kellie

ckrazykell4 — Fri, 25 Dec 2009 07:23:09 GMT

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL, AND TO ALL A GOOD NIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ckrazykell4 — Wed, 17 Jun 2009 01:30:53 GMT

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RORY!
(HOPE YOU'VE HAD A NICE DAY!)

Revelation

ckrazykell4 — Fri, 02 Jan 2009 04:33:01 GMT

If everyone you know tells you that you are a certain type of person, does that mean you're that kind of person or do they not really know you? If they are right, then I guess I'm a mean spirited, selfish person. I hope they're not right, because if they are, why are they still friends with me?
This is not a happy New Year for me.

ckrazykell4 — Sat, 15 Nov 2008 01:08:00 GMT

A little depressed, I'm contemplating my life and I realized I have some serious issues. Feel like sleeping for three years and waking up a new person.

Expression

ckrazykell4 — Tue, 28 Oct 2008 22:52:52 GMT

A little something I wrote when I was going through a hard time in my life.

Darkness, ‘click click’ no lights on in the house. Stove clock not working, nothings’ working. Pitch black darkness encompassing my whole being, terrified wondering what’s wrong. Suffocating, need to get out; gut’s telling me something’s not right. Outside, panting heavily from running, trying to steady breathing while dialing. Mom said she didn’t have enough money to pay electricity bill. No lights, hot water, television, internet, nothing. Stomach growling but I wouldn’t dare eat anything, had to go to bed hungry that night fearing that the cold air would seep out of fridge causing the food to spoil. That happened before when the fridge went out a couple of months ago, and we learned our lesson. Boredom, nothing to do except stare of into space, contemplating life. Two days of living in the dim candlelight, becoming a shadow of what I once was.

ckrazykell4 — Mon, 15 Sep 2008 01:54:32 GMT

I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired.

Celebration

ckrazykell4 — Wed, 13 Aug 2008 02:09:27 GMT

Just found out I got an 89 on my physics midterm. Spent all night studying for that test so now its party time.

I'm such a worry wart

ckrazykell4 — Sun, 10 Aug 2008 00:01:01 GMT

My Dad's in the hospital, he had to have a little operation, but all I can keep thinking of is what if it was something worse?You want to know what made me so sad, my dad had to drop money off for me so I can hang out with my friends because I'm completely broke. When he gets out of the ICU he calls me and asks me if I went to the movies with my friends and I had tell him no. He then proceeds to tell me he's sorry he couldn't make it to give me the money. I almost started crying at that moment and I'm like I'll rather stay home to find out if you're okay then go the movies, because he didn't want me staying at the hopsital while he's having surgery, he was like its a complete waste of time. I'm going to go visit him before visiting hours is over.

Depressed

ckrazykell4 — Sun, 27 Jul 2008 17:42:53 GMT

Depressed, burned out, never thought my summer could be so ~~shitty~~. I'm taking a four hour physics class that is basically everyday and I'm so behind and I don't understand anything. I feel like pulling my hair out, ugh!

Friends with major problems

ckrazykell4 — Sat, 17 May 2008 02:57:40 GMT

Trying to help a friend whose life is spiraling out of control. Let me start from the beginnig she's Muslim and you know how the culture is. She got in trouble a couple days ago, so now her parents are talking about sending her to Bangladesh and marrying her off to a guy whose thirty years her senior. Also, on top of all this she started cutting again and talking about ending her life before it comes to that. I'm really worried and trying to think of what to do, her parents want nothing to do with her. Just venting the frustration of it all its so unfair.

Summer Programs

ckrazykell4 — Sat, 17 May 2008 02:44:09 GMT

Got into Hunter and Lehman's summer program. Now I'm waiting to find out if I got into the Columbia program I signed up for. Which should I do or should I just get a job? Or can I do both?

Pathetic

ckrazykell4 — Sun, 11 May 2008 03:47:39 GMT

I've been really busy studying for my AP Exam that I had taken yesterday. All my hard work was for nothing. Can you believe it, when I took the test I completely blanked out. So for the essay portion, I was sitting there for two hours doing nothing because I couldn't think about anything to write. Being the stupid idiot that I am, I wrote "I do not comprehend this essay question. I wish I never signed up for this test. My teacher didn't teach me ~~shit~~." Wow can you say dumb.

ckrazykell4 — Wed, 16 Apr 2008 23:41:52 GMT

So happy right now. Finally got ipod touch. YAY!

