The Never Ending Panda Diet Diary

Weight In

dca25 — Tue, 13 Mar 2012 14:55:34 GMT

After spending $300 a month with a personal trainer, work out 2 hrs a day with weight then cardio, I have lost 10 lbs only ... well, put on some muscle, so that's a bit frustrating cuz I wanna be lean, not bulky. Still more to go, and I have to stop for being overweight!!! Warm weather is coming tooooooo sooooooon!

Writer's Block: Girl Scouts' Day

dca25 — Tue, 13 Mar 2012 14:51:59 GMT

chocolate or thin mint

Ex Bliss

dca25 — Mon, 20 Feb 2012 22:57:40 GMT

One year, two relationships, that was a record for me. I broke up with my latest rebound ex cuz of some tiny little flaw, but at least I did the break up the weekend after Valentine's Day this time. I can't deal with guys who joke about love, and he in fact has been making fun of love by saying "I love you, oh, I really didn't mean that." Same thing went on after our Valentine's Day dinner where I was trying to make it romantic. Nope, same thing, which somewhat pissed me off.

So, I made the effort to hang out with this latest ex as a friend, and he has been flirting with this sales at the suits store, and even asked me to get him the chocolate he likes so he can give it to the married army guy who has been flirting and hinting to sleep with him at work. What should be my reaction?

Oh well, guess I should focus on slimming down and back to the meat market once again.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B1-lw6itcbQ&feature=results_video&playnext=1&list=PL708CBCF79B40BD79

Unexplainable Weight Gain

dca25 — Sat, 28 Jan 2012 03:44:43 GMT

I haven't been binge drinking or eating even after the Sept break up, but for whatever reason I have gained so much weight, which is at the out of control stage. Lack of exercise for sure, but I haven't been eating that bad at all either. I am lost ...

Rules for a Rebound

dca25 — Sat, 28 Jan 2012 03:42:48 GMT

After breaking up with the disappointed princess, I have been casually dating this gentlemen since end of Oct. It was a surprise as I thought it was a random booty call who I met on Manhunt, but we are meeting once a week over the weekend for a date. After about two to three months of this arrangement, it was the first time I got pissed off by this gentlement via a text while I was busy at work.

The question is, whatare the rules for a rebound relationship?

Writer's Block: ONTD Games Giveaway

dca25 — Sat, 28 Jan 2012 03:38:42 GMT

Final Fantasy X and X-2 - all gals.

Easy Come, Easy Go

dca25 — Sat, 24 Sep 2011 08:08:57 GMT

Well, first of all, facebook sucks.

Well, my previous blog entry was dated back to when I first Bboy. As of 4 hours ago after 6 months of relationship and 5 months for living together, we split, in good terms I guess. I will travel to Vegas next week alone, and pershaps a repeated adventure similar to last year.

I have no regret, just a bit disappointed and irritated, along with somewhat blah. I am not sad at all for some reason, rather I feel relief. I just come to realize I am not the "couple" type of person at all. This revelation actually clear up my mind and my all time obsession about finding a bf. I would rather plan for how to live happily alone for the rest of my life instead. Boys and men are easy come, easy go. Now I can rather focus my energy on something else such as achieving a higher level of my career.

How the Metal Was Tempered

dca25 — Sat, 05 Mar 2011 07:15:53 GMT

Imagine when listening to a song where every single lyrics just hit your head and they exactly match your situation? I just cry ... for something that just sing out my feeling like that.

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Disaster from the ground melt out my faith, even with brightly casting, drenched in cold water, it still require a long time to cool off. With each blow, I will become stronger. No mater how to arm up, battle in spoken words is still difficult.
In fact I can barely stand up by having this helmet putting on layers everyday.
For being a strong man, I can't rest even with internal injuries.

No one will remember the night I turned into iron and steel with no complete victory.
I wish to be vulnerable like porcelain, with a breakable heart like glass.
I become iron and steel standing in the battlefield and creating the most unsightly comparison.
If I can get romancing luck like an ordinary joe, there's no need for iron arms with King Kong's strength.

To build an immortal body, one will need to be tough enough to scare of loneliness by shedding less tears.
I sweep off a troop of army to realize the past is like water flow; can't turn around even with such determination. I am a bit helpless with the tight armor and even become unbreakable when falling on the ground. I can't get out of it without help from anyone.

No one will remember the night I turned into iron and steel with no complete victory.
I wish to be vulnerable like porcelain, with a breakable heart like glass.
I become iron and steel standing in the battlefield and creating the most unsightly comparison.
If I can get romancing luck like an ordinary joe, there's no need to use weapon in hand.

