Making Waves

Cosmetology school, Josh McDermitt, BF, and more!

deep_for_depp — Sat, 19 Nov 2016 16:25:40 GMT

Hey my LJ peeps! I'm sorry it's been pretty much a year since I made my last post. I've had so much happen to me this year. 2016 has definitely turned out to be the best year in a long time. Matt and I are still together and we're excitedly planning our one year anniversary for the end of December/beginning of January. Jeremy and I are still friends and he actually has a girlfriend, which i'm happy about because he deserves someone special. After all that happened between us last year we are still good friends.

Back in August of this year I enrolled in a cosmetology program to Toni & Guy Hairdressing Academy and I LOVE IT! I was so adamant about not doing hair a few years ago, but after a number of reasons I decided to enroll and i'm so glad I did. Even though tuition has seriously depleted my savings account it's still the best choice I could have made. I'm learning so much and I love doing hair! I'm in the part-time program (tues-fri 9am-2:30pm) and I am scheduled to graduate next July if I don't miss out on school days. I wish I could have updated my journal when all of these things were going on in real time, but I think enjoying them in the moment is the thing i'm trying to do now. Anything of significance I will definitely want to document on here. :)

Another big thing that happened is Matt and I went to Rhode Island Comic Con last saturday! It was my first Con and, while there were a lot of problems with how things were run and such, it was a great experience. We dressed as Batman and Wonder Woman and he purchased a lot of collectible things. There wasn't really anything worth buying to me since I could get a lot of those things at a cheaper price elsewhere. It was more so about the experience for me than anything I could have bought. We did share a fried dough though and that was bomb.

There was one thing that made this experience so outstanding...I MET JOSH MCDERMITT! He plays Eugene in The Walking Dead. I didn't even know he would be there until I saw him in his little panel booth thing. Michael Cudlitz, who plays Abraham on the show, was also there but his line was so long. Not only that, but I was debating aloud with Matt and the security woman watching over their lines about who I should meet and what I should get (an autograph was $40, plus a picture is all together $60, and I only brought $40 with me).

Seeing Josh take silly selfies with fans and being so sweet with everyone, and the fact that his line towards the end of the day was next to nothing, I decided to go for it and meet him. I had settled on just getting the autograph since i'd have a physical memory of the experience, but Matt chipped in the extra $20 for me to get pictures with him too. I couldn't believe it! I'll include all of he pictures Josh took with me in a read more tab since he took 16 of them and that would be a lot haha.

All the details of meeting Josh: I got to choose among 3 different promo pictures to get signed by him. As I was waiting in line I was definitely nervous but not as much as I expected to be. That was probably because he seemed so easy going and relaxed that it calmed me down. Once it was my turn in line we shook hands, said hey to eachother, and he talked to me about my day and who else I saw in the Con. I told him it was my first experience going to this convention and he gave me so much props for dressing as Wonder Woman and looking awesome as compared to those that would come dressed in their normal clothes their fist time around. I got to telling him that I had to meet him because I loved Eugene and that he was amazing, to which he seriously loved to hear! He pulled me into a long hug and had the most sincere gratitude on his face. Then he took my phone and we got so many silly pictures! When I was waiting in line I saw that he would take some normal selfies and then get crazy and say that he would pretend to choke the person out for funny pictures. But he asked me half way through to wrap my arms around him!! I was so close to his face that I was tempted to kiss him on the cheek but I didn't want to be weird. I should have though! Anyway, once the pictures were over and I was getting ready to leave his line he said, "I love you, baby" and hugged me again for a long time! I exchanged I love you's with Josh McDermitt, oh my god. And then I walked away giggling like a school girl and I was set for the rest of the day hahaha. Oh also, on the picture he autographed he drew a heart next to my name and wrote "dibs is dibs!". At first Matt and I thought he meant he was dibbing me as his girl but I soon realized that it was a quote he said in the show that he put on all his autographs apparently, and mine was no exception. I didn't even remember that quote until I refreshed my memory by watching a clip of it online. What a fail on my part!

Matt and I did also get to meet Doug Walker aka Nostalgia Critic on YouTube and get a picture with him as well, but that was more for Matt because he was so excited to meet him. I love Doug and his show on YouTube but I didn't have the money to get an autograph. He actually only charged $10 for an autograph and the pictures were free!! That's fucking insane.

Anyway, here are the pictures of Josh and I!

<3 <3 <3 <3 <3

I have a boyfriend!!

deep_for_depp — Wed, 06 Jan 2016 05:35:22 GMT

And it's not Jeremy, actually. We talked about it and we came to a mutual understanding that perhaps it would be better to just keep staying best friends. So that's what we're gonna do! But today I went out with Matt again. We made some homemade vegan pizza and went over to his house to play games, watch movies, and...other things ;p. But yes, Matt is my boyfriend now! I'm so happy. He is the more amazing person, i'm so glad to be with him. It feels so right. He's coming over on Saturday to hang out and we're gonna make some bean burgers with vegan home made mac and cheese (courtesy of my awesome recipe). :D

Well...this is a pickle.

deep_for_depp — Wed, 30 Dec 2015 06:30:56 GMT

Hey guys. It's been a little while since I last made a post and I kind of left things open ended. Sadly there won't be many things answered this time around. I'm still just as confused as the last time. So let's begin with what has changed...

First off, Matt and I still talk every day. We've gone on plenty of skype dates and we also have met in person to go on a real date. We went out to this outdoor mall and we walked around, had dinner, and watched the new Creed movie. The whole date we were holding hands and being really playful and flirty. Matt is a very sweet guy, and very caring, and he likes me A LOT...and that's putting it lightly. We plan on going on date #2 this sunday after New Years so if I remember to then i'll write a post saying how it went. Oh yeah, pretty important too, we kissed at the end of the first date. By the looks of how things are going between us I know that we will be heading into a relationship in no time. This is where the stresses and the confusion still lies with one aspect...

Jeremy is on break and he has a little bit of time left before he has to go back to school. I told him that I wanted to skype with him about something important, and that it would mean a lot to me if we both (he especially) makes time to do so. That was probably 2 or 3 days before Christmas, to which he said that he might be free that very night to skype but that his friend was sleeping over so he wasn't really sure. What was actually a first was that the following day, when obviously the skyping didn't happen, he messaged me saying he was sorry and that the best time we'd be able to do it was sometime after Christmas. That was pretty vague and looking back on it I should have pressed to name a specific day and even time to do it because as of now he hasn't set aside time to Skype me. I get it, it's the holidays and it will be a time to spend with loved ones. I get it! At the same time I feel that if someone you supposedly care about says they want to talk to you about something important then you make time to do it. Whether it's 10 minutes or 2 hours.