Results

ckrazykell4 — Sat, 05 Apr 2008 21:38:56 GMT

Failed test. No sleep. Headache. I'm passing out now. Ugh!

Organic Chemistry

ckrazykell4 — Sat, 05 Apr 2008 02:19:57 GMT

Trying to cram for a major test I'm having tomorrow. Only know about ten percent of the material, so you can say I'm screwed. Trying to study my notes and I can't even understand it. Ugh!!!!!

Seventy-five Percent?

ckrazykell4 — Thu, 27 Mar 2008 22:12:41 GMT

Can someone be seventy five percent virgin? My friend swears she is and I don't think thats possible.

Procrastination

ckrazykell4 — Sat, 15 Mar 2008 01:18:28 GMT

Trying to study for an organic chemistry test I'm taking tomorrow. But its obvioulsly not working out. Surfing the internet. Test tomorrow which means I'm screwed. Organic chemistry is so hard, sometimes I wish I never signed up for this class, especially since I have to wake up at 6:45. Ugh serious cramming ahead.

HAPPY!

ckrazykell4 — Tue, 11 Mar 2008 23:16:19 GMT

My computer is finally working. Yay! The only part about this that sucked was that I couldn't get a new computer. I really wanted one, but atleast I'll have the internet. Without it I was really bored.

Deloitte

ckrazykell4 — Fri, 07 Mar 2008 21:26:39 GMT

Today I was at Deloitte for school to work day for a program I'm in. Its like one of the top business firms in the country. I was right next to where the Twin Towers were. I'm thinking about being a business major instead of premed, I really don't know. The jobs they have there look really interesting. They're offfering a summer internship there, and I hope I get it because they are paying around $18 an hour. I hope I get it, if there is a god I'll get it. I need him on my side on this because its one student per school getting chosen for the job. Wish me good luck, I'm finding out if I get the job later today. No longer annoyed.

I hate my computer!

ckrazykell4 — Fri, 07 Mar 2008 21:14:14 GMT

I hate my computer so much. Its a Dell and so far its been messed up for a few weeks. Every year since I bought it gets messed up and we had to call so they can fix it. Now they have to send over a disk to fix it and if it doesn't get fixed we are getting a new laptop for free. Either way I want to get another computer. I'm so pissed because I'm going to lose all my files because I lost my backup flash drive. Ugh basically I haven't been online for a few weeks and I'm basically bored out of my mind. Lucky the technician is coming to my house next week to fix it. If there is a god I'll get a new laptop.

Valentine's Day for the lonely

ckrazykell4 — Thu, 14 Feb 2008 23:37:16 GMT

My life is so bleh. (this valentines day is making me so inarticulate). I hate this day. Why when you have no one in your life on this day you feel so alone. Is it seeing all the people getting chocolates and gifts. I really need a boyfriend I'm getting too depressed. For those of you who don't have a valentines I wish you all the luck on finding that one special person to spend next year with and I hope i'm amoung that group of people. Happy Valentines Day.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

ckrazykell4 — Wed, 13 Feb 2008 01:23:34 GMT

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BAOTRAM AND CHARLES! I WISH YOU ALL THE HAPPINESS IN THE WORLD. I LOVE YOU. HAVE A GOOD B-DAY. ~KELLIE

Happy Birthday Poem

Once a year I get the chance
To wish you birthday cheer.
It pleases me no end to say,
I wish you another great year.

So happy birthday to you,
From the bottom of my heart.
And may your good times multiply,
Till they’re flying off the chart!

By Karl Fuchs

ckrazykell4 — Thu, 07 Feb 2008 21:45:31 GMT

i was watching Queer as Folk on logo last night and they deleted so many scenes, all the good scenes (you know i mean the sex scenes). i'm so pissed because i've never got to watch it when it was on showtime. don't you hate it when shows or movies do that?

busy

ckrazykell4 — Mon, 28 Jan 2008 20:42:09 GMT

I'm very busy. Why when you have vacation, teachers feel the need to give you a load of homework. Working on an essay. Its giving me a headache. Feel like taking some pills just to relax. I just want to scream.

hi!

ckrazykell4 — Fri, 18 Jan 2008 22:49:28 GMT

my friend created this journal 4 me, and i'm now starting 2 use it. so i just wanted to say hi!