Thinking out loud

iZOMBiE Friending Meme

bm_shipper — Sun, 27 Dec 2015 17:35:58 GMT

Because I have BY FAR not enough "iZOMBiE" Fans on my f-list and due to the fact that "iZOMBiE" doesn't even have it's own community here on LJ, I thought/hoped I could find some more friends due to a friending meme... especially because this show is SO important to me at the moment and I'm loving it so much and talking about it a lot too... :) Feel free to share this meme on your own f-list and I don't know... in some groups/communities here maybe? Although I wouldn't know exactly WHERE to share it...

Also: be aware that I have a VERY strange taste in characters/pairings sometimes, so if you can't deal with that you're probably wrong here :P (Live and let live so to speak :P)

Another important note: I won't add people back who "just add" me randomly (even for this friending meme), because you should at least comment if you add me, why you add me... and we should at least have 2 or 3 fandoms in common... I hope, this is okay for you!

So let the fun begin ;-)

I would love if you could PIMP this for me =)

Just copy and paste and people will find here easily :)

Just because I haven't done a meme in a while... ;-)

bm_shipper — Mon, 14 Dec 2015 20:01:50 GMT

GIVE ME A CHARACTER(S) AND I WILL TELL YOU...

Sexuality Headcanon:
A ship I have with said character:
A BROTP I have with said character:
A NOTP I have with said character:
A random headcanon:
General Opinion over said character:

You can give me more than 1 character if you want =D

Wohooooooooooooooo! \o/

bm_shipper — Mon, 12 Jan 2015 17:59:47 GMT

CBS renews Madame Secretary, NCIS: New Orleans & Scorpion for a 2nd season

Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay!
The good news keep rolling in... I'm watching 2 of those 3 shows and that makes me really, really happy :D
And I'm all excited about it...

I seriously didn't expect so much good news this tv-show season, so I'm a happy camper right now =D

And I definitely needed that today...
I feel like I'm 100 years old... Since last night I have the worst back pain ever (because very luckily I don't know back pains usually). I got 3 injections at the doctor's office and a sick note, even though I'm not working right now anyway, but for the job center, because I can barely move and if it won't get better, I won't be able to go to my appointment in 3 days... so yeah... let's just hope it will be better by then... god, I hate this... and I feel so lucky that I never had to deal with back pain like that before, but it's horrible atm. I did not much besides "laying around" all day...

Huge F-list Cut!

bm_shipper — Mon, 05 Jan 2015 08:46:29 GMT

I just cleaned out my LJ!

And made a HUGE F-list Cut, I think the biggest I've ever done. I "threw off" everyone who hasn't updated in months (and there were many of those people) and also some that probably DO update but we never really "clicked" or some I don't feel like are still interested in me...

I write a lot of personal stuff in here and if you don't even read it or can't drop a comment from time to time, how should I know you're still interested in me?

Of COURSE I am only human, so if you feel like I deleted you by "mistake", feel free to drop a comment and we can talk and I can explain why I felt like I had to delete you (or if it was really an accident), but other than that? NO hard feelings from my side...

I wish you all - the ones I deleted (if they ever read this) good luck in your life, it was nice to have met you =D

If you can't read THIS entry, it means you're not on my f-list anymore!
Otherwise you're good =D

Comments here are screened - just in case someone wants to "talk" =D

Let's play a game... =)

bm_shipper — Fri, 19 Sep 2014 18:26:59 GMT

Something malicat just recently did, inspired me to start something similiar... just not with several rounds, only that 1 :) I thought it could be fun... =)

I've cut out the eye-parts of 20 pictures of Celebrities and I'm gonna post them underneath the Cut and you all are allowed to guess who it is.

Tips:

*No one is in the list twice*
*There are 8 girls/women and 12 guys/men in that list*
*I have a "connection" to all of them somehow aka at least mentioned them once in my journal at some point*
*They are not ALL "new" crushes of mine, some of them I haven't talked about in a while*
*They are mostly actors, but also 1 singer is in that list*

Rules:

*The comments are screened*
*Anyone who is here on my f-list can try and guess*
*Try to guess as many as you can or want*
*You have time until Monday, 21st September Midnight to place your guesses*

Prices:

*1st price: 1 Loom Bracelet of your choice (aka style & Color) and I'm gonna ship it to you on my own costs, no matter where you're from - OR, if you absolutely don't want a bracelet: 20 icons of your choice, no matter if I know the fandom or not - OR, if you don't want that either: 1 Header or 1 Wallpaper of your choice*
*2nd price: 15 Icons of your choice*
*3rd price: 10 Icons of your choice*

Each correct guess means 1 point so 20 points at most are possible, but I think some of them are quite tricky :)

Good luck!!!

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Good luck everyone =D

Wolf's Bane 2 - Sunday, 13th July 2014

bm_shipper — Thu, 17 Jul 2014 17:55:49 GMT

Last but not least, let’s come to Sunday, shall we? :-) And it might not be as long as Saturday, but we’ll see… =)

Fiona, Isabel and me got up around 7:45 and got ready to take the bus around 9 to the train station from where we would go to the Convention Centre again, and let me tell you: Even though it’s probably more “complicated” NOT to stay in the Con hotel and having to “travel” there every day: It was SO worth it, considering how much money I saved this way. Not even with the busses and taxis it was even remotely the price I would have to pay for the Con Hotel. Which would have been 45 £ ONE night, so with staying 4 nights (what we did) that would have been 180 £ total. I paid 46 £ for FOUR nights and like I already mentioned: The room was gorgeous and big and clean and it was just SO worth the money…

Anyways…

Stage talks would start at 10 a.m. but because I wanted to “meet up” with Wayne before to ask again if I could retake my pictures we were there a bit earlier (around 9.30) and I started looking for Wayne but couldn’t find him. And so I asked one of the other Rogue stewards but they told me he won’t be “here” for a while. I explained to them what my problem is and the girls told me to go to the Dealer’s room and talk to Donna.

Who I couldn’t find either.

But there was another girl standing there with a picture who had the same “problem” I had and was just waiting for instructions of what to do. It took a bit but then Brian (I think was his name) came up to us and asked us how he could help him. We explained our problem with the pictures and he told us we could retake them – no problem – but have to leave the originals with him. Which OF COURSE was no problem. I mean, I was so unhappy with them that I didn’t want them anyways, and same counted for the other girl.

So I got 2 new coupons for Daniel and Stephen (the girl for Tyler) and yes… I can tell you that I was the happiest person in the world in that moment. I would have NEVER imagined that it would work out for me. I was convinced – since it really was my fault – that they wouldn’t care, but they did (or at least Brian did) and he was totally sweet and understanding and it made me so happy.

I also spontaneously decided – because I had 40 £ left and it wouldn’t have been worth it to “re-change” them again in Euros because of the high fees – to either buy one more autograph (Tyler’s), or another photo op – either JR’s or Tyler’s.

I ended up buying a picture with JR – seriously? Best decision ever. At least that’s how I feel now, because I’m completely in love with our picture, but more about that later… =)

I went to the Panel room – where Fiona and Isabel had already reserved seats – and waited for the “Opening Announcements” for the day and the first thing they did was showing some kind of “plan” on the screens for what pictures would be taken today.

Thing is: It wasn’t planned to do ANY singles that day, only doubles, but for the people who missed theirs the other day they did and they also sold a few more. And there were a LOT more combinations available than usually planned. Like only then did I find out that it WOULD HAVE been possible to get a Daniel/Holland double *sighs* That would have been my complete dream and I would totally have sacrificed one of my Holland Singles to have that one, but so what? Hopefully I’ll get another chance at some point and if not I won’t die either. At least I’ve met them both.

They obviously ALSO sold Ian/JR doubles – which hadn’t been planned either, and same goes for Tyler/JR ones… so obviously every possible combination.

(Announcement for the doubles and such)

Anyways…

The first photo shooting of the day was Adam & Stephen. Although it wasn’t really a “double combination” but moreso single pics of them. And so I went to the hallway in front of the photo studio and everyone was brought to the room next to it and the Rogue staff made different queues for the different combinations, starting with Adam Singles, Stephen Singles, Adam/Stephen Doubles – IF there were some (there were like 3 or 4 *lol*) and then they already started lining up with Daniel Singles, JR Singles, Tyler Singles, and so on… It was pretty much interesting. I told them when I walked in that I had 3 singles and asked what I’m supposed to do and they told me that I have to line up for Stephen and then after my picture is taken come back to the room and line up for Daniel, and that I have to do the same after Daniel for JR’s picture…

Oh well…

I was already fully aware what that meant: I would miss the “Twin Panel”… but that’s the price I had to pay for wanting my pics retaken and so I definitely can’t and won’t complain.

Adam was done pretty quickly but he was still “shooting” when we were brought in the next room and he seemed to be pretty funny and relaxed. And definitely was willing to do poses too. He wasn’t asked that much, but a few people did want him to.

Adam stepped aside and then it was Stephen’s turn. Not many people here anymore either, and so it didn’t take long until it was my turn.

When I walked over to him he smiled at me saying “Oh, hey, you again” (so obviously he remembered me or my dress or whatever :P) and then said “So, what do you wanna do today?” and I told him “Actually, we have to retake yesterday’s picture” – and then I showed him the pose again since I had the picture with me and he said “Oh shit, sorry, what did I do wrong?” – I mean, how ADORABLE is that? – I told him “It’s not you, you were perfectly fine, you did everything right, but I completely messed up, looking stupid as fuck” and he replied with “Okay, let’s just do this together, I’ll help you”. Seriously, it’s a surprise I didn’t faint, because he was the absolute nicest. I put my arm up and he looked at me saying “You need to turn your head a bit and look down, okay?” and damn it… seriously. Everyone else probably wouldn’t have cared, but he did.

The picture was taken and I thanked him and was about to leave, but he grabbed my arm, pulling me back, saying “wait” and then he turned to the photographer saying “Show her the picture. This time it has to be perfect, and if it isn’t, we’ll retake it”… and yes… photographer showed me the picture, I thought it was really great, thanked him again and – after getting the usual card – left the room.

And couldn’t believe that REALLY happened…

I mean, the guy is the most adorable guy ever. And like I said, most others probably wouldn’t have cared but he seemed that he wanted to make really sure that this time I’m happy with the picture even though I messed it up myself and he had been completely perfect the first time…

(I completely love this picture, best ever :D)

I went – just as I was told – back into the other room and got into the queue for Daniel. It took a little while and when we finally were brought into the next room I got REALLY, really nervous again and I also wasn’t sure what I wanted to do with him. I mean, I DID have a picture with me but all of a sudden I wasn’t so sure anymore if I really wanted to “just” re-take the pose and risk it looking stupid AGAIN or if I should just go for another pose.

I was about to really freak out, but I got rid of my picture, took a deep breath and decided that – no – I don’t want the same pose, I wanna go for something different.

So when it was my turn and I walked over to him I simply asked him if we can hug and look at each other and he was completely fine with it. He even thanked me AGAIN for the fanbook – making once more sure that I know he remembered me – and well… before I left I asked him if I can get a hug, because I probably won’t see him again for quite some time.

And he said “Of course you can get a hug” and then he hugged me for a long moment and I was just so happy when I let go and left the room (after taking the card for collecting the picture).

(This is SO much better than the first attempt :D)

I usually DON’T do that. I’m usually NOT someone that asks for hugs (unless it’s on pictures) and especially not in a situation like that, but it’s Daniel and I knew I wouldn’t see him again for a while, if I even ever meet him again (I mean, who knows what the future brings?) and so I just had to go for it… and it’s not like I held him up for 10 minutes or such… so I guess it was okay… =)

The whole “game” started again and I went back into the other room queuing for JR. This time it took a while longer since they did all the doubles and triples that included Daniel and also some JR doubles before they did the JR singles, but I really didn’t have a problem with that. Especially since the room temperature was quite nice and we could sit down on the carpet floor while waiting. And I had a few nice chats with some of the girls waiting with me in line. It’s always nice to meet new people like that and “kill time”…

And then it was finally time for my JR picture. And when we were let into the room Tyler was still taking pictures and Ian and Daniel were ALSO still in the room, just sitting at the side and relaxing… It was… well… let’s just say it was a nice view.

And because I forgot to mention: During Daniel’s single shootings Ian, JR and Tyler were in the room as well, watching him “do his magic”. It was a difficult decision WHERE to look at in those moments. Like seriously. *lol* Should I drool over Ian sitting there all sexy with his scarf and his beautiful blue eyes or should I rather ogle Daniel who was sitting right next to him. Or should I probably watch what JR is doing with the other guys? *lol*

I had a pose for JR “printed out” and when it was my turn I walked over to him, he greeted me and asked me what I wanna do. I showed him the pose asking “Is it okay if we do that?” and he said “Yes, sure, of course, come here”, and then he placed his hands on my face and looked into my eyes. And damn, that guy has incredible eyes. I mean, I knew that before and I already HAVE a picture with him and me looking into each other’s eyes, but this one turned out even better.

(I don't know why I look so serious, but somehow I still like that picture and how it turned out :D)

After that I was finally able to go back to the Panel Room where the Double Panel of Adam and Stephen had already started when I came in. I didn’t miss extremely much, only a little bit, and I have to say: I underestimated BOTH of those guys, because they were just hilarious and funny. And both clearly have a pretty dirty mind :D But are both so different from each other.

Adam said that Derek and Harris have the same taste in women because they met when Derek was in juvie and Harris taught him everything he knows. (That’s obviously his head-candy how JR would put it into :D) I have to say Adam is quite intellectual, whilst Stephen is more of a gamer geek and very excitable.

They were both really great.

(Pictures from the Adam/Stephen Panel)

After that panel it was FINALLY time for the “Twin Double Shooting” I had with Isabel and I was so extremely excited about it. Like SERIOUSLY. I was looking forward to that shooting (even though it was the very last of this Con) ever since Isabel and me decided to do it and figured out a pose for the guys and the waiting in the “other room” felt like FOREVER.

And the twins had quite a long line.

When we were finally in the photo studio room I got really excited. Especially watching all those people taking pictures with the twins.

Most of them wanted a “double kiss” of the twins. Those guys must have pretty rough lips after that shooting because they completely “went for it” and kissed everyone who wanted to be kissed *lol* I almost felt sorry for them because SO many people wanted this and so when it was FINALLY our turn and I walked over to them, Charlie looked really excited.

He said “Oh hi, it’s you, I remember you” and that made me SO happy because I’m sure he has seen lots of other people the day before and also this day, but obviously I left an impression.

I then told them what we wanted, saying “So, we have a pose figured out” and Charlie said “Yes, I know, you mentioned that” and then I said “Well… let’s just say we’re on a double date and Max and I won’t stop flirting with each other while you and Isabel feel kinda embarrassed about that” :D

They both let out a laugh and seemed really amused.

I had NO idea what Charlie and Isabel were really doing or what face they were making because I was kinda busy ogling Max… and let me tell you, that was nice. He held onto me really tight and looked directly into my eyes and it was difficult to keep myself steady and not get weak in the knees, because damn, the way he looked at me was quite sexy.

They BOTH thanked us for the pose and then we said good-bye and left the room, making our way to the panel room, because we knew the Holland & Ian Panel would start soon, and that was something I definitely DID NOT wanna miss… :)

(This picture couldn't have been more perfect :D)

They were showing some TEEN WOLF Bloopers when we walked in and it was really funny, and I was just glad that I didn’t miss anything about that panel because it was one of the ones I REALLY wanted to see badly.

It didn’t feel long until the Ian/Holland Panel FINALLY started and let me tell you: those 2 have AMAZING chemistry together. And they seem to know each other REALLY, really well. And seem to genuinely like each other. That was visible in every single sentence they said.

Holland for example mentioned that whenever she has an audition coming up she goes over to Ian’s place and asks him for advice and help because he’s the “go-to-guy”. She also said she has told that to literally EVERYONE and now everyone else does it as well. Which was kinda funny. Poor Ian, but I’m sure he’s a great guy and loves to help them all.
Holland was asked what her favourite Disney Princess is and she said she used to pretend she was Ariel, brushing her hair with a fork and even taking swim and diving classes. So cute… :D

Holland also said Ian always says “I” when he actually means “we” and that he should learn to use the term “we” more, because that’s probably the reason he’s single :D

Their guilty pleasure is ice-cream and Ian’s guilty pleasure is also that he loves to listen to Katy Perry while Holland loves to watch “The Kardashians. They also said if they had a tv-show together it would be something about them decorating things, because that’s what they do when they are together. It was SO fucking adorable.

Someone asked about “Pydia” (Peter/Lydia), or rather what Ian thinks Lydia means to Peter, and what he said felt kinda “odd” *lol* Because Ian thinks Peter wants to protect Lydia, and he also said that Lydia is special to Peter, and that he might not be in love with her, but Lydia is the closest thing to “being in love” that Peter is capable of.
Holland disagreed with him. She thinks Lydia is only special to Peter because she resurrected him, and because he knew beforehand that she had some special powers and she thinks it’s kinda selfish for those reasons.
One of Ian’s favourite scenes with Holland was the one with half burned Peter and catatonic Lydia in that house, where she shared this “kiss” with “Young!Peter”. He loves the talk they had in this scene and said it was one of the best scenes for him.
They were also asked if any famous person – dead or alive – could be part of Lydia’s and Peter’s family tree, who it would be. Holland thinks Lydia is related to Albert Einstein while Ian thinks Peter must be related to Edgar Allen Poe :D
They were also asked about Fan-Art. Or rather what they do with the fanarts they get from the fans. Ian said especially the drawings he gives to his nieces because they love Teen Wolf and are always pretty excited about it. Holland said her mother is good at scrap-booking and keeps everything and kinda brags about it all the time because she’s so proud of her daughter and at Christmas it’s a tradition for them to look through them =D
Ian would love to do some scenes outside. It’s too dark in the loft and he’d like to get a tan.
If they were in a band Ian would play guitar and Holland would play electric ukulele. Ian said Dylan got Ian into drumming. He also mentioned that he is better because “Dylan can do a lot of things with his hands”.
Like OMG? *lol* I mean, that was SO funny, because everyone burst out laughing and he was confused for a moment, until he realized what he had just said. He rolled his eyes and said “That’s not what I meant.” He told us off for being dirty-minded :P
There’s a joke on set that no ones knows what Peter’s doing all alone in the loft all the time. “Every time I walk down the stairs in the loft Hoechlin looks at me and goes ‘What are you doing up there?’” Peter is probably just lurking around in the loft. Apparently there’s just a platform with DO NOT WALK on it and then a high drop.
Holland would like to do more scenes with Coach (Orny), while Ian would love to have more scenes with Stiles (Dylan).
I also asked a question at some point, because Ian had said at Alpha Con that “Peter” might get a love interest this season, and so I asked him if he can say anything more about it, but he told me he can’t, because of Spoilers and he would get in trouble for it. He also said that he’s not even sure anymore that it’s going to happen at all (which rather sounded to me like it WON’T and they changed their minds) and then asked the audience if they even would want Peter to get some love, but most people didn’t… so yeah… there’s that… :D

I don’t remember much else, but it was SUCH a great panel and I really had fun watching it… =)

(Pictures of Ian's and Holland's Panel - they put that twitter thingie on the screen too :D)

After that panel there was a lunch break and while Fiona stayed in the Panel Room Isabel and me got a sandwich and collected the pictures that had been ready until then (which were “only” Stephen and Daniel for that moment) and then went back into the panel room eating our sandwiches while some Teen Wolf Videos were shown.

Kinda relaxing and really great =D

There was only 1 more panel left after the break – which was the one that made my stomach hurt from laughing. The Daniel/Tyler/JR panel. Seriously, those guys are so completely crazy, I can’t even put it into words, but it was SO much fun =D

It started with the 3 chairs being like 1 metre away from each other, and it looked REALLY, really strange to be honest.

Also: Lots of people were starting to move forward in between the chairs (there was a row in the middle) to take a few pictures and so I decided to do the same. I mean, I assumed – like at other Cons – you can move to the middle, take a few good pics, and then go back – but somehow when I was kneeling down next to like Row 2 and took a few picture, no one ever came and in the end there were like 15 people crouched down there. But I mean, no one really complained (and if someone had, I would have gone back), and so no one obviously felt disturbed by it… so there’s that…

Anyways…

Like I said: they were kinda far away from each other but ended up moving the chairs towards each other. First it was Daniel taking his chair and moving it to Tyler’s (from my perspective) right side and JR “pouted” and wasn’t happy, so Daniel moved back, but then JR moved away from him and more towards Tyler and in the end they just moved their chairs closer together altogether. :D SO funny their “little game”. :D

At some point during that panel JR also explained the whole “Baby Monkey” incident again, cursing Daniel for finding that video and showing it to him because now it’s their new thing and it’s difficult to get it out of their heads again.
JR also mentioned this “Wiggle Wiggle” song and that he’s hearing it quite often and that it’s a thing between them. *lol*
Both songs that are hard to get out of my head again :D
They were asked if they liked to watch any of the “smaller” sports and Daniel said “curling”, which resulted in about five minutes dedicated to shouting “SWEEEEEEEEEEP!” and make the movements. JR joined in and then Hoechlin went “Nope!” and made them sit down when JR’s hand movements with the mike changed and became something a bit more dirty ;) (I already said some of the guys have a REALLY dirty mind :D
They also got asked the best and worst qualities of each other, for which JR went first. In regards to Hoechlin he said his best qualities are his support, unconditional love and friendship, and is worst is “He’s so damn fucking good looking”. For Daniel (or DD as JR called him) the unconditional support Daniel gives him is his best quality. He helped JR learn his lines for a play in one week without asking anything in return as well as taking notes whilst JR spoke with the director. For Daniel’s worst qualities he jokingly said: “We don’t have long enough. He’s so damn tall!”
Tyler said that JR is supportive and that Tyler really trusts him. When JR gives advice you can be sure he has your best interests in mind. JR looks out for him. He quickly sped past the idea of mentioned faults in his cast mate. For Daniel he said his best qualities were his enthusiasm and passion. Also “Daniel’s the only person as competitive as I am. I am not the only one who breaks things when he loses.”
Daniel commented saying Tyler is such a loyal and lovely person, and that when Daniel moved to the USA and started working on Teen Wolf Tyler was one of the first people he got along with. Daniel just wants to travel across the country and play with Tyler (“That would be the worst. The worst for them but the best for us!”) JR he said is supportive and always there for you, especially artistically.
Daniel really enjoyed doing Cassandra Clare audio book reading as he became attached to the characters and put accents to each of them.
When asked what Isaac would have done about Allison death, Daniel said he’d mourn her, like he heard they did on the show (and he never meant it in a good way!)

They also re-did the cats fucking noise from last year’s Pivot Questionnaire (I wasn’t there but saw a video) but did it as a contest. Both Tyler and Daniel looked extremely worried during JR’s turn and JR said his cat went through an entire life cycle and then died at the end. Daniel’s wasn’t too bad and much more realistic than JR’s. But seriously, I felt like dying, that was SO funny. And Daniel’s cat sounded more like a cat being hit by a car and not like a cat having sex, but okay… I haven’t really ever heard a cat having sex, I think *lol* Not that I remember.

On another note – and while I’m just thinking about it – I just remembered something Holland said during the Panel of her and Ian. She said that she’s NOT happy how the loss of “Jackson” was handled in case of Lydia and that she felt it was completely wrong for her to move on so quickly after playing it like he was the love of her life. She also said she found it awful that there was no funeral scene for Allison and that the “mourning period” was too short either. It did sound like she wasn’t exactly happy with a lot of things in the show and always said people should write Jeff – in a polite way, because otherwise he would do the exact opposite, and that Dylan is probably the only one Jeff REALLY listens to… well…

(Sorry, too many good pictures :D)

Anyways…

There was a short break after that during which Isabel and me decided to get our remaining pictures (which were the JR one and the Twin Double) and then we went back into the Panel room for the “Pivot Questions” and the Closing Ceremony.

