Agent Smith

Stolen from edgiko

celes19 — Sun, 05 Aug 2007 07:07:43 GMT

1. Say things to 15 people you'd never say to their face.
2. See if they can guess who they are. (don't have to)
3. Repost this in your journal.
1. I miss you so much, you have no idea. You've been a constant in my life and I can't wait to see you again - I just want to relive those nights all over again.

2. I want to see you too but I aslo want to pull back. You know me, I'm just not comfortable with that affection.

3. I so called it. So, so, so called it. Hopefully he won't fuck it up for you two.

4. I'm so glad we met and to this day still talk. It's been amazing and a lot of fun with great memories. I just wish I could help you more than I do cause it sucks not being there for anyone.

5. I'm so, so, sorry. I'll change into a better person, I promise. I just can't promise when.

6. You really are a good friend of mine. I like going to hang out with you and going to movies. But on AIM...omgstfu. Please.

7. I don't know you well but you seem like one of the coolest people here. I wish I could get to know you but I can't stop being a stupid child who thinks that everything she likes, she deserves.

8. I envy your fic writing talents like woah. I so wish I could write like you.

9. Fuck. You. I know I need to go to a good college for what I want to do but don't you dare try to persuade me away from my dream place. I know you hate it there but I don't.

10. Why aren't you with her? You two are so right for each other but you just can't...*strangles you* I'm sorry that me thinking that makes you uncomfortable.

11. I could really, really smack you right now. Either we're fighting or we're getting along. Don't do anything stupid to make me argue with you.

12. It's really strange that I miss you. It's not like I love you or anything but you are the funniest person I have ever known in my life. You made me laugh every day. I want that back.

13. Stop flirting and just kiss him already. Geez (by the way you sadistic asshole - I miss you too).

14. I feel bad that we've already last contact - it kind of sucks. Cause you were my first friend there and I hope we still can be if we ever go back.

15. I'm sorry I made that month so emo for you. I never wanted to do that to you. I wish I could make it up to you, I just don't know how.</div>

sfknekjtghknrff

celes19 — Fri, 03 Aug 2007 18:42:39 GMT

Keith Allen is my hero.

Keith Allen (British actor, father of Lily Allen who sings "Smile") comes to America to basically chew and spit out the Westboro Baptist Church.

For those who don't know this church, you only need to look at the url address of their website to know what they're like: godhatesfags.com. :|

celes19 — Mon, 30 Jul 2007 16:17:33 GMT

...why do I have the sudden urge to go home and play Final Fantasy X? >>

Proceeds to Strangle Things in Sight

celes19 — Mon, 16 Jul 2007 02:15:47 GMT

So I'm home, obviously. I'll be on and off to talk more but I'm waiting for my brother to ship off to NH sooo...I'll do camp update then.

Until then, it is incredibly, incredibly frustrating to want a song but you can't find it.

Not again...

celes19 — Wed, 13 Jun 2007 04:22:50 GMT

All right, if I happen to sign off again just randomly? It's storming again and my power might cut off.

Now that that's over, anyone know where I could perhaps find a fedora? Similar to John Munch's? (which I'll show as soon as I find a damn good picture of him) >>

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Help Please!

celes19 — Tue, 12 Jun 2007 23:47:01 GMT

All right, as fitting with my family's rule about each of us making dinner once a week, there'll be a vegetarian night once a week (thanks to me! =D)

Soooo anyone who happens to be a vegetarian/vegan/fruitarian/pescatarian/meat eater that has a favorite vegetarian dish - anyone have good recs for recipes? No doubt my brothers will keep picking spaghetti so I want to do something a little different from that. Any suggestions would be brilliant.

Thank you!

Rawr

celes19 — Tue, 12 Jun 2007 12:08:51 GMT

To everyone I was talking to last night - my power went out for TWO HOURS. -___________- Sorry!

Figures - it's my luck.

Now off to tutoring one last time...cross your fingers for the kid I might throttle today.

Times are Changing

celes19 — Tue, 12 Jun 2007 02:17:29 GMT

New screen name: rainxfalls19

Time for a new me.

