through the unknown blackholes

My mind is doing that stupid thing where it goes a mile a minute and I can't stop obsessing over what needs to be done and how little time I have to do it and what am I going to do and what if it fails.

I still needs vaccinations, I still don't know what I'm going to do about the Brazil visa, I still don't know where all I'm going to go. I need to go to the dentist and I want to try to donate blood before I leave (which in itself is always this terrible ordeal for me and has only successfully happened one time).

I did get a few things accomplished today - thank-you notes from Christmas, cleaning my room, calling for vaccination information (even though they replied too late for me to set up an appointment).

OMG how am I going to pay for South America? The flights are so much more expensive than I remembered, and I don't have enough time to only take buses.

I know I need to relax, but I only have a month left. Which seems like so much, but if I don't start getting this done I'm so screwed and I could be stuck on another continent and all my friends will have already come to the MN for camp and there will be no one to bail me out. :(

PLUS LJ is being dumb and not loading and everything is just mildly aggravating today.