The thing about Jeremy is that he is VERY forgetful. Like, he's the most forgetful person i've ever met. That goes hand-in-hand with how he handles the priorities in his days. With good intentions he manages to forget so many things...but not everything of course. So at this point I don't know if I should keep reminding him until he sets aside time, or if I should just let it be and if he doesn't remember then that's just his fault. Thing is, i'm such a fool and I know that. I want things to work out so badly with him that maybe i'm being very blind sighted. I don't know. It's very frustrating. Part of me thinks that if he really did like me then he would make more of an effort to show he's there and that he wants to skype me and make plans to hang out and do things online, since we live far away. Eh. Sure he's a great friend and all but it just really sucks...What do I even do?

So many things all at once. Makes my head go boom.

deep_for_depp — Wed, 16 Dec 2015 03:45:15 GMT

Alrighty, hello lurkers of Livejournal! How are you doing this evening/morning/afternoon? I have a lot of things to vent out...a lot.

First of all, I miss livejournal. I think I say that every time that I take a small break, but hey I mean I want to update my page when something of significance happens and oh boy do I have some shit to tell you all! Well, it's not shit as in it's the worst news ever, but y'know what I mean.

Where do I even begin? Jeremy and I are still talking, however since I last talked to him about us and if he can see us being more than friends there hasn't been much progression in that. My good friend Max, who is also friends with Jeremy, has been giving me some advice on the subject and he's been talking to Jeremy to see where he's at in terms of like...his feelings for me and such. He told Max that he wants to skype with me to talk about things, and that conversation happened about a month ago. Jeremy hasn't said to me that he wants to skype, but him at least saying that he does I think is a good step forward anyway. But yeah it's been a month since then. I've tried a few times to ask him to skype with me but pretty much he's just been way too busy and/or he can't make free time. SOOOOOO basically I'm hoping that when he can get on winter break within the next week that we can talk about things.

HOWEVER...CURVEBALL TIMES LIKE...100...

First curveball
- I have been talking to this guy, Matt, for about a month now. He lives about 15 minutes away from me in the next town over and he is serious about dating me and wanting to be in a relationship with me. We're going on a date this Saturday to the movies and to walk around an outdoor mall. However, I don't like him at the same intensity that he likes me. Sure he's a really nice guy and he's funny, good looking, we have a lot in common, we've skyped and called eachother on the phone and that's all been really nice; but I still like Jeremy. So that's problem number 1.

Second curveball
- This is probably the biggest gamechanger right here...oh god okay let's just say it. Max, my best friend of like 6 months and best friend to Jeremy, has had a major crush on me since the day we first started talking. How did I know this? Well, I had a gut feeling that he liked me and I could see that from the start. But Max and I were skyping today, as we normally do, and he was being abnormally quiet. I'm keen on sensing when something is bothering him so I asked him what was wrong. He then eventually told me that he has feelings for me and Jeremy doesn't know about it and it's like...BOOM. The sad thing is that this whole time I have been going to Max and asking him for his opinions and advice with both Jeremy and Matt...so that just really sucks. I have no idea what will happen if Jeremy and I were to talk about things and we decide to get together, because i'm sure somehow in some way that bit of information will eventually come out. Like...how will Jeremy take that? One of his best friends having major feelings for me...it's a weird love triangle.

But that was essentially the major things happening. I mean...I still can't believe that skype conversation with Max happened about 4 hours ago. I'm still in a state of shock to be honest. Again, I had a feeling that he liked me but I never knew if it was legitimate because I was being strictly friends with him this whole time...plus he knew of my feelings for Jeremy so I figured there was no way anything like this could happen. Ha well I was wrong. But hey that's life and sometimes you don't plan for this kind of stuff to happen. You just deal with it as it comes and see where it takes you in the future. For now, i'm still planning on going out with Matt to that date this saturday and i'm hoping that in the next few days or so Jeremy and I can properly talk about things between us.

My hands are cramping from writing this, good lord. Okay i'll end it here. That's really all I wanted to say and update on. If anything else happens from this i'll of course let you guys know!

An Update of Sorts

deep_for_depp — Thu, 03 Sep 2015 19:04:32 GMT

Hey hey all! If anybody is still here then that is amazing and I thank you for even taking the time to hang out here. I can't even remember the last time I made a post here. I've been busy during that time and forming friendships with a few people, and a lot of other stuff.

Health wise, i'm 90% better. I can eat whatever I want now and I don't get stomach aches of nauseous anymore which is AMAZING. God, I missed food so much haha. The only thing now is that i'm dealing with my IBS which is fine now that my GI Doctor recommended me taking Miralax every day for 6 weeks. That's been helping a lot because otherwise the pains in my gut would be so bad. I'm also seeing a Therapist who is helping me treat my anxiety. He's a freaking lifesaver, honestly. I can't thank him enough for what he's done for me.

Relationship/Friendship wise, I've actually never spoken about Jeremy before in a post which is interesting to me. Usually I'd jump at the chance to vent about a crush haha. But he was different. I wanted to take things slow and build up something before losing my mind over him. Jeremy and I have known one another since January of this year, and since then we've been talking every day. I know him so well and we both care a lot about one another. I actually took up the courage and just told him my feelings, and asked him if he could see us being more than friends. His reply was that he shares the same feelings towards me as I do for him, but that he is so busy right now that he just doesn't know if he wants a girlfriend at the moment. So I respect his answer completely. If anything i'm glad that I told him how I feel and that I finally know how he feels too. Aside from that, i've also made a lot of new friends and they are amazing. We call ourselves the "Buttbuddies" and I feel so welcomed into the group, it's great!

Hmm...let me see, I think that's just a summary of everything that has happened in the past few months. Glad I could get my Livejournal caught up! Oh dang...haha Jeremy just texted me as I'm writing this. Better see what he has to say. (Update: He told me to never forget that he cares about me. Damn it why he is so amazing?!)

Reconnecting

deep_for_depp — Sat, 25 Apr 2015 21:06:23 GMT

I’m so so so elated right now that I finally reconnected with my first internet best friend after at least 8 years. He lived in Spain and we’d have AIM conversations where he’d be on microphone teaching me Spanish and since I didn’t have a webcam or microphone i’d type my responses and teach him English. I found him on Facebook and he’s telling me that he only got AIM for our conversations and that half of the English he knows is because of us and omg I’m just UGH FEELINGS

Family Searchin'!

deep_for_depp — Mon, 09 Mar 2015 23:47:05 GMT

For the past few weeks i've been on Ancestry.com to try and make a family tree and figure out who my ancestors were. I'm here to proudly post pictures of my great grandfather on my dad's side and a photo of my great grand uncle with his wife and children. This stuff is so much fun to research!

