2012 NYR
Good God, here I go again. I failed on this years' NYR. Every single bit. Part of it was from all the stress of the year from my dad being in the hospital and then my grandma unexpectedly diagnosed with cancer and dying. Rough year. I've had a few nightmares about burying my sister, and I think I had one where I buried my nephew.
Normally I'm terrible at identifying when I'm under stress. I don't know why, it just doesn't click in my mind though. I don't FEEL any different, but apparently my subconscious and body know.
Another reason as to why I failed this year's NYR list is simple: I put things that I should be doing anyway instead of focusing on what I would LIKE to do. Putting things on the list that you NEED to do or SHOULD be doing anyway is counterproductive of the NYR. Sounds like an oxymoron. NYR is, after all, about initiating positive and productive change in yourself. At least that's what I've come to understand it as. However, if you only focus on what you should and need to do, then you don't want to do it. You put it off and don't think on it long enough to even dream about doing it. I think that's why most people fail. That's why, for the 2012 list, I'm going to put things on there that I would LIKE to do. If I do the things I like, it will make me feel better about myself, because I put it on a goal list to do and I'm accomplishing it. And if I feel better about myself, I'll be more inclined to do the things that I need and should do. Therefore, I'll be initiating the process of improving myself.
Get it?
And on to the list:
And these last two I'm not too sure about:
Roller Derby: I think I'd like to still tryout, but I'm not too sure.
Tattoo: I'm almost decided on it. It would be simple and small, but visible. I'm thinking the Star of David on my neck. But who knows.
Normally I'm terrible at identifying when I'm under stress. I don't know why, it just doesn't click in my mind though. I don't FEEL any different, but apparently my subconscious and body know.
Another reason as to why I failed this year's NYR list is simple: I put things that I should be doing anyway instead of focusing on what I would LIKE to do. Putting things on the list that you NEED to do or SHOULD be doing anyway is counterproductive of the NYR. Sounds like an oxymoron. NYR is, after all, about initiating positive and productive change in yourself. At least that's what I've come to understand it as. However, if you only focus on what you should and need to do, then you don't want to do it. You put it off and don't think on it long enough to even dream about doing it. I think that's why most people fail. That's why, for the 2012 list, I'm going to put things on there that I would LIKE to do. If I do the things I like, it will make me feel better about myself, because I put it on a goal list to do and I'm accomplishing it. And if I feel better about myself, I'll be more inclined to do the things that I need and should do. Therefore, I'll be initiating the process of improving myself.
Get it?
And on to the list:
- Read a book a month
By Golly I'm going to read a damn book! I'm going to start with the unabridged version of 'Les Miserables' by Victor Hugo. I've read most of the condensed version and I absolutely love it. Wish me luck, because it has over a thousand pages. - Go snowboarding
My mother, nephew and sister went tubing earlier this year, and the place we went to had hills for snowboarding. It looks awesome! My bum will probably be black and blue before the days out. - Write a novel
Not NANOWRIMO, I just want to write a novel. I always want to do NANOWRIMO and I get excited about it, but come November and it's like someone flipped a switch. I just want to get back to writing again and it's ridiculous to wait for a particular time of year to do it. Amiright? - See the milky way
Not just in pictures, but actually look up and see it. Know what I mean? How mind boggling would that be. - Learn a language
This is almost as infamous as my book a month plan. Only, I think I stick to this more faithfully than the books. Sad. Anyhoo, I'm looking at Sign Language and German, maybe learn a few Japanese kanji. We'll see. - Definition in body
Notice how I changed the 'gain weight' to this. I specified it. Yes, I need to gain weight. Yes, I need to take better care of myself. But in no way can I get definition in my body by gaining weight and taking better care of myself, and it isn't necessary. I got this idea from the bookstore. I saw the cover of a physics book with this woman runner who had lost a leg. She was running on the beach with one of those spring-like legs, and her body was, pardon me, gorgeous! Not only did she look great and healthy, but strong as well. - University
It's not something that is needed or that I should do. Heck, I'm not sure if I should. I can't afford to lose my job, and who knows if I'll still have it when I come back on breaks. They have the online universities. I'm looking at the London external programme, but I'm still a little sketchy about it. Of course, it's really either London or St. John's. Those are the only universities that I think I could stand to attend. Though I wouldn't mind physically going to a UK institution, I most definitely couldn't afford it. Even St. John's might be out of my reach. Hmm, food for thought.
And these last two I'm not too sure about:
Roller Derby: I think I'd like to still tryout, but I'm not too sure.
Tattoo: I'm almost decided on it. It would be simple and small, but visible. I'm thinking the Star of David on my neck. But who knows.