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(Belated) Happy New Year!

darkgloom — Sun, 05 Jan 2020 04:47:47 GMT

I can't believe how time flies! I guess my goal to be more active online failed last year (?) I still can't believe 2019 is over! I only just got used to 2019 in dates!

I will just blame my inactivity on work changes asfkl somehow, I have acquired a direct report and am now fully accountable for a person. This was both awkward and terrifying but several months have past and we seem to be surviving? So I will count this as win. Work is also going through a big transformation phase so restructuring will probably happen in the next month or so. It's been a long time coming since our parent company moved to Agile over a year ago. Since then, quite a few companies in the same industry have also moved to Agile with so it was only a matter of time... guess we will wait and see what happens.

In the meantime, I will distract myself with other things... I'll see if I can be more active around my latest cdrama obsessions Guardian and Untamed. I'm still a bit obsessed with Guardian though my interest have waned somewhat for Untamed after it's finished it's run - I think it was the endings.

Guardian ended too tragically for me to be completely over Zhao Yulan and Shen Wei, and I guess I just want them to be happy in all the different fix-its and canon even if it's through fic - especally if it's through fic :(

Where as with Untamed, I'm completely satisfied that Wei Ying and Lan Zhan had their reunion and will now live happily ever after together forever. No other possibilities exist.

While I struggle to get back in the writing game, Bai Yu's new drama Fairyland Lovers is coming out on 6 January and I'm so looking forward to it! Initial pictures show him looking sooo good and I can't wait to see in in a period drama. I thoroughly enjoyed Detective L so I'm here for another enjoyable run. I wish Zhu Yilong would choose more interesting dramas so I could watch him be absolutely gorgeious and amazing.

I just had a quick look at my google drive and found some Akame wips from 2009 - 2011 that I'd completely forgotten about askjk what are the odds of me remembering the plot and finishing off time travelling Jin and evil genius Jin fics??

Yes, I now have Kpop tags...

darkgloom — Mon, 05 Mar 2012 09:13:15 GMT

BIG BANG ON RUNNING MAN

I have been waiting for this episode for ages and now it is finally here. My favourite Korean variety show and my favourite Kpop band ♥

Their new album fit the episode so much. I wish their intro was an actual song; it's sooo good. Their new album is so great, and their MVs ajsldfjl

I wish Mondays weren't like this......

Or like this......

Hello 2012...

darkgloom — Tue, 03 Jan 2012 10:25:14 GMT

I can't believe 2011 is over. Where did all the time go? T_T

2011 has been a mixed bag — some good and some not so good — but all in all, I can't say it has been uneventful. All I can say is hopefully 2012 will be much better...and I don't want to go back to work next week. I'm afraid I'm still in holiday laziness mode >_>

One thing I'm going keep in mind though is that life is short. It hit home last year, so for this year, I'll try to do things that make me happy.

Hello... December??

darkgloom — Fri, 16 Dec 2011 10:51:16 GMT

I was meant to have a more substantial post and, uh, post it earlier but that kind of went astray. I guess this will be a preliminary one until I finally get onto it?? Which... could be a while.

Having said that, I can't believe I haven't posted anything since April. I was meant to after my holiday but then things got kind of... crappy and I ended up in a bad/weird place. I'm still not exactly sure what it was. I just kept feeling really bad or really shitty about insignificant things that were outside my control.

Not only that, some personal (re: family) stuff also happened around that time, which didn't really help either, but I have recently managed to pull myself together. It's been rough, but I'm beginning to feel good about things again, and it's getting easier to shake off the bad stuff... Hopefully, it stays that way...

So, stuff that has been going on so far...

I have a new phone (well, it was brought a fair few months back but I still consider it new): the Samsung Galaxy S2, along with a phone plan... I needed data and I needed the handset subsidy. The price tag on Galaxy-sama was not good for my heart >_> But the phone is awesome. I love it *_*

I also just brought a laptop! I was going to hold off until next year, because Mac-chan was showing signs of slowing down but not too badly, but then in the last couple of months it's become really frustrating so... new laptop it is... I'm enjoying all the geekery though I'm holding off on transferring my stuff over for the time being. Might be time for a fresh start Y/N?

I'm back on Windows again (yes, I was very curious about Windows 7), and this time, I'm a little impressed. The taskbar and some of new inbuilt functionality is very useful. I admit, it's taking a little while adjusting from being on a Mac for 3+ years. I keep getting the shortcuts wrong. One thing I do miss though is the app launcher (Quicksilver) on my Mac. Going back to the using a Start Menu feels weird. To be even more confusing, I'm still using Mac-chan for ad-hoc stuff so moving from one to other means I have to change the way I think :O

I think I've settled into my new team (I started in May but there were some changes)... We are now down to three people and waiting to see if we're going to fill the places or not. I hope so, because I'm not entirely confident we can handle the workload of what used to be a five people team >_>

One tiny bit of good news is that my performance review came back and I did well. I received a bonus and will receive a pay rise next year. It's not a high amount but aksdfl I'm just happy I got it. The bonus paid for the laptop, after all ;)

Anyway, my plan is to catch up to...everything... and hopefully, the holidays will help. I have strategically taken my annual leave to give me two solid weeks of time off, which I really need at the moment... I'm just counting down the days right now...

