the dark is the light...

Mom was hit by a car...

2007-07-15T21:03:31Z

X-Posted on myspace and facebook.

This is the first time I've been able to get onto the internet since around 9:30 Saturday night. I know dear Robert has been keeping you guys updated as best as he can and I really appreciate that. For those that still don't know what's going on, here's the story:

At around 10pm Saturday night, my mother was driving towards my Aunt's house South bound on State Road 13 with her friend Jennifer in tow. They saw a stray dog wandering in the street near the newly built billiards and pet store right before McDonalds. Being the kind person my mother is, she turned around and started heading North Bound on 13 and stopped her car in a left turn lane. Her friend Jennifer parked behind her. My mom left my sister, brother, and Jennifer's daughter in her car and went to try and get the dog, Jennifer was with her. From what I understand, my mom had the dog in her hands and a car in the right lane of traffic saw her and stopped. This then caused someone behind that car to shift lanes and hit my mom. From what Jennifer explained, she didn't hear any brakes(driver was probably doing something in their car like on a cellphone or something), but the driver at least made some effort to miss my mom, so she was side swiped. My mom was then thrown into the air and came down on her head in the median, but luckily in the grass of the median. The driver kept on going, but did stop at another left turn lane a little ways down. Jennifer witnessed everything and was pretty hysterical when I got there. Luckily, my brother, sister, and Jennifer's daughter were in such a position that they did not see it happen.

My mom was then rushed by ambulance to the soccer fields off of RaceTrack Rd where she was airlifted to Shan's Jacksonville Hospital. There she was brought to the trauma center and my father raced our family there as fast(and safely) as he could. I was terrified because my real father died on route to the hospital when he was airlifted, so I was just going crazy and txting people.

Once we arrived, we were put into a waiting room and greeted by a counselor sent by the St.John's Sherriff department. She was very nice and always had the best in mind, which is good because my father was hysterical. When a nurse came to get our insurance information, she did inform us that my mother was alive, so we weren't waiting too long not knowing. We then moved to a waiting room closer to the trauma center entrance(which was good and bad) so that we could go outside and use our cellphones and that I could text people info. I really appreciated all the texts I received. They helped me to stay strong.

After about an hour of waiting and Jennifer having to wait outside(only immediate family members were allowed in), the doctor who was working on my mother came in and told us that she is alive, but that my sister and brother had to leave because she was going to talk about scary stuff. She told us that she's a very lucky woman and that she was in critical condition still. They had all ready moved her to cat scanning to check her for brain damage(something they were very worried about) and explained that she still had to have her breathing tube in. She was, however, responding, but she also had some possible fractures to her vertabrae, but not ones that would cause paralysis.

I then left to go outside and talk to Jennifer and she enlightened me on more of what happened. There I text'd a few of you the news and started to think too much and wonder if I was being punished or something. I mean, all this shit in the span of two weeks? It fucking sucks. I really was starting to get upset, but having people text me and having Jennifer there was help. My grandma then had to call my Aunt(who is in Conneticut) and so now my aunt is trying to get on the first flight she can back home. A little while later, my grandma updated me more and that they planned on taking us back in twos to see her. Of course, my sister and brother weren't permitted, but my dad and I were going to see her. Three hours later, though, my brother was starting to wake up from sleeping and my sister and I didn't know how much longer we could stay awake. So around 3:25am, my grandpa took me and my siblings by our house and we grabbed some things, checked on Lily and her kittens and then left for my grandparents' house. I didn't get to sleep until around 6:30am, though, and I was on the phone with Robert for a good while just talking about things.

Today she woke up and told them that her leg hurt and they found that a small bone under her knee is broken. They also tried to take out her breathing tube, but she had trouble, so they had to put it back. Seems that her lungs are bruised, so she can't breath on her own yet. A few vertabrae or shoulder bones might be broken, my dad wasn't very clear. He was just very intent on the fact that it's a miracle she survived this based on everything he has been hearing. She won't be released for probably another week and half and then her full recovery is most likely going to take 4 to 6 months.

It's all very scary and I know I'm going to have to step up and be substitute mommy for a good while. I was in shock for a good bit of the night last night and when my brother came into my room here and started crying because he wanted mommy, I started getting really upset and realizing just how close I was to losing my best friend in the entire world. I'm still upset over it and I'm so very nervous about the future. My dad still wants me to continue with the plans I had for school as normal,but I don't know how easy that's going to be. I've been feeling so alone lately and my mom has been here for me the past 2 weeks after Steve broke up with me and I don't know what I would have done if the worse news was said.

I still don't quite understand why this had to happen. My family is all ready in enough trouble as it is. My parents have been fighting daily and even just Saturday morning my mom left because my dad was going crazy and I had to take my siblings to my grandparents' house then. Our air conditioning and fridge are both broken, so we can't stay at my house right now. I couldn't help but start thinking too much last night about all this. What if I'm being punished? Is it because I don't believe in god? That actually crossed my mind. Just all this in the span of 2 weeks? I don't understand. I just don't. I'm honestly just sort of emotionally retarded right now. I cry here and there, but, eh, I just don't know anymore.

Anyway,I wanted to thank everyone who got back to me last night. I know I only contacted a few people because I didn't want to get too overwhelmed by everything, but I really did appreciate all your kind words. This includes Mara, Krysta, Denise, Robert, Dan, and, hell, even Steve. He text me today and told me that his mom said she's here for me and I really appreciated that especially because originally I wasn't expecting anything back.

Right now I'm just trying to keep myself eating. I barely ate anything Friday and then again Saturday, so I'm hoping I can eat something today. I'm taking care of Kobi and trying to be strong for him even though he doesn't really know what's going on.

Well, love you guys and I hope everything turns out okay.

Wow...

2007-07-09T06:28:58Z

It's been a crazy week here. Last Sunday my boyfriend broke up with me for some reasons I'm not even sure about, work barely scheduled me so I was left to mope about my new singleness all week, I planned on going to FCCJ only to have my mind changed by the Graphic Design program at UNF, and I saw like 3 movies.

Yeah. Trying to get my mind off of somethings. Can you tell?

Anyway, I'm happy at the prospect of going straight to UNF. I really can't wait to make new friends and meet new people. Hell maybe I'll find a guy that can actually treat me right?

Pfft, I've just been hurting-big time-this past week. I fell in love with my now ex boyfriend and I'm still in love with him and it pisses me off. I've figured out in my head(at least I'm pretty sure) that I'm better off with out him and that there are plenty of other guys that can treat me better, but love just doesn't disappear, you know? It takes time to heal and I think I am going to sever all ties with him for a good while. I made the mistake of getting worked up today and txt'ing him Happy Birthday(yes, his birthday oh so coincidentally was exactly a week after he broke up with me), so I started crying, but my friends helped me get over it.

