werewolves in their youth

WTF dreams.....

2010-12-28T09:17:54Z

I had a very vivid dream that I snuck into a blind sherlock holmes' house and was living there while he was out of town; the rest of my dream centered around how he deduced that I had been there, even though he was blind. I really dont understand my mind sometimes.

Merlin

2010-12-25T05:17:29Z

Recently I've gotten really into this show Merlin, which is on BBC 1 and completely awesome.
The premise is basically, BEFORE the knights of the round table. Think Smallville, but set in Camelot.

Some points:

-"King Arthur" is not king yet, he is only a prince.
-Merlin is Prince Arthurs manservant.
-Arthurs father, Uther Pendragon, is king. Uther is a bit of a tyrant.
-Magic is banned in Camelot, and any caught practicing it are executed by order of the king.
-Merlin is a boy who was born with powerful magic, but has to keep it a secret or else he will be killed; only a couple people know about his power.
-Merlin uses his magic secretly to protect Arthur (Arthur does not know Merlin is a sorcerer)
-Merlin and Arthur both have demonstrated they are willing to die for each other.
-Merlin helps Arthur become a better person.
-Merlin and Arthur eventually develop a strong bond, despite their class differences.

But what really sells it for me, is the last one.
Their ~~bromance~~ ~~romance~~ bromance knows no bounds, it makes my heart go "squeeeeeeee."

Some of my favorite scenes (in no particular order):

Ok I lied, I am doing these in a sort of order. I'm putting these two first because its the first time(s)
they meet, Merlin is from out of town and doesn't know who Arthur is. Lets just say they get off to a bad start.

I also love this because Merlin actually has the advantage if they were in an all out one-on-one
fight, he isn't JUST bluffing or trying to act tougher than he is (he could probably summon fire or
something and burn Arthur alive) but he always has to pull his punches and hold back
'cause if he's caught using magic he'll be executed.

I like him finding ways to secretly use his magic against Arthur. lol. Serves two purposes of
saving his ass, AND making Arthur look ridiculous.

Awww. But a series of events (And merlin saving arthurs life) leads to Merlin being appointed
as Arthurs manservant, and the rest is history.

These jump around between all three seasons. Enjoy the bromance, I sure have.

This is from the second episode, and its wonderful to see how their relationship
has already started to develop and improve from the previous episode.

Arthur and Merlin sleeping on the floor at Merlin's Mother's house.
From season 1, Merlin finds out his home village is in trouble and being attacked,
and even though King Uther refuses to help, Arthur goes against his fathers wishes
and rides out with Merlin to help him. This episode is awesome because they stay
with Merlins mom, who (once she sees them together) ALSO ships Arthur/Merlin.

I love their bedroom conversations :p
They are staying at an inn somewhere, trying to find the one man who can help them save camelot.

"No man is worth your tears..."
No words for this scene.

Probably one of my favorite Arthur/Merlin scenes just because of how much Arthur
is letting it show that he's worried about and cares for Merlin. Look at those little smiles
that they give each other.

Merlin here is getting ready to head off to, what he thinks will be, his death.
He is saying goodbye to Arthur here (but Arthur doesn't know it). This is from the first season finale.

Shamelessly included because Arthur is sweaty and Merlin is helping him out of his armor.

This is from season 3. Merlin getting Arthur ready for bed. Hahaha. God I love this show.
I mean, they are talking about a girl, but still....
Also? I love that King Uther comes in right after Arthur throws a pillow at Merlin.

I just love Merlin's little worrying here....
this is from season 3 episode 11....

This scene isn't very Arthur/Merlin centric. But, on a shallow note: I love that Merlin's
eyes glow when he does magic. ~~It....does things to me.~~

CRAIG FERGUSON TAPING!!!

2010-11-17T04:10:33Z

By sheer freaking LUCK I managed to get onto the show.
It was super funny, awesome, Doctor Who-themed, (matt smith is gorgeous in person), and the best part? They gave the entire audience the season 5 box set!!!!!

