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Wow,

Very Strange that I would find myself going back to LJ. I must say my life has been full of shock lately. I have been focusing more on my conceptual art and pretty much stopped all fanmedia works. Kinda sad, because Fanmedia was at one point a huge part of my life. I am considering making a graphics site. Misunderstood has become my online portfolio. I was going through some old sites I use to be a regular at, such as:

Beyond Evolution
TeenTitans.net
Titans Tower
The Freak Show
Batman YTB

Etc, etc.

It made me remind myself that I had a huge part of my life missing. I must admit I am quite the comic nerd. Have always Loved the X-men, V for Vendetta, and works by Neil Gaiman, Teen Titans, Sin City, Hellsing. You get the idea. Anyway I've gone through some rough times and let me just say I am quite a changed person. I went through a Drug Habit, I was going to school, but sadly I had to drop out because I was not going to Graduate, and went through Gateway schooling. I'ved lived in four different places in a matter of five months.

Anyway, I met someone very important in my life now. My boyfriend Ryan. He's been an inspiration to me to get back to my old self and quit trying to grow up and enjoy my youth. He's a musician, and does great work. Alot of it is music you can mellow out to with your pipe, and have the lights dimmed while going on an adventure of mental Euphoria.

But, all corrects itself. I am going to art school in the fall. I have a job (though im quitting it, Shun Fazoli's everyone, shun the bastard) I will be getting my own apartment soon, I'm starting to get my work out there, and be in Memphis Art Shows like Fusion and Upcoming Merge. I need to begin working again. Mostly Painting, which I will be doing a 4 foot by 6 foot painting is Bhrama. My next big project. Im considering asking for participation for models so I can work out my photography Block and get going with that again.

Everything is correcting itself and I love it.

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I went on a texture frenzy last night and ended up making around 24 icon textures. The turned out pretty well. Comment if taking and credit.


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Hello, Ugh Been sick Since Thursday. Though, I did manage to get a few icons:

Harry Potter
The Grudge
Teen Titans
X-men
Hellsing

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Hello,

Well I am back and I have X-men, Harry Potter and Alice in wonderland Icons that are brand new.

Credit if Taking

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Hello,

I havent posted in awhile. I moved to D.c since my last post. I usually use this for only art so Thats what I am keeping it, but since I no longer have Photoshop I couldnt update, well in August my cousin is bringing me her disk with Photoshop v7 on it So I will make more stuff soon.

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Ugh, once again I am in a depressed mood. I don't understand why this happens. I went ice skating with some friends and now I am in a mood of uderlous confusion. I don't like it, and I wish it would stop. I want to listen to some depressing music and drown in pity. I can't help it and right now....I dont know. I want to draw even though Im ready to collapse.

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You know I havent wanted to/ or actually have cried in about6 months. Today I broke it.

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My hair is not on my head anymore. Now I can use my pomade.

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Hey,

Well not much has happened today. I went to Art and have decided that I must go on a mission. A mission to beat the art helper in the card game speed. She has beaten me every single time. Except once! Mwahahaha. So my victory award was Amber gave me a biggy back ride to Science, haha. I went to Meijer today and got Amber a rose so I could give her two things. I gave her the Painting as well which she like and gave me a bunch of hugs and a kiss on the cheek. As I was coming up to her she saw the plastic on the rose and said,"Oh my god, you got me a rose?" I laughed though. And Petey *leyan I dont know how to spell your name* was waiting on amber so she had to go.

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Hmm I noticed after I got out ofthe shower I ooked even more thinner than usually. So being the dork that I am I struck a pose and couldn't beleive that I am skinny. Im usedto be fat so this is very new...Good thing we are going to the movies tonight! ^^ As soon as I get back home I will take a picture. *currently in warrenton Virgina*

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I swear some people are meant to have shitty days non stop,

I don't think you can run away from your past though I wish I could. It's not fair what happened. Why me? How come I have to remember what my cousin did to me and feel the guilt? *sigh* I don't know what to do. I just wish I would wake up and this only be a huge nightmare.

Figured out my Uncle is doing drugs yet again. I dont know what to do.

I really want to cut right now.

Ahhh shit I wish I wasn't so depressed all the time.

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Ello,

I wore Amber's pants today...again. Haha I swear I do this on purpose. Though, nobody said anything so it's cool. Most of the girls were all saying," They were hot" and other stuff. I got the History Review sheet finally done. A bunch of us are going to Tyler's house and most likely playing DDR.