Japan :(

darkgloom — Wed, 16 Mar 2011 08:06:42 GMT

Every time I read the news, my heart sinks a little bit more. I'm keeping my fingers crossed and hoping it won't get worse :(

Save the Children

Global Giving

Red Cross

There's also help_japan. I haven't offered anything because I don't think I'll be able to finish it. Am going to do what I can when I can and hope it's helping people out there :(

Christchurch Earthquake

darkgloom — Wed, 23 Feb 2011 07:23:18 GMT

This one even worse than the first one :(

It's so heartbreaking... never ending aftershocks, really... A few of my co-workers have family there, and I know another (haven't met, but have spoken on the phone) who recently moved there who was injured :(

Red Cross

The Salvation Army

List of other ways to help

Hi January Hi

darkgloom — Sun, 23 Jan 2011 07:24:34 GMT

Dead, I had this great hope to make a post on the 11th... 11/1/11... because I am a dork like that but it didn't happen XD

Which is sad, but not surprising because I got really, really addicted to Sungkyunkwan Scandal. IT IS SO ADDICTIVE I AM NOT KIDDING. I lost sleep and many, many hours over this drama and ahhhh still not enough episodes. I wanted more T_T

Despite its flaws and all (which I am blaming on the lack of extended episodes so they rushed it, yes, grumble, grumble) I have so much love for it. I don't think I've ever loved a kdrama this much... and it's because the characters are so awesome. I ship Jae Shin/Yong Ha. Yong Ha is so adorable and playful...and he twirls. And tries to wink. How can he not be adorable. I want him to twirl all the time. And he loves Jae Shin so much ajsdlfj;sdf

Like he's really smart and calculating underneath, and you think he doesn't really care BUT HE DOES. HIS FRIEND OF 10 YEARS WHO HE ADMITS TO BEING ATTRACTED TO AJS;DFJ;SDJF; AND THERE IS SO MUCH TOUCHING AJS;DFJ; LIKE. SO MUCH.

This is Yong Ha. Beaming happily at Jae Shin. Yong Ha doesn't care if about personal space ajsdljf

AND JAE SHIN T_T The chemistry and the hotness and his brooding angst... HE IS A BADASS. HE FIGHTS. HE REBELS. HE IS SO, SO HOT... HE HICCUPS IN THE PRESENCE OF FEMALES...

So adorable :( Pefect guy Y/Y. He goes from being badass to being adorable so well :(

And broke my heart with his unrequited feelings for Yon Hee, who is the female lead and also adorable :(

This is the actors winning the BEST COUPLE AWARD AJ;SDFJ;SDFJ yes, my OTP Jae Shin/Yong Ha is also acknowledged *_*

HAI CHEMISTRY HAI *____*

Oh, and did I mention that the lead guy here is someone from DBSK... his character is so uptight but hilarious. And so adorkable. Did I mention how adorable the cast is together?

I need people to write Jae Shin/Yong Ha fic please. I NEED FIC SO BADLY T_T

Speaking of fics, I'm looking forward to kizuna_exchange!!

I thought about signing up, but I'm really blocked at the moment and busy with work :( I've been thinking about maybe going back to the basics with pen and paper (I brought this really cute notebook...) and finish off that charity fic first... am made of fail :(

And, well, it's not like it's going to be a trial reading akame fics :>

Happy New Year!

darkgloom — Fri, 31 Dec 2010 10:43:21 GMT

I can't believe the year's over... a lot has changed, and a lot hasn't. I'm a bit apprehensive about work because there's been some restructuring and it hasn't quite hit me yet because of the holiday period. When I think back on the year, it feels like a blur... don't think I've quite adjusted to the rigidity of full time work. I'm just tired. And a bit wistful. I don't know.

I kind of wish I was much better at posting these days, but every time I try, I just blank out and have this weird irrational urge to avoid, avoid, avoid.

But.

New Years! 2011! Travelling! Fandom! Writing?! Possibly not be so much of a hermit??

Hope everyone's been having a great holiday and a Happy New Year! ♥

It's November already... I was going to post in September.

darkgloom — Wed, 24 Nov 2010 08:56:51 GMT

I remember the good old days when I used to change my lj theme every few weeks. Now it's been four months and I haven't really looked at any themes at all. I know this because I'm...thorough...and have screencapped all my previous themes akdsfl Well. Barring the ones lost in the great laptop demise of '08. Not that I'm still bitter or anything.

Work and work and work aksdfl that's kind of what my life is like... I'm hoping that now the financial year and my performance review is over, I will be less busy. Thank you for the well wishes ♥ The performance review went well, and I came out feeling relieved. And, well, my fingers are crossed on possibly getting a bonus. More to spend on electronic-y goods :D

I managed to finally watch Inception a little while ago (after everyone had already seen it) and got really, really hooked. Oh my god, the fics are just amazing. They went from AUs to crack to lovely canon-verse and just. Amazing. It helps that I was dazzled by Arthur and charmed by Eames and their history and...everything, really.

I miss S1 Merlin. When all four of them were riding together in 3.07, I got nostalgic for that ep when they were riding off to defend Ealdor :( It doesn't help that it's really difficult to be on Merlin's side when it comes to Morgana, considering how she was treated by him and Gaius in S2 and considering the fact that Merlin totally brushed off all the things she did in the first season and just put her in the evil category. I get so annoyed whenever they talk about her 'true nature' because she was the first one to convince Arthur to go against Uther to save Merlin, she tried to save Gwen's father, and she rode off to help Merlin defend Ealdor and his mother, and all Merlin did was...attempt to kill her :( After he and Gaius deliberately kept her in the dark about her magic and gave her sleeping potions...yeah, that's really helpful :(

I think the only thing that's making this season enjoyable is the Arthur/Merlin relationship. They are so adorable and hilarious... I love Morgause too. Don't like what they've done with Morgana and Gwen though, or how their friendship is basically non-existent. Sometimes it seemed like they tried to downlplay Uther too from his season one ruthlessness. Gwen used to have this quiet strength. Now she's all damsel in distress-y and the whole Arthur/Gwen relationship is so...soppy. I'm kind of like "..." everytime the music comes on.