Anyways, so we apparently had the standby tickets and (even though we had waiting in line since noon) when it came time to load in the audience they put us in a separate line while everyone else got to go in front of us. So annoying! I was especially mad seeing as I had flown down from San Francisco just to be there.

But then this awesome girl had an extra person listed on her guarantee ticket and her friend hadn't been able to make it, so she lets me come on as her plus one!! (unfortunately my sister in law wasn't able to get in, but she said she'd rather me get in that her since I'm a bigger fan). The girl in front of me who had been there since 8am also got to go in because someone grabbed her.

Thank you nice people!

Anyways...the show itself: super funny! Matt Smith is super charming and funny and adorable in person. Things you have to look forward to: the skinny tie with the sexy black suit (so hot!), awkward three way pause, awkward three-way, freeze frame high five, "The Odd Couple" the dalek version, "you are the doctor, you can sleep with my girlfriend if you want to," matt contemplates getting a dalek tattoo, Matt's vegas road trip (this story is super funny), and bill and ted totally stole their idea from doctor who.

(hopefully they don't cut too much of this out, I'm not sure how they usually do it on these types of shows).

Chris Hardwick was also there, and was wearing a long doctor who scarf and a t shirt with the delorean crashing into the TARDIS.

Also, so they had a whole dance number planned with craig singing over the doctor who theme song with these dancers and puppets, except last minute Craig found out that his producers hadn't gotten the rights to use the song, so he was super pissed off. They showed the rehearsal of it to the audience, however, and hinted that it might get leaked online. FIND IT, if you can, it was hilarious and I wish they could have done it live.

Anyways, thats all! I just quickly typed up my experience, if any of you were there I was the girl with the pink hair and glasses near the front of the line :)

CRAIG FERGUSON TODAY

2010-11-16T17:52:01Z

So...I'm a huge nerd and flew from SF down to LA to go to the Craig Ferguson show with Matt Smith. My sister-law- is coming too (they live down here, so another part of my visit is getting to hang out with family). Apparently they overbooked so there is a slight chance that we wont get in, so keep your fingers crossed! We are gonna go super early.

But most importantly:

dflkasjdlfkjasldkjflkasjdf

Seriously!

san francisco Bay Area represent.

2010-09-02T16:38:26Z

This is amazing ♥ Its a rap of 100 bay area slang terms.

In which I try and be a better Buddhist.

2010-08-08T05:14:34Z

I wish I was more zen. I read in this book recently, that as a buddhist we should be thankful when we encounter "enemies," and those that test us and make us angry. That we should meditate on a sense of honor at having met them. And I suppose that makes sense, most people we meet, we get along with. On a day to day basis our interactions tend to be civil. How will these interactions help us in learning out to curb our impulses and reactions? Its only through adversity that we are tempered and forged into the people we want to be. Its logical...

except....

I hate one of my coworkers so much its distracting. I try and be civil, but he shit talks me constantly and treats me horrible. I really, honestly, want nothing more than us to get along. He hates me so much I've had other coworkers comment on it, and it just makes me hate him even more! Its a horrible cycle of perpetuating hate. I hate him because he hates me...

And I really don't like feeding off of that emotion, I don't want to be a person bogged down with that. Its ugly and horrible. I wish I could cut this feeling out with a knife and hide it away. Burn it. I know that meditating on love and positive emotions towards this person is the only cure, but the hate that has been feeding off of his ill will is sucking the life out of me. I feel emotionally and psychologically drained at the end of the day and I have barely enough positive energy left for myself.

/I have no solution.

I miss my damn dog (a sad post. Feel free to skip).

2010-08-04T06:55:45Z

It has been a little over a month since my dog died. I started thinking about him today and I couldn't stop crying. I miss having the 80 lb addition in my life, by my side through everything. I know that everything eventually dies, but he was only 6 years old. (he died of bloat in the middle of the night). It feels so unfair. I had people tell me all the time what an amazing dog he was, how well behaved and personable he was (Have you seen UP? Max was basically Doug, just a friendly, happy dog who loved the ball and loved his people).