I should take this time to really start just living every day for myself. I spent the last 6 months caring so much about him and wanting to please him that I really think I neglected myself. I'm excited about college and really putting my foot in the door to Graphic Design.

I'm Back

2007-06-01T22:21:59Z

It has definitely been awhile, but with graduation, a new boyfriend, and a new Mac, that's bound to happen. A lot has changed, including the demise of my website which has left my icon/graphics journal pretty much useless. I'm happy that I have a licensed copy of Photoshop CS2 and I'm ready to create some interesting pieces!

Christmas is pretty cool...I think I'll keep it....

2005-12-28T19:31:46Z

Well, guess what ya all?

CRISSI GOT HER CAR BITCHES! THAT'S IGHT, THAT'S IGHT!

I got a 2006 Black Nissan Sentra with a spoiler! Pretty sweet, aye? Oh and before I get some people bellowing about how I'm a hypocrite and got a brand new car, let me clue you in on something...

I'M PAYING FOR IT!!!!! $230 A MONTH, GET IT?

Yep, that's right, so please, understand that I got a nice car because I work my fucking ass off thank you very much. Speaking of work...they all think I'm in Sarasota, but plans changed and I'm stuck here. Might as well make the most if it, I suppose, ya know?

Anyway, besides the car...I got me...

+Black and White 2
+Some clothes and hair products including a temporary red dye which turned out great!
+new cellphone! Motorola Razr. Pretty tight, right?

I then spent some of my Xmas money on myself and bought some decals for my car and a magnetic ribbon like the ones you see supporting something on the back of old lady's cars...except mine reads "Support Bitching". I've noticed a lot of people from my mirror cracking up over it since they were expecting it to say something else, heh.

I also bought myself Half-Life 2: Collector's Edition as well as F.E.A.R. If you see a player by the name of Crissi on there...you know who it is!! ^_^

Today my mom bought me a few early bday gifts, but I guess I was buying it for myself since yesterday my mom had to take my pay check since some checks bounced(ouch)....so..yea...anyway, got a visor for my car to hold my cds, 2 matching seat covers for the 2 front seats(has a white japanese dragon on em), and permeanent hair color....turned out great! I know have dark red/almost burgundy hair! Yay!

Also planning on returning a fucking $55 FM transmiter for my car for my ipod. Has this horrible buzzing sound in the background of the music and I can't take it anymore...not to mention the sales representative lied to me...>.>;

Okay...

2005-12-20T14:52:53Z

If anyone hasn't noticed yet, well, my website has been going off and on lately. I know I've paid the bills and everything, so it just doesn't make much sense. I'm going to try and get a hold of my hosting provider to figure out what's going on. This is why my banner will randomly disappear and such. Also, once it does start working again, you can check out my...duh-duh-duh...new hiatus banner! Yay! Yep, the site is on hiatus for a bit while I work on a new, better layout! Enjoy Jolie's murdered face for awhile, k?

Also, for my trigun manga fans, I finished a new banner for my almost dead community and I hope I can breath some life back into it!

Not again...

2005-11-10T18:55:38Z

Please, yes, I know I do this every so often, but this time it's serious: the reason I've been away is because I'm in the process of building a new computer or I would have been if it wasn't for the fact that my video card(which I need to even have a display) is broken. Yes, the most expensive item I ordered($220) is freakin' broken and is the ONLY thing that is broken. So, now I'm going to have to wait another fucking week until I can have a nice computer! Ya all have no fucking clue how upset I was. I've been waiting to build this thing for a long time and have saved up forever to buy these parts, so to have only one thing be broken...ugh...So, I'm going to have to ship it back to Newegg.com(in Cali) which is going to cost me a hefty amount and then wait for them to process the exchange and ship me a new video card. What's even better[sarcasm] is that they're pretty much closed during weekend and on holidays, so I'm probably going to have to wait until Monday to get a reply from them to even get the details on shipping the video card back. I'm so seriously pissed. I even paid nearly fucking $60 for a Next Day delivery and the package containing the parts(the PC case came on time) was actually a day late. I was going to ask for a refund or see if my parents could spot me about $100(I got my last paycheck today) so I could just run up to the store and buy a new one and pay them back once I get refunded for the damaged video card...but I found out that I actually got a really good deal on this type of video card (Geforce 6800 256mbs). It usually runs around $350 while I got it for around $220, so I'm just going to wait another week(god damnit) and then use my last paycheck to subscribe to Hybrid-Genesis.net and buy a few PC games.

Also, I am aware that my lj banner has mispellings in it...I'm an idiot...so sue me...>:<

MTV's Shows Make Me Hurt for Being Medium Middle Class...

2005-10-02T19:40:02Z

LOL, I love my header.

Anyway, I'll be back in school tomorrow! Yay! I'm ACTUALLY excited! I missed everyone!

I got off like 2 days of work and that's a real bummer because I really needed those hours so I can get a big enough pay check for my computer savings, but I worked Monday of last week(which I usually don't) so those hours made up for one of the days and I know I'm not putting anything on my time card(like, if you eat something from Renna's and don't pay cash then and there, you have to write it on the back of your time card and it's taken out of your next paycheck...along with taxes...damn republican govt), so I'm guessing it will all even out, ya know? Well, I went back to work today and David(the pizza guy) was giving me a hard time and trying to accuse me of "playing hookie" because God knows I WANT to loose money...dumbass. Why is he doing this? Because I DO sound like I was never sick, but I swear to God it's in my fucking genes! I have a way of being sick for a few days and then POOF, the next day I'm all back to normal, ya know? That and once I feel pretty good and get up and get going, my body usually gets the hint and starts to work good again! :)

Once I find that damn elusive stock photo of the bald guy in pain, I'm going to make a large, printable(as in big ass prints you) dark art manipulation and get it printed a few times and frame it and stick it on my wall. LOL, I'm just that vein, ya know? LOL. Actually, I'm slightly considering selling prints on Deviant art...but damnit, that place is a huge fucking popularity contest not unlike the Class President shit all us labeled geeks and nerds had to endure during school. You could have written a fucking thesis on stopping world hunger and still lose to the guy that got infront of the student body and went, "Yea, vote for Bryan!". It's ridiculous really.

I'm sad because no one bought my Trigun doujinshi off eBay. Are my listings that craptacular? So, I'm going to offer it to my friends for like under $20...even though it cost me much more...

Also, along with printing manips, I'm going to offer my services once again to serious buyers!! I need money real bad, not just for the computer, but also to help me with everyday things like clothes and stuff. My main job(cashier) will help pay for my car, but my manips will go towards helping me buy some more of the clothes I love, which I can't do without my own money, ya hear? So, if you know anyone that will take this seriously and in a busniesslike manner, then please forward them to me!!!

