&━━━━━a song on constant playback☆

★209 → 이동해

conflate — Mon, 12 Apr 2010 02:40:46 GMT

Even though they, he was right there, right in front of me, I still refused to believe it. Everything seemed so unreal, like a dream. I don't even know what I felt that time. The moment he appeared, I just stared. I didn't know what to do. I was trembling. Was I scared? Was I too euphoric? I don't even know.

But... Donghae, you're all kinds of beautiful. You're perfect. You're an angel. Your smile outshines the millions of stars in the sky. I would always look after you, even if it means just watching your world from afar. I love you so much.

2 days of no rest, swollen ankles, stiff neck, and three shades darker, but I regret nothing. Everything that happened - it's all worth it.

Boys, don't ever stop bringing happiness. I love you.

2010 Scrapbook!

conflate — Sun, 03 Jan 2010 16:14:14 GMT

Think about the year that has passed. All the memories, the entries and posts that made the year special. Think about all your past layouts, default icons, mood themes. How about all those conversations you had via comments, or the huge post in ONTD that you spent all night commenting on. The 2010 Scrapbook Post is a way to help you remember all of that, in a single post. (2010_scrapbook)

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*my hair > your hair* lee donghae kigae (100102-??????)	.	icon details	.	icon details
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you give me one reason to fight
and never walk away
kim kibum and lee donghae
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conflate

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when you say "i love you"
you make me believe;
kim kibum & lee donghae
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we'd always be one
super junior
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wanted (100102)	.	journey to the center of the earth (100102)	.	1408 (100103)
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DRAMAS CONTENT HERE

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MUSIC CONTENT HERE

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dear john
nicholas sparks
(100102-??????)

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Definitions of Success; meiface
Kibum has yet to master the game but Kyuhyun doesn't even know he's playing. Their lives get tangled in an underground corporate society, where even love is subject to a cost-benefit analysis. (Kibum/Donghae, Kyuhyun/Sungmin)

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kaikaikaikaikai: ..OH
kaikaikaikaikai: how did she burn her?
hyukwings: LOL
hyukwings: she took iya, lit it on fire and threw it at her :( -100103

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DATES CONTENT HERE

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★204 → INNY INNY INNY

conflate — Fri, 06 Nov 2009 10:16:11 GMT

DOES ANYONE KNOW WHERE IN GOD"S NAME inny_cent IS?

GIRLLLL where the fuck are you

★202 → ♥

conflate — Thu, 15 Oct 2009 03:32:38 GMT

You are the best part of all the songs I love.

생일 축하해 ♥

★200 → Yay

conflate — Mon, 21 Sep 2009 16:49:01 GMT

I'm officially a year older. ;_;

★198 → My Kibum ♥

conflate — Mon, 14 Sep 2009 16:25:53 GMT

euods! ILU BB ♥

(proper post soon! ^^)

387

conflate — Sun, 09 Aug 2009 16:45:21 GMT

edit; LMAO FAIL :| THIS WAS SUPPOSED TO BE FOR kibumaday. MEH. WHATEVER.

★187 → Kibum.

conflate — Wed, 24 Jun 2009 15:49:38 GMT

김기범.
END가 아닌 AND로
사랑해.

★181 → My Beautiful Rescue ♡

conflate — Thu, 21 May 2009 15:00:08 GMT

I really enjoy making famixes, rofl ♥ So here you go bbs, another KiHae fanmix (aka fic rec post :D?) :DDD I miss them.