I got Max when I was 18, and he was a HUGE part of my life. I miss playing fetch, and going to the dog park. I miss dragging myself out of bed because Max wanted to go explore. I miss his inability to refrain from jumping into any body of water he came across (I always kept a towel in my car, just in case). I miss having something other than myself to care for. I miss insisting that I bring him with me everywhere (so what if he was a big dog, people can deal). I miss having to spell out w-a-l-k because even if you said it in casual conversation he freaked out. I miss the little happy dance he'd do when he saw me. I miss the way he brought the ball back every time. I miss my huge lump of drooly, slobbery dog.

Max and Me

LA, baby....

2010-08-01T07:37:00Z

In Los Angeles visiting my brother and my sister in law. Having a blast, we had amazing sushi today in downtown at this place called Octopus Bar (or something like that), and had some drinks at an Irish pub.

Tomorrow the beach (depending on the weather), and some shopping at H&M perhaps.

Love it.

Dalek bag I made for my sister for her birthday...

2010-07-23T04:19:43Z

Her birthday was a couple months ago, but I never got around to posting this.
I used various kinds of paint for the Dalek itself, and iron-on letters for "exterminate."
I'm really happy with how it turned out ♥ My friend said it looked like American Eagle and Doctor Who had a baby (lol). I'm not sure if thats a compliment or not, but I'm taking it as one. I designed it with my sisters style in mind anyways, so thats kind of her "look" (although shes a bit more hipster. Maybe I can classify the design as "ironic dalek?" lol).
My sister freaked out for it, anyways. Which I'm happy about. I'm bummed because I always meant to do a TARDIS on the back, but I ran out of time and paint -the fabric just ate it all up :(

Listen to making art and pulling teeth

2010-07-17T07:10:46Z

This is the playlist I listen to when I want to get inspired.

the mad man with a box.

2010-07-16T21:48:08Z

NOTE: Originally posted here at doctoreleven, re-posted here so that I have it on my journal.

A while back I did a picspam review of the "real" theme of season 4, discussing the Tenth Doctor and teh angst (which you can see here: RTD is a torturous fanfic writer. Observe.). Ten I always worried we would find hanging from the coral in his TARDIS, sad indie/emo music playing in the background; perhaps surrounded by pictures of Rose. Eleven, on the other hand, seems more likely to just completely snap one day and make jackets and hats out of his companions. I'm just sayin....

For all his angst, the Tenth was also the most "human." He was social, could mingle successfully in a crowd, was a conversationalist, charming, and seemed like he wouldn't be all that bad to hang out and have a beer with. Sure it might turn in to a weep-a-thon as the night went on, but I'm sure you'd both bond over Bright Eyes and not being popular when you were growing up. Or something. ~~He certainly wouldn't jump out of a cake and announce to a guys stag party that he had made out with said-guys fiance.~~

Oh, Eleven....I'm not sure what he is, he is equal parts scary, completely insane, funny, more emotional, and yet more distant. But he definitely is not "people." Since it is too early to really sum up the theme, or his character development. This is a combination of "ooh look at teh pretteh!" (because he is so beautiful it is distracting) and a character commentary. (But mostly looking at teh pretteh).

Spoilers for 5x1-5x8.

All pictures are free to take (with credit), in fact I encourage it!
Not dial-up friendly AT ALL. I wanted them to be big enough for people to use, in case they were doing layouts or something.

When the Doctor says "please put the guns away," what he really is saying is "Don't make me angry....you wouldn't like me when I'm angry...."
(I think Matt Smith does these particular scenes very well, he is very chilling when he is being quietly confrontational. I'm not used to being scared of the Doctor).

Time war angst: now with 40% less "waaaaAAAAAAHHHHhhhhhh"

The Doctor: Stop dying so loudly, I'm trying to think.