My great grandfather Louis. He was a barber back in his prime.

My great grand uncle (fourth from the left) and his wife and children. I'm more directly related to his brother Alessandro, who was my great grandfather.

I'm getting so unoriginal with titles nowadays. UPDATES AND SHIZ.

deep_for_depp — Sat, 28 Feb 2015 02:30:22 GMT

Oh Memes, how i've missed you

deep_for_depp — Thu, 22 Jan 2015 21:52:12 GMT

Found this really old meme dating back to about 2009, so I figured i'd answer some questions for fun!

Are you cheating on someone right now? Absolutely not, i'm not the kind of person that would cheat.
If you could get rid of anything in this world, what would it be & why? Prejudice and intolerance of others. That, and bugs.
What is one thing you would love to happen today? At least getting a grasp onto some kind of clarity would be a fantastic start.
When's the last time you talked with the opposite sex on the phone? Aside from family members, I spoke to Barry on earlier this month on the 8th.
Do you hate when couples are like "I love you" after dating for about 2 days? I don't hate it, i'm just sort of indifferent. Let them do what they wanna do.
Have you ever gone out with somebody just because you didn't want to be alone? No, i'm perfectly fine being on my own.
Do you like coffee? tastes like dirt
Ever been so anxious or overwhelmed that it felt like you couldn't breathe? Yes, having anxiety is not fun.
What's your favorite lollipop flavor? Strawberry. Strawberry flavored everything.
Do you flip people off while driving? No because rofl I don't have a drivers license.

Do you like to grocery shop? I do. It's fun for me. Ah wow, that says a lot about me. I think grocery shopping is fun. Ahhhhh....
What kind of mood are you in? Indifferent/Volatile?
Are you getting engaged anytime soon? In my dreams.
What are you thinking about right now? Too many things at once.
What do you want right now? Too many things at once.
What were you doing at eight o'clock this morning? Sleeping, but I usually get up at 8:30. So you were close!
Do you wish you were somewhere else right now? Not really?
Don't you hate it when guys lie about how they feel about you? HA. Do you mean my life?
What movie are you waiting to see in theaters? I'm just waiting for Testament of Youth to either come out on Netflix or to a livestreaming site to watch it on. I rarely if ever go to the movies these days.
How many piercings do you have? 2 on each ear, but thinking about adding a third one

Did you sleep in past noon today? Nope, i'm trying to get on a better sleeping schedule.
Do you know any songs that are older than you are? Um, you're talking to somebody that lives and breathes Classic Rock and Classical music.
Compared to other people of your age would you be considered normal? I am the farthest from normal. I never want to me "normal", though.
Could you forgive a boyfriend or girlfriend who physically hurt you? Physical abuse is inexcusable. If however a boyfriend and I were playing wrestling or pillow fighting and then they just hit me really hard by accident then that's a different story.
Can you even walk in high heels? I'm naturally clumsy on flat surfaces, do you think I can master heels higher than 3 inches??
Do you like peanut M&M's? Eh, I tolerated them.
Do you enjoy math? I like math but I would prefer to just never do it
Who was the last person you sang with? Barry, aw.
Do you like water parks? I thought the question was "do you like wankers?" to which for both I say no. Water Parks are only okay if there are game stands or something around.
What was your last phone conversation about? I don't even really remember, but I know it was nothing special.

Last place you went to eat out? Red Robbin
Are you listening to music right now? yes, listening to The Goo Goo Dolls song "Slide"
If you could seek revenge on someone would you? I would have when I was younger, but no. I don't see the point.
Last time you cried? A while ago, actually.
Who was on your mind most today? Too many people...too many.
Do you drink Red Bull or any other energy drink? Nope, but i'm sure they taste like motor oil.
Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance? Second chances are okay, but no more than that.
Who was your FIRST best friend and are you still friends with them? a boy named Sean that I was neighbors and went to school with, and no we're not friends anymore. He joined a different crowd, you know how that goes.
Who was the FIRST person you talked to today? Hayden is usually the first one. He's my best friend
Do you usually tell people when they hurt your feelings? Sometimes, it depends on whether or not it's even worth being friends with that person again if they hurt my feelings more than once or really badly.

Would you rather watch football or baseball? Neither, i'd rather watch Wrestling.
Do you wet the toothbrush before the toothpaste? Before toothpaste and after toothpaste, yes.
Who's car were you in last? My mothers
Do you trust people? It takes me a long while to trust people.
What hurts on your body right now? my heart, oh man lol how cheesy.
Where was your default MySpace picture taken? I don't even remember what my first Myspace Default picture was, my god. That's like going WAY back. The one I left it on back in around 2009 was taken in my room in my old house, though.
Do you prefer cupcakes or brownies? I can't eat chocolate right now, so cupcakes.
What color eyes do you have? dark brown
Do you wish you were someone different? No, I like myself just fine thanks.
Where is your computer? In my bedroom.

Is tomorrow going to be a good day? God, that's a loaded question. I hope so. If not then i'll make sure to make it a good day.
This time last year, what was your love life like? I was single. Still single, but the only thing that has changed is now i'm dealing with complicated situations.
Have you ever had a serious conversation with your Dad? Most of the conversations I have with my dad are serious.
Do you miss anyone? Yes, i'm kind of ashamed to admit who i'm missing. Ugh.
Do you have a lot on your plate at the moment? Haha take a look at my LJ at the moment, dear. I'm up to my neck in the worst shit
Name one person that is the most like you? Hayden
Do you get butterflies around the person you like? Yes
If you could move somewhere else, would you, and where would you move? Probably. I would either move to New York, California, or London
Do you have a best friend to lean on? Yes, Hayden!
Can you recall the last time you secretly liked someone? They never last as secrets, I always have to
tell somebody lol