Enjoy ♥

❝I'm Yours❞ Well you done done me and you bet I felt it I tried to be chill but you're so hot that I melted I fell right through the cracks Now I'm trying to get back ~Jason Mraz	theirstory. “You shouldn’t wear shirts like that,” he thought, and didn’t realise he’d said it out loud until Kibum turned to look at him with a raised eyebrow. “That was supposed to be a thought,” he said with a grin, “but I mean it. You should stop wearing shirts like that.” “Why?” asked Kibum, frowning at him. “Because they aren’t good for my health,” was what Donghae wanted to say, but even he knew that he probably shouldn’t, and so instead he just said, in a joking tone, “because I’m going to have to fight off the girls with a stick, that’s why.” Kibum’s frown grew deeper; for a moment or two it was as though he didn’t quite understand what Donghae was trying to say, and then he smiled, slowly, more of a smirk than anything else, and asked, casually; “Does it look good, then?”
	(Arms of Sex; black_goose)

❝Lovestoned❞ Those flashing lights come from everywhere The way they hit her I just stop and stare She's got me love stoned Man I swear she's bad and she knows I think that she knows ~Justin Timberlake	theirstory. Donghae sighed. "Dong. Bum." Maybe shortened sentences would work better than talking slowly. Kibum put down his pen again. "No, Kihae. I top, Donghae." He said it as gently as possible, trying to adopt the voice Eeteuk-hyung always used when Kangin was petulant. Donghae was scowling before Kibum even finished. "That's what the Internet said, but why? I don't see your cock in my - " "It's pretty obvious, 'Hae," Kibum interrupted before that train of thought went any further. "Excuse me?" Donghae says. Kibum shook his head pityingly. "It's your concept," and his hands fluttered abstractly in explanation. "You're the Spacey, Submissive One with the Vacuous Smile, plus, you're really good at Pelvic Thrusts." Acknowledging Donghae's blank expression, Kibum stood up to demonstrate, lifting his arms in the air and swivelling his hips. He attempted Donghae's signature grin; opening his eyes very wide, his mouth gaping in a deranged-serial-killer, Heechul-practicing-anger-management, kind of way.
	(The Coupling of Names and Other Things; dear_whimsy)

❝SexyBoy❞ No matter who sees your charm flows over I want to keep you to myself so only I can see Everyone’s heart throbs when they see you You’re never ending sexy ~Lee Hyori	theirstory. They performed Marry U and Kibum thought as hard as he could of ugly, disgusting, erection-shriveling things while still mouthing the words to the song. He managed to get through Donghae's rap without major mishap, hearing Siwon's prerecorded voice with relief as he moved across stage into formation. Then Donghae grinned at him and playfully groped his chest as they danced, eliciting a surprised laugh and not the expected heat of lust but a warm flush of affection. And that was when Kim Kibum realized he had more than just a kink.
	(Defining Desire; meiface)

❝마지막 승부❞ I told you before Take back your futile dream and give up on her Are you still lost in love? ~Super Junior	theirstory. Kibum glared at Donghae. "I don't share what's mine." "What are you talking about?" Donghae stared at Kibum, confusion written across his face. "I can't just sit there and watch Eunhyuk flirt with you, Donghae," He said, slowly backing Donghae into the wall. "Kibum, you-" Donghae took a step backwards, "I'm not yours!!" Kibum put a hand on Donghae's shoulder, pushing him against the wall, and leaned in, close, his breath ghosting across Donghae's skin, sending a shiver down his neck. "Then I'll make you mine."
	(Mine; bitofajungle)

❝Guilty Pleasure❞ I came here to make you dance tonight I don't care about my guilty pleasure for you Shut up cause we won't stop And we're getting down till the sun's coming up I'm so bored, oh please don't talk anymore Shut your mouth and get down on the floor ~Cobra Starship	theirstory. "I'm Donghae," the man says, sitting down and reaching out his hand with an easy smile. "Kibum," Kibum says. Donghae's grip is firm and lasts just an instant too long. Kibum takes another drag on his cigarette as he looks the man over. His frame is lean and well-muscled—the body of a man who loves sports, Kibum thinks—but it's the expression on his face that catches Kibum's attention. There's artistry without artifice, confidence without cockiness, openness without naivete. It's the face of a man who knows his game and is thoroughly comfortable with his role in it. Kibum decides to fuck him—he wants to see this face cry.
	(Entrapment; halcyon_morn)