Worst. Idea. Ever.

I love these next two because you can SEE Octavian realize that the Doctor is completely insane. Just look at the look on his face.

The Doctor: *is crazy*
Octavian: Oh, sweet Jesus we are all going to die....

One of the saddest death scenes. ever.

The Doctor could explain what is going on....

But first he needs to gesture wildly for a little bit.

Shit just got real.

But the worst it gets, the more he loves it.

I ship it like its my job. Seriously. I demand more Eleven/River fics.

~~We should totally make-out right now.~~

Just a touch of jealousy, methinks.

Totally digging on the fact that she was in jail...

His face here is heartbreaking. He knows that in the end she is going to die to save him, and yet...

He really doesn't know if he can trust who she is now...

Relationships are never simple with the Doctor. Look at the Master, for instance....the love/hate relationship they have.

I think the Doctor likes her MORE now that he suspects she might end up killing him one day. Seriously. Look at their interactions at the end of the episode, compared to the beginning.

Alien: You will help us with our evil plan!
Doctor: Orly?

I absolutely love Eleven's interactions with children. But I think this also has more to do with the fact that I think Matt Smith is great with kids...either way it makes me melt inside.

Eleven is totally a n00b.

Completely clueless.

*Facepalm*

Too....much.....hotness....*dies* *regenerates*

I have totally kissed your fiance.

I think he does genuinely like him. Alot. I want them to have some bro time.

My new OT3. Team TARDIS FTW.

Matt had me almost in tears at this scene, his helplessness and anger as Amy is being pulled under....

The Doctor: Are you fucking kidding me?!

We might just die...

Having rewatched Amy's Choice several times, I have come to the conclusion that the Doctor realizes fairly early on who the Dream Lord is (although I don't think he understands what is happening, yet, or why he is there). I think this scene is when it hits him. Right before this he gives the dream lord an odd look, and then suddenly has to sit down...

Terrified of the darkness within...

All caps done either by myself, or from http://marishna.livejournal.com/

Mad Max R.I.P.

2010-06-22T07:16:14Z

My dog Max died this weekend, he was the most amazing, well-behaved, handsome, wonderful dog I've ever known; he brought back the ball every time, was good with children, and loved nothing more than playing in the water. He was only six years old, and I wasn't expecting it; take time out of your day to play with your dogs if you have them, in memory of Max, you never know how much time you'll get to have with them.

maxer moo

brie is upon us | MySpace Video

Star Trek drinking game? Wait, what now?

2010-06-19T11:13:46Z

You want to know the best idea I've had ~~all week~~ ever?? Star Trek (The Original Series) drinking game.

You drink every time McCoy says "Dammit Jim...," Kirk gets his shirt ripped open, someone does a flying kick, or when Kirk and Spock act inexplicably (but incredibly) gay; basically you never STOP drinking, is what I'm trying to say.

"I was not expecting this!"

2010-06-13T02:20:36Z

Tiny rambling review of Doctor Who, episode 11 "The Lodger"

Guys....the Doctor is sooooo weird.

Well that was certainly enjoyable. Why is the Doctor so weird? I must say, I love it. I love that he is this weird, crazy, intelligent, socially retarded alien; as much as I loved the tenth Doctor, and I love David Tennant, I always felt that he was too human.

"I was not expecting this!" How funny is it that I can TOTALLY imagine that that would be Elevens reaction if he brought someone home?

Also: shower scene!
The Doctor sings in the shower? I knew it! Matt Smith needs to stop being so adorable because frankly, its becoming sort of ridiculous.

Next week: kwejflkajsdlfkjasldkjflaksdjf!!!!!

This wii fit is kind of an asshole.

2010-06-03T07:44:01Z

Just purchased a wii fit for the household, and the roomies and I tried it out today.
A few things:
It is a scale as well. I put in my height, and using my weight it created an ACCURATE image of what my mii should look like. And told my BMI. How demoralizing. My fat little mii looking all puffy and sad...
It judges your balance and posture as well, and where your center of balance is.
It also told me I was up too late, and that staying up late messes with your body clock. I told it to go fuck off, so there you go...

