IF I CAN JUST. . .

If I can just
do enough work today. . .

If I can just
skip the rest,
the other kinds of work,
the play,
the self-restoring
and reflective introspection,

I’ll maybe just
do enough
to finish what needs done
and start tomorrow a better day,
having done the work exhaustively
and with a keen perfection. . .

If I can just
do a punishing relentless quantity of work,
my wish and will
just strong enough to make that work. . .
to slave away
like there is no tomorrow,

But,
I begin to see
that that won’t work,
and to me or others
or to my goal
the treatment’s far from just,

at least not on
too many days,
for it cuts a path of pain and sorrow,
assuming there will indeed
be a tomorrow

and there is no way
that slaving away
even on behalf of my own self
in the long run
will succeed
beyond the harm it does,
to help,

But yet, it’s true–
sometimes I need
more than average
hard and fast to dedicate a day
to focus firm
and minimize
the rest and play,

and remember that
what, from one account,
today I borrowed,
back to the others, tomorrow
I must repay. . .

And while, even with this law,
the spirit means more
than stingily to adhere
to just the letter,

And this precept
I’ll best honor
if I can let the spirit thrive
and do the work
in such a way
that aids my quest
not just to be
but too, to truly feel
alive,

if I at least now and then
I stop to take at least one little,
or even a great big,
deep breath,

both I and my results
are almost sure
to come out just as good,
and also, very likely, better.

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I HAVE BEEN GOOD

I have been good.
I have been
who I am.

And not as oft,
nor near as well
as I dearly would have wished
have I been understood.

I have been sad
and angry and afraid.

And I’ve been good
so very,
very, very good. . .

and yet the forces contrary
have chosen now and again
not just
to block
the very good I’m trying to do,

but nearer yet
to me to come,
and my own guarded,
precious space
to breach, to sully, and invade,

to pilfer key things
that I need
most regularly
to let me rest and to reflect,
to live to learn, and too, to grow.
To find and ride
my special flow.

And so, to find
a way to respond
that’s not too much in kind,
represents a kind of challenge
that’s difficult to walk in balance–

How not to hurt
the beings who
come to encroach upon my turf
not really seeking out to hurt,
but, just doing as they do,
is hours and volumes of thought worth. . .

And,
to honor, too,
the fact
that I have got a claim to stake
and must now act
in calm, but with
more than a modicum
of haste,
with a double urgency
which presses me,
both in fair and in foul weather,
to stride high and long my very good,

to the point where,
at some point along the way
I’ll feel and see
that my longtime very good,
at last, is rendered
ever so much better.

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WHEN YOU DON’T WANNA

When you don’t wanna do
the things you know you gotta do,

it may be time
to realign
the sort of things you’re wanting,

and that may mean
that you must bid adieu
to the comfy spaces
you’ve for so long
been haunting. . .

And take a peak,
once you swing
to ope a crack
the heavy, creaky door,

and see
the wonder and the beauty
of all that
out there waits for you. . .

though, to step through
may, even then. seem
more than a little daunting.

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THE PASSING OF THE WHITE FLAG MOMENT

The moment
that the need
to raise that bright white flag
becomes unsure,
when suddenly you see
the difficulties less
than what you thought. . .
and the blessings more.

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WHAT SOUND IS THAT CAST DOWN THE HALL?

What sound is that
I hear
cast down the hall?

Yea,
not more than
a murmur whisper,
but with complete conviction uttered
as if a blaring
clarion call. . .

It startles so,
I know
that I must heed it–
it is my duty
to the one
who felt and voiced it,

to be with what was said
and feel it,

and let it be
just what it is
allow my heart
a nice, good set of beats
to think
what the best way is
to respond,

the depth and weight of it
with my agile arm to test,
and with my deepest soul to sound.

And,
as I go about that quest,
ear and eye open
and holding firm
the soft-loud
down-hall speaker
as one I prize
as much as life or more,
in mind, in heart
and as one who
by the vasty fullness
strewn with near and distant
worlds, moons, and stars
as inimitably blessed.

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IS IT A LIVING FORM?

Is it
a living form?

Is it a leaf?

Is it a worm?

A clod of mud?

The water wet
of flowing stream?

I see it lying there ahead,
a shape,
a shadow kissed with light
but cannot say for sure
what ’tis,

for what I glimpse
quite slow or quick
with my mere eye
can my best learned guess defy,

and is far
from always
what it seems.

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IF YOU MAKE NO NOISE, YOU CANNOT SING?

You cannot sing
if you make no noise. . .
or can you?

The beat your heart
the breath your lungs
the stretch your jaw
the flex you get
like a balloon,
when your tongue you ply
and feel the space within your throat
the like you share with frog or goat
perhaps may music make–

even when you do not try.
And your sundry Sunday parts
cross in a mood quite contrary
and don’t see eye to eye,

and somehow
a flood of things you feel and think
rush ’round your head,
and while you spin and whirl,
fear may set in
and have you completely swayed
that any second you might sink. . .

And this bespeaks a time
when, the task to sing
needs not your lips,
but your welcoming soft firm arms
to hold yourself,
as you allow for
such open mind,
you walk right through the gates of fear
and look and feel and listen within
and too, without,

to all that’s been,
and everything both near and far
high,
low,
upper
nether,
each which way. . .
here,
there,
now,
then,
back
and ahead,
with your far-reachng, bright sixth-sense
that ties you,
through and through
to the vasty everything
that has no end,

and, as you wait in quiet,
perchance when you shall least expect it,

perhaps your voice,
will in its usual
sound and glory
break from your heart and gut and lips
to hit the air,

where is finds your
and maybe some outsider’s
ear,

which lets you know
you’re somehow singing
still,
but as if for the first time,
and yet, with the same abundant joy
you always knew
when you sang
your absolutely favorite song
for the umpteenth time,
again.

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IT’S A (BRAIN) WRAP!?

Authentic, Half, Plagal, Deceptive.
Charmed, Strange, Down, Up, Top, Bottom.
Ways to wrap my brain ’round these?
Not sure I’ve got ’em.

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POETRY THROBBING

Pretty much
every moment
supplies a plethora
of noteworthy stuff
on which I could
render a comment.

Which is why
poetry still lives
and throbs
and breathes,
and why the fingerprint-like
swirl of thoughts and feelings
quite oft do not
emerge in the form
of neat, clear words
streaming out with ease.

Each new era
a chance
tempting us to hope
for new ground broken,
new structures beautifully and stately raised,

to shelter and support
and heal the ones
who, in the latest time of difficulty
have passed through
storms and flood and fire and ash

and still feel more after effects
than from slight shock
or the sting of having been
by some small random
or errant, but large,
outlashing grazed.

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THE SPECIAL CALL

Some problems are mechanical
that can be solved
by some person with no training special,

who can succeed
either by careful observation
and manipulation,
perhaps sometimes
with aid come from some leaflet there,
if they can puzzle a bit and read,

sometimes by feeling out
the very obvious
of what this problem needs,
or stumbling upon some detail minuscule,
whether by some comprehensive and painstaking query logical
or by the intuition, luck
that by the fact of our flesh-nerve-blood nature
is within the reach of all of us,

and sometimes, too,
because the problems that we try to solve
are the ones that,
for some as yet quite undiscovered reason,
in their grand wisdom,
show themselves not just to anyone
but, for the fact
of our very being individual,
choose most quite deliberately
to call to us.

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