❝A Moment Like This❞ What if I told you it was all meant to be would you believe me, would you agree It's almost that feeling that we've met before So tell me that you don't think I'm crazy When I tell you love has come here and now ~David Archuleta	theirstory. “Donghae.” Kibum moaned the name around Donghae’s nipple. “Fuck me Kibum, Fuck me now before I die of want.” Kibum pulled his teeth back, stretching the nipple a bit before releasing it with a flick of his tongue. He lifted Donghae’s hips then, and pushed himself almost roughly into Donghae, pushing through all the tight muscles in one desperate thrust. Donghae grunted and cried out at the sudden intrusion, but his body was already pushing back, seeking its own gratification through the pain. Kibum pulled out and then moved in again, the sounds from his own pleasure mixing on the air with those already issuing forth from Donghae. Nature took back over then and bodies began to move, each pushing and thrusting, a shift here, an adjusted angle there, until they moved in almost perfect harmony, each striving for that ultimate level of pleasure. All of a sudden this was once again sex in its most primal form, two bodies coming together, no longer any choice between them.
	(Better Than Sin; mistrals_kiss)

❝Every Little Thing❞ Though I've tried before to tell him All the feelings I have for him in my heart Everytime that I come near him I just lose my nerve as I've done from the start ~MYMP	theirstory. “Hyung!” yelled Kibum, and grabbed Donghae by the collar and pulled him close to make his point quite clear. “I’m not hopelessly in love with someone who I can’t get – you made that up yourself, and I don’t know where the hell you got it from! The only reason I can’t be with the one I love is because he’s an idiot!” “Sorry, Kibum,” said Donghae, a little cowed, and Kibum’s gaze flickered down to his lips and he pushed Donghae away, because holding him like that meant that he was far too close for safety. Donghae’s voice was soft and sincere. “I was just – I just wanted you to be happy, you know? And I was trying to help you.” Kibum laughed softly. “It’s okay,” he said. “Do you really want to know who I like?” “Yeah,” said Donghae quietly and seriously, and he looked a little nervous. “Yeah, I do.” “The one I like,” said Kibum with a grin, “is a complete idiot, is the only person in the entire world, apparently, who doesn’t know that I like him, and also, he is standing in this room.” Donghae looked behind him.
	(How to Fail at Matchmaking; black_goose)

❝My Beautiful Rescue❞ I've been jumping from the tops of buildings. For the thrill of the fall. Ignoring sound advice. And any thought of consequence. My bones are shattered. My pride is shattered. And in the midst of this self-inflicted pain. I can see my beautiful rescue ~This Providence	theirstory. "Donghae!" His mother called. "There's someone asking for you at the door!" Donghae pulled on his jacket and dashed out of his room, down the stairs, past the living room and to the front door. "I'm so sorry I'm late, Kibummie – I couldn't find my – oh my god." "Donghae?" Kibum looked slightly puzzled and waved a hand in front of his face. "What's wrong?" Asldjsakfj, said Donghae's brain, because Kibum looked fucking fantastic.
	(Wishing I was a Derivative so I Could Lie Tangent to Your Curves; papered)

❝Realize❞ Take time to realize That your warmth is Crashing down on me Take time to realize That I am on your side Didn't I, didn't I tell you? But i can't spell it out for you No it's never gonna be that simple ~Colbie Caillat	theirstory. It was endearing, thought Kibum fondly, once you got past the fact that it was also really annoying. But considering Donghae was rarely the bearer of Important Information — Leeteuk knew better than to ask him to pass on a message — and tended to talk about pretty useless things to begin with, it was never a huge problem. At least, until now. Donghae had spent the past week trying to tell Kibum something he thought was of the Utmost Importance, but he kept getting distracted. "Kibummie," he would start seriously — an indicator of just how significant his coming words would be, since Donghae rarely ever looked serious — "I have something to tell you." Then he would pause, and take a deep breath, as if he were nervous. "I'm—" "Hey, what are we doing for lunch?" asked Sungmin on one occasion as he was passing by. "— Lunch! Oooh, I'm hungry!" Kibum could only watch, dumbfounded, as Donghae bounced happily after Sungmin.
	(Getting Into the Closet, and Coming Out; sellmyseoul)