Who is making you feel the way that you feel right now? Dumb guys.
If you won A LOT of money, what would you buy first? An entire new wardrobe because I fucking love clothes
Who was the last person to see you cry? My mom, on Christmas morning.
Has anyone upset you in the past week? Not so much upset, but more-so confused
What would make today better? Talking to the people that are just confusing me and hopefully getting to the bottom of things, because girl please I can't deal with this
Have you ever wished you had a different last name? No, my last name is fine. I sometimes wished a had a different first name. Lindsay is far too popular, I think. It's a bit of an awkward name as well.
If a stranger looked in your closet, what would they think? Probably how messy it is?
What's bothering you right now? Too many. Have you not been paying attention, meme??
Do people underestimate you? Yeah sometimes, but they are right in doing so nearly 60% of the time
Do you wear a lot of black? always

Do you have a tan? My pasty skin screams no
Can you sleep without blankets covering you? Nope, I have to at least have my legs covered.
Did you wake up happy today? Maybe those that are morning people do, but i'm never going to be one of those people.
Whats the first thing you did when you woke up this morning? Checked for any new texts and updates on Snapchat/Instagram
How old do you look? Depending on the angle and face I make I think I can range from 20-26
What's the last thing you ate? a wrap made with hummus, avocados, lettuce, left over vegan mac and cheese, and shredded mozzarella cheese. It's my addiction as of recent.
Do you hate the last person you had a conversation with? Absolutely not, I love Nicky too much.
Have you ever ruined a relationship before it even got a chance to begin? Hm, that's a good question. Possibly but not sure?

not really sure what to name this post

deep_for_depp — Mon, 19 Jan 2015 16:23:57 GMT

Right, so a lot has happened since I made a post. I'm on a new nasal spray medication for my allergies so i'm hoping that works. I just started taking it yesterday so it will take a little bit of time before I notice any big differences.

Aside from that, Mick and I have been talking a lot more lately. What I realized as well was that what I thought was him flirting with other girls was not really the case at all. Sometimes it can be so easy to let doubts and insecurities get the better of your mind, and that's what happened with me. It actually makes a lot of sense now that i'm looking at this in a different angle. Mick is one of those instagram "famous" type of blogs. All of what he does is to gain more followers and to get himself and his music noticed. So, he follows a bunch of random profiles and comments and posts those kind of "flirty" comments to get more traffic driven to his page. It makes so much sense to me in that way because his sister has the same kind of instagram blog. Like, all of his siblings have a crap ton of followers and stuff on their instagram pages. I just viewed it as flirting with other girls when in reality he has been doing all of that stuff just to get more people to see him. I get it now, I understand.

Snapchat is the same kind of story. He has like over 20k points on there and I bet a ton of girls just send him a lot of snaps because they have seen his music and think he's attractive probably. What I always knew in the back of my mind was that he probably isn't being emotionally involved with any of these girls aside from me. So that makes me feel a lot more secure about him and what we have. He did tell me a lot about his family and the problems it's in and whatever, so he trusts me a lot to be that way with me because he is the kind of person to not be so emotionally open with a lot of people.

We somehow got on the topic of love last night and so I asked him to tell me his honest feelings about whether or not he views us ever being exclusive. His response was "it's something I see as very possibly, but i'm still trying to get my head around distance". Which is totally a normal and understanding response. We'll just have to see where it goes from here. He comes back to New York on the 25th of this January so we'll have to see how things play out when he gets back. Our dynamic has changed a bit because we introduced sexting into this mix, so I think that has made us closer but we're not letting the sexual energy dominate what we have and make it strictly all about getting some.

I'm going to try and be more positive and hopeful and trusting with this. He said he would love it if I were to fall in love with him, I just told him I need to feel secure in what we have before I can allow myself to do that because I have been hurt a bit since we started talking. His response was that he understands and he'll wait. So...it's evident that we have a lot of feelings for one another but the distance is putting a stop from him being fully exclusive. I mean, this whole month since he's been on vacation in England we have been really good on communication. So it's like, it will be ten times easier when he's back in New York and i'm still here in Boston. I don't know, we'll just have to wait and see how it all plays out.

A work of art

deep_for_depp — Tue, 06 Jan 2015 20:56:13 GMT

You guys should give this album a listen. It's AMAZING. Just found them today!

Quite the pickle

deep_for_depp — Mon, 29 Dec 2014 05:11:24 GMT

So this is an update from the last post I made. Today was a great day! I went on my first date with this awesome guy named Barry whom i've been speaking with everyday on text and Skype for the past week and a half or so. He was so sweet and drove down to meet me at my house and then we drove to Red Robin to have lunch, which was an amazing lunch not just for him but for the food as well. Then we took an unexpected turn and went to see The Hobbit 3 which was super good. During this time he had put his arm around me to hug me to him and keep me warm as we were walking to the theater, but then during the movie he was like "you can rest your head on me if you want to" and so I just did at a time that felt right. We stayed like that for the whole movie with his arm around me and my head resting on his shoulder. It was the cutest thing, people probably thought we were a couple. Then on our way back to his car we were still walking with our arms around eachother and he drove down to the Guitar Center near by (he works there, but not the one we went to.) and he taught me how to play a few chords (A, D, Em, and C...still hard as fuck). Then we drove back to my place where my parents offered him a huge plate of food, which he graciously accepted haha. We then headed to my room where we watched 2 episodes of Gurren Lagann and played Leauge of Legends together. What makes this just so interesting is that after watching our second episode of Gurren Lagann we just sort of started making out. I knew there was that weird tension in the air the whole time we were together about maybe kissing one another or holding hands, but we were pretty touchy feely. It's just that us making out sort of also happened naturally as well. This whole day I wasn't thinking about Mick at all. Mick is currently in England for a whole month visiting his family for the holidays and since then I've met Barry and I've given Mick a second chance to prove himself to me but so far he only kept it up for like 2 days. If this keeps going on like this then Barry and I are sure to be a couple, but I don't know where Mick is at with his mind at all. He got back into "flirting" with other girls on this instagram account and god knows where else. Barry has been so consistent and sweet with me, flirty as well but he never pushed my boundaries ever. Mick is sweet as well, he was consistent, and he did push my boundaries a bit but he is respectful of them. If Mick doesn't step up soon then I'm going to find myself being asked out by Barry and me saying yes without a hesitation...in the moment.

Voice Post

deep_for_depp — Tue, 23 Dec 2014 19:54:44 GMT

Something new and exciting

deep_for_depp — Mon, 24 Nov 2014 02:36:40 GMT

There is something that I would love to talk about. I'm not very eloquent with my writing - it was never my strong suit - however I still want to give this a shot. I always speak from the heart and I'm open with letting my thoughts and feelings come out on paper, or in this case on an e-journal.

