
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Dear God:
You don't have to worry about me; I always look both ways.
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Dear God:
I think about You sometimes, even when I'm not praying.
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Dear God:
Of all the people who worked for You, I like Noah and David the best.
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Dear God:
My brother told me about being born but it doesn't sound right. They're just kidding, aren't they?
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Dear God:
I would like to live 900 years just like the guy in the Bible.

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Dear God:
We read Thomas Edison made light. But in Sunday school they said You did it. So, I bet he stole Your idea

eskander — Mon, 19 Apr 2004 21:52:56 GMT

this is great :)
i saw this on Sensible Erection just now
check out this action figure

eskander — Sun, 18 Apr 2004 19:25:36 GMT

ZERO GRAVITY

When NASA first started sending up astronauts, they quickly discovered that ball-point pens would not work in zero gravity. To combat this problem, NASA scientists spent a decade and $12 million developing a pen that writes in zero gravity, upside down, on almost any surface including glass and at temperatures ranging from below freezing to over 300 C.

The Russians used a pencil.

Enjoy paying your taxes--they're due again.

eskander — Sat, 17 Apr 2004 23:38:22 GMT

you'll have to excuse my server
eric is running shareaza and the network is already pretty unstable
if it doesn't work try again in 30 seconds

eskander — Sat, 17 Apr 2004 23:16:55 GMT

oh, another thing

these are some new desktops i made, check em out, tell me what you think

coffee
coffee black
blueberry

eskander — Sat, 17 Apr 2004 23:09:17 GMT

i haven't updated in a while
i had this nice long post with some more story in it but then i started rereading the story and didn't think it turned out how i wanted it to
so i might scrap it, i might keep on to it, use the characters later on in the story
we'll see

it's day god knows what, i'd have to look it up, and so far i've held up very well, even surprised myself

i spent most of the evening with iza
heh, i really love that girl
i don't know what it is but she's always capable of doing 2 things when i see her
make me happy and kill my brain

she's one of the few people who i can just look at and it'll make me smile, steph was and prolly still is the other person who can do this
as for the brain thing, i just go gahgah when i'm around here
i can keep any kind of conversation, make any rational thought into words and i'm even a little creative and witty when she's not around, but the minute she's involved in anything, even just comes in the room and stand there, my brain becomes numb
even if i'm talking to someone else

it's not like she's trying, i know she isn't
heh, she didn't do anything that would make me feel uncomfortable

tonight was just great, we didn't do anything but i had fun
i'm talking absolutely nothing but sit and make a bit of fun of some tv shows, the mummy 2 and swat

i think the more time i spend with her the less this will happen

tomorrow i'll try writing some more, i have a couple more ideas i'd like to put down
might even create a site just for all these ideas
either that or a livejournal account specifically for this 'book'

eskander — Fri, 09 Apr 2004 23:08:55 GMT

day 15
half way
it's gotten a lot easier than when i started that's for sure
i spend less time eating and thus less time sitting around in front the powermac or gamecube not doing anything
i've been almost constantly cleaning when i'm at home
i've also been doing some graphics for the St christopher club website
started in photoshop but it looked so messy compared to the stuff i did in illustrator
i'm really in love with this app

but i still think they should incorporate more of the ps elements into ai
like i wanted to select a certain area of a specific layer in ai, but couldn't figure out how to do it
i was forced to use the lasso tool (ugh) and then it didn't even show the selection border when i let go...

i also received my WACOM from andy, god i love that little tablet
unfortunately its smaller than normal but i can still do what i want with it
it's tricky, i'm going to see if i can set it up as a mouse instead of a pen
with a mouse the cursor stays where it is when you pick up the mouse
with the WACOM the cursor moves to where ever you drop the pen tip, annoying but realistic

i also bought a 17" TTX monitor today
so that another thing checked off my list of things to do

i also acquired final fantasy crystal chronicles, the game rocks, but the fact that everyone needs a gba to play together sucks major monkey ass

i went to the mac store with andy and cliff and john yesterday and say a laptop i want
i think i'll buy it
which would be another thing off my checklist

i'm reorganizing my life, finally getting everything in check, balancing out my accounts and all

*note panty rippers rock and so does sheesha (hooka?)

memories...

my dreams have been becoming disturbing again
just things i need to get off my mind but can't
distraction is a must but it's really hard to find a suitable distraction

"The night was cold and too quiet. Grivas sat close to the fire on the top of one of the high walls, hands extended towards the open flames. The conversation, along with the good humor, had died near dusk when the first soldiers had arrived. They had set up camp just out of range of the archers far below the walls.