❝Guardian Angel❞ Seaons are changing And waves are crashing And stars are falling all for us Days grow longer And nights grow shorter I can show you I'll be the one ~The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus	theirstory. "Donghae," Kibum says, and suddenly everything is clear. Even though the power emanating from Donghae is causing street signs to bend and newspapers and pieces of trash are whipping around them, Kibum doesn't budge. "Donghae," he repeats. "What do you want? Don't think about what God wants-- Hell, don't think about what I want. It's your choice." It's like something in Donghae breaks at the sound of that last phrase, and his eyes return to brown, even as he continues flying higher. All the power that has been surrounding them suddenly feels like a vacuum, like the only place to go is up, despite Kibum being firmly rooted to the ground. "Catch me," Donghae says, a smile playing at his lips.
	(Angel-D; panpipe)

❝Like a Star❞ Just like a star across my sky Just like an angel off the page You came along into my life Feels like I've never been the same ~Corinne Bailey Rae	theirstory. “Kibummie,” Donghae says, tugging on Kibum’s shirt sleeve and apparently quite unaware that he already has Kibum’s full attention. “What are we doing?” “Eeteuk Hyung called a meeting,” Kibum explains, settling his head into the dip of Donghae’s shoulder and his neck. “But Kibum,” Donghae whines. “I’m still sleepy!” “I know Hae,” Kibum sighs, tightening his grip a little. “But Hyung said it was important…” “Umpf,” Donghae whines, squirming a little on Kibum’s lap. “Kibum, you’re squishing me!” “Sorry,” Kibum says, loosening his hold on the boy (but just a little) but still not letting go entirely because Donghae is still looking criminally adorable with his big blinking brown eyes and his mouth turned down in a upset looking pout that Kibum really needs to stop staring at because—damn, and they thought Sungmin was cute when he pouted—
	(Cold Mornings; fading_sun_sock)

❝Stolen❞ We watch the season pull up its own stakes And catch the last weekend Of the last week Before the gold and the glimmer have been replaced Another sun soaked season fades away ~Dashboard Confessional	theirstory. It is a well-known, widely-accepted, and oh-so-obvious fact that both of you are so different. You are the sky, he is the earth. You are calm, quiet, sometimes predictable, and a series of events that happened in constant cycles. You are rays of sunshine in the day and millions of sparkling stars in the night. People look up at you, adoring you, wondering how far up you go, but can never hope to touch you. Sometimes you let out flashes of lightning and roars of thunder, and that is when people learn to keep out of your way. He, on the other hand, is solid, but unstable. He is thousands and thousands of different colors, textures, and wonders. He is crash of waves, warm sand, blooming flowers, and chirping birds. He is the random bursts of violent energy that shaped his surface, like sprays of geyser, explosions of volcano, or rumbles of earthquake. He is beautiful, rare, and unique, but sometimes ignored, taken for granted, or unintentionally harmed by other’s selfishness. If you are to describe your love for him, out of all things that connected the sky and the earth, you choose rain. Your love for him is like the rain.
	(You are the Sky, He is the Earth; skadihelias)

❝Strange&Beautiful❞ I've been watching your world from afar I've been trying to be where you are And I've been secretly falling apart ~Aqualung	theirstory. But instead Kibum finds that he can close his eyes, close off all unwanted emotions from his face, close off against the bright blue sky and endless white clouds, but he can never—no matter how hard he tries—close off the pain. It’s always there, following him. Haunting him in the permanent memories of Donghae’s smiles and feather light touches on his skin. And no matter how much he tries to push it all away and ignore how good the feel of Donghae’s warm soft body is as he lays himself down on the grass and laughs up at the sky, Kibum can never truly make himself let go. Letting go, in all honesty, is one thing that Kibum is not good at. And sometimes Kibum hates himself more then he hates Hyukjae for that. Because it would be so easy, so easy to just laugh everything off and smile at Donghae and grin at Hyukjae and make himself believe that everything is okay if only the thoughts of Donghae’s glowing smile would just leave him alone. But sometimes Kibum doesn’t care. He can ignore the pain, and brush away the misery, and let the warmth of Donghae’s body against his soak through him, and wash away the sadness and replace it with light light light sunshine and—really, as long as he can see Donghae’s smile, Kibum doesn’t care about the ache at all.
	(Glow; fading_sun_sock)