The best place to start is at the very beginning, so let's start there. The story is still being written as I write this, but I want to catalog what I have to share thus far. It all began on November 3 on a dating website, Skout. I was incredibly bored and looking for some sort of entertainment to sustain me that night. So, I figure why not just log back onto my forgotten Skout account and search around for guys and see who's out there.

I wasn't at all looking to chat with any of them, I was just curious to see some of the typical make banter that is left on pictures of the females as they all gawk and fawn over them. As I was scrolling along, I saw this guy that could easily be passed as an Abercrombie and Fitch model, he was that good looking. I really mean it when I say he's the most attractive guy I've seen in a long while. Curious, I opened his profile and sure enough he had a few selfies posted. According to his profile, he was around my age and living in New York.

I didn't think much on what I should do because before I knew it I was favoring his profile. Within the very next day, I logged back on and noticed that he "winked" at me. I couldn't believe it! Feeling confident, I "winked" back at him. It didn't take long before he started the conversation and we got to talking. We instantly found out we had a shared passion for music and, go figure, he is also a musician! This guy couldn't get more perfect even if he tried, right? He soon asked for my number so he can send me some videos of his music and, though hesitant, I sent him my digits.

It wasn't long before we were texting each other every day thereafter. Though there have been a lot of bumps along the road, we have very strong feelings for one another. It was only two days ago where after a day of texting and mentioning wanting to call eachother soon, he goes ahead and calls me up at 3am. I would be lying if I said I wasn't nervous. I was excited and anxious all at the same time, but we talked as if we were good friends from eons ago. During that phone call, a lot of walls were taken down and we opened up a lot to eachother. He told me about his ambitions as a musician but being stuck in a College he doesn't want to be in, thinking his parents are disappointed in him, being teased back in High School for having his YouTube music channel being the talk amongst everyone, his feelings about us and the future, etc. Oh my part during that talk, I spoke about my troublesome past with excessive bullying and how I am a different person because of it, my feelings about him and the future, etc.

Something that I was definitely not expecting was to cry during that conversation. I had just finished talking about my bullying and how I craved acceptance from my peers but I never got it. I expressed to him about how I hold back a lot of my feelings and my need to be affectionate with others because I worry over whether said person will find me annoying or a burden - it stems from my past experiences with bullying. He told me that those who hurt me at school didn't understand the giving person I was, but he also said that I was definitely not a burden. At that moment I started to cry. Nobody has ever told me that I wasn't a burden, and in such a sincere and genuine way. Needless to say, he thought it was pretty cute that I started crying because of that. As the morning rolled in and the sun began to rise, we finally called it in when the clock struck 7am. After that phone call ended I knew that I don't want to be this way with anybody else. We had already talked a lot about how we were falling for each other, but boy did I FALL.

There are still a lot of things that i'm not comfortable talking about with people and I do have things that I have honestly nevertold anyone , not even my parents of best friend, but I have a feeling that with time I will be open enough to have him be the first one I tell a lot of things to. That takes a lot of trusting him on my end, and it takes a lot for him to trust me when he opens up with me - he told me that he is the kind that never really opens up with many people because he has a hard time trusting, as do I. One thing is for sure, I look forward to more late night phone conversations and seeing where the future takes us. Even with all of those whom I have loved and wished to love, there is something innately different about this. He expressed the same thoughts - he could tell I was different from a lot of the girls he met and that he can see me helping him grow into a better person.

Right, well as of now there isn't much to explain elsewise. Maybe now i'll get into a bit about him and see if I can share a few pictures/videos of him. His name is Michele Olivieri, and yes he is Italian - he goes by Mick and Micky. His family is all Italian and he was raised in England up until he left for University in New York this year. He is 19, his birthday is March 5 (Pieces!), and he has two younger brothers and a younger sister. He's going to College for Business, to which he hates and he really has no desire to be there, but he really aspires to be a Musician. Going off of that, he has a YouTube channel where he has posted covers for the past 2 years but he intends on deleting them all and starting fresh with better material all around (that's just according to his own words but I feel like they are still very good)

Now onto the shameless display of pictures/videos

The first three are the picture's he has personally sent me so far on text/snapchat. I told you all he was handsome. But that's just a great bonus, of course.

Alright, I don't know how I'll add the videos in here but this is his YouTube channel for ref.
http://www.youtube.com/user/MicheleOlivieriMusic

Recent Events

deep_for_depp — Fri, 14 Nov 2014 00:43:02 GMT

I just wanted to update you guys about some recent events that have happened with me. Take a seat and enjoy, it's going to be a long ride.

About nine days ago I was on this website called Skout, which is essentially a dating website...let's call it for what it is. I wasn't on there to seriously look for a boyfriend or anything like that. I just wanted to see who was in my area, just curiously looking. There was this guy that immediately caught my eye. He was attractive, around my age, and lived in New York - not bad at all if I do say so myself.

So after we mutually liked eachother's profiles, he started talking to me and he eventually asked me for my number that same night. Every day now we talk and we've expressed a mutual strong liking for one another. What initially put me off and having questioned his true motives was the fact that he got pretty sexually flirty quick. It led me having to remind him probably 5 or 6 times that I'm uncomfortable being that way with someone I just met and since then he has restrained himself, even though the occasional comment will slip I don't mind it as much because it's not a constant bombardment of those comments. Not only that, but since it's been nearly 10 days of constant communication, we've gotten to know eachother and I'm starting to open up around him.

Some little tidbits about him - he's Italian and he was raised in England, he is a musician and has his own YouTube music channel, and his name his Michele but everybody calls him Micky.

So yeah I really like him and he expressed the same interest. Hopefully with time we can meet and something will bloom from it.

PS Tutorial: How to Sharpen your Graphics

deep_for_depp — Sun, 12 Oct 2014 18:50:53 GMT

Hey guys. Recently, I was playing more on Photoshop and I discovered this new way to enhance your graphics. Before this, the last thing I would do to a graphic was sharpen it and be on my way. By just sharpening your image, unless having that ultra sharp and grainy look is what you're going for, just doesn't look right. This tutorial can be used on any quality image ranging from LD to HD.

Let's get on with the tutorial!

First thing is first, open up your version of Photoshop and pull up the image(s) you want to edit. I have good ol' Photoshop CS4, but the rudimentary functions for Photoshop is all the same. If I say to pull of a Curves layer then I'm sure you'll know how to do it already with the version of PS that you have.

So for this tutorial, I chose this image to work on.

The quality of it on it's own is not so bad; it's decent HD. I put it in a 500x600 layer which is what 99.9% of the graphics I make are in those dimensions. Feel free to use whatever space size you want.

