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Ok, this is another whining-post :(

2007-11-01T19:27:56Z

I'm sick. I've felt bad since yesterday morning but today it's especially bad. My stomach hurts and I even had to throw up this evening. We don't have appropriate medicaments for this kind of thing which sucks, because I don't know what I can do to feel better. I'm going to drink a lot of coke now and hope it will work.

And I have to read a lot of feel-good fanfiction. Currently rereading ladyvader's fics which are awesome. Every single one of her fanfics hits all of my buttons *g*

If somebody wants to rec me more feel-good h/d fics I would appreciate that :)

:(

2007-10-28T11:02:32Z

After a looong time I tried to make icons today. But they all sucked. Now I'm annoyed. Maybe I'll paint a picture today. Or maybe not.
Tomorrow I'l have to get up at 5 am!!! *whines* That sucks too.
Pouting now.

Paranoias brought me to my knees

2007-10-07T18:47:02Z

I feel like I wanna smack somebody
Turn around and bitch slap somebody
But I ain't goin' out bro (no, no, no)
I ain't givin' into it (no, no, no)
Anxieties bash my mind in
Terrorizing my soul like Bin Laden
But I ain't fallin' down bro (no, no, no)
I won't lose control bro (no, no, no)
Shackle and chained
My soul feels stained
I can't explain got an ich on my brain
Lately my whole aim is to maintain
And regain control of my mainframe
My bloods boiling its beatin' out propaine
My train of thoughts more like a runaway train
I'm in a fast car drivin' in a fast lane
In the rain and I'm might just hydroplaine

I don't fear none of my enemies
And I don't fear bullets from oozies
I've been dealing with something thats worse than these
That'll make you fall to your knees and thats the
The anxiety the sane and the insane rivalry
Paranoias brought me to my knees
Lord please please please
Take away my anxiety
The sane and the insane rivalry
Paranoias brought me to my knees
Lord please please please
Take away my anxiety

My head keeps running away my brother
The only thing making me stay my brother
But I won't give into it bro (no, no, no)
Gotta get myself back now
God, I can't let my mind be
Tell my enemy is my own
Gots to find my inner wealth
Gots to hold up my thoughts
I can't get caught (no, no, no)
I can't give into it now (no, no, no)
Emotions are trapped set on lock
Got my brain stuck goin through the motions
Only I know what's up
I'm filled up with pain
Tryin' to gain my sanity
Everywhere I turn its a dead end infront of me
With nowhere to go gotta shake this anxiety
Got me feelin' strange paranoia took over me
And its weighin' me down
And I can't run any longer, yo
Knees to the ground

I don't fear none of my enemies
And I don't fear bullets from oozies
I've been dealing with something thats worse than these
That'll make you fall to your knees and thats the
The anxiety the sane and the insane rivalry
Paranoias brought me to my knees
Lord please please please
Take away my anxiety
The sane and the insane rivalry
Paranoias brought me to my knees
Lord please please please
Take away my anxiety

Black Eyed Peas feat. Papa Roach - Anxiety

shiver

2007-09-11T19:55:45Z

I fucking hate spiders! Why does it always have to be me???

Now I'm sitting on the edge of my bad, scared shitless, and nearly in tears. (I cried already after the initial shock was gone...). I was just lying on my bed, surfing the internet. When I looked back I say a really huge spider sitting on my wall. I had to get my father out of bed so he could kill it for me.

Now I'm having fantasies about big spider-colonies in and underneath my bed. How am I supposed to sleep in such a state???

I hate this phobia! This fear! But I just can't do anything about it. *sigh*

Now I have to read fanfic to distract myself and have some happy-thoughts...

new icon post at imaginary_art

2007-09-09T13:28:45Z

Remember my last pic-spam post? With all the hot guys?

Well, no_deluson said she would die if I made an icon-post with every single one of those pics. I hope her family will be able to revive her 'cause I did it. It took some time because I don't have so much time for making icons anymore since I started working but today I finished it.

Preview:

Posted at my icon-community imaginary_art

the hotness!!

2007-08-28T18:52:53Z

Ok, I'm feeling naughty today. After my weird dream yesterday I had to distract myself with hot guy pics. So here are 9 really cute guys for your enjoyment.

Milo Ventimiglia

James Marsden

Jared Leto

Gale Harold

Ian Somerhalder

James Franco

Chad Michael Murray

Sean Faris

Boyd Holbrock

Credit: hires_hunks & themesnomatter

I'm beginning to think I have a type... Hmm...

dreams

2007-08-27T18:54:22Z

This day started really creepy. With a dream. I don't remember the exact details but I know it had something to do with Snape, flirting and sexual tension... OMG!

