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Round #26; Something Wicked This Way Comes - Cooger & Dark's Pandemonium Shadow Show [23 May 2014|02:40am]
Fandom: Something wicked This Way Comes
Subject: Cooger & Dark's Pandemonium Shadow Show
Title: All The Devils
Warnings/Notes: Gratuitous use of circus-esque music, some swearing.



Something Wicked This Way Comes is the story of two boys against a centuries (maybe even millennia) old carnival that feeds on fears and darkness, and people who are only too eager to give up their selves for a chance to ride on the carnival's magical carousel, which can return someone old to youth or age up a young person (but more often, you only end up one of the sideshow acts). This is a mix for that carnival.

“The red-lettered sign said: OUT OF ORDER! KEEP OFF!
‘Sign’s been up all day. I don’t believe signs,’ said Jim.
They peered in at the merry-go-round which lay under a dry rattle and roar of wind-tumbled oak trees. Its horses, goats, antelopes, zebras, speared through their spines with brass javelins, hung contorted as in a death rictus, asking mercy with their fright-colored eyes, seeking revenge with their panic-colored teeth.”

“They both heard the music blowing through the front door with the smell of fresh rain and ancient grass. The carousel calliope, among the hills, piping the ‘Funeral March’ backwards.”

“Maybe the carousel wasn’t fixed right. Maybe accidents happen all the time. Like to the lightning-rod man, him inside-out and crazy. Maybe the carnival likes accidents, gets a kick out of them. Or maybe they did something to her on purpose.”

“‘1860. 1846. Same ad. Same names. Same initials. Dark and Cooger, Cooger and Dark, they came and went, but only once every twenty, thirty, forty years, so people forgot. Where were they all the other years? Traveling. And more than traveling. Always in October: October 1846, October 1860, October 1888, October 1910, and October now, tonight.’ His voice trailed off. ‘...Beware the autumn people...’”

“‘The stuff of nightmare is their plain bread. They butter it with pain. They set their clocks by deathwatch beetles, and thrive the centuries.They were the men with the leather-ribbon whips who sweated up the Pyramids seasoning it with other people’s salt and other people’s cracked hearts. They coursed Europe on the White Horses of the Plague. They whispered to Caesar that he was mortal, then sold daggers at half-price in the grand March sale....The train put wheels under them and here they run down the long road out of the Gothic and baroque; look at their wagons and coaches, the carving like medieval shrines, all of it stuff once drawn by horses, mules, or, maybe, men.’”

American Carny Theme - Murder By Death
~instrumental~

Circus Apocalypse - Vermillion Lies
Come down and join the circus,
it’s the end of the line.
You could fall off the high-wire
or feed yourself to the lions.
There’s no audition
to get into the show.
All that we ask for
is your immortal soul.

Kiss of Hades - Inkubus Sukkubus
The lost souls line the concrete wall.
Their blank eyes of death, they tell it all.
Of shattered dreams and ruined lives,
a dream away is paradise.
Come and take the kiss of Hades,
all you gents and all you ladies.

Mama - My Chemical Romance
She said: “You ain’t no son of mine
for what you’ve done they’re gonna find
a place for you. And just you mind
your manners when you go.
And when you go, don’t return to me, my love.”
That’s right.
...
We’re damned after all,
through fortune and flame we fall.
And if you can stay
then I’ll show you the way
to return from the ashes you call.

Hell Is Empty - Emilie Autumn
Hell is empty
and all the devils
are here!

Carousel - Circus Contraption
~instrumental~

Prelude 12/21 - AFI
This is what I brought you, this you can keep,
this is what I brought, you may forget me.
I promise to depart, just promise one thing:

Kiss my eyes and lay me to sleep.

Sally’s Song (cover) - London After Midnight
I sense there’s something in the wind
that feels like tragedy’s at hand.
And though I’d like to stand by him,
can’t shake this feeling that I have:
the worst is just around the bend.
...
What will become of my dear friend?
Where will his actions lead us, then?
Although I’d like to join the crowd
in their enthusiastic cloud,
try as I may it doesn’t last.

Demons - Imagine Dragons
At the curtain’s call, it’s the last of all.
When the lights fade out, all the sinners crawl.
So they dug your grave and the masquerade
will come calling out at the mess you made.
Don’t wanna let you down, but I am hell bound.
Though this is all for you, don’t wanna hide the truth.
No matter what we breed, we still are made of greed,
this is my kingdom come, this is my kingdom come.

Carnival - Shovels & Rope
Carnival, lull me to sleep.
No one can hear our voices.
I can tell your future and past
by the light of the carousel horses.
Across the world I wander,
my moments made from years.
On a still and silent midway,
I wait for you to reappear.

Funeral March (Reversed) - Chopin
~instrumental~


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Round #24; Adventure Time - Marceline/Princess Bubblegum [21 Mar 2014|03:16am]
Fandom:Adventure Time
Subject:Marceline/Princess Bubblegum
Title:Strangeness and Charm
Warnings/Notes:I didn’t really ship this until the one of the latest issues of the comic (#25). I could see it in the show before and kind of shipped it in an offhand, yeah they’d be cute together, way. Now I ship it like it's my job, and I have ALL the feels. The comics aren’t, strictly speaking, canon, but this mix borrows pretty heavily from the backstory given in issue #25 as well as from the show.




(if you want to read the issue of the comic I used, part 1, part 2, and part 3 can be read in scanned form on tumblr. you can read and understand it without having seen Adventure Time, but you should know that Ricardio is a recurring villain voiced by George Takei. also he's the Ice King's heart, but that's not as important)

Marceline Abadeer is the rockstar daughter of the demon king, and vampire queen in her own right. (Princess) Bonnibel Bubblegum is the self-made princess, creator, and sole ruler of the Candy Kingdom in the Land of Ooo. But before either of them grew into these roles, they were just Marcy and Bonni, best friends (and maybe more) in the strange, post-apocalyptic world that existed after the Great Mushroom War. Marceline had dreams of becoming a world famous musician, while Bonni preferred science and creating things.

They drifted apart (and occasionally back together) as Marceline pursued her rockstar dreams and Bonni built herself a kingdom and inhabitants to rule. In the end, Marceline left her home in the Land of Ooo to get away from it all for a while. It’s unclear how long she was gone, but I’m willing to bet decades or even centuries (they’re both effectively immortal) went by before she came back to Ooo. It took some time, but they rekindled their friendship (*cough*romance*cough*), because, after all, they work better together than they do alone. They always have.

Structurally, this sort of alternates POVs, Marcy then Bonni and so on, with the last song being both POVs. I hope you enjoy!

Use Somebody (Kings of Leon cover) - Paramore
I’ve been roaming around
always looking down at all I see.
Painted faces fill the places I can’t reach.
You know that I could use somebody.
You know that I could use somebody.
Someone like you, and all you know, and how you speak.
Countless lovers under cover of the street.
You know that I could use somebody.

Strangeness and Charm - Florence + the Machine
An atom to atom, oh, can you feel it on me love?
A pattern to pattern, oh, can you see it on me love?
Atom to atom, oh, what’s the matter with me love?
Strangeness and charm.
The static of your arms, it is the catalyst.
You’re a chemical that burns, there is nothing like this.
It’s the purest element, but it’s so volatile.
An equation heaven sent, a drug for angels.

Science & Faith - The Script
You won’t find faith or hope down a telescope,
you won’t find heart and soul in the stars.
You can break everything down to chemicals,
but you can’t explain a love like ours.

The Calculation - Regina Spektor
So we made our own computer out of macaroni pieces
and it did our thinking while we lived our lives.
It counted up our feelings and divided them up even,
and it called our calculation perfect love.
Didn’t even know
that love was bigger.
Didn’t even know
that love was so, so, hey, hey, hey.

Someday - Tegan & Sara
So speak up, this is your last chance my friend.
Roll the windows down and take me in.
Reach out, say what you’re really about.
Are you coming here or not, are you coming out?
Might paint something I might want to hang here someday.
Might write something I want to say to you someday.

Might do something I’d be proud of someday.
Mark my words, I might be something someday.

The Writer - Ellie Goulding
Sat on your sofa, it’s all broken springs.
This isn’t the place for these violin strings.
Oh, I try out a smile, and I aim it at you.
Oh, but you must have missed it, you always do.
...
Why don’t you be the writer,
and decide the words I say?
‘Cause I’d rather pretend
I’ll still be there at the end.
Only it’s too hard to ask;
won’t you try to help me?

Stereo Hearts vs. We Are Never Ever Getting Back Together - Gym Class Heroes & Taylor Swift
I only pray you’ll never leave me behind (never leave me)
I used to say, never say never
I take your head and hold it closer to mine (yeah)
Thought love was dead, (we’re never getting back together) but now you’re changing my mind
We are never, ever, ever, (it beats for you so listen close) getting back together
We are never, ever, ever, getting back together
you go talk to your friends, talk to my friends, talk to me
but we (this melody was meant for you)
are never, ever, ever, (so sing along to my stereo) getting back together
we (to my stereo)

Radioactive - Marina & the Diamonds
In the night your heart is full and by the morning empty.
But baby, I’m the one who left you, you’re not the one who left me.
When you’re around me, I’m radioactive.
My blood is burning, radioactive.
I’m turning radioactive, my blood is radioactive.
My heart is nuclear, love is all I fear.
Ready to be let down, now I’m heading for a meltdown.

Cups (When I’m Gone)(radio version) - Anna Kendrick
I’ve got my ticket for the long way ‘round,
the one with the prettiest of views.
It’s got mountains, it’s got rivers,
it’s got sights to give you shivers,
but it sure would be prettier with you.
When I’m gone, when I’m gone,
you’re gonna miss me when I’m gone.
You’re gonna miss me by my walk,
you’re gonna miss me by my talk, oh,
you’re gonna miss me when I’m gone.

The World We Live In - The Killers
Well maybe I was mistaken,
I heard a rumor that
you quit this day and age.
Well maybe I was mistaken.
Bless your body, bless your soul,
pray for peace and self control.
...
This is the world that we live in;
I still want something real.
This is the world that we live in;
I know that we can heal over time.

I’m Just Your Problem (cover) - Elena Íviel Berciano feat. Nicole Vaquerano
Sorry I don’t treat you like a goddess,
is that what you want me to do?
Sorry I don’t treat you like you’re perfect,
like all your little loyal subjects do.
Sorry I’m not made of sugar,
am I not sweet enough for you?
Is that why you always avoid me?
That must be such an inconvenience to you.
...
It’s like I’m not even a person, am I?
I’m just your problem.

True Love - P!nk feat. Lily Allen
Just once try to wrap your
little brain around my feelings.
Just once, please try not to be so mean.
Repeat after me now, R-O-M-A-N-C-E-E-E,
come on, I’ll say it slowly (romance),
you can do it baby.
...
Why do you rub me up the wrong way?
Why do you say the things that you say?
Sometimes I wonder how we ever came to be,
but without you I’m incomplete
...
True love, true love,
it must be true love,
and no one else can break my heart like you.


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Round #23; Adventure Time - Simon Petrikov (Ice King) [21 Feb 2014|01:10am]
Fandom: Adventure Time
Subject: Simon Petrikov (Ice King)
Title: Cold Amnesia
Warnings/Notes: Warning for memory loss/similarities to Alzheimer's. I have a lot of Ice King feelings. He's...not a likable character, but you can definitely feel for him and his tragic backstory, even while you condemn his princess-kidnapping ways.




