I'm in school right now. I haven't exactly updated in a while mostly because my computer has been having the most unusual qualms lately.
I. Have a spyware problem. A really, *really* HUGE spyware problem that interfers with almost every aspect of using my computer. It generally takes me about half an hour to start the stupid thing up and I pretty much have to restart every twenty minutes or so if I happen to be using the internet.
Which, as you could imagine, is rather annoying. The spyware is also eating all my memory, which I don't have enough of anyways.
Anyone have any suggestions to help me out? ^___^;; Ad-Aware for some strage reason doe not work in the promised manner on my copmputer. It scans three items and then FREEZES. w00t. *rolls eyes* Spybot works fine, but for some reason whenever I finish running it there is still an obscene amount of spyware making my computer all persnickity and stuff.
Anyways.
The Jenn Update: First and foremost I am massively worried about one of my friends right now for reasons I don't want to discuss on my lj since airing your own dirty laundry in public is one thing, but airing other people's...
... or something. Is it just me, or do a lot of those old metaphors fail to make any coherent sense whatsoever. Anyways, I don't really like talking about other people's problems, but suffice to say that I am incredibly worried. T___T
Secondly... I now am getting psychotherapy for the little mental illness thing I have. Plus I have to get an x-ray for my leg. >___< Hospitals are scary and I don't like diesease- I had a panic attack in the x-ray waiting room last week because they had this poster about PET scans that was talking about, like, brain and lymph cancer and...
... and OMG, I don't like cancer. So instead of sitting there hyperventalating and crying like an idiot and recieving strange looks from people who should realize that it probably isn't uncommon for people to have panic attacks while waiting for an x-ray I... left.
So, I'll go get my x-ray when Leslie comes with me for my next psychaitary appointment.
The people at the hospital are kinda idiots, but I've been told that they can help me, so I'm kinda all like: "Grin and bear it and act like a ditz so they don't notice you're talking down to them." They talked to me in one of those rooms with the one-way windows, but at the very least I got to go say hi to the people who were watching me. From inside a dark, hidden room with lots of survellience equipment. Creepy. o.O
They kept drilling me about my parents, which was kind of annoying since there isn't much to tell. When I ran out of stuff to tell, I told them so but they were all like: "Hey, let's ask the same question five or six times in a row."
When you're telling someone that you're worried about yourself because you've been having massive, irrational control swings for four years, plus you're so anxious that you have panic attacks and insomnia, you'd imagine that they'd use their rational brains and rationalize that you're worried about depression and anxiety. I told the doctors at the hospital this reason for being worried, and then was asked this gem of a question:
"So, what are you worried about?"
*Jenn pulls out hair in massive fustration, but still keeps smiling because, hey, she's supposed to cooperate here!* "I've just been explaining for the past HOUR AND A HALF what I'm freaking worried about!!"
>____< She seemed a tad insulted when I told her she was being redundant, but whatever. I'm the one who wanted help so I can't complain.
Well, that was Jenn's amazing adventures with the head doctors. Aside from that, not much else has gone on.
Oh yeah. Last Thursday when I was walking hom from Dawn's house some idiots in a van threw an egg at me. Really hard. That was unpleasant and wrath inducing. I'd really like to know why people are idiots in their free time. At least it didn't break on my clothes, but it hurt a whole lot. Stupid people... they destroy me.
Today is school-Halloween. I'm dressed up as Marie from Ryuuguu and although I look very pretty, no one but my friends really understand the costume. Caily and Leslie dressed up as Axl Rose and Slash (from, duh, Guns n' Roses), Rebecca is Jubilee ala X-men and Jordan is a really, really awesome looking werewolf. Oh, and Dawn is Caily for a day. Caily gothed her up this morning, it was lots of fun. ^____^ Other than that, I'm not sure anyone dressed up. Silly people. Oh well, I'd like to say: "More fun for us", but it's not exactly applicable in this situation.
Ouch, I'm hungry.
Oh, speaking of Dawn (because I was speaking of Dawn a few sentences back), she has done an unspeakable evil and gotten me obsessed with Invader Zim. But now that I've seen both Zim and Fight Club I can call myself a true internet geek! Mwahahahaha! Or at least understand all the crazy references that I used to not understand.
Jenn rambles. Too much.
Well, the substitute dictates that we must return to the caged horror of our Entrepreneurship classroom (the idiots in this class have been surprisingly quiet.