Everyone, feel free to IM me if you wish. Don't be afraid. =)

Hmm...Another Useless Post

celes19 — Fri, 04 May 2007 02:14:25 GMT

Just got home for the first time today. Stupid Honor's Night. -____-

My school has the biggest ego complex in the world. "CHS won this..." "CHS is honoring this NATIONAL WINNER..." "CHS is yet again number 1..." Does anyone really buy that bs these days? =| It's ridiculous.

Plus, does high school honestly prepare you for college? Truly? I mean, I know my high school's a college prep blah-blah-blah school but does it really prep you for anything?

What's worse is that somehow I'm drawn into this school too. Apparently, I have potential to represent CHS so well when really, I think this school is just so full of itself. It's disgusting. >> Especially after that whole homeroom teacher experience...
On another note, my brother and his girlfriend today were having a huuuge debate on how that nothing can truly be proven because everything's actually a theory. And I realized that I kind of want someone like that. Just to talk about stupid shit like my brother and his girlfriend did (they just went in circles for like, 2 hours). I know that I have friends here who are interested in stuff like that but when I tried to talk to Sean about how we as country aren't at the point yet to have a successful revolution, he got mad because I was apparently misunderstanding his argument which was basically successful revolutions never really happen anyway.

I've realized that I do like talking about those things but everyone these days are just too caught up in who's right and who's wrong without just sitting down, listening to another view, and actually learning something. I was listening to Sean and he was making some good points but when I tried to counter them, he got mad. That's not the kind of thing I want. Especially when it comes to things like politics, philosophy, religion (hope you run fast if you even think of saying something against religion down here), and all the topics that'll basically make anyone mad.

Hmmm...if people were actually interested in it, I'd love to do a Socrates cafe online. You know, where people get together to just have thoughtful discussion and whatnot? Maybe it'd be a huge mess but it's an interesting experience sometimes.

Anyways, off to bed. Yearbooks come tomorrow and damn, I still need to study for my mock exam. >> Someone needs to convince me to stop being a dumbass by taking AP classes. Please.</div>

So I'm totally screwed for tomorrow...

celes19 — Sat, 28 Apr 2007 02:43:41 GMT

All right, it is currently *checks time* 10:44. Tomorrow starting at 8, I have my Microeconomics mock exam/final. And I'm royally fucked for it.

Thanks a lot Mrs. Wells. -.-

Plus, tomorrow is prom. And I'm slightly nervous =| The theme - diamonds and ice - sucks but I plan to have a good time with my friends! Because that's the most important thing. Hopefully...at least my dress is pretty?

Yeah and about the people I was to talk to tonight? Didn't get home til like, 7:30 and then my brother was on with his friends. Right now was the only time I could get on. =/ But I have time in between mock exam and prom...I'll talk to you then.

Until then, just posting a small rant I posted somewhere else. Personal, I guess? Slightly edited.
You know, you always reach some point in your life where you just sit down and think about what you want and how you're going to get it. I sort of had the realization last night. Not the kind of want like I want some DVD or a stuffed animal, something much more deeper than that...

I want someone I can easily talk to and it only took my best friend to point out the fact that I keep a lot to myself.

So maybe it is hard for me to open up. Much harder than it was a few years ago. Sometimes, I like it that way because then I know who I can truly express myself to, who I know won't let me down. Only a few people really have that chance, I guess.

But I do a lot of things to keep people away. It's nothing against them at all. Most of them are the coolest people ever. That's just how I like it though. It's not like I don't trust them but please, I don't need to be pushed or prodded or anything - I don't think that gets anyone anywhere.

Experience has everything to do with it.

But I want people to know that I am a good listener. I love giving advice and listening to people's problems. I'm there if anyone wants/needs to talk. I'll try my best to help. Everyone needs to get something off their chest and I don't want them to think they don't have anyone to listen to their problems.

I very well am the biggest hypocrite ever. <3</div>

celes19 — Wed, 25 Apr 2007 21:50:48 GMT

So how about someone decided to submit a fic to andylovesjoe when it was definitely Pete/Joe? Without Andy being anywhere in the fic?