Grivas could only look at his companions around the fire, the flames dancing an endless waltz with the shadows. The others sat just outside the full light of the fire, kept warm by the thick wool coats they wore under their armor. Most of these men's names were still unknown to him, they were either the remnants of other units or new recruits. Whatever the case, death would have most of them before the day's end tomorrow.

Finally some movement. Julra sat up and walked over to the wall, peering over he shook his head. Grivas, finally taken by curiosity went to Julra.

'Never seen much like it Gri...' Julra said still shaking his head in disbelief.

'Deln Pass wasn't even this crowded, was it?' Grivas asked incredulously.

'Who would of thought there could be so many of the filthy bastard?' Julra turned to look at Grivas, even with the poor fire light the fear apparent in his eyes. 'I have a bad feeling about this one Gri.'

Grivas placed a reassuring hand on Julra's shoulder. 'You say that every time we go into battle my friend' He said was a smile.

'Yes, but this time is different, I feel as though death is standing above me just waiting for me. All it could take is a stray arrow, a miss judged footing or a bad swing and that would be all. My family, Gri, I can't leave them yet. Hiral is only eight, I still have so much to teach him.'

'Fear not Julra, Death stands above you because he knows where we'll inflict the most damage, he's just getting ready for all the work we'll give him tomorrow. Worry not friend, I'll make sure nothing happens to you tomorrow.'

'Aye, maybe your right Gri, maybe your right.'

They stood in a comfortable silence for several moments. Grimas had met Julra years before during the campaign against Aleroth. They'd found many common grounds between them and become close in those years. If Grimas had to stand next to anyone in battle, he would always Julra. His skills as a swordsman were unmatched during battle or competition, but before the battle he always thought too much. What else was there to do really?

Julra let out a sigh as he sat close to the fire again. Grimas peered over the walls one last time at what was certain death one last time as fear hit him once again. From this height he could only see the camp fires, hundreds of thousands of them as far as the eye could see.

Tomorrow would be a day to forget."

eskander — Wed, 07 Apr 2004 07:06:51 GMT

day 13
it's been a fun couple of days
but work starts tomorrow
i pretty much don't work for the scp anymore time contraints but i still have my small list of clients that have been waiting for me to get back
so i go see rita today

day 14
i forgot to finish posting last night, got side tracked with trying to back up a couple of my games i have on cd
the repairman just came and fixed the fridge, the amount of shit that other people done to this fridge is remarkable, i'm surprised it still works

i have to leave for work in 2 hours, unless i take the bus...
i think i'll take the bus

eskander — Mon, 05 Apr 2004 09:59:25 GMT

things i need to do:

finsh all the stuff on my list, the list btw is now on a pad of paper and despite my efforts seems to keep growing in size
if you can read this i want your phone number
i had a list of phone numbers on my wall, the day i left i took it to the living room for something and left it on the tv, fast forward to 2 weeks ago, the list is still on the tv in the living room, someone in their ultimate wisdom decides to put a cup of coffee on the tv which falls over onto the sheet
if that wasn't enough they left the coffee on the sheet and tv for god knows how long, it dried and hardened and then became a gooey sticky and deadly mess
i had to use a knife to get it off yesterday and in the process i tore off some of my middle finger's knuckle

at least it smelt nice
so anyway, i have to remake the list, and if you weren't on the list before, nows your chance to get on, oh you lucky peoples you

yesterday was an absolute blast, i missed hagning out with the guys and it was a perfect way to start it all again

eskander — Mon, 05 Apr 2004 08:43:43 GMT

fuck man, i lost a lot of weight

eskander — Sun, 04 Apr 2004 10:51:26 GMT

back in montreal
doesn't feel as weird as i thought it would

i have so much shit to do...
i added to that list i made before

•taxes
•call steph
•call jason about work
•take the imacs to the shop
•call bell about phone bill i already paid
•buy glasses for the drugstore
•clean the apartment

i found out that dad and i are more a like than i orginally thought
we can talk to people, but talking to one another is a different story
like our ideas are our own unless someone else asks
also it's an unpleasant feeling talking to your father about him not always being around
it's like something you don't want to talk about but you know is coming
like that drunken relative the family doesn't like talking about

i stayed up for about 3 hours talking with eric last night
and i finally slept!

felt so refreshed this morning

eskander — Fri, 02 Apr 2004 18:21:25 GMT

i've got a couple things i need to do in montreal

•find a new apartment downtown (any help would be appreciated)
•finish gaby's site
•talk to blue about business
•buy stuff for dad for the office
•get a new mac, maybe a powerbook for home office
•make business cards
•breathe
•get laid
•buy a monitor for the powermac at home, maybe a gpu
•hang out with the boys
•buy a couple games if i can spare the cash

i'll have to add more later