*waves*
I guess yet another attempt to get back into LiveJournal fell away. I'm sorry to have lost touch with everyone, I really have missed everyone. I really don't know why I'm so bad at it, but I really am just awful. Both in real life and online, I'm just the worst person in the world for keeping in touch. If I could change one thing about myself, that would be it. Of course, I said all this 11 months ago and completely failed (I got worse if anything) in my objective to change it. I know this is is the latest of far too many failed attempts to get back to using LiveJournal, but I'm hoping this time will be the successful one!
This time I'm not going to even attempt a big catch-up post or anything like that because it leaves me thinking that I have a lot to write, as if to make up for all the months I've not posted, and it makes LiveJournal seem like a chore. Besides, there's not a tonne to catch up with - my life is at pretty much exactly the same place it was at the last time I posted, which is both a good and a bad thing. On the good side, things are still going great with Stacey, and my trips to visit her are the highlights of my life. I have good friends, a good family, I have pretty much all the material things I need, so I'm not in a constant state of wanting much more than I have, and so on; I'm fairly satisfied. On the down side, I'm still in a state of frustration and confusion as to what I want to do with my career. I'm starting to get some ideas, but they of course have me worried as to whether they will be the right moves for me, and so on. Plus I feel as if I'm putting off growing up - still living with my parents, not being independent or self-sufficient, and obviously that has to change but I worry that I'll struggle and find it difficult when I do. Overall, I'm in exactly the same place I was a year ago, which I'm neither depressed nor enthusiastic about.
I'm going to try and post something every day this month, nothing big probably, but I really want to get back into the habit of writing, and setting myself targets for that sounds like it might help.
So what should I talk about in this entry? What did I do today? Umm. Planned on waking up at 9.30am, hoping to go to the cinema and watch a few movies. Slept through my alarm and woke up at 2pm, getting 13 hours of sleep. (What a waste of 5 hours! I only need 8 hours of sleep not to be exhausted the next day.) Watched the latest Veronica Mars, the latest Lost, the first episode of Sports Night (great stuff, I don't know why I waited so long to check this out since I really love Aaron Sorkin's writing), and a WWE Smackdown special that was completely classless and exploited a wrestler's recent death to advance a current storyline and try to make wrestling seem as if it can appeal to non-wrestling fans (it can't). Lost 36 pence playing poker with my 11 and 12 year old brothers. And that's about it. An entire day pretty much gone.
Much as I complain about how much I hate the lack of free time when I have a full time job, there is something about being out of work that just stops me from accomplishing anything. Aside from two months I did work 9-5, this has been my pattern for the year; wasting way too many days doing next to nothing. I really need to get a job soon! Otherwise I just know I'm not going to break out of this slump of not doing anything all day, taking much longer to do things than I should, waking up at ridiculously late times, and so on. I need a job to give my days some structure. The money would be nice too.
Ok, I'm going to leave it at that today. Writing LiveJournal posts after not writing for ages is so hard! So much so that it really should stop me from going ages without writing. :)
This time I'm not going to even attempt a big catch-up post or anything like that because it leaves me thinking that I have a lot to write, as if to make up for all the months I've not posted, and it makes LiveJournal seem like a chore. Besides, there's not a tonne to catch up with - my life is at pretty much exactly the same place it was at the last time I posted, which is both a good and a bad thing. On the good side, things are still going great with Stacey, and my trips to visit her are the highlights of my life. I have good friends, a good family, I have pretty much all the material things I need, so I'm not in a constant state of wanting much more than I have, and so on; I'm fairly satisfied. On the down side, I'm still in a state of frustration and confusion as to what I want to do with my career. I'm starting to get some ideas, but they of course have me worried as to whether they will be the right moves for me, and so on. Plus I feel as if I'm putting off growing up - still living with my parents, not being independent or self-sufficient, and obviously that has to change but I worry that I'll struggle and find it difficult when I do. Overall, I'm in exactly the same place I was a year ago, which I'm neither depressed nor enthusiastic about.
I'm going to try and post something every day this month, nothing big probably, but I really want to get back into the habit of writing, and setting myself targets for that sounds like it might help.
So what should I talk about in this entry? What did I do today? Umm. Planned on waking up at 9.30am, hoping to go to the cinema and watch a few movies. Slept through my alarm and woke up at 2pm, getting 13 hours of sleep. (What a waste of 5 hours! I only need 8 hours of sleep not to be exhausted the next day.) Watched the latest Veronica Mars, the latest Lost, the first episode of Sports Night (great stuff, I don't know why I waited so long to check this out since I really love Aaron Sorkin's writing), and a WWE Smackdown special that was completely classless and exploited a wrestler's recent death to advance a current storyline and try to make wrestling seem as if it can appeal to non-wrestling fans (it can't). Lost 36 pence playing poker with my 11 and 12 year old brothers. And that's about it. An entire day pretty much gone.
Much as I complain about how much I hate the lack of free time when I have a full time job, there is something about being out of work that just stops me from accomplishing anything. Aside from two months I did work 9-5, this has been my pattern for the year; wasting way too many days doing next to nothing. I really need to get a job soon! Otherwise I just know I'm not going to break out of this slump of not doing anything all day, taking much longer to do things than I should, waking up at ridiculously late times, and so on. I need a job to give my days some structure. The money would be nice too.
Ok, I'm going to leave it at that today. Writing LiveJournal posts after not writing for ages is so hard! So much so that it really should stop me from going ages without writing. :)