If you want to colorize and brighten your graphic, go right ahead. I went and did so with mine. So if you want to just skip right to the sharpening and other filters then skip over this part.

After (optionally) colorizing and editing your graphic now comes the fun part. At this point, my graphic looks like this.

So now that you have your graphic, it's time to sharpen.
The first thing you want to do is go to Filter > Sharpen > Unsharp Mask.
Have these settings -
Amount: 64%
Radius: 1.0 pixels
Threshold: 0 pixels

This is what my Unsharp Mark settings always look like. 64% is a good amount of sharpness to have because it does deliver quite a bit of sharpness that comes with grain to it, so I think that anything about 65 is a bit overkill. I never mess with the Threshold, but if you want to and you know how to use it then go ahead.

Now what you want to do is Edit > Fade Unsharp Mask. I don't have a specific amount to what I set that to. By rule of thumb I keep it around 50-55% opacity. By fading the unsharp mask layer we are still keeping a bit of sharpness but also getting rid of that noise/grain by lowering the intensity.

Next, go to Filter > Sharpen > Smart Sharpen.
Have these settings -
Basic / Advanced
Settings: Default
Amount: 102%
Radius: 0.5 Pixels
Remove: Gaussian Blur
More Accurate box checked

After all of the sharpening filters, you should have an image that looks something like this.

The sharpness is great, but it's not as HD as it could be. The last step is the most tedious, but once you're finished it will look amazing.

For the final step, go to your toolbar and find the rain droplet/tear and toggle the Blur Tool. It looks like this.

Zoom in on your image using the Zoom Tool (it should look like a magnifying glass in your toolbar), and zoom in about once or twice until you have a decent sized canvas to properly use the blur tool on. It will help when you need to get into tiny spaces, etc.

When you have the Blur Tool toggled, there will be a section at the top of Photoshop that looks like this.

Because the Blur fuction can be very strong if you leave it all the way at 100, I set mine at 71% Opacity. It's just enough to give the skin and airbrushed/flawless look without it being obvious. It will still look like skin and not just a blurry mess. I highly recommend that you use the feathered brushes, as appeared in that above screencap where the size is 9px. Depending on the area that i'm blurring, I go between using sizes 5-27px. Leave the Master Hardness of the brush at 0, you don't want any hard lines when using the blur tool for obvious reasons. Now all you need to do is go over the skin. In this case, my lovely model in my graphic has facial hair so i won't go over that with the blur tool. I mainly use it on the skin, on the white part of the eyes, on the eyelid, inside the ears, inside the lips, on the neck, on the fingers if hands are showing in your graphic. Just go with what will look the most natural. If you feel like the hair looks too textured and not soft enough, what I like to do is blur over random sections to make it look more natural. If you also want to blur the background out then feel free.

The final product should look something like this!

It looks smooth yet sharp at the same time. Like I said in the beginning, this method will work on any image quality. Here's an example I did where I took a pretty bad LD quality screencap and made it into this.

As you can see, it also had a watermark on it which I removed. It took up about 50% of the bottom portion of the image, originally. If you would like me to make a tutorial on how to remove watermarks please let me know!

More examples using this sharpening method.

Update on procedure...a bit late. Whoops.

deep_for_depp — Mon, 22 Sep 2014 00:50:09 GMT

Yeah, I had my procedure done...i'm not sure how many days ago. But it was all fine. Honestly I was less nervous about it than I thought I would be. I went in at 9am, my motion sickness for travelling was bad as always, and I signed in. When they called my named I was escorted into and area where a lot of folks are recovering from their procedure and some were waiting to have theirs done. they gave me a dressing gown to wear and they asked me some questions and told me about the procedure. Then the IV was put in my hand since two nurses had a hard time with the veins in my arm. Then I was wheeled into the room where my Endoscopy would be performed and I was with the male doctor and two of his nurses. I asked them if they could put me completely under for the test and I think he said something like no? Or he said that it's like a "conscious sedation", so that freaked me out because a nurse i spoke to before i was wheeled in said that they put you completely under. So because of that I started to close up and get freaked out. Then they sprayed my throat with this numbing spray that was wild cherry flavored but it was kind of not so great.

After that was when I started to cry and they asked me to lay on my left side and that's when one of the nurses started giving me the sleeping drugs through the IV. They were all really nice in trying to calm me. The male doctor asked the nurses to put on soothing music and then they were trying to tell me to stay calm and to keep breathing. Actually, I remember the male doctor saying "you're making a big deal over nothing", that didn't bode well with me. Like, okay, here I am already facing one of my worst fears and you tell me to get over it? Right-o. Anyway, I was knocked out like a light as soon as those drugs came through, and then I soon woke up in recovery and I had some water and graham crackers. I had no side effects aside from a little sore throat but that was it. They took a biopsy and I guess those results will come back in about a week. Apparently, the nurse said that everything looked fine? That's good to hear.

The only problem I still have is it's still hard for me to swallow but it's getting slightly better, and i still have my sinus/nose/ears/throat thing going on that has been making me feel so sick for the past month. When i say it makes me sick i meant it makes me nauseous. it's just bad. So the next plan of action is to visit and Ear, Nose, and Throat doctor and see that they have to say about it. Then the biopsy results will come back and I guess we'll see that happens from there.

had my first Endoscopy

deep_for_depp — Thu, 18 Sep 2014 16:36:44 GMT

I'm still feeling tired and woozy from the medicine, so whilst typing this I probably won't make much sense. But I wasn't even all that nervous about today until i was wheeled into the procedure room. I got there at 9am and I had an IV put in my hand and I was put on a rolling bed wearing one of those patient gowns. I was nervous but I was still calm. When I was wheeled into the procedure room there were two nurses and then the main doctor. He was nice, they all were. They made sure I was a comfortable as I could possibly be. I told then my anxieties with the medicine and that I wanted to be put out completely, and he said they would do that for me but they weren't going to fully put me under. I was given a numbing spray that tasted pretty bad, like everyone else said as well, for my back of my throat and then I was given the medicine as I was told to lay on my side. As soon as the medicine hit me like a ton of bricks I just blacked out. That's when I woke up in recovery and I was fine. My mother was there and I was nibbling on some graham crackers and water. But yeah, that process was great and it went totally fine. There was no need to make it such a big fuss. My throat even feels a lot better and I can swallow with no discomfort or having to force myself to swallow. yay! Apparently they took some biopsies which I will get the results back in about 10 days, so we shall see where I go from there

I'm just so glad that I got this done first thing in the morning so that I wouldn't have more time to fret about it.