The Ice King is the former main antagonist (now mostly annoyance) in Adventure Time. He’s obsessed with finding a princess to love him, and constantly kidnaps princesses (though he sees it as ‘rescuing’ them from their boring princess duties). But, before the Mushroom War, he was a human named Simon Petrikov, who worked in antiquities. At the time he also had a fiancee, named Betty, whom he called his ‘princess’ and loved dearly. At some point in his career he bought a strange crown from a dock worker in Scandinavia; this crown was his downfall. He put it on to make Betty laugh, but instead it caused him to black out and have strange visions. When he awoke, he couldn’t remember what he had done, but Betty soon left. Simon never saw her again.

In the aftermath of the Mushroom War, in a world decimated by nuclear destruction and filled with irradiated mutants, Simon wandered, lost. He found Marceline (not yet the Vampire Queen) as a young girl and took care of her until he lost himself and his memories completely to the crown and its madness.

This mix picks up directly after the Mushroom War, with Simon wandering the world. The first half chronicles his travels with Marceline and descent into madness. The second half is done as more of a character study of Simon as the Ice King, his loneliness and self-hatred over the thousand years of his existence, and his desire for a princess to love him (his princess, though he no longer truly remembers Betty as a person).

(if you really want to have some Ice King feels, watch the episode Simon & Marcy; it really gives a good overview of Simon/Ice King, and you’ll never hear the theme song to Cheers the same way again)

“And that's when it started... the visions. I fought with them, shouted at them until I realized it wasn't real, it was the crown! I quickly took it off, and saw my fiancee in front of me, looking at me with such contempt! What had I said? What had I done when I wore this crown?”


Radioactive - Imagine Dragons
I’m waking up to ash and dust.
I wipe my brow and I sweat my rust.
I’m breathing in the chemicals.
I’m breaking in, shaping up,
then checking out on the prison bus.
This is it, the apocalypse.
....
Welcome to the new age, to the new age,
I’m radioactive, radioactive.

The Sun - Maroon 5
And I cannot remember
what life was like through photographs.
Trying to recreate images
life gives us from our past.
And sometimes it’s a sad song.
But I cannot forget, refuse to regret,
so glad I met you.
Take my breath away, make everyday
worth all of the pain that I’ve gone through.
And mama, I’ve been crying
cuz things ain’t how they used to be.
She said the battles almost won,
and we’re only several miles from the sun.

Chicago (Acoustic) - Sufjan Stevens
If I was crying
in the van with my friend,
it was for freedom,
from myself and from the land.
I made a lot of mistakes,
I made a lot of mistakes,
I made a lot of mistakes,
I made a lot of mistakes.

Pagan Angel and a Borrowed Car - Iron & Wine
Every morning there were planes
the shiny blades of pagan angels in our father’s skies.
Every evening I would watch her hold the pillow
tight against her hollows, her unholy child.
I was still a beggar shaking out my stolen coat
among the angry cemetery leaves.
When they caught the king beneath the borrowed car,
righteous, drunk, and fumbling for the royal keys.

Thriller (Michael Jackson cover) - Imogen Heap
Cuz this is thriller, thriller night;
there ain’t no second chance against the thing with forty eyes, girl.
Thriller, thriller night,
you’re fighting for your life inside of killer, thriller tonight.

“I know my mind is changing... but I'm already gone too far to know what to do. I want people to know that... if I do things that... if I do things that hurt anyone, please, please forgive me.”


Kryptonite - 3 Doors Down
If I go crazy then
will you still call me Superman?
If I’m alive and well, will
you be there, holding my hand?
I’ll keep you by my side
with my superhuman might,
Kryptonite.

Remember You (Adventure Time demo) - Rebecca Sugar
Marceline,
I can feel myself slipping away.
I can’t remember what it made me say.
But I remember that I saw you frown;
I swear it wasn’t me, it was the crown.
This magic keeps me alive,
but it’s making me crazy.
And I need to save you,
but who’s going to save me?
Please forgive me for whatever I do
when I don’t remember you.

C’Mon - Panic! At The Disco & fun.
If I should die tonight
may I first just say I’m sorry,
for I, never felt like anybody.
I am a man of many hats although I
never mastered anything.
When I am ten feet tall,
I never felt much smaller, since the fall.
Nobody seems to know my name.
So don’t leave me to sleep all alone,
may we stay lost on our way home?

“Since then, I see the visions always whether or not I wear the crown. They tell me the secrets... the secrets of the ice and snow... that the power of the crown will save me with its frost. I don't yet know what this means. As you can see, my skin is beginning to turn blue. My body temperature has been lowering at a supernatural rate, to what is now about 30°C. I don't know when it will end... I'm really scared...”


Sleep - My Chemical Romance
A drink for the horror that I’m in.
For the good guys and the bad guys,
for the monsters that I’ve been.
Three cheers for tyranny,
unapologetic apathy,
cuz there ain’t no way that I’m coming back again.
And through it all
how could you cry for me?
Cuz I don’t feel bad about it.
So shut your eyes,
kiss me goodbye,
and sleep.
Just sleep.
The hardest part
is the awful things that
I’ve seen.

“Because when you have stanky old Wizard Eyes, sometimes you see things that are real, and other times it's like crazy, crazy, crazy, in your face, all the time.”


Once Upon A Dream - Lana Del Rey
I know you,
I walked with you once upon a dream.
I know you,
that look in your eyes is so familiar a gleam.



“J. T. Dawgzone always says, 'Ladies are drawn to bros. with tortured pasts.' And I've got a way tortured past! I think. I don't really . . . re . . . hmm.”


Hello - Lionel Richie
I’ve been alone with you inside my mind.
And in my dreams I’ve kissed your lips a thousand times.
I sometimes see you pass outside my door.
Hello,
is it me you’re looking for?

All The Pretty Girls - fun.
All the pretty girls on a Saturday night,
let it be, you’ll come to me with the look in your eyes.
Will you break and take all the words from my mouth?
I wish all the pretty girls were shaking me down.
But not you,
you still wear boots and your hair is too long.
And then this one doesn’t want to admit she’s fallen in love.
Oh, c’mon, c’mon, what’s a boy to do
when all the pretty girls can’t measure to you?



“I just wanted to be loved!”


Oh, Bubblegum (Princess Song) - Ice King
Oh, Bubblegum,
I really need someone.
Or anyone, pretty much anyone.
I’m so alone,
won’t somebody tell me what’s wrong with me?
Anybody?
Anybody?
Anybody?!

Jesus Christ - Brand New
Do you believe you’re missing out,
that everything good is happening somewhere else?
But with nobody in your bed,
the night’s hard to get through.
And I will die all alone.
And when I arrive I won’t know anyone.



“Just watch over me until I can find my way out of this labyrinth in my brain and regain my sanity. And then maybe Betty, my princess... maybe you will love me again. Please love me again, Betty!”


Jar of Hearts - Christina Perri
I know I can’t take one more step towards you,
cuz all that’s waiting is regret.
Don’t you know I’m not your ghost anymore?
You lost the love I loved the most.
I learned to live half alive,
and now you want me one more time.
...
You’re gonna catch a cold
from the ice inside your soul.

Nearly Witches (Ever Since We Met...) - Panic! At The Disco
You have set your heart on haunting me forever
from the start, it’s never silent.
Ever since we met,
I only shoot up with your perfume.
It’s the only thing
that makes me feel as good as you do.
Ever since we met,
I’ve got just one regret to live through,
and that one regret is you.

Age of Ice - Thao & the Get Down Stay Down
Takes a fine imagination
and a sound technology
to let loose the cold amnesia
over all the blood that beats.
Slowly we all lay down.
...
Upon my return from the age of ice
I supposed I would survive.



“Ugh, I'm so tired of looking at this face.”


Every Night - Imagine Dragons
Searching to find myself
but all I find is you.
I can hardly stand myself,
so what am I to you?
...
Cuz the reason that I’m here
is the same through all these years,
not changing, not changing
anything at all.



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Round #22; Sailor Moon - Sailor Moon & Sailor Galaxia [22 Jan 2014|12:49am]
Fandom: Sailor Moon
Subject: Sailor Moon & Sailor Galaxia
Title: Don't Call This Love
Warnings/Notes: I've been having a lot of Sailor Moon feelings lately, ok? Don't judge me. Major spoilers for the final arc of the Sailor Moon manga; potentially implied suicide (depends on how you view the character death, I guess; warning for that, too)?




This mix is for the enemies-to-maybe-comrades relationship between Sailor Moon and Sailor Galaxia in the manga (not the anime, whole different beast of a relationship, there). Throughout the storyline (well, once they finally meet, anyway), Sailor Moon seems to feel much more sympathy towards Galaxia than she does towards Sailor Moon, so I tried to reflect those disparate views of each other in this mix. To do this, it alternates between Sailor Moon and Sailor Galaxia's POVs, with each song serving as a response to the previous one.

Sailor Galaxia is the main antagonist of the final arc of Sailor Moon. She was born on a planet she referred to as ‘trash’ and wandered miserably alone until she discovered she had the powers of a Sailor Senshi. That wasn’t enough for her, though: she desired to have the strongest power in the galaxy and left her home planet to find a way to gain that power. She eventually found her way to the Galaxy Cauldron, from where all Star Seeds (crystals contained in all of life, and from which Senshi get their power) come and built an empire there. To gain more power, she took (or had her underlings take) the Star Seeds from other Sailor Senshi, seeing them as weak and unworthy in comparison to herself.

However, she knew she was being used by a being known as Chaos, so she planned to manipulate Sailor Moon (for whom she felt nothing but contempt) into destroying Chaos for her, immolating them both (Sailor Moon and Chaos) in the process and leaving Sailor Galaxia to be the most powerful Senshi in the universe. This plan backfired, however, and Chaos attempted to throw Galaxia into the Galaxy Cauldron, which would have destroyed her if Sailor Moon had not rescued her. In the face of Sailor Moon’s purity, hope, and love Galaxia lost her will to fight, but gave Sailor Moon a final burst of hope with which to fight Chaos before being destroyed for good, herself.

We Are - Ana Johnsson
Sailor Moon
One step forward making two steps back (my oh my)
Riding piggy on the bad boy’s back for life.
Lining up for the grand illusion,
no answers for no questions asked.
Lining up for the execution
without knowing why.
...
You wash your hands and come out clean
but fail to recognize the enemies within.
You say we’re not responsible
but we are, we are.

Gravity - The Dresden Dolls
Sailor Galaxia
Gravity works slowly if you notice it at all.
Some of us are getting mighty lucky (aren’t we?)
If you had to live with this you’d rather lie than fall.
You think I can’t fly? Well you just watch me.



Bleeding Out - Imagine Dragons
When the hour is nigh
and hopelessness is sinking in,
and the wolves all cry
to fill the night with hollering.
When your eyes are red
and emptiness is all you know,
with the darkness fed
I will be your scarecrow.
...
Cuz I’m bleeding out,
so if the last thing that I do
is to bring you down
I’ll bleed out for you.
So I bare my skin and I count my sins
and I close my eyes and I take it in,
and I’m bleeding out, I’m bleeding out for you, for you.

Creeper (Coming For You) - Jakalope
Oh, I’m playing you for a fool,
you fell for every broken rule.
I’m doing what I owe to you.
It’s been a long time coming
and I’m coming for you.
While I,
silently I scream,
inside I barely breathe.
Silently I scream.



