bmoult46

bmoult46 — Mon, 02 Aug 2010 20:06:12 GMT

Things that have been going on:
I've been watching scifi shows lately.
And I am now reading Oliver Twist.
And I'm really enjoying working at Dunkin.
And I'm trying to go to India sometime in the near future to teach English.

That's weird how every one of those statements are things I never expected from myself.
Good job branching out, me.

bmoult46 — Fri, 09 Jul 2010 05:15:43 GMT

I don't have forever, but I live like I do
Feels like endless summer with the light shining through
All I have is borrowed, my skin and my bones
All I have is borrowed, but I wear these summer clothes

Every thing is just fine
Every thing is just fine
So long as I'm by your side
It's perfect in my mind

I don't have a reason, but I live like I do
The sky could crash into the ground, and we like the view
The flood runs through the canyons in New York City
I know when the hurricane comes, it's comin' for me

Every thing is just fine
Every thing is just fine
So long as I'm by your side
It's perfect in my mind

No one needs to save me
I'm already saved
No one needs to save me
I'm already saved

Every thing is just fine
Every thing is just fine
So long as I'm by your side
It's perfect in my mind
It's perfect in my mind
It's perfect in my mind

bmoult46 — Sun, 04 Jul 2010 16:10:28 GMT

Uhhh this reasonably decent summer just moved into stressful territory due to unbelievable circumstances.

I feel like going to Paris right now would be such perfect timing.

Things I'd Rather Be Doing:

bmoult46 — Mon, 22 Mar 2010 04:54:57 GMT

... instead of still being at college...

1. reading for long periods of time without wasting the whole day... specifically outside
with sunglasses
a. on my trampoline
b. by my pool in the sun
c. at the beach
d. at a LAKE. where it is mildly shady

2. listening to music in any of the said places above.. maybe not my trampoline, that's mostly ideal for reading.

3. movie marathons:(at night of course, no wasting of the daylight)
a. starwars
b. lotr
c. disney!
d. i'm sure there's others

4. Summer Things
a. campfires w/ smores
b. swimminggg (beach, pool, lake, resevoir, etc.)
c. fireworks!
d. Drive-In!
e. vacations with roadtrips and fun places to go like:
i. the beach, lake, etc
ii. old shopping places!
iii. the book barn!!
iv. fun places to eat!
v. sights and stuff, museums, whatever

any of these said things would be most ideal with friends... family can annoying.. sorry.

f. Hiking though! That I would do with family.

5. Oh and shopping! I want summer dresses and summer clothes so then I can wear them. In the beautiful weather. =)

Delaware, you are too crowded. I miss the forest. One more week!

p.s. i can't believe it's only March...
p.p.s. Yay list-making!

IT IS A GOOD DAY.

bmoult46 — Thu, 04 Mar 2010 18:57:34 GMT

Reasons why:
1. GOOD OLD WAR!! playing at my school tonight. and i get to see them!!! =) FOR FREE!
2. ALICE IN WONDERLAND!! midnight showing! in 3D!! and i get to see it. =D
3. JIM AND PAM HAVE A BABY!! tonight!! ... i may not get to see this until tomorrow. =( But still! It's happening.

ASLDFKGHSDFLHJK!!!

I am excited.

Ob-La-Di, Ob-La-Da, Life Goes On

bmoult46 — Thu, 25 Feb 2010 07:35:25 GMT

(Bra La La how the life goes on.)

bmoult46 — Sat, 09 Jan 2010 07:26:13 GMT

I feel like this should be like a "hey its 2010" and i should talk about stuff that has happened since my last post. like xmas.. being home.. etc. etc.
but life is lame currently and all i can think of is all the sucky stuff going on. which also sucks. and that was the point, i guess, of me posting. to say that.

bmoult46 — Mon, 14 Dec 2009 23:03:18 GMT

that last subject title was a little overdramatic... im hoping i used that mostly because of the cranberries...

umm blah de blah. i can't concentrate at all and i just DONT CARE about my calculus final which means I am going to fail. most certainly. =/
But at this point... I'm not even caring about that I just want it to be XMAS! And to be home. I do care about my french final however, and studying for that will be 100 times easier to do.

asdlkgjasdglkas. I'm also sick. I want to go home already!

Fin.

Oh, my life is changing every day, in every possible way

bmoult46 — Mon, 28 Sep 2009 03:45:42 GMT

I've been doing literally everything possible other than writing my essay, so why not procrastinate some more?

College is getting better. The weekends are kinda slow because half of the people i have befriended go home on the weekends.
I saw Sweeney Todd this weekend! That was awesome. and mildly disturbing. But it was great.
Anddd I really wanna see Away We Go on Wednesday. really bad. That was a great movie.

