cliché wasted, hate taste-tested.

brighter_days — Mon, 30 Jan 2012 19:22:07 GMT

why the fuck do i not have any option to go back further than the 10 most recent entries on my friends page? fuck you lj.

note to self...

brighter_days — Tue, 16 Feb 2010 19:18:16 GMT

you really ought to come back tonight and write a real entry, it's been well over a month again and you have a lot of things to talk about. so get on it, eh?

long live the king.

brighter_days — Sat, 29 Aug 2009 05:10:16 GMT

hey guys! i'm michael jackson. as you may recall, i dropped 1 million dollars to create the most fantastical documentary ever, "THRILLER". maybe you've heard of it?

i took my girl out for a ride, and we ran out of gas in the middle of the woods. convenient, right?

then i turned into this badass werewolf and i was totally gonna devour that bitch...

lol, syke! we were just watching a movie and nom'ing on some tasty ass popcorn. course, that ho had to go get all scared and shit and peaced out. GIIIRL, i wasn't finished with my popcorn!

that girl tried to act like she wasn't scared....... she was scared.
so we left.

and from this point, the ~magic begins.

girl had no idea, but shit was about to get real.

i mean, real.

then, this happened:

and it was fucking epic.

cause, as you know, i can thrill you more than any ghost would ever dare try.

but you know, haters gonna hate. all these years later, people still talk shit about me. but you know what i say? i say:

any questions?

brighter_days — Wed, 26 Aug 2009 22:53:07 GMT

well, i'm back in school.
it's kicking my ass because i still haven't gotten on a regular sleep schedule.
some nights i'm still up til 3am and then have to drag myself outta bed at 6:30 or so to get ready and head out the door by 7:30ish.

i'm not ready for summer to be over. this summer was not at all what i expected. i need more time to adjust to some things.

i don't feel like writing right now, i just wanted to let you guys know that i'm alive and well.

make it stop.

brighter_days — Wed, 03 Jun 2009 17:36:32 GMT

i have come to the conclusion that celebrities and the internet kind of disgust me these days. people are WAY too obsessed with celebrities! i used to enjoy reading the posts on "oh no they didn't", but it is just way too ridiculous for me anymore. every little thing they do is scrutinized, even shit that is completely unimportant, like a celeb NOT buying a certain brand of clothes because they want to save a few dollars, or where so and so ate lunch. it's just fucking stupid. and then the celebrities themselves have completely gotten out of hand. everyone twitters, blogs, myspaces, facebooks, whatever. how can you bitch about not having privacy if you put it all out there? how can you bitch about the paparazzi if you're ALWAYS out and about, at clubs, shopping, whatever? i mean, in a way, it's nice that some stars are making themselves more 'accessible' by interacting with fans and crap, but it's just gone too far, i think. we do NOT need to know every little detail of these people's lives! the constant barrage of media is absurd. i would hate to wake up every day to a swarm of paparazzi outside of my house, to not be able to take a walk without having my picture taken 100 times and people bitching about my hair, outfit, and every word that comes out of my mouth. everywhere you turn, there is a new 'scandal', and most of the time, it's over completely inane shit. and don't get me started on all the 'celebrity feuds'. so fucking stupid. ugh. i watched some of the mtv movie awards the other night, for the first time in i don't even know how many years... i just couldn't believe how fake and completely void of any sort of actual... function it served. it was so disconnected, i could hardly even follow what the fuck was going on. it makes me kind of sad to think that this is the world we live in. the economy is shit, people are losing jobs and struggling to get by, but magazines can pay millions of dollars for the first 'exclusive' pictures of someone's baby. actors and actresses get paid fucking 10 MILLION or more to make a fucking movie. that's like, what, 3 months of work, for more than some people probably earn IN THEIR LIFETIMES. it's sickening. when did the brains of the masses get so screwed up that our priorities ended up here?

do we really need to know/see pictures of ______ walking down the street? taking out the trash? going to starbucks? fuck no.