It also, so I've heard, will get on you if you've put on weight from the last time you played. This is my first day, so I haven't yet encountered that particular type of humiliation from the wii fit just yet.

It is pretty fun though, the yoga I particularly liked, along with the rhythm boxing.

But in short, my new game I bought told me I was fat, had bad posture, and stay up too late.

Underserved adulthood, Will Smith, cookies, and quantum physics.

2010-02-28T11:43:34Z

I'm starting this post off with this, a strip from my favorite comic XKCD, because it pretty much sums up how I feel:

My roommate and I got on a serious Independence Day "kick" for a few months, back when we first moved in to our new place. You know, the 1996 movie staring Will Smith and involving hostile aliens trying to wipe out mankind from the face of the planet? But thanks to Jeff Goldblum's virus-making skills, and apparently Mac-compatable alien technology, the day is saved. Independence Day isn't exactly a bad movie, on the contrary its overwhelmingly enjoyable, but it really had nothing to do with an actual pathological need to watch it, it was just a choice we made. After a while it sort of just became this thing we did.

"I think I'm just gonna stay in tonight and watch Independence Day. You know, same-old, same-old."

Of course there were days when we didn't watch it at all; days when neither of us were home, we had guests, or were just busy doing or watching something else. But there were also days we'd watch it more than once, when we would be like children at the end of the amusement park ride, jumping up and down shouting "again! again!" (And since, as adults, we make the rules now: we would). Taking all of this into consideration, I can say with some degree of confidence that during this period we watched Independence Day anywhere from 50-80 times.

At my age my parents already had two kids, a house, and were running their own small business. I, on the other hand, had cookies for dinner last night....

My life is filled with choices right now. Yes, I'm currently in school, but I could leave it all tomorrow, couldn't I? I could go to Peru and take up weaving. I could sell everything I own, quit my job, and move to Europe. I could buy a puppy. Or I could choose to spend my entire day laying around in my pajamas, drinking wine, and reading books on quantum physics. (NOTE: my mind was so blown at one point by quantum entanglement that I got up and started pacing around frantically). Or...I could go on a several month long movie bender with my roommate, and watch a movie more times than any human being should. All because I'm an adult, and as adults we are given some sort of power over our lives. But sometimes that terrifies me.

"With Great Power Comes Great Responsibility."
And I'm trying, I really am, to become more responsible. To not make cookies and bleach my hair at 3am, but it feels like a losing battle. Is it ok if this is just what being an adult is for me?

Doctor Who: the REAL theme of Season 4

2010-02-28T06:01:13Z

NOTE: This is a repost of an entry I posted to a bunch of different communities last year, but I wanted to have it on my person journal as well. END NOTE

RTD is secretly an evil torturous fanfic writer. observe.

SPOILERS. PICSPAM. LARGE.

Oh Doctor, have I mentioned? It sucks being you.

Forget "rebirth," "stolen planets," or the medusa cascade....the real theme is: "Doctor...it sucks being you." What a terrible year its been for Ten. he gets possessed by some powerful entity, then almost murdered by a bus full of complete strangers. Gets a daughter just to have her die in his arms...and then he holds a gun to a man's head. He sees his future wife? lover? companion? die in front of him. He's shot by a Dalek. Not only loses a good friend, but was the one responsible for wiping her memory. He leaves the love of his life behind on an alternate universe to live out her life with his "other" self...

oh, and I almost forgot, he blew up Pompeii.

In the end we are left with the Doctor in the TARDIS. But because he couldn't just be sad and alone, RTD goes the extra mile and of course makes him soaking wet from the rain. The sad rain. The sad rain for sad wet Ten. Its like every "lets torture the doctor" fic I've ever read, all rolled up and condensed into one season ~~not that I'm complaining~~.

a seasons overview in pictures.