I'm pretty proud of myself. See, prom's on Saturday and I definitely decided to go Monday. And then bought my dress last night (it was the first one I picked too). Then bought shoes and earrings today. Grandy and my cousin kill me sometimes with their slow shopping. -.-

I definitely think I need to update this more often. Because it's dead and I feel kind of bad.

In Which I Scream My Head Off Because This Region SUCKS - Warning: Long/Politics/Rant

celes19 — Tue, 24 Apr 2007 01:24:12 GMT

All right, so. Almost three years in Georgia and I'm not dead ~~yet~~. Thankfully, I'm still alive.

But if I have to read one more DAMN letter in our newspaper...

I know that I should've believed people when they told me that hey, I'm moving to the Red Bible Belt - be warned. But I was young and I never took anyone seriously.

But I have never known so many hypocrites as I have down here. I'm not one to really pass judgement but if every other day is another conservative rant about how much liberals "hate" America and its society, I feel like kicking something. >>

One had the audacity to claim that, in sum, liberals are hateful people who do not have any morals, disapprove of the soldiers fighting in the war, show no patriotism whatsoever, and that if anyone wants to be "real Americans," they should come to the conservative side.

*bangs head on desk* If that guy's a real American, I don't want to be an American anymore.

First of all, conservatives are normally pro-life, correct? And yet they're for the death penalty. Now there are quite a lot of differences, yes, but isn't that murder? Killing someone even though they did harm to someone else? Oh wait, no it's not! According to TPTB, it's not murder, it's justice. But if we common people do it, it's murder. And man, Derrick Jensen had a really good, well thought out point about this because essentially, it's true. I wish I could repeat the argument but it's quite a lengthy one.

Maybe liberals do disapprove of the war. So what? But that does not mean we can't support the troops over there. Those are fellow countrymen over there and while some might not agree with what they're doing, they're not begging for their deaths! Hell, my dad hates the war but he has a magnet that says "Support Our Troops." There is a difference, I'm afraid, so please learn it.

And well, patriotism's overrated anyways. >> Liberals can be patriotic, thank you very much, and I think that for people to judge them so harshly for their different views and label them this way is just wrong. Me, I'm really not a fan of patriotism in a country I'm not too happy with. Well, it's not really the country's fault, it's the government. The people Americans put in power. America has great ideas but no one is following them and we're being soooo ethno-centric and boasting incorrectly, "our society is great" that it's insane. I'll admit, yes this is a country that mainly speaks English so immigrants should speak English. But so many other countries struggle to study English even just a little bit to make it easier for us when we travel. And here we stand, being lazy as we are.

(then again, I'm completely biased with this because I love languages and I think it's extremely important for us to know languages because it will help us so much someday). But I'm getting off subject.

And to be honest...I cannot stand another promotion of Christianity. Not every Christian is a horrible, judgemental person. Obviously. But I don't need to be told (especially on an airplane during a storm and a rough flight) that Jesus is going to be my only savior for a rebirth. Religion, in my opinion, has changed from something to allow people some morals to consider to everyone's scapegoat to explain their actions. No, it is not your fault that you didn't pray too much to prevent a death in the family even though you prayed twelve hours straight. No, God didn't protect you from a raging tornado. I can say I believe that someone higher above us is out there but I certainly think that he leaves us our own mess to clean up. We make mistakes and clean them up rather than except a deity to.

It reminds me of a story I read. A man's visiting India and he's walking along a path when suddenly, a group of villagers run down the opposite direction.

"Run away, an elephant's gone mad and trampling people."

The guy says, "Don't worry, God will protect me." Half an hour later, the guy gets closer to the village and even sees it when more villagers run out of the village.

"What are you doing?! Go back, an elephant's gone mad!" The man repeats his statement.

"Don't worry, God will protect me." He walks into the village and sees the elephant running around in a rage. The elephant spots the guy and tramples him to death. As the guy lies broken, dying, he coughs out, "God why didn't you protect me?" "God appears.

"You idiot! Why do you think I sent all those people to warn you?!"

That's what I think religion is. Not relying on something as an excuse to save you. I don't need to be told over and over again that Jesus will be my savior. I want to be independent and realize that mistakes are my own, not because God wanted me to suffer.