This Is Where We Are - Ravens and Chimes
Did you build walls up,
did you build them up all around you,
to keep you from,
to keep you from the howling wind?
And to each one seeking the words that they need,
I’ll stand beside you now.
And to each one listening to wind in the trees,
my voice behind you now.
And I can see she’s one of us
in how I stand beside you now.
This is where we are.
This is where we are.
Don’t be frightened.

Everybody’s Fool - Evanescence
Look, here she comes now.
Bow down and stare in wonder.
Oh, how we love you,
too bad we didn’t know she
never was and never will be.
You don’t know how you’ve betrayed me,
and somehow you’ve got everybody fooled.
...
You’re not real and you can’t save me.



The Great Escape - P!nk
I can understand how, when the edges are rough,
and they cut you like the tiny slivers of glass,
and you feel too much,
and you don’t know how long you’re gonna last.
But everyone you know, is trying to smooth it over,
find a way to make the hurt go away.
But everyone you know, is trying to smooth it over,
like you’re trying to scream underwater.
But I won’t let you make the great escape.
I’m never gonna watch you checking out of this place.

My Skin - Natalie Merchant
Take a look at my body,
look at my hands.
There’s so much here
that I don’t understand.
Your face-saving promises,
whispered like prayers,
I don’t need them.
I’ve been treated so wrong,
I’ve been treated so long
as if I’m becoming untouchable.
Contempt loves the silence,
it thrives in the dark,
with fine winding tendrils
that strangle the heart.
They say that promises
sweeten the blow,
but I don’t need them.



Tragedy - Christina Perri
If you could envision
the meaning of a tragedy.
You might be
surprised to hear it’s you and me.
But when it comes down to it
you never made the most of it.
So I cried, cried, cried,
and now I say goodbye.
And I won’t be made a fool of...
don’t call this love.


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Round #21; for philstar22; Tolkien - Races of Middle Earth [30 Dec 2013|04:55pm]
Fandom: Tolkienverse
Subject: the races of Middle Earth
Title: Here There Be Dragons
Warnings/Notes: I'm sorry this is so late (it can be a New Year's present?)! For philstar22, who requested a mix for the various races of Middle Earth! I wasn't sure if you preferred movie-verse or book-verse for this, so I tried to toe the line between the two. Warnings for some language and a rather long (and eclectic) mix. (and despite the title, there is a sad lack of dragons in this mix; sorry about that)




As much as I wanted to try and include all the possible races of Middle Earth in this mix, that would have been way too long (it's long enough as it is). So instead, I went with a small, but wide-ranging, selection: Elves, Orcs, Dwarves, Ents, Hobbits, and Men. I tried to capture the feel of the different races in the music as well as in the lyrics of the songs here, I hope you like it!

Elves: the first-born among those who live in Middle Earth. Ethereal, beautiful, immortal creatures. Yet by the time of the War of the Ring, Middle Earth has become a home for them no longer, and they will soon leave for the Undying Lands.

Listen To The Rain - Evanescence
Listen to each drop of rain
Whispering secrets in vain.
Frantically searching for someone to hear
their story before they hit ground.
Please don’t let go,
can’t you stay for a while?
It’s just too hard to say goodbye.
Listen to the rain.

Willow - Emilie Autumn
~instrumental~

Who Wants To Live Forever - Queen
There’s no time for us.
There’s no place for us.
What is this thing that builds our dreams,
yet slips away from us?
Who wants to live forever,
who wants to live forever?
...
Forever is our today.
Who waits forever anyway?


Orcs: there is no consensus on where they came from, but some say they were once Elves, now tortured and corrupted (by Melkor, enemy of the Valar, or by other dark forces). Hideous, violent, and hateful, they create only that which can harm and destroy.

Lies - Evanescence
You will never be strong enough.
You will never be good enough.
You were never conceived in love.
You will not rise above.
They’ll never see,
I’ll never be,
I’ll struggle on and on to feed this hunger
burning deep inside of me.

A Strange Device - Emilie Autumn
~instrumental~

Planet Hell - Nightwish
The first rock thrown again,
welcome to hell, little saint.
Mother Gaia in slaughter,
welcome to paradise, soldier.
My first cry, never-ending.
All life is to fear for life.
You fool, you wanderer,
you challenged the gods and lost.
Save yourself a penny for the ferryman,
save yourself and let them suffer.


Dwarves: they are a secretive race, who nevertheless are renowned in the circles of trade. Gruff and often considered unfriendly, their skill at the forge and in the mines is unparalleled by any others. They have been forced to leave their lands many times and for many reasons, but they still maintain a hope that they will be able to return one day.

Rauta - Korpiklaani
Iske rauta, synny rauta,
Muutu kuumassa tulessa.
Vanno rauta, tapporauta,
Älä koskaan omia iske.
...
Iskuista sinäkin synnyt,
Iske, iske,
Iskuista sinäkin synnyt,
Iske, iske, ISKE!

[English:
Steel, strike now, come into being.
Transform in the hot fire.
Swear you now, killing steel,
merely to strike the enemies.
...
From strikes you are born,
Strike, strike!
From strikes you are born,
strike, strike, STRIKE!]

Brotsjór - Ólafur Arnalds
~instrumental~

Misty Mountains - The Dwarf Cast
Far over the Misty Mountains cold.
To dungeons deep and caverns old.
We must away, ere break of day,
to find our long forgotten gold.


Ents: the protectors of the trees, who are trees, themselves, in form. They are a slow, ponderous, and old race, and are mostly gone from Middle Earth by the time of the War of the Ring. Slow to change, yet firm in their decisions once they are made, the Ents are a powerful, but often forgotten, race.

In Dark Trees - Brian Eno
~instrumental~

Clouds For Brains - Thao & The Get Down Stay Down
I could wake up
I could startle and change,
let not the hot blood boil in rage.
I come from the ground,
have I moved you yet?
Don’t let me touch you, no.
May let’s be clear,
I won’t always be here,
it will only hurt you some.

The Last of the Giants (from ASOIAF series)- Ryan Yunck
Oh, I am the last of the giants,
my people are gone from the earth.
The last of the great mountain giants,
who ruled all the world at my birth.
Oh, the smallfolk have stolen my forests,
they’ve stolen my rivers and hills.
And they’ve built a great wall through my valleys,
and fished all the fish from my rills.
...
Oh, I am the last of the giants,
so learn well the words of my song.
For when I am gone the singing will fade,
and the silence shall last long and long.


Hobbits: also called halflings, they are small but have great wells of internal strength from which they have been known to draw when they need to. Essentially homebodies, they live for creature comforts but several Hobbits were crucial in the events of the War of the Ring, which were recorded for posterity by some of the Hobbits in question (they can be avid writers, if the desire strikes them).

Monument - Mirah
Let us stand resolute with our voices raised.
We have a right to insist to be free and brave,
if that should cease to exist I’d throw my heart away.
...
It’s a long, long way to the promised land
so try where you are, do what you can.
You belong to what you understand,
so teach yourself how to demand
the monument that you deserve
for rising up in a beaten down world.
...
If you feel an emptiness, if you want to hide,
think about the blood that’s pumping, keeping you alive.

In the Rowans - Balmorhea
~instrumental~

The Ring of Hope - Brobdingnagian Bards
Now the ring is gone
and my master’s sailed to his new home.
And I have no pipe with me
for one last smoke.
But I can see the Southern Star,
please take me to where you are,
for the sadness inside
floats away with my smoke.
Let the West wind blow
my ring of smoke,
over through Mordor,
the One Ring of hope.


Men: humans are one of the youngest races of Middle Earth, and really come into their inheritance of it after the War of the Ring. Proud and honorable, mainly, they are yet corruptible and fallible, more-so than most of the other races.

Alpha Shallows - Laura Marling
And his heart was full of fire at the man he had become
and his soul seldom higher at the falsities of fun.
Could embrace sweet desires and moments as they passed,
but he feared it ever more when he saw it didn’t last.
...
The grey in this city is too much to bare.
The grey in this city is too much to bare.
And I believe we are meant to be seen and not to be understood.
...
You’ll work your thumbs till they’re sore
and you’ll work my heart till it’s raw.
And you’ll call and you’ll call, but you’ll never be told,
and I’ll fall and I’ll fall and I’ll fall.
We are basic lives.

Broken Crown - Mumford & Sons
I will not speak of your sin.
There was a way out for him.
The mirror shows not,
your values are all shot.
But oh, my heart was flawed,
I knew my weakness.
So hold my hand,
consign my not to darkness.
...
So crawl on my belly till the sun goes down,
I’ll never wear your broken crown.
I can take the road, and I can fuck it all away.
But in this twilight, our choices seal our fate.

Pepita - Calexico
~instrumental~


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Round #20; Supernatural - Gabriel, Anna, Balthazar [21 Nov 2013|07:44am]
Fandom: Supernatural
Subject: Gabriel, Anna, Balthazar
Title: Runaway Angels
Warnings/Notes: Look, I just have a lot of feelings about these guys, ok?






Gabriel, Anna, and Balthazar are angel ‘siblings,’ as much as thousands of angels can be considered that way. They each, in their own time, chose to leave Heaven for surprisingly similar reasons (being sick of what Heaven had become to them: it was no longer home). This mix follows them through their disillusionment with Heaven, their decisions and experiences in leaving, and their less than triumphant (thanks to the attempted apocalypse and its aftermath, mainly) returns to their other siblings.

It’s structured so that it cycles through each point of view - Gabriel, Anna, Balthazar - for each of the three main divisions mentioned above, one song per angel per section. The final song felt like a necessary wrap-up to tie it all together, and belongs to all three of them. (ok, and The Boxer could probably apply to all of them, but it really gives me all the Balthazar feels, so)

Family Portrait - P!nk
It ain’t easy growing up in World War III
never knowing what love could be, you’ll see.
I don’t want love to destroy me like it has done my family.
Can we work it out? Can we be a family?
I promise I’ll be better, mommy, I’ll do anything.
Can we work it out? Can we be a family?
I promise I’ll be better, Daddy, please don’t leave.

Paradise (Coldplay cover) - Within Temptation
When she was just a girl
she expected the world.
But it flew away from her reach
so she ran away in her sleep.
Dreamed of para- para- paradise
Every time she closed her eyes.
...
Life goes on, it gets so heavy
the wheel breaks the butterfly.
Every tear a waterfall
in the night, the stormy night
she closed her eyes.
In the night, the stormy night
away she’d fly.
And dreamed of para- para- paradise.


Lights - Ellie Goulding
Voices I play within my head.
Touch my own skin and hope that I’m still breathing.
And I think back to when my brother and my sister slept
in an unlocked place, the only time I feel safe.
You show the lights that stop me, turn to stone
you shine it when I’m alone.
And so I tell myself that I’ll be strong
And dreaming when they’re gone.



Capsize - Karen O and the Kids
Oh, Momma turned her back on me,
Daddy left when I was three,
don’t tell Sis, I’m out the door!
I won’t need them anymore.
...
C-A-P-S-I-Z-E all the way home, I’m gonna tilt a while.
M-I-S-S-M-E all you want, you’re gonna wait a while.

Valley of the Dolls - Marina & the Diamonds
Born with a void, hard to destroy with love or hope.
Built with a heart, broken from the start and now I die slow.
In the valley of the dolls, we sleep. Got a hole inside of me,
living with identities that do not belong to me.
In my life I got this far, now I’m ready for the last hoorah.
Dying like a shooting star,
In the valley.