i could go on forever about this... but i'll stop here. seriously, i just want to know why society has gotten so out of control with celebrity obsession in the past couple of years.

only a few days left...

brighter_days — Mon, 11 May 2009 05:00:39 GMT

i really don't mind the energy i get from being on prednisone, but let me tell you, the constant hunger thing is really annoying me! i feel like i need to constantly be munching on something, and there really isn't anything i want to eat in this house. i want some wheat thins. don't have any. i also want some popcorn, but that's really not a good idea with my guts right now. god, i would love a huge bowl of air-popped popcorn drenched in melted butter. my face hasn't started to get puffy yet... but i'm sure it will soon enough...

in the middle of last week i took all of my clothes out of my closet and dresser and sorted through everything. i took an egg crate full of stuff to the consignment shop we have in town, and apparently i'll get back 60% of whatever they sell, so that's cool. i had a lot of nice jeans that were barely worn that i just couldn't wear anymore, so i hope i can make some money back from them. it felt good to get rid of all of that stuff, though. then of course, i had the dilemma of putting everything away again. i finally did it today, though. and that felt good, too. from this point, moving back to normal in a month will be easy. i'd say about 80% of my stuff is still in boxes anyways, and everything else is mostly my clothes, which i won't repack anyways, because i can just hang them up in my dad's trailer, plus a couple of boxes worth of stuff i'll have to pack. it'll be unpacking once i move in that'll be a bitch, because i'll actually have to get everything out of the boxes.

i feel good about the tests i had last week. i got an A- on my math test, i'm sure i got an A on my a&p test, and i feel like i probably pulled off an A on my chem test as well. so now i just have my finals. i can't really find the motivation to study for them, but i know i need to. i think the math test will be alright... the a&p test will be long, because it's all writing about the various body systems and there's just a lot of shit to regurgitate... and the chem test, well, i don't know. i really need to study for it, but 10 chapters worth of stuff? holy cow. it's going to be a scantron test (all multiple choice), which could be potentially really good or bad. if i can get an 85 on it, i'll have an A guarenteed for the semester. dang, that would make me happy. i don't have classes tomorrow, so maybe i'll focus all of my steroidal energy on re-reading my notes and shit.

i have a final at 12 on tuesday, and 7:45 wednesday and thursday. ugh. i hate early finals, but i always seem to wind up with most of mine being that way. but, after that... i'm done with lakeland, and this time, for real.

gotta keep the positive vibes flowing. only a few more days of pounding my head full of information.

it's such a sunday.

brighter_days — Sun, 15 Mar 2009 18:47:48 GMT

man, i hate not being able to use my computer. i got it to work for about a half hour or so today, then the adapter died again. i need to just give in and spend the money to replace it. i just don't want to have to put almost $100 on a credit card. i'm never going to pay off my damn credit cards. but, i'm not left with much of a choice right now.

as far as my midterms have gone, so far, so good. i got an A+ on my a&p midterm (flexes muscles) and an A- on my chem midterm. i have my math midterm on monday and even though i've been struggling with the last two things we learned, i think i'll manage to do alright. monday i also have my a&p practical, which is an identification test over the models of the brain, spinal cord, and eye. i'm pretty sure i'll ace it as well, because i've done well on all of the practice tests we've done. so, hooray for kicking ass at school! i honestly don't think i've ever put as much consistant time and effort into studying and keeping up with all of my work. i've had several days where by early evening i have been absolutely exhausted and my brain has been numb from reading, writing, and processing information. i just have to keep reminding myself it will all be worth it. though, the sense of accomplishment is pretty great, too.

as far as the health shit goes, nothing has gotten worse, thankfully. but i don't know that the antibiotics have caused much improvement. i go to the doctor on wednesday to discuss what's next. i don't really want to speculate on it too much right now, because i'm trying to stay positive about everything. i just hope everything goes alright.

i don't even know what else to write about now. i just got done reading through about 20 pages (at 20 entries per page) of my f-list to get caught up from when i was last logged on here. ugh. too much f-list and not near enough of it was worthwhile. i need to take some communities off of my f-list, because having every entry show up is just taking up waaay too much space. this is a pointless paragraph.

assuming everything goes as planned, chase and i will be going on vacation in three weeks. i'm so excited. it's so soo sooo needed and it's going to be great!