October is cominggg. And that's my favorite month.
It means pretty leaves.
And my birthday.
And I'm visiting home finally!
So three really great things.

Also the Cranberries are great. There are so many songs that I didn't realize I knew that were by them. I like when that happens: When you download a band because you're interested in them only to realize that you already liked them and didn't realize who they were specifically at the time.

I'm in a happier mood than I was for the first couple weeks here in De. Improvement! It happens, I guess.

So i'm at college now.

bmoult46 — Sun, 06 Sep 2009 04:06:23 GMT

And it's alright. I met some nice people on my floor and they're cool. But...

a) they are not as cool as my friends back home.

b) i can't believe im not doing band! how am i not in the marching band!?? i miss banddddd.

c) I miss my family, my friends, tom, ct, and my catttt a whole lot. not necessarily in that order.

Last day in CT?!?!

bmoult46 — Thu, 27 Aug 2009 04:51:09 GMT

worry worry worry worry worry worry worry worry worry worry worry worry worry sadness.

bmoult46 — Tue, 25 Aug 2009 19:45:18 GMT

Hi. I'm going to complain about college again. This is why:

A) I am completely convinced that no one I meet will be close to as cool as the friends I already have.

B) All I wanna do is go to band camp this week, ok??

C) I do not want to leave Ninja. At all.

I don't want to worry whether we're going to be together till we die.

bmoult46 — Fri, 21 Aug 2009 21:16:15 GMT

I'm feeling super nostalgic today. I'm sad about leaving - I don't want to do it. There's too many people I will miss and there are some that I worry about. I worry I won't be able to stay in contact with some of them and I don't want that to happen.

bmoult46 — Sun, 09 Aug 2009 05:01:24 GMT

I'm in a really good mood right now.
But I really kind of don't want to go to college. There is nothing college related that makes me excited enough to make me want to really go. But there are many reasons why I'd rather be home.

Mornings are an ok thing?

bmoult46 — Fri, 07 Aug 2009 00:03:47 GMT

Hey. so now that I have a job, I get up at 730 on weekdays and I'm done at 215. But then I realized that days go on for a long time, so I still have a whole half a day left practically to do anything I want. This was like an epiphany that came way too late into summer. I pretty much slept half of everyday until my job started and now I realize that days are long and I have been wasting them. I was driving home at 730 today and the sun was only just starting to set, it's amazing! I've been up for a whole 12 hours and the day is not over! And working today seem soo long ago? It's weird.
And! This epiphany made me totally appreciate my new class schedule with ALL 8 o'clock classes. I don't know how long this appreciation of the morning will last but I feel pumped about it currently.
Speaking of classes - my new schedule is all set and I'm taking really awesome classes as opposed to what I was taking. And it's all just so much better now. My day is over at 1 on tuesdays and thursdays and at 215 on mon, wed, and friday. Which is so nice.
Starting yesterday the whole second half of my week has been bunches of fun. All is well right now. Good good good. =)

bmoult46 — Thu, 30 Jul 2009 21:19:33 GMT

Fml. That is all. F. M. L.

Now I can't wait to go to NY.

bmoult46 — Tue, 28 Jul 2009 05:31:41 GMT

What is this? Consistent updates? Well, I promise it won't last, don't worry.

While I still agree with the whole time sucks bit, but I suddenly feel really relieved concerning the college issue. Not going to college, but what I plan on doing there. Stuff is starting to fall in place and I actually found the thing that works for me major-wise. Turns out some people are actually really helpful with that kind of stuff when you have no idea. The point is, I am feeling much more confident and relieved about the whole thing. The last email I just read from some advisor person was like a huge huge sigh of relief. I was really worried/lost for some time there. I guess more so than I realized.
And! Oh good news! I can actually keep learning a language which was not going to be possible at all, but now it is. =)

Stuff that I have to wait for that I don't want to:
- seeing the bf. grumble.
- going to NY, enjoying it and then being back already
- finding out my roommate
- getting that two week job over with
- other assorted events (mainly grad parties) in which i get to see the friends

Stuff that is coming whether I like it or not and I really really could wait forever until it came - which means never coming at all:
- The end of summer.
- College.

Ok so those two are the same thing really. Whatever.
Other than those impending downers, I'm feeling pretty good.

Another thought.

bmoult46 — Mon, 27 Jul 2009 06:02:33 GMT

Apparently there is a lot my brain wants to say today...