But ajdkfl I love 3.08 with all hints at the future and the magic and Merlin's quest and oh my god, Gwaine/Merlin ♥_♥ I. Just that scene of them of together where Merlin

I'm considering getting contacts, even though the idea of touching my eyes is kind of freaky and I'm not very good with these sorts of things. But. I'm kind of sick of my glasses :/

I...brought a new phone. Android, in fact akdsfl and it turns out that I apparently use more data than I'd initially thought just because being online is so much easier on my new phone than old.

Have started watching Hawaii Five-0!! It is so entertaining. My feel-good series of the moment because I need it :(

I've been watching Vampire Diaries too. In the beginning, I mocked, but now I am seriously all ajskdfl about it. Somehow the show became good. Seriously. How did that happen?

Dead, I started this post in September...and I couldn't seem to finish it so I'll just post it now before 2010 is over :/

"Did you turn the window off?"

darkgloom — Tue, 24 Aug 2010 13:09:19 GMT

I'm still alive... sort of. Just been buried under work and RL, and being...semi-sociable. Thanks, RL. For dragging me away from my computer for my own good... I think... XD

Sorry, I'm still a little out of touch with what's going on, so if there's anything important I've missed, feel free to poke or nudge me. I'll try to keep up better... will probably comment belatedly too... Twitter moves too fast and I've been crazy busy T_T It's the end of the financial year and I'm part of the planning process for the next year, because my manager is. And while occasionally, I get this tiny, tiny thrill at having having a somewhat limited power over what goes on next year, I don't think it's worth the stress and time I've been spent on it... and will spend on it >_>

It's not over yet, but in the mean time I have a list of things that I need to get done since I've basically left them aside, and not enough time to do it... wish there was more hours in a day :(

I haven't forgotten about my help_haiti fic. It will get done, even if I have to do an akamewrimo/nano on it XD

I want to offer fic for help_pakistan too, but I don't think I have time to write... I can bid though :>

I've kind of been slowly dipping my feet into JE again. Well, Arashi actually. I've been catching up on their shows and what not, but have no idea if I've missed anything epic. If there is, tell me! I've heard about this Mannequin 5, you see...

Slowly, but surely I'll make my way to watch some KAT-TUN things. Still a little bit wary about it, I think, but I'm not sure why. Or maybe I do XD I get bouts of nostalgia and sentimentality. I don't know. At least by the time I start catching up, I'll have tons of stuff saved up to go through, right?

New shiny phones are tempting me. I think I will get myself a new one before the end of this year? T_T

It's a new month already...

darkgloom — Sun, 04 Jul 2010 11:29:35 GMT

Work is eating my soul. Whyyyy :( I haven't had much time for anything... including things like getting a haircut and buying a warmer jacket/coat. I've been trying for two weekends to get a haircut and only just managed to do it last week. I didn't manage to get a jacket/coat, but I brought sweater things...which counts >_>

On the bright side, I am warm and my hair isn't as random and unpredictable. Go, me.

True Blood is back on and I'm loving season three so much. So very much. *_* I miss Godric though; that glimpse of him in flashback just wasn't enough dammit, and I have to say, I really liked the wild Godric when he first made Eric. Wild Godric with the long-ish hair is my favourite. More present Godric—while still awesome—doesn't quite match up to his first appearance? I mean, after all, that was the first image we see of him and it was awesome.

Pam is made of win, all the time ♥

I'm relieved Bill is back to being interesting again. I have no idea what they were trying to do in the second season, but having seen the repeats of season one recently, all I can say is wtf. Seriously, Bill started off interesting and then became...something. I don't know. I flailed a the Bill/Sam sex dream though... they had chemistry.

The Bill/Lorena scene though? Possibly the most disturbing thing I've ever seen. Apparently I'm okay with gore and dead bodies and torn heads and everything else, but that? *shudders*

Oh, Eric. OH ERIC ♥ ajsdjfsldf Alexander Skarsgard... I honestly think it's some kind of sign because our tv station is showing Generation Kill at the moment as well. I love Eric *_* I loved the Eric/Lafayette interaction with the car and his charming but menacing... I wish he wasn't so, I don't know, pining with Sookie? I liked it better when they had that snarky hate thing going, and he was more amused by her...

I kind of liked the snarling and fighting between him and Sophie-Ann. For the first time I kind of felt like she was actually a dangerous vampire...

Speaking of which, the new vampire: Franklin. I. I really like the accent. And somehow find him hot. He and Tara also has mad chemistry, which I wasn't expecting... I didn't really like Tara/Eggs and never really bought they were a couple.

I love Jessica akdslf baby vampire and the 'fuck why doesn't anyone tell me these things'. Oh, Jessica ♥

So: in general season three is awesome.

Supernatural Season 4 is on repeat and in the episode with Chuck, Dr. Sexy MD is mentioned as an off the cuff remark by Chuck's editor. I'm so amused! I wonder if they were planning on Season 5 even then, particularly that episode...

