I haven't been busy.
Not really, anyway. But I've been forced to confront the sad realization that at any given time in my life, I have three juggling balls: social interactions/family, health and writing. I can only keep two balls up in the air at the same time. I've tried doing all three and cannot sustain it for long periods. To be honest, most of the time I can only manage one... and a half... ish. Social interactions/family isn't exactly optional and as I get older, the health one isn't really optional, either. Things I could let slide in my teens and twenties are no longer slide-able.
And you know, it feels horrible and frustrating because I think surely... SURELY I should be able to adult better than this. Isn't everyone else doing it? When I was younger, I assumed that being a competent, responsible adult was just something you automatically picked up as you go.
[insert bitter laughter]
Apparently, you don't. Yet it's kind of comforting to know I'm not alone in that and I suspect it's a pretty common feeling people have. Everyone's struggling with something and feeling like a huge fraud or a failure, especially when other people have it so much worse and are STILL handling it better, etc. etc. If a friend told me this, I'd tell them that they need to give themselves a break and not be so hard on themselves. But I think I give myself too many breaks. Contradictory, but there you have it.
Via
scatteredlogic, have this heartwarming article on fandom: Fan is a Tool-Using Animal. Fandom has its flaws, of course (whoo boy does it ever) but it's nice to see a story where people work together in a very fandomish way. All from an outsider's POV too, which is also interesting.
And you know, it feels horrible and frustrating because I think surely... SURELY I should be able to adult better than this. Isn't everyone else doing it? When I was younger, I assumed that being a competent, responsible adult was just something you automatically picked up as you go.
[insert bitter laughter]
Apparently, you don't. Yet it's kind of comforting to know I'm not alone in that and I suspect it's a pretty common feeling people have. Everyone's struggling with something and feeling like a huge fraud or a failure, especially when other people have it so much worse and are STILL handling it better, etc. etc. If a friend told me this, I'd tell them that they need to give themselves a break and not be so hard on themselves. But I think I give myself too many breaks. Contradictory, but there you have it.
Via
scatteredlogic, have this heartwarming article on fandom: Fan is a Tool-Using Animal. Fandom has its flaws, of course (whoo boy does it ever) but it's nice to see a story where people work together in a very fandomish way. All from an outsider's POV too, which is also interesting.