For the “Pivot Questions” all 10 guests were on stage and there were 10 questions asked to either one of them… it was SO much fun.

Short mention: Max didn’t feel very well. He obviously had eaten Indian food the evening before and not really taken it well, and so he was EXTREMELY cuddly with Daniel. It was almost adorable. My gay friend was asking me later when I told him “you sure he’s straight?” *lol* Well… he should probably ask Holland that… :P

Anyways… here are some of the questions I remember :D

They were asked about their favourite word and I know Daniel said “Sweep”, and right afterwards it was the question about the least favourite word and Charlie said “sweep, on behalf of Max who’s going to kill you” *lol* Seriously, the whole “sweep” has really become a “thing” during the Convention. Adam’s least favourite word is “Itchy Cunt” :D They were also asked what turns them on… ahem… :D (I wonder who asked those questions because Flash had a whole list of those questions he asked them, but I have no idea where they came from) – anyways – Adam said “a good spanking” turns him on while Ian said “Women” :) Who would have guessed? :P Holland said Feminine nerds turn her on. So adorable. Charlie is obviously turned on by ugly crying *lol* Next question was what turns them off and Stephen’s reply was “ugly crying” this time, while Charlie said “not a damn thing” and JR replied with “Itchy Cunts”, they turn him off :D Favourite curse words – for Tyler it was “son of a bitch” – because you can use it so often, JR said “cuntybollocks” while Holland went for “son of a bitch” as well and Ian said “motherfucker”. Daniel’s favourite curse word is “cunt” XD
Another question was the favourite sound of them… and OMG… Stephen replied with “Female Orgasm” and JR said something (I don’t remember what) when someone in the audience screamed “JR wouldn’t know what that sounds like” *lol* Kinda mean, but JR laughed his ass off about that. Charlie added his favourite sound was “hearing that happen” – I assume he meant the orgasm as well :P
They were also asked about their least favourite sounds and Stephen was mentioning “Pokemon” – the game boy game when you walk through grass and get attacked by a pokemon and just wanna get through it *lol* Oh I remember those times SO well. Charlie: “Police sirens, fire trucks.” - Tyler: “Dentist drill.” - JR: “Myself thinking and voices in my head, cars crushing and my own voice.” - Holland: “Farts” - Ian: “*knock knock knock knock* “police!” “again?!” - Daniel: “Immigration agent’s voice and their gloves snapping when they put them on, before doing an impression of one and saying ‘This might pinch a bit’.”
They were seriously SO funny and I laughed my ass off during those questionnaire thing… so amusing and they were all in such a good mood.
I also remember the question about which profession they would like to do if they weren’t actors, and Max’s reply was literally the best. He said “Professional snuggler or prostitute.“ And then he snuggled against Daniel saying „See how easy I slid into that?“ – the “audience” was screaming with laughter, because seriously, that was AGAIN so funny and so ambiguous… and yes, I had some REALLY dirty thoughts when he said it.
They also asked about a profession they would never wanna do and Ian’s reply was “Quality controller in a rubber factory” *lol* While Daniel said he would never wanna be Max’s cleaner and Max looked almost shocked while JR shouted “Maybe you just shouldn’t have slid into it that easy” *lol* SO funny. Max said he would never wanna be Daniel’s wife XD

It was awesome… =D

(Again - too many pictures, but it was so awesome :D)

After that there was a short “closing ceremony” and then there would be autographs again. WITH EVERYONE signing at this time, so everyone who didn’t have their autographs yet would get the chance to finally collect them. Everyone was storming out of the panel room towards the hallway and seriously, that was probably the worst thing ever because all of a sudden there was a whole bulk of people crowding the door.

Fortunately they used the biggest room they had available and so for this autograph thing all 10 guests were in the room and a lot of people could get in at the same time.

I met up with Lauren, she gave me the fan book and after I told a Rogue staff member that Holland is the only autograph I have yet to get I got in fairly quickly. It didn’t take me long to get to Holland, but it was all SO rushed and stressed. They were saying “no dedications” anymore and told everyone not to have small-talk with the guests whatsoever, which yeah, I completely got. I mean, it was pretty obvious that not many people got their autographs on Saturday and they had a pretty tight schedule.

We also were told in the Closing Ceremony that they had to hurry the autographs because they all (the actors) would leave right away to get their trains/planes, so there’s that…

I was able to give Holland the fan book together with Lauren who just came along and she seemed pretty touched and was completely lovely, even though she didn’t really have much time to look into it or really appreciate it, but she did thank me more than once and said that it was so nice of us doing that for her and that she really likes it and is going to read it later.

She even gave me a dedication on my autograph (aka my name) even though she wasn’t supposed to, and I was really happy about that.

(Holland's autograph)

I could/should probably have used the opportunity to talk a little with Tyler and/or Stephen because on Holland’s right side was Stephen’s table, on her left Tyler’s, and NO ONE was there while everyone else there were really long queues. But not with those 2. I was wondering if they just forgot to let people in or if everyone already had their autographs of them. Them both being sponsored guests could have been a reason as well, since their autographs weren’t included in the ticket price and so maybe not THAT many people have bought them? I have NO idea and I’m angry with myself for NOT saying anything to them and just rushing out of the autograph room.

Damn me!
That was the one chance to really have small-talk with them. PLUS: I could have showed Stephen our picture in that moment, but of course I only thought about that afterwards, when it was already too late and I couldn’t get back in… oh well…

Anyways…

After that I went into the hotel lobby waiting for Isabel and Fiona and saw Holland and Adam leave. And only Ian. It was so sweet because when Ian walked past me and I said “Good bye, have a nice journey” he said “Hope to see you all soon” (there were other people too) and then he looked at me smiling and saying “see? I told you I would see you again before the Con is over” :D Oh boy… that guy knows how to completely overwhelm me and mess me up…

I walked back into the hallway and ran directly into JR, who then said his good-byes as well and then I sat down at the stairs waiting.

I also saw Brian (the Rogue guy) coming towards me and jumped up, walking over to him, asking him if he has a minute, and then I thanked him again for letting me re-take my pictures. I also told him that this meant a lot to me and that I really appreciated it but he was completely “it’s okay, really, we just want everyone to be happy. Can I see the pics?” and of course I showed him the 2 pics I re-took, with Stephen and Daniel, and he was amazed especially of the one of Stephen telling me “Oh wow, this looks completely perfect now. And I’m so happy for you that I could make it possible.” – I asked him if I could hug him and he said yes, thanked him again and then he went his way.

This might be stupid, but I was really, really grateful for him helping me out like that, so that I now have pictures I’m really happy with.

I didn’t have to wait long for Isabel and Fiona and after saying good-bye to Lauren and some other friends we made, we made our way back to the train station where we saw Max and Holland again when they were getting on a train – so obviously they REALLY had been quite in a hurry and needed to leave quickly.

(Lauren & Me :D)

Isabel and me bought something to eat at SUBWAY and we went back to our hotel, packing our stuff, eating something, taking showers and went to bed quite early since we had to get up around 6.30 the next day.

Our flights would leave at 10.00 and so we had to leave our hotel around 7.45 and went to the airport, checked in, ate and drank a bit with Fiona and then said good-bye to get to our plane while she went to the train station to get her train.

It went down smoothly and we arrived back in Cologne on time.
We went to the main train station, put our luggage away and walked around Colgone for a while, ate and drank something, did a bit of sight-seeing and at 8 p.m. I took my train to Vienna after Isabel and me said good-bye.

And around 11 the next day I FINALLY was at home again.

And now I’m trying to fight against the “Con-Blues”, but I feel so sad that it’s over and that it will take a LONG time until I can experience something like that again. Especially if I don’t find a job soon *sighs* I REALLY need to work again so I can afford some stuff and I REALLY wanna do that again next year, but for now it’s all pretty insecure if I can even make a single Con… we’ll see…

Also, I’m going to try catching up with my many (about 21 by now) TV-show episodes… *lol* Damn, I missed so much =D

Wolf's Bane 2 - Saturday, 12th July 2014

bm_shipper — Wed, 16 Jul 2014 19:46:59 GMT

Let’s get on with the 2nd day and the day the “real“ action started, shall we? :P

Like I already said: I didn’t sleep a minute that night and I’m really surprised that I didn’t feel the exhaustion that much after I was finally dressed and we were all ready to go. Which was around 8:30 or something like that…

We didn’t think we needed to be THAT early, but we wanted to check out the Dealer’s room before the Opening Ceremony. Which we did as soon as we arrived at the Hilton Hotel. They had started to sell coffee lounges when we arrived there around 9 and for a moment there I was considering getting one but when I saw the long line I didn’t…

So just as an info: I didn’t buy a single coffee lounge that weekend, although some of them didn’t even sell out and I probably could have, but I didn’t want to put myself into even more stress and thought the money would be better spent on pictures and such, so there’s that… ;-)

I was extremely worried I have to say since the Autographs on Saturday morning would clash with the photo shoots completely and I had no idea how I could make it all work.

Especially when they started with announcements and said that everything was called in group and everyone had to just get to autographs/shootings etc. when their group gets called. Not earlier. They also said that photos would get called in the “backwards direction”, starting with K (which personally, I thought would be kind of unfair) while autographs would call in the “right” direction starting with Upgrades and A. It sounded all REALLY confusing and I had NO idea if I could get all of this done and HOW so to speak.

I was group B and they also said that the first photo shooting of that day – the one with Daniel – would start later because he’s not there yet and that there will be absolutely no queuing in the hallways or they would be shutting down the whole convention, so all of this sounded REALLY serious.

After the announcement they started the opening ceremony introducing all the guests on stage and let me tell you: They were many *lol* I mean, 10 guests. I didn’t manage to get them on one photo altogether. My camera can’t do those panorama shoots and so yeah… I had to take 2 pictures to get them all… but they looked so good and it made me so happy to see all of them and really excited.

(Announcements)

(Opening Ceremony)

But I was also nervous about Daniel’s shooting since it would be the first one to happen. During Tyler’s panel, which started right after the opening ceremony.

Seriously, this guy is SUCH a sunshine and he makes me smile so much whenever he opens his mouth. I know this sounds probably stupid but I don’t feel attracted to him a “oh my god he’s so hot” way. I mean, he is good looking and I really like him and I like his smile and everything, but it’s not that “OMG, I’m blown away” feeling I have with – for example – Daniel. But I really, really love him and I love the answers he gives.

I was starting to get nervous when – against what they said – no announcements came on the screen, really feeling anxious to miss Daniel’s shooting, and so in between the panel I got up and looked for a Rogue Staff member. I found Flash and he told me not to worry and just to keep seated because they WOULD announce everything but Daniel was running late and he hadn’t even started, so I shouldn’t worry.

(Tyler's Panel on Saturday - just a couple of pics :D)

Believe me when I tell you, a huge sigh of relief left me when the first announcement came on the screen (which was Upgrades and Group K should come to the shooting). It felt like forever – though – until they FINALLY, after calling group E for the shooting, wrote “All groups called for Daniel Shooting” and I could go there. I left my bag at the seat with Isabel and Fiona, since neither of them had photos with Daniel, neither Seth, who would have his shooting right after him.

I was quite sure, if it would go this way all the time I would probably see a lot of the panels. Oh how wrong I was.

I did manage to watch most of Tyler’s panel, though… but of course I missed everything else that happened this morning, which were Stephen’s panel, Seth’s panel, Ian’s panel and Daniel’s panels, but I mean, that’s okay, I think.

I started lining up for Daniel in the room and he was of course already pretty busy doing poses and I actually had a pose chosen for our picture and printed out. The closer I got to him, the more nervous I got. Especially seeing how close the photographer was and how rushed it seemed. But not rushed enough not to pose. At least that’s something.

Rogue put up some “rules” before the convention writing something like “no posing at all at the photo shoots” but somehow they didn’t follow through with that rule. FORTUNATELY. Because seriously. I had 2 pictures with Holland and such and I really didn’t wanna just switch sides or something like that.

Anyways… when I walked over to Daniel he smiled at me, saying “Hello again!” and I said “You remember me?” and he replied “Of course I remember you, how could I not?” – OMG, I think my heart skipped a beat in that moment. He asked me what I wanted to do and I showed him the pose. Which was supposed to be him wrapping me in his arms really tightly. Like he did with Allison in that volt in Season 3. That was also the pose I showed him. But in the “original” picture he was supposed to have his hand on my head, but he was scared to mess up my flowers and so he said he would just hold me really tight and I squished against him and well… it felt good to be held so tight. I even remembered to have my hands against his chest and not around him and so I felt pretty confident about the picture itself, hoping it would be good. Which in the end it wasn’t, but more about that later.

Before I left he said “Thanks again for the fanbook” and I said “I hope you liked it” and he replied “I really, really loved it. And I appreciated it so much. It’s so awesome how you put everything together. I was over the moon. Like seriously.

(I took a handy photo of my 1st photo op with Daniel, but like I said, I really didn't like it very much and was unhappy with it mostly!)

Before I left I got a card and they told me I would need it later to collect my picture, and only after I had left the room I noticed that they must have made a mistake because it was a key card for some room *lol* I put it in my bag, though, deciding to ask them later.

I found a Rogue Steward telling her that I had another shooting right after this one – the one with Seth – asking her what to do. If I should just wait or go back into the panel room and wait for the announcements.

She told me to get back into the Panel room and just come back in 15 to 20 minutes. Which of course was okay and this way I caught parts of Stephen’s panel. God, that guy is SO funny and sweet and adorable. I don’t remember anything in particular. But I do know that he was just as great as everyone else that weekend.

(A few pictures taking during Stephen's panel :D)

Obviously Rogue hasn’t sold that many Seth pictures because instead of announcing the groups – like they did with Daniel – they wrote on the screen “All groups get to the Seth Shooting” – so after the announcements I left Fiona and Izzie again (leaving my bag there) to get my Seth picture. And there REALLY weren’t that many people when I walked over and lined up.

Basically NO ONE was doing any pose. Most of the people just stood next to him, not even getting a hug and so I was REALLY insecure if I should ask him for ANYTHING. I hadn’t printed out a pose or anything like that, mostly because I just didn’t know how cool he would be with it, since he hasn’t really done conventions before, but I wanted at least a hug. And the closer I got to him, the more insecure I got. Damn it *lol*

When it was finally my turn I DID look at him and he smiled at me and I said “I don’t know if you’re up for any poses or such but I’d really like a hug from behind” and he replied with “Why wouldn’t I be?” and I said “Because you didn’t before” and he said “Because no one asked me for anything” – so yeah, that’s one way to put it *lol* So I was just happy when he went for it and hugged me from behind. Damn, it felt really good to be held in his strong arms, and he’s really strong and held on pretty tightly. I thanked him, told him he was awesome and he said that this is really nice to say and then I left, collected my card (this time the real one. It just said “Saturday shooting, Group G” – which is basically the “SD Card” they used for the printing. It was easy to find each picture that way since later for collecting them they had different “piles” and all put a post it with the letter above it… so yeah, I thought that was a really awesome way to do it and no one had to search for long.

(not really happy with my huge double chin and everything on this picture...)

After leaving the photo shoot room, I AGAIN walked up to the Rogue girl (the same than before) asking her if I should do it like last time again, but she told me Seth would be done within minutes and that they would get right on with Ian. That if I left I should be back pretty soon and so yeah… I went to the panel room, telling Fiona and Isabel that we probably should get going since Ian’s shooting would start soon. And so we all grabbed our bags (everyone of us had a picture with him) and then got into the hallway, where we found out that Seth was already done and Ian would be here soon.

I am NOT really sure it was the right way to handle the shootings, but that Rogue girl was probably supposed to be letting people in in groups again, but somehow she didn’t. She didn’t even ask for groups when people were let into the room (they made a queue in S-form, so there were a lot of people in the room at once) but we were pretty much at the front of the line.

I had another picture printed out for my Ian pose, and Isabel “shared” one Ian picture with me. She hadn’t planned on getting an Ian picture before the Con and she wouldn’t have been able to afford one all by herself and so she asked me if I was willing to pay 10 £ and get in the picture with her (which is definitely possible with Rogue and you still only need 1 coupon, but only get 1 photo either), and OF COURSE I was… I mean, it meant 2 pictures with Ian.

We had already figured out a pose for our “double” either… and were pretty excited to get it done. And when it was our turn I walked up first for my picture with Ian. I wanted a “Hayley/Elijah” pose (kind of) with Ian kissing me on the forehead and he said “I’d love to do that, really, but I’m not allowed to kiss” (which I don’t know WHY, because most of the other guys DID kiss, so yeah, but I guess everyone has his own “rules” with the management), and so I said “Okay, it’s fine, wanna do something else then?” and he said “Well, we can do the pose and I just act as if I’m about to kiss you” – and I said “yeah, sure” – and seriously, I’m SO happy with that pose. It looks really good and the look on Ian’s face… he did a damn fine job.

Next Isabel walked up to us and we told Ian that we had another picture, this time together and since we didn’t know how to describe the pose, we had it printed out as well. It was basically Ian holding me really tight and Isabel trying to pull him away from me. That picture turned out PERFECTLY. Like seriously. I laughed my ass off when we collected it :D (Isabel has the physical copy but I took a picture of the picture) – Ian is REALLY the absolute best.

(my double picture with Isabel and Ian :D I just love his "disgusted" look *lol* So crazy... It's a photo of our photo, so not a scan, that's the reason for the low quality :D)

(my picture with Ian and even though he didn't kiss me, I completely love this picture so much :D)

Next on the plan was Stephen and both – Isabel and me – had a picture with him, and so we found the Rogue girl again and she told us to just wait here, not go anywhere, because Stephen would start as soon as Ian was over, so that’s what we did.

And I didn’t feel like it took us long.

Quite the opposite.

Again we were one of the first to be let in and again I’m not sure that was the way she should have done it – completely ignoring the whole group thing – but I’m not complaining here and neither did anyone else, so I guess everyone was okay with the way the whole photo session thing was handled. And NO one waited long, no matter which group. They got the pictures done fairly quickly, even WITH all those poses, and so it really wasn’t a big deal.

I had a pose printed out for Stephen too – the cover of the Dirty Dancing movie – just in case you were wondering, and I was pretty nervous. I wasn’t scared that he wouldn’t do it, because I knew he would (he has done almost everything before), but I was still nervous.

But Stephen is so incredibly awesome and beautiful. He wore a beanie on his head while the photo shooting and looked so cute and his eyes were so blue and pretty and shining and I might have crushed on him a little bit.

Anyways… he was the ONLY one who asked basically EVERYONE who walked over to him “So, what do you wanna do? Something special?” and it was just obvious that he had SO much fun with all those poses.

I showed him the picture and it was such a funny situation to get it right because I wasn’t sure which side to stand on and everything but he tried his best and my friend Isabel (who had her picture after mine) later told me that she was completely into it and seemed to really wanna do it…

Well… he probably was…

I wasn’t… and so my picture in the end turned out completely terrible, because instead of turning my head and looking down I grinned in the camera like a stupid idiot and also, I had a HUGE double chin, which I usually DON’T have in photo ops. It was actually the first time pictures of mine turned out this awful… but yeah…

After the photo shooting Isabel and Fiona had pictures with Tyler, but we were told that it would be about 15 minutes until that started and so Isabel and me went to the Dealer’s room to check if there were already pictures printed out. And the ones with Daniel and Seth were already here.

I was excited about the one with Daniel, but not so much anymore after I got it… it was so awful and I really hated it. Both, Isabel and Fiona, tried to tell me that it’s not THAT bad, and maybe I’m “too critic”, but they cut off parts of Daniel’s face and half of my face was covered by Daniel’s leather jacket, and so I really didn’t like it and was really disappointed by it. I would even go as far as saying it was one of the worst photo ops ever.
I wasn’t really happy with the Seth picture either to be honest, because the double chin I had on my first picture with Stephen was there too. NO idea why. Maybe because it had to be taken like 3 times? I don’t know, but when I took my Seth picture the glasses were obviously causing problems for the camera and the photographer took the picture 3 times, and every time I had to put my head down further…

Anyways…
I also bought a notebook with a beautiful wolf and the Triskelion symbol on it for the autographs since I didn’t want everyone to just sign the convention booklet and also wasn’t willing to spend 50 £ on the Black/White pictures. As pretty as they are.

( completely love this spiral notebook :D)

I did buy the ones of Ian, Daniel and Holland, though, and I love them. The others weren’t THAT important for me =)

(My beautiful B/Ws :D)

After that Isabel decided to wait for Fiona since they would be taking a Tyler picture together (another “shared picture) while I told them I’d try to get into the autograph room.

I mean, I really wasn’t sure if I should even bother because they said in the announcements that if we missed our group we wouldn’t be able to get in anymore this day, and they were by far done with my group. Besides: Daniel’s panel was about to start, so that was a decision I had to make.

I just went to the door of the autograph room telling the girl there that I’m group B and that I know my group has been far over, but if I could get my autographs or if I should just come back the next day and she told me to just get in and that it would be okay. And so I did =)

It were Adam, Max, Charlie, JR and Holland writing autographs that morning (they were doing it in 2 groups) and I was told to go to Adam first, because his line was the shortest, only like 4 people in front of me. He was really nice and sweet and asked me how I was and if I’m enjoying the con. I told him the air conditioning in that room is a bit too much and that I’m really cold and he replied “Well, you should probably go find someone to warm you up then” *lol* I think I might have blushed a bit. Pretty sweet, though… =D He was the first to sign my new notebook btw.

(Adam's autograph. He was really nice and surprisingly funny :D)

After Adam I lined up for JR and before I did I asked the Rogue staff girl if I could get my photo signed and she was like “why not?” and I said “because it’s from another Con?” and she was like “Well, don’t tell that anyone and it’s gonna be okay” – so yeah. They have rules against that, but obviously no one really cared about that either, and so when it was finally my turn and I gave JR the picture he looked up at me saying “Did we take that one in France?” and I replied “No, in Austria actually, last month” and he said “Oh, that one, don’t remind me” *lol* And I was like “yeah, it was the glass sauna” and he replied “Oh yeah, sauna seems about right, it was SO hot, wasn’t it?” and I said “yes, even though I would love for it to be at least a little warmer right now” and he said “Oh, are you cold?” and I said “A little bit, because I left my cardigan in the panel room”… He then looked at our picture again saying “That is SUCH a great photo” and I told him that I really love it. And then he wrote “Much love”, looking up at me saying “There is really MUCH love in that picture” and then he underlined the word love 3 times to pronounce it even more :D

He was SO absolutely nice. And I love him so much and he’s such a great guy =)

(JR's autograph on our picture from Austria :D)

After that I lined up for Charlie (one of the Carver Twins) and he was the 2^nd one I wanted to sign into the notebook I bought, and damn guys. Charlie is just the absolute cutest. Like really. The line was very long, and he talked to everyone and was so adorable. When it was finally my turn and he had the book in front of him he looked up at me saying “That’s such a beautiful flower crown. You look awesome” and I’m sure I blushed and thanked him. And then I said “You know, I mainly started watching The Leftovers because of you and Max” and he said “Really? That’s so cute. So how did you like it?” and I said “To be honest, not THAT much. And I was really anticipating your roles and then you were there in like 2 scenes and I was pretty disappointed.” And he said “Oh, I’m sorry to hear that, but I can assure you there will be much more of us the next episode and especially episode 4 will be a twin centric episode, so if you give it another try, watch at least until episode 4, because I can assure you, it’s gonna get MUCH better”. And I said “Okay, then I might just try it again and hopefully you’re right.” And he said “I get that the show is not for everyone and might be a bit confusing, but like I said, if you’re a fan of us, you’ll like episode 4”.
I then told him that I’m gonna have a “twin double” picture with him and Max tomorrow and he said “Oh, really? That’s so great” and I said “We have the perfect pose figured out and we hope you’ll be doing it” and he said “Oh God, now I’m curious. Really looking forward to tomorrow then” – so OMG, he’s seriously ADORABLE. And he wrote the longest and most personal of all autographs. He’s just really nice and sweet.