❝Tonight❞ Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up I need your loving hands to come and pick me up And every night I miss you I can just look up And know the stars are holding you tonight ~FM Static	theirstory. He doesn’t tell you about what’s happening these days but he talks about everything yet nothing at all. “You’ll be back right?” he asks at the end of the call (you look at the clock. It’s been an hour and you wonder how he has so much time in his schedule but you figure that maybe he’s on the way to somewhere). “Yeah.” “Okay.” (and he means, I’ll be missing you until you come back, I love you. He means, don’t forget about me, and call me to tell me what’s happening, when you’re coming back.) The line cuts off and you stare at your phone. “I love you too,” you whisper to the device in your hands.
	(Separations and Breaking Up; tablospoon)

❝Before It's Too Late❞ Hold on before it's too late We'll run til we leave this behind Don't fall, just be who you are It's all that we need in our lives So stand on the edge with me Hold back your fear and see Nothing is real 'til its gone ~The Goo Goo Dolls	theirstory. "Aish, it's so blinding outside!" Donghae flinched, throwing a thin forearm over his eyes. You wonder when he'd lost so much weight. "Sorry, Hae, you can't turn off the sun," you said, almost laughing. Almost. "Oh? Why is that?" He eyed you with curiosity from behind parted fingers. "He's been like this ever since you left," his roommate, Hyukjae, voice accusatory, had informed you over the phone. After what you'd done to his best friend, you couldn't blame him for despising you. "Hey, what are those?" Donghae tugged at your sleeve, his previous question— and your name— apparently forgotten. "Those?" you saw him pointing at a cluster of bright yellow dandelions. "They're just—" "Small suns!" he beamed. —just dandelions, Hae.
	(Small Suns; joongie33)

❝우산❞ You were the umbrella above my head The nights when the cold rain fell on my shoulders Having you by my side was a habit I can’t be without you ~Epik High	theirstory. "It hasn't been that long since we met, now that I think about it," he mused, fondly toying with the silver band on his finger. "But I don't think I've met anyone like her before. Quiet, shy, smart... with this smile that just lights up the whole room." As the bus pulled to a stop in front of you, he finally stood up and added as an afterthought, "And I don't think I've ever loved anyone quite so much."
	(Strangers; joongie33)

❝Broken Strings❞ But we're running through the fire When there's nothing left to say It's like chasing the very last train When we both know it's too late, too late Let me hold you for the last time It's the last chance to feel again ~James Morrison	theirstory. “Did he know?” “I don’t think so. I mean…we were good friends. Back since before debut, since he was new at first and sort of shy, you know? But we got to be really good friends, and I could always make him smile by running around playing jokes and being silly. I don’t know if you ever saw Snow Dream—” Zhou Mi nods and Donghae sighs. “Yeah. We were really good friends.” “But you drifted apart?” It was after the movie. It began even before Marry U. But, somehow, it hadn’t seemed so threatening that Kibum was often busy with filming and didn’t hang out with the other members anymore. It was okay that he’d moved out to his own apartment and that Donghae didn’t see him as much as he used to. After all, Kibum still made every Marry U performance. He still laughed at Donghae’s jokes and teased him. They still played around backstage, and sometimes onstage, regardless of cameras. It was okay, because Kibum was busy and Donghae understood that; he’d been busy, too, recording and preparing for Super Junior M. It was natural and Donghae knew an idol’s life was always more stressful and hard on time than most people’s. It was gradual, how it all happened, but it seemed like a blink of the eye when Donghae turned around and suddenly just Kibum wasn’t there. Not anymore.
	((You) Might Have Been (Mine); meiface)

Download individual songs → [x]

★176 → I Succumbed.

conflate — Sat, 02 May 2009 03:15:29 GMT

remapping @ dw

What's yours? :)

...I clearly have nothing to do. I MISS SJ-WORLD :<<<<<<<<<<<

★175 → The Lyrics Meme ♬

conflate — Mon, 27 Apr 2009 23:50:30 GMT

♬
❝thelyricsmeme❞
☇If you think that this certain song reminds you of a friend, then go ahead and comment with a particular line/verse from that song.