The Fallen - Franz Ferdinand
So we stole and drank Champagne
on the seventh seal you said you never feel pain.
“I never feel pain, won’t you hit me again?
I need a bit of black and blue to be a rotation.”
In my blood I feel the bubbles burst
there was a flash of fist, an eyebrow burst.
You’ve a lazy laugh and a red-white shirt,
I fell to the floor, fainting at the sight of blood.
...
The fallen are the virtuous among us, walk among us.
If you judge us, we’re all damned.



The Noose - A Perfect Circle
Recall the deeds as if they’re all
someone else’s atrocious stories.
Now you stand reborn before us all,
so glad to see you well.
And not to pull your halo down
around your neck and tug you to the ground,
but I’m more than just a little curious
how you’re planning to go about
making your amends to the dead.

Sugar and Spice - Basia Bulat
I looked to the sky and I saw the sun turning to rust.
I looked for the road, but all I could see was the dust.
I remembered your voice, when you said it was better for us.
Oh, oh, oh how I’ve done myself in.
I’ve played out my hand, I’m turning it in,
the house always wins in the end.
Oh, oh, oh how I’ve done myself in.
Oh, oh, oh how I’ve done myself in.


The Boxer (Simon & Garfunkel cover, feat. Jerry Douglas & Paul Simon) - Mumford & Sons
In the clearing stands a boxer
and a fighter by his trade.
And he carries the reminder
of every glove that laid him down
and cut him till he cried out,
in his anger and his shame,
“I am leaving, I am leaving”
but the fighter still remains.



Missing - Evanescence
Please, please forgive me,
but I won’t be home again.
Maybe someday you’ll look up
and barely conscious, you’ll say to no one,
“Isn’t something missing?”
You won’t cry for my absence, I know,
you forgot me long ago.
Am I that unimportant?
Am I so insignificant?
Isn’t something missing?
Isn’t someone missing me?


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Round #19; Meet the Mixer - devyn_rose [27 Oct 2013|03:16am]
Fandom: General
Subject: devyn_rose
Title: A Secret Me
Warnings/Notes: This was more difficult than I thought it'd be. It turned out to be more of a mix about being queer than I was intending, but that's just how it happened. It's half nostalgia and half more recent stuff, so sorry about any nostalgia bombs that might get dropped on you here, but every song is or has been extremely meaningful to me. They're the songs I listen to on repeat until I'm sick of them. Warnings for some mentions of mental illness and spoilers for Repo! the Genetic Opera (which also has references to death of parents)?




(pics used in album art taken by me)


Say Shh - Atmosphere
I wanted to make a song about where I’m from, you know?
Big up my hometown, my territory, my state but
I couldn’t figure out much to brag about
Prince lives here, we got 10,000 lakes.
But wait, the women are beautiful, to me they are
and we’re not infested with pretentious movie stars.
And it hit, Minnesota is dope
if only simply for not what we have but what we don’t.

Yes, this is a completely serious rap song about Minnesota. I love my home state, ok? And even though I’m not in the Midwest right now, hopefully I’ll go back one day.

Reflection - Christina Aguilara
I am now
in a world where I have to hide my heart
and what I believe in.
But somehow
I will show the world what’s inside my heart
and be loved for who I am.
...
Must I pretend that I’m
someone else for all time?
When will my reflection show
who I am inside?

Mulan was my absolute favorite Disney movie when I was younger, and I still love it. I’ve always related to this song on a very personal level, and still do (all my young!queer feels, let me show you them).

Somewhere I Belong - Linkin Park
What do I have but negativity
‘cause I can’t justify the way everyone is looking at me.
(Nothing to lose)
Nothing to gain, hollow and alone
and the fault is my own, and the fault is my own.
I wanna heal, I wanna feel what I thought was never real.
I wanna let go of the pain I’ve felt so long.
(Erase all the pain till it’s gone)
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m close to something real.
I wanna find something I’ve wanted all along:
somewhere I belong.

Teen!me nostalgia bomb, basically.

Imaginary (demo v2) - Evanescence
Don’t say I’m out of touch
with this rampant chaos, your reality.
I know well what lies beyond my sleeping refuge
the nightmare I built my own world to escape.
...
If you need to leave the world you live in
lay your head down and stay a while.
Though you may not remember dreaming
something waits for you to breathe again.

Oh, god, so much teen!me nostalgia up in here :p

I Didn’t Know I’d Love You So Much - Repo! The Genetic Opera
Sometimes I wanted to cry
when the people on t.v. were not quite the way we were.
Somehow, I guess I just knew...
But I didn’t know I’d love you so much.
I didn’t know I’d love you so much.
I didn’t know I’d love you so much,
but I do.
...
And we will always have each other
in our time of need.

I love musicals/rock operas, and I wanted to represent my family in this mix. This song just about sums up how I feel about them (minus the dead mother and repossession of body parts underlying this song in the actual show; my life is not a musical).

Runs In The Family - Amanda Palmer
Me? Well, I’m well.
Well, I mean I’m in hell.
Well, I still have my health.
(At least that’s what they tell me)
If wellness is this, what in hell’s name is sickness?
But business is business!
And business runs in the family,
we tend to bruise easily, bad in the blood.
I’m telling you ‘cause I just want you to know me,
know me and my family.
We’re wonderful folks,
but don’t get too close to me
‘cause you might knock me up.

Say what you will about Amanda Palmer as a person, but she’s somehow able to capture exactly how I feel about my mental health (or lack thereof). The only trouble was deciding which song of hers to use! (it was between this and Bad Habit, but it really does run in my family...)

Teen Idle (Acoustic) - Marina & The Diamonds
I wanna be a bottle blonde.
I don’t know why but I feel conned.
I wanna be an idle teen,
I wish I hadn’t been so clean.
I wanna stay inside all day.
I want the world to go away.
I want blood, guts, and chocolate cake.
I wanna be a real fake.
Yeah, I wish I’d been, I wish I’d been a teen, teen idle.
Wish I’d been a prom queen fighting for the title.
Instead of being sixteen and burning up a Bible,
feeling super, super (super!) suicidal.

I don’t know how Marina does it, either, but this is exactly how I feel about my teenage years, looking back at them.

A Thousand Years - Christina Perri
Time stands still,
beauty in all she is.
I will be brave,
I will not let anything take away
what’s standing in front of me.
Every breath, every hour has come to this.
One step closer.
I have died every day waiting for you.
Darling, don’t be afraid, I have loved you
for a thousand years.
I’ll love you for a thousand more.

Yes, this is from a Twilight soundtrack. But I love it because it sounds like a girl singing a grand, sweeping love song to another girl, which isn’t something you hear on the radio ever (unless it’s this song). It also reminds me of Sailor Moon, which was a formative influence on me, and my first fandom!

She Keeps Me Warm - Mary Lambert
And I can’t change, even if I tried.
Even if I wanted to.
And I can’t change, even if I tried.
Even if I wanted to.
My love, my love, my love, my love,
she keeps me warm.
She keeps me warm.

Cute, sappy love song? Check. Explains my feelings about being a girl who is attracted to other girls? Check. And I like it much better than that annoying Macklemore song that also uses this chorus.

This Is Gospel - Panic! At The Disco
This is gospel for the fallen ones,
locked away in permanent slumber.
Assembling their philosophies
from pieces of broken memories.
Oh, this is the beat of my heart, this is the beat of my heart.
The gnashing teeth and criminal tongues
conspire against the odds.
But they haven’t seen the best of us yet.

I’m pagan (for lack of a better word), and this song reminds me of my gods and my religious practices. And I recently re-discovered P!ATD; I couldn’t not have them on this mix.

Tiptoe - Imagine Dragons
In the morning light, let my roots take flight.
Watch me fall above like a vicious dove.
They don’t see me come, who can blame them?
They never seem to catch my eye, but I never wondered why.
I won’t fall asleep,
I won't fall asleep.
Hey yeah, don’t let ‘em know we’re coming.
Hey yeah, tiptoe higher.
Take some time to simmer down, keep your head down low.
Hey yeah, tiptoe higher.

This song cheers me up, and felt like a hopeful (and abrupt, but I like that) way to end the mix. I hope you enjoyed it!

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Round #18; Welcome To Night Vale - Carlos (Cecil/Carlos) [23 Aug 2013|11:12pm]
Fandom: Welcome To Night Vale
Subject: Carlos POV Cecil/Carlos (The consequence of sound by Skoll)
Title: Silence Is Harder
Warnings/Notes: Spoilers through One Year Later. Some creepy implications because of the power Cecil holds over the town, but nothing weirder than canon. This is based on the first fic I read for WTNV fandom, and it's still my favorite interpretation of Cecil's place as the Voice of Night Vale. Quotes from the story included, so some spoilers for that, too.




“A friendly desert community where the sun is hot, the moon is beautiful, and mysterious lights pass overhead while we all pretend to sleep. Welcome to Night Vale.”


Welcome to Night Vale is a podcast in the style of a radio show, hosted by Cecil Baldwin, the Voice of Night Vale. It's kind of like what A Prairie Home Companion might sound like if it took place in a desert town inside the Twilight Zone. Cecil reports all the news from Night Vale, decrees from the city government and the Sheriff's Secret Police, as well as the weather and local ads (and occasionally his own opinions on things and people around town). Carlos is a scientist who came to Night Vale to study all the strangeness it produces, and with whom Cecil fell in love "instantly" upon his arrival. This mix and the fic it's based on are basically Welcome to Night Vale as seen through Carlos' perspective, but Skoll's summary puts it better than I:

It's not a small thing, to be so important to the Voice of a place as powerful and impossible as Night Vale. Carlos is learning that, now.

(Or: Just because Carlos spends a year not romantically involved with Cecil doesn't mean that Cecil doesn't play a role in his life during that year. Actually, it's probably a much bigger role than Cecil realizes.)



There's a shiver up Carlos' spine the first time his truck's tires lurch over the boundary to Night Vale

The Balled of Fiedler and Mundt - Disparition
~instrumental~

Sometimes, a year later, he'll look back at this moment, and realize he had literally no idea what he was getting himself into.

Consequence of Sounds - Regina Spektor
That very same morning right next to her coffee
She noticed some bleeding and heard hollow coughing and
National Geographic was being too graphic,
When all she had wanted to know was the traffic
"The worlds got a nosebleed" it said
"And we're flooding but we keep on cutting
The trees and the forests!"
And we keep on paying those freaks on the TV,
Who claim they will save us but want to enslave us.
And sweating like demons they scream through our speakers
But we leave the sound on 'cause silence is harder.

“You can't live in Night Vale without a radio”

Do You Know What I’m Seeing? - Panic! At the Disco
Clouds are marching along, singing a song, just like they do.
If the clouds were singing a song, I’d sing along, wouldn’t you too?
If you just knew what they could do.
Oh, if you just knew, what would they do?
...
I know it’s sad that I never gave a damn about the weather
and it never gave a damn about me.

Carlos has the strange feeling—and he can never explain later why this is—that this voice is Important complete with the implied capital letter.

Hear Me - Imagine Dragons
Try to hear my voice.
You can leave, now it’s your choice.
Maybe if I fall asleep, I won’t breathe right.
Maybe if I leave tonight, I won’t come back.
I said it before, I won’t say it again.
Love is a game to you, it’s not pretend.
...
Can nobody hear me?