I think Season 5 is my least favourite season. All the others had a strong plot/storyline, but the fifth season seemed so messy and incoherent. They went overboard with the meta as well, and kind of lost their way :( Season 4 (first half) was really intense, really amazing. I'm watching the eps again and just *flails* the potential was all there. I guess then they found out they were renewed and started stalling the Lucifer myth arc and... I didn't find the finale as satisfying as the previous three seasons. I loved the amount of intensity and pain and love between Dean and Sam though—even if the pacing went a bit off near the end, I was riveted by them.

I loved the closure of season two's finale. Thought season one's finale was the best in terms of going shock—so unexpected! And season three's finale was heartbreaking :(

In comparison, this season was just lacking, apart from a few standout episodes :( I didn't like how they kept narrowing down the SPN-verse by making it all about angels and demons, and I didn't like how they didn't move the characterisations. It felt like they were stalled, just biding their time until season six... which was probably what they were doing XD

Still, I'm looking forward to the new season. Have so far remained unspoiled \o/

At the moment though, I'm just really tired. I've been trying to keep up with a lot of things but haven't been too successful... it hasn't been a good week.

I'm not looking forward to work tomorrow. Mondays :|

Okay, I just remembered I have to do tax things in three days XD

...half the year's gone already? DDD:

darkgloom — Sun, 13 Jun 2010 11:56:14 GMT

Sob, I can't believe it's June. June. WHERE HAS THE TIME GONE.

Thank god I don't have exams anymore. My sister is currently suffering her finals and I'm just going "..."

I need to stop having creepy dreams. Honestly, who dreams about Freddy Krueger? ...other than people dying from dreaming about Freddy Krueger in the movies D:

...I just creeped myself out. So. Mental note: no more creepy dreams! Now I want those dreams about treasure hunting with Ohmiya back XD

The first season of True Blood is on repeat and I caught a few episodes. Wow, I really missed it when Bill was dangerous. I liked how wary every one was of him, and then when the detectives were asking questions regarding the murderers and Bill, with relish, described how a vampire would have drained the corpses dry, I grinned madly.

Okay, the latest PV from KAT-TUN is killing me. Oh god, the cool armour (and now I know why Stargate and System Lords were being discussed on Twitter) and angsty face-covering Ueda with the butterfly and oh my god, KAME. KAME!!!! It's like Lips!Kame. Only better. Because he's sprawling and dramatically flinging back his cape and being the emperor lord of the world. I really, really like emperor lord Kame *_*

I'm dying so hard at Nakamaru. It's, I don't know, like Nakamaru's been replaced by this oddly distant and cool Chinese guy. From a distance. ajsdlf once they zoom in it's kind of like... Nakamaru!! Why are you suddenly strangely non-librarian like! When did this happen?? Koki!! The PV really suits him. His entire look, honestly, is so friggin' awesome. The black nail polish. Taguchi looks perfect, but then he as for a while. Like those really pretty Japanese games ajsdkfl he could be a character from Final Fantasy or something, because his features are just so...smooth and perfect. I don't even know what I'm talking about. Dying, just pretend the PV knocked me out or something and now I'm all incoherent and insane.

Work tomorrow, but I don't want to think about it since deadlines are coming up quickly :(

I'm not dead...really...

darkgloom — Tue, 25 May 2010 10:07:03 GMT

So, having a new job is really time-consuming. I don't know. It feels like a) I'm always tired, b) I never have enough time for anything and c) I can't do anything during the weekdays, but the weekends are never enough :(

I'm incredibly behind on everything. But I will do my best my work to catch up. This goes for writing fic as well >_>

It was also brought to my attention today that this year will be the first year that I won't have exams during NaNo...

Aiba-chan and Mao and baby animals!!! Someone please tell me it's subbed T_T

Also, Zebraswan ~~Post of Doom~~ Timeline Post Thing ♥♥♥

Sorry, Swangoose. I'm afraid nothing can compare to Yagudin/Plushenko's epic rivalry :(

It's May already? DDD:

darkgloom — Sun, 02 May 2010 12:10:31 GMT

Work tomorrow :( I was meant to catch up with everything over the weekend, but it went by too fast, or maybe I was too slow... in the end I only managed a couple of things. I'll just have to slowly catch up during the week ~~or the next weekend~~.

I did, however, finally manage to watch the first episode of the new Doctor Who—and being possibly the only one who hasn't aksdfl—and I really love Eleven!! He is so adorable!! I really love Amy too!! Her face when she realised he really did come back for her, and the shot of her Doctor drawings and figurines broke my heart a little :(

Also, CROWLEY ♥_♥ He was so amazing and snarky and akdslfkl I want him and Cas to meet so badly. Actually, I want Cas to finally turn up first D:

Okay, sleep now. Will worry about new project thing tomorrow :(

So far...

darkgloom — Mon, 26 Apr 2010 09:03:21 GMT

kizuna_exchange reveals are up!! I am totally fail at guessing, and I still have a ton of fics to read and comment on. I blame work. I'll be belatedly commenting. >_> But some of the fics I have read are quite simply amazing. I'm in awe of the Akame fandom ♥

My own fic is here. Either I'm very obvious or I need to start being more jinja ajsdlfk I'll archive it on lj at some point, as well as make that fic masterlist that I've been meaning to do.