(Charlie Carver's autograph :D)

After Charlie I went over to Max – his line wasn’t THAT long anymore now – and when it was my turn I talked to him as well, telling him that I’ve already known them since “Desperate Housewives” and he said “Oh, so you’re a real fan of us?” and I said “well, you could probably say that. I was definitely excited when I heard you were in Teen Wolf and really curious about The Leftovers but you weren’t in it very much” and he ALSO said that this is going to change.
Didn’t talk with Max as much as I did with Charlie, but he was pretty cool too and SO pretty… he has such great eyes and I just loved that both – him and also Charlie – were always holding eye contact with everyone and were just so open about everything.

(The autograph of Max Carver :D)

I could have gotten Holland’s autograph that day as well, and now I almost wish I had. There was this girl – Lauren – with who I created a fanbook for her and actually we had made a “deal” to both get our Holland autographs on Sunday and she would keep the fanbook until then because she stayed in the Con Hotel and it was easier, and so I thought “okay, then I’ll wait until Sunday”…

I met with her when I left the autograph room, and got kinda pissed a little bit when she was like “by the way, I already got my autograph of Holland and talked to her for a while, so I’ll just join you tomorrow”… I mean WTF? It kinda annoyed me a bit. Had I known that I would have kept the fanbook and gotten my autograph already on Saturday because it was MUCH more relaxed and less stressed than it was on Sunday… :/ And it wasn’t really fair of her to tell ME that we would get it on Sunday and then not stick to it… but well… what can you do?

There was a lunch break after that for about 1 hour and Isabel, Fiona and me got some sandwiches in the hotel. They were really delicious. They had this bar and you could choose it all, white bread or brown bread, which salad you want in it, which filling and so on, and the price was quite okay for the size either, so that was definitely a good thing to do of Rogue (or the hotel), because we didn’t need to leave the hotel and still got enough to eat. =)

After eating we collected more pictures, the ones of Ian and Stephen were ready and while I was completely over the moon because of Ian’s pictures (they are BOTH perfect), I was so disappointed with Stephen’s. Because like I said before: While he was completely into my pose, I wasn’t… and had a huge double chin and it just looked completely terrible. I felt like crying thinking that this con would be a complete disaster picture-wise and I was almost scared for the last pictures that day. Which would be 2 photos with Holland, and another “shared one” with Isabel. I was literally freaking out that I would be looking completely awful on my 2 pictures with Holland and wasn’t sure I should really go for it, but Isabel kinda calmed me down telling me they are not THAT bad and that Holland’s would be awesome. But I was still scared.

In the afternoon there was just the one photo shooting with Holland on our “Plan” and so after having lunch and collecting our pictures Fiona, Isabel and me went back to the panel room for Holland’s panel, which would be the first this afternoon, and right afterwards it would be her photo shoot, and so we knew we could stay from beginning till the end to watch her panel because she couldn’t start making pictures until she’s done anyways… =)

She was SO fucking adorable. So tiny. So sweet. She said so many things that made me fall in love with her even more. Like for example that she doesn’t really care much for fashion and rather buys her clothes in H&M or that she hates wearing high heels. I mean, I knew that before, but she literally said she’s never gonna understand those girls that say that wearing high heels is better than wearing flats and that’s why she wore flats this day. She just hates high heels and at home would never wear them and that this is so different from the way “Lydia” is. And it’s probably one of the biggest difference. Which I get, yes. But I still love her for it, because she thinks the same way I do in this case. I just really don’t like high heels and don’t even really own them anyways.
She also says she’s VERY bad in doing make-up and that at home she basically never wears high heels. And that she always envies all those girls that are able to use eyeliner and making it look good because she can’t. If she doesn’t have her stylist with her or someone to do it for her, she’s screwed. I mean, seriously, how adorable is she?
She also said that she’s just not that much a fan of Make-up.
She also doesn’t watch a whole lot of TV, and has never read or seen Twilight, Harry Potter and Lord of the Rings. I wanna marry her. I really wanna marry her because it’s completely the same for me and I thought I was the very last person on earth who just hasn’t watched or read those “cult things”. She also has never seen Star Wars and such.

(my sweet, sweet Holland :D Sorry, I know I made a lot of pics :D)

Her panel was absolutely awesome and as soon as it was over Isabel and me started queuing for her photo(s), which just went by the same way it went by the other times, with the mere difference that there were TONS of people this time. So here goes Rogue’s “theory” that “no one wants the girls”. I asked Rogue before how Holland’s photo op can be cheaper than Daniel’s and JR’s ad the same price as the twins when she’s been there since episode 1 and in every episode and the others weren’t and I was told “because no one wants the girls”… well… I guess they were proven wrong. Not that I’m complaining, but I was extremely surprised to find out that her photo was “only” 20 £and so she’s one of the “cheaper” ones.

Not that Rogue was expensive at all… the singles all were from 15 to 25 £ - so quite fair prices (and a lot cheaper than for example Alpha Con)

Like I said, lots of people and we had to wait quite a bit but it didn’t feel like it was THAT long.

I was extremely nervous – like mentioned before – and I also wasn’t sure if I should really do my poses anymore but the fact that Daniel did a “proposal” pose with a GUY kind of made me think “fuck it” and so when it was my turn (I took my 2 pictures first, then the shared one with Isabel) I looked at Holland saying “Can we do a proposal pose?” and she looked at me saying “Sure, what exactly do you wanna do?” and I had a ring with me saying “I’m just kneeling down as if I’m going to propose to you” and she said “So, what do I have to do?” and I said “just look surprised or something like that” and I think she pulled that up perfectly fine. I love her “shocked” look :D

The photographer even asked me if I just wanted to have the upper part of me on my pic or everything, including the floor, and I decided for the latter and really think it turned out quite great.

Second picture I wanted a “Hug with holding hands” and I also like that one very much. I think Holland looks so adorable. Her smile is just sweet.

But seriously, she is SO tiny, it’s amazing, and her hands are even smaller than mine, and that says a lot since I have VERY small hands :D

3^rd picture was the one with Isabel and we decided for a “Charlie’s Angel’s” pose… I really don’t think Holland knows what exactly we wanted, but she tried. I found out later that whenever someone asked her to do that she held her hands like that. Which is kinda adorable, but doesn’t exactly look like she’s holding a gun *lol* I still think, awwwwwwwwww, cute :D

(My 3 photo ops with Holland, 3rd is - again - a photo of a photo :D)

Next “plan” were the autographs – it was Tyler, Daniel, Stephen, Seth and Ian writing autographs that afternoon – and so right after the picture with Holland we went in to get some autographs done. Seth was most important since he would only be there on Saturday, but he was also the “most distant” I would say… I went to him first and when it was my turn it was said “no dedications” and so on and they kinda rushed Seth’s autographs through a lot. He barely looked at me, just scribbling his name into my book and that was it. No “hello”, no “good-bye”, but like I said, it probably was due to the fact that they had to get everyone through since Seth was included in the ticket price and of course everyone wanted to get his auto.

(Seth Gillam autograph - it's just his signature, nothing else :D)

I went to Daniel next, and I already said it before: This guy is ADORABLE. When it was my turn, and I gave him the picture of Alpha Con he laughed out loud saying “Oh my god, that’s such an awesome picture. It turned out great, didn’t it?” and I said “yes, I completely love it”. He also thanked me AGAIN for the book and I asked him if he had time to read through all the messages. He told me that he read it all on his flight back from Vienna and that he’s still so touched and overwhelmed that people would do that for him because it sure as hell must have been a lot of work. He’s just really awesome and I’m glad I bought his autograph. I would have regretted it if I hadn’t gotten it.

(I could not love him more :) He's awesome!!)

Last for this day was Ian (I didn’t have autographs of Tyler and Stephen since I didn’t have enough money to buy them either) and I also wanted to let him sign the picture of Alpha Con. When it was my part and he saw me he said “Hello again, so nice to see you again” and I told him that “I’m really happy about that too” :) He looked at the picture saying “That one turned out great” and I agreed with him. I also asked him if filming for “Chicago PD” has already started again and he told me that it’ll happen “in two weeks” and that for this reason he can’t tell me anything but that he hopes I’m gonna like season 2. I told him that as long as the show keeps being as good as it is I’m sure that I will and that I’m looking forward to seeing more of him. He then said “So I guess I’ll see you tomorrow?” and I said “Probably not, I don’t have pictures and autographs of you anymore” and he said “Aww… I’m sure I’ll see you around” and then I left, being completely “in love” with him again… *lol* Not that this is new, but that guy is absolutely great.

(He obviously thinks I'm lovely :D)

On another note: I don’t know when exactly it happened but at SOME point during the autographs (I think I was lining up for Ian) JR entered the room running around singing “Baby Monkey, Baby Monkey” like 10 times, first quietly then louder and louder. Most hilarious thing ever. But of course no one really understood, and when he was “loud enough” Daniel FINALLY caught up on it and JR was “Baby Monkey”, Daniel “replied” with “Woop, woop” and JR again “Baby Monkey” and Daniel “Woop, Woop” *lol* JR then explained that Daniel had found this video on Youtube and showed it to him and that since then they were kinda singing it all day. OMG, really. Those guys!

No other “plans” for this evening and Isabel was done too around the same time so Isabel and me just went back to the panel room to spend the rest of the day there, or rather the rest of the panels. We caught the end of Adam’s panel (that guy is freaking funny!) and then saw the whole panels of Charlie and JR.

(Adam Fristoe's panel - he's really funny :D)

Charlie is – like I mentioned before – amazing and said so many great things. Like for example he told us he and Max are not only twins but “mirror twins”, which means Charlie is right handed, Max is left handed, and every birth mark, everything that’s on Charlie’s right side is “mirrored” with Max. I never even know something like that existed, so I was kinda surprised. It was interesting. He also said that he and his brother have done lots of projects together but that at some point he’d also like for them to work apart from each other and that Max has filmed a movie without him and such.

I really enjoyed watching is panel and he seemed to really enjoy being on the stage and answering all those questions.

And I seriously had to laugh SO hard when he was asked about “Dethan” (Danny/Ethan) and their scenes and he told us that the “Motel California” room scenes was one of the first real “hot” scenes they had together, and he said – I kid you not – “There were so many hard things in that scene” – and the whole room was bursting out in laughter while he just went on talking for a few seconds until he was like “Did I say something funny?” and then he obviously “replayed” it in his head and was like “OH MY GOD, NO! No, no, no, no, no! I really didn’t mean it that way” :D *lol* But it was SO funny and he was SO proud of having this part because in his opinion it’s such an important storyline. He said that he really loved the fact that Danny is not reduced to his sexuality and that he isn’t treated any differently just because he’s gay.
That storyline meant a lot to him and he really enjoyed working with Keahu and had so many nice things to say about him.

Such a great guy. Really.

(Charlie Carver Panel :D)

(This one happened towards the end of Charlie's panel *lol* I thought it was funny :D)

Last panel for that day was JR’s, and OH MY GOD. My stomach hurt from laughing so hard during that panel. This guy is SO hilarious. And just the best. He’s so funny and awesome and he seems to have a lot of humour.
At some point there was someone asking him how he likes the “Peter/Chris” pairing and from there everything “fell apart”… seriously, it was the most funny thing ever. So whoever that was kinda introduced him to that pairing and during the convention he obviously kinda fell in love with him. He even said that it would be SO much fun filming that and that he would totally do it. He also tried to come up with pairing names and his favourite was “Cheter” *lol* That’s how he called it all weekend. He also wanted to know what people thought about them and this one girl thought in her “Head Canon” (which he later called “Head Candy” because he forgot the word Canon) was that they went to school together and know each other for a long time. And Chris said something like that everything’s possible in “Teen Wolf”.
He was also asked if he thinks those 2 could make a good couple and he thinks that they could be kinda explosive and would probably try to kill each other in the beginning but that he likes the things people come up with.

Such a funny and great panel and so fun.

He was also asked where Isaac was and if he just left him there and JR was like “In the woods? I assure you, he’s fine, I didn’t leave him at the side of the street or something, I left him with my… let’s called them associates” *lol* OMG, seriously. He pronounced “associates” and even drew quotation marks in the air. I mean, he obviously wanted this to be ambiguous.

(Pictures from JR's panel :D)

After that Isabel, Fiona and me collected the rest of our pictures (aka the Holland ones) and I was SO relieved because they turned out really good. They were basically the only ones that day I was really happy with, so at least something.

Because I was SO extremely unhappy I decided to just ask Rogue to get a re-take. I mean, I had nothing to lose, right? And so I talked to one of the staff members (I think her name was Donna) and she wasn’t THAT nice about it, saying that this is my fault and that the photographer doesn’t know what I want in my picture whatsoever. She pointed to Wayne saying “If it was me, I would say no, but just ask Wayne” – which I did, and he was extremely in a good mood and nice and told me that he can’t make a decision right now, but that he gets my point and that I should just find him tomorrow morning and we would see if there’s something he can do. Which gave me a bit of hope. I mean, he could have said “no” right away, but he didn’t, so I was really praying that I could re-take at least one of those pictures… :)

We hung around in the hotel for a while longer and then decided to get back to the hotel, get something to eat and maybe get ready for the party, but then we ended up not going at all, because we were all extremely tired and exhausted.

So we just stayed in the hotel, talking and having fun…

I was also messaging with a friend on Facebook and we were WhatsApp-ing with Kasia and well… let’s just say sleep deprivation is never good for me. I probably acted like a crazy drunk. We came up with all those things and our dirty thoughts got the best of us… like I remembered all of a sudden how Isabel made me look at Ian’s crotch while we were waiting for our picture with him to be taken and such and yeah… some REALLY crazy stuff came up *lol* That’s something that happens when I didn’t get enough (or any) sleep. Just with the difference that unlike a drunk I remember everything *lol*

But it was a nice evening and after taking a shower and everything we went to bed and got to sleep around I think 11:30.

And fortunately this night I was FINALLY able to really sleep. I guess I was just way too exhausted and “dropped dead” at some point. And fortunately we didn’t have to get up THAT early for the next day, so that was a good things =)

Sunday will come tomorrow :D Sorry for the length.

Wolf's Bane 2 - "Pre-Con"

bm_shipper — Tue, 15 Jul 2014 19:52:17 GMT

Oh damn it, I’m way too excited. Still. *lol* I wanted to start my “report” tomorrow, but I kinda can’t wait and so I decided to just start… =)

You all know that my journey already started on 9^th of July when I left home for Vienna in the evening where I met with a friend and had dinner and something to drink and around 8 my train to Cologne left. It was already there like 30 minutes earlier, so I could get in and get settled.

It wasn’t exactly a “relaxing” night and I didn’t get much sleep because until like 1 in the morning people were still getting into the cabin I was in and then around 5.30 people started to “get out” again. And I mean, about 30 minutes before everyone had to get off the train one of the employees came to wake them and bring them some coffee, which yeah, was kind of nice, but I would have found it even nicer to get “paired up” with people leaving the train the same station I did, and so it was more like an “on-off” thing to get some sleep.

And of COURSE I was pretty damn tired and exhausted when I got off the train in Cologne.

But it wasn’t THAT bad.

I met up with Isabel (who stayed at my place during Alpha Con) – we found each other pretty easily – and we ended up eating something at McDonalds before we looked which train etc. we had to get to get from the train station to the airport.

Didn’t take us long and it was actually fairly easy to get around.

And it was only like 15 minutes to get to the airport.

It took us a while longer to find our Terminal and then we had to wait until around 11 for it to open. I have no idea why, but “flybe” (the company we flew with) didn’t have one of those “self-check-in” thingies in Cologne, and so we had to queue to get our boarding passes.

We looked around a bit afterwards and then sat down to drink something and talked a bit before we had to get to our gate and shortly afterwards a bus brought us to the plane.

A pretty small plane I wanna mention.

I don’t think I’ve ever been in such a small plane.

Usually they push those stairs against the planes to get in and usually there are at least 2 entrances, but this time there was only 1 and like 5 stairs and I think the stairs were basically the door. And the plane was pretty damn tight too. But somehow we managed.

We landed in Birmingham around 3 Birmingham time and there we waited for our roommate Fiona, who would come by train to the airport so we could meet up with her. We didn’t have to wait for very long, though and when she was finally there we wanted to take a bus to our hotel since we heard it was pretty easy. Well… Probably for the people from around there. We didn’t find a plan or anything like that and ended up taking the taxi.

But it was “only” 10 £ and we were 3 people, so it’s not THAT bad (and the bus would have cost 2,10 too, so not THAT much of a difference).

We checked into the hotel – paid the hotel – and then went to our room, and DAMN, that room was GORGEOUS. I should have made a picture. Like seriously. I don’t know why I didn’t (because last time when I was in London, I did), but it was MUCH bigger than I expected. Especially for that price. There was this huge double bed and then there was like a metre in between and a single bed and it was just so spacious. I was seriously surprised.

I mean, our room when I was at “Asylum 9” con in London was MUCH smaller and even more expensive than that one and for only 46 pounds for 4 (!!!) nights it was money well spent.

Me and Isabel decided after a while to get something to eat and such and since Fiona was tired she stayed in the room while we went to check out the supermarket. The lady at the reception said something about a 10 minutes walk, but damn, that was MUCH further – or maybe we just went to the wrong supermarket, I don’t know – but it took us at least 30 minutes to get there. But well… We still went by foot and got some things to eat and drink (like pot noodles and something for breakfast) and then we went back to the Hotel.

Fiona said we must have been gone around 90 minutes, maybe a little more… well, definitely felt like a long walk :D

We didn’t do much more this evening besides eating our food and talking a lot and decided to not stay up all too late, even though we could sleep in the next day.

Which we kinda did.

We didn’t get up until around 10.30 and it was really, really nice. And I was even able to sleep, which kinda surprised me to be honest, since I usually don’t sleep that well when I’m not in my own bed and those UK beds are quite high… I’m really not used to that…

Not that much to do for that day except registration and party later and so we stayed in our hotel room until around 2.30 and then checked out busses and went to the main train station and from there to the airport to get a bit of dinner.

And then the most crazy thing happened. We ran into a guy who looked EXACTLY like Mark Pellegrino, but wasn’t him. Especially from the side. Seriously. IT WAS FUCKING CRAZY. And we were watching him for a while like some crazy stalkers *lol* And then when we sat down to eat something he sat down the table right after ours and we had REAL difficulties not to stare at him ALL THE TIME *lol*

Isabel and me managed to kinda take a picture of him. Not sure if he noticed it, but it was kinda funny. Fiona called us both crazy, because she was too scared to take one herself, but seriously. How could I not? :P

(Mark Pellegrino Look-Alike)

We went back to the train station from where we could walk over to the NEC and from there to the “Hilton Metropole” hotel where the convention would take place – and therefore the registration – and when we walked in A LOT of people were there. So we sat down in the lounge waiting since registration for Upgrades was at 4.30 and for groups A to D should have started at 5.

I was group B (no idea how or why since Izzie was D and we booked and paid the same price) and in the beginning it ALL looked a bit chaotic. Especially when they started with registration and people were jumping upwards and running towards that room, so they had to kinda tell them to get in line and they would do it with groups.

It worked out better than I thought. I was almost expecting it to become a HUGE chaos, but it didn’t. Instead when my group was called I was able to get in, get my convention package and my wristband and walk out again and then I had to get into another room if I wanted to buy some photo ops. Okay… well… there were already A LOT of people in there and so that one didn’t go by all too quickly. I was in that room for maybe 45 minutes…

But Isabel came like 20 minutes after me and there were SO many people already so that I just winked her over to me, asking the girls behind me if it was okay for her to get in line next to me (or after me) and since no one had a problem with it, well…

It was pretty easy to get everything we wanted… I bought 2 pictures with Holland, 1 with Daniel, 1 with Ian, 1 with Stephen and 1 with Seth. And Daniel’s autograph. Unfortunately it wasn’t included in the ticket price since he was a sponsored guest, but I just HAD TO talk to him again and get his autograph, so yeah… that was also on my plan… which makes it a total of 6 pictures.

(Photo Coupons, Convention Package, Badge, Program and Booklet, and the list to check off the free autographs too :D So you see 7 autographs were included in the cheapest ticket already, not that bad, right? :D)

Isabel got her own pictures and the ones for Fiona (since she was group H and she would have never walked out of there again if she had to line up herself), and then we left to get something to eat.

And then the most funny thing ever happened.

We sat down in the lounge (that was the “restaurant” of the hotel) and ordered a portion of Potato Wedges deciding to share them – me and Isabel since Fiona was still registering – and then we waited for them and during that Fiona came back and then all of a sudden there was this waitress coming bringing us pizza and fries and a bottle of coke.

We were “WTF?” and told her “Sorry, we didn’t order that. We actually ordered Potato Wedges” and she was like “that’s a special offer” and we showed her our receipt asking her “Are you sure? Because we paid 4 £ and ONLY ordered potato wedges and she was like “yeah, special offer”… ehm… oooooookay. We didn’t think twice, although it was a LOT of food and so the THREE of us (me, Isabel and Fiona) had enough with what we got.

Thing is: When we had started eating there was another waiter coming over bringing potato wedges and we got quite confused.

In the beginning we thought they maybe had ran out of potato wedges and that’s why they kind of gave us the fries and pizza as some kind of compensation, even though it STILL wouldn’t have made sense, and when we were all pretty confused there was another waitress coming over telling us obviously some orders got mixed up and that those are our potato wedges.

Which yeah… we TRIED to clear up, but the other waitress was so persistent (I kid you not) telling us that’s what we get that we just started eating, and in the end we had 1 pizza, a bowl of fries AND potato wedges AND a whole bottle of coke (like 1,5 litre bottle) for fucking 4 £.

They didn’t even try to make us pay some more since OBVIOUSLY it wasn’t our fault and we would have NEVER started eating the pizza if that waitress hadn’t told us that’s ours…

So in the end it was quite funny… So much food for so little money *lol*

We went back to our hotel after eating to get ready for the party that would start around 9 pm. Theme was Superheroes. I mean, I didn’t do much except for taking a shower and putting on another shirt and neither of us dressed up.

(Sunset outside our hotel - it was beautiful. We took those pictures in between arriving back at the hotel and leaving for the party :D)

We were back at the hotel around 9.30 – we went with 2 girls who had a car and offered to take us with them since they were staying in the hotel next to ours.

The music at the party was quite fun and there were SO many great costumes. There was even one Sara Lance/Black Canary and one Roy Harper/Red Arrow (or whatever he’s going to be called in Season 3) and a lot of other costumes I have to feel ashamed for not recognizing like “Thor” and “Loki” (like Isabel told me) and yeah, people had put a lot of effort in lots of those costumes. It was really nice to watch.

There were also a few Lydia’s and Allison’s running around, and one of those Allison’s looked JUST LIKE HER. I kid you not. She was cosplaying Allison ALL WEEKEND and she was SO beautiful and she looked SO much like Crystal and everyone told her. She could have been her sister. Whenever I saw her I basically stared at her. Beautiful girl. And she had all those outfits, like the white dress and the jeans jacket or the blue pullover with the skirt and such. She’s probably been doing that for a while =)

They also had a professional photographer at the party who had built up a little photo studio in the corner and for 5 £ you could take pictures there with your friends that would get printed out until the next day and Isabel, Fiona and me decided to do one of those pictures in the “Charlie’s Angels” pose. The first one turned out terrible, but fortunately, they let us see the picture beforehand and so we could take another one right away and that one looked much better :D

(Fiona, me & Isabel - I kinda like the picture and think that was nice to have the photographer there :D)

We stayed at the party until around midnight and then got to the hotel with some kind of coach. Actually, he should have only brought us to the bus station (and then go back to the hotel again), but obviously he thought it was too dangerous for all of us girls (the coach was full and there were like 9 people in the back – including us) and so he brought us all to our hotels. FOR FREE. Which was completely awesome. Which he didn’t have to do. He drove to 4 different hotels and like I said. He was only supposed to bring us to the bus station.

