Daily blogging? Schedule day 3.

So I'm laying here in bed, listening to The Weakerthans "Reunion Tour" trying to figure out what to write about. I want to do a daily blog because I feel it'd be good for me to just go over my day or get some thoughts out or something. 

This is my 3rd attempt at writing something now. My first attempt was just a boring old breakdown of my day. I gave up on that before I even got to lunch. My 2nd attempt was turning out to be just some long winded thought that probably wouldn't have been coherent to anyone but myself.

So here I sit, my 3rd attempt. Why do I think this is good for me? I'm looking at this as a way to decompress. Maybe get feedback on things that are going on, or that I don't quite grasp. As I've mentioned in previous posts, I have a hard time relating to people a lot. It might be good for me to put some of this stuff out there to help people understand me more, or for people to help me understand people more.

For example today I had lunch with my Mom at Classic Slice. It was awesome. We split a great brownie, and had great conversation. I've come to expect nothing less from time spent with my Mom. 

Among the topics of conversation was my attempt at getting a daily schedule going. I showed my mom my basic bare-bones schedule that tells me things like "Wake up", "Eat", "Shower"< etc... Then I showed her my Day 1 schedule and told her how awesome that day went for me. Then went on to talk about yesterday and how I feel like it just fell apart. 

Mom told me that she learned pretty quickly with me that she had to keep me on a schedule in order for me to get anything done. I didn't really remember that until she said something. Made sense that she did that. I asked her if she did the same thing with my sister Kim, and she said no. That puzzled me. I guess I never realized that my parents did anything different with her than with me. My sister didn't really need all the extra help I guess that I needed. 

I'm glad that my Mom was able to recognize at an early age that I needed a lot of extra help. I'm glad she figured out a lot of tricks to help keep me going. Mom's a pretty smart that way.

The schedule thing is going great. I was pretty excited because I thought I had figured this out all myself. Now I have to give the credit to my Mom. hahaha.

After lunch with my Mom, I stuck around Classic Slice to do some reading for my Network+ class. I started doing that around 1:30 and didn't finish till about 4:30. I only read one chapter. It was only about 20 or so pages too. I'm just a very slow reader, especially when I have trouble focusing. I was also forcing myself to take notes 'cause I felt that writing down a paragraph summary will help me retain more of what I'm reading. I also wrote down lots of vocabulary terms and key points. I'm not used to doing any of this mind you. I seldom take notes or read. However that has only been since I started college, and I have sucked at college thus far. That's how I did notes in grade school and high school and I was much better at school then. So I realized I should get back to that.

In the process of writing out the 2 major parts of my day just now I came to a realizition that what I really need to be doing is getting back to the basics.  Ever since I first broke my structure when I went to Denmark my senior year of HS, I have been having problems. I never went back on my structure which can somewhat explain why I always feel so lost and confused all the time.

After doing another successful day of adhering to my schedule and feeling how accomplished I feel, it's clear to me now that I need to get back to the structure that my Mom so kindly figured out for me when I was young. I feel that I'm well on my way at this point. I just need to stick to my schedule and stop being so lazy with everything else. Become an active participant in my own life again. 

Day four tomorrow. Have a few errands to run, an appointment with my head doctor, hopefully some more school work, and then work all night. Should be a fun day. I'm looking forward to it.