This guy, of course, ends on a note that, "liberals will only continue to spew their exaggerated ideas of 'freedom,' 'liberty,' and 'global warming.'"

I have lost faith in humanity. Honestly. This person is the same species as I am and I can't even fathom that. I see this repeated all the time down here.

Damn, I just want to go home. -.- Last time I checked, Chicago never made bullshit arguments like this.

If that guy's a real American, I don't think I want to be an American anymore.
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Ughhhhh nemuku imasu...I don't even know if that's right

celes19 — Sun, 11 Mar 2007 03:37:41 GMT

Sooooo tired but not willing to go to bed. I think I'll stay up for an hour and just be invisible or something. Meh. I got Japanese chocolate though so maybe I won't completely crash.

Question: Is it just me or does Thnks Fr Th Mmrs sound like FOB in a musical?

Stolen From Lin...I should Update More Often

celes19 — Fri, 09 Mar 2007 03:05:17 GMT

Comment and...
1. I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll challenge you to try something.
3. I'll pick a color that I associate with you.
4. I'll tell you something I like about you.
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something I've always wanted to ask you.
8. If I do this for you, you must post this in your journal.

Hey, there's a reason why it's called "musicsecret"

celes19 — Wed, 21 Feb 2007 01:45:07 GMT

Dear annoyed people of musicsecret

So there are a lot of FOB secrets. Big. Deal. Last time I checked and listened, Fall Out Boy is music. And that community is for secrets about music. There happens to be a lot of people who submit secrets for this band. Maybe it's because they have a lot of fans. Meaning they have a lot of secrets. Oh well.

I don't want every damn secret to be about FOB. But I mean, come on, that's an outlet to express yourself about your music desires! Don't complain about people taking that opportunity to express themselves!

PS: I'm wondering...

What's with the Andy hate? o0 Or am I just missing the point?

Apology

celes19 — Sat, 03 Feb 2007 07:14:49 GMT

I owe you the mother of all apologies.

You are one of the best people I know. You are kind, sweet, and I actually look up to you. I can't tell you why I hide from you but it's nothing to do with you. It's all me, it's all in my head. And I just can't seem to fix it right now. But when I do, when I am free from the shit I'm going through, I'll apologize. And I'll be shocked if you do forgive me. But to tell you and let you know...you are a good friend to me. And that I think of the awful things I do to you every day.

When I'm done running and hiding, I'll be back. Actions speak louder than words but sadly, this is all I can bring myself to do.

To - you know it's you

It's Not the Same Anymore

celes19 — Fri, 12 Jan 2007 21:08:53 GMT

It's been a while. First post of the new year I think...

Not a lot of things have been going well for me, obviously, otherwise I wouldn't be like this. I get what I want but I feel trapped, enslaved even and I want out. I've been nothing but out-of-it, regular-old "I don't care" attitude. I've been pulling back from almost all my friends and realizing that maybe I do like to be alone. Not left alone, I still love my friends and all. But I like being free, on-my-own, without worrying about others.

I'm not meant to be in stuff like this. Some are, others aren't. I'm in the "aren't" group. And I'm all right with it.

celes19 — Wed, 06 Dec 2006 23:44:38 GMT

Once tagged by this entry, the assignment to write a blog entry of some kind with six random facts about yourself. Then, pick six of your friends and tag them; no tag backs. This explanation should be included.

1) I'm the BIGGEST hopeless romantic you will ever meet. I have my cynical remarks about love and blah blah blah...but I'm a sucker for it and I love seeing my friends with their boyfriends because it's sweet. ^^
2) I have a pretty big crush on one of my best friends all because someone in our homeroom asked us, "Are you two dating?" (and no, we're not) I've liked him since Oktoberfest now and rumors are still flying about us. --
3) I desperately want to get out of Georgia...but if I have a reason to stay here, I will.
4) I'm an attention seeking whore. It may not seem like it...but it's true. ^^
5) I've been severely emo since the beginning of October. And it just ended last week. =)
6) I have the hugest desire to save the world and make everyone better. And actually truly convince people that they're beautiful.