We didn’t stay up much longer after we went back into our hotel room since we had to get up around 6.30 to get ready for the convention and everything.

I don’t know why but somehow I couldn’t sleep. I rolled around ALL NIGHT and I didn’t get a single second of sleep. And Isabel had problems with her nose and started snoring REALLY loudly. It’s not her fault, but after that started (and never stopped) it was completely over. I don’t know if Fiona got any sleep, but for ME it was impossible. I even got up and moved to the floor with a blanket and my pillow, hoping I wouldn’t hear it that much but the floor was terribly hard and yes… didn’t make it much better…

So around 6 I decided to get up, took my stuff, went into the bath room and started to get ready, waiting inside until the alarm went off and Fiona and Isabel had to get up as well… =D

More in Part 2… =D

And obviously it’s going to be 3 parts again, even though I thought since the Con itself was only 2 days I would only need 2 parts, so please bear with me. The “main action” starts tomorrow and part 2 of the report will follow tomorrow when I have slept a bit :D

For the sake of completness...

bm_shipper — Fri, 13 Jun 2014 11:38:23 GMT

...and because I finally have gotten all my files of the photo ops of the convention, I thought I could post them altogether now, so you can see them in one place... 15 pictures total, and I'm quite happy with some of them... others, not so much... :P I'm seriously unhappy with all of the Daniel ones, while I'm completely over the moon that the ones with Ian have turned out so awesome. My pic with Linden is the worst pic ever, while the ones with Tyler and JR are awesome... so yeah... but you can take a look yourself... ;-)

That's all of them and HOPEFULLY I can add a few more from "Wolf's Bane", but I wouldn't bet on it... would be awesome, though, especially since I really don't like the pictures with Daniel and would love to get another chance to take better ones... ;-)

Alpha Con - Part 4...

bm_shipper — Thu, 12 Jun 2014 19:48:25 GMT

So… let’s get to the last part, shall we? :-) I mean, it’s not THAT much anymore – I think – but we’ll see how it turns out in the end, right? :P

There was only 1 more photo op planned for me – Ian Bohen’s – and that one was only happening because I spontaneously bought a 2^nd photo with him on Saturday. The reason for it was – despite the crappy quality – I was completely in love with our photo, and so yeah, I just had to. Also, because I wanted him to sign that picture I bought another autograph. Obsessed a little bit? Hell, no! :P

But let’s just start at the beginning ;-)

Hadn’t it been for me and my Ian Bohen shooting we could have left an hour later, but well, Ian’s first shooting started at 10, I wanted to be there and so we got up around 7.30 again and left home around 8.30 to get Fabiola. And then we brought Fabiola to the trainstation since she had decided to skip the last day since she mostly was there for the TVD guys and they weren’t there anymore on Sunday. So yeah. There’s that.
We said good-bye to Fabiola and drove to the pyramid again, arriving there around 9.30 – and for a change, the doors were already opened.

Isabel decided that – even though she didn’t have any photo ops anymore – to wait with me in line for Ian’s photo since the 1^st panel wouldn’t start until 11. Which she then did. And for the FIRST TIME at this convention there was someone there knowing what they were doing. Like SERIOUSLY.

It was the FIRST time there were created 4 queues for Ian’s shooting, separated into ticket categories, first VIP, then Alfa, Beta & Gamma, so there were 4 lines and it was PERFECT and everyone totally accepted that. Seriously, they should have done that the first moment the convention started. With all the photo ops and autographs.

But I heard some fans (aka other attendees who had helped out at several conventions) had kind of “taken over”. Even my friend Kasia was a helper now and they kind of “promoted” the people who wanted to help to helpers and it worked out SO much better, even though some of them had never even been to a convention before, but for ONCE everyone knew what was going on and how to handle things.

Okay, to be fair: it might have something to do with the fact that most people already had their photo ops and autographs and there wasn’t so much afflux anymore, but still… it was way better organized than the days before.

There were only 3 VIPs in line for Ian’s photo anymore btw. – so it was my turn pretty quickly and I was nervous as hell. I wasn’t even sure what exactly I wanted to do and had completely given up on the “showing pictures” thing… when I went to him and he looked at me he said “Oh, hello again, darling” and I smiled at him saying “good morning”. He then asked me what I wanna do and I spontaneously asked “Can we hug, but not look into the camera but each other?” and he grabbed me by the hips, pulling me close, looking at me asking “like that?” – I wrapped my arms around his neck and said “it’s perfect”. I’m still surprised I didn’t pass out to be honest, because OMG… those eyes… I know I’ve mentioned it before, but I just can repeat myself: Ian is one hell of a sexy bastard and keeping looking at him for several seconds was not as easy as it might sound.

I’m pretty much happy with how the picture turned out in the end. It’s definitely one of the best photo ops I’ve ever done and I’m so proud of it. The picture is also already on my wall, alongside with 7 others of my favourite pictures during that weekend – aka I didn’t put up all of my pictures, only 8 out of 15, but my wall looks great like that. =D

(I've already posted that one before, but just to have it all together - that's my 2nd - and last - picture with Ian)

Anyways… let’s move on… XD

After Ian and me took the picture I told him “see you at the autographs” and he was like “I guess then we’ll see once more, see you later” – He’s the absolute best.

Apart from the autographs, there was nothing else planned anymore, and so Isabel and me decided to walk around until the first panel (Dylan’s) would start, which we did.

We would have never survived to already sit down around 10.15 (when I was done with my Ian photo), because, even though that gets old by now, it was SO.DAMN.HOT and it was almost unbearable. I felt so sorry for all the stars that had to sit there on the stage with all those spotlights around them and such but at least they had fans to get a bit of air. And cold water, although the ice they put into those buckets melted within minutes, so I highly doubt the water was cold for a very long time.

That glass pyramid might have looked good from the outside, kind of classy, but inside it was a sauna, and I was just glad I didn’t have to take any pictures anymore that day, because as much as I loved to stand next to the stars, it couldn’t have been great for them to have to hug all those sweaty people and such. They did make the best of it, though.

For whatever reason (I really don’t know), Dylan’s panel started at 11.30 instead of 11 (not that this is any new thing) and he’s SUCH a sweetheart. And at the same time you could tell that he was PRETTY nervous and that he didn’t enjoy it THAT much to be up there all alone. In the group panel the day before he was way more relaxed, and same goes for the “Hobrien” Panel later that day. And besides: it’s his first ever convention. He never did something like that before (and I don’t think you can compare it to those “Cons” he did in London, since he was never alone and didn’t really take photo ops and such), so for a complete con newbie, he did a really good job and always tried to give the best answers. He was actually pretty cute. I enjoyed listening to him and hearing him talk about all those things… like for example when he was asked what makes him happy and he said that acting makes him happy, and that being around the people he loves does too (aka his family and girlfriend) and it was just really adorable.

While Dylan’s panel there was a text showing up on the big screen that told what was going on right now – like that JR was taking pictures or something like that. Seriously, they just came up with that on SUNDAY? When the Con was almost over? Because those things had never happened before and it would have been SO much easier and better organized if we could have seen on the screen what was going on. Now we did.

I did get a “little bit” furious when all of a sudden the text was “Ian and Tyler doubles, everyone who missed them yesterday…” blabla… SERIOUSLY? ARE YOU KIDDING ME? You idiots told me the day before that if I miss this one, I won’t get another chance and that no matter how out of breath and exhausted I am, I have to take that picture that day and THEN you dare to do another one since obviously people DID miss it? Well, thank you VERY much.

I’m just glad my Tyler/Ian pic didn’t turn out all too bad (although I still think I look quite strange because my hair is quite deranged, but well…), but if I had known I could have taken the pic on Sunday I would have… oh well…

(God, I've taken so many pictures, but those are just a few of them :D)

Next panel after Dylan’s was Daniel’s “solo” panel… and god, I love this guy SO fucking much… just sitting there and staring at him was completely awesome. Because all of the seats in “row 1” were taken (row 1 was VIPs, then there was about 2 metres in between, and 2 rows of Alfas – so I mean row 1 of the Alfas), and there were two stools right behind the VIP row Isabel and me decided to just take those 2, and if someone complains or says something we would go… so we were even closer to the stage than before and it was absolutely incredible.

And no one EVER said something.

Although that day the seating arrangements were completely messed up anyways. Everyone was sitting where he pleased and no one said a words. There were even Gammas sitting in front of us in the VIP row, but since no one said anything… well… And personally, I didn’t really mind that much either, since we really had good places that day and I had Daniel pretty close in front of me. He’s even more gorgeous in real life than he could ever be in the show…

He was asked a lot of questions, for example about his role in “The Originals”, to which he replied that he can’t say much, but he promised that he won’t get killed off within 2 episodes, and said that he’s gonna stick around for quite a while. Whatever that means. He also said they hadn’t done much filming yet, so how big his role will be in the end, we probably just have to wait and see…

He also told us about Joseph Morgan and how he made this “Immortals” film with him before and that Joseph back then was a real kid (even though he wasn’t THAT much younger :P) and that seeing him again NOW after all those years was a huge difference because all of a sudden he didn’t have a boy in front of him but a man :P It was quite funny. He also said his favourite Original is Elijah (love him for that one, like SERIOUSLY, OMG :D)

He was also asked about soccer and the world cup and so on, but I didn’t pay much attention because I am SO not interested in sports at all, and so I have no idea about any of the teams or such. He was asked about his favourite team, I think, and he said something about Arsenal, if I’m not completely wrong, and that this team continues to break his heart over and over again and that he cried so many tears because of them… well… boys, I guess… :P

Daniel’s panel started 30 minutes “too late” either, btw. But well, that’s obviously a thing at this convention that nothing starts when it’s supposed to start ;-)

(Some of my Daniel Pics... :D)

After Daniel’s there was the Dylan/Tyler Panel, and oh boy… those 2 guys are just SO perfect and have incredible chemistry, not only in Teen Wolf, but also on stage and whenever they are together and it was quite visible that Dylan felt a LOT MORE at ease with Tyler by his side. They were looking at each other almost all the time whenever they were asked something and at some point Dylan even started to “mimic” Tyler’s movements. He had his legs the same way Tyler had, he held the microphone in the same hand and so on. It was adorable to watch.

Some girls – instead of asking a question – had presents for them they wanted to give them. It were 2 “oscar statues” and they brought them to them on stage and both of those guys were just so happy and cheerful about it, hugged the two girls that gave them to them and then were like “What does yours say?” (Tyler asked that) and Dylan was like “Best actor ever” and Tyler replied with “mine too” and Dylan was like “Wait, something’s not right here, how can we both be best actor ever?” – it was actually kind of hilarious. Tyler called it a “tie” then… and it was just so sweet and nice and despite all the heat, they were in such a good mood.

Dylan was also asked about the sex-scene between Stiles and Malia and despite all the rumours going on around the internet: He DID confirm those 2 had sex. I know some people are saying something different and some people only heard what they wanted to hear, but it was clear to me that it came to this. Dylan DID explain that it should have been a “full on sex-scene” and that didn’t sit well with him and so he went to Jeff telling him that he wouldn’t do this. He explained that it should have been them literally ripping each other’s clothes off and very passionate and tongue whatsoever, and he didn’t want to do this because he didn’t want to have a sex-scene for the sake of sex and that’s why they made it more gentle and kind of faded out and with the hand holding and such. THAT was Dylan’s doing, but it was still them having sex.

I thought it was pretty awesome how he explained it, though, and it’s also great that Jeff listened to him and let Dylan “have his way” and not forcing him to do something he didn’t feel comfortable with. I love Dylan even more for that now.

One of my favourite moments was also when they were asked what their favourite scenes together were and Tyler explained that every scene with Dylan is awesome and that they just “clicked” since right from the start. He also said that he was sad that they barely had any scenes together in Season 3 (or rather 3B) and that he seriously hopes that will change again for Season 4 because he missed Dyl. :) I mean, seriously, how adorable :)

Also, they were asked if there was a scene they always wanted to do or still want to do at some point and Tyler was the one answering the question. Dylan was like “I don’t really know” and Tyler replied with “Of course you do, we talked about this” and then he started to explain what scene he would want to do. He said that it would be a scene with them in the jeep and that they would be looking for Stiles’ father because something had happened to him or such and Stiles being really freaked out and close to a panic attack and then they would pull over and Derek would just let Stiles hit him like a punching back.
I know it doesn’t sound very romantic, but the way Tyler described it in his mind sounded so heartbreakingly beautiful. He said that Dylan would hit him until he couldn’t go on anymore because of the exhaustion and then they would sink down together and such. And that Derek would totally do that for him, and that he’s a wolf and so he heals quickly and it wouldn’t matter but that this scene would totally connect them even more. He really still wants to do that scene. He felt like it would have fit the moment when Jennifer had kidnapped all the parents and Stiles was all freaking out, but hopefully they will find a way to do this scene at some point. I could totally picture it when he explained it.

It was another awesome panel and probably one of the best of the whole convention, even though I’m not even the biggest Dylan or Tyler fan but they are both so awesome and so full of energy and make everyone smile around them. Especially Tyler is a complete sunshine and it’s just really great to watch them together.

I also didn’t know beforehand that Dylan and Tyler (and Posey too) used to live together for a while and Tyler said that he misses that. That he misses seeing them in the morning and everything since they film somewhere different now and now don’t have to live together anymore, because it was the best time of his life.

They also said they had made friends for life on the Teen Wolf set and that this is something no one will ever take away from them, no matter how long Teen Wolf will go on… made me all go awwww… ;-)

~~(I call that one mimicking the boyfriend :P)~~

~~(and that one too, btw. :P)~~

(the girls with the oscars :D)

(and that's only a few of my Dylan/Tyler pics :D)

After that panel there was a lunch-break again and – what else is new? :P – I got another sandwich and water from the buffett and sat down on the stairs with Isabel. Since that was the only place with a bid of shadow and it was a lot cooler and more bearable there. I left my bag on my chair, though, because I was scared someone would sit down there and I wouldn’t have that good of a seat anymore afterwards… *lol*

After the lunch break it was time for the triple panel of Tyler, JR and Ian. Supposedly it should have started at 3.00 p.m. but since everything else started 30 minutes later, this didn’t start before 3.30 either.

And again, it was SUCH a great panel… those 3 guys are awesome together, and watching them pick on each other and be like this was so refreshing and funny. They even stayed like 10 minutes longer than they were “supposed to stay” since there were still so many people with questions for them and they all said they wanted to finish with those questions. I mean, how awesome is that? They wanted everyone to have a good experience at this convention and even though the last few questions were pretty rushed, they still tried their very best to satisfy everyone. And they DID get the questions done, so… ;-)

One girl asked them to all make a grumpy face and say a line Derek Hale had said, and Ian and JR couldn’t quite come up with something and so Tyler was like “I’m gonna give you a line” and then he said “I’m gonna rip your throat out with my teeth” :D Ian had to start with the “grumpy cat face” and the line and then JR did and Tyler too. It was HILARIOUS. Especially Ian. OMG, really :D I never knew he could look like that… I laughed so hard, it was difficult to keep taking pictures with having so much fun during the panel.

Someone also asked JR if he had to kill someone, either Derek or Peter, who it would be… and when he was about to answer he turned to Ian and then he was all like “Oh no, I can’t answer that. Have you seen his puppy dog eyes? I can’t say I would kill Peter if he looks at me like that”… Oh God, really, it was so adorable, especially the face Ian made… oh boy.

JR then said “Okay, as Chris Argent, if I had to kill someone, I would kill Peter, but as JR I would kill them both” *lol* Now THAT was great :P

There was also a talk about “Peter” and Ian said the only character on the show he would think twice about killing was Stiles. He would kill Cora or Derek or even Malia without blinking if it brought him closer to his goals, but Stiles… well… Ian thinks Peter sees too much potential in Stiles to kill him. That was a surprising answer, but also a good one =D

Towards the end of the panel Daniel kinda crashed the panel, hugging everyone and such. I don’t even know why he showed up. I thought it was probably because he had to leave early, but that wasn’t the case. It was just really sweet to see them all together on stage. I think he was just lonely because he had just finished his last photo shoot and there was no one else there anymore, no one he could talk to, so he had to come and find his buddies :D (No idea where Dylan was, though, maybe still shooting :P)

("How can you even think about killing me? :( Don't kill me")

(Again, just a "few" of the triple panel :D)

There was a break for about an hour after the triple panel and then there was another autograph session.

This time there were queues for the actors, to make it easier. If there were people only in need for 1 autograph anymore, they just had to get in line for that person, and if someone had more than 1 autograph they had to start at the beginning. Again: It was SO much better organized than before and I am really glad the girls took over, because they obviously DID know what they were doing (unlike the Alpha Girls), so yeah.

Like I mentioned before: I had only an Ian autograph anymore and I was the 2^nd in line, so it didn’t take me very long to get to him. I showed him the picture, smiling at him and he looked up at me saying “Oh my god, we look awesome in that picture” and I was like “You look awesome” and he replied with “no, seriously, WE look good” and I agreed with him (because what else was I supposed to say?) and he asked me for his name although he did know who I was. I also told him that this is now the 5^th time I’m with him during that convention and he must think I’m a stalker by now. He said “Oh no, I actually like that” *lol* Ehm… yeah. I think he just wanted to be nice. I also told him that I might see him again at “Wolf’s Bane” and he replied with “That would be great”… and yeah… then I left to go back to Isabel.

(my last Ian autograph :D)

Again we sat down at the stairs and talked to kill time until the closing ceremony that was supposed to start at 6 p.m.

Usually I’m used to closing ceremonies being 45 to 60 minutes long. Well… not this time. But that wasn’t really surprising and I almost expected this so called “closing ceremony” to be done after 5 minutes. Especially since it was the same with the so called “opening ceremony”, so it wasn’t a huge surprise that after Jamie announced the guys that were still there on stage (aka Daniel, JR, Ian, Tyler) they only said a few words and then this whole mess of a convention was over.

(So called "Closing Ceremony")

Isabel, Kasia and me went to McDonalds again to have one last meal because we were all hungry, Viktoria was already on her way home. Her uncle had picked her up from the convention around 2 and we didn’t even have a chance to say good-bye to her, but well…

We talked about the convention for a bit and left to go home around… I think 7.30 or something like that after we also said good-bye to a few other people we met during the convention.

(btw. - the Sunday plan for the Convention :D)

We went home and after taking a shower (again, not together :P) we enjoyed the rest of the evening with watching some SUITS and went to bed “early” (well, around 11.30 but considering how late it was all the other evenings, that WAS early! :P).

Kasia would leave the next day and we had decided to do some sightseeing again, and so we got up around 8.30, left home around 9.30 and went to Vienna, to the Prater, where we took a ride in the huge Ferris Wheel that is a landmark of Vienna before we brought Kasia to the train and then Isabel and I went back home.

We spent the evening chatting and watching some more SUITS (managed to watch until episode 2x01 – so yeah, we got pretty far and I would say we got her hooked) and the next day Isabel had to leave as well…

And that was it… Mostly.

I know I should probably feel the “post convention blues” everyone else feels, but somehow I don’t. I mean, I do miss the girls and it was quite strange to “get back to my life” after a week being surrounded by all those people and having a wonderful time with the stars of my favourite tv-shows, but I also don’t feel like I ever wanna do an “Alpha Con” again…

Besides: I’m still trying to find a way to make “Wolf’s Bane” happen SOMEHOW… I just know I HAVE TO do this… Because it most likely will be the last convention I’ll be doing in a while.

Unless I find a job quickly, but with every passing week, with every passing month, it gets harder and harder, because the longer you’re out of work, the more difficult it gets to find someone that is willing to hire you :/ :’( *sighs* I really need that…

I know I said that before Alpha Con too, but since this one wasn’t the best experience for me I will do everything now to make it to “Wolf’s Bane” to see Ian and Daniel and Tyler (mostly) one more time. Right now I just don’t really have the opportunity to do much of anything since I’m still sick and even my doctor told me that I have to stay at home for a couple of days and just get better. And that’s what I plan on doing…

So yeah… now you basically know “everything”… ;-)

Alpha Con - Part 3...

bm_shipper — Wed, 11 Jun 2014 20:48:41 GMT

Where was I? Right, Day 3 – if you wanna call it that way – or rather Saturday. Like I already mentioned: me and the girls got up around 7.30, had breakfast, got ready and then left around 8.30 to pick Fabiola up from her youth hostel.

I probably should mention that by this day I was even sicker, barely had a voice anymore and having to do a Con when you feel like that is no fun itself, but I still was hoping that “today” everything would be better, that the Alpha girls had learned from their mistakes from the previous day and that things would get better now. That things would FINALLY start to come into place and turn out the way they should be.

Well… hope dies last, people say, right? *lol*

We arrived at the “Pyramid” around 9.30 and AGAIN – how else should it have been? – there was a queue waiting in front of closed doors. What else is new?

Besides that, it was FREAKING HOT. Like SERIOUSLY hot. And that at 9.30 in the morning. And that was not a good sign of course. Especially if you know you have to spend the day in a glass pyramid with a broken air conditioning. I expected the worst. And was pretty damn afraid my body would give out at some point. That I would not be able to survive the whole day.

And I knew it would be one hell of a day. Especially since that was the ONLY day all guests were there (which meant 10 guests – if you include Susan Walters, who was only there for autographs), and that means, literally everyone had photo shootings and they also tried to do panels with everyone. TRIED TO ;-)

We were let in around 10, I think, and first thing we did was to ask for pictures. But OF COURSE they weren’t there and no one knew ANYTHING about the pictures from the previous day. It was promised in the Alpha Group before the Con that the pictures would be printed and available within a couple of hours and now even after 24 hours (for some pictures) there was NOTHING and NO one who could tell us anything. The helpers had NO clue and “I don’t know” was the sentence I heard most during this whole convention, I think. And mostly from the helpers.

The first thing on the “plan” for Saturday was the Daniel Sharman Shooting. I don’t know if I mentioned it before, but I had bought 4 pictures with him. And I actually wanted to split them in 2 shootings, but when I was queuing for the Daniel Picture (together with Isabel who had one picture with Daniel too btw.) the “nice” lady there “advised” me (or rather told me to in a pretty much bitchy voice) to take all pictures at once because she can’t promise me if I will get another chance the next day even IF I still have some photo coupons. I told her Daniel would have another shooting the next day, but she was like “If you wanna make sure you get all your pictures, take them all at once, because if you can’t tomorrow, it’s your own fault and your own problem”

Which yeah… freaked me out. Kind of.

So far it NEVER was a problem on ANY convention to split pictures if you had more than 1 or 2. Hell, at the “Bloody Con” last year I had 5 pictures with David Anders and split them into 3 (!!) shootings. With the cheapest ticket. And it was NO problem.

But of course after all the stress this convention had already caused me, I decided that – yeah – it might probably be better to just take the pictures and “get it over with” instead of in the end not having all of my pictures taken at all. But it did make me kind of nervous and it did make me think “OMG, what is Daniel going to think if he realizes I’m going to take 4 pictures with him?” – especially because I was one of the first with my Alpha wristband. Like the days before.

There were people before me with 2 pictures, yes, but when it was my turn and the assistant told the photographer AND Daniel that he would “have to” take 4 pictures with me, he seemed a bit overwhelmed to be honest. And so was I. He was like “OMG, 4 Pictures? Really? Oh my god”. He seemed almost a bit embarrassed, but in a sweet and adorable way.