"Why so glum, Ten?"
"Oh nothing. Just had a mysterious figure from my future die right in front of me while I watched. Hand cuffed. After she punched me in the face."
"..."

"did I mention she also knew my uber secret name?"

*this is the face Ten makes when he's imploding. why does his name make him implode? dunno. but I have theories. *

tTens "scared shitless" face.

He's stared down the Devil himself, and yet he almost gets killed by a bus full of n00bs.
ANGST LEVEL: critical

commiting mass murder.
~~("Hey, its just like old times!")~~

The Doctor gets a daughter!

But she makes Ten happy, so of course she has to die.

sad hopeful face.

The doctor. awash in a sea of his own self-loathing....

...with just a dash of Oncoming Storm.

Man, why do all the good ones get mindwiped? ~~two/jamie FTW~~

this picture completely breaks my heart.

but maybe they'll end the season on a happy note??

oh...

EDIT: as always. all pictures are free to take. just credit.

and I almost forgot, in case you ever wondered what it looks like to rip your own ~~hearts~~ heart out:

crycrywolf @ 2008-07-30T12:57:00

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You Get Out What You Put In.

2008-06-16T23:35:48Z

spoilers up through 4x10.

An examination of the Doctors character. Quite long. So pull up a chair, stay for a while.

(Put into sections because I'm a long-winded person. Also, apologies for the bad grammar. When I get off on these tangents I have a great deal of trouble making any sort of cohesive argument).

The Creature
first off, regarding Midnight: that creature brought out the worst in everyone, including the doctor. it fed everyones paranoia, creating hysteria. Like with the words, it didn't put in any NEW information. it just took what it was given and repeated it back: thus amplifying it. I think the creature was The Beast, or some form of it. The planet midnight definitely seems like the perfect place to trap something no living creature should come into contact with. And if the devil is merely a concept, a reflection of us, thats exactly was the creature did: just reflected back what it was given.

Arrogant bastard
And it brought out the ugliness in ten's character. I don't think I have ever seen him be quite so condescending or insulting. I rewatched the episode again with the express purpose of finding out where it all went "wrong," and each time there is an intense "shift" in the tone (new levels of panic) you can see how his arrogance and personality made it worse. He insults them as humans. his foremost concern ISN'T with calming the fears of the passengers or making them feel as if they would be safe, he's off being curious and having fun studying the creature. He asserts authority with NO explanation- yes he showed the psychic paper to get in to the cockpit, but why not later? Why no "well actually I'm part of a study conducted and I'm an expert in alternate lifeforms." He doesn't even give them a slightly believable lie as to why they should trust him. Which seems odd because he seems to love throwing out the ole "health and safety" lines.

it also, interestingly enough, made him LESS clever. he says he was a traveller when they asked who he was, but then was at a loss for words when they demanded to know more. I was shouting at my screen: stop talking down to them! just give them a lie, they won't know any better. they were all still listening to him when he was encouraging them to the back (albeit still with protest) but then he had to go off on his whole "blah blah I need to stay away more because I'm better and special" line. Which, to be honest, really wasn't necessary because I don't think he had any intention of staying away from the thing. That, combined with his "you NEED me" line made me feel as if his self-importance was clouding his judgement.

He has stared down daleks, cybermen, and entire armies (even ones who had no idea who he was) with less mania and more authority than he did here. Look at his face after his "because I'm clever" line, eyes wide and crazed. I honestly would have a hard time believing him there either.

The Doctor completely powerless, and why he didn't do anything
I think this helps explain the doctors impotence in this episode compared to what we know he is capable of (and what RTD has tried to shove down our throats). I'm of the belief that the Doctor is powerful not just because of his intelligence, but that for whatever reason he holds it back or never uses it. although how much I don't know. Maybe he isn't. but I'm trying to make this episode work in regards to things that have been revealed and shown about the doctor in the past. But so why didn't he do more? Up until the point when people started panicking there was no opportunity or reason to do anything; then he began to be twisted and weakened by the psychological effects, and how can you save people who won't let you? And when the creature is fighting you through the people you are trying to save?