Needless to say I was really beside myself this morning and had extreme difficulty to wake up properly. I don't think he looked like Snape in the movies , probably a much younger and better groomed version of him but still it was CREEPY. I had a nightly rendezvous with fanon!Snape! That never happened to me with Draco or Harry before.

I still remember we were on some kind of mission but it was totally crazy and makes no sense at all when I'm awake.
*sigh* Life's crazy.... Or maybe I am.

Update about my daily life

2007-08-26T18:15:41Z

So, now I'm a productive member of this society. The apprenticeship is going alright, it's not always fun and sometimes it's annoying to be treated like an imbecile but over all it's nice to have a new purpose in life. Now I'm getting all deep and philosophical again although I wanted to avoid that in this post.

Yesterday (or rather today) I had a sleepover at no_delusion's. It was really funny because we got totally crazy after twelve o'clock. We just couldn't stop talking about anything and everything may it be morality, stupid people on TV, slash or penises. LOL

Unfortunately I couldn't sleep very long (woke up at 8 am) so I'm a bit groggy today. Well but that's what weekends are for. Only five days till I get my first salary!!Hee I just can't help being a material girl.

So now I'm going to enjoy the last of the weekend (meaning about two hours) and watch TV. Good night!

new layout and personal news

2007-08-07T12:50:44Z

Ok, so I haven't posted in a looong time. I don't know why I find it so difficult to post personal stuff in my lj, it's the same with my diary at home I just can't seem to write in it... It's terribly annoying and I wonder why that is. But anyway, now I'm posting so it's a start.

I changed my layout. I kind of grew sick of the sidebar and the ads of the sponsored account so now it's clean and simple again. Also I'm back to 6 userpics. But that's okay. I'm thinking about purchasing a paid account for two months soon, but then I'll have to be much more active than I'm now. Also I thought about getting a greatest journal account because you can have 2000 userpics there without paying anything. But that would mean starting over again in the journal-world so I don't think userpics are worth it.

Tomorrow I'll have my first day at work. I'm terribly excited. I'm starting an apprenticeship at a famous kitchen company Poggenpohl. I hope I'll do alright and get along with my new colleagues. It's a new stage of life and standing on the edge I have very mixed feelings: on the one hand I'm really excited about moving forward and growing up. On the other hand I miss school and the security it gave me because it organized my daily life. Now I'm back on the first stage, one of the new ones in the company.

I guess everything will work out. At least I really hope so.

Moving my icons

2007-07-17T14:41:36Z

Ok, I have some news! I created a icon community

imaginary_art

So, if you friended this community to keep track of my icons please go there and friend this community. This journal will be my personal journal.

I already made an icon post there: Harry Potter and Stock icons. If you're interested please go and take a look at them *g*

It sucks to be me

2007-06-09T12:18:38Z

Ugh!! Tonight is my "prom" at school and my hair sucks! I have no idea how to style it because (obviously) I'm not a hairdresser and also didn't find somebody who could pay for a professional hairdresser. I hate my life. Everybody's going to look pretty and I'll be the ugly girl in the corner with ugly hair!!! Fuck!

PIMPING!!

2007-05-17T11:38:36Z

Go to

~ The 'awesomeness behind the icons' meme ~

at pinklabel
and find about about the personality of the icon makers behind the icons.

giggle

2007-05-15T16:56:35Z

Ha!! I so love this smiley! I really can empathize with it

Smileys are awesome.

icon post #14: 32 Harry Potter icons

2007-05-12T16:22:35Z

Total: 32
16 Harry Potter movie icons & actors
16 Harry/Draco shipping icons

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Rules:
1. Don't steal my icons
2. Credit my icons
3. Textless icons are not bases
4. Comments would be nice :)

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#11 manipulation by Eneada
Adult Draco = Boyd Holbrook
Adult Harry = James Franco

Please join icon_sensation a new icontest dedicated to emotions and atmosphere.

Harry Potter - Order of the Phoenix Trailer

2007-05-12T11:45:22Z

This trailer is fucking amazing. I can't wait to watch this movie!

memes

2007-05-11T08:29:58Z

You scored as absinthe. you are artistic and creative, but a little unstable. you are magical and can have dillusions, and are a little mysterious.

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absinthe

79%

champagne

71%

midori

71%

beer

67%

vodka

63%

daiquaries

63%

rum

63%

wine

58%

bourbon

54%

whiskey

21%

what alcoholic drink are you (pictures)
created with QuizFarm.com

You scored as Hedonism. Your life is guided by the principles of Hedonism: You believe that pleasure is a great, or the greatest, good; and you try to enjoy life’s pleasures as much as you can.