I had my 4 poses (just like before) printed out and the pictures in my hand and when I showed them to him, I think I kind of “overwhelmed” him with it AGAIN *lol* He’s not used to that stuff, and that was only the 2^nd convention ever for him, and so that was all a bit stressful.

Like I said before, I can’t recall what happened next, and my mind is blank when I try to remember what poses we did. I *DO* remember, however, that I did that one pose I planned to do for a long time. It’s the pose of a movie poster, and I had my purple scarf with me for this pose, and put it around Daniel’s neck and then we stood back to back with me kind of “pulling” Daniel a little bit with the scarf. I have NO idea how he looked, or how I looked whatsoever, I just know we did that pose.

And I also remember Daniel trying his best to get the poses I wanted done, because he looked at the pictures and even during one of the pictures he checked back with the photo being all like “am I doing this right?” *lol* Oh boy, that was something he probably would be remembering for a while.

I also told him after we took the 4 pictures that later at the autographs I have a surprise for him (the fanbook) and he was smiling at me so adorably saying “I’m very looking forward to that – see you later” – and then I left and waited for Isabel (who was right behind me) and while she afterwards went into the panel room for the “Teen Wolf Panel” (that was with all the TW guests we had, aka Tyler, Dylan, Daniel, Linden, JR and Ian) I had another “shooting” on the plan – the one with Paul Wesley.

And let me tell you: I’m DAMN GLAD I didn’t have to pay for this one, because he kind of behaved like an “asshole”, even though I know that sounds kind of extreme, but I was really disappointed in him.

But hey, I was obviously the only one he behaved like that towards, so there must be something wrong with me.

I went to “Photo Studio 1” (at this day they had set up 2 different parts of the pyramid for taking photo ops, one only separated from the panel room with a dividing wall [that was studio 2], and the other one was right down the stairs next to the toilets 8 [that was studio 1] – so yay, 2 studios :P), getting in line for Paul’s photos and when it was on me he didn’t even look at me, never said “hello” or ANYTHING. And when he stood next to me I asked “can we do a picture with looking at each other instead of the camera?” and he – again – didn’t even look at me and just replied with “I don’t do poses, so no, we can’t”. I was seriously baffled about his behaviour. It’s not like I wanted anything “completely bad” from him or anything like that, but well… And I can accept if someone does NOT wanna do poses, okay? Don't misunderstand me. I just thought his behaviour was not very nice... :/

(My picture with Paul - I'm not really happy with it and I don't like it, but well...)

I just got next to him, took my photo and left to see the “Teen Wolf Group Panel” – which was next on the plan.

It was seriously unbearable hot at this time already and I was sweating until I was dripping wet and it was not a nice thing to experience, but the panel itself was REALLY, really good. You could see that the whole cast gets along pretty well and that they all like each other, despite what they said *lol*

Someone was asking why Daniel left and the guys said that it was their doing and that they tried to get rid of him for 2 years and FINALLY managed to make him leave, because they all don’t like him. They always prank him and do all the things to show him that they want him gone (they said), and finally it worked *lol*

It was a joke, but the way they said it made me almost feel sorry for Daniel.

The faces they made were extremely cute, though… :)

And it was just another sign that they are a big family and really care for and about each other.

There were a lot of questions and OF COURSE I can’t recall them at all, but it was just nice to see them together and I enjoyed it a lot.

(I took so many pictures during that panel - that's just a few of them :D)

After the “Teen Wolf Panel”, next thing on the “plan” were autographs. AGAIN. And this time it would be with all 10 guests.

They had set up 10 tables in the foyer (yes, it was all VERY professional) and then all of a sudden there was a HUGE crowd of people. LOTS of people of ALL ticket categories. It was a huge mess. And the helpers tried to get the attendees under control, but that turned out to be pretty difficult. They screamed a lot of times that at this time and in this 1 hour ONLY VIP and Alfa Tickets would get their autographs and that Beta and Gamma people should just leave, because there was NO WAY they would get their autographs in this session, but of course a lot of people didn’t (want to) listen and it took them quite a while to “get rid” of those people.

It was also said that it wasn’t allowed to take pictures during the autographs, but AGAIN, OF COURSE there were some idiots (especially that one blond lady standing right next to me and Isabel) that wouldn’t listen. But of course in the end no one did anything about it. It drove me mad, though, because I just hate it when people are this disrespectful and just don’t listen to the rules. And it makes me even madder when the “helpers” are too overstrained to do their job. Well…

The tables started with Paul on the 1^st, Michael on the 2^nd, Nate on the 3^rd, Jamie on the 4^th, Dylan on the 5^th, Tyler on the 6^th, Daniel on the 7^th, Ian on the 8^th, Linden on the 9^th and ended with JR on the 10^th table, and well… the VIPs had autographs of everyone, and so when they finally started letting people in (about 30 minutes after the autographs should have started – but what else is new?) in, of course it all started with Paul and took a very long time to get in.

Isabel had a “Meet & Greet” with Tyler at 1.30 and was really nervous that she wouldn’t make it there in time, but I told her “as long as Tyler’s here, he can’t be having the meet & greet” and in the end we both managed to get all the autographs we “needed” that day in time for Isabel to go to her Meet&Greet.

I had autographs of Paul, Daniel, Ian & JR, and also had to get some of Dylan, Tyler and Linden for a Livejournal friend of mine, and so I started with Paul on the first table.

Well, he was in a better mood than back at the photo ops, and seemed quite nice in that very moment, but I’m still not exactly a fan of his I have to admit, and I’m still not okay with the way he treated me. I just was told today that he was pretty pissy because of the heat (Svetlana, one of the organizers told that to me via private message) and that he was complaining all the time and that he was not a “good guest” and did a lot of things that were not okay. I don’t wanna get into it right now, but he didn’t sound very “nice” and “loveable” from what she told me.

(Paul's autograph)

I didn’t really talk to Paul, and my “next target” was Dylan, but THAT ONE took forever, because literally EVERYONE talked to him what felt like for hours. The line in front of him was SO fucking long, and I would have loved just to skip him, and if it wasn’t for Colleen, I would have, but that’s okay… :) I mean, he was extremely sweet.

When I was finally there to get his autograph and had to write down the name for the autograph he looked at me and I looked at him and I explained to him that this autograph is for a friend of mine from the US, who couldn’t make it here and he was pretty nice and wrote a small novel onto it (which he obviously did for everyone, which was obviously one of the reasons it took so long with him), and when he was done he asked me “So where’s your autograph?” and I told him “I don’t need one” and he was like “So you don’t like me?” *lol* Oh boy… I just replied “Sure I like you, I’m just not that much a fan of autographs”… which IS true. If I hadn’t had some included in the package I won, I wouldn’t have taken more than Daniel’s autograph, so there’s that… ;-)

(Dylan's auto for Colleen)

On another note: Isabel had a drawing with her she made of Dylan and she wanted him to sign it, and when she showed it to him he was completely in awe and complimenting her and being really so sweet to her, telling her how talented she is and everything and she totally deserved this, because the picture REALLY, really looked awesome.

Next was Tyler. His line was a bit longer too, but not as long as Dylan’s and so we (aka me and Isabel who was still behind me) were able to get to him quite quickly.

My voice by this time was almost gone completely and so I apologized to him for that in advance and he was pretty cute, saying that I should feel better soon and that he feels sorry for me being sick. And he smiled so sweetly.
Isabel had some gift for him (something she made over twitter and tumblr) and he was pretty much touched, even though I’m sure he didn’t know exactly what it was at that point, but I do hope that by now he could read it. But he was pretty amazed and so sweet about it and thanked her and everything.

(Tyler's autograph for Colleen)

Next came the “difficult” part. Or rather: difficult for ME… the part where I would FINALLY be able to give Daniel the Fanbook I’ve been working on for weeks. It looked really good and I was actually pretty proud that in the end so many people participated and that it turned out to be a success.

Svetlana (the organizer) told me beforehand I had my blessing to ask Daniel for a picture (or short video) because of the fanbook, even though it’s usually not allowed, but when it was finally my turn and I walked over to him, I just couldn’t get myself to do it. Which I regret now, since I’m quite sure it would have worked out. (There was a girl doing a fanbook for Dylan and she got a picture with him and the fanbook, so yeah, I probably should just have asked)

Anyways… before he could sign any autographs I gave him the book saying “That’s the surprise I was talking about before” and then he looked up at me and obviously recognized me, because he said “Oh, it’s you, we did take pictures before” and I said “Yes, we did” and then he asked “Are you alright? You sound hoarse” and I told him that I was actually pretty sick that day and that I’m afraid my voice would die any second, so I probably shouldn’t talk all too much. But I still wanted to explain to him what the fanbook was, and so I told him that people from all over the world sent me messages and that I put those messages together and created this book, and he was SO touched. He went through the book for a bit always saying things like “wow” or “that’s incredible” and such, being a real sweetheart.
He was completely adorable, saying that he’s gonna have to go through it for longer later, but that he admires me for doing all this work just for him, and that this really means a lot to him and yeah. It was just really nice, because he obviously DID appreciate what I did there and really liked the present.

I told him I had 2 autograph coupons and fortunately they had 2 different pictures of him there, and Daniel personalized both of my autographs and they are just awesome and mean so much to me. He thanked me again and told me that he hoped I would feel better soon and then I left to go to the next table.

Just as an explanation: I had 2 Daniel autographs because 1 was included in my Gamma Ticket and the other in my Alfa. I tried to sell it, but no one wanted it, but I mean, that’s okay, because this way I had 2 autographs of him and could spend more time “with him”.

(My 2 Daniel autograph's - he's the absolut best!!!)

Next in line was Ian – and well… that was not planned, but after everything that happened the day before and after him being so incredibly nice to me, I spontaneously bought a 2^nd autograph shortly before the autograph session and when I walked over to him he looked up at me saying “Oh, you again” *lol* I am not sure if that’s a good or a bad thing. I replied to him that – yes – this is now the 3^rd time we met and I also told him that I spontaneously ALSO bought another photo op with him *coughs* That we would take the next day. He also noticed that I was sick and was all like “Oh my god, you’re sick, please don’t breath on me” *lol* Oh well… But his autograph was awesome and even better than my first one and we said good-bye with saying “see you tomorrow” (since he didn’t have a photo session this day anymore, only the next day).

(My 2nd Ian Autograph <3)

Next was Linden and when I wrote down my name on the piece of paper the assistant gave me and reached it to him he looked up at me with a smile saying “Hey Colleen, nice to meet you”… eh… yeah. I cleared it up to him that this is not my name but my friend’s and that I’m getting the autograph for her because she’s a huge fan of his, and she’s from the USA and couldn’t make it over here but that I’m going to send her the autograph.

He was incredibly nice, even though he had to write the autograph 3 times, because first he had written the name only with one L and then with only one E *lol* So the 3^rd time it worked out and I could move over to JR.

(Colleen's autograph from Linden :D)

Who was such a darling too. And man, this guy has incredibly beautiful eyes. And so much sex-appeal for a man his age if I might say. And he was extremely nice and sweet as well – just like they all were. I was telling him that I’m very much looking forward to the photo op with him later and when I said good-bye he said “See you later”… So that’s pretty nice as well.

(Last but not least: My JR autograph :D)

Do I have to mention that this “autograph session from hell” took FOREVER and that OF COURSE after that one NOTHING happened “on time” anymore AGAIN? Because instead of starting at 12, they started only at 12.30 and instead of finishing at 1.00 in the end it was almost 2. I mean, COME ON.

And that even with ONLY the VIPs and Alfas being let in – no one else. It was seriously SO unorganized.

I do get that everyone loves to have a chat with his favourite star whatsoever, but they should have done something when seeing that Dylan’s queue got longer and longer and longer and that it took forever to get to him. I mean, they did let a couple of people in if they didn’t have a Dylan autograph, but not that many because true fact: most people DID want one of him. I do think that most of it IS Dylan’s “fault”, because he obviously loves to chat (and also chatted with me for quite a moment) and loves to write novels on the autographs, but still…

That would have never gone like this at other conventions. They would probably have stopped him personalizing the autographs or such, but well… the people that DID get to him definitely were happy afterwards, so that’s okay I guess.

I just don’t wanna imagine how I would have felt if I was a Beta or Gamma Ticket with no chance to get to the autographs for that session at all.

After the autograph session there was supposed to be the “Vampire Diaries Group Panel” – aka the panel with Paul, Michael and Nate, but OF COURSE that couldn’t start on time and in the end instead of 1.00 it started at 2.15 – so AGAIN they were over an hour late.

The Panel was pretty funny, though. I laughed my ass off. The guys – ESPECIALLY Paul – were making all those ambiguous jokes about each other. Like there was this one question for Paul, “Having a One-Night-Stand or getting married – Katherine or Elena – who would he choose for what?” and Paul was like “neither, I would have a One-Night stand with Nate and I would marry Michael” and then Nate commented with “Been there, done that” and Paul said “you couldn’t walk a whole day after the last time”… *lol* They were ALWAYS saying things like that and really making fun of everything.

But I guess that was the best thing they could do, since of course they also complained about the heat and everything and it was obvious that they rather wanted to be somewhere else than having to sit at this stage at about 40°C and answer questions.

There was also this one “question” of a girl who told Paul to explain a whole day in his life while Nate would “act it” the same time and Paul was like “I’m getting up, taking the huge portrait of Ian Somerhalder off my nightstand and kiss it, then going to the shower, jerking off thinking of Ian Somerhalder” and all those things… *rofl*

There was a LOT of talk about Ian and Paul especially mentioned him a lot. I think he kind of missed him… ;-)

Either way… it was a pretty funny panel, despite the unbearable heat, but still, it did NOT feel all too good to be literally glued to your chair and wet from all the sweat… But there was nothing anyone could do, so we had to make the best of it.

(a couple of pics from the "Vampire Diaries" panel - they drank a whole bottle of sangria together during that one *lol*)

After the panel it was “lunch time” – and just like the day before, me and my friend bought sandwiches and waters (that were of course again extremely overpriced) and ate something and afterwards the worst moments of the whole Con started for me.

Because they made me miss two panels – the Paul/Michael one as well as the Linden/JR one. This was the only Linden Panel there was, so yeah, that sucked.

And it was mostly because NO one knew anything. My Ian/Tyler double picture was supposed to take place from 4.00 to 4.15 and afterwards my Tyler single picture, because it was SUPPOSED to be with them starting the double and Ian leaving and Tyler going on with the single pics, but OF COURSE – nope, not happening.

Especially since before that there were supposed to be a whole lot of other combinations taking place, like “Hobrien” (Dylan and Tyler), Stilinski Family (Linden and Dylan) and so on, and NEITHER of those had happened before and no one knew ANYTHING anymore. No one knew what was supposed to be happening when and IF something was even happening. We were sent from studio 1 to 2 and back, and it was a whole time of running back and forth between those studios and the info booth without ANY result.

I was also quite freaked out because at 6.15 the ONLY Linden Shooting for this day was supposed to be happening (because Linden only had 1 photo shooting and because Linden only was there on Saturday) and I was really afraid I was going to miss it because of all the delays…

It was sooooooooo chaotic.

And then I was told that the Tyler/Ian double would be postponed to tomorrow and that I could go line up for JR now since Linden is still doing Doubles with Dylan, and I would have enough time. So I went to studio 1 and waited and all of a sudden someone came calling out “Ian/Tyler Doubles please to studio 2” – ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME?

Seriously… that was basically the other end of the pyramid and they said if we won’t hurry and miss it we’re not getting another chance.

So from standing in line for JR I had to run back to the other studio to take my double picture with Ian and Tyler.

I felt like I was going to die on spot when I was there, completely breathless.

They only sold 20 Ian/Tyler Doubles and of course with my Alfa wristband I was one of the first ones to take a picture with them.

I told them what I wanted. I said “I wanna hug Tyler and I want you to look pissed or annoyed or something like that, if that’s okay” and Ian was like “What else is new? They always wanna hug him and not me” and I said “I promise, I make it up to you tomorrow in our single shoot” and he was like “I’m looking forward to it” ;-)

(I actually think that one turned out quite nicely :D)

We took the picture and then I had to sprint back to get my picture with JR done, and of course AGAIN I was completely out of breath when I was finally there, and there weren’t even that many people anymore. ARGH. Really.

I had a certain pose in mind and managed to get the printed picture out and when I walked over to JR he was like “Are you okay? You look exhausted” and I replied with “I had to run here, but I’m good” and he replied “Do you need a moment?” and was extremely caring. I said “No, but I’d like us to do this pose if that’s okay with you?” and showed him the picture and he said “Yeah, sure, of course that’s okay with me.” He placed an arm around my hip, and with the other one grabbed my hand and then we looked at each other and again, OMG, he has pretty eyes…

Believe me, it’s not that easy to look someone in the eye for several seconds, especially when he has pretty eyes like that.

Anyways.

(Me and JR - I like that one too :D)

When I was done and thanked him JR turned to the photographer (without letting go of my hand) saying “Let us see the picture, please, because if it’s not good, we take another one, and if she doesn’t like it, we also take another one” – that was probably the most adorable thing ever and JR completely surprised me that moment, because I never expected him to act like this.

I mean, sure, I knew he was a nice guy and such, but that was more than just being nice and it made me feel like he really cared about everything and really wanted for everyone to have a good picture.

From what I’ve seen I liked the picture and so I thanked him again and told him that I think it looks good and then I said good-bye.

And then I had to run back to studio 2 because OF COURSE right that moment I was told that Linden was doing his photos now in the other studio.

Oh god, really. When I was finally there I thought I’m gonna drop dead any second.

Fortunately there were a few people in front of me, so I could take a breath until it was my turn to take my picture with Linden. I showed him the same photo I had already showed Ian the day before and asked him if we could do this pose and he said “oh, you want the flip?” (didn’t know it was called that way) and so I just said yes and we took the picture.

I actually don’t like it very much and it’s probably the worst of all photos I took during the Con, but well… It’s still a memory, and I was able to look into his eye and he was so nice and it was really great.

(That one looks so completely awful, I don't even know what to say...)

He thanked me afterwards and I thanked him and I said good-bye and went back to he information only to find out that Tyler was FINALLY doing his photos too.

Seriously, this was SO screwed up. This whole plan and this whole day was screwed up like crazy.

So that meant, running back to Studio 1, because of course it was in the other one, and since I still had the photo in my hand I just decided to do the same pose with Tyler too, thinking “whatever”, because I really wasn’t in the mood for asking anything too special anymore.

I do have to say, I really like how that picture turned out in the end. I am surprised it looks like that, because I was REALLY, really exhausted and tired and just wanted to drop dead in some corner. Everything hurt and I was hungry and in a bad mood and yeah…

(I really like my pic with Tyler :) And especially the little moment I had with him. When he held me like that I was a bit shaken up because he looked into my eyes and I said "Please don't drop me" - and he smiled at me and - I kid you not - replied with "Don't worry, I got you, babe!" - He really said that and It almost made me swoon. I mean, OMG... he called me babe. Just like that... *lol* Yeah, I know, I'm crazy, but DAMN, that was... special... :D)

I met my friends in the lobby and FINALLY the first pictures from Friday had arrived (aka the Michael Malarkey, Ian Bohen and Nate Buzolic ones), but instead of just trying to figure out a way to make everyone see what is on the picture they just made a pile and you had to go through them yourself. I mean, SERIOUSLY… it was another chaos they created, because of course everyone was storming towards the table and trying to find his picture.

And when they did, no one was really happy because of the awful quality, and everyone was complaining.

Me included.

Although I “only” complained to my friends (who I finally “found again”), and not to the organization since I’m sure it wouldn’t have changed anything anyways.

We went to McDonalds to get something to eat (which was basically standard since it was the closest “restaurant” and also the cheapest) and since that evening the “Blacklight Party” would take place, well… we also got changed there at the McDonalds toilet… *lol*

We literally stayed there until 9.15, talking and just trying to breath and everything and when we went back to the Pyramid – SURPRISE – it was OPEN already *lol*

This was a first :P

Party Room was the same than the day before, and there also was this “Captain Morgan” guy (dressed as a pirate) taking pictures with all the pretty girls who wanted to. I actually did NOT, but Isabel kind of “made me”… :D

(mine and Isabel's picture with that "Captain Morgan" guy :D)

It happened when we had went outside to take a little breath (because it was soo full and hot and the music was so loud and everything, so we didn’t stay more than 30 minutes inside) and then came back, that he kind of “grabbed us” and talked to us and took a picture with us.

Me and Isabel went back out again after a little while (the others stayed in), sitting down at the stairs. At least until I got a message from Fabiola, being all excited and saying the guys (aka the stars) had showed up, and so me and Isabel went back in, but we better should NOT have… it was HORRIBLE.

There was a little corner “separated” from the party room with 2 tables and that was the so-called VIP area. It was AWFUL.

The stars (Tyler, Dylan, Ian, JR and Jamie) were standing in there and everyone was staring at them like animals in a zoo. There was a huge crowd in front of those tables and everyone was taking pictures even though it HAD BEEN said that it wasn’t allowed. No one cared enough to stop it, though.

One time JR and Daniel “came out” and tried to just get “into the crowd” – obviously really wanting to party with “us” but there was no chance for them doing that, because after a couple of seconds they were crowded again and could barely move.

Isabel and me were standing somewhere aside just watching from afar, but it was awful. Tyler and Dylan didn’t even come out once (understandable, because Dylan had hurt his leg during the day and didn’t feel all too good, and I wouldn’t have wanted to come out if I was them either), and thanks to the “awesome” behaviour of a lot of fans all of the guys left again after 10 minutes of “partying”. They were trying to dance to the music in their “corner” and such, having a drink but like I said, the people wouldn’t stop crowding them and so it didn’t take them long to leave.

And OF COURSE as soon as they did a whole bunch of people started following them outside.

Thank god they had their bodyguards with them, but that was embarrassing.

I mean, maybe I’m too old for that kind of behaviour, but I can assure you: There were people older than me involved in that whole crowd and it’s just mortifying when grown up people can’t give them space.

They had been working the WHOLE day, writing tons of autographs, shooting tons of pictures, making panels whatsoever, and still people couldn’t get enough. Really, poor guys. I would have left too.

It’s almost funny that as soon as the stars were gone, so were people and the “party” died within 15 minutes, because everyone else left. WTF? Are you kidding me?

It was said beforehand that NO ONE should come to the parties just for the guys, but obviously, most people did, or how else was this to explain?

Kasia decided that night that she wants to stay with her friend Agata (who had a room at the Convention Hotel) and around 0.15, Isabel, Fabiola, Viktoria and me left to get back to my place. We were all tired by that time and not really in the mood for partying anymore either. Besides, we knew we had to get up fairly early again the next day for the “last day of hell”… so yeah…

We dropped Fabiola off at her youth hostel, went home and took a shower (not together, one after another :P) and then went straight to bed.

Unfortunately, my cough had gotten so bad by this time that it was difficult for me to fall asleep. And I was also always scared to keep Viktoria and Isabel awake, but there was nothing I could do about it, and so I just tried to hold it back as long as possible.

On another note and to end that entry: I went into the pyramid that evening with my purple cardigan, but somehow I lost it somewhere in the crowd or something like that. I asked several times this evening and the next day, but no one has found it. Which is kind of strange, since I mean… what is anyone doing with my cardigan?

I talked to Svetlana just today and she told me they hadn’t found it, but that I should write an e-mail to the hotel and maybe someone there has found it.

Either way… it probably won’t re-appear again. What a shame. I liked that cardigan.