Right now I'm pretty drowsy and I feel like I wan't to just sleep, but I want to be up doing things on the computer before I nap. Netflix, here I come!

deep_for_depp — Thu, 18 Sep 2014 06:16:47 GMT

The problems with my stomach only seemed to get worse, surprisingly. My original symptoms got much better, but after 2 and a half months nothing has changed. I'm writing this at 2am on the 18th and I have an Endoscopy at 9am. I am beyond mortified. At this point, I know that I have to get it done but I can't help myself from worrying and feeling anxious. I'm not even a little bit anxious. I'm so anxious that my nerves have nerves. I can't calm myself down to very long without thinking about it and having a small panic attack. I know for sure that when I actually get to the place to have it done that I will be crying and I will probably be hyperventilating, among other embarrassing things.

I'm just writing this to get my feelings out. I have been trying my hardest to avoid this procedure but it seems to be catching up with me. I know that once I get it over with that I won't ever have to worry about it again. I am praying so hard that I can tell the nurses who will be doing the procedure to put me completely under...to sleep. Normally with an Ednscopy you are given medication but you aren't fully put to sleep. They say that the test shouldn't take more than 5 minutes, but that is 5 minutes too long. I want to be KNOCKED OUT COLD. I don't want to be the least bit awake. All i'm asking is to be given the medication, I fall asleep, and then I wake up in recovery. That is the best case scenario. Honestly, this is one of my biggest fears/phobias and I am terrified. I just don't even want to think about it. I try to be strong and I like to think that i am strong, but I don't think so - not when it comes to something like this.

When it's all over I will make sure to write a post about the whole thing. Hopefully, they can give me a diagnosis of whatever they find/not find as soon as I wake up in recovery. The sooner I can get to being put on the mends the better. It's gotten to the point where it's hard for me to swallow food, so this has gone beyond my wits end. Everyone that i've spoken to about it has said that it's not a big deal. Well, maybe it wasn't a big deal for them but it is a monstrous deal for me.

I should be getting to bed now. I'm planning on getting up at 7:30am so that I can plan for an hour of straight up relaxation and trying to calm myself. I don't even know why this is happening to me with my stomach, but hopefully they might have the answers. I don't want to have to endure this stupid test that has riddled me with severe anxiety for so long only for them to have found nothing. Fuck that.

a long list of Celebrities I have had crushes on

deep_for_depp — Thu, 21 Aug 2014 02:45:17 GMT

I want to document this so that in ten years time I can laugh at myself. Here is a rough list of the celebrities that made my heart go boom.

Aaron Carter
Frankie Muniz
John Ritter
Taran Killam
Seth Green
Cole Sprouse
Cody Linley
Zac Efron
Drake Bell
Shia LaBeouf
Jesse McCartney
Rupert Grint
Tom Felton
Bam Margera
Johnny Knoxville
Ryan Sheckler
Gerard Way
Jerad Leto
Pete Wentz
Matthew Underwood
Criss Angel
Matthew Macfadyen
Hugh Grant
Owen Wilson
Ben Stiller
Dane Cook
Johnny Depp
Mikey Day
Heath Ledger
Al Pacino
Marlon Brando
Robert Downey Jr.
Ringo Starr
John Lennon
Noel Fielding
Albert Hammond Jr.
Kevin Parker
Justin Hayward-Young
Gerard Butler
Chris Evans
Tom Hiddleston
Hugh Dancy
Paul Rudd
Colin Farrell
Bradley Cooper
Jude Law
Mark Ruffalo
Brendan Fraser
Kit Harrington
Sebastian Stan
Dean Ambrose
Roman Reigns
Adrien Brody

Goodnight, Vietnam.

deep_for_depp — Tue, 12 Aug 2014 12:49:26 GMT

Last night, a beautiful soul passed away. Robin Williams left this world of his own accord; he was battling with not only severe depression but with alcoholism. Everywhere you go on the internet or every news program you watch, they all start out the same. "Comedy legend, Robin Williams, committed suicide last night in his LA house.", etc. It's like they strip this man of all amiable and human qualities and stamp him with only the fact that he took his own life. Most people I know of think that committing suicide is something close to a sin, or is a sin. The way I see it is that Robin was so depressed he thought that there was no other way to have peace alive, so he wanted to go on onto the next life and find happiness there. Depression is an issue that a lot of people don't seem to understand, and the word does casually get thrown around a lot. If somebody is suffering from Depression they can't just "be happy". He was just as human as everybody else; he had a family, he went through tough times and good times, he battled inner demons in silence. Those with Depression and/or other mental health problems do indeed suffer in silence. They try to mask their real feelings with a smile and a laugh so that they don't hurt or burden their loved ones with their issues. I think what we need to realize is that when somebody has taken the effort to seek help for their addiction or seek medical help for any other reason, that we shouldn't just cast them aside. We need to be there for these individuals and help them along with their recovery. Robin went through rehab for his alcoholism a few times, so i've read. That shows right there that it was evident that the people around him knew he was suffering. Perhaps they tried to help? Maybe they just didn't know what else to do? Maybe they tried everything they could and it still wasn't enough? All I can say is that if you know anyone that is battling with Depression, please help them seek medical help and be there for them. We all have said now much Robin Williams has impacted out lives for the better, so do not let his death be another situation where a celebrity dies and we suddenly treat them like humans. We should be doing that whilst they are still alive to see it, not when they are gone.

Rest sweetly, Robin. You're not suffering anymore. ♥

OkCupid is a very strange place.

deep_for_depp — Wed, 06 Aug 2014 07:20:12 GMT

Just as the title would suggest, OKCupid is indeed a very strange dating site. I created one last night for no real reason other than to just see what happens and who is around Boston. I immediately get an influx of mail from weird men being overly flirtatious and forward in the very first sentence! I have, however, managed to find two guys that I like. Ryan is the first. He is my age and we get on like a house on fire. If i'm honest, he's no bad looking but he's not gorgeous. I don't even think that matters considering how similar we are to one another. Arnold is the other guy. Now, i'm not sure what to think about him. On one hand, he is pretty cute and we have decent conversation. But along the way into talking he asked me out on a date. That really took me aback. All I said was that we should wait and that there's no need to rush things. He understood and was fine with that, and then asked to exchange numbers to make it easier to talk on there. The whole time I was speaking to him on the phone I felt really strange. I'm just getting a weird vibe from him now. We added each other on instagram and the fact that he wants to go on a date and meet me so soon is really unnerving to me. Not only that, but when I texted him last and told him I was going to bed he called me darling. I mean...that's nice and all but considering that we met on a dating website and I don't even know you I probably should have expected things like that. But I'm just not used to this whole premise of meeting a stranger and having coffee or something. That is just not safe. I have no idea what I was thinking when I made that account. I'm at least really glad that I made friends with Ryan, though. If Arnold tries to talk to me I don't even know what to do. Like, I just want to be his friend before we meet up. Not only that, but he does smoke pot which is honestly a turn off for me. Ah this was a bad idea. I'm not meant for online dating, it's just not. I'm too cautious about my safety that the platform doesn't work for me. The whole premise of "dating" is getting to know a stranger at some place, and that is not okay with me.