...

brighter_days — Tue, 03 Mar 2009 04:28:30 GMT

some days, it takes everything i've got to not just bang my head against a wall repeatedly.

i am just so sick of this shit. fucking seriously.

mmm...

brighter_days — Thu, 29 Jan 2009 17:26:07 GMT

YES, PLEASE!

everything can wait as long as it has to

brighter_days — Thu, 29 Jan 2009 02:53:08 GMT

i think this is one of the first times ever where i haven't completely hated the snow. i wasn't a big fan of almost getting my car stuck trying to get in to a parking lot today and then almost not being able to get it out, but otherwise... it's been okay. it was really sunny today so the main roads have either melted or been plowed enough that they weren't a problem to drive on. and, school got canceled, which is always kind of nice. although, i wish it would have gotten canceled yesterday when i had to be there at 8am! i'm still ready for summer, though...

i got a big sigh of relief today. last week i had sent a message to my potential roommate, eric, and i hadn't gotten a reply from him at all. in the message i had told him how another girl contacted me about being roommates and if i should go ahead and tell her i found someone already. i also asked about what his schedule was like for the day i would be up there next month. so, i was a little freaked out when a week passed and i hadn't gotten a response. i tried to give it a few days before i sent another message so i wouldn't look like some sort of psycho. apparently he thought he had sent a message so something must have messed up. but anyways, he's still interested in being my roommate. and i posted the meme where you write 25 things about yourself, and he said that he thought we were a 'match made in heaven' as far as roommates go. haha. i'm so glad this is working out, i think that i'm going to end up with an awesome roommate!

i'm totally loving all of the new music i've downloaded. i haven't heard anything i haven't liked yet! i definitely need to thank stefanie for some of them. and there is still the opportunity for any of you to suggest things for me to listen to! bands, albums, whatever. especially stuff from the past 2 years seems to be a good range. i know most of you listen to music similar to me, so please... enlighten me on what i might be missing out on.

not a whole lot else to write tonight. i'm going to be a huge nerd and start my a&p homework 5 days early. then start on some math homework that we won't go over until friday, maybe. ha.

woah oh oh

brighter_days — Mon, 26 Jan 2009 00:22:06 GMT

i even got a weiner whistle.

i babysat connor today while chase was at work. we watched all of the shrek movies, and a little bit of cars and the incredibles. we watched shrek 3 twice. luckily i like kids movies, and he was well behaved the whole time.

i really don't have anything else to write about.

♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪

brighter_days — Sat, 24 Jan 2009 05:26:38 GMT

since the only class i have on thursdays got canceled yesterday, i decided to take time to finally catch myself up on downloading music. i think i did pretty well, but i know that there are still probably a ton of good bands i'm missing out on.

but... here's what i ended up with:

andrew bird - noble beast
animal collective - merriweather post pavillion
bon iver - blood bank
bon iver - for emma, forever ago
bound stems - the family afloat
cold war kids - loyalty to loyalty
death cab for cutie - transatlanticism (mine copy is scratched to death)
deerhunter - microcastle
the format - interventions & lullabies (again, scratched)
gomez - how we operate (i used to have it, but it magically disappeared)
head automatica - popaganda
the helio sequence - love and distance
jimmy eat world - bleed american (cracked in half)
jimmy eat world - clarity (scratched)
mae - destination: beautiful (stolen long ago)
mae - the everglow
mindless self indulgence - if
neutral milk hotel - on avery island
of montreal - skeltal lamping
pinback - autumn of the seraphs
pinback - summer in abaddon
tv on the radio - dear science
umbrellas - illuminare
working for a nuclear free city - businessmen & ghosts

so far all of the new things i've listened to sound fantastic. it's seriously been a long time since i've really listened to anything outside of what i already had. so it's been quite refreshing. and please guys, if you have any more suggestions, send them my way. i think you can get an idea of what i like based on the above list... but i'm open to just about anything, really.