I have a new job :D Thanks for all the good lucks and well wishes ♥ It's going to be pretty interesting since it's a new role they opened up, and of course, after being a student for years, having money is kinda nice. >_> I'll probably post about it in more detail later on.

So. I just had my birthday a couple of weeks ago adslf one year older. So depressing. :(

*dies* Yesterday, I saw these ladybug keychains and I was so tempted to get it. It's like my turtle thing. Oh, Stéphane. I'm going to keep buying turtle and ladybug knick-knacks forever :(

...not so secretly, I would kill to have that zebra with wings plushie....

Still shipping Stéphane/Johnny so hard ♥

I caught up with Supernatural again, and all I can say is: GABRIEL DDDDD:

Also, LOKI!!! ♥

Oh my god, he just *flails* he was wonderful and amazing, and that scene with him and Lucifer really, really broke me. I don't know. For a while now, the whole angel dynamic with the squabbling and pettiness hadn't been working for me. They didn't touch on it too much, and when they did, it was so overwrought and filled with anvils about Dean and Sam being fated etc, etc, etc that it...didn't ring true...somehow. But this—this was what I wanted. It was the right amount of heartbreaking and epic, pain and love, and the looks on both their faces. The wings....god, show has really lovely imagery. I keep going back to S4 when we first see the outlines of their wings and how they've maintained that poignancy :(

I knew it when they didn't show Gabriel's wings that he hadn't died. Because when Michael burned Anna out of her vessel, I kept wondering why I didn't really think she was dead while everyone was certain she was. Then, I realised it was because we never got to see the outlines of her wings... so. Hence, I wasn't convinced. I could be on the wrong track, show might not be consistent heh, but I don't know. I feel like they left themselves a way for Anna to come back if they wanted.

I loved Kali's speech, loved the whole gods banding together thing. I had a lot of issues with the way they were portrayed though, and I definitely didn't like how Lucifer kind of swept in and killed them so easily. I mean, really. Even if I equated belief = strength, it doesn't hold up while some of the gods are from mythology/old/dead religions, others aren't. So. This was really the only thing bugging me from an otherwise amazing episode. It's also conflicting because I really loved Lucifer striding in and being badass. :/

But yes. I completely love this Dean with his renewed determination in averting the Apocalypse. Loved last episode with Adam, loved it when he winked at Sam, and killed Zachariah, and totally love the dynamic between him and Sam. They're so grown up now and understanding of each other and *flails* It's what I always wanted for them. A chance to love and respect and understand each other on their own terms ♥

What can I say about Castiel that hasn't already been said already? *_* That alley fight scene was intense and amazing, and I felt so heartbroken for broken!Dean D: But still...intense. And they still have that amazing chemistry that drawn me in from S4 *_*

Also: "Last time someone looked at me like that, I got laid." lololol, oh, Dean ♥ And then Castiel's glare and slamming of the door. So perfect.

I love how Castiel was so badass here, taking on five angels, being sneaky and smart and ahhhh I love him so much. The long-suffering look on his face when he pulls out Adam from the ground aksdfldl

Okay, I'm going to stop flailing. I can't wait until the next episode! Especially when there's only three episodes left until the end of S5.... I don't like the long wait. The hiatuses were painful enough already :(

aksdlf almost forgot to add that I just signed up for a mobile contract... finally moving from prepay, although I chose the least period of time to commit to...

IDEK...

darkgloom — Mon, 19 Apr 2010 14:54:37 GMT

Oh my god, figure skating fandom is eating me T_T I just spent hours and hours going through ontd_skating, watching youtube clips, and reading fic memes. I'm supposed to finish reading kizuna_exchange fics (which I will do!! once...figure skating rps stops eating me alive...), but. So addictive. T_T

Remember when I thought turtle nicknames were cute and original? NOW THERE IS LIKE A WHOLE ZOO. Swan. Zebra. Mongoose ajsdlf mongoose. How do they come up with these names... oh wait, I do know. "Magical zebra with wings"... oh, Stéphane. You brought it on yourself ♥ And. Well. Swan is obvious ajdslfk still. Mongoose. Let me laugh forever

And then...there are the name squish. Zebraswan. Swangoose. Jewbra. I died a lot.

My favourite is Stéphane Lambiel (aka Zebra) simply because he is so adorable and cute and ajdlf so sincere and happy. I really enjoy watching his skating because he's so into it and you can feel how he loves being on the ice. And Johnny ajdsfl what can I say about him that hasn't already been said *_* So...logically I OTP Stéphane/Johnny aksdfl THEY ARE SO CUTE OKAY. I still read Evan/Johnny though, because some of the fics are so great.

...

Please send help :(

What, it's April already...

darkgloom — Thu, 08 Apr 2010 00:45:45 GMT

I'm completely chagrined that my last post was in March. In which case, I'm going to blame writing kizuna_exchange fic and work. And job applications. I hate them :(

So. To summarise:

I brought a new phone T_T I said I wasn't going to, but I did...it was on sale with $200 discount and I hadn't used one of my gift vouchers from work...and in the end, I brought it for half of its original price. How could anyone resist? Even if my other phone was only six months old T_T

I didn't get a chance to buy the 1TB hard drive. It was on sale for $99 and... they ran out of stock when I got there :(

My sleeping patterns are crap... I can't seem to sleep properly, so it screws the timing up. And then I wake up tired and exhausted.

It might explain why I'm feeling kind of burned out lately. Just kind of tired and cranky, and sick of rl things... I don't know. It's weird.