The Son of M has taken over bitches!!!

2005-09-30T20:09:20Z

Well, aren't I just evil? Instead of going by the poll results because I'm just so naughty, I decided to take advantage of Marvel's new Son of M wallpaper and completely fuck with it until I came up with this semi-cool banner. I like it, do you? Also notice the Son of M icon to your left--yes, Pietro is so yummy especially when he's suspiciously homeless.

Anyway, I sort of went crazy with boxes and such with this layout, but just for ya all know, the lyrics come from "Much Like Falling" by Flyleaf. They're a somewhat new band that incorporates christian lyrics or something...or atleast that's what I found out after searching for lyrics. I'm usually not a Christian music person just because I find most of it really cheap, but this band is pretty good. They sound absolutely great and anyone who likes alternative rock will love them...the only problem? The girl sounds too much like Avril that it hurts their rep too much.

Here are the lyrics that I can make out:
"When I said good morning
I was lieing
I was truly thinking of
how I might quit waking up
You pointed out how selfish
it would be to kill myself
So I keep waking up"

That's the opener. The song is only like...2 minutes and a half long, so...yea....

Also, while I was bored during my days of sickness, I decided to sketch a character design of Wahankh, a character for a story and or comic I want to do. He's under the cut for my dial up buddies!

Wahankh is the first vampire--the king of Vampires to be precise. Born in ancient Egypt and raised by his mortal father, Wahankh is actually the son of the Beast of Night, a being created by God to watch over the night and all its creatures. After becoming lonely in his life of endless darkness, The Beast decided to create his own children, ones who would be slaves to the night and be more powerful than God's own creations. Thus, The Beast waited and felt for a powerful soul entering the body of a baby still in its mother's womb. He chose the baby of a peasant couple and molded the infant into his ideal image. He gave the boy his power and his blood, making the baby both a beast and a man. When God found out about this, however, he was furious. He sealed The Beast of Night far off in a shrine, but instead of killing the child then and there, God decided to let the innocent baby live, but for it and all those after, shall be damned by God.

Yep, that's what I'm giving to ya all for now...heh...I made it sound all fable-ish! LOL. Anyway, that's how Vamps came to be in my own little universe. If ya all are interested, I'll expand...

Yea, I've been sick, but I'm not dead!

2005-09-29T17:46:20Z

Just so my friends know, yes, I have been rather sick. I expected to go back to school today, but I came down with a rather nasty sore throat and bad cough after work last night. Originally, I was just suffering through some mild cramps, so I figured I'd be ready to go back to school the next day, ya know? But, ugh, this is really nasty. I feel like crap and I sound like a 50 year old smoker who has been smoking since they were out of the womb. I don't know if I'll be at school tomorrow; it all depends on how I do tonight and right now I feel really weak and my head seems empty, so I highly doubt it. So, my mom will stop by and grab my homework around 1-ish.

Anyway, to keep myself busy during the boring days, I've looked at computer parts and PC games that I'm really excited to get and play once I finally build my new computer. For those who know just a bit about gaming or computers, here is my Most Wanted list!!!

Computer Parts
Case: ASPIRE X-Plorer ATXB8KLW-RD Black/Red Steel ATX Mid Tower Computer Case - Retail
Motherboard: MSI K8N Neo4/SLI Socket 939 NVIDIA nForce4 SLI ATX AMD Motherboard - Retail
Hard Drive: Maxtor DiamondMax 10 6B160M0 160GB 7200 RPM Serial ATA150 Hard Drive - OEM
RAM: CORSAIR ValueSelect 1GB 184-Pin DDR SDRAM DDR 400 (PC 3200) Unbuffered System Memory Model VS1GB400C3 - Retail
Video Card: MSI NX6800-TD128E Geforce 6800 128MB DDR PCI Express x16 Video Card - Retail
Processor: AMD Athlon 64 3500+ ClawHammer 1GHz FSB Socket 939 Processor Model ADA3500ASBOX - Retail
Power Supply: ASPIRE ATX-AS520W SILVER ATX 520W Power Supply - Retail
DVD/CD Combo Drive: LITE-ON Black IDE Combo Drive Model SOHC-5236V BK RTL - Retail

The total comes to $877.49.

Originally, I had a different motherboard that was cheaper, but then I figured it was practical to throw in about $20 more for a SLI capable motherboard, ya know? I plan on saving up and buying another Geforce 6800 video card and going crazy with the awesome graphics! Yay!

Games
Half Life 2
The Sims 2: Night Life Expansion
The Sims 2: University Expansion
Doom 3
Black and White 2
The Movies
Morrowind Oblivion
Vampire-The Masquerade-Bloodlines

How's that list? Comment and recommend some for me!!!

My ebay items

2005-09-28T09:35:57Z

Okay, I'm guessing no one is really interested since I have yet to receive any replies on my last journal entree, but, wtf, ya know?

You can view my Trigun manga listings here!

Please, you know you want to help support Crissi!
-insert puppy dog face here-

For all my anime and manga lovers!!!

2005-09-26T19:51:54Z

Okay, here's the dillio people: Crissi needs a new computer. I know what ya all are saying "Oh, Crissi, we've been down this road earlier this year and you decided to save up for a car." Well guess what? It has now become a priority for me to get a new computer. See, I'm going into graphic art and design and I'm stuck with a 5 year old Compaq Presario with a 18 GB harddrive! Only 2 GB remains! I have a Celeron processor for Godsakes! I could be working on a 5 hour long Photoshop project and BAM! Photoshop exits out without even warning me! I can't have that, not when I have teachers coming to me at my school and asking for help with presentations they plan on presenting to the school board!

So, why does this concern my manga and art lover out there? Because I'm selling my large collection of manga-oriented art supplies and hard to find Trigun volumes. Yes, let me repeat that HARD TO FIND!!

Anyway, I'm hopeing on posting the following on ebay and then hopeing that someone wants to pay a heafty amount of it. Maybe ya all that know a lot about the needs of the anime and manga community can explain to me how wanted these items are so I know what the minimum bid should be, k? Also, please note that this will be my first ebay sale, so maybe someone who knows what they are doing can help me come up with catchy phrases and the like, k?

Here's the manga:

ORIGINAL SHONEN CAPTAIN COMICS SPECIAL VOLUMES!!!
You CAN NOT get these anymore! These are the original three published Trigun volumes that are no longer produced! Nightow switched over to Young King Ours and, because of copyright rules, the name of 'Trigun' was changed to 'Trigun Maximum' and the series continued thru this new publishing company. Then, the original three were reproduced, but in two volumes instead of three and by Young King Ours. So, let me repeat: THESE ARE RARE!
Condition: In mint condition. Slight yellowing on edges of paper, but only on first two volumes. Barely noticable. No tears, no creases. Rare cover work! Hard to find!