(｡･ω･)ﾉﾞ

➀Post your username. So your friends can find you and post a comment.
➁Comment on comments. Make sure to reply to your friends' comments as well! Or maybe even reply to people not from your flist (eg. you've seen them around, etc.).
➂Copy the shiny code. And pimp it :DD

SPACER.

★170 → FUCK

conflate — Wed, 04 Mar 2009 02:37:26 GMT

Kibum. Kibum. Kibum

(Donghae, you did an awesome job, okay.)

★163 → Parting is Such Sweet Sorrow

conflate — Sat, 31 Jan 2009 07:34:12 GMT

I just did the friends cut I was talking about a couple of posts back. If you can see this post, it means you have been kept. :3

For the others, if you think I made a mistake of cutting you, comment here and we'll sort it out.

Otherwise, it was fun. Thank you very much! :)

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★136 → OTP Friending Meme

conflate — Tue, 25 Nov 2008 03:48:52 GMT

TheOTPFriendingMeme

Thank you miximel and ishougen for helping me with the questions! :333

Name: answer :D
Location: answer :D
Age: answer :D
Fandoms: answer :D
Your favorite OTP
0000Super Junior: answer :D
0000SHINee: answer :D
0000DBSK: answer :D
0000SNSD: answer :D
0000Others: answer :D
Least favorite OTP
0000Super Junior: answer :D
0000SHINee: answer :D
0000DBSK: answer :D
0000SNSD: answer :D
0000Others: answer :D
Anything else: answer :D

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121 → Tomorrow Would Be the Same, Kibum/Donghae, R

conflate — Fri, 10 Oct 2008 14:57:58 GMT

O-OMG. I wrote. :||||| After like, 5 months. IDEK why I wrote this, uhm, spur of the moment type of thing? D:

tomorrow would be the same.
Kibum/Donghae, R, 1355 words

what a psycho, you think as hyukjae one day confronts you to say that what kibum is doing is too much.

kibum really loves me very much, you think as he places both of his hands on either side of your face and rubs it a little after another good performance. you look up at him, smiling widely because you think it’s really (really really) sweet that he openly shows his affection towards you. you mentally slap yourself in the head for being too shy because after looking at the ground for about two seconds and lifting your head up (to say a thank you kibum, feeling your hands on my cheeks is a reminder that i’m the only one) you notice he’s gone. you look back to see him with the rest of the thirteen and you notice that he does the same with other members.

must be a newly-adopted sister, you think as you catch a glimpse of kibum in a fancy restaurant (he never took you to one before... not yet.) with a pretty (and sexy and hot and gorgeous) woman and you think they’re really attached at the hip. you blink a few times when the woman puckers up her lips and kibum doesn’t hesitate to capture those lips with his own. you smile and you plant in your mind to praise kibum on how he’s really awesome (and amazing and sweet) at being an older brother when he gets home.

he’s just tired, you think as he comes home cursing loudly at eleven in the evening (filming a drama, he said last morning) and ignores you (and the food on the table you prepared yourself) and just goes straight inside the bedroom. you hesitate a bit but you follow him inside anyway, hoping that seeing your happy disposition would at least cheer him up a little. you find him sprawled on the bed with his eyes closed and his brows squashed up together with the buttons of his polo shirt completely undone. you proceed to tiptoe towards him as to not wake him up (he’s tired from filming, after all, you think) but suddenly you hear a small creak on the floor and his eyes snap open and he’s glaring at you and you think you’re a bit scared and want to run away but instead you grin. he yanks you to the bed and he rolls so he’s on top of you and starts to kiss you, lick you, bite you. you ignore the taste of blood coming from your mouth and the stench of alcohol and cigarettes coming from his.