I watched the Korean movie Into the White Night. MY HEART :( The two leads were... incredibly intense and screwed up... and god, I just. Wanted to root for them :( The trailers hooked me and before I knew it, I had to watch. It's possibly the most epic, intense movie I've seen so far. It packed one hell of a punch...

Also watched 2012. It...has made me wary, especially considering the devastating earthquakes that have hit so far :(

I have read one of the best BAMF Castiel posts ever. Post is made of awesome. And BAMFness. *__*

Caught up with Supernatural. 5x16 destroyed my soul :( I have... a few issues with some of the plot and etc, but it's not a lot. I really like some of the Sam analysis, and thought the ep moved his characterisation in a significant way. Mostly, my heart just broke for everyone. :(

I caught an episode of Heroes the other day—possibly fourth season?—and had to change to another channel. What happened? It was...just terrible. I remember the awesome of season one. Season two even wasn't that bad in hindsight. But. This...they turned the entire show into something else.

kizuna_exchange fics are up akdfl I haven't caught up yet, but it's exciting every time a new fic gets posted.

I'm going to work on my help_haiti fic next... which ended up being much longer than I expected.

I'm going back to work tomorrow. At this point, I can only scratch my head in disbelief. Seems like every time I leave... I don't really... leave... On the other hand, money from short-term contract work is keeping me afloat in shiny electronic-y goodness.

They do this on purpose...

darkgloom — Sun, 14 Mar 2010 09:03:55 GMT

Well. I wonder what they could be implying...

You go back to work for a short while and you apply for a few jobs and suddenly, it's the middle of March already, and you realise that kizuna_exchange is due in less than two weeks. OH MY GOD PANIC. T_T

Also, I've been getting this urge to buy a new phone. Somebody stop me. NOW.

There was more, I just forgot most of what I wanted to post... I have work tomorrow but I don't want to go. I hate Mondays. :(

Can't believe it's the end of February...

darkgloom — Thu, 25 Feb 2010 11:38:42 GMT

1. No more Cartoon KAT-TUN! What!! I'm expecting a new show for them to be announced, JE. Just like Arashi's many, many shows. I need compensation for this loss!! :(

2. I just finished watching Tokyo Friends Park with the YamaNade cast. SO MUCH FUN. ♥ They were all so adorable and nervous and excited, and ajksdlf I really, really love the giant Kame/Uchi hugs. They looked so cute and happy!! I can't believe I forgot that Uchi played baseball too aksfl I didn't realise until I saw how good Uchi's aim was at the throwing game. I vaguely remember that they were each captains of the opposing team or something during Johnny's Sports when they were younger!

I have so much love for Uchi right now. He's so adorable aksfl I tend to think that one of the reason's why Kame and Uchi seem to be getting along so well is that Uchi's got a bit of the Jin's innocently blunt and adorable thing going on, and of course, Kame probably adores anyone who shares his great passion for baseball. And. They're just so cute. *_*

Also: when did Uchi get so hot. *_*

I love competitive Kame ajkslfd just about died when in his competitiveness he started doing everything himself. Oh, Kame ♥ And the little kid going plop on the wall crash was so adorable. *_*

Miyao with the Gundum references and his polite announcement of when he's going to hit the puck ajsldf I'm beginning to really love him too.

Aya was so cute and her and Kame seem to really have this ease when they interact. I kind of really love them together and how she's kind of just. Really easy-going and laughing amused when Kame goes all competitive and starts doing everything.

lolol, it just wasn't Kame's day...he had a few misses, but still did good! I love Uchi's reactions. So hilarious and a total contrast to his cool look aksfl

3. I need to stop being a hermit.

4. I have spent the week being lazy, writing and panicking, and shopping. I brought a laptop fan cooler (ajksfl if I need a fan to last me through the summer heat, so does mac-chan okay; also, I, uh, monitor the temperature of mac-chan regularly).

5. Made plans to catch up with friends, and I'm going to a festival tomorrow. This time, I am prepared!! Camera battery being charged as we speak, unlike last year, when it...died...after a few pictures. :/

6. I can't seem to update twitter through texts anymore. So annoying. :|

7. ...although, I think I accidentally spammed my mobile network when I was writing them an email and didn't know until I checked gmail and realised there was an IMAP issue. Oops?

8. Need to write, write, write this weekend T_T

EXAMS ARE OVER!! FREEDOM!!

darkgloom — Thu, 18 Feb 2010 04:57:12 GMT

Finally, it's all over and done with. I'm so, so happy, you wouldn't believe. This will be the last exam ever if I had any say in it, which I do. A lot. \o/

Next on my list is... fic writing... and job hunting. In particular, help_haiti fic, and kizuna_exchange fic. I had some kind of idea and outline of what I was going to write, but then it kept changing. And now, I don't know. XD

Tomorrow, I'm going for a haircut. Note to self: trying to grow out hair in summer was obviously a recipe for failure. Better luck in winter.

I'm so excited and happy for Supernatural being renewed!! Well, officially renewed. It's nice having confirmation, you know. ;) I hope Misha's back and Castiel will be part of it too aksfl the most recent episode worked so well with the three of them and ahhh loved 5x14 so much. Very gory to the point where I had to kind of turn my head away. Luckily, I wasn't eating anything.

But why the hiatus, show? DIDN'T WE JUST GO THROUGH THIS D:

I'm very slowly catching up on things that I skimmed through during procrastination periods, which were, uh, many. I want to try catching up with the Akame meta explosion, but it looks so intimidating...