TRIGUN MAXIMUM VOLUMES 1-9!!
These are the original japanese language manga volumes shipped from Japan!
Condition: All mint condition! Practically brand new! No yellowing, tears, or creases! Complete your collection!

CUSTOM TRIGUN--TRIGUN ANTHOLOGY COMIC DOUJINSHI
This fan-comic is in Japanese and is VERY funny! Great to add to your collection!
Condition: Practically new! Read only a few times! No yellowing, nothing!

COMICKERS-PEN & INK
This book contains interviews and directions from very popular manga artists on their techniques and how they go about their work. Includes artwork and instructions by Yasuhiro Nightow, Oh! great, and Satashi Shiki! This is the original Japanese language release and includes some beautiful inside cover art by Oh! great that can not be missed! Includes instructions on purchasing manga supplies as well!
Condition: Practically new! No yellowing period! Perfect!

TRIGUN ART BOOK
This is the original, Japanese language Trigun art book from Japan! Includes stills from the anime, episode guide, character guide, anime character designs, Trigun soundtracks info, rare, full-size anime and manga artwork, and some words from Mr.Nightow! A must for any major Trigun fan!
Condition: Mint condition. Some scratches on black cover-not noticable.

And here's the manga supplies, something all you artists out there will love:

20 INK NIBS FROM VARIOUS MANGA SUPPLY SPECIALISTS!!!
Yes, I have around 20 nibs ranging from the G-pens and Maru pens to School and Spoon pens as well the Saji, Zabra, and Caption pens--I have everything any aspiring manga illustrator needs to create some great manga art!! These pen nibs came from either Tachikawa, Nikko, or Deleter and are all the highest quality!

6 PEN HOLDERS!!!
I also have a lovely total of 6 pen holders that will certainly fit any artist's needs. From the black and wooden Nikko holders to the fat and plastic Deleter holders as well as the slender, blue Tachikawa pen holder, there is a holder for every nib!!! Some of them are even just for certain kinds of nibs!!! All are in very mint condition and can easily be used!!!

BLACK AND WHITE INKS
I also have both black and white inks from some very respectable ink dealers. I have a total of 6 inks altogether, but will only be selling 4 because two of them(which were cheap inks) are no longer useable. I've checked the other 4, though, and they are still in mint condition! I have black and white inks by Deleter and Comic. Please keep in mind, though, that the white inks are like a very think white out and usually need water added to work properly unless there is already liquid in the containers! If preferred, I can even ship a long, thin-tipped brush for easier white ink application!

I can ship to anywhere in the US, but because of this being my first ebay listing, I may not be too eager to ship outside of the US unless it is to Canada. All manga/books will be wrapped in plastic and sent via BOX with bubble wrap!! All nibs will be shipped in small, plastic containers in, hopefully, a box. Pen holders will be wrapped in plastic wrap and shipped either by envelope/parcel or, depending on the amount, a box. All inks will be shit as tightly as they can go and wrapped in plastic wrap and shipped in, hopefully, a box.

I am still unaware of how much shipping and handling is, but it will be a part of your bid.

If you guys think that looks great, then I might add more! I REALLY need the money!

Wow....

2005-09-19T20:19:06Z

Hey ya all! It's been a long time since I've last updated, hasn't it? Sorry about that! I've been kind of busy with school and all that jazz, so it has been a bit hard for me to update.

Oh, and, yes I've been keeping up with the poll results and should have a new layout for my lj as soon as I find some damn time/creativity.

I really don't feel like getingt into much of what happened today, but I will mention that it was very emotional, moreso for my friends, but just being around crying girls will get you emotional, you know? Just, ugh, Squirrely(what everyone called him) committed suicide over the weekend. I didn't know him very well because I only moved here last year and never had a chance to get to know him better, but most of my friends were very close to him and you can imagine how many hugs I had to give out today. I'm not sure if there is a heaven, but from all the crying faces, I know that Squirrely must have been a great friend and I hope he is in some form of a better place and a lot happier than he must have been here. Rest in peace.

For everyone who somehow doesn't know, Son of M IS going to be about our favorite speedster(fuck you flash): Quicksilver!! Oh, I'm so excited! Now I can look forward to both Son of M AND my car! Speaking of which, after pinballing my way through many different cars because my mother wouldn't fucking tell me which one she likes, etc and so on, I finally have an idea of what I'm looking at. See, here's the plan: my mom, not surprisingly, suddenly feels that she deserves a new car right around the time that I'll be getting my first(funny how that works, no?), so my dad has came up with a plan to turn in both of our cars(which apparently we're a few thousand in back-paying or whatever) and they'll purchase two new(used) cars and I'll be getting mine...with my own money. My mom REALLY wants a Matrix and my dad just wants a dinky pick up truck(which makes me laugh because he's always the first one to poke fun at the "rednecks" that toot around here) and I'll probably end up with one of those cheap-yet-quality-built-fuel-wise-cars you always hear about. Today my dad and I(and my little brother who decided to slam his fists on every single car we passed) went all the way over to Orange Park(which to those of you who live outside of Jacksonville is like driving really, really far...yea) to look at some of their used car dealerships. We discoverd that Pierson Toyota sucks ass and can lick my non-existant balls(I love cartman) and some of the best cars and deals can be found at some-what small used car dealers right next to the big dealerships! Yay! My dad really wants me to get a VW Golf(which I think is ugly on the outside of rather simple and accessible on the inside) while I'm gearing for a Honda Civic or a Toyota Echo. There was a REALLY nice Toyota Echo for like ~$9,000 at one dealership and a really, really nice Honda Civic for ~$7,500 at another. Oh, I do hope for some options come Christmas!

I've also figured out which song I want to be played at/after my wedding! Yellow by Coldplay. Yep...I figured it out!

Oh, and the whole Polaris is Magneto's daughter shit continues to bother me in the back of my head...i hate lazy writing...

Help me figure out what my new layout should be about!!!

2005-08-23T20:12:28Z

Okay, well, since I'm having a hard-ass time figuring out what my new layout should be about, I thought I'd have my friends help me! Or anyone who reads this...yea...

Anyway, please take my poll below and then comment with, well, comments to help me better understand what you'd like my layout to look like...k?

View Poll: Help Crissi Develop Her New Layout!

Okay....listen up...

2005-08-22T12:12:25Z

I'v convinced myself that my current layout is only temporary until I have enough time to make something a lot better. I have something in mind...just...not sure how I'm going to get ahold of the stock photos for it. Same goes for feverishicons...I'm working on a new layout for that too...