the only problem i've had is that the version of interventions & lullabies i downloaded is different than the album i have. most of the songs are the same but there are a few different recordings. and i'm not used to it, so i don't like it. so i might try to find one that is the same as mine. hrmph. oh, and it cracks me up that on my itunes, under the 'genres' column, the gomez album is listed as 'gospel'. hahaha.

oh, and i finally signed up on last.fm. if anything it's interesting to read the little profiles of each artist and see how many plays i've had for each artist and so forth. as you can see, i am years behind on everything interesting on the interwebz. what's next, my own tumblr? maybe. just maybe. i actually had an interesting idea to do for project 365... so i might kinda brainstorm a little further on the idea, and see if it would be worth it. it might make the whole process a little easier to keep up with.

by the way, does anyone have about $1500 they would like to donate to me? i need some material posessions, including but not limited to, a desk and a video camera. consider it a 'charitable cause'.

ok srsly...

brighter_days — Thu, 22 Jan 2009 20:15:41 GMT

I MUST CONFESS.

I AM HORRIBLY OBSESSED WITH LADY GAGA'S "JUST DANCE".
I SING IT CONSTANTLY.
I MAKE UP PARODIES FOR IT ABOUT MY CAT. AND CHASE.
I EVEN FINALLY DOWNLOADED IT SO I CAN LISTEN TO IT MULTIPLE TIMES A DAY.

*facepalm*

don't bother, i'll kick myself in the ass.

brighter_days — Tue, 13 Jan 2009 01:12:23 GMT

what the hell was i thinking by signing up for chem 2 when i haven't had a chemistry class since spring of 2006? there is no way in hell i would have made it through the semester. she gave us a review worksheet with stuff from chem 1, and i was quite lost. i vaguely remembered how to do some of it, but not well enough to feel certain of my answers. and since chem 2 picks up where chem 1 left off, i felt like it would be an absolute waste of time and money to try and keep up.

right after class i ran in to chase's brother cody and his girlfriend so i talked to them for a while. then they both went to class and i went to the computer lab to see if there were any open sections of chem 1. there was only one section for it, and it was full. but i decided to ask the instructor after the next class got out if i could get in anyways. he said it was fine by him, but i would have to go talk to the head of the science division to sign a blueslip for me to take to admissions. so, after my next class got out, i went and did that. so now i'll be retaking chem 1, which kinda sucks... but i should do even better in it than i did last time, so it will boost my gpa. and i plan on taking really good notes so i can have them to look back on in the future. because i know i have a few more chem classes ahead of me in the coming years, so i might as well make sure i know what i'm doing rather than trying to scrape by this year.

i've decided to blame my lack of memory in regards to my previous chemistry experience to smoking a lot of pot back then. lesson learned, i guess.

otherwise, i think my other two classes will be fine. finite math seems like it will kind of suck, but only in the aspect that pretty much all math classes suck to some extent. a&p will be the bomb diggity, pretty much. we get to do some case studies for a group project, and our teacher said he likes to call it "rounds", because it's like doing rounds at a hospital. we get a 'patient chart' and we have to diagnose the 'patient' and decide what actions we will take to help the patient and present the information to him. pretty sweet.

and in a nutshell, that was my first day back at college.

don't get any big ideas

brighter_days — Sun, 11 Jan 2009 06:28:05 GMT

alright, first off... if you have been planning to see 'the curious case of benjamin button', do it. chase and i went to see it a few nights ago, and it was excellent. it's about three hours long, but it doesn't seem like it! plus, brad pitt is both extremely hawt and the cutest little old man ever. srsly, just go see the movie.