Like mother like daughter

deep_for_depp — Sun, 27 Jul 2014 06:24:02 GMT

Today was quite an interesting day; even though i'm writing this at 2am on the 27th, oops! After exhausting a lot of my options with getting my acid reflux under control I figured that it would be a good idea to go to the ER and see what the doctors there think. Who would have thought that in all places that a really cute and really funny doctor would be looking me over? Definitely not me. God, I was sold onto this guy so quickly it was actually pretty hilarious. Whenever he would leave my bedside to go fill out my paperwork or something along those lines my mother, who insisted on being in the room with me, and I were going back and forth saying how cute he was. Essentially, my mother thinks I should work in a Hospital so I can meet hot doctors and marry them for not only their love but their money. My god, my mother is a character. Seeing what her reaction would be, I insisted, "Yeah well he's probably 32 or something". Without hesitation she replied, "So what? You're mature. I see no problem with you dating somebody in their late twenties/early thirties. You know that it takes a while for boys to mature and grow up. It's okay as long as you have things in common to talk about, etc. Definitely not like you and a 40-something."

Huh. I uh, was DEFINITELY not expecting that answer. But you know, I feel so happy that I don't have to worry about what she would think if I were to maybe one day bring home a guy that was 33 or something. Fantastic! I had already sorted out in my own frame of mind that as a 20 year old I see no problem with dating a guy at least 14 years older than me. That's just my preference and others will have their own. I just find it somewhat comforting that I can get a good opinion on the matter from the most important person in my life.

In any event, the situation with my medicine is a whole other novel in and of it's own that I just do not want to get into at 2:15am.

Thus, to nicely tie in the main topic of this morning's rant, here is a video of my favorite 30 year old that I know with 100% certainty my parents would approve of.

It's always a sickness. Always.

deep_for_depp — Sat, 19 Jul 2014 15:24:02 GMT

How many times will I abandon this blog and then come back to it months later and say "oh wow it's been a long time"? Probably a few more times. But at any rate, I haven't forgotten about Livejournal.

At the beginning of July I started getting heartburn and acid reflux. I believe the culprit was something too spicy and acidic for my body to handle, but this is just strange because never in my life have I had a problem with spicy or acidic food. One day the symptoms would be a breeze and then some days it would be horrible. I took Tums for it for about 2 days but it just masked the problems, it didn't actually solve anything. So, after a week of torture, I went to a local Pharmacist and they told me to take Zantac 75. It worked for a bit but I would still get the symptoms on bad days. So after a week on the Zantac with some results but not much, I then went to a walk-in clinic to first see if they can tell me anything. It was a waste of $20 because they said they exact same thing as the Pharmacist; try Zantac, then Prilosec, and then go to a GI Specialist if all else fails. But I just couldn't take it anymore. This acid reflux was plaguing me for so long that i finally went to see my doctor. All she did was put me on a prescription Ranitidine 150mg (the same thing as Zantac, basically) and I've been taking that for about 4 days. She also told me to east small, frequent meals every two/three hours which I have been doing (before, I was limiting myself to breakfast and dinner because in my mind it felt like the symptoms were better when I had nothing in my system). I have to take 2 pills every day for a month and then I guess we shall see what happens.

I do feel like I have improved, but just last night I had stomach pains all day pretty much. The pain is located where the LES muscle is; the ring of fibers at the base of the esophagus that opens and closes to let food into the stomach. It's like a sharp aching pain, if that makes sense. I've had it since this whole thing started but the Zantac 75 pretty much helped get rid of that, but now all of a sudden it's back and I don't know why. Honestly, it looks like I have days where it's really good and then days where it's really bad, but it won't permanently go away/heal?

Also, I've been avoiding foods that would cause the reflux to flair up but I have been slowly trying to incorperate small bits of my normal food to get my body used to it again and since I've been on the Zantac the only things I have tried are full fat peanut butter (which was a no go), and some egg whites cooked into a piece of bread that I cook/toast in a pan that I would normally have for breakfast; typically I would leave in the egg yolk as well, but they say the yolk brings on symptoms so I tried it without the yolk and even though I felt a bit of that same stomach pain it was okay. No reflux.

so...BLEGGGGGHHH. I just want to get back to my normal self. My birthday just passed on the 8th and I couldn't eat my chocolate cake :(. Chocolate is a trigger for the symptoms, so it's been killing me to not have some since it's like a staple in my life. Oh well.

Lindsay's List of Celebrities that make her weep

deep_for_depp — Mon, 24 Feb 2014 04:20:03 GMT

[click their name for a picture]
Norman Reedus
Adrien Brody
Jon Bernthal
Tom Hiddleston
Hugh Dancy
Lee Pace
Kit Harington
Sebastian Stan
Brendan Fraser
Sean Bean
Richard Madden
Pedro Pascal
Jason Momoa
Iain Glen
Eli Roth
Adrien Brody
Tom Wlaschiha
Jude Law
Hugh Grant
Mikky Ekko
Anson Mount
Simon Pegg
Ezra Koenig
Russell Brand
Julian Casablancas
Albert Hammond Jr.
Justin Hayward-Young
Paul Rudd
Colin Firth
Matthew MacFadyen
Ewan McGregor
Bradley Cooper
Chris O'Dowd
Kevin Parker
Alex Turner
Andy Samberg
John Krasinski
Judd Nelson
Michael Fassbender
Johnny Depp
Mads Mikkelson
River Phoenix
Gerard Butler
Josh Radnor
James Marsden
Mark Wahlberg

Bonus list of animated film characters
Moses
Tulio
Hercules
Flynn Rider
Prince Edward
John Rolfe
Dean
Prince Eric
Prince Naveen
Osmosis Jones