Speaking of stock photos, I plan on having some sort of crazy photo session at my school with anyone willing to provide themselves as models for some stock I REALLY need but can't find anywhere on the internet...yes...I know that sounds impossible...but I swear to God I can't find anything!

Oh, I stayed home today because my damn cold finally took a toll on my ability to sleep. I woke up too many times last night to count, but I do remember seeing a very prominent 4AM on my clock, so I know I awoke early. My mom was nice enough to let me stay home, but I have a ton of chores to do now. Heh, now I'm waiting for Amanda or someone to call me and go "Crissi, omg, are you okay?". It'll be funny...to me...

Hey, check out Flyleaf. 'Tis a really nice alternate-rock band that just released on iTunes and I absolutely love 'em! Especially because the group is headed by a girl singer and I have to be all feministness every once and awhile! ;)

New Layout

2005-08-21T21:02:59Z

Okay, here's a creepy sort of washed out layout I just quickly came up with. I don't know if the colors really match the banner that much, but, eh, it'll work! Hope you like it!!

Notice Something?

2005-08-21T15:41:53Z

Hell yea! Crissi bought herself a paid account! So, now I can use the kick ass generator layout! I'll customize it once I'm done designing a layout for a friend. Enjoy!

Stupid Florida Driving Laws

2005-08-16T20:00:38Z

Ugh, I'm so sick and tired of being practically the only junior at Bartram that doesn't have her license yet. Why? Because I moved down here when I was ALMOST 16 and THEN found out that I had to keep a stupid-ass learner's license for a whole freakin' YEAR before I could even TRY and get my real license. Up North, they make you keep it for only half a year and I'm pretty sure that if you just take the 8 courses, it doesn't matter if you had it or not. It's freakin' ridiculous and because I don't have a car/license, I couldn't register for a parking spot, so I don't know what I'm going to do! I just can not wait until December/January. December is when my dad said I WILL be getting a car and January is when I'll have my license.

Anyway, my dad took me to a Toyota/Scion dealer Sunday and I test drove a beautiful grey Scion xA and, no, this wasn't that ugly-ass boxy one. This is the mini-Toyota Matrix.

And OMG-I'VE FALLEN IN LOVE!!!!!

It doesn't matter if I get that particular Scion or not(even though the deal is out of this world, but, eh, my dad is stubborn), I just WANT one of these cars! They're really cute, stylish, and not as cramped as you'd think. They also pack a punch for such a small car. I would absolutely DIE to have a black or burgundy version of one of these babies and then stick some car graphics on the side of it.

Here's a stock photo of a Scion xA for those that aren't aware: http://www.adopt.org/gala/scion-xa-400.jpg

Isn't it awesome looking? Oh, and the stereo system(which is insanely important for a rocking teen like me) is AWESOME! It isn't exactly a factory stereo because it was produced by Pioneer, so you ALREADY have a Pioneer stereo system in your car with a color changing LTD display and possbile iPod linkage!!! 'Tis perfect for me!

And, it really isn't THAT expensive. The car runs around $14,000 and I plan on getting it used with finance. So, we'll probably end up putting down $2000 and I pay the monthly fee of around $180~200, but that's only if we can get my grandparents to let me use their perfect credit because my parents are HORRIBLE drivers.

Blah, I'm so obsessed with driving and getting a car that I don't know what I'm going to do! If I can't get this car, though, I'm going after a Toyota Matrix. I originally wanted a Camaro, but finally understood how unpractical/unsafe the car was, so I'm going for these cool designed cars!

Oh, and in other news: expect a new layout for dark-is-light.org and updates(finally, yea, I know) in the next few weeks. I'm trying to get a photo shoot going at my school for some stock, but I'm having a hard time getting people to come for free...heh...

House of M #5...

2005-08-11T20:14:37Z

Okay, so I'm honestly going to say that I'm reading HOM not because it's the big mini or because the Avengers and X-Men are in it, working together...I'm reading it for Magneto and his family(minus Lorna). So, I'm rather keen to any sort of small development Bendis puts upon my favorite characters...and I happily noticed something in the last few pages of the recent HOM issue...

Well, everyone on my friend-list should know that I'm not too happy about the retcon that Lorna IS Magneto's daughter(and I'll fucking call it a retcon because before it was never mentioned and MOST people assumed she wasn't because it would be LAME if she was) and I've had my fingers crossed that someone-anyone-at Marvel will raise their hands during one of their meetings and go:
Editor:"Hey, yea, guys...ummmm...Magneto, yea...I know we don't care that much about his character anymore-"
Claremont (WAY in the back) "I do!"
Editor "-Ahem, but anyway, you know that whole thing with Lorna now supposingly being Magneto's daughter...yea..isn't it a little lame?"
Quesada: "Um..in what way do you mean lame?"
Editor: "Well, I mean, isn't that what everyone would expect her to be? The daughter of the only other mutant who controls magnetism?"
Q: "Well, of course! That's why Austen made her his daughter! She HAS to be if their powers are so vastly similar!!"
Editor: "But...that's...that's so unimaginitive...why not actually do both the characters justice, especially Lorna, and give her a good background?"
Q: "Um...Bob(yes, that's my editors name damnit), you know that ununimaginitiveness means we have to use more brain power and God damnit it isn't cost effective!"
Bob the Editor: "But...Joe...it isn't that hard! All you have to do is say that Lorna was being a crazzy bitch as we have obnoxiously stereotyped her as and have Magneto tell her that he was never his daughter and then come up with a B-List guy to be her daddy. Hey, it could even be a new villain or something so she can still have that wonderful security of knowing her daddy was once a mass murdere and then side with him even though she never had before..."
Q: "Hmm...I think you got something there, Joe! This, this thing called imag-in-ation..it..it could very well be the thing we could use to make this character more appealing and less cliche!"
Bob the Editor: "Yes! Now you understand! Hey, maybe in this HOM reality we have going on here, she was actually just given her wish of having Magneto as her father or even just a father figure and, hell, Magneto doesn't even really know what is going on, ya know? It could really stir things up a bit, cause Polaris to grow a bit and maybe even give her an arc to find her real parents instead of being pinned to a classic villain who already has children, one of which we've had in limbo for years!"
Q: "Bendis! You got that!"
Bendis: "Actually sir, with my vast intellect and latent pscyhic abilities I had previously read Bob's mind and wrote a little bit of action and dialogue hinting at such a thing happening in the last few pages of House of M #5."
Q: "Oh, reall?! Wow, I knew you were my favorite little writer for a reason! Oh, who's my favorite writer! Who's my favorite writer?"
-Bendis acts like a dog and is given a treat-
Q: "Aw, good little writer! Oh, and how come we didn't see this dialogue in editing?"
Bendis: "Pfft...you guys don't see anything in editing, sir!"
Q:"Oh, right, yes...anyway...Bob, I think you have a bright-bright-bright future here at Marvel! Now, you just keep on unwillingly giving off psychic signals to our favorite little writer and don't take credit for your ideas and you'll be here for a good long while!"
Bob: "Oh...well...uh...thank you sir..."