I just realized to whom shall I entertain for being iron and steel when there's no way ahead.
I wish to be vulnerable like porcelain, spotless and shiny like an exquisite and delicate vase.
I turn into iron and steel coming back to the daily battle field with no joy or sadness on my brows.
Shall I be in love, I will use my body to slowly love you. I greed and fear of death thereafter.

從頭熔掉我多災的信仰鑄造更光更亮淋過冷水也等得漫長
隨着每個打擊我會愈強最難舌劍唇槍怎樣武裝和人言打仗
其實這鋼盔天天加厚最後令我站着亦牽強
我縱是內傷但強人哪可休養

我變做了鋼鐵但未完全勝利無人晚上會記起
我都想可以脆弱到彷似瓷器極易碎那顆心就如玻璃
我變做了鋼鐵迄立茫茫戳地形成最礙眼對比
若我得到常人戀愛運氣又哪用鐵金剛一雙鐵臂

如可強硬到孤單都嚇退要滴過幾次淚才夠建築永生的身軀
然後我掃得低一支軍隊先知過去如水堅毅如此原來回不去
無奈我有點迫不得已發育直到墜地亦不碎
卻困着肉身沒人來也出不去 woo~

我變做了鋼鐵但未完全勝利無人晚上會記起
我都想可以脆弱到彷似瓷器極易碎那顆心就如玻璃
我變做了鋼鐵迄立茫茫戳地形成最礙眼對比
若我得到常人戀愛運氣又哪用我手中這利器 woo~

我變做了鋼鐵但為誰人獻技前無去路至記起
我都想可以脆弱到彷似瓷器亮白而無暇猶像花樽精美
我變做了鋼鐵每日重臨戰地眉頭再沒樂與悲
若我得到談情慢條斯理讓我用我真身愛你以後我貪生又怕死

HOCC 何韻詩鋼鐵是怎樣煉成的

dca25 — Sun, 13 Feb 2011 18:28:33 GMT

JaJa

dca25 — Sun, 13 Feb 2011 17:55:56 GMT

Why the new Lady GaGa song "Born This Way" sounds similar to Madonna's "Express Yourself?" Just saying ...

Ja in cantonese = weak

V Day Glee

dca25 — Wed, 09 Feb 2011 02:56:46 GMT

I just luv the line from tonight's V day episode from Glee, surprisingly from a fat chick telling Puck that "maybe you just can't handle this jello!" Gosh, that is soooooo my line!

Sleepless

dca25 — Mon, 07 Feb 2011 16:46:37 GMT

Alright, this insomnia thing was kicking in again and I couldn't sleep at all ended up having real panda eyes = dark circles. This is ridiculous!!! Even j/o wouldn't help to make me tired and now I am like a walking zombie! Gotta put things out of my mind!

Vegan in the City

dca25 — Mon, 07 Feb 2011 09:15:11 GMT

No, I don't mean by being a Vegan, but just no "meat" when I was in NYC for Chinese New Year ... meaning no tricks or hookup. LOL That is strange for me thou for a serial slut. I guess an aging fat asian has less appeal ... gotta work on my mojo!

Long Hiatus

dca25 — Wed, 19 Jan 2011 03:24:15 GMT

Hello bitches, this panda bitch is back! Sorry for focusing on facebook and ignoring LJ ... lots to catch up fellas!

Something Frenchie here ...

dca25 — Sat, 22 May 2010 02:47:07 GMT

Guess I always have a "thing" for Frenchie .... the culture, the food, the kiss, the attitude ... something you just can't resist even though you know they are a bit phony.

It's also something like someone is listening to my prayer. I have once confessed that I would take on an unforgetable romance even if it has an expiration date on. There may be a chance that I am taking it, or just fizzles ... who knows what the future takes. So far my thirty is not that bad at all.

30 going on 16

dca25 — Sat, 22 May 2010 02:34:23 GMT

So, my first goal in my big 3-0 is to get a driver license, and it literally makes me feel like becoming 16 again!

Vegas in May 2010

dca25 — Sat, 22 May 2010 02:20:35 GMT

Something outrageous has come to my life. I flew to Las Vegas for my 30th birthday. A first two nights were slutty being alone on my 30 men-candles missions. Alas, mission impossible, only reached 11 by the morning I flew back to DC. The second 2 days in Vegas was with my mentor, who I spent time with flying to Grand Canyon and dinner and clubbing.

Well, it was a sinful but playful trip, something adventurous I have long for in a while. So, where should be my next crazy vacation destination???

