ig + new song

 yall heres my new ig: Instagram 

and this is my new ambient song on bandcamp <3 you'll see | o_o

my fav movie ever: kontroll 2003 hd with english subtitles + soundtrack

kontroll is a movie about ticket inspectors in this sortof depressing hungarian subway but its still comedy btw. there are killings, people being pushed under the train and we are following bulcsú one of the ticket inspectors. basically everyone hates them and its like sortof dark comedy, and also bulcsú will find love underground. this movie has a great atmosphere and a soundtrack too which is also included.

its my fav movie of all time u can watch it below with english subtitles

also no full screen here but u can open the google drive link with that button in the upper right corner or just set it to hd and just zoom in in your browser (for me its 250%)

also if anyone watched it comment what u think

kontroll 2003 hd with english subtitles

kontroll soundtrack by neo

2 minutes

 2 minutes | o_o

about 2 minutes: an ambient 3 track ep inspired by emotions i felt during me walking around in a part of town late afternoon where i usually never go to, i found starving dying cats, walked next to the rail full of old rail eqipment, and saw houses that are empty. then these places where barely anyone comes and go is yet full of signs of life and presences. also its named 2 minutes cuz all three songs r 2 minutes. this ep was made 22/03/2026 12:11 - 22:46 (ofc i not all through that time lol just like an hour in total)

anxiety and stuff

 guys i have like crazy anxiety about tmrw... i dont even know why. i cant even write more i have this weird feeling in my stomach. will write tmrw about what happened <3 

my lovelife and some random music recommendations

 okay guys so heres some lore i already wrote about how messed up me and my social life are so let me write a bit about my love life. well there was a person who we were like idk i guess intimate but outside of that there was litterally nothing and then i just couldnt anymore. then theres this other person who we are friends with but theres always this tension and then we do dumb stuff like put locks in places but i think we are just really close friends but she said some stuff but shes like a really good person and i think shes beautiful too and it feels great spending time with her so maybe i should get that first person out my mind and look for someone whos actually normal and really cute actually.

MUSIC: 

guys webrings are so fucking cool wtf how did i never know of them before?

 i just discovered webrings and they are the COOLEST THINGS EVER. also im watching x files and you should too if you love ufos and goverment conspiracys and wanna see 2 fbi agents very involved in them. 

this is where i watch it but DONT CLICK ON IT WITHOUT A POPUP BLOCKER The X-Files 1993 HD

guys im so messed up and i dont know what to do

 tbh writing this while listening to lady gaga feels really weird but i dont really care its just that i hate people with hate that makes my blood boil and i shouldnt hate those people as much because i live with them then i also know what i gotta do to get better cuz i have all this health bullshit and skin condition but im just not doing it and for some reason im forcing myself into eating all this sugary shit. so yeah. and my social life is an absolute mess. its such a mess that its basically nonexistent at this point. i feel like im in a fucking netflix series. its so bad. and its fucking sunday? tf u do on sunday? any fucking ideas? i feel like really exhausted mentally and physically and i guess i should work out for the ideal physical form. yeah i cant even say idk what to do cuz i know exactly what to do but i feel so helpless and weak and like i cant start all this shit again. the first time i did all this i didnt even see an improvement. not on my skin atleast. anyways thanks for reading i guess