Anyway, LMFAO, that pretty much sums up my feelings on the Polaris+Magneto thing and the staff at Marvel at the moment. If you couldn't tell what I was talking about, I was referring to the last few pages of House of M #5 when Polaris is trying to find Magneto and calling for him "daddy". When she finally does, Magneto turns to her and even stutters her name,almost confused or feeling like something is wrong. Lorna then gives Magneto a hug, which he oddly doesn't return and we get a shot of a rather unemotional eye and him merely answering her with an "Okay" like he doesn't really care. I dunno...but I think that means something is up with Polaris and him. I'm hopeing beyound hope that it ends up being her wish and that Magneto himself doesn't even realize what is going on. It will be great if Magneto doesn't know and the heroes get a nice mental smack for jumping on the "Magneto has to be the bad guy!" wagon. Oh, and god knows Xavier isn't really dead....

Holy crap! Second-hand stores kick ass!

2005-08-02T19:58:24Z

I finally had a chance to buy some school clothes today and thank god I did since school starts this Friday(yea, stupid, I know). Anyway, I was really hoping my mom would take me to the mall, but since it was already late, we went to the little shopping center where the pizza parlor is I work at. We went into a cute shop called Dots Fashions and I picked out a very nice [long] black skirt and a few other black tops. We then went over to TJ Max which is like Marshalls. I wasn't expecting to find much there, but-damn! I found a really cute semi-long gradiant skirt(green-black), camo pants and a few shirts. Then I discovered the messy beauty section. Now, most gals wouldn't dare venture into this kind of territory since second-hand store beauty sections are notorious for having everything opened and stolen. Well, I took the chance and found a very popular make up brand called Urban Decay as well as Hard Candy. Only one of the items I found had been opened and touched, but it was just a tiny smear. The make up works like a charm too, so I'm pretty excited about using them tomorrow. My mom and I also found two brands of cheap perfume that smelled like the expensive kind. I ended up with the cologne like perfume, though, since my mom insisted on keeping the spray. We are sharing, though...

Also, I finally received my other shipment from Taiwan and everything fits perfectly! My only complaint was the top that I was really excited about. See, it's very gothic lolita like, but also has some bondageness to it. Two fake leather straps come up from the top-front of the top and attach to a choker, but the problem was that the leather straps were way too long and just didn't look very good with the top, even when you twisted them to make them shorter. So I actually cut them off something that I usually wouldn't dare do to imported clothes. Now if I really wanted to wear the bondage leather to a party or something, I can just pin it back on.

Here's a picture of the top with the straps-> Lucky 13 Bondage Tank
And here are the other things I received!
-KERA SPIDER WEB corset GEAR TANK TOP(the fabric I received was actually more red than pink...oh, well)-
-Black & White thigh-high socks(I've fallen in love w/ these!)-
-Mar jour ANGEL WINGS Tartan Button Shirt(a little tight, but just too cool!)-
-Pink & Black thigh-high socks(still trying to figure out what to wear these with...whoops...)-
-Mar Jour PUNK ROCK PLEATED SKIRT PANEL CROPPED PANTS-

Yes, I know....it's all very dead sexah!

I've also purchased another plain white shirt from Micheals to redo my Magneto Was Right shirt. Here's the one I currently own...

Ugh, horrible webcam photo....
Anyway, what was wrong with it you may ask? Well, for one, it was the very first iron-on transfer I ever made, so I was foolish and didn't cut away all the extra transfer paper so it has left this really nasty bright white outline of the transfer paper, some of which has torn off and if you are up close to me, you can easily tell. So I want to make a pretty one and this time I'm going to add a greyscale of Magneto on the back using his powers or something. I plan on making a few more comic related t-shirts just for me! Heh, I like being original!!!

For all my Working Peeps!!!

2005-07-29T21:42:59Z

Blah, seems that all I do is rant on here...oh, well...there are more unhealthy outlets I suppose...

Anyway, this was originally intended for MySpace(it stole my soul), but I wanted to show it to some of my friends that aren't on there, so enjoy this HORRIBLY written, but meant to be funny story of my day at work!

I have an issue with lazy people....
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So, wanna hear me rant about how fucking lazy the consumer public is?

No? Too bad! Anyway, all my working whores will relate to this! Especially if you work in the fast food business!!

Okay, I work at a little pizza joint up in Mandarin called Renna's Pizza. It's real cool in all, ya know, the people I work with and everything. Management is pretty cool and laid back, but we still work our butts off. Anyway, if you're not sure what a pizzeria is, let me clue you in: IT IS NOT A RESTAURANT. In other words, if that isn't too clear: we do not wait on you, we do not clean up after you (except for wiping down tables/you're old), we do not go by and ask how you're doing unless we feel like it, we are not a fast food joint, we have other customers that do come first, you aren't always right, you're in a New York based franchise. See, we even have two tubs on a cart where you can put your trays and dishes and a trashcan only 5 feet away where you can dump your trash. Actually, hell, we have ONE MORE trash can right before you leave.

And still people find ways to amaze me with their laziness. Now don't get me wrong: if you're old and it is hard for you to walk, we'll gladly drop on by and offer to help you out. Ya know?

But lately it seems that more and more people are leaving everything on their table. The tray, dishes (full of soggy pasta or salad), and maybe even a few whole perfectly good slices of pizza. Now, sure, it's cool the first couple of times, but when everyone starts to copy this group of people...I freak out.

See, it's a vicious cycle: a group of people are lazy and leave EVERYTHING on their table. Since it's a packed house, I rush to clean it up and empty all their trash for them (in the most annoyed manner I possibly can) and I slowly start to notice eyes on me. At first, I think nothing of it. I go behind the counter and throw my rag back into the bleach bucket and run into the back to wash my hands clean before grabbing the ringing phone.

Then I see it. Two more tables left with trash piled onto the tray. Hell, maybe another with the trash laying all about, as if a gang of monkeys had decided to fling their shit all over the booth only here: the shit was napkins dripping with tomato sauce!! Of course, my partner is busy helping another rude customer who feels a nagging need to point out how our prices have changed almost 3 months ago, so I’m left having to grab the poor, wet rag from the bleach bucket and hurry to the tables.