Life and Akame

darkgloom — Thu, 11 Feb 2010 12:52:09 GMT

I'm happy LJ is back and fast again. You don't realise how much you depend on LJ until it's not there :(

I left my flash drive on the computer at uni. I can't decide whether I want to go back and get it, but it's looking like I'll go tomorrow. I'm at home in my comfy clothes and I don't want to go back. Hope nobody takes it before I get back. ;_;

Bus and train fares have gone up. So much Do Not Want. :/

Dead, epic akame discussion post is approaching 1000 comments. I AM SO BEHIND. Every time I try to catch up, there's always more T_T And... there's this thing called studying I have to do, because my first exam is in four days... ajdfkl consider this a brb notice. XD

On the other hand, my Akame love went through a revival/refresh. I started feeling nostalgic for Gokusen 2, and then went and made ringtones of Kizuna. Sobbing, I now have Kizuna on my phone and every time I get a text, I'm reminded of Hayato/Ryu and their epic love, which leads back to Akame and their epic love and ajsdfk HI AKAME HI. It feels like when I first got into Akame. ♥

TEAM FREE WILL ALL THE WAY <333

darkgloom — Sat, 06 Feb 2010 07:10:16 GMT

First of all, holy crap, it's February. February. There's a couple of more weeks until finals and then I'm finished. \o/

But I'm getting ahead of myself asjfk I'll have to finish off my assignment due next Wednesday.

Second of all, I forgive Supernatural for the astrocity that was "Swap Meat" (okay, I admit, it wasn't all bad, but that was mostly because of Jared's awesome comedic timing because otherwise everything was just off; they didn't feel like Sam and Dean at all) and the abrupt ending of "Sam, Interrupted". I mean, it's nice and all that they killed the wraith BUT WHAT ABOUT MARTIN. They just left him there with the dead body and I'm just all D:

But yes, I forgive them for everything because this episode was made of awesome and even more awesome \o/ It feels so much like they're back on track again, and that ending? That line where Mary says angels are watching over you? SHIVER.

I loved the awkward family car ride in the impala... ahhh Winchesters ♥ My heart literally broke at Sam's reaction to seeing Mary and his talk with John and just aj;sfd I thought it couldn't be broken anymore but then Sam and Dean started going on about not being born and MY HEART. It just crumbled. Last season when Dean went back and told Mary not to come into the nursery and then he does it again, and oh Dean. Oh Sam.

CAS I LOVE YOU FOREVER AND EVER OKAY. I'm so happy he's back, I don't want him to go ever again ♥_♥ and "Sam's my friend". I flailed so hard. It's like my dream come true; the three of them hunting things and saving lives. Oh, Cas, I'm so worried for him and his turning human. I remember future!Cas. :/

I loved the Cas/Anna show-off in the beginning. They're both so badass and awesome and their history. *_* I kind of wanted more of them, to be honest, because they had a lot of depth to their relationship that I want to be properly explained and... you know, it's fascinating how much Cas changed along the course of S4, while Anna went into the opposite direction—more big-picture-angelic while Cas is more about caring for Dean and Sam and humans and less of the big picture angel he was before. Oh, Cas ♥

I DIDN'T EXPECT URIEL OR MICHAEL. So much love!! Oh, Uriel, I missed you and your badass self so much. And Michael. WOW. He is so ajkl I don't know, he wasn't what I expected but WOW. I kind of love him like I love Lucifer, though, really, SPN writers need to stop with the Sam and Dean parallels, m'kay? Just as I was skeptical with Lucifer's claims of Michael calling him a freak, I'm skeptical of Michael raising Lucifer. I'm going to assume both of these claims aren't really true and it's just another means for Lucifer and Michael to persuade Sam and Dean. I mean, come on, so tailored to hit Sam and Dean where it hurts.

Also, HAVE I MENTIONED HOW MUCH I LOVE THE ACTOR WHO PLAYS YOUNG!JOHN? BECAUSE I REALLY, REALLY DO. Oh, my heart when John interacts with Dean or Sam. And when John was asking Dean about the sigils and etc? There was so many shadows of JDM there. I was so impressed, because the expression, the intensity, even the barely there growl and drawl of John in S1. So amazing.

You know the part where Cas comes back to the present all woozy?

Well, I'm going to pretend that he somehow kept missing the correct year and went all time-traveller's wife on Dean. I love this fic so much. You would not believe how many times I've reread. Time travel fic is epic and made of awesome. ♥_♥

Third of all, I just laughed so hard, embarrassed Kame and KOKI ZIPPING HIM UP. Jin has this adorable fluffy hat, but ugh, stop looking like you don't want to be there, okay. :| On the other hand, he has this hilarious unimpressed look when Koki was, uh, looking down at Kame's lap and then helping him zip up ajskj I. I debated for a while but ended up creating a Kokame tag.

Eee, Kame and Aya. WHY ARE THEY SO ADORABLE. Bawling, please rest assured that of course this is not his secret hobby. Oh, Kame ♥

lolol, rumours of Kimutaku, Kame and Jin being in a drama are awesome. Even more awesome if they were true!!

LJ has decided to raise the tag limit to 2000. Yay!