Fine Line Between Being Jealous and Angry

dca25 — Sun, 14 Mar 2010 17:15:51 GMT

Washington D.C. is having a miserable work week and weekend so far, well, more for me. The stress from work is overwhelming, and what's worse, a thought of quick hide away turns out to be some sort of revelation.

The officer (one who dropped the "L" bomb on me during the snow blizzard) just told me about seeing a 22yo Mexican waiter who he called him as "such a pain." I confessed that I have envisioned something like this would happen when I didn't take the "L" word so well, but c'mon ... 22yo ... that hurts!

I guess it's a good timing to close the chapter of my 20's and welcome the new panda 30's for sure.

Isn't it odd that I have just listened to the Avenue Q's song "Fine, Fine Line" and it can magically match to different occasions in my life within a week. Odd?

There's a Fine, Fine Line

dca25 — Mon, 08 Mar 2010 04:05:29 GMT

My bubble theory just bursted, and all in a sudden I came across this song which stucks in my head and just matched to the current state of mind after watching the off-broadway show over the weekend ....

A No No for a Date

dca25 — Sun, 21 Feb 2010 18:53:55 GMT

OMG .... I think I went on a date with a one time trick I did a while back. He didn't recognize me, but he looks familiar to me ... and I just happened to remember his smell because his cologne is very unique ... GOSH ... what goes around cums around!

Genki Rocket - Never Ever

dca25 — Sat, 20 Feb 2010 03:51:26 GMT

Moving

dca25 — Sat, 20 Feb 2010 03:49:11 GMT

Officially he is moving ... not me nor the panda in DC. He is moving to Washington ... the state this time, not the district.

So, I am going up to NYC to meet with my "godfather" once again for shows, dinner, crazy hotel sex, snoring, greasy food, and taking in the hotel room service for group play again (if possible).

See, that's why it is a bubble, someone I can't hold onto but to play with nicey until it slowly fades out.

I am not hurt this time, but just thinking life is always like a train wreck, and I am enjoying it!

A Revisit of Valentine's Day

dca25 — Sat, 20 Feb 2010 03:41:17 GMT

I made my decision by coming back from NYC Chinese New Year Celebration on Sunday back to DC for Valentine's Day and called up my officer trick for dinner. We ended up at a mid-eastern restaurant, went to see Valentine's Day (Chick flix alert!) and ended up back to his hotel room (yes, he is still staying in here.)

However, after another bottle of red wine and chocolate, I still wasn't able to open up. On one hand I like him a lot, but my slutty half is pulling me back by trying to score a more suitable luva instead. THAT"S GREEDY!

I guess I am slowly transforming myself into a cold blood vampire (sucker) with no love instead.

The Bubble Theory

dca25 — Sat, 20 Feb 2010 03:30:34 GMT

Ah, this round shape of imaginary boundary filled with fantasy has been filling in my emotional emptiness for a while. Ever since I have spent time with my "godfather" the second time over the New Years Eve, I have come to realization that it wasn't the same at all. I am no longer the "boi" he is into, and surely he is no longer the "daddy" I am into in return. The concept was fun, but reality bites. I think I am more trying to look for a relationship while being a man-whore, which is like a double life to me anyway. When I was with him, I just couldn't picture we would be together again with the same or at least similar chemistry. He doesn't come close to my date requirement list, which I have tried to tell myself not to follow but the eviltwin has shout out his own opinion by sticking to the dating criteria.

It has been almost ten years, and finally I am waking when I am preparing to sayonara my 20's.

Snow In, Speech Out

dca25 — Sat, 20 Feb 2010 03:19:18 GMT

My friend for some reason has this psychotic path by staying in a hotel for more than a week fearing his condo's roof top will collapse with the DC blizzard 2010 of 3 feet of snow on it. As my good-will-embassador state of mind kicked in, and mostly I was craving for free breakfast sausages and scamble eggs after being trapped in my apt for couple days without work, I digged myself out for a stay.

It turns out to be a sexathon ... and I was exhausted after one day of visit.

What came out from mouth, besides offering my crazy oral skills, was unusual. I attempted to comfort my trick for six years, and of course he cried on me. What amazed me was what came out of my mouth.

"You know what, I just realized I am just about to wake up from my bubble. A bubble I have lived in the past ten years."

Of course along with the true were those letter "L" word came out of nowhere from my trick buddy. Indeed my reaction was quite the usual me for being a frozen fish (or frozen bacon in my case), brain dead, and move on watching tv with no response to it.

...

... and I just realized I am a serial man-whore from that point.