I leave you randomly with a link:
These are the best avatars I have made in my life. Seriously. ^___^
Chiao!
I. Have a spyware problem. A really, *really* HUGE spyware problem that interfers with almost every aspect of using my computer. It generally takes me about half an hour to start the stupid thing up and I pretty much have to restart every twenty minutes or so if I happen to be using the internet.
Which, as you could imagine, is rather annoying. The spyware is also eating all my memory, which I don't have enough of anyways.
Anyone have any suggestions to help me out? ^___^;; Ad-Aware for some strage reason doe not work in the promised manner on my copmputer. It scans three items and then FREEZES. w00t. *rolls eyes* Spybot works fine, but for some reason whenever I finish running it there is still an obscene amount of spyware making my computer all persnickity and stuff.
Anyways.
The Jenn Update: First and foremost I am massively worried about one of my friends right now for reasons I don't want to discuss on my lj since airing your own dirty laundry in public is one thing, but airing other people's...
... or something. Is it just me, or do a lot of those old metaphors fail to make any coherent sense whatsoever. Anyways, I don't really like talking about other people's problems, but suffice to say that I am incredibly worried. T___T
Secondly... I now am getting psychotherapy for the little mental illness thing I have. Plus I have to get an x-ray for my leg. >___< Hospitals are scary and I don't like diesease- I had a panic attack in the x-ray waiting room last week because they had this poster about PET scans that was talking about, like, brain and lymph cancer and...
... and OMG, I don't like cancer. So instead of sitting there hyperventalating and crying like an idiot and recieving strange looks from people who should realize that it probably isn't uncommon for people to have panic attacks while waiting for an x-ray I... left.
So, I'll go get my x-ray when Leslie comes with me for my next psychaitary appointment.
The people at the hospital are kinda idiots, but I've been told that they can help me, so I'm kinda all like: "Grin and bear it and act like a ditz so they don't notice you're talking down to them." They talked to me in one of those rooms with the one-way windows, but at the very least I got to go say hi to the people who were watching me. From inside a dark, hidden room with lots of survellience equipment. Creepy. o.O
They kept drilling me about my parents, which was kind of annoying since there isn't much to tell. When I ran out of stuff to tell, I told them so but they were all like: "Hey, let's ask the same question five or six times in a row."
When you're telling someone that you're worried about yourself because you've been having massive, irrational control swings for four years, plus you're so anxious that you have panic attacks and insomnia, you'd imagine that they'd use their rational brains and rationalize that you're worried about depression and anxiety. I told the doctors at the hospital this reason for being worried, and then was asked this gem of a question:
"So, what are you worried about?"
*Jenn pulls out hair in massive fustration, but still keeps smiling because, hey, she's supposed to cooperate here!* "I've just been explaining for the past HOUR AND A HALF what I'm freaking worried about!!"
>____< She seemed a tad insulted when I told her she was being redundant, but whatever. I'm the one who wanted help so I can't complain.
Well, that was Jenn's amazing adventures with the head doctors. Aside from that, not much else has gone on.
Oh yeah. Last Thursday when I was walking hom from Dawn's house some idiots in a van threw an egg at me. Really hard. That was unpleasant and wrath inducing. I'd really like to know why people are idiots in their free time. At least it didn't break on my clothes, but it hurt a whole lot. Stupid people... they destroy me.
Today is school-Halloween. I'm dressed up as Marie from Ryuuguu and although I look very pretty, no one but my friends really understand the costume. Caily and Leslie dressed up as Axl Rose and Slash (from, duh, Guns n' Roses), Rebecca is Jubilee ala X-men and Jordan is a really, really awesome looking werewolf. Oh, and Dawn is Caily for a day. Caily gothed her up this morning, it was lots of fun. ^____^ Other than that, I'm not sure anyone dressed up. Silly people. Oh well, I'd like to say: "More fun for us", but it's not exactly applicable in this situation.
Ouch, I'm hungry.
Oh, speaking of Dawn (because I was speaking of Dawn a few sentences back), she has done an unspeakable evil and gotten me obsessed with Invader Zim. But now that I've seen both Zim and Fight Club I can call myself a true internet geek! Mwahahahaha! Or at least understand all the crazy references that I used to not understand.
Jenn rambles. Too much.
Well, the substitute dictates that we must return to the caged horror of our Entrepreneurship classroom (the idiots in this class have been surprisingly quiet.
I leave you randomly with a link:
These are the best avatars I have made in my life. Seriously. ^___^
Chiao!