I hate time. Time is so so so stupid. Why is that we never get enough time to spend with the people we like a lot? I mean we all get a decent amount of time - but in comparison to all the other stuff we're all so busy doing? Not enough. We literally spend our whole lives working or going to school or doing other general stuff that we just have to do - according to society. and our mothers. And we do all that until we are old enough to not work. Or have fun. And if we're lucky we'll get in a sufficient amount of time with loved ones to satisfy us enough. That is such crap!
And another thing! I mean this is cliche but it still should be addressed: the fact that everytime we have to wait and wait for something we're looking forward to time seems to slow down and it's annoying and unbearable. But then the moment it comes it's like time decides to make up for going so slowly and rush past us and all of sudden it's over. ughhhh. what crap! what shit! I hate it. I would like time to at least stay steady, ideally reverse those two feelings, but just even would be good enough for me. I mean, technically, I know, time is always steady. There is maybe nothing more steady than time, but! It still sucks that it can trick us so much. And I don't like it.
And now I finally understand that Smashing Pumpkins song... that's slightly comforting. English is not my forte...

bmoult46 — Mon, 27 Jul 2009 00:26:42 GMT

Half of me really wants to get away from everything and not be home anymore because people piss me off. The other half doesn't want to go to college at all and never wants to leave because there are people I love and also my future is so unfigured out it is scary. Both of these are really strong wants. So now what?

bmoult46 — Mon, 20 Jul 2009 07:35:52 GMT

Ladeedah. posting another entry. Because I never do.
I made lists today. I like lists. And I never usually have the patience to make them because I'm not a patient person at all. But today I actually made lists and it was a good time.
Blah, I want to do something exciting sometime... why does summer get so boring so fast?
I also miss Tom. Seeing him only once a week is really sucky. And you know what, he really is terrible at keeping in contact and being a boyfriend during the week and then i get mad. but then i see him on saturdays and then I'm all happy again. And it actually makes me mad that he can make me unmad so fast. But other than that, everything's peachy keen and I'm happy as a clam.
I also finished a puzzle the other day. It was quite fun. Finished puzzles are so satisfying.
So I got kind of a job for two weeks in August. Hopefully when that starts I'll actually stop sleeping for half of every day. It will be good to have something I have to get up and do especially since it won't be too awful or boring or anything. And getting paid well. That's always good too.
And so that's a lot of random thoughts put together in one thing which now probably sounds really all over the place, but oh well. That's how it's gonna be.

oh hey there LJ.

bmoult46 — Sat, 27 Jun 2009 04:00:12 GMT

How have you been? I haven't been here in a while.
Like the new icon pictures? I do.

Blah. Things in my head. Too tired to organize and put stuff down in actual sentences.
I do a good job of actual using this thing for what it's for, huh?
I want it to be.... hm. December would be nice. Or no. That's if I had to look forward and pick something. Ideally, I would like it to be.... how about this past May? Late may was fun.
You know what I just realized? I must be in such a bad mood lately because there's nothing exciting about to happen at all. I have nothing to look forward to at all. Damn. That is sad. Something needs to be planned asap, so I have something to be excited about.
Well, let me clarify that. There are some parties going on soon that will be fun - I love seeing all my friends and everything. But there is nothing super exciting in the near or far future that could make me really pumped. You know, like Disney world. Or a concert. Or the end of school or something like that.
You know what is in my future? A job. Also leaving friends for college. So those will make for good times...

I really like Fall.

bmoult46 — Sun, 02 Nov 2008 02:52:45 GMT

I have too many thoughts in my head. Toooo many. If I knew lyrics there would probably be some random song in here to express how pensive i feel.
Today i had to rake leaves. My mother thought this was a punishment except it wasn't all.
To Becky: remember that time we were walking in leaves and it came up to our knees? Well, there is apparently a whole lot more leaves than that in my own front yard. There are about seven giant piles in my yard that are all bigger than the one we made by a lot. If it had been possible to get my feet all the way to the bottom of the pile, the leaves would have been up to my waist.
So raking leaves ended up being a blast. And after I was done, i layed down in them and almost fell asleep.

bmoult46 — Sun, 19 Oct 2008 19:35:36 GMT

(Guys! My birthday is in three days!!)

bmoult46 — Tue, 26 Aug 2008 23:12:03 GMT

my computer just went really really bright. all on it's own.
everything is so so white right now - except for the parts that aren't.
i felt like telling someone.

Oh, life...

bmoult46 — Fri, 22 Aug 2008 18:17:44 GMT

you know that saying, "if you look good, you feel good."
well that is wrong. wrong i say - at least for me.
for some reason my body decided to get a cold in the middle of summer and now i feel like a moldy sack of potatoes.
at the same time, my hair decided to look really pretty after my shower and my skin is all nicely tanned from hours of band camp.
so now i look pretty decent, and i feel like crap.
ahaha, awesome.