It's strange, but it turns out like this—Cecil loves Carlos from the start, and so Night Vale does too.

Uninvited - Alanis Morissette
Like any uncharted territory
I must seem greatly intriguing.
You speak of my love like
you have experienced love like mine before.
But this is not allowed.
You’re uninvited.
An unfortunate slight.
I don’t think you unworthy.
I need a moment to deliberate.

And then, after the miscommunication with the clocks—though how come quickly I have an important scientific inquiry turns into let's go on a date, Carlos still isn't entirely sure, and it's not that he isn't flattered, he just doesn't know Cecil all that well—Carlos for the first time faces the town without Cecil's influence.

Storm Warning - I Am Kloot
I would have kept you free from harm
rang the bells or raised alarms.
I would have kept them all at bay
except I thought I heard you say,
‘You’re the leper boy, you can’t come in.
The monkey god is now your king.
You’re out, you’re in,
you’re out, you’re in,
you’re out.’

Of Angels And Angles - The Decemberists
There are angels in your angles.
There’s a low moon caught in your tangles.
There’s a ticking at the sill.
There’s a purr of a pigeon to break the still of the day.
As on we go drowning
down we go today.
And darling, we go a-drowning
down we go away
away.

And Carlos, huddled and stunned on the incline leading to the miniature city, realizes that he's going to die an idiot, because, for all that he's heard Cecil's voice on the radio for a year now, apparently he never really listened before.

Always - Panic! At the Disco
I’m a fly that’s trapped
in a web
but I’m thinking that
my spider’s dead.
Lonely, lonely little life
I could kid myself
thinking that I’m fine.
It was always you
falling for me.
Now there’s always time
calling for me.
I’m the light
blinking at the end of the road.
Blink back to let me know.

They lean together, and look up at the lights. And they say nothing, because nothing needs to be said.



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Round #17; Supernatural - Anna Milton [24 Jul 2013|12:07am]
Fandom:Supernatural
Subject:Anna Milton
Title:A Reasonable Sacrifice
Warnings/Notes:I've seen lots of great mixes for Anna, the angel. I haven't seen as many (hardly any, really) mixes for Anna Milton, the human. So that's what this mix (mostly) is. Her decision to fall, and her life until she gets her grace back.




Anna Milton is a fallen angel. She chose to rip out her grace and fall so that she could experience life and emotions as a human. She has no memories of her former life as an angel at first, although as a child she had what those around her considered a mental break where she claimed her father was not her real Father and that her real Father was going to kill her for what she’d done. Otherwise, her childhood and early adulthood were fairly average. When the angels raised Dean Winchester from Hell, Anna began to hear them talking in her head about their plans and the Apocalypse, and was subsequently hospitalized in a mental institution. She was pursued by both angels and demons when they realized she had a direct line to ‘angel radio’ and was rescued by the Winchesters, who got psychic Pamela Barnes to help Anna regain her memories. Anna managed to escape both the demons and the angels by reclaiming her grace and becoming an angel again.

This is a mix for the Anna she chose to be, instead of the one she was expected to be.

“Perfect... Like a marble statue. Cold... no choice... only obedience. Dean, do you know how many angels have actually seen God? Seen his face?...Four angels. Four. And I'm not one of them.”


Heavy Storm - First Aid Kit
I wish I could believe in something bigger,
more than these trees, these winds, these oceans.
I wish I could believe what they tell me.
I saw, I saw, I saw my brother pack his bags and leave.
We made our goodbyes and now he is settled down
in the city where he doesn’t have to be himself.

Numb - Marina & the Diamonds
One track mind like a goldfish.
Stuck inside my petri dish.
I can’t breathe and I can’t smile,
this better be worth my while.
I feel numb most of the time.
Lower I get, the higher I’ll climb
and I will wonder why
I got dark only to shine.
Looking for the golden light.
Oh, it’s a reasonable sacrifice.
Burn, burn, burn bright.

“My grace. It's... energy. Hacked it out and fell. My mother, Amy, couldn't get pregnant. Always called me her little miracle. She had no idea how right she was.”


Dare You To Move (Switchfoot cover) - Jayesslee
Welcome to the planet. Welcome to existence.
Everyone’s here, everyone’s here.
Everybody’s watching you now.
Everybody waits for you now.
What happens next, what happens next?
...
Welcome to the fallout. Welcome to resistance.
The tension is here, the tension is here,
between who you are and who you could be.
Between how it is and how it should be.

The People Who Raised Me - Gregory and the Hawk
I’ve been the wild one.
I’ve run through the streets and I’ve suffered.
I’ve been the quiet one,
sequestered and smothered.
But I won’t mind no time spent to save me,
just trying to be good to the people who raised me.

I Was A Daughter - Basia Bulat
If you call tomorrow I will dream I was a daughter,
weaving through these brand new silver streams.
Turned into dusty roads that we both wandered on,
we prayed to perfect Avalon.
We wished for anyone to take us home.
...
We swam in the rivers, sang with the birds,
gave away our hearts before we knew what they were.
What a pretty fall.

Saturn Girl - Paula Cole
I can’t explain, why I don’t belong to the same world;
I don’t fit in and I will not stay.
I want to fly.
Oh, I long for my violet skies,
my astral nights, my peace of mind.
...
Lost in another world, oh Saturn, Saturn girl.

Breaking Down - Florence + The Machine
All alone, even when I was a child, I’ve always known
there was something to be frightened of.
And I can see it coming from the edge of the room,
creeping in the streetlight.
Holding my hand in the pale gloom,
can you see it coming now?
Oh, I think I’m breaking down again.

Troubled Mind - Marina & the Diamonds
Off she trots to the psychiatric hospital;
all she’s got is the memory of a girl that used to laugh a lot.
Now she’s very angry ‘cause they say she’s lost the plot,
and she’s laughing in the mirror at her paper dress.
Because she has a troubled mind, a troubled mind.
...
Wipe the white golden dust into these broken hands.
Must depend on a friend that will understand.
Like the glitter making love to the gleam,
just remember things aren’t always what they seem.

Violet Stars Happy Hunting! - Janelle Monáe
Impossibly (Wait! It’s impossible) they’re gunning for me!
(That they’re gunning for me and now they’re after you)
And now the Army’s after you for loving too!
(baby, I hear the sirens go doodooo)

“I remember now....I'm an angel.”


Secret Message - Rasputina
I’m not at liberty to say
how a secret message came for you today.
It holds the secrets of my heart and my mind.
It tells of vast expanses stretching backwards over time.
Two objects at equidistance acting as if they cared.
Does weight follow mass in this instance?
Oh, e equals mc squared.
I’m not at liberty to say
how a secret message came for you today.

Hope in the Air - Laura Marling
Pick up your rope Lord, sling it to me,
if we are to battle I must not be weak.
And give us your strength, world,
and your food and your water;
oh, I am your savior, your last serving daughter.
There’s hope in the air, there’s hope in the water,
but sadly not me, your last serving daughter.

“Every emotion, Dean, even the bad ones... It's why I fell. It's why... why I'd give anything not to have to go back. Anything.”


My Skin - Natalie Merchant
I’ve been treated so wrong, I’ve been treated so long
as if I’m becoming untouchable.
I’m a slow dying flower, frost killing hour,
the sweet turning sour and untouchable.
Oh, I need the darkness, the sweetness,
the sadness, the weakness.
Oh, I need this.
I need a lullaby, a kiss goodnight,
angel sweet, love of my life.
Oh, I need this.

“Sister, you're the Stanley Cup. And sooner or later, Heaven or Hell, they're gonna find you.”

“I know. And that's why I'm gonna get it back....My grace.”


Amazing Grace - Ani DiFranco
‘Twas grace that taught my heart to fear
and grace that fear relieved.
How precious did that grace appear
the hour I first believed.
Through many dangers, toils, and snares
I have already come.
‘Twas grace that brought me safely thus far,
and grace will lead me home.


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Round #16; Adventure Time - What Was Missing [24 Jun 2013|01:40am]
Fandom: Adventure Time
Subject: Princess Bubblegum/Marceline (+Finn)
Title: Shall We Sing?
Warnings/Notes: Spoilers for one of the more controversial episodes of Adventure Time, What Was Missing (controversial mostly because of official reactions to an official reaction to it, re: potential/implied lesbian relationships, not by the fans). This episode is the one that pretty much singlehandedly built one of the largest 'ships in AT fandom, and I love it more every time I watch it; I think the emotional honesty between the girls (and everyone, really) is particularly powerful. Also, they save the day with singing.




“What Was Missing” is the tenth episode in season three of Adventure Time. In it, a Door Lord steals the most important objects of several characters -- Finn, Jake, and Princess Bubblegum among them. Those three and Marceline form a band to open the final door of the Door Lord (which will “open to no command, save for a song from a genuine band”; LOTR parallels anyone?) and get their stuff back. It takes several attempted songs and band breakups before the door can be opened, with the final song uniting the feuding friends and opening the door with the truth in Finn’s words.

What this episode reveals about the relationship between Princess Bubblegum (PB) and Marceline is the most interesting part of it, for me. The first song they attempt, I’m Just Your Problem, is sung by Marceline and directed at PB; it nearly opens the door, indicating that it got close to the truth about Marceline’s feelings for PB, and sounds like a song about a relationship that ended badly. They fight on and off throughout the episode, with some obviously old anger and arguments backing them up. When everyone gets their stuff back from the Door Lord, we find out that PB’s most important thing was an old band tee that Marceline had given to her, when they were on better relationship terms (she wears it all the time, as pajamas).

Their attempts to be friendly to each other despite having some sort of bad falling-out fascinate me, as do the hints at a possible same-sex relationship in a show aimed at children. I tried to get this mix to mimic both the sound of each character’s individual music and them all as a group while following the basic course of the episode. It mainly follows Marceline and PB’s attempts at negotiating their relationship post-falling-out (I unabashedly made it a former romantic relationship for this mix, where trying-to-be-the-perfect-ruler-PB left Marceline in order to better rule her kingdom instead of being influenced by an emotional and impulsive vampire queen), but it ends with Finn’s desire for his friends to get along with each other, as that is the overarching idea of the episode.

This is a mix about miscommunication and wanting to get along again but not knowing how (and a little bit of your oblivious friend who just wants everyone to be friends).



“Ha! Looks like you aren’t as perfect as you thought. Guess you can’t judge me anymore.”


“I never said you had to be perfect!”


I Knew You Were Trouble (8-bit) - Taylor Swift
~instrumental~

Heartless (Kanye West cover) - The Fray
So I got somethin’ new to see,
you just gon’ keep hating me,
and we just gon’ be enemies.
I know you can’t believe
I could just leave it wrong.
And you can’t make it right
so I’ma take off tonight into the night.
Hear ‘em talk, the coldest story ever told.
Somewhere far along this road he lost his soul
to a woman so heartless.
How could you be so heartless?



Stars - fun.
And there are people on the street, they’re coming up to me.
They’re telling me that they like what I do now.
And so I tried my best when I took the fall
to get right back up, back in your arms.
If you’re out here why do I miss you so much?
I feel like I had it all back before I lost it all.
Now I just wait for you to talk to me
but you won’t even look at me, baby.
And I’d be saying that you,
you’re always holding on to stars.
I think they’re better from afar,
‘cause no one is gonna save us.