But, what is this? A tray holding three perfectly fine pizza slices? Oh, no, they couldn’t have possibly wanted to waste this food? Not when there are children in Africa dying from malnutrition as we speak? I shake my head, murmuring about poor children in Africa as I grab the tray and reach for the drinks they had left behind. My hand is surprised. Why? Because the cup is full, topped off, as if ready to set sail with its family into the hot sun and be drunk from all day. But no, it is a waste.

I angrily pour the remains of the lunch into the trashcan and turn around to survey the dining room. My eyes fall upon the other trashcan. The one that is the farthest from the cart which holds the dirty trays and dishes. It is overflowing with the trash. I blink a few times thinking to myself, “No, nobody could be so stupid as to try and stuff their trash into a trashcan that is obviously incapable of holding said trash…they would surely take the time to walk 10 steps to the other trashcan, right?” I turn around to make sure the trashcan behind me isn’t overflowing as well. Sure enough, it is only halfway full.

Motherfucker…

I make my way over to the offensive trashcan only to notice another oddity: a dirty tray…propped up against THE TRASHCAN. My mind suddenly falls into a state of completely retardation for it can not comprehend what it is seeing. There is a tray…yes…a tray…it is…propped up, on the ground, against this trashcan, which is so obviously overflowing with trash…. there is a trashcan and cart right behind me…both of which could have easily prevented this state of complete stupidity…

And then I snap. I pull off the damned top to the trashcan and punch the disgusting trash downward into the cylinder. I curse under my breath and make it blatantly obvious that you DO NOT DO THAT. I then heave the trashcan all the way to the back and slowly pull the bag from it, plopping it onto the ground and tying the top. “Can’t get any worse than this, right?” WRONG. I lift up the bag and open the back door to go throw it out, but my so far dead mind jumps back to life when it makes the unmistakable discovery that something wet is dripping down my leg. Once again: motherfucker. There is a hole—a damn hole—in the bag and right where that hole is…there is-DUH DUH DUH- drink! Ah, yes, the soda tried to escape onto my pants! I throw the bag into the large trashcan out back and walk back inside saying “Fuck” again and again rather loudly (but not loud enough for the patrons to hear up front). My boss sits idly by not caring as I huff and puff all the way back up front. I then decide that this is far worse than my obsession last night. You see, I had just gotten in for work when I walked by the cart that holds the tubs and in one of those tubs was not a tray nor a dish…but trash…disposable trash…trash that goes INTO a trashcan…trash that was sitting in a tub on a carton right next to a trashcan! My mind had a seizure when I saw that.

Besides people not cleaning up after themselves, saying thank you, and wasting food, there are only a few other things that get to me. One of which involves the phone. Now, there is this silly little thing I like to call tax. You see, tax is this thing that adds a few more cents to your total, not much, but it does. Usually, though, people don’t care because depending on how much you get, tax rises. Well, sometimes when people call in to place an order, they like to ask how much it will be, which I guess is typical enough. I tell them how much it will be without tax since figuring out tax would involve me messing with the cash register and wasting paper. Well, sometimes people want tax added and are rude fuckers about it! Also, never tell people that there is a one-dollar delivery fee. Oh, no! Because one damn fucking dollar is going to seriously damage your wallet when you’re ordering from a place that requires a $10 minimum for deliveries!!! What tops all that is when people call in before 5pm(when we take deliveries) and ask to place a delivery order. When you try to explain to them that we can’t deliver until 5pm, they’ll ask “well why can’t you go ahead and take it now” BECAUSE IT DOESN’T MATTER YOU IDIOT!!!

Bah…that’s all I got for now…anyone else want to share their work horror stories? It’s always fun!!!

WARNING--THE FOLLOWING RANT CONTAINS LARGE AMOUNTS OF THE F-WORD

2005-07-25T19:26:07Z

Thanks to the very kind galvanize_icons I was able to see scans of the bios for Magneto, Pietro, Wanda, and Lorna(gag!) from the Secrets of the House of M.

And the first thing I have to say is: Why the motherfuck does Pietro NEVER get a break--in any reality?! He's always completely screwed over!! In this reality, which is suppose to be a better place for Magneto's children as advertised in Wizard, Pietro no longer has a wife, a daughter, and to top it all of he remains completely devoted to a father who frequently treats him coldly. What THE fuck?!

Wanna know the better part? Lorna is miss perfect daughter. Ah, yes, the "new child" who didn't have to deal with all of Magneto's crazy shit during the early years of the X-Men, the daughter who pretty much has a really crappy storyline derived directly from her "siblings" own story of finding their father, a daughter who would have been such a more interesting character if she had Magneto's powers and wasn't fucking related to him....is the perfect daughter....and Pietro...is treated coldly. My mind has died from bad writingness. I swear to my God and whatever anyone else believes in that Bendis better have one good fucking curveball coming along, you know, one that involves Magneto having absolutely NO CLUE of what is going on, or I will write a long rant to Marvel. I know that sounds way too nerdy, but I've actually been thinking about doing it! This is just getting ridiculous! Why do my favorite characters get their in characterness sacraficed for a damn feral mutant who takes up all the spot light in a book that is suppose to be all about Magneto and his family?!

Oh, and one more thing: Um...Bendis...ya...why isn't Magda or Anya alive in a reality where Magneto's "greatest dream" has come true? I mean, you can't just forget about the stories in Excalibur ya know....yea...where Magneto is wearing a necklace or some shit like that and is seeing his greatest desire played out and surprise, surprise! It doesn't involve ruling the world! It involves him being a father embracing his wife and daughter. Now, why am I not seeing this in HOM? Why are they still dead? And don't give me bullshit about Wanda not being able to because she was able to fucking change a point in time AND change her genetic make up to be human...so she can fucking bring back Magneto's dead love and daughter....oh, Bendis, you better have one hell of a curveball...you better....

My rant is done....for now....

Oh, and Annedroid: I think my optimism took a heavy hit when I read Lorna's corny-ass bio and Pietro's depression-inducing one.

Can I rant?

2005-07-20T20:34:53Z

Can I? Yes, I think I can!

Anyway, I haven't had a chance to pick up HOM#4 and Secrets of the HOM, but apparently...-drum roll- Polaris is Magneto's daughter in the House of M reality and my mind has exploded. I just don't understand how the editors are allowing such a crappy storyline persist in such a way? I know I'll get some Polaris as Magneto's daughter lover tell me this isn't true, but it really is just a trashing of years old continuity. I know, I know: Iceman could have easily been off about Polaris' heritage way back when, but knowing that Magneto his motherfucking-self said that Polaris isn't his daughter and have some idiot tell me that he could be lieing--lieing! It makes my mind explode. Why on EARTH would Magneto LIE about someone being his child? Especially when this man would do anything to gain new followers, so why give up the chance on extending a hand to your child? Probably because he knew she wasn't and morally felt it was wrong to make her thing otherwise. Well, some writers and editors seem to have a moral conflict with Magneto since they think he would like to trick poor Polaris into thinking such things as apparently she is now his daughter(in HOM). Oh, but don't say anything about it POSSIBLY being different post HOM because why would Magneto make her his daughter in HOM? I ask the same thing on why he would LIE ABOUT IT! Damnit, do the editors not know anything? Hey, ya know what, if the story is good on why Magneto would go out of character and have a one night stand with someone and produce a daughter and then apparently lie about it--then I may possibly like it. But for now: I await the day it will be retconned.

