The Drugs Don't Work
Hot on the heels of 
queenofdenile's cry for help with S3, I must beg for support. The Clothes Fluke arc is *killing* me. It's not just that Willow/Xander make me gag, or that Xander is never the same after having betrayed Cordelia (Cordelia holds toughg until AtS S3), but it's also the period in which B/A is hitting my gag reflex too. It's too much to bear.
Weirdly I am finding the gang up in Revelations, BRUTAL to my Buffy Love and sympathy. No one hates her blindspot, when it comes to Angel, more than me, but it feels less willfully blind, and more like a naked attempt to preserve something that is hers. I want Buffy to have something that is hers and hers alone, even if it is nothing but PAIN and foolishness. I mean I hate HATE what he does to her, the way he destroys her, the way he takes and does not *give*, but in Buffy's head it is what she has carved out as *hers*, and so GOD I can't blame her for wanting it, I can be sad that she doesn't see it for what it is, but I can't want her to be castigated for it, at least not by her friends, those who are supposed to understand and support her.
I love that Cordelia's ish with it is consistently self-centered/pragmatic and less about Buffy judgment, I think, god bless her, she truly understands that Buffy loves him, she just doesn't care, hee!
Jesus I'm torn between wanting to put off the rest of S3 and blitz through it and get it over with.
queenofdenile's cry for help with S3, I must beg for support. The Clothes Fluke arc is *killing* me. It's not just that Willow/Xander make me gag, or that Xander is never the same after having betrayed Cordelia (Cordelia holds toughg until AtS S3), but it's also the period in which B/A is hitting my gag reflex too. It's too much to bear. Weirdly I am finding the gang up in Revelations, BRUTAL to my Buffy Love and sympathy. No one hates her blindspot, when it comes to Angel, more than me, but it feels less willfully blind, and more like a naked attempt to preserve something that is hers. I want Buffy to have something that is hers and hers alone, even if it is nothing but PAIN and foolishness. I mean I hate HATE what he does to her, the way he destroys her, the way he takes and does not *give*, but in Buffy's head it is what she has carved out as *hers*, and so GOD I can't blame her for wanting it, I can be sad that she doesn't see it for what it is, but I can't want her to be castigated for it, at least not by her friends, those who are supposed to understand and support her.
I love that Cordelia's ish with it is consistently self-centered/pragmatic and less about Buffy judgment, I think, god bless her, she truly understands that Buffy loves him, she just doesn't care, hee!
Jesus I'm torn between wanting to put off the rest of S3 and blitz through it and get it over with.