I’m Just Your Problem (cover) - Elena Íviel Berciano feat. Nicole Vaquerano
It’s like I’m not even a person, am I?
I’m just your problem.
Well, I shouldn’t have to justify what I do.
I shouldn’t have to prove anything to you.
I’m sorry that I exist;
I forget what landed me on your blacklist.
But I shouldn’t have to be the one that makes up with you, so...
why do I want to?
Why do I want to...



Swimming - Florence + the Machine
Your songs remind of swimming,
which I forgot when I started to sink.
Dragged further away from the shore
and deeper into the drink.
Sat on the bottom of the ocean,
a stern and stubborn rock.
‘Cause your songs remind me of swimming,
but somehow I forgot.

Explosions - Ellie Goulding
You left my soul bleeding in the dark
so you could be king.
The rules you set are still untold to me and I’ve
lost my faith in everything.
The nights you could cope, your intentions were gold,
but the mountains will shake I need to know I can still make
explosions. On the day you wake up, needing somebody
and you’ve learned it’s ok to be afraid but it will never be the same.
...
I pray that you will find peace of mind and I’ll find you another time.
I’ll love you, another time.



I’m Just Your Problem (8-bit) - Rebecca Sugar
~instrumental~



What Am I To You? (My Best Friends in the World) - Jeremy Shada
Do you think that I don’t understand?
I just wanted us together and to play as a band,
last night was the most fun I’ve ever had,
even liked it when the two of you would get mad
at each other.
Oh, you are my best friends in the world.
You are my best friends in the world.
That’s right, I’m talking about the two of you girls,
and you, Jake.
I wanna sing a song to you and I refuse to make it fake.

C’Mon - Panic! At the Disco & fun.
Try not to mistake what you have with what you hate,
it could leave it could leave come the morning.
Celebrate the night, it’s the fall before the climb.
Shall we sing, shall we sing till the morning?
If I fall forward, you fall flat.
And if the sun should lift me up, would you come back?
So c’mon.




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Round #15; Adventure Time - The Land of Ooo [22 May 2013|09:03pm]
Fandom:Adventure Time
Subject:The Land of Ooo
Title:We'll Go To Very Distant Lands
Warnings/Notes:I recently fell in love with Adventure Time, and thought it would be perfect for this round. It's a show with a lot to say about the typical (and not so typical) hero/villain/damsel-in-distress dynamic, and can be surprisingly dark (granted, it does take place in a world that's been devastated by nuclear fallout). I went kind of the odd way and made a mix about the world itself instead of a particular character because it's enough of a presence to almost be its own character (and I got to explore both sides this way!).




Adventure Time takes place “after the bombs have fallen and magic has come back into the world”. It’s a post-apocalyptic world, one thousand years after The Mushroom War has ended. Life has come back into the world, but it’s (mostly) not life as we know it. Think candy people and sentient lumps; vampire queens and magical talking, stretchy dogs; monsters born from nuclear devastation and heroes who are the last of their species. The Land of Ooo is where most of the action of the show takes place (there are a few other dimensions and alternate universes, after all). It’s a place that creates heroes and villains in equal (and equally fun) amounts, with plenty of shades of grey in between. A place where the hero might fight their enemy with singing as often as with swords, and the princesses save their heroes when the need arises.

This is a mix dedicated to the Land of Ooo and the people it shapes.




The Fog Rolls In - Nox Arcana
~instrumental~

Land Lost - In The Nursery
~instrumental~

Imagine (John Lennon cover) - A Perfect Circle
Imagine there’s no heaven, it’s easy if you try.
No hell below us, above us only sky.
Imagine all the people living for today.

Shankill Butchers - The Decemberists
They used to be just like me and you,
they used to be sweet little boys.
But something went horribly askew,
now killing is their only source of joy.
Cuz everybody knows if you don’t mind your mother’s words
a wicked wind will blow your ribbons from your curls.
Everybody moan, everybody shake.
The Shankill Butchers want to catch you awake.

A Fire Is Burning - Oysterband
Names were gone like footprints, a whisper on the wind.
A lover was a comrade, was a stranger, was a friend.
When we slept our eyes were open and this thumping in our chest
said there is no, there is no, there is no rest.
Because a fire is burning in our house,
a fire burning up the house of man.

Barlights - fun.
And I really wanna take a swing,
I can’t help but remember James Dean.
See we are part of the few who agree
that, hey, he lived life fast
but he died, he died, he died.
Me, I’m gonna live forever.
...
For the first time in a long time I feel alive.



On Top of the World - Imagine Dragons
I’ve tried to cut these corners,
try to take the easy way out.
I kept on falling short of something.
I coulda gave up then but
then again I couldn’t have cuz
I’ve traveled all this way for something.
I take it in but don’t look down,
cuz I’m on top of the world, ‘ay,
I’m on top of the world, ‘ay.
Waiting on this for a while now,
paying my dues to the dirt.
I’ve been waiting to smile, ‘ay,
been holding it in for a while, ‘ay.
Take you with me if I can,
been dreaming of this since a child.
I’m on top of the world.

The World I Know (Collective Soul cover, live) - David Cook
So I walk up on high and I step to the edge
to see my world below.
And I laugh at myself while the tears roll down.
Cuz it’s the world I know,
it’s the world I know.

King And Lionheart - Of Monsters And Men
And in the winter night sky ships are sailing,
looking down on these bright blue city lights.
And they won’t wait, and they won’t wait, and they won’t wait.
We’re here to stay, we’re here to stay, we’re here to stay.
Howling ghosts they reappear
in mountains that are stacked with fear,
but you’re a king and I’m a lionheart.
A lionheart.

Our Voices - Matthew Barber
Sing this song with me
and you will never be sad or alone,
on the road or at home.
Sing along with me
and your eyes will see what your ears hear,
and that’s our voices my dear.

Yawny At the Apocalypse - Andrew Bird
~instrumental~









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Round #14; Supernatural - Kate [23 Apr 2013|12:45am]
Fandom: Supernatural
Subject: Kate (from episode 8.04, Bitten)
Title: Where No One Knows My Name
Warnings/Notes: spoilers for 8.04. Because the obvious choice for a journeys mix is a one-off character from Supernatural, right?




Kate is one of three friends whose films make up episode 8.04 of Supernatural, “Bitten”. Her boyfriend, Mike, is bitten and turned by a werewolf, and the episode then centers around how the group of friends is affected by the aftermath. She ends up being turned by Mike’s friend, Brian, after he has been turned and killed Mike in a jealous rage over Kate. In turn, Kate kills Brian, finishes their film with a message to the Winchesters (who have been hunting the werewolf that turned Mike) to just give her a chance, and leaves town, her old life and hopes and dreams gone for good.

This is a mix about finding yourself again after tragedy, and what the Winchesters leave behind when they’ve killed the ‘monster of the week’.




I’ve never hurt anyone. Nobody human, anyway. I didn’t choose this. Please. Please give me a chance.



Forever Young (Bob Dylan cover, acapella) - Audra Mae
May your hands always be busy, may your feet always be swift.
May you have a strong foundation when the winds of changes shift.
And may your heart always be joyful, may your song always be sung.
And may you stay forever young.
May you stay forever young.


Boston - Augustana
She said: You don’t know me, you don’t even care.
She said: You don’t know me, and you don’t wear my chains.
She said: I think I’ll go to Boston.
I think I’ll start a new life.
I think I’ll start it over,
where no one knows my name.

I Can’t Stay - The Killers
Exoneration lost his eraser but my forgiver found the sun.
And there are twisted days that I take comfort, ‘cause I’m not the only one.
No, I’m not the only one.
In the dark, for a while now, I can’t stay very far.
I can’t stay much longer, riding my decision home.

Slow And Steady - Of Monsters And Men
Two wolves in the dark, running in the wind.
I’m letting go but I’ve never felt better,
passing by all the monsters in my head.
I move slow and steady but I feel like a waterfall.
Yeah, I move slow and steady past the ones that I used to know.

I’m An Animal - Neko Case
You could say it’s my instinct.
Yes, I still have one.
There’s no time to second guess it,
yes, there are things that I’m still so afraid of.
But my courage is roaring like the sound of the sun,
‘cause it’s vain about its mane and will reveal them to no one.
Now I’m an animal.
You’re an animal, too.

Such A Common Bird - Ane Brun
I’m a lone wolf, a beauty and a beast.
Both hunter and hunted, soft tongue and sharp teeth.
I’m toned from my travels, yet raw from this road,
as I drink from storm puddles and the stories I’m told.
Help me figure this out.
Help me figure you in.
You’re a shadow to me,
that I echo when I sing.

Heartlines (acoustic) - Florence + the Machine
Oh the river, oh the river, it’s running free.
And oh the joy, oh the joy it brings to me.
But I know it’ll have to drown me before I can breathe easy.
And I’ve seen it in the flights of birds, I’ve seen it in you.
In the entrails of the animals, the blood running through.
But in order to get to the heart
I think sometimes you have to cut through.
But you can’t.
...
Keep it up, I know you can.
Just keep following the heartlines on your hand.



Titanium - David Guetta feat. Sia
Cut me down but it’s you who’ll have further to fall.
Ghost town and haunted love, raise your voice,
sticks and stones may break my bones.
I’m talking loud, not saying much.
I’m bulletproof, nothing to lose.
Fire away, fire away.
Ricochet, you take your aim.
Fire away, fire away.


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Round #13; Supernatural - Anna/Jo [21 Mar 2013|01:03am]
Fandom:Supernatural
Subject:Anna/Jo
Title:In Prayers and Proclamations
Warnings/Notes:Kinda spoilery through 5x13, but mostly shippy-ness. I'm so sick of Supernatural killing off all its ladies (and every other side character ever, but I digress), so I fight that by shipping them every which way and just generally trying to spread the love for them. But I always seem to come back to these two (and Meg and Bela, but I already made a mix for them and I've been having too many solo Meg feels to do a shippy mix for her right now). I don't know that I really have an OTP, since I'm such a multishipper, but I think if I do, Anna/Jo is it.



Jo Harvelle and Anna Milton are both runaways, in their own ways.

Jo is a girl who ran away to become a Hunter, to feel closer to her father (a Hunter who was killed on a hunt gone bad with John Winchester). Her mother wanted her to live a more ‘normal’ life, but Jo never fit in; she was “a freak with a knife collection” and she never felt like she belonged to the civilian world. She was eventually joined on her hunts by her mother, Ellen, during the attempted Apocalypse.

Anna is an angel who tore out her own Grace to become human, so she could feel like her Father’s greatest creation can. She was stationed on Earth for thousands of years, watching humanity and sick for home, “waiting on orders from an unknowable Father” until she snapped and Fell, choosing free will over angelic obedience. She regained her Grace and stayed away from Heaven and her family as long as she could, but was eventually caught and brought back for a sort of angel reprogramming.

This mix picks up after Anna has regained her Grace. She stumbles onto Jo during one of her hunts (or Jo stumbles onto her, they’re never quite sure which way it was) and fall into a relationship. Jo doesn’t want to be the one to get Anna hurt or caught, though she feels a connection to her, but Anna is insistent right from the start and eventually they fall in love (what, I can’t be sappy about my OTP?). But, this mix follows canon for the most part and so too soon Anna is turned in and taken back to Heaven. When she returns, it’s to find Jo dead and gone to her but she can’t regret what they had.



Every emotion...even the bad ones. It’s why I fell.