Hello,

Well yesterday was quite eventful. My mom was mad at me for the whole day because I didn't go to the store with her, adn she was already in a bad mood. So since my anger from the past week had been contantly gaining more and more, it finally spuid. I went straight down in the basement and started throwing crap, and puch boxes and etc. We have a punching back and I started punching that, well the gloves weren't really doing me a favor so I started throwing punches without the gloves and now my right hand is all bruised and cut up. So after my rampage, my dad (who is currently living in D.c.) said that he wants me to come there over spring break to get somewhat of a vacation. So I should be good.

I think today my mom felt bad cause of yesterday and took me to get Bt's Emotional Technology cd, and made me a sandwhich. ^^

I didn't realize how much fat I've lost. If im not too embarassed I might take a picture. *wink wink*

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In the darkness of my soul,
I look around to see misery
Walking around in this empty house,
Seeing nothing but the past
Bent at the knees,
I see one little thing from my pain
Something so small that isnt 5 inches big.
Blue around with a silver sharp edge.
Nothing to hide my wounds
Because I am the one who created them

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Im so boring! haha, this is my third post today. AHHH. Well lets see what happened since i last posted. I went to the bathroom. I ate a cold leftover hamburger from wendy's and another coffee. Actually, drank water after my coffee. Been doing laundry. Discussed different types of music with amber and we got onto an interesting convo that I shall post!

[14:41] DrowningExies14: i noticed something about you, im going to say this and go back to the topic of music
[14:41] aimisforsquares: Okay
[14:41] DrowningExies14: i noticed all pants look good on you.
[14:42] aimisforsquares: You actually made me laugh out loud ^_^
[14:42] DrowningExies14: haha
[14:42] aimisforsquares: I have a good body shape
[14:42] aimisforsquares: You look good in all pants too, even those ones of mine that you wore
[14:43] DrowningExies14: hehe my bootey is hott, ok back to music!
[14:43] DrowningExies14: lol
[14:43] aimisforsquares: lol
[14:43] aimisforsquares: Well, it's true ^_^
[14:43] aimisforsquares: Your booty is hot
[14:43] DrowningExies14: ^^
[14:43] aimisforsquares: Hence why I grab it a lot
[14:43] DrowningExies14: so thats why
[14:43] aimisforsquares: Mmmmhmmm

Laundry is done! I might update again later today. Matters how bored I am.

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I stayed up till about 3:30. At like 2:30 I decided to clean my room, and now I am doing laundry. Also I have nothing to do with my paintings! We are leaving in a month and 8 days and I have piles of paintings I have. Which reminds me I just did this one not too long ago. I enjoy it because I haven't tried anything like it. Its behind the cut. I woke up, because I couldn't breath because I was congested, peed, went back in my room. Layed in bed for about ten minutes got up grabbed my jeans and put them in the laundry. Make coffee come on the computer, talked to my dad on the computer, gave him the Marilyn Manson sone Tainted Love and were debating about which version was better, soft cell's or MM's.

Yep thats about it. drum roll........

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its 12:53 and im feeling really lonely right now. Where's amber when you need her.



bored enough to take a picture. I swear I look like hell more and more everyday. then again it is 12:53 at night


the sad teen. Everything in life is f*ckin'
miserable. You constantly look over your
shoulder and wonder who is judging you...even
when you are alone. So naturally, you have
become a little paranoid and pessamistic. Your
personality can be one demensional but
confusing. You are constantly bored with life
and wish that something could spice it up. You
have a unique view on life and have identified
the problems with school society (Ex...what
makes popular people, how the student mind
works...) You would rather be alone because you
hate being hurt. You tend to think that no one
understands you, not even your parents /
guardians / friends. But that is just the
opposite! The people who love you want to
help, but they don't know how because they have
a feeling that they will say something wrong
and turn you away. You have to let them know
that you are willing to hear what they have to
say...and it might do some good to listen to
them.

Some fields you might consider going
in when you are older...Judge, author,
songwriter, producer, therapist, psychologist,
philosopher, or forensic scientist. You need a
job where you can express yourself and your
views on life. Or you need a field where you
can judge others and predict what is going on
in others life. Either way... you have the
personality to get you a good job that will
support you throughout life.


What type of teenager are you?
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Justice League Unlimited
Yu Yu Hakusho
Batman Beyond
Phantom of the Opera

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