He has stared down the devil himself without flinching, but here was something that wouldn't even look at him. AND he wouldn't dare "mind meld" with a creature who is clearly possessing the mind of another. By the time things went to hell he was rendered immobile and speechless. and speech is his number 1 power. how does he fight something he can't see or speak to? or even understand? his power is his words. and if you take that away.....

fighting back, and the devil may care.
The fact that he was unable to break free mentally is another piece of evidence that the creature was at least some form of ancient evil that was trapped there waiting for "so long" in the dark, because we've never seen the doctor be mentally breached before: even by the carrionites who survive by pulling the names out of people's minds. Even by the sun who was alive, he was able to fight it off for quite a while. But here he was, more terrified than he's probably ever been and he was completely taken over. Even though he was obviously fighting back tooth and nail. Eventually he was able to fight back a little bit, but it almost wasn't enough.

afterwards He wasn't even able to fake being ok and move on with a quip as we've always seen him do. I'm not sure if its just because he knows he doesn't have to pretend with Donna or if he really was more scarred from this experience than he's ever been (excluding the time war).

The Doctor Not Being "Done Yet"
which brings me to a few things River said when discussing Ten. She implied that he wasn't "done yet," and that she keeps wishing for HER doctor because he could stare down armies. When Ten insists that he IS the doctor, river replies "yeah. someday." I read somewhere that RTD said regarding River: "pay attention to everything she says."

So is this a clue to something? The doctor still hasn't figured out or become who he is. he is the doctor, but he isn't yet THE Doctor.

...
The end. hopefully a few of you are still reading this.
Discuss.
...

friends only.

2008-02-27T09:01:31Z

mostly just friends only now.

wholly mammoths...wtf?

2004-09-02T00:41:59Z

why arent we cloning wholly mammoths? we have the DNA (from frozen mammoth bodies in the arctic), and we have an animal that could carry it and give birth to it (the african elephant).....so why the FUCK arent we cloning them? instead of doing creepy shit like cloning peoples pets and sheep (and potentially humans). Lets clone an extinct fucking animal....

I'm so annoyed right now that it hasnt happened.

The Beauty and The Beast.

2004-08-05T14:48:40Z

when I watch beauty and the beast, I catch myself hating the ending.

how he becomes a beautiful prince.
after she falls in love with him.

and I think,

but she loved the beast.
for all his ugliness, and gruffness that had originally terrified her.

what is the message here?

that when we fall in love,
the monster we've grown to love
will transform into the prince we wished for when we were young?

and I wonder,
if sometimes at night....
lying next to her prince
she cries for the beast that she fell in love with.

in which I'm much more ghetto than you

2004-07-07T09:50:55Z

I just fixed my bra with masking tape, packaging tape and staples.

both the plastic little things that you adjust to make the straps shorter broke. so I had to unleash my mad skills on it so my boobs wouldnt be all droopy-like.

I dont take shit from nothin'.

in which things like train whistles are most confusing

2004-06-25T21:51:15Z

I woke up this morning to the sound of a train whistle, which sounded several times into the muggy california morning. I guess this normally wouldnt have caused any uproar except that we dont have trains in Concord.

we dont have trains in concord.

We are a no-train city, I'm sure. I'm nearly sure. If we do actually (actually) have a train, then it has for some reason eluded me for the past 18+ years that I have lived in this town.

I feel as if I should investigate further, but I probably wont.

.friends only.

2004-06-25T01:14:30Z

Make new friends, but keep the old;
Those are silver, these are gold.
New-made friendships, like new wine,
Age will mellow and refine.
Friendships that have stood the test
Time and change--are surely best;
But old friends, alas! may die;
New friends must their place supply
Cherish friendships in your breast
New is good, but old is best;
Make new friends, but keep the old;
Those are silver, these are gold.