Song Of The Century - Green Day
Sing us a song of the century,
that’s louder than bombs and eternity.
The era of static and contraband
that’s leading us into the promised land.
Tell us a story that’s by candlelight,
waging a war and losing the fight.
...
Sing us a song for me.


I Still Haven’t Found What I’m Looking For (U2 cover, live) - David Cook
I have kissed honey lips. Felt the healing in her fingertips.
It burned like fire, this burning desire.
I have spoke with the tongue of angels.
I have held the hand of a devil;
it was warm in the night, I was cold as a stone.
But I still haven’t found what I’m looking for.

Joy Ride - The Killers
Headlights on the highway,
the desert wind is howling.
Rattlesnakes and romance
are spilling with the rain.
Candy apple red dress,
bleeding when she kissed me.
Heaven in a ragtop
takes away my pain.



Absence Of Fear - Jewel
Muscle and sinew. Velvet and stone.
This vessel is haunted, it creaks and moans.
My bones call to you in your separate skin.
I make myself translucent to let you in, for,
I am wanting. And I am needing you here,
inside the absence of fear.

Don’t Say A Word - Ellie Goulding
I’m more alive than I’ve ever been,
so now I give you all my sins.
I’ve chosen you, I’ve chosen you,
but don’t say a word.
And if I save us, and I fall down,
I will leave your words behind now.
If you never held me under,
if you never hear my thunder.
If you never, if you never.



Light A Roman Candle With Me - fun.
If we were honest and both wrote a sonnet,
together a sandwich with everything on it,
at least we would know that the sparks didn’t glow.
But we owe it to ourselves to try so we aim and ignite!
So often I call and I plead with you: “Give me a chance!”
It’s not often that I understand
the ins and the outs of what’s wrong and what’s right.
So don’t think of tomorrow tonight.
...
Light a roman candle with me.
Just a roman candle, just a perfect apple.

Arms - Christina Perri
The world is coming down on me
and I can’t find a reason to be loved.
I never wanna leave you
but I can’t make you bleed if I’m alone.
You put your arms around me and I believe
that it’s easier for you to let me go.
I hope that you see right through my walls.
I hope you catch me, ‘cause I’m already falling.



All This And Heaven Too - Florence + the Machine
And the heart is hard to translate, it has a language of its own.
It talks in tongues and quiet sighs, in prayers and proclamations.
...
And I would give all this and Heaven, too.
I would give it all if only for a moment
that I could just understand the meaning of the word you see,
‘cause I’ve been scrawling it forever but it never made sense to me at all.

Glitter In The Air - P!nk
It’s only half past the point of oblivion.
The hourglass on the table, the walk before the run.
The breath before the kiss and the fear before the flames.
Have you ever felt this way?




Can’t Help Falling In Love - Ingrid Michaelson
Shall I stay? Would it be a sin?
If I can’t help falling in love with you.
Like a river flows surely to the sea,
darling so it goes some things are meant to be.

Haunted - Kelly Clarkson
It’s not fair just when I found my world,
they took you, they broke you, they tore out your heart.
...
Where did you go?
All these questions run through my mind.
I wish I couldn’t feel at all.
Let me be numb, I’m starting to fall.
...
You were smiling.



End Of The Dream - Evanescence
I found a grave, brushed off the face,
felt your light and I remember why I know this place.
...
As much as it hurts ain’t it wonderful to feel?
So go on and break your wings.
Follow your heart till it bleeds
as we run towards the end of the dream.

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Round #12; Supernatural - Dean and His Parents [21 Feb 2013|12:36am]
Fandom:Supernatural
Subject:Dean and his parent issues
Title:His Mother's Son
Warnings/Notes:Implied abuse and vague hints of potential incest (deals with Dean as John's replacement, so to speak, for Mary, so it's all up to personal interpretation how far that goes). Also contains interpretations of canon that not everyone may agree with, and info from John's Journal. This is not a John Winchester appreciation mix.




Dean is the oldest child of Mary and John Winchester. When Dean was four, Mary died, pinned to the ceiling and in flames. With Mary went the only home Dean had ever known, and he has spent his entire life trying to return to that, all the while looking up to an idealized vision of a mother that he barely knew. In Mary's absence, John often turned to alcohol and ignored his children except to protect them and to teach them how to hunt down monsters. Dean was left to mostly raise himself and Sam alone, taking away any chances he might have had at a childhood of his own. Despite his father's continual absence, he looked up to him in an almost worshipful manner, mimicking his taste in clothes, cars, music, etc.

Dean is much more like his mother than he ever was like his father, however. His desire for a home and way out of the hunting life, and his mothering of Sam and most other children they come across, exemplify this. John seemed to see the parallels between his son and his wife, taking comfort from Dean after bad hunts and encouraging Dean's maternalistic protectiveness of Sam at all costs. Dean even wears his mother's wedding ring. Despite his love for his father Dean acknowledges, at least to himself, that John was never father of the year. It's only since Hell that Dean has really been working on the (figurative) scars John left on him.

(I could write whole essays on all this, but that would be even more tl;dr, so)

This mix deals with Dean's myriad of mommy and daddy issues. All songs are from his POV, with the exception of Hey Jude (we'll call that Mary's song). The first half deals mostly with Dean and Mary, and the second half mostly with Dean and John.




“It’s ok, Mom. Dad still loves you. I love you, too. I’ll never leave you.”


Hey Jude - The Beatles
And anytime you feel the pain, hey Jude, refrain.
Don’t carry the world up on your shoulders.
For well you know that it’s a fool who plays it cool
by making his world a little colder.
...
Hey Jude, don’t make it bad.
Take a sad song and make it better.

Wonderful - Everclear
I want the things that I had before,
like a Star Wars poster on my bedroom door.
I wish I could count to ten,
make everything be wonderful again.

All Alone - fun.
I fell in love with a wind-up souvenir.
I bought it downtown as I was on my way to meet you.
She sounds like the songs you used to sing to put me to sleep;
now that you’re gone, she’s all that I’ve left to hold.
And I feel so all alone.
No one’s gonna fix me when I’m broke.

Mama - My Chemical Romance
Well, Mother, what the war did to my legs and to my tongue,
you should’ve raised a baby girl, I should’ve been a better son.
If you could coddle the infection they can amputate at once.
You should’ve been, I could’ve been, a better son.
...
Mama, we all go to hell.



Please Don’t Leave Me - P!nk
Please don’t leave me.
Please don’t leave me.
I always say how I don’t need you
but it’s always gonna come right back to this.
Please don’t leave me.




Rootless - Marina and the Diamonds
I’ve got nowhere to go.
I’m a stray cat on the roam.
Choking on a chicken bone.
For a home sweet, no sweet home.
...
Running with my roots pulled up.
Caught me cold so they could cut
what there was left of love.
I’m rootless.

Half Jack - Dresden Dolls
And when I let him in I feel the stitches getting sicker.
I try to wash him out but like they say: the blood is thicker.
I see my mother in my face, but only when I travel.
I run as fast as I can run but Jack comes tumbling after.

Dilate - Ani DiFranco
I just want you to live up to
the image of you that I create.
I see you and I'm so unsatisfied,
I see you and I dilate.
So I’ll walk the plank and I’ll jump with a smile.
If I’m gonna go down I’m gonna do it with style.
And you won’t see me surrender, you won’t hear me confess.
‘Cuz you’ve left me with nothing, but I’ve worked with less.
...
The world is my oyster, the road is my home,
and I know that I’m better off alone.

Just In Case - Axium
Stranglehold of bend and fold
to feed your sense of self.
I spent my life to be your slave,
surrounded by myself.
To want someone to comprehend
is to want it all in gold.
I see myself in black and white,
beaten down and old.
Beaten down and old.
...
I’ve heard it all before,
I won’t preach it anymore,
life’s not made to waste.
So do what you can to be,
be who you want to be,
just in case.




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Holmes Big Bang Art: for A Vast Profundity Obscure [06 Feb 2013|08:52pm]
This is the art masterpost for The Vast Profundity Obscure by mistyzeo for the holmes_big_bang challange! The fic masterpost can be found here:

The Vast Profundity Obscure by mistyzeo


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Round #11; Mythology - Selkies [21 Jan 2013|03:19am]
Fandom:Mythology/Folktales
Subject:Selkies
Title:Seal Girl
Warnings/Notes:Based mostly on traditional selkie tales, but with some influence from The Folk Keeper by Franny Billingsley (though no knowledge of the book is required to understand the mix and it makes no direct reference to it).




Selkies are seal people in the folklore of the Orkney Islands (selkie simply means 'seal' in the local dialect). They live in the water as seals most of the time, but occasionally they will come out of the water, shedding their seal skins, and dance on the beach or pursue lovers amongst the humans. If a selkie loses their seal skin, or a human steals it from them, they cannot return to the ocean until it is recovered. Many selkie stories are about selkie women who have had their seal skins stolen by opportunistic human men who then take the selkie as a wife.

This mix is one of those tales.


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Sweet Water Kill (The Ocean Song) - Rasputina
Watching salt clouds billow, brimming and brand new.
Down below, I will follow, where bubbles tell me to.
All along, it was the ocean’s song that called me down to listen to her.
Swirling still, in a sweet water kill, a swiftly sifting riptide.

The ocean is her home. It's where she belongs and no matter how many times she goes ashore, the ocean always calls her back.
~

On An Unknown Beach - Amanda Palmer
I’m a pale intruder on an unknown beach.
My back to the water, my feet in the sand.
Needing no recognition as each sign of life
invades the precision of this aging land.
...
All interceding, not yet receding, misleading doubts in my mind.

Your Bones - Of Monsters And Men
Million stars up in the sky formed a tiger’s eye
that looked down on my face, out of time and out of place.
So hold on, hold on to what we are.
Hold on to your heart.

She's lost her seal skin. This is important: she has to remember who she is long enough to get it back. But her memories keep slipping away like the waves from the shore.
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The Shore - Basia Bulat
There is no one who will take me by that shore.
But the wave’s rushing down,
the wave’s rushing down on your shoulders.
And if I am awake this time, this time I’ll know.
All over your eyes a storm is nearly over, nearly over.

Ocean Soul - Nightwish
Long hours of loneliness, between me and the sea.
Losing emotion. Finding devotion.
Should I dress in white and search the sea, as I always wish to be?
One with the waves, ocean soul.

She no longer remembers who she is. But a man has taken her in and made her his wife. He's promised to take care of her; his only caveat is that she not go down to the ocean. She feels such a strong draw to it, though, that keeping her promise seems almost impossible. The ocean holds the key to her identity, she's sure of it.
~

Blinding - Florence + The Machine
And I could hear the thunder and see the lightning crack.
All around the world was waking, I never could go back.
‘Cause all the walls of dreaming, they were torn wide open.
And finally it seemed that the spell was broken.
...
No more dreaming like a girl, so in love, so in love.
No more dreaming like a girl so in love with the wrong world.

It's been years since she's been down to the shore. One day, one of her children brings her a ratty old pelt that they'd found in the attic. As soon as she touches it, she remembers.
~

Timshel - Mumford & Sons
And you are the mother, the mother of your baby child,
the one to whom you gave life.
And you have your choices, and these are what make man great;
his ladder to the stars.

Now she has a choice.
~

Night After Night - Laura Marling
We dance the sorrow, forgive me tomorrow, I pray.
Night after night, day after day.
Would you watch my body weaken, my mind drift away?