he must be exhausted, you think as you listen to the slight snoring sounds he makes after he fucks you without some sort of preparation. you quietly place his arms around you and you snuggle closer to him and you feel content, giving you the sort of cuddling he forgot to give you after every fuck. you pat his cheeks lightly and you thumb over his peaceful, closed eyes and sigh. you stand up wincing then facing the mirror to examine the grayish mark (of love) on your hips. you bend to pick up your torn clothes and you feel something drip from your ass and you look down to see only a pink-tinged liquid on the floor (it’s kibum’s) and you realize that you didn’t come.

this is the price of staying up late, you think as you grimace a little while rubbing ointment on the small bruise (it covered your whole right cheek) kibum left on your face. he came home drunk the other night (day?) (you still don’t know the reason why) and when he found you still awake at three in the morning (you were waiting for him) he got mad and immediately slammed you on the nearest concrete furniture (a sharp-edged dinner table). you accidentally smashed your face on the edge and you cursed yourself for being too clumsy.

he just wants me to learn my lesson, you think as you shudder and hug own body to shield yourself from the cold. it’s two in the morning and you you’ve been outside for around three hours (two? four? you lost track). kibum got furious because you wanted to cook dinner for him (because you know how much he hates both cooking and ordering out) but you ended up burning (wasting) the food and almost setting the kitchen on fire. you think that maybe kibum really wants you to learn your lesson as you hear the flick of a switch and suddenly all the lights inside the house turn off.

what a psycho, you think as hyukjae one day confronts you to say that what kibum is doing is too much. what do you mean?, you ask. i noticed all the bruises, hae. don’t play dumb, he says. kibum just wants me to be a better person, what are you saying, hyukkie?, you retort. please, just… we want to protect you, hae!, you hear him cry out and you think his eyes are brimming with tears but you just laugh and playfully smack your best friend at the back. you change the topic because you have no idea what he’s talking about.

these people are fucking with me, you think as you see a sleeping kibum (with a bit of too-white bubbly saliva dripping from the corners of his mouth) being taken away by strange people in white. you’re tired, you struggled long enough to escape hyukjae’s and eeteuk’s and heechul’s grasp and you’re guessing kibum really needs a lot of sleep because hyukjae is holding you tighter and even keeps repeating a lie that kibum is dead, donghae, drug overdose. i’m so sorry. (i’m sorry, i’m sorry). you don’t believe him (never will), but you cry anyway.

it’s been months, you think (but actually it only has been three weeks) as you huddle in the corner with red, puffy, and swollen eyes and you wonder why kibum is still not awake. you ask yourself if you have been a bad person because you think that maybe he doesn’t love you anymore (doesn’t want you anymore) that’s why he’s not waking up. you feel your heart breaking a little more but you assure yourself that kibum would never want to see you hurting. never.

i miss you, kibum, you think as you see him on top of the building across yours (rooftop). you think that maybe he’s a little too transparent for a normal person, and maybe it’s a bit weird for his foot to come in contact with solid ground yet the other is stepping on thin air, but then again kibum is never normal because he’s always extraordinary (in your eyes). you walk towards him and you have no idea how you got past that six foot steel railing and how you’re also walking in thin air but you don’t care anymore because you’re hugging (kissing, touching, holding) kibum again and for the first time in years you feel complete.

but i’m here, you think as you look down to see one, four, eight, eleven tear-stricken boys huddled together, clutching each other while watching yourself being taken to a white van (ambulance, you read) by people in white shirts and pants (again). you wrinkle your nose as you see a pool of red on the place where your body used to be and you think it’s weird because you can’t remember falling from that twenty-six storey building.

donghae, you think you hear kibum say but it’s not your imagination because he’s beside you and you see him holding out his hand for you to reach. you think that maybe you have a choice of either going back down because there are eleven people (and more, more, more) waiting for you or taking his hand and you’re together forever (and just be). it doesn’t take too long for you to decide.

this feels good, you think as kibum holds your hand a bit too much that it almost turned white. you smile, no, beam at him and you think that maybe he almost smiles but you’re wrong. you think his grip on your hand hurts a lot, but you’re not complaining.

not at all.