Those who want to do it...DO IT! XD

celes19 — Fri, 24 Nov 2006 03:20:49 GMT

You know, I always ask this question and I have never really really thought of it, especially in these past few years. But I think everyone needs to at least consider what they're thankful for. So here's my two cents.

I'm thankful for moving to Georgia. My move to Georgia was one I thought would be the last thing on my list to be thankful for. But I've told myself that I have to be here for a reason, there's somebody that I'm impacting somehow. That's why I moved here. So if I can impact just one person's life moving down here...then I think this move is worth it.

I'm thankful for my family. My two brothers might be absolutely WEIRD and maybe even one's being a JERK. But I love you both and extremely proud of you. My mom and dad are the coolest people I know and I'm lucky to have them look after me like I do. Grandy, we might have an interesting relationship but you know I love you. To Aunt Kathi and Ben...I'll always keep my fingers crossed. I'm sorry you had to leave Ben for a shitty war but I respect you for your decisions. And I already love you.

I'm thankful for the two greatest best friends in the entire world. I love you two so much and I hate that I see you just once a year. But at least I get that time with you. Thank you for sticking with me through my odd/emo/selfish/bitchy/*insert adjective here* People in the world deserve best friends like you. And I'm especially thankful that you've stuck with me while I'm done here, being a Georgian. I'd be lost without you guys. So thanks for being my friends through everything we've gone through together.

I'm thankful for my friends down in Georgia. You guys have no idea how much you've helped me through this move. I'm amazed that I can actually use two hands to count all the friends I've made down here. Through the hells of CHS to hang outs and movies...it's been wonderful knowing you all. And okay, I might quip, "I need new friends" but baaaah, you guys are perfect anyways. And I don't say this but I love you all too. You've made Georgia not so hellish and between all the randomness and craziness...well, I fit right in I guess.

I'm thankful for the crazy but AWESOME people I've met online. You guys make my day that much better and I feel flattered to know you guys as my friends. I love you all too and (because we all happen to have a bit of negativity around us sometimes) you all are beautiful people. No matter who puts you down in your lives, know that someone in a place called Georgia think the world of you. And that someone would be me.

I've only got a year and half left before I'm on my own. So to any who do manage to keep in touch with me after we all graduate - thanks. I don't want to lose anyone as friends over distance or falling outs. Technology has kept me in touch with everyone and maybe technology can keep working its wonderful magic so we'll all be friends again. We might grow up but that doesn't mean we should act grown up.

And...I am thankful for the life I've been given. Yes, it's cheesy and so predictable...but it's nice to know that I do have a good life and whenever my mood goes down to hell, it won't always be like that. I just got hang in there I suppose and stop listening to My Chemical Romance when I'm emo. *cough*

Basically...thanks for everything everybody. I love you all, no matter what.</div>

B-U-S-Y

celes19 — Tue, 24 Oct 2006 22:12:35 GMT

Wow, from Thursday on will keep me busy.

Thursday: My birthday!!!! Family celebration and all that good stuff.
Friday: Hanging out with friends and going skating for said birthday. More good stuff.
Saturday: Using my straightner to straighten my friend's hair of doom and then partying at Oktoberfest (Sean better show up as Madonna)
Sunday: Going to see Marie Antoinette with Sean and then study for Microeconomics. =x Stupid class...

On another note, because my writing drought is driving me up the wall, I joined a challenge com and hopefully that will inspire me to do all the writing I need to do. Except it's hard just to write a sentence on it but at least it helps. PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!! let it help. -.-

F-List Survery Thing? From: mest_up_chick

celes19 — Sun, 08 Oct 2006 01:29:35 GMT

Make up stuff if you wanna. Be craaaaazy ;) Or you can opt to be truthful, whatever's more fun for you :p

My name:

Who is the love of my life:

Where did we meet:

Take a stab at my middle name:

How long have you known me:

When is the last time that we saw each other:

Do I smoke:

Do I drink:

When is my birthday:

What was your first impression of upon meeting me:

Do I have any siblings:

What's one of my favorite things to do:

Am I funny:

What's my favorite type of music:

What is the best feature about me:

Am I shy or outgoing:

Am I a rebel or do I follow the rules:

Do I have any special talents:

Would you consider me a friend/good friend:

Would you call me preppy, average, sporty, punk, hippie, glam, nerdy, snobby, or something else (what):

What is a memory we have once had:

Have you ever hugged me:

Do you miss me...do you think i miss you:

What is my favorite food:

Have you ever had a crush on me:

If there was one good nickname for me, what would it be:

What's your favorite memory of me:

Who do I like right now:

What is my worst habit:

If you and I were stranded on a desert island, what one thing would I bring?

Are we friends:

Will you repost this so I can do it for you?</div>

ZOMG Eddie Izzard on Whose Line and more

celes19 — Fri, 29 Sep 2006 01:08:15 GMT

1) Meme

1. Grab the nearest book.
2. Open the book to page 123.
3. Find the fifth sentence.
4. Post the text of the next 3 sentences on your LJ along with these instructions.
5. Don't you dare dig for that "cool" or "intellectual" book in your closet! I know you were thinking about it! Just pick up whatever is closest.
6. You can do it if you want too.

"Take a number Orleg. There are plenty in line ahead of you."
-
Lord took refuge in a cafe.
Steve Berry, The Romanov Prophecy

I mean, is it hard for the military to not accept gays into the service? Maybe then I wouldn't have to debate this topic. *kicks DADT*

Tournament tomorrow and Saturday. Overnight with my "Buddhist" ~~dictator~~ debate coach with three hours of sleep then be home at midnight. Wish me luck 'cause I know I need it. ><

3) Vacations = ♥

I need one badly. Hell, everyone needs one. Someone needs to establish an international vacation week for everybody. I'll pay you. Lots.

Better than doing homework

celes19 — Thu, 21 Sep 2006 02:00:31 GMT

Step 1: Put your MP3 player or whatever on random.
Step 2: Post the first line from the first 20 songs that play, no matter how embarrassing the song.
Step 2a: When the title is in the first line of the song, post the next line
Step 3: Post and let everyone you know guess what song and artist the lines come from.
Step 4: Strike out the songs when someone guesses correctly.
Step 5: Looking them up on Google or any other search engine is CHEATING!
stolen from maxvinyl.

PS: Excuse the horrible punctuation.

~~1) Is it worth it, can you even hear me?~~
~~2) I never could have seen this far, I never could have seen this coming.~~
~~3) Brothers and sisters, put this record down; take my advice 'cause we are bad news.~~
~~4) Prison gates won't open up for me, on these hands and knees I'm crawling, oh I reach for you.~~
~~5) Don't cry to me, if you loved me, you would be here with me.~~
6) I didn't hear you leave, I wonder how am I still here.
7) In this world you tried, not leaving me alone behind.
~~8) I got my stitches stitched, I got my fixes fixed, in my aching head I got my kisses slipped.~~
~~9) If you only once would let me, only just one time, then be happy with the consequence with whatever's going to happen tonight.~~
10) I've been dreaming for so long, to find the meaning, to understand, the secret of life.
~~11) Hey dad, look at me; think back and talk to me did I grow up according to plan?~~
12) Break down, I can't take this. I need somewhere to go.
~~13) It was 3 am, when you woke me up, then we jumped in the car and drove as far as we could go.~~
14) In my hands, a legacy of memories I can hear you say my name.
15) Oh, you're so vain, now your world is way too fast.
~~16) What if I wanted to break?~~
~~17) Where is your boy tonight, I hope he is a gentlemen.~~
18) In a world so far away, at the end of a closing day, a little child was born and raised deep in the forest on a hidden place.
19) I got a story, it's almost finished.
~~20) Take these roses off of me; let me live, let me be for a little while.~~

Petition for Our Creative Work

celes19 — Sun, 17 Sep 2006 12:27:25 GMT

Does LJ deserve rights on our own work?

Interest Collage

celes19 — Sat, 09 Sep 2006 03:45:14 GMT

Create your own! Originally Written By ga_woo, Hosted and ReWritten by darkman424