She loved her husband, but now her image of him has become twisted with that of captor. If she stays, she will only pine for the ocean until she is withered to nothing but resentment and anger.
~

Swimming Home - Evanescence
I was looking to the sky when I knew I’d be swimming home.
And I cannot betray my kind, they are here - it’s my time.
I’m sorry. Nothing can hold me (do you really want me?).
I adore you still, but I hear them calling (calling)
and nothing can hold me.
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Round #10; His Dark Materials - Marisa Coulter [23 Dec 2012|01:30am]
Fandom: His Dark Materials
Subject: Marisa Coulter
Title: She's A Killer (Queen)
Warnings/Notes: For roslindi in the waywardmixes mix exchange! I hope you like it! Book based with spoilers for all three (although I kept the movie casting for the cover and some lyrics, as I feel Nicole Kidman makes the perfect Mrs. Coulter). I need to learn better coding so the presentation actually looks good...




“I told him I was going to betray you, and betray Lyra, and he believed me because I was corrupt and full of wickedness; he looked so deep I felt sure he’d see the truth. But I lied too well. I was lying with every nerve and fibre and everything I’d ever done… I wanted him to find no good in me, and he didn’t. There is none."


Marisa Coulter, or Mrs. Coulter as she is first introduced, is the mother of Lyra Belacqua, the main character in Philip Pullman’s His Dark Materials series. She is ostensibly one of the villains of the story, using whatever is at her disposal (from seduction to murder) to get what she wants. She gave Lyra up to be raised by the scholars at Oxford University while she went on to become a leading member of and kidnapper for the Oblation Board, the Church’s best kept secret in its supposed quest to end Dust and original sin. Mrs. Coulter is beautiful, a member of high society, calculating and ruthless, well-connected, and trusted by the Church; she has also kidnapped children for horrifying scientific experiments, murdered previous lovers, and made plans to kill her own child. However, throughout the series, she becomes attached to Lyra, in her own way, and goes from someone who would kill her own child without a second thought to someone who will literally snuff herself out of existence to save that same child.


"But I love Lyra. Where did this love come from? I don’t know; it came to me like a thief in the night, and now I love her so much my heart is bursting with it. All I could hope was that my crimes were so monstrous that the love was no bigger than a mustard-seed in the shadow of them, and I wished I’d committed even greater ones to hide it more deeply still… But the mustard-seed had taken root and was growing, and the little green shoot was splitting my heart wide open, and I was so afraid he’d see…”


The first half of this mix focuses solely on Mrs. Coulter, while the second half focuses more on her changing relationship with Lyra.

Bird Song - Florence + The Machine
I picked up the bird and above the din
I said “That’s the last song you’ll ever sing”.
Held him down, broke his neck,
taught him a lesson he wouldn’t forget.
But in my dreams began to creep
that old familiar tweet tweet tweet.

Cheap and Cheerful - The Kills
I’m bored of cheap and cheerful.
I want expensive sadness.
Hospital bills, parole,
open doors to madness.
...
It’s alright (it’s alright)
to be mean (to be mean).
It’s alright (it’s alright)
to be mean (to be mean).

Misery Loves Company - Emilie Autumn
It’s not the time. It’s not the place.
I’m just another pretty face,
so don’t come any closer.
You’re not the first, you’re not the last.
How many more? Don’t even ask.
You’re one more dead composer.

Vampyra - Inkubus Sukkubus
Come and suffer, come and bleed.
Give to me everything I need.
I will break your little heart,
tear your tiny soul apart.
...
Oh, I’m Lucifer in heels and fur;
my serpent kiss will never miss.
I’m Lilith with a killer kiss;
you’ll lose your mind while we’re entwined.
I’m Venus at her meanest.

Killer Queen - Queen
Caviar and cigarettes,
well versed in etiquette,
extraordinarily nice.
She’s a killer queen.
Gunpowder and gelatine,
dynamite with a laser beam.
Guaranteed to blow your mind,
anytime.

Viva La Vida - Lady Gaga (Coldplay cover)
Shattered windows and the sound of drums,
people couldn’t believe what I’d become.
Revolutionaries wait
for my, blond head on a silver plate.
Just a Gaga on a lonely string,
oh who would ever want to be queen?
...
For some reason I can’t explain,
I know Saint Mary won’t call my name.
Never an honest word,
but that was when I ruled the world.

I Am Not A Robot - Marina and the Diamonds
It’s ok to say you’ve got a weak spot.
You don’t always have to be on top.
Better to be hated
than loved, loved, loved for what you’re not.
You’re vulnerable, you’re vulnerable.
You are not a robot.

This Woman’s Work - Kate Bush
I should be crying, but I just can’t let it show.
I should be hoping, but I can’t stop thinking.
Of all the things I should’ve said that I never said.
All the things we should’ve done that we never did.
All the things I should’ve given but I didn’t.
...
(I know you have a little life in you yet.
I know you have a lot of strength left.)

Nothing Nowhere - Jakalope
Tears and dust burn me;
I’m so tired and weary.
I’ve put my feet down,
firmly, on the ground.
There’s no way to overcome
what I’ve done.
I’ve missed my step and lost
all control.

The Queen - Lady Gaga
Oh, tonight I’m gonna show
them what I’m made of, oh.
The killer queen inside of me’s
coming to say “hello!”
Oh, tonight I will return
the fame and riches earned.
With you I’d watch them all be burned.
...
I can be the queen that’s inside of me.
This is my chance to release and
be brave for you, you’ll see.
I can be the queen you need me to be.




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Round #9; Supernatural-Castiel/Balthazar [21 Nov 2012|12:40am]
Fandom:Supernatural
Subject:Castiel/Balthazar, season 6
Title:Mistakes Became Our Medicine
Warnings/Notes:potential/one-sided angelcest, fratricide?. These two are my OTP, and were almost the subject of my mix for last round, but I think they fit this one much better. I tried to tone down the shippy-ness, but, ya know, OTP feels might have gotten in the way, so I apologize for that. Feel free to interpret around that, if you don't like the ship.




Balthazar and Castiel are angels and brothers-in-arms. Castiel calls Balthazar ‘a good friend’ and grieved his supposed death, something he is not shown doing for other angels, and Balthazar has stood against Heaven for Castiel when he was dragged back for what amounts to angel reprogramming. I firmly believe that Balthazar is in love with Castiel, and Cas may or may not be on the same wavelength (though he also loves him, it may not be in the same way). This is the emotional backing for this mix, though I think it can be seen as simply two brothers if you want to look at it that way (just turn any mentions of love into brotherly love? I've done that before).

Balthazar skipped out of Heaven during the ongoing civil war, taking most of Heaven’s arsenal with him, and is presumed dead. Castiel finds him, however, and asks him to return and help fight in his war. Balthazar offers to help Cas but refuses to hand over the weapons, believing the fighting will never stop; somewhere along the line this changes and Balthazar ends up joining Castiel. It’s not until after this that Balthazar finds out Castiel has been working with Crowley, the king of Hell, in a potentially suicidal mission to find and open the doors to Purgatory and use the souls there as power in his war. Balthazar, out of a place of love and fear for Cas’ safety, turns double-agent and works with the Winchesters against Castiel’s plan. Castiel, however, finds out that, as he puts it, ‘there is a Judas in our midst’ and deduces that it is Balthazar. This betrayal by a trusted friend and brother only serves to increase his paranoia and further break him mentally (he was already broken, as he had previously shown no compunctions about killing other angels on his side if they went against his wishes) and he stabs Balthazar in the back, killing him.

This mix is organized so that each track alternates between Castiel’s and Balthazar’s point of view, starting with Castiel, and starts from their reunion then focuses mainly on the betrayal and killing from both perspectives.


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I've been hearing all about you, and as far as I'm concerned, you and me, Cas, nothing's changed. We're brothers. Of course I want to help you.


Everlasting Friend - Blue October
Delay the hurtful words of complicated overcast.
Please take the message that I’m picking up my chin at last.
I said my confidence, it gets stronger when you’re next to me.
But we pray from miles away in quest for what we long to be.
...
I might crumble I might take a fall again but you’re my everlasting friend.

Distance - Christina Perri (ft. Jason Mraz)
And I keep waiting for you to take me.
You keep waiting to save what we have.
So I’ll make sure to keep my distance,
say ‘I love you’ when you’re not listening.
How long can we keep this up, up, up?



Set The Fire To The Third Bar - Snow Patrol (ft. Martha Wainwright)
I hang my coat up in the first bar.
There is no peace that I’ve found so far.
The laughter penetrates my silence
as drunken men find flaws in science.
Their words mostly noises.
Ghosts with just voices.
Your words in my memory
are like music to me.

Little Brother (Electric) - Grizzly Bear
Wide eyed and up in arms,
my little brother was a solemn one.
He always had his quiet corner.
Pride of my countrymen,
my little brother will be born again.
Just give us back our quiet corner.
...
My god, that’s not the way.
My god, that’s not the way.



Well did Cas tell you that he’s Crowley's butt-buddy, you smug little dick? Handshake deal. Go halfsies on all the souls of Purgatory. He fill you in on that?


9 Crimes (Demo) - Damien Rice
Leave me out with the waste this is not what I do.
It’s the wrong kind of place to be thinking of you.
It’s the wrong time for somebody new,
it’s a small crime and I’ve got no excuse.

Or too much juice for you, in which case you explode, taking a substantial chunk of the planet along with you....Just - just tell me that it's entirely risk-free.


Skinny Love - Bon Iver
And now all your love is wasted
and then who the hell was I?
And I’m breaking at the britches
and at the end of all your lines.
Who will love you? Who will fight?
Who will fall far behind?



The Scientist - Coldplay
Nobody said it was easy.
No one ever said it would be this hard.
Oh, take me back to the start.

I'm betraying a friend here. A very powerful friend. We all are.


Song To Say Goodbye - Placebo
I’m well aware of how it aches
and you still won’t let me in.
Now I’m breaking down your door
to try and save your swollen face.
Though I don’t like you anymore,
you lying, trying waste of space.
Before our innocence was lost
you were always one of those,
blessed with lucky sevens
and a voice that made me cry.
...
It’s a song to say goodbye.



Love Is All - The Tallest Man On Earth
And I’ll throw it in the current
that I stand upon so still,
love is all, from what I’ve heard,
but my heart’s learned to kill.
Oh, mine has learned to kill.

I’m Not Calling You A Liar - Florence + The Machine
I’m not calling you a liar, just don’t lie to me.
I’m not calling you a thief, just don’t steal from me.
I’m not calling you a ghost, just stop haunting me.
And I love you so much, I’m gonna let you kill me.
...
There but for the grace of God go I
and when you kiss me, I am happy enough to die.



Well you've - you've always got little old me.


No Light, No Light - Florence + The Machine
Would you leave me, if I told you what I’d done?
And would you need me, if I told you what I’ve become?
‘Cuz it’s so easy to say it to a crowd
but it’s so hard, my love, to say it to you out loud.
No light, no light in your bright blue eyes.
I never knew daylight could be so violent.
A revelation in the light of day,
you can’t choose what stays and what fades away.

Yes, I'll always have you.


Where Are You Now - Mumford & Sons
It came to the end, it seems you had heard.
As we walked the city streets you never said a word.
When we finally sat down your eyes were full of spite.
I was desperate, I was weak, I could not put up a fight.
But where are you now? Where are you now?
Do you ever think of me, in the quiet, in the crowd?



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