“Eat, drink, and be merry, for tomorrow we die!”

More info at Arocoun's Wikipedia User Page...

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Hedonism

70%

Existentialism

60%

Justice (Fairness)

50%

Kantianism

45%

Strong Egoism

40%

Utilitarianism

30%

Apathy

30%

Nihilism

Divine Command

What philosophy do you follow? (v1.03)
created with QuizFarm.com

icon post #13: 20 Lily Cole icons + banners, randomness and wallpaper

2007-04-27T10:50:48Z

Total: 47
20 Lily Cole icons
04 Lily Cole banner
04 HP icons
04 Stock icons
11 Scarlett Johansson icons
01 Jossverse icon
01 QaF wallpaper
01 Gale Harold wallpaper
01 Alexis Bledel Wallpaper

Teaser	Teaser	Teaser

Rules:
1. Don't steal my icons
2. Credit my icons
3. Textless icons are not bases
4. Comments would be nice :)

Lily Cole

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Random

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my Daemon

2007-04-26T08:23:35Z

lol this is really cool... or should I say hot?

2007-04-23T21:13:18Z

Get Your Sexy Name

icon post #12: 46 Harry Potter icons

2007-04-21T18:59:27Z

Here is my latest batch of Harry Potter icons. Quite a few of them were challenge entries for wizard_icontest & hpicontest

Total: 46
General: 37
Movie Cast: 3
J. K. Rowling: 2
Animated: 4

Teaser	Teaser	Teaser

Rules:
1. Don't steal my icons
2. Credit my icons
3. Textless icons are not bases
4. Comments would be nice :)
5. Nominations are always welcome. But please comment if you nominate my icons somewhere.

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Cassie banner, wallpaper, matching icons

2007-04-11T20:34:57Z

Edit: Added two more icons

welcome newbes, new account, H/D rec

2007-04-11T11:49:15Z

So, I guess the Skins-Friending Meme was a success and people found new friends who are interested in the same things. Yay for Skins-Love!

I want to welcome ___mardybum, arrivee, packsofreasons and tortoisesoup to my journal, I hope you enjoy your stay and don't get bored to much from my rants and ramblings.

Yesterday I finally switched my account to the Plus-account. I actually only wanted to install a Skins-moodtheme (by lovebit) and then switch bach, because I heard the moodtheme would stay then. But I found out that the advertisements aren't so bad and don't bother me much.
Plus, now I have 9 additional icons!!! That's so amazing because I always had a hard time choosing icons, 6 just were not enough. *does a happy dance and looks at her 15 pretty icons*

Now I'll come to the rec. Today I read The Lodger by mad_martha. (You can find her fic masterlist here) It was a really good read, despite one thing that usually bugs me about PG-13 fics. There was a lot of build-up and UST (which I love) but when it came to the point were the characters get intimate the author jumped over this stuff and didn't describe it at all.

It was quite unsatisfying to read about Harry inviting Draco to his bed and then in the next part they already have an established relationship. I'm not (only) complaining about that because I'm a pervert who wants to read The Smut. Imo it's important to describe all parts of a relationship (also the intimate ones) because otherwise the reader (in this case me) feels left out. I want to read about the whole development from roommates to lovers and follow them each step on the way, that's why I don't like jumping forward in time (Wieso gibt es im Englischen kein Wort für Zeitsprung????).

That's also why I prefer to read NC-17 fics *g*. I'll go read the other fics from the Lodger-Series now, because the author is a really good writer.

Skins Friending Meme

2007-04-10T16:20:11Z

I know that this kind of thing has been done already but since some time has passed and the Skins-fandom has gained more popularity another friending meme makes sense.
I'm new to this fandom and therefore would appreciate to get to know some people who share my interest in this show and want to fangirl with me :)

So, this is how it goes: Simply copy and fill out the questionnaire below and post it as a comment to this post. Then go through the comments of other people to see who shares your interests and friend them ;)

icon post #11: 40 Skins icons

2007-04-09T20:51:51Z

I proudly present 40 brand new shiny icons of my new obsession: Skins!

For people who haven't gotten around to see this show yet but intend to do so: Spoiler Alert for the sixth episode!

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Skins!

2007-04-04T09:51:50Z

Yay, I just discovered a new TV show I can obsess about! After the end of Queer as Folk it was really difficult to find new TV-shows that are intelligent, shameless and funny.

Thank god for Skins!

Even though the show is british and I usually only understand 2/3 of the dialogue I got the gist of it.
Now I'll have to convert no_delusion to watch this show with me... *evilgrin*

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