In other news: apparently Quicksilver is going after Ororo in HOM. Sounds like a nice AOA homage and could actually mean -another drum roll please- characer growth for Quicksilver! OMGZ! Still wish Luna was alive....

Never do business with small town bands...

2005-07-13T23:24:26Z

Okay, so about a month now, I've been coming up with a logo and cd cover for this band. I talked to one of the guys and told him I could make their logo and cd cover. We then discussed payment and I went from there to spend hours of my time producing this stuff for them not to mention pestering my aunt to use her camera, paying to have the flash disk photos transfered to a cd, and drawing rough sketches of cd covers and presenting it to the band. Now, if saying you're going to pay for someone's hard work in creating something for you isn't a "done deal", then someone shoot me because apparently this was the guy's excuse when he informed me that they decided to go with their friend's cd cover(which was rather uncreative) instead of mine. You see, if the friend's work was more creative than mine, then, hell, I'd bow down to his greatness...especially if I wasn't already [mis]informed that I was getting paid for this. I just felt a bit cheated and misleaded when the entire time the guy had his friend making the exact same thing(which was a copy off of my idea in the fucking first place! One of the sketches I had sent him!) in the background.

I mean, they liked the logo just fine, but decide on a rather plain CD cover their friend made over something that I spent a few hours on. I made everything myself for them-textures, took the photos myself, made brushes-so it is rather insulting of them to pick this other cd cover, ya know? I mean...REALLY insulting.

Hell, I'm SO pissed off that I'm not going to be fully paid for my work, that half my work isn't going to be used, that his friend pretty much fucking STOLE my idea, that I'm actually telling them that they can have it for free. Why? Because he isn't going to pay me for another 2 weeks, which equally pisses me off after all this shit, so I told him that I don't care anymore and to keep it for free. I mean, I was just going to charge him $25, $30 for all the fucking time I wasted. But I needed the money before school to help buy my school clothes, so just fucking forget it, ya know?

Pfft, and now he's threatening me to take the $30 at school "weather I like it or not"(yes that's how he spelled it). Great, I'm being threatened into accepting money from a band I just want to wipe the slate clean with. I'm so FUCKING TIRED of getting screwed over by people that don't have a fucking clue about what they're doing!! Happened with my ex-boyfriend's dad and now with this band! Mother fucker!!!

And then I start the small talk...and everything is cool...GOD DAMNIT! Damn me and my nice ways! I just don't want to make any enemies, especially with band punks since that could influence my "popularity" amongst my cliches. I know that sounds horrible...but it's true...they just suck at business I guess...ha...

Hope they [do]n't get sued for using someone else's work in making the cd cover they went with.

And since I don't care anymore, here's what I made for them...

Logo design--Cd Cover

I am, however, going to be releasing the brushes I used to make the cd cover and logo design as well as make some more from the cd cover itself. Maybe a few from the logo.

Shopping is fun! Even for people who don't normally enjoy doing it!

2005-07-13T13:06:25Z

I have to admitt it: I love eBay!

Because of my new found love for eBay, I have purchased three garments in preparation for the upcoming school year. If anyone knows me, it's that my family doesn't have a lot of money and that means that I can't usually get the clothes I like. My mom doesn't really like my type of clothing, which is the goth/punk style, so she put down a rule that I'm allowed to wear anything I want(as long as it is appropriate) as long as I pay for it. So, now that I have a job, what do I do? I bought the clothes I've always wanted!

Here are some images from eBay of the clothes I bought!
(oh, and, heh, no that isn't me. That's the lovely gal that sold me the clothes! So helpful!)

GOTH PUNK rock & roll red cross JACKET BLAZER
JAPAN Gothic bondage PANTS+pleated skirt+legwarmer
Mar Jour PUNK GOTH hospital NURSE uniform+arm warmer

All three are imported from Japan and represent the beautiful and appealing japanese goth/punk style!

The girl who helped me was such a sweet heart! This was my first time buying something off of eBay, so I had a few questions first regarding size and measurments. She really helped me understand a few key terms and if the clothes would fit or not. She was also EXTREMLY fast with her replies and because I paid more than $150, she is sending it through express mail from Taiwan so it should be here in a few days. Probably Saturday. So excited!

I also purchased a little ensemble at Hot Topic the other day. Here is a rather blurry picture of it! Rock 'N Roll shirt and black Skirt

I also resently got done making a logo and cd cover for a in-town band called Memories Die. I'll share them with you once I get paid!

Can't seem to make up my mind...

2005-07-11T19:43:12Z

Here's the thing...

For awhile now, I've been planning on saving up for a new computer simply because I wanted to play a few video games and to keep my family from invading my space. Now, the other day I decided to cash in my first pay check (a measly $190) and use it on myself since I haven't felt like I've been getting anything in return for all my hard work. I bought myself some new make up and a new ensemble from Hot Topic. And DAMN did it feel good! To finally be able to buy myself everyday things and know that it was from my hard earned money. Now, I usually don't go to Hot Topic for one very good reason: their clothes are insanely expensive yet made with very lousy material. The 3 garments I purchased seem good enough to not fall apart after a few days use, so I bought them and I'm very happy. It's just hard to want to buy things from a place where its main consumers throw filth at Abercrombie n Finch when the shop they all go to costs just as much or even more!

To get to my point, I don't know if I want to save up for a computer anymore. I know it drives me crazy that I can't go long hours on photoshop without it conking out, but at the same time, I really want to spend money on myself since I know my parents can't afford to buy me anything. That and what about my car? By the time I even have enough for a computer, I may be getting close to the time when I want to save up for a car, which should be my top priority, yes? So, I think I'm going to go with useing my money to buy myself a new wardrobe for the school year and save up for a car instead of wasting my time wanting to buy a new computer. I seriously only need one when I go to Full Sail, which is a computer college, so I don't want to worry about it until then. Guess I'm just really bad at saving up money, aye?

Well, I've decided that I'm going to get my mom to come with me to open a [joint] checking account tomorrow or Wednesday and then I'm going to get mehself a debit card and join ebay. I saw a lot of lovely-and cheap-punk/gothic clothes on there that I would love to have!