ETA: So, the current issues regarding loading LJ isn't fixed yet. :/

Where's January? >:[

darkgloom — Wed, 27 Jan 2010 11:25:39 GMT

¤ Tests are over, yay!! ...essay and assignment, nay :(

¤ I hate bureaucracy so much. So very much. Especially government bureaucracy. Why must they get everything wrong!! They got my employment details for 2008 wrong, and now I'm trying to correct it. I wouldn't be too fussed about it except they are asking for repayment of my student allowance that I shouldn't be repaying. Hate. :(

¤ Supernatural has a sixth season and it makes me incredibly happy. I don't mind what they do as long as they don't get rid of Castiel and they don't try to drag any of the arcs over. Stalling the apocalypse arc just makes it less epic and satisfying. I want a new start, and as others have suggested, Dean and Sam trying to heal from all the emotional and physical beating they've gotten. WITH CASTIEL POPPING ~~ALL THE TIME~~ EVERY SO OFTEN BEING ANGELIC AND HILARIOUS AND ALL BAMF AND SMITE-Y. No, really. I want. I've read some really amazing gen fics that could be an episode with the three of them hunting creepy things and saving people. I want Sam and Castiel to be friends and bond. :(

¤ YamaNade!! Kame!! I haven't loved a Kame drama this much since two dramas ago aj;sf; t-the dance in the beginning. Laughing so hard, SPIRIT FINGERS. Oh god, those are SPIRIT FINGERS. I'm getting Bring It On flashbacks, bawling. I have so much to flail about. I love Takeru, and the adorable, adorable way he interacts with Kyohei. I love how Kyohei is so self-absorbed and bratty and so, so cute and then he becomes scorching hot when he's all disdainful. It's like when he's pretending to be a host with that hair and that attitude and he's all 'you're not good enough for me to pour wine for' disdain disdain disdain and then the girl goes 'NO PLEASE DISDAIN SOME MOAR AT ME, LOOK I CAN POUR WINE TOO'.

Yes, Kame. Please be disdain some more. If only he could play a villain in a drama. DO WANT. :( And then, Sunako!! I love her so much. Headbutting and addiction to sweet things and aj;sf Sunako and Kyohei throwing punches and kicking ass. And then throwing punches at each other. I love Sunako's rage and Kyohei's stubborness. Their rage is so much love. ♥♥♥

When did Uchi become hot? Hi, Uchi, hi. I'm so happy you can act too. *_*

Tegoshi really won me over again here. He's so cute! He has a teddy bear! And he gets scared so adorably!! I like old school Tegoshi better than now-Tegoshi. He seems so bland these days that I kind of, uh, lost interest but he totally won me over here ♥

I liked the first episode more than the second, I think, probably because the second felt more contrived. Hello, princess mushroom. But then there was the kiss, and Sunako getting angry over it being her first and then Kyohei getting all defensive and taken off guard when he admits it's his first kiss too and suddenly, it's like the first episode again. Then, fighting commences. I-I think I kind of ship them. ♥

¤ I've decided I'm going to find full-time, permanent employment after I finish these two courses. Wish me luck. :|

¤ Oh, wow, $73,680 confirmed donations in help_haiti *_*

Drive by posting...

darkgloom — Tue, 19 Jan 2010 12:31:30 GMT

Just made an offering for help_haiti, which is raising funds/donations for Haiti!!

I might be cutting it close though...

Also signed up for kizuna_exchange. I blame matchy. :(

First post of the year /o\

darkgloom — Sun, 10 Jan 2010 10:31:07 GMT

I was meant to post earlier, but, well, am still made of fail apparently. Not quite sure what to write since I've pretty much forgotten all the stuff I was meant to post about...

Classes have started up again. I can't believe how fast time's passed; I mean, I have an assignment due next week. :( What's even worse is that I've bumped into people from my old lab. To those who remember my quarter-life crisis, yes, it's from that lab. It was so incredibly awkward and strained with asking questions and answering questions and, just, really embarrassing. At least from my end. From now on, I'm going to wear my Lark Kent glasses :(

Me and my sister went shoe shopping. I don't really like jandals and my sandals weren't wearable anymore. Plus, my trusty pumps, which I had been relying on, started scratching at the top of my feet. There were sales, lucky us, and we got three pairs because the third pair was free, and both of us were each buying a pair anyway... so why not. :D

I also brought a bracelet and a coin purse... not that I needed one anymore after buying another wallet. But since I change wallets a lot...

I was meant to start my assignment and do some readings/decide on an essay topic. I have done neither of these things. Instead, I caught up with the Cartoon KT 100 Adult Rules SP and KAT-TUN vs SMAP New Years Special. But. HULA-HOOPING KAME IS SO HARD TO RESIST. T_T

His face. The music. I. I was surprised nobody put money in his pants or something.

The blissface and the giant hip thrusts. *dies so hard* OH KAME. IS THIS HULA-HOOPING. REALLY??

I like how Jin is holding them back, like he's the voice of reason. And touching Kame there slightly. Yes, I'm still one of those fangirls.

Jin staring never gets old.

Never.

Hi, Akame, hi. It's nice to see you sitting next to each other again.

And stand next to each other. DO I SEE SHOULDER TOUCHING. I THINK I DO. :D

*dies* I, uh, like how subtle Nakamaru was, squashing himself between Akame.

Okay, I also watched because of this. They're so cute!!

LOLOL. So smooth. so cool. Kame looks so young. He could pass for ~~fourteen~~ seventeen again so easily.

How so adorable, Kame :|

Screencapped purely for the Kame pulling back Jin's hand thing. I am so predictable.