so, i fiiiiiiinally go back to school on monday. anatomy & physiology, chem 2, and finite math. i thought about adding microbiology, but none of the sections would fit into my schedule whatsoever. not a big deal. i need to go buy some notebooks and folders because i like to be all super organized and shit, and i know from experience with the professors teaching the classes that a lot of note-taking is required. and since i'm such a fucking nerd, i will gladly admit that i'm excited about going back to class. except for thursday morning, when i have to be there for my chem lab at 8-fucking-am (for a two and a half hour lab, ahem). and this is with a half hour drive, plus time to get ready in the morning. hello, i am NOT a morning person. i imagine i will be spending many wednesday nights at chase's house in order to reduce the ungodly suffering i will have to endure.

omg segue! is it totally ridiculous that i realized that my school/work schedule totally works with my prime time tv viewing schedule??? i don't work mondays, which is when house will be on now. tuesday night is scrubs, but it's not on until 8 so i'll be home by then. and of course, thursday is the office, and i don't work that night, either. fucking awesome. because, i'll be honest... in the past i have specifically said that i couldn't work a certain night JUST so i didn't have to miss my programs. pretty much the entire time i worked at papa john's, i didn't work thursday nights simply because i didn't want to miss the office. wow... this makes me seem extremely pathetic, amirite?

chase and i decided not too long ago that we are going on a ROADTRIP for spring break! neither of us has ever gone anywhere for spring break, so it must be done. plus, we have tried several times to go places and it has always fallen through. and this will be one of the last opportunities we will get to do something like this for a while. by next year i will be up in normal and chase will be starting his haircutting career. we are going to go out to arizona (phoenix is the final destination, of course), but have several stops planned along the way and on the way back. it's going to be exciting. we're leaving our laptops at home. but the camera will record plenty of memories, for sure. ahhh. we are both so excited and if anything fucks this up, heads will roll.

back to school-ish things... another thing i'm looking forward to, aside from getting my learn on, is walking at the fitness center. i have at least an hour break between every class every day, so i'm going to use one of them to walk for a half hour to forty-five minutes every day. maybe i'll even jog once i get my muscles built up a little. yes, at this point i need to build up my muscles to actually be able to jog. any time i have tried a slight jog or sprint (like to get from my car to inside the house or something) my legs just feel weak or like they might give out. that just shows the full extent of how bad things got this summer when i was sick. and part of the extent of the deterioration is my own lack of motivation to exercise, but i am really going to start trying. just like with the vitamins, i just need to do it, like it or not. and speaking of which, i have been doing a pretty good job of staying with it. most days i don't end up taking both of my iron pills, but i'm at least getting one of them in. the problem with them is that i'm supposed to take them on an empty stomach an hour before or 2-3 hours after a meal. sometimes it's hard for me to find a time like that in my day without it being late at night. but otherwise, i'm doing a good job of keeping up with them. and likewise, i hope i do a good job of keeping up with my exercising and can build up my muscle strength more.

after reading a post stefanie made about having a better outlook on life and having more fun, i decided to do the same. i get so bent out of shape over the circumstances i'm faced to live with that i forget to have fun sometimes. i need to stop being so grumpy and start enjoying life more. i mean, yeah, some days really are a struggle for me and due to my health i just can't get out and do things sometimes. but i have been restricting myself way too much and making way too many excuses for why i don't do things. in 2007 i was always out doing things and having fun (til near the end of the year when i really wasn't feeling so hot and dealing with depression a bit) and i hardly do that at all anymore! granted, a lot of things were different, but none the less... i should be having more fun in life. i'm too young not to. i've already started making myself thing more positive, and it's worked. the other night when i went over to chase's, within a few minutes he commented on the change in my attitude. it made me feel good. so add this to the list of 'things i hope i can keep up'.

i guess i really need to start writing more often, because apparently i have a lot to say. oh, and i'm thinking about getting myself a paid account (as soon as i have a few pennies to spare) just so i can have more icons. i'm not pleased with only having the few i have. i need more house emoticons!