On another note: If someone wants to see the "planned" schedule for Saturday, here it is:

Wow… that got even longer than the 2^nd part – I’m sorry – thanks for reading everyone. The last part will probably follow tomorrow evening :-)

Alpha Con - Part 2...

bm_shipper — Tue, 10 Jun 2014 21:59:45 GMT

Okay… let’s get started with Friday, since I’m sure more people are interested in the Convention stuff than everything that happened beforehand… so yeah… now the „real action“ starts… kind of… ;-)

Like I wrote in the first part, we got up around 6.30 and got ready (aka having breakfast, getting dressed, putting make-up on and so on)

The huge problem was me feeling even worse than the day before aka REALLY sick. My throat hurt, I could barely breath, my nose was running and it was just NOT a good condition to go to a Con, but what other choice did I have? And the girls relied on me. So I took some medicine again, hoping to SOMEHOW survive the day. I had decided a while before I wanted to wear my new “petticoat dress”… which really wasn’t that cheap, but I have to say, contemplating now, after the Con: it was probably the best decision ever, because – as strange as it might sound – this dress gave me probably some of the greatest moments of the whole Con… but more about that later.

We left around 7.30 – got to Wiener Neustadt to get Fabiola – and afterwards went directly to Voesendorf. This time I decided to park at the huge parking lot of the Shopping center that was pretty much close to the “Pyramid Convention Center” – and definitely closer than the so-called free parking spot because we only had to go through a passage underground and were there, so instead of driving around to find the free parking spot again, I just parked there and I also did that on Saturday and Sunday. That just by the way.

We arrived at the Convention center around 8.45 and – OF COURSE – there was AGAIN a huge queue. Which the Security people soon split in 2 queues, 1 for the people already registered, 1 for the people who still needed to register, so Isabel and me had to kind of “split up” with Kasia, Viktoria and Fabiola. And OF COURSE they didn’t start in time, as planned.

What else is new?

The day before they had said registration starts at 2 and it started at 3.45 – this time they said they would start in between 8.30 and 9 and started around 9.40 – JUST GREAT, isn’t it?

That was by the way my "Gamma Bracelet", the 2 tickets for the Party Friday and Saturday and a Necklace I bought after registering, because I fell in love with it and since then I've been wearing it ALL the time.. I'm so in love with it ;-)

I never found out why they didn’t start in time or what took them so long since they were already there and sitting inside, just not letting anyone in.

That was supposed to be the Friday "plan"... ;-)

Fortunately for me and Isabel we “had” Alfa Tickets and so were two of the first being let in for registering. But then OF COURSE the next problem came up. We had to go to the information desk, because of course we didn’t really have tickets since I WON them… and that was AGAIN a HUGE chaos, because NO ONE know about this “competition” thing and they ran back and forth to find something out. I mean, the guy there was really the cutest and trying his best to help us, but he didn’t know about the wins and he had no idea what to do and the first time he just came back to tell us he hadn’t found anyone and we have to wait… and the second time he came back he told us we had to wait for Svetlana (one of the organizers of the Con), because SHE knows everything… oh Boy…

It took a while for her to get back to us but in the end we got the Alfa wristbands and all the photos and autographs included in the package and we were able to go to the Panel room. And there the NEXT problem occurred. Every Alfa Ticket had a fixed seat… well… except us, because I fucking WON the tickets and no one knew where to “put us”… so again, the helpers were running back and forth, no one really knowing what to do with us until someone came telling us “just sit where it’s free”… I mean, WTF? All the seats should have been assigned, so we had NO idea where to sit.

We sat down in the first row on the first 2 seats but OF COURSE it didn’t take long for the “respective owners” of the seat to show up so we got to the next to seats and when THOSE owners come, to the next and so on… seriously, it was confusing and in fact: Isabel and me never really had “fixed seats”, always just sat down where it was free. Okay, it worked out like that, but that should not have been necessary and was just “additional stress”…

Also: Opening Ceremony SHOULD HAVE started at 10.00 – but OF COURSE it didn’t. In the end it was 11.15 when they FINALLY started. More than an hour later than it was planned. And of course for that reason the Michael Malarkey Photo Shooting that should have started at 10.15 (right after the opening ceremony) did NOT start at that time either. Michael Malarkey, Nathaniel Buzolic and Ian Bohen were the only 3 guests already there on Friday (and part of the opening ceremony) – and Jamie Christlow, the so called MoC (although he wasn’t on the stage much, so I don’t know what Alpha organizers meant with MoC, because all he did was announcing them). After the opening ceremony they said who wanted to have a picture with Michael Malarkey should go to “photo studio 1” now…

(pictures of the "opening ceremony")

HAHAHA… seriously… PHOTO STUDIO… right…

You know what the so-called-photo studio was? A corner in the hallway. Right next to the registration table. Just parted with a dividing wall on one side and NOTHING else. A small table there, a pretty small space, a dirty wall, an ugly tile floor and even a light switch in all of the pictures. Isn’t that awesome? I mean, SERIOUSLY… WTF? That was one of the first WTF moments I had at this convention.

They said they had planned it differently, but somehow the “Pyramid people” hadn’t cleared the room and so everything had to be done in the hallway.

Apart from that: OF COURSE there was no “promised background”… I mean, beforehand everyone was freaking out because Svetlana (one of the organizers) had promised a purple background and said she even created it herself and that it’s beautiful and a lot of people were afraid their clothes wouldn’t fit with the color of the background. Guess what? They all worried for nothing, because there was no background. EVER. Not only not the 1^st day…

Well… to get back to the report: I had 2 pictures with Michael Malarkey, Isabel and the others didn’t (Isabel sold hers), and so I had to go to start queuing alone… which wasn’t really that much of a problem, although I have to admit I was a little bit nervous…

First were the Alfa VIP tickets (there were 30 of them, even more expensive than the “normal” Alfa Tickets) and when they were down it was the Alfa Tickets and yeah… my heart was beating like crazy and I felt like I was about to pass out any second. Especially since adding to the nervousness it was also incredibly hot.

I had my coupons ready and the 2 pictures of the poses I wanted to do with Michael and when it was my turn I walked over to him and he looked at me and the first thing he said was “My god, you look awesome, that dress is beautiful” – so well… I can say Michael completely rattled me with that and when he greeted me with a handshake all I could say was “thank you”… and he was smiling at me saying “you’re welcome”.

I’m just glad it only took me a minute to compose myself and then I showed him the pictures and said “Can we maybe do those poses if they are okay with you?” – he said “we can do the one, but the other one I rather not do, if you can accept that” – he was extremely nice and polite about it – (it was kiss on my forehead, just in case you were wondering), but I mean, that’s completely okay for me that he didn’t want to do that, and so I asked “Okay, can we then hug for the 2^nd picture?” and he smiled at me again saying “Of course, darling”. He was seriously SO extremely sweet and nice and I don’t think he thought I was crazy for wanting a pose like that, but it was only his 2^nd convention at ALL, and he’s not used to do all this posing…

Anyways… for the first pose we held each others hand, looking into each other’s eyes smiling and that one turned out quite nice I think.

(That's a scan of the "paper photo", the quality is AWFUL, even though it might not be that visible on that picture, but I can't wait to get the JPEG and be able to print it!)

The 2^nd one was a normal hug and I even like that one – as far as I can tell since I only got a very crappy quality picture, more about that later – and when the 2^nd picture was done Michael said “It was nice meeting you”, and again he shook my head. I mean, seriously, how polite and sweet IS this guy? It was completely awesome, and thinking that he complimented me on my dress and my appearance STILL gives me goose bumps, because it was something I did ABSOLUTELY NOT expect and I’m also not that good with compliments to be honest… but it DID make me happy… and it was just really nice… He didn’t have to do that…

(That was the 2nd "paper photo" - apart from the crappy quality (like really crappy, you can see the spots on our skin, it was so awful) I'm really happy with how it turned out!)

After Michael’s photo Op I went back to the panel room since Nate’s panel (Nathaniel Buzolic – in case you’re wondering) was supposed to start at 11 (which of COURSE – no, not happening, since it was already about 11:45 when I left Michael’s shoot) and went back to the 1^st row waiting – and that was probably the first time I REALLY noticed the heat and it got hotter with the minute. It was absolutely awful, you can believe me.

There were about 30°C outside already and there were problems with the air conditioning. We found out later that for some STUPID reason Alpha Organizers built the stage right above the air conditioning (seriously, what idiot would do that?) and so it didn’t really work because the stage kind of blocked it.

I was dripping wet at parts during the panels, and it was NOT good for my circulation, I can tell you that!

Anyways… Nate’s panel started around 12 – so again ONE HOUR TOO LATE – but it was a really good panel – if you ask me. And Nate is a really great guy, saying some awesome things. He’s a pretty positive guy and it’s infecting. He also said we should always try to make the best out of a bad situation and that this is one of his mottos for life. That he always tries to see the positive things in situations, no matter how bad things get.

It was actually a pretty good thing to say.

He was also talking about Claire Holt a lot. It almost felt like he has a huge crush on her. I mean, like seriously. He was basically gushing about her. He was asked if Kol was alive who his girlfriend should be and he was like “Rebekah” – and someone said “But you are siblings” and Kol was like “who knows what Esther was up to?” – and I doubt that was a spoiler, but it was just his opinion and his wish that he rather would hook up with Rebekah than with anyone else. He also said Claire is one of the most awesome people he had ever worked with and I don’t know… I felt like the two of them are very close. I heard that Nate talks about her quite often and that whenever he does, he’s saying good things. It was pretty much adorable, but also felt kinda wrong to imagine Kol and Rebekah *lol*

I always wanted to meet Nate because I heard he’s such a great guy and I can confirm that: he’s pretty awesome and his panel was really good.

(a few pictures of Nate's panel - the one photo with the girl in front of him and him standing on a chair he was asked how it felt like to film with Jared Padalecki. He was Jared Padalecki in the scenario, and the girl was him *lol* :P Made sense =D)

Afterwards there was some kind of “break” (which had been planned, but actually, that panel break should have been between 12 and 1 – in the end it was between 1 and 2.

I bought a sandwich at the Convention center (a pretty expensive sandwich) and water (even MORE expensive water – a 0.5 l bottle for 3,60 € - for SIMPLE WATER, this is CRAZY!) and sat down outside in the grass with Kasia, Isabel, Viktoria and Fabiola. Who I kind just had “found again”. Especially Kasia and Isabel don’t know Vampire Diaries or are not interested in them and so they had been in the Shopping Mall during Nate’s Panel and the photo shoots and such. I mean, the Friday program was pretty loose anyways, and so there was time in between.

Next panel after the break was Michael Malarkey’s and it was one of 2 panels where I asked a question, although I was literally shaking during it and way too afraid to make a fool of myself (I think I didn’t :P)

Michael’s panel started around 2 (instead of 1) and I was EXTREMELY looking forward to it. I mean, some of you MIGHT have noticed it, but I have become a HUGE fan of that guy during the past couple of weeks. Ever since he appeared on “The Vampire Diaries”, and it was just so interesting what he had to say and it was also great to find out more about him. Like that he never was that much of a TV-Actor but more theatre and stuff and that he always loved music and such.

He was also asked (several times btw.) to sing a song since he makes so great music, but whenever someone came up with that he gave the same answer: that he wants to separate music and acting and that he’s here as an actor and that he will answer any question concerning his acting and his roles, but that he’s not going to sing. Which I completely understood and thought was really great. Also that he never went off his point of view and just stuck to his opinion. Not everyone responded all too good to that (some called him an idiot and arrogant because he wouldn’t sing a song for them even though he’s also a singer), but I felt he had a point and I could totally understood it.

(a few pictures of Michael's panel)

Afterwards there was the “actual lunch break” – which I used to find out what’s going to happen next. The program said that Nate and Michael BOTH would have photo ops after the lunch break, but I mean, they only had 1 room.

You know what they told me? They will do it alternately. WTF? Next WTF moment. They said they will do it like first Michael takes a picture, then Nate, then Michael again, then Nate, until everyone is through. ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME? How the hell should THAT have worked? *rolleyes* Oh god, seriously, this was SO messed up and I just couldn’t believe they were serious.

In the end it was that Nate started the whole “process” for about 30 minutes, then they switched, Nate left and Michael took pictures the other 30 minutes (there was 1 hour planned), which meant, I could go and take my 2 pictures I had with Nate… and again – that was (despite everything else) a really, really great experience.

Like before they started with the Alfa VIP people, afterwards Alfa, so I didn’t have to wait long (I don’t even wanna imagine what would have happened if I would have been stuck with the Gamma Ticket. The mere thought is awful now!) and when it was my turn and I walked over I got the next compliment. Nate said “That’s a really nice dress” and even though it wasn’t as overwhelming as Michael’s compliment (because seriously, it was Michael fucking Malarkey!) – it was still nice. I thanked him and – just like before with Michael – I had 2 small pictures with me, showing them to Nate asking “can we please do those poses?” and he looked at them, smiling at me saying “yes, sure, of course”.

The first one was a “Titanic Pose”… not the one with the arms stretched, but shortly afterwards with Leonardo’s arms around Kate’s hips and them looking at each other. Nate took the pictures saying “let me hold them since your hands are above mine so we won’t see the photos on the picture” (which was so adorable!) and then we did the pose. The 2^nd one was some kind of “dance move”, and this time I took the pictures in my hand (since my hand was on his back and so they were also not visible) and yeah… the told me “it was nice to meet you” afterwards and I “went away”… and I was kind of in heaven, because he was SO nice and sweet and adorable =)

(my 2 pictures with Nate - again, CRAPPY quality, a scan of the "paper thing" - sorry)

After that I rushed back into the panel room since it was time for Ian’s panel (actually, the photo ops and the Panel should have started the same time, but I think you can guess already: That didn’t happen either… *lol* Ian’s Panel HAD already started when I got back in, though…

It was about 3:45 when I went back in and I watched the rest of his panel. AND asked the question I was dying to ask him ever since the Season Finale of “Chicago P.D.” – although his answer was KIND OF confusing to be honest… ;-) And I think he didn’t exactly know how to answer – WHY? I found out later during the autographs.

If you’re interested which question I asked him: I was referring to the last scene of the episode, asking him what he thinks and if Stillwell is really capable of killing someone. He told me he can’t tell me that (which yeah, I kind of expected), but I asked him “Okay, I get it, but do you think he’s a good guy?” and Ian said “He does think there is some good in Stillwell”… so he didn’t exactly gave me an answer but what he said DID make sense, because he also said things like “sometimes good guys do bad things” – I don’t know if that meant Stillwell is a murderer or something else, but he did have a point…

(Ian's Panel :D)

After Ian’s Panel it was time for the first autograph session this weekend.

And of COURSE “only” Ian, Nate and Michael were there.

Again they started with the VIPS, but then things got kind of out of hand.

They let in the first Alfas – Isabel was standing with me in line – and while the line for Michael (who was the first one sitting in there) was kind of short, Nate’s got longer and longer, and so they were only letting people in that wanted Michael’s autograph and told “us” (since I was one of them) that we have to go to Michael first and then line up for our next autograph. Well, okay, no problem. Isabel didn’t get in, though, because she only wanted Ian, and Ian’s line was quite long too… so yeah…

It was EXTREMELY unorganized if you ask me and while the line for Nate was the longest, barely anything happened with Michael and Ian.

Anyways… I didn’t need Nate, so I just got in line for Michael, there were about 3 people in front of me and when it was my turn there were only like 2 people behind me. The assistant wrote down my name and when Michael finally looked up at me he said “oh, it’s you again, how are you?” and I replied with “I’m pretty hot” – and he replied “Oh, I can imagine, you must be sweating in that dress” – and I replied “Yes, I definitely do” and then he said “but it’s worth it, because it’s such a beautiful dress” – which means, he AGAIN complimented me on my dress… I mean, really… and he OBVIOUSLY remembered me (or rather he looked like he did!). I then told him that it’s a shame that he took down all his music videos from youtube and that I was used to going there every day and listening to his voice, but he explained to me that he did it because he would go to the studio next week (aka this week) to record some of his songs, because he wants to make a CD. Which yeah, of course makes sense, even though it’s still said. He also “promised” that it would be worth the wait and that the studio versions will be great. I also asked him if he plans on doing more concerts in Europe and he said he’s love to, but since he’s a series regular on The Vampire Diaries now, he probably won’t really find the time anymore this year, but that he definitely wants to do more concerts.

(that was Michael's autograph btw.)

I thanked him for everything (and of course for the autograph) and said good-bye and wished him a nice day and a good time in Vienna and then I got in line for Ian…

Which means now it was the first “face-to-face” time I got with Ian.

Again, I didn’t have to wait very long because most people were STILL standing in line for Nate (I understand, he’s a nice guy, and I think he’s great, but I didn’t need his auto, so… :P) and when it was my turn – again – I had to spell my name for the assistant and because there were like no people standing behind me I thought I’d use the chance to have a little chat with Ian. I asked him how he is and he told me that he’s great, asking me how I am and well – same answer than before – I told him that I’m hot, and then HE was also starting to compliment me telling me “your dress looks beautiful” and yeah… I’m sure I blushed. I thanked him and then decided – so what – to pick up the question I asked during the panel again but started differently. I told him that I love his role in “Chicago P.D.” and asked him if he already knew how important his role in Season 2 will be. And then he looked up at me, looked me up and down and said “It was you asking me about Stillwell in the panel, wasn’t it?” and I was like “yeah, that was me” – and he said “I remember you” and smiled at me. And then he said that Season 2 of “Chicago PD” hasn’t even started filming yet, and that even if he wanted to say ANYTHING, he couldn’t because he hadn’t read a single script yet and that he has NO idea how big or small his role for Season 2 will be. But he thinks that it might be quite important with all the things going on. And then I asked him if he could imagine it was Stillwell killing Jin or if he rather thinks it was Voight, and then he said “You know what? I think it was neither” and I was answering “Oh my god, that was exactly what I thought. I thought after that phone call Jin made that he is mixed up in something else and that it was someone completely different” and he said “I think you’re on a good lead here. Of course I don’t know, and maybe in the end I will be the killer, but I really don’t know. I don’t think so, though”.
So yeah, that was a pretty nice conversation I had with him and I was just really thankful for the time I could spend with him and that no one was rushing me, that no one was telling me I had to hurry and leave or something like that.
I then told him “I will see you at the photo op in quite a bit” and he replied “We’ll be taking a picture together?” and I replied “Yes, of course” – and he said “Oh, I’m very looking forward to it, I will definitely remember you. See you later, darling”…

Yeah, you can say I left a happy person when I walked away from him.

(that was Ian's autograph - of course :D)

Unfortunately, after me, not many people were let into the autograph room anymore, and Isabel – despite being Alfa – had no chance of getting her Ian autograph O.o I mean, how crazy is that? She told me afterwards that after me they only let people in for Michael anymore, no matter what ticket category they had – which makes no sense, but after everything that had happened during this convention so far, also wasn’t really surprising…

Last program point after the autographs was Ian Bohen’s first photo shooting and so Isabel and me went to “photo studio 1” (I still think it’s a joke calling it like that!) to get in line. A few people were already waiting there and it took quite a while for them to get started, because of course they first had to finish with the autographs and that took longer than expected. The shooting should have been from 5.00 to 5.45 but in the end it only started around 7. Not that much of a problem, but still…

Again, it started with the VIPs, then Alfa and Beta and Gamma and AGAIN I had a picture of a pose I wanted with Ian…

Which now is not that easy to explain, but it’s some kind of “dancing move” with a bit of “bending over”… it’s really difficult to explain.

Anyways…

When I walked over to Ian he DID remember me, because when he saw me he smiled and said “Hey darling, there you are” and then he wanted to hug me and I looked at him and said “I’ve actually printed out a pose I wanna do, if that’s okay with you” and he looked at the picture and then at me and then he said “sure, but I’m now really scared I might drop you” O___O which got ME kind of scared, even though I’m sure he was just joking, but I said “Okay, then please don’t drop me”, and so he “bent me over” (I don’t know how else I should describe it) and held onto me very tight, and I held onto him very tight, and I only heard people around squeal, and yeah… obviously people liked what I did with him, and believe me, I liked it too *lol*

This guy has a pair of the prettiest eyes ever. Like seriously. They are so blue and deep, and he has such a nice smile and he is just so charming and he complimented me so much and I really had some moments with him I think (not in a romantic way, don’t worry, I’m not losing my mind thinking I’m going to marry Ian Bohen, but it were moments that I’m always going to treasure, moments that will stay in my heart forever, and it meant a lot to me that he treated me like that and was just such a gentleman and so really nice to me).

After the picture was taking he “helped me up” again and then said “It was nice meeting you, darling, have a nice evening” and then I went away and… well… had to get some air first, because I felt kind of dizzy after that moment, because damn… it happened all soo quickly and I was so mesmerized by his eyes and I couldn’t believe how adorable he was and yeah… I was actually pretty much on cloud 9, I would say.

(so... that was my first photo op with Ian - I took 2 in the end because I spontaneously bought a 2nd photo with him after that! and again, it's the scan of the crappy paper photo, but still... OMG)

I went outside waiting for Isabel and shortly afterwards we finally also found Viktoria, Kasia and Fabiola again.

We went to McDonalds to get something to eat (which was also right after the passage underground) and chatted quite a bit and literally ALL of us were worried about the next day.

I mean, it had only been 3 guests and it was already SO chaotic. There would be 10 the next day and after all the chaos of the day we were REALLY worried that things could get out of hand. They couldn’t handle 3 people at the autographs and created a huge mess, how would they handle 10? We weren’t exactly hopeful to be honest… and I was seriously scared things wouldn’t work out the way they should…

After eating the only thing still “on the plan” was the “Rock’n’Roll Party” that was planned to start at 9 p.m. – I already wore my Petticoat Dress and didn’t plan on getting changed (nor did I have clothes with me anyways), but had I known they would fry us in that fucking glass pyramid, I would have never worn that dress. (although, thinking about it now, as much as I sweated, I also don’t regret it!)

Isabel, Kasia and Victoria had clothes for the party in my trunk and so we went to Kasia’s friend Agata’s room (she had a room in the Convention Hotel) for them to get dressed and around 9:15 left her room to get to the party and guess what we saw outside?

YES, A LINE OF PEOPLE. Because OF COURSE the party did NOT start at 9 p.m. as planned.

HUGE SURPRISE :D

Seriously, if it wasn’t so sad I would laugh about it…

It was around 9.30 when we finally were let in and could go to that “party room”, but really? I didn’t last long in there. It was freaking hot, it was muggy, I’ve been feeling like crap the whole day and barely could breath, so I told the others they should just party and I’ll go outside and wait for them since this is just too much for me. Besides: Feeling as sick as I felt, going to the party was probably not a good idea to begin with, but what was I supposed to do?

Isabel and Fabiola didn’t want to leave me alone, and so we all went outside (the party was in the same room the autograph session had taken place hours before) and so we sat there talking, and they both told me they didn’t plan on staying long either, because the party sucked, the music sucked and it was just not much fun. Viktoria joined us shortly afterwards and she wasn’t very happy with the party either, and so around 11 we decided to go. Even Kasia was okay with it, saying that it’s probably for the better and that maybe if we go home earlier that day, I would feel better next day and we could stay longer at the Blacklight Party.

We went back to Agata’s room to get the stuff Isabel and Viktoria left there and on the way back found out that Michael Malarkey had showed up at the party, but that he didn’t stay long because fans were crowding him and obviously not very respectful towards him. Jamie was there too (Jamie Christlow – so-called MoC), but they both stayed for like 10 minutes, so I don’t think I missed very much.

A girl even told me the next day that the music was just too loud. That he was staying at their table for a couple of minutes telling them SOMETHING but neither of them understood him or knew what he said afterwards so… yeah… makes a LOT of sense ^^”

So we left around 11, or maybe 11:30 to go home, brought Fabiola to her youth hostel and then went to my place where we all took a shower and went to bed.