★095 → Pajama Party; 080803

conflate — Sun, 03 Aug 2008 11:05:49 GMT

An appetizer for tomorrow's MV.
Performance today at Inkigayo~

I definitely want their outifts, especially Kangin's.

DOWNLOAD → [MF][SS]

mp4 file: [MF]

And for those who want a HQ file, no1_jo uploaded them~ ♥
MU: [001][002]
MF: [001][002]

I can't seem to download the HQ file at clubbox. DDX

★079 → 58 K-pop icons

conflate — Tue, 24 Jun 2008 05:12:36 GMT

Second multi-fandom batch~ :D Smaller one this time, though~

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★072 → 69 K-pop icons

conflate — Mon, 09 Jun 2008 14:16:28 GMT

First multi-fandom batch~~~

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★070 → 52 Super Junior icons

conflate — Thu, 05 Jun 2008 16:00:58 GMT

8efijd;lfksd;klfsdjf89we SJH's MINI ALBUM IS OUT. I WANT TO BUY IT BUT I NEED MONEY FIRST, ROFL ;~;

AND HELLO TO MY NEW FRIENDS. :3 There are a few things about me here, if you want to know more. XD;

Join shinee_replay! 8DDD

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★060 → 54 Super Junior icons

conflate — Mon, 19 May 2008 20:54:00 GMT

Yay for new layout~~~ I was getting tired of the pink one. ;O; And now I shall get tired of a blue one! 8DDDD

There's this new SM band, Shinee~~~ I think I might like them. :DDD AND THEY'RE YOUNG! They're just 14-18 year olds. D:! They're gonna debut on Sunday. ♥

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053 -> for sugarcocoa ♥
054 -> for sugarwarrior ♥

★057 → Super Junior MVs in mp4

conflate — Fri, 16 May 2008 19:39:54 GMT

join shi_hae prz? :'D

YAY FOR SUPER JUNIOR VIDEOS IN MP4. :D

The Red Sun and Snow Dream ones are SUBBED. I have no idea who subbed them. Is it you? Comment here so I could credit properly. :D!

Though SJM is okay, I miss Suju being 13. :(

Comments would be appreciated, and enjoy~~~♥

Dancing Out

Don't Don

Happiness

Marry U

Miracle

Miracle (Super Show)

Only Love
I absolutely love this video.

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U

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P.S. Sorry for the crappy screenshots. ;O;

★056 → 32 Super Junior icons

conflate — Thu, 15 May 2008 11:23:42 GMT

I'm in love with the kid Hyukjae was holding (the one crying the whole time, LOL). I want him. ;O;

I'm not sure if anyone wants to use the text icons LOL, so if you want your OTP, just request it. :D

Credit conflate if using. <33

Join shi_hae? ♥

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★054 → I BE PIMPIN

conflate — Tue, 13 May 2008 18:03:56 GMT

shi_haeshi_haeshi_haeshi_hae
shi_haeshi_haeshi_haeshi_hae

AS I REPEAT MYSELF FOR THE NTH TIME, THIS FANDOM NEEDS MORE OF SHIHAE LOVE, SO JOIN PRZ? ♥

***PUBLIC JUST BECAUSE. LOL

★042 → 30 Super Junior Icons

conflate — Sat, 03 May 2008 18:37:59 GMT

My head really hurts. ;O; AND I MISS KIHAE and HYUKHAE and KIHYUKHAE. DX

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★039 → 46 Super Junior Icons

conflate — Mon, 28 Apr 2008 16:55:16 GMT

Geez, I hate my YM. ;~; It's still... dead.

Yay~ Suju-M is back in Korea. 8DD The OTPs (unlike my YM~) are not dead!! :D KIHAE KYUMIN SHIHANCHUL~~~~

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