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Introduction

Well.. I hope writing a proper(ish) introduction will be interesting to you as well to me. I haven't written a recent one for anything really and it'll be funny to see how I describe myself.


Who am I?
My name's Tina, I live in Ontario, Canada. I'm a teenager, and (thus) a student in the ever interesting high school that I will be going to. I'm Chinese- Canadian (but I probably identify more with Canadian). I was born in Germany, but I can't speak German since I only lived there a year and a half, urh I've also lived in China, but I've been in somewhere in Canada for the past decade. :)

But who are you really?
Hah.. well.. I'm someone who's crazy enough to write a Q&A session with herself.

Mhmm... it's hard to describe myself, and I'd rather not describe myself as "always changing" because... I find it cliche?.. well more because I don't think it's completely true. I think I'm somebody whose personality is obviously affected by their mood. I'm definitely quite happy go lucky, but I do have those times where I lapse into a puddle of thoughts and rants.

I'm not one of those people who are content with being content, I'm really quite ambitious, but I'm also lazy and I procrastinate way too much. But I simply want to do something with my life. I think I'm a passive perfectionist, I can be one at times where I need to be one.

I obviously don't group my thoughts into an easily readable manner, but I write what I'm thinking even if it doesn't quite make sense at second glance. Hah.. at my tender age, I think I'm already beginning to feel like there's never enough time for all the things I want to do, but for someone who thinks in that manner, I "waste" a lot of time on pointless things.


Okay... enough random thoughts... Interests?
Oh dear... I have so many interests so I'll just group them.

Arts
Aiya... I have so many art-related interests... I love love love visual arts, and I take classes in sketching (pencil) and painting (gauche, watercolour, chinese style, doing oil soon) and I tend to draw pencil portraits or I paint still life. I can't say I'm supremely passionate about either, but it's definitely something I wouldn't be able to give up easily, because I do the most thinking while I'm painting/drawing.

I also love to create digital art, I rather wish I had more time to work on this interest, but I still regularly icon. I used to doll, and I had a period where I loved to make wallpapers. I'd love to take up making fractals though.

I do some crafting (mostly knitting and a few clothing reconstructions) but it's more of a new area of interest for me (thanks to LJ).

Music
I'm urh.. a piano player... I'd love to call myself a pianist, but it just doesn't feel like I'm doing that title justice. Hah.. I completely fall into the Asian stereotype here. I play urh.. gr.10, but it hasn't quite sunk into me yet, I definitely don't practise the 3 hours a day that I should be. I love playing the piano but I think I lack the passion that seperates an average piano player from a pianist. I hate baroque music, but I love impressionist and romantic.

Where my heart really lies is probably with the music that graces my ipod. I have really varied taste, and I probably like at least a few artists in every genre. I have quite a love for indie (or just plain out there) rock/pop and have quite the varied taste in that too. I really like sorta folk-sy rock/pop (e.g. Rilo Kiley, Tegan & Sara). I listen to a lot of mainstream music too, but I don't love most of it as much as I love the music I find on the internet.

The Rest...
Hah.. okay.. I'll start off with the "sports" I play. I'm learning badminton and I can't quite say I'm good at it, but I try. I'm a runner... and that I love. I'm not an obsessive exerciser but I do a ... decent deal of it because it makes me feel better and feel less self conscious. I used to do a lot of swimming but I don't really swim that often anymore, I also used to figure skate and dance.


Wow.. that was... not complete but a good start to me. :)