| A REVIEW: 01/22 - 2/12, Mexico.... |
[Feb. 13th, 2005|09:10 pm]
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REFLECTION - The following is my final reflection on my visit to mexico....Some a review, some new....
JANUARY 22, 2005
I'm aware of who I am becoming discontented with the lack of authenticity in America. I'm in Guanajuato and am enthralled by how very real of life is around me. The buildings are natural materials, with tile. The city is charming, and yet, its beauty if in the authenticity. It is not perfect, and cars are not allowed on many streets. There are many people just on the streets. There are lots of places to sit and rest. The streets are rough, and blend well with everything. There are lots of fountains, and many plants, everywhere.
We are in an "I have an issue with xxx," that people have forgotten we could just live in peace and be good to each other, if we chose. If there is a strong value system based upon being in service and loving, there is no need to embrace the dark side in an intellectual process of being real. JUST DON'T believe that one.
I find it awkward and embarrassing to not be able to speak spanish. A couple of the women staying in the Del Real home have been here 3 months, and will stay 3 more months. I think that would be great...and at $1,000/mo, room/board/language...coole. I'm thinking. Now I must get my cv ready and see about teaching in Mexico.
So, the home i'm in is 5 narrow stories. I'm on the top floor, next to an old man who watches tv like it was sun light. The home is constructed like a fortress, and is silent from the city noise. The man next door just closed his door, and it is quiet - whew!
Going into the city at night is great. It is like being in Italy at the Via Cavour in Italy. The streets are filled with people walking and sitting. There are a lot of street musicians - everywhere. There is always traditional music in the air.
Sunday, January 23
I was to be up at nine, and set my alarm for Saturday. I awoke to the bell from the church. It sounds like it is about six inches from my head. Then I heard someone yelling it waste time to get up - seemed like a community thing. Then the front door bell rang a lot....and I realized I could not roll over one more time.
I got up showered, and my meal was awaiting. There was an assortment of Mexican sweet bread, fried eggs, beans, juice and tea.
Victor, one of seven sons, is to come by, and show me the falcon institute.
What is emerging: I know that I appreciate diversity. I have an aversion for how huge nations want to do away with diversity and small nations.
January 24, 2005 - MONDAY
Today was my first day as a novice. My entrance exam, was 6 pages without more than 6 words. With a frew spanish words with me, I was assigned to four coures, each occurring for one hour for each of the five days of the week. I had private one on one lessons.
The Falcon is an imposing and decomposing structure, painted a bright blue. I entered, found the office, turned in my exam, and received my course list. I found much silence, not wanting to or even being able to carry on a conversation. I'm quite excited at the possibility now presented to me. As and once my first day terminated, I wished I had planned months. So, now I know I can return.
I love the city as a gallo (roster) crowing wso pleasantly - reminding me of my childhood. At nite there is a chorus of dogs...hundreds that find a time and all harmonize with each other. Fortunately, they do stop at some point. I find it funny that they just do this social barking. I never notice them during the day.
America seems to have given up so much so a few could become so rich. A. Families require 3 people to make the same as one did in 1963.
B. Community has been given up to be replaced by strip malls.
C. Commerce has been driven by the notion of 1. Corporations and branding, and 2. Chains and Franchises
The result is that diversity has been driven from the Amereican environment, replaced by sameness, productivity, and efficiency.
The result is so strange, leaving a whole population devoid of real meaning or purpose, other than accumulation of wealth, devocie of any other meaning. Whew! What a burden.
WEDNESDAY, February 2
The days seem to have become so much the same. The routine is much the same each nite. This is the greater routine, like;
A. 7:00 AWAKEN
B. READING AND STUDYING
C. STRETCHING
D. BREAKFAST. It is composed of fruite juice, pan, and hot leche.
e. Grab a bu about 8:30, and go to the area of the Falcon and walk. I sometimes stop for coffee at a hotel.
F. Classes begin at 9;30. I've felt disappointed in how I don't easily just know everything. Classes go until 2pm when I leave and wonderwalk back to the Del Real home. This is the time that I check for email and make phone calls.
G. Lunch/Supper begins about 3pm or so.
H. I study until about 7PM, and then I venture out. Last evening I came upon a group of children being taught local folk ballet. They were amazing. All were dressed in black. The boys in pants, the girls in very round flowing skirts. It was amazing to watch their excitement. I usually end this segment by having a few cervesa and reading before going home. I am finding this routine rather nice. I am in bed by 10PM.
I've been reading the Seat of the Soul by Gary Zukov, and am noticing that I want my life to be clearly intentional:
A. I intend to launch my business this year.
B. I intend to have a co-nurturing spiritual partnership.
C. I intend to live a life of reverence.
D. I intend to have a loving and joyful relationship with joad.
E. I intend to be financially independent.
F. I intend to live in a home that is paid for by the end of this year.
I am excited to get home and listen to the two Zukov cd's that i've ordered.
FEBRUARY SIX, 2005 - SUNDAY
Whew, Sandra and Gary came to Guanajuato and picked me up. I'm now in Ajijic in their new home. Their home is amazing. The city is fascinating, and typical. It looks one way; however, behind the walled homes and businesses, there is such beauty and grandure. It is truly mystery.
It has been an intense journey into culture and language. There are many things I just don't know, and am open to and willing to learn.
During my time in Mexico, I've kept in mind to beware of what is emerging.
A. In reading the 'seat of the soul,' i've become more and more how dysfunction is the norm for many people. What is emerging is my lack of willingness to be abused by those who act out of their dark side. And of course being human, they believe they are right.
B. In my learnings, i've been told, and learned that people change their behavior when they get tired.
B.1 I've gotten tired of classical personal growth groups, after having passed the 1,000 hour mark.
B.2 It is all about the experience, and how I feel, nothing else. This follows either the seat of the soul, or abraham-hicks.com. Both would support the notion that to continue in anything, it must be about a positive experience. And, what I learned and continue to learn, is that dysfunctional people cannot be changed. It does not mean that I am not compassionate, I truly am. I just have the intentions of my life to foucs on, and they are not part of my intentions. In other words, I am more intentional about how I use my energy and focus.
I have a week to do nothing, except enjoy the Mexican culture, and read. |
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