At least we could sleep an hour longer the next day since we wouldn’t have to leave until 8.30 (meaning we could sleep until 7.30) – so that was the first day of the Con…

And I can assure you, that was just the beginning… and instead of getting better, things just got worse… But more about that tomorrow, since it’s now already 11 and I’m tired and I wanna go to bed “early” tonight… if you wanna say so… ;-)

If some of you really read that: congratulations, you made it through… ;-)

And to end this whole post an information about the "photos": it took almost 2 days to get them printed. Those 4 photos (the only ones I got "printed" out of my 15) were ready on Saturday evening, and they were the only ones that got printed. The others didn't, because after seeing those pictures everyone was complaining and no one was happy with the quality. Skin with spots and on paper and such, so they decided not to print the others anymore AT ALL... so now we have to wait and we can get the digital version for FREE...

Which yeah - is nice - but still not really good enough, if you ask me... but since everyone else ise happy with this solution... well... At least I can print them within the next couple of days AND maybe show you the "real version".

IF Someone is interested in the "real thing" that is ;-)

Alpha Con - Part 1...

bm_shipper — Tue, 10 Jun 2014 18:43:44 GMT

Okay… even though – like already mentioned – the previous weekend wasn’t the best experience of my life, some of you obviously still wanna have a report. But even though I’m just starting, I can already promise: It will be long and I probably won’t leave much out. Good stuff and bad stuff, because of course there was good stuff too. It was a special time after all and the actors gave me some very precious moments… and since I want to do a photo book as soon as I got my JPEG files for the photo ops, I thought, writing everything down won’t hurt… and kind of reliving some of my favourite moments.

And of course sharing it with the people who are interested in it is also a nice thing. I’m sure not many of you will read my “novel”, but since there ARE some of you who were interested, I’m now sharing my experience.

As I already mentioned, the whole experience already started on Tuesday, 3^rd June, with Kasia (=aevenien) and Isabel arriving in Vienna. Which was already an experience itself *lol* I don’t really know WHY, but I was pretty damn sure Kasia would be arriving at Vienna Westbahnhof on Tuesday. Which is why I waited there at the time she told me. And then she wrote me was there and I couldn’t find her and she couldn’t find me. Until she was writing me something about a kiosk right downstairs the train platform and then it began to dawn on me that – SHIT – I was at the wrong train station. I actually WAS at Vienna Meidling before (the train station Kasia arrived at) and had to take the subway to get to Westbahnhof, so I told Kasia not to move and stay there and that I would get her.

My god, what a disaster. But I know it’s my fault, since I obviously didn’t pay enough attention. Luckily it’s only 3 stations with the subway and I FINALLY found Kasia. YAY ME *lol*

We said HELLO and then we had to go back to Vienna Westbahnhof because Isabel WOULD arrive there, so at least that one I got right.

We went back to the subway, drove to Vienna Westbahnhof and waited for Isabel. She arrived not much later and then we got rid of Kasia’s and Isabel’s luggage (aka putting it into a locker there) and went to get something to eat. At McDonalds. Because I had Coupons where we could get something to eat cheaper than normally, so that was a good thing.

Afterwards we took the subway again – this time to get to Stephansplatz – and there we went into the Stephansdom (it’s one of Vienna’s landmarks) and since it was already late when we got out we decided to look for the cinema.

For the people who haven’t read it before: Our plan was to watch the new “X-Men” movie this evening (so we wouldn’t have to go to Vienna twice and spend more money) – and so that’s where we were headed. The Cinema was supposed to be 5 minutes away from the Stephansplatz, but well… truth to be told: It took us 20 minutes to really find it *lol*

We got our tickets (I had them reserved before), got popcorn and something to drink and then sat down to talk for a bit until it was time for the movie. I’m not gonna repeat my review here, but I still wanna mention again how absolutely much I loved the movie and that I’m definitely going to watch it again. And again. And again. It’s probably my favourite so far and I just thought it was a great movie.

After the movie was over we went back to Vienna Westbahnhof, got Kasia’s and Isabel’s luggage and then went to Meidling and from there to Wiener Neustadt where I had my car. And from there – of course – we went to my place where we arrived around I think 10 or 10:30. Not exactly sure, but must have been around that time.

Of course both – Isabel and Kasia – were pretty tired, and so was I, and so after talking a bit, taking a shower and getting ready for bed we went to sleep around midnight. And since we didn’t have any big plans for the next day we didn’t turn on any alarm clock.

I was awake first, around 8, I think, and since both girls were still asleep I just left the room with my laptop and sat in the kitchen, checking the internet, watching “Faking it” and such (so I at least was able to watch one show during the week *lol*) and waited for the others to get up. Isabel “joined me” around I think 9:30 and Kasia slept a LOT longer… I don’t know exactly how long but when she got up she asked us why we didn’t wake her… well, I’m sure she needed the sleep.

Like I said – no big plans – but after getting up and getting ready we went to the shopping center and got something to eat and afterwards I showed them around in Wiener Neustadt a bit, showed them the Dom and such. Unfortunately it started raining when we were about to leave the Dome. Heavily. And so we decided to go back home.

Before, we did some grocery shopping in the supermarket, getting some things for dinner and also for breakfast for the days Kasia and Isabel would stay at my place and then we went home and well… started some kind of “tv-show marathon”…

I mean, not exactly, but we managed to watch a total of 5 episodes of “SUITS” this evening. Kasia already knew the show (and of course I did too), but Isabel didn’t, but she liked it (as far as I could tell) and it was a pretty nice evening.

We went to bed around midnight again and I turned the alarm on for around 9 a.m. since the next day was “registration day” and adding to that, another friend that would be staying at my place – Viktoria – would arrive at 10 a.m. – or at least that’s what she said. In the end it was 12 and we had to leave right away since registration would (or should have!!!) started at 2 p.m.

We also had to get another friend from the train station before – Fabiola – and while we were on our way there were more “bad news”, because she wrote me a message that her train would be about half an hour late. Well… higher powers or such, there was nothing we could do about it. We went to the train station anyways and waited for Fabiola who FINALLY arrived around 1:30 and then we got to the car and directly to Voesendorf. That’s the name of the town in which the convention would take place.

It was quite a challenge to find the free parking place near the “Pyramide” (that’s how the Convention center was called, and it was called like that because it was built like a pyramid. A HUGE glass pyramid for that matter), and we drove around for a while until we found it. It was already 2.30 when we arrived there and there was already a huge queue of people, but despite of the registration supposedly starting at 2.00 nothing had happened yet. And then we found out it wouldn’t start until 3.00. But that didn’t happen either. I think when they FINALLY opened the doors it was already 3.45 and it was another at least hour until I FINALLY was registered.

It was HORRIBLE.

And they made LOTS of mistakes there already since they completely mixed up mine and Isabel’s coupons for photo ops and autographs. It was a whole chaos and mess and I should have already known by then that this was NOT a good sign.

Still, I was happy when it was finally done and since I hadn’t bought party tickets before and everyone was telling me I should come to the 2 parties too (Saturday: Rock’n’Roll, Sunday: Blacklight/Neon), I decided, whatever, let’s just do this, and I bought the tickets for the 2 parties.

When we went outside I noticed that I had 3 missed calls from a german number, but that happens sometimes and I was quite sure it was one of those “polls” they do on the phone sometimes and didn’t really pay much attention to it anymore.

Kasia had planned this whole “get to know you before the con dinner”, and so we went to the huge shopping mall right across the “Pyramid” to meet up with people in the restaurant Kasia had chosen for it. There were only a few people there already, but in the end there were A LOT of people. It was an Italian restaurant and it was quite delicious.

And also: Something REALLY unbelievable happened during that dinner. Something I NEVER expected to happen.

I probably have to go farther back for you to understand what happened and why it happened.

About a week before the Convention Alpha Con posted something about a “competition” to win tickets for Alpha Con from a tv-channel called RTL 2 (it’s a German Channel). You didn’t have to do anything besides fill in your name and address and age and phone number and e-mail address and I was like “Whatever, let’s just try”. I mean, I already had my ticket, but you could win 2 tickets in each category of the Con (aka Alfa, Beta, Gamma – Alfa was the most expensive one), and yeah, I thought “whatever, I won’t win anyways”.

And then during the dinner the German number called again and I was debating for a second or two whether to take the call during the dinner or not, but I did… and OMG… I’m still SHOCKED about what happened next.

On the phone there was a woman from RTL 2. From the “competition”. And she told me I have won 2 ALFA (!!!) tickets for the Convention, asking me if I’ll be able to attend. I was SPEECHLESS. Like SERIOUSLY speechless. I didn’t know what to say besides “yes, yes, I’m able to attend the Con, I would like to have the tickets” – and she told me to be there at 9 the next day to register and collect the tickets. Like OMG. I FUCKING WON ALFA TICKETS. Who were worth about 600 Euros. Which I would have never been able to afford.

I was a bit scared that I wouldn’t get them since I already had the Gamma tickets (and the bracelet), but Isabel and me (I decided to give Isabel the 2^nd ticket since she’s just so awesome and I couldn’t have imagined anyone who would have deserved it more than here!) decided to cut off the green bracelet (they had different colors so everyone knew which category we were) and just register again.

It also meant we would get 6 additional photos (with all guests except the Sponsored, which meant there were pictures of Paul Wesley, Michael Malarkey, Nathaniel Buzolic, JR Bourne, Ian Bohen and Daniel Sharman included), and also 6 additional autographs.

I decided to keep most of my autographs (except Nate’s since Viktoria loves him so much and so I decided to give her the coupon), but at the same time decided to sell or give away some of my pictures. I sold Michael’s and Nate’s and Daniel’s pictures (and the party tickets, since they were included in the Alfa Ticket and now I had them twice) and gave JR’s and Ian’s pictures to Kasia (for free, since I didn’t have to pay them either and since I’m a nice person and since she only had 2 pictures herself and I wanted to share the joy) and yeah… so everyone was happy.

I was a bit scared that Kasia or Viktoria would be angry that I gave the 2^nd Alfa Ticket to Isabel, but first: I knew her longest and best, and second: Isabel also gave away the pictures and autos she didn’t want. Some of them she sold (like me) and some of them she gave to Vik and Kasia, so in the end we were all quite happy… and I still couldn’t believe that this happened and that I won those tickets, because apart from the fact that I had additional pics and autographs, it also meant seat in Row 1 or 2 ;-) So there’s that.

I was pretty much in a haze for the rest of the evening thinking that this convention would be perfect. I really thought that now nothing could go wrong anymore… oh how wrong I was…

But more about that in my report for Friday, since I decided to split the posts in days (just like with Bloody Con) and since it’s already way too long)

After the dinner the girls and me went home (Fabiola stayed in a youth hostel near my hometome), took a shower, talked for a bit and decided to call it an early night since the next day we would have to get up around 6:30 and leave around 7:30 to be in Voesendorf in time, so yeah… it was a short night.

And I can definitely mention that I didn’t get much sleep AT ALL during the whole convention time. I’m sure that’s probably “normal”, but I’m still pretty much beat and tired, so I’m sure I will sleep a LOT tonight and maybe even pretty long tomorrow and when I get up I’m going to see a doctor.

Another thing I have to mention before ending the post: On Thursday I woke up with a huge throat ache. I could barely breath and I was also coughing and my back hurt during coughing and when I checked my temperature it was 37,5 °C. Not really fever, but also higher than it should be and I was pretty much pissed. Convention time starts and I’m getting sick. GREAT. I just hoped it would be something that would be over quickly and took some medicine Thursday morning to try and catch it before it gets worse. I also took some “lozenge” with me, but it was all for nothing and when I got up Friday it was even worse than before, because adding to everything: My nose had started running like crazy. And to top it all off: I had gotten my period Thursday evening.

See? Perfect circumstances to go to a Convention… ;-) /irony off

More in the next part about the first day – Friday – that will come off soon… :-)

The Musketeers - Friending Meme

bm_shipper — Sun, 23 Feb 2014 22:43:46 GMT

I really need some people on my f-list to talk about this absolut awesome new show with me, because I'm so hooked on it, it's not pretty anymore. I'm even staying awake right now to be able to watch the episode as soon as my file is ready, and as long as I'm waiting I thought I could use the time to create a friending meme to hopefully find some new friends or "connect people" who love the show! =)

I won't add people back who "just add" me randomly (even for this friending meme), because you should at least comment if you add me, why you add me... and we should at least have 2 or 3 fandoms in common... I hope, this is okay for you!

So let the fun begin ;-)

I would love if you could PIMP this for me =)

Just copy and paste and people will find here easily :)

Real life & "Almost Human?" ficlet about John and Dorian from AH!

bm_shipper — Thu, 02 Jan 2014 21:38:50 GMT

My nieces have given me the "night off" - kind of... they are staying with my brother and his girlfriend over night, because they also have a daughter their age, and so... well, they have someone to play with... *lol* Which is probably good... They stayed up until 1 a.m last night and then got up again at 7 a.m. - I mean, SERIOUSLY? Where do those kids get the energy? I'm SO exhausted and I definitely won't stay up all too late tonight... god knows when they will call me tomorrow to get them XD

Anyways... I've written this "series" of "Almost Human" - they are John/Dorian, but not EXTREMELY slashy yet... more kind of friendship. The stories are NOT betaed, so I hope, they are not all too bad... and I'm not even sure I'm gonna post all 4 of them - depends on the feedback - but so far I've written 4 of them... it was meant as a one-shot but then I got one idea after another and yeah... so I wrote more than just 1 "chapter", but they are all playing in the same universe...
dunderklumpen already read the story and gave me some feedback... we'll see what I can make out of it, I have to sleep over it, but I still wanted to post the first part already! =)

Feedback is always very nice - and just for your information: English isn't my first language, so I hope, the errors aren't too extreme! =) I tried to find a beta-reader but didn't, so yeah... it's not proof-read! Only by me XD

Title: "Almost Human?"
Chapter Title: Questions
Chapter: 1/3 or 4, not sure!
Writer: bm_shipper
Pairing: John Kennex/Dorian - but not really pairing, more in a friendshippy kind of way!
Rating: PG-13 for now, but "sex-talk" is involved
Word count: 775 - this chapter, so more a ficlet
Language: English
Summary: Set mostly after the "Are you like that down there?" episode with John wondering just how "human" Dorian is and not being able to completely let go of that topic, so of course he has some more questions for Dorian!
Disclaimer: I don't own Almost Human or their characters and make no money from this story. I'll write it just for fun and because John and Dorian inspire me so much, but that never happened in the show and most likely WILL never happen unfortunately ;-)

Almost Human?

1. Questions

It had almost become a ritual for John and Dorian to celebrate after they had closed a case and the bad guys were behind bars. Just like tonight. Dorian actually really liked it, even though he mostly just sat there watching John eat and drink something.

„I’ve been thinking…“ John said taking a sip of the beer bottle that was standing right in front of him.

The tone in his voice made Dorian grimace. Conversations that started like that didn’t turn out to be the most pleasant ones and Dorian wasn’t even sure he wanted to know what this was all about. Still, he was way too curious not to ask the next question.

“About what?”

“You remember that morning when you proved to me just how different you are from the MX’s?” John wanted to know, looking at him.

Dorian raised an eyebrow. “You mean when I showed you my cock?” he gave back without hesitation, making John gulp.

“Why do you always have to be like that?” he complained.

“I don’t have to…” Dorian replied. “…but it’s definitely funnier that way. Besides; you can call it cock, because that’s what it is. No one’s gonna care.”

For a while there was silence between them until Dorian spoke up again. Obviously John wasn’t about to go on talking otherwise.

“So… what about my cock? It must have really fascinated you if you’re still thinking about it.”

“That’s not what this is about!” John clarified. “But I can’t really wrap my head around the fact that you even have one.”

“Why? Because it’s bigger than yours?” Dorian smirked, causing John to roll his eyes.

“No, but I can’t help wondering what you can do with it…” John stated and now it was on Dorian to roll his eyes.

“What I can do with it?” he repeated. “What do you think I can do with it? Shoot bullets?”

“You think there are synthetics that can do that?” John looked at Dorian in surprise.

“Hell, no!” Dorian blurted out. “I was joking.”

“Oh!” John commented, holding onto his beer bottle.

“But if you really have to know…” Dorian started again. “I am not sure I can do anything with it. It’s probably just there for the sake of looking more human.”

“Okay,” John gave back, taking a large sip of his beer. For a while it looked like this strange conversation was over and John was satisfied with the answers he had gotten. Until he spoke up again.

“So you can’t have sex with it? You’re not capable of getting it stiff?”

“I’m a synthetic,” Dorian stated matter-of-factly. “Why would I wanna have sex?”

“Doesn’t everyone want to have sex at some point?” John asked curiously. “I mean, you were the one telling me you were built to be able to connect with people and to feel what we humans feel. Desire for sex is a common emotion for humans.”

“Well, it’s probably not for me. To be completely honest with you I’ve never even thought about having sex with anyone,” Dorian admitted. “Not until you had to bring it up just now.”

“So this is my fault now?” John raised an eyebrow.

“Of course it is, and if I wake up in the middle of the night wondering what I can or can’t do with my synthetic pal down there I’m going to blame you,” Dorian announced. “And if I feel like I have to go ask Rudy about it I’m gonna tell him that you brought it up and that I’m innocent. Simple as that.”

“You know what?” John sulked, looking like a kid that had done something wrong. “Forget that I even asked. This conversation is over now and if someone asks, I’m gonna deny it ever happened.”

“If you say so,” Dorian replied casually, turning his head away from John.

Damn. Now he was the one thinking about things he probably shouldn’t think of.

Being a synthetic – while definitely having its perks – wasn’t always a good thing. Especially not in a situation like this. John might be able to erase this conversation from his memory – just like it had never happened – but Dorian knew that would be impossible for him and that at some point it probably would drive him crazy. It already started nagging on him. He knew he would get to the point where he would want answers to all the questions John had just asked; where he probably needed them.

Because he was a very curious guy.

Sex had never been a part of his life so far – but thanks to John now it probably would.

Almost Human Friending Meme

bm_shipper — Wed, 18 Dec 2013 19:04:19 GMT

Okay... since I've like 2 Almost Human Fans on my f-list, or at least people who are also willing to discuss the new episodes and talk about it and because I really love this show already so much, I thought I'd start a Friending Meme and maybe I'll meet some new interesting people through it =D

I won't add people back who "just add" me randomly (even for this friending meme), because you should at least comment if you add me, why you add me... and we should at least have 2 or 3 fandoms in common... I hope, this is okay for you!

So let the fun begin ;-)

I would love if you could PIMP this for me =)

Just copy and paste and people will find here easily :)

Now I can finally quit watching that trainwreck show that "H 5-0" has become...

bm_shipper — Sat, 26 Oct 2013 17:41:04 GMT

...because they of course had nothing better to do than to kill of Billie... the only reason I was even tuning in Season 4 from time to time, mostly to watch his scenes... which were pretty short most of the time anyways...

When I read that he was getting in between Catherine/Steve, though, I did NOT expect in the way of him dying and Catherine getting PTSD or something like that (at least that's what it looks like at the moment, maybe they just brush it off, I'm not gonna find out...) - but I was SERIOUSLY not expecting him to bite the dust...

And especially not so early on in the show...

Maybe it was due to Justin being so busy with at least 2 other shows that he wasn't available anymore, but still...

There now goes my reason to tune in this trainwreck this show has become, which is a good thing, I guess!

Can now please Shonda Rhimes "do the same" and get finally rid of "Matthew"? Don't misunderstand me, I LOVE him, I do, but we all know that this is not gonna happen and that April and Jackson are endgame, so why dragging it out so long?

But then again, since he wasn't there in any episode since the season 10 premiere I haven't watched any other episode either... *lol* Maybe he has just disappeared :P As far as I heard it's not like people are talking about him anyways... =)

Now I just hope I'm gonna like "Ravenswood" (which I have NOT watched yet!) and that Justin will become a Series regular eventually :) I wanna have him n my "life" every week XD

Hot Actors Duel - Girls Version - Round 1, Duel 15

bm_shipper — Tue, 08 Oct 2013 09:52:22 GMT

So... it's the decided :-)

You made the decision that you want to see Daniel Gillies' beautiful wife Rachael Leigh Cook again, and so you voted her into the next round while we have to say good-bye to Kristin Kreuk. Not that this beautiful woman had a chance against Rachael anyways. She was far behind since right from the start and the whole duel ended with 11:6 for her, so Kristin's out while Rachael will have to face another oponent next round. We'll see who that will be! :-)

Round 1 - Duel 15

I can't believe we're already having the next to last duel, but we do, and this time it's a "Cult" Duel, although those ladies might be well known for other roles as well... ;-) Recently they have both starred in the much too soon cancelled "drama series" Cult, and both played pretty big and important rules. Supernatural fans might know Alona Tal from her popular role as huntress "Jo", though while Jessica Lucas had roles in shows like "Friends with benefits" (the tv-series) and 90210 and also Melrose Place, so they are definitely people you might have seen somewhere! Alona Tal also just recently guest starred as "Sonia" in the final Season of Burn Notice... :-) This is definitely gonna be an interesting race!

Who do you wanna see again next round? Who do you wanna keep in the game?

View Poll: Alona Tal VS Jessica Lucas

Teen Wolf Friending Meme

bm_shipper — Tue, 18 Jun 2013 19:33:43 GMT

Okay... since I've barely ANY Teen Wolf Fans on my f-list, or at least people who are also willing to discuss the new episodes and talk about it and because Season 3 has just started, I thought I'd start a Friending Meme and maybe I'll meet some new interesting people through it =D

I won't add people back who "just add" me randomly (even for this friending meme), because you should at least comment if you add me, why you add me... and we should at least have 2 or 3 fandoms in common... I hope, this is okay for you!

So let the fun begin ;-)

I would love if you could PIMP this for me =)

Bloody Diaries Convention - Day 3 (09.06.2013)

bm_shipper — Tue, 11 Jun 2013 14:12:23 GMT

Onto the last day, shall we? :-)

Like I've already said: It had been a pretty short night... I've been in bed around 1:30 and at 6:07 a.m. Marie's "nice birds" woke me up and I couldn't get back to sleep. I tried, I tried really hard, but they were just too loud for someone who isn't used to that kind of noise. I have 3 cats, but usually they are quiet as long as I'm asleep, so yeah... *lol*

I stayed in bed playing with my mobile phone and such until about 8 when Marie got up and then I got up too...

For this day we decided to leave her home a little later since there "only" would have been another autograph session from 10 to 12 and some workshops and lectures we weren't interested in...

The "first thing to do" would have been the Dvid Anders Photoshoot at 12...

And I have to tell a little story about that one, since it was completely unplanned... XD

I had bought 4 photo ops with David beforehand and it should have been way enough, but after this story at the autographs AND because the one pose I wanted most I wasn't able to tell David, I decided I wanted to get another photo op. Only problem: My "cash card" didn't work, and so I had NO access to my bank account :/ And it was weekend...

So Marie offered me to borrow me the 25,- bucks (or rather 20, because I still had 10) to buy the photo op and I promised I would transfer the money to her on Monday (did yesterday, so yeah...), and seriously, she's my hero for that... I mean, I wouldn't have "died" if I hadn't gotten the 5th picture with David or such, but I would still have been pretty sad... so I'm quite glad she offered me to lend me the money and I could buy another photo Op with David...

We got ready, ate breakfast at Marie's place and then I had to pack my stuff, so we could leave for the last day of the convention, which we did around 10:30 or such... :-) Early enough since - like I said - there was not much happening apart from the autograph session...

We left my suitcase in her car and then entered the convention hotel.

Actually, I wanted to eat something BEFORE the last Photo Op with David, but then I was way too nervous, so we just walked around the Dealer's rooms and such and talked. We also met itsanonyx again. I think I forgot to mention that during the convention, I ran into itsanonyx a couple of times and we hang out quite a lot. Mostly me, Marie and her, sometimes I met Anna, too, but since she had completely other things to do than me, it was mostly Marie and Tabea I spent time with. And I talked to Sebastian (who I knew from Facebok) a couple of times... :-)

I left to line up for David's photo session around 11.45 and yeah, AGAIN, I got pretty nervous...

Another thing I have to say: I knew WHAT I wanted to do with David, so I downloaded a "pose picture" of it on my mobile phone in order to show it to him instead of explaining, because I wouldn't have known how to explain a pose like that... :)

People were lining up for him again, but it weren't THAT many... at least not at first... I had number 35, so that's a lot less than before, but the more time passed, the more people got into the room... =)

When there were only a few more people in front of me I took out my mobile phone and opened the pose and when it was finally my turn and I wanted to walk up to David, the guy said "Put away your phone" and I was like "I'm not taking a picture, I want to show my pose". He said something else I didn't quite get, but I didn't care either. I walked up to David and said "Can I have a pose like that?" showing him the picture and putting the phone away in my pocket and he said "Sure, let's try this"... and yes... that's how the very last of my pictures occured... and I'm seriously happy with the result to be honest. I still think I shouldn't have grinned like crazy, but I mean - who can blame me? I was happy XD

That was the very last photo op for that weekend, and yeah... after that things became REALLY relaxing... *lol* I went back to Marie and Tabea and ate something, and well... since the panel room wasn't open yet, we had to wait... the first panel would start at 1 p.m. and would be Mark Pellegrino's, and I was very looking forward to it. From that moment on I knew I would just go in there and relax at the Panels for the rest of the day... :-)

I ate something (because now I could XD) and afterwards we decided we should take some pictures of us, so we had some kind of memory :-)

First 2 pictures show Marie & Me an the 3rd one is with itsanonyx - was so nice to see her again, since the first time we met was AECON 3 :)

Finally they opened the Panel room and we could get in! :-)

Marie had one more thing to do since she had bought the Double Shoot with Ian and Paul, but since her "group" was the 2nd one she didn't have to leave until 1:15 or such, and so she followed me into the Panel room when they opened it and we sat down on the side (this time the other side becaues unfortunately "our places" were already taken and since we both wanted to sit on the side, we decided to sit on the other side of our block... so we had the chance to come and go when we wanted... :)

Mark's panel started on time and - like the first time - he was absolutely awesome and adorable, running around hugging people, getting some people on stage and even coming down to get to some other people. The microphone was right next to me and when two girls asked a question at said microphone, Mark came down, walking between the chairs and then he was standing right next to me, talking to the girls. Like 10 cm away from me and I could have touched him. Seriously, the guy is SUCH a sweetheart and I truly love and adore him. He was always trying to calm people down and he was seriously cute.

I wanted to ask a question, too, but I was unfortunately too late to "line up" at the microphones because when I would have been next, Mark Ferguson said that the question before me was the last one... DAMN! I should have lined up earlier, but somehow I wasn't sure whether to ask a question or not and when I finally made the decision, it was too late *lol* not that I'm incredibly sad or such, he probably wouldn't have had an answer anyways (I wanted to ask if there is a chance we'll see him back on Grimm at some point), so it's really okay that I couldn't ask my question anymore... :-)

During Mark's Panel Jim came on stage all of a sudden and we found out that he had to leave early because he had some other things to do and he had to catch a flight. I don't recall where he had to be, but in fact he wouldn't be there for the closing Ceremony, and so he had to say his good-byes right then sadly...

Mark's panel was over soon afterwards and next "in line" was David Anders and his Panel. Have I mentioned how much I love this guy? God, he's just seriously sooooooo so awesome and I'm just so thankful that I was able to meet him. David is such a sweetheart and SO funny... at some point he opened his jacket and said "Look at my t-shirt, it's a unicorn puking rainbows" *lol* He was quite proud of it :-) :D

He was coming on stage with sunglasses and sat down saying something like "I'm gonna take them off in 3... 2... 1..." and then nothing happened *lol* He took them off a little later, though :-)

I forgot to mention in my Saturday post that David sang during his panel. A song from Les Miserables. And it was AWESOME. It was absolutely incredible. I wasn't aware that he could sing THIS beautifully and I loved every single second of it. He gave me goosebumps and everything. He has SUCH a great voice. I don't recall what made him start singing in the first place because I don't remember the question that was asked, but I think it had something to do with movies or musicals, since after he sang he said something like "I should have been in Les Miserables"... he obviously loves this movie/musical very much but since I don't know it, I didn't know the song either ^^"

Anyways... there was this woman at the microphone at one point asking David if he would sing a duet with her, and he was like "I want to hear something from you" and then, OMG... she started singing and it was AWESOME. Incredible. She had SUCH a great voice. And she was moving towards the stage coming closer to David and he took her on stage and they talked for a moment and then she wanted to sing "Endless Love" with him, and when they did, she was all touchy and he giggle and laughed since she was touching his face and his hips and yeah... it was just funny and somehow also really adorable... :-)

Again, David's panel was absolutely awesome and he tried to answer all of the questions people asked him... he was asked about "uncle John" a lot and also if he prefers to play good or bad roles and he said that the bad roles are way more fun for an actor. He was also asked if there is any role or anything he would NOT play and he said "Porn" *lol* XD

He's also not utterly proud of his movie "Into the Blue"... I didn't find it THAT bad to be honest, but it wasn't really good either, so yeah, I understand that ... XD

Some girl asked him which fairytale character he is in "Once Upon a time" since she said only Season 1 aired here and she wanted to know and he was like "You REALLY want to know? You really want me to destroy like THE secret?" but when she said yes he told her that he was Victor Frankenstein ;-) She found it rather cool, and he also said he was totally on board when they told him who he would be... :)

David is such a funny and down to earth guy, I can't tell you how much I love him... :D

There was also one girl coming to the microphone saying: "Are you nervous?" and David was like "What?" and she was like "Are you nervous enough to need a calm down hug?" *lol* She quoted Mark, but of course David didn't know that. Mark Ferguson DID get it, though and so she could move to the stage and got a hug from David ;-) If I had known it was THAT easy, I would have asked for one too XD

David was drinking beer during his panel XD

You can't see it all too well, but David was showing his "rainbows puking unicorn" shirt here... and at the same time we found out that 2 of the panels were switched. Next should have been Ian's, but since they were still having photoshootings, they switched the panels up a bit...

And that's the woman singing a duet with David. I *SO* hope this will be on the DVD :-)

Next panel should have been Ian's, but like I wrote before: since they weren't finished with the photoshootings, they decided to do the Double Panel of Paul and his wife Torrey first, although there was about half an hour break, because they weren't really done with the double shoots either. Perfect opportunity for me to collect my pic with David... :-)

Around 3:30 the double panel with Torrey and Paul finally started, and god, Torrey is so beautiful, and the two of them were soooooo so adorable with each other. And SO funny. I said it once, I'm saying it again: I didn't think Paul could be THIS funny... it was simply adorable to watch them... :-)

They were asked what their favourite moment on the con had been and Paul said "To wake up next to Torrey every day"... I mean, how adorable IS that? It was soooooo so cute, like really... and Torrey was like "My god, you're so cheesy" *lol* And then she said "My favourite moment has nothing to do with you" *lol* And she said it was the moment we all sang "happy birthday" for her <3 So cute... she was so greatful for that... :-)

They were also asked how they met and Paul explained that it was when they were doing a movie a few years back and he saw her in the hotel lobby and was like "OMG, wow"... he also said that some of his friends had told him befeore that he was gonna love her and he was like "yeah, whatever", but when he finally saw her he was blown away. he was so incredibly sweet talking about her. he also said that she didn't like him very much in the beginning (which she confirmed) and that he had to put up a fight and try to get her for WEEKS until she finally gave in... :) SO adorable!

We als found out that Paul had only twice cooked for Torrey so far and that he isn't really a good cook *lol*

Torrey was asked then why she didn't change her name when she married Paul and if he doesn't have a problem with her not sharing his name, and Torrey explained that she IN FACT shares his name and legally is "Torrey Wasilewski", that this is the name in her passport, but that she had already made herself a name as Torrey deVitto, so she still goes with that name when it comes to filming business, but in "real life" she's fully his wife! awwwwwww! :-)

Torrey was also asked if she would prefer "Melissa" in Pretty Little Liars to be on "Team A" or a "good girl", but she said whatever it is, she'll love it, but being one of the "bad guys" would be quite fun. She also talked about "One tree Hill" and that she played some kind of psychopatic bitch in that show...

I've actually never seen it, so I have no idea, but obviously she was REALLY bad, because she told about one thing happening there "on set"...

She was practicing with some fake needles when Paul came visiting her and she wanted to play a prank on hi, so when he entered her trailer she took the fake needle and walked up to him, and he HATES needles and started running away from her and she was walking up to him veeeeeeeery slowly, with the needle in her hand and he was like "She looked COMPLETELY crazy" and he grabbed a water bottle and threw it at her and she was like "ouch, that really hurt" :D

Seriously, those two were SOOOOOOOO so funny to listen to... :D

Paul also said that Torrey gets a lot of money to be married to him, and that they have a contract and that she has to stay married to him for a couple more years and Torrey said she's doing it for the money *lol*

It was simply adorable... such a great couple and so much fun to watch them =)

Then it was FINALLY time for Ian's panel, although it was shortened from 60 to 30 minutes, but I mean, I think it's okay. Ian had been on his feet doing photoshootins and such almost the whole day, plus: Bloody*Con People obviously needed to get through with their program and the Closing ceremony would start at 5 p.m. - obviously they didn't want to push that to later all too much, so we got "only" 30 minutes of Ian's panel... :-)

And people were lining up like crazy for him, and of COURSE not everyone was able to ask his question, but Ian was great. He was asked for example why he created ISF (Ian Somerhalder Foundation) and such, and why it is so important for him to help animals and he explained willingly that humans are destroying our planet and that animals can't defend themselves and such... it was really great and he's really living for this cause and does a lot with ISF... This thing means a lot to him and he also talks quite a lot about it... it was touching to watch... =)

During Ian's panel one of the funniest things of the whole convention happened. David Anders & Malese Jow "crashed" Ian's Panel. All of a sudden when it was like "next question" it was DAVID AND MALESE standing at the microphone. I literally fell off my chair laughing, because David was crying and being all like "I'm SO nervous, I love you SO much Ian" *lol* Malese even posted a video of their "crashing" on her youtube canal, and I seriously have to share it with you because it was HILARIOUS! Seriously, it was one of the best things EVER XD

Those 2 were simply ADORABLE, and it made me smile so much. I found out afterwards that "friendship" is Ian's nickname for David (I don't know why, I would love to know the story!), so this was seriously cute XD

Best Panel Crashing EVER XD

Then it was time for the closing ceremony unfortunately... :/ Time to say good bye to the stars and to everyone. You have to know: People of iSF were collecting money for Ian's foundation before the convention and during the convention and would give him the check at the closing ceremony and there was also a "flashmob" planned... Kind of flashmob. There were white pieces of paper everywhere on the chairs and people should grab it and hold it up at a certain code word, and the people with the paper should form the word ISF (there wasn't paper everywhere) and it kind of worked out, and Ian was soooooo stunned. It was right after he got the check of 12,500 $ and he was soooooo so touched... last year he got 10,000 and this year even more and it was seriously awesome to see him like that... he was really stunned and he obviously didn't expect any of that... it was cute to watch! =)

After the Closing Ceremony I went outside with Marie and we stood there for about 15 minutes, because I wanted to wait for some people to say good by, for example Anna and itsanonyx - unfortunately, I didn't see candream anymore, but Anna came shortly afterwards. We took a picture as a memory and then I saw Sebastian Again, said good-bye to him too and went to Marie's car with her, because she would drive me to the airport... :-)

Conclusion: it was SUCH a great experience and I don't regret for a second that I decided to go there last year. It was so great and I love David even more now than I did before. He's a great guy and I'd love to see him again some day. And Torrey, too, but mostly David, I think...

I have to say, though, that there were some REALLY stupid people there... there was this one girl they called "flower girl" because she always had flowers in her hair, and her questions were just SERIOUSLY stupid a lot of times... in one of the first panels - I think it was Mark Pellegrino's - she asked "If a pinguin walked on stage and picked you, what would you do?" - I mean, SERIOUSLY? What the hell? Everyone remembered her by that question, though, and whenever she was at the microphone again Mark Ferguson was like "I know what she wants to ask, if a pick me penguin walked on the stage..." +lol+ It was funny the first couple of times, but then I personally just found it lame... but well...

Then there was this other girl, and seriously, she got on my nerves... she was lining up to ask some questions MANY times and then she just stood there, and wasn't able to form her question for MINUTES... either because she was so nervous, or because her english was so bad, I seriously don't know... and then the questions weren't even good, like one time she wanted to know how it is to work in a studio and they didn't even really know what exactly she wanted to know AND she couldn't explain either, and every time somene asked something back to clear up WHAT she meant she just STOOD THERE IN SILENCE. It drove me up the wall...

If you can't form a question the first time, DON'T TRY IT 10 TIMES MORE! The most annoying was when she tried to ask a question during the Ian and Paul panel... Seriously, the time she needed there would have been like at least 3 or 4 more questions answered. It took an eternity, almost 10 minutes until it FINALY was out and I'm quite sure it wasn't even exactly what she wanted to know...

I get that this thing makes people nervous, and that there are very young people, and you can call me an intolerant bitch, but this girl was unbearable, and everytime she was lining up again I was like "oh no, please NOT AGAIN! because it was like that every fucking time -.- One time she was standing at the microphone next to me and I was close to just kicking her out of the way... yeah, I'm a mean person, but it wasn't only annoying for us, it was visible that it also was for the stars...

At some point they even told her to ask the question in german, because someone could always translate it and they had some screens on stage for questions to be translated, but she wasn't even able to ask in german... *rolleyes*

It was a GREAT convention, but this was something that cost me my last nerve...

Some people had their questions written on paper or in their phones and I REALLY appreciated and apart from especially that one girl, the panels were great :-)

That's all... XD

I'm done :D

I hope, you enjoyed reading my reports, because I clearly enjoyed writing them and kind of "reliving" those memories :-)

Bloody Diaries Convention - Day 2 (08.06.2013) (Part 2)

bm_shipper — Mon, 10 Jun 2013 18:32:39 GMT

So... after a shower I feel better, so let's get back to business... XD

Where was I? Right, the autograph session... :-)

I was finished with my autographs around 2:30 ant he session would last until 4 p.m. at least and the next panel wouldn't start before 5 p.m., so Marie and me decided to take a little walk, because we weren't interested in the lectures and workshops and such and so we went outside, and let me tell you: IT WAS HOT! So damn hot!

Like SUMMER Hot. When I left home on Friday I needed to wear a jacket and once I arrived in Germany the sun was shining and the wheather was just seriously nice... which was great, but you couldn't bear to stand in the sun for too long.

We sat down outside in the shadows and talked quite a bit and moth were swooning over Trent and about the way how cute he was and then we pretty spontaneously decided we wanted a picture with him. A picture together. Marie and me and him. We thought it would be a nice memory for both of us, and Trent was the "right guy" to do so, because like I said: we both found him so adorable in his panel, and so we decided "let's just do it"...

I finally was able to collect my pictures with David and Torrey before the next panel started, and then we went upstairs into the first Panel of Mark Pellegrino which startet at 5.

What I can tell you about Mark is: He's a HUGGER... like REALLY... he literally hugged everyone who asked him a question and he always was like "Are you nervous?" and he even took a few people to the stage and such, and everyone who told him he was nervous got a hug from him. This guy is just seriously SO adorable. How can someone NOT love him? :D

We couldn't stay long, though, because Trent's photoshooting was at 5.30 and we could line up at 5.15 already, so after a short while "with" Mark, we went outside to line up for Trent's fotoshooting.

There were already a few people lined up, and we got numbers 80 and 81 (seems like I *always* get numbers around 80 *lol*). We had to buy 2 photo tickets, but we were told, we would get 2 different pictures, too. We just have to tell the staff at the end of the line that we want to be on the picture together...

Marie and me had already decided WHAT we wanted... a picture like I had with Sebastian and Richard and so when it was our turn Marie was like "You tell him, my english isn't good enough", so we went to him and he wanted to hug us both, opened his arms and I said "we want something different" and he was like "okay?" and then I said "Imagine we both want you, but you decide for her" and I pointed to Marie. And he was like "Oh, huh? What?" and he looked kinda confused and was like "What do I have to do?" and I said "Just hug her and ignore me" *lol* He laughed and said "I can do that"... and he did *lol*

And then I said "And now hug me and ignore her"... and he was simply adorable... I love those 2 pictures SO much, especially becaues Trent was so close to me... I felt his cheek on mine and yeah... it was quite nice! <3 <3 <3 Trent is such a sweet, adorable guy :-)

The first picture looks like that because I just photographed it from Marie's photo. She has the Original and yeah, she did the same with mine XD

After the Trent picture Marie went back inside the Panel room to watch the end of Mark's panel and Jim's 2nd panel, but I had to line up for Mark Pellegrino's photo already, so I just waited outside until people were allowed to line up again, and just like with Jim I wasn't really nervous before my picture with Mark, BUT... and that's a BIG but: I had NO fucking idea what to do with him. I didn't have a special pose in mind and whatsoever... so I just got into the waiting line, meeting a friend from Facebook by "accident"... I mean, I knew she was there, but I hadn't seen her until then, so that was a nice surprise. And I had someone to talk to. She told me she actually didn't mean to take a picture with Mark, but that he completely blew her away in his panel and so she just HAD TO come... which is so cute... :-)

Anyways... while lining up I was thinking what to do some more and when there were only 2 people in front of me, I made a decision. Kind of... *lol* (This time I was number 37 btw. XD)

When I stood in front of him, I looked at him and said "can you hug me and maybe kiss my cheek?" and he was of course nice and said yes, and I seriously can't believe how absolutely beautiful this picture turned out to be! I didn't expect that, but it's one of the best pictures I took during the convention and when I went down to collect it, I literally squealed. I love it. It's just adorable in my eyes! :)

I love it SO much... I love that his eyes are closed and how he's holding me... By the way: I wore black wings earrings that day. Just for him and before we took the pictures I told him "I wear those earrings just for you" and he looked at them and said "They are beautiful, that's so sweet"... :)

Anyways...after the photo shooting the passage to "just" go back to the panel room was "closed" so we had to go around the whole hotel building, but that was a good thing, because when Lydia (my friend from Facebook) and me went out we ran directely into Gil Ofarim... he was standing outside talking with some fans and taking picture so we asked him for one too! I mean, I didn't know if I get the chance again, and I quite love the picture :)

As a teenager I loved this guy SO much *lol* And I mean, I kind of still do... he's awesome, and he loks even better now than he did back then :-P

When I came back into the room, Jim's Panel was still going on, but when I reached "my" row, all seats were full -.- ANNOYING... like REALLY... I had to get someone from the staff and they had to ask everyone for their badge and OF COURSE someone was sitting in the wrong row, but she said she sat there becaues her own was full -.-

THERE ARE ROWS ON YOUR BADGE FOR A REASON, GUYS!!!

And what also was quite annoying was that my jacked was on the chair I was sitting before and they just threw it on the floor -.- I mean, HELLO?

I get that people were nervous, because right after JIm's Panel the "Double Panel" of Ian Somerhalder and Paul Wesely would take place, but SERIOUSLY? How brazen is that? -.- I was always sitting on the side and now I had to sit somewhere in the middle -.- But at least I was able to sit down then... and watch the rest of Jim's panel... didn't get much of it anymore...

Jim was really great, though, he asked one woman to come to him and tried to calm her down because she was so nervous... so adorable! =)

After Jim had left the stage Mark Ferguson announced Ian Somerhalder and Paul Wesely. It was awfully loud - of course - and people were lining up like crazy to stand on the microphone and ask questions. It was already clear that not everyone would be able to ask his question, because there were just too many people, but anyways... :-)

I have to say: Paul and Ian were REALLY really funny. I never thought I would laugh so much during their panel. One fan asked for example if Ian learned German - like he had promised last year at the Con - and he apologized, saying that he just was way too busy to do so, but that he's gonna come to Paul's room "tonight" to learn German. And that they would have candles there, and will eat something with candlelight and then they will learn German. I mean, SERIOUSLY! WTH? :P What ideas do those guys plant in my head? XD

In the middle of the panel there was a girl - a crazy one - asking Ian if he can make a handstand and move around the stage on his hands, and Ian said he couldn't. Then she said, he should sing something for her, and he said he wouldn't do it. Next thing she "requested" was for him to dance... I mean WTF?

I was quite annoyed by that, because he said "Listen, I'm here to answer some questions and not make a fool of myself, I'm not a circus animal"... I read a couple of times that people thought he had been pretty bitchy in that moment, but to my personal opinion: HE WAS COMPLETELY RIGHT! I mean, seriously, what the hell are some people thinking?

Ian and Paul were always mocking each other, saying how much they hate each other, but then there were some reaaaaaally cute moments...

One girl asked them what they like most about each other, and Paul said something like, that he's usually pretty pessimistic, and that he's almost "unbearable" when he isn't in a good mood, and one day they had to film pretty early and it was cold and he was tired and he was cold and Ian came along and made everything better. He literally told us that working with Ian just makes him so much better because Ian is such a positive guy. But he also said that SOMETIMES this could be really annoying but most of the time Ian's good mood lifts up his own, because on that day Ian was like "We have a good job and we're going to film some great scenes" and making everything sound a lot better than it actually was...

Seriously, those 2 really like each other and deeply care for each other. Everyone who says something else has NO clue about them at all...

Ian said that he loves most about Paul that he's such a good friend and such... was quite nice, too... :)

One girl asked Paul then if he is aware of shipping in the fandom and of the fact that people ship Stefan with Silas... and at that point I had to kind of "disengaged" myself XD I have no idea who they were talking about since I'm not that far along but Ian was seriously amused saying how "hot" it would be if they undress each other and start touching each other and such... XD

It was sooooooo sweet and I enjoyed the panel a lot... :) Those guys are fun, and I wasn't aware how MUCH fun they would be :)

Ian even invited one girl to his room and told her that they should get married *lol* I don't even remember what she asked him, I think it was his favourite book or such, and they had a conversation and she was telling Ian "I love you" and Ian was like "I love you too, we should get married" and she was like "YES!" *lol*

Quite funny that guy XD He also said he can only take her to his room after his date with Paul XD He needs to learn German first XD

I enjoyed that Panel more than I thought I would XD

Then the "Convention stuff" was over for that night, but there would be the concert of Gil Ofarim about 1 hour later, and so my friend and mine drank something and went to her car and outside for a while and went back in around 9:15... there was already a huge crowd in front of the doors. Mostly becaues people could attend the concert even if they weren't con attendees. It was free for Con people, and others could purchase a ticket for 15,- Euros, and a lot of Gil fans did that...

My friend Marie wasn't interested in Gil at all, so she told me she would wait outside until it's over... and when the doors opened I went in...

The Concert started around 9:45 p.m. and yeah, it was great... but I didn't stay the whole concert... I left about 45 minutes after the concert, because the day had been extremely exhausting and I was tired and I couldn't stand any longer...

I mean, I know I missed a lot, because after the concert Gil was party-ing with the fans, writing autographs, taking pictures and such, but I was just seriously awfully exhausted frm that day, so I went outside and Marie and me drove home.

After Marie and me arrived at her apartment I took a shower, we ate some "midnight snack" - kind of - and talked a bit and such and around 1:30 we finally went to sleep... which was way too late, because like the day before - OF COURSE - Marie's birds woke me at 6:07 again XD

Something other that happened that day: I met someone I wasn't aware would be there too XD kerrsmith2306! I met him when I was lining up for David's photo shooting. he was passing me by saying "Hello!" and I was like "Huh?" but he walked past me, so I just stood there, like 3 meters away, looking at him from time to time. I wasn't really sure if it was him, but I thought, the worst thing that could happen would be: it isn't him. So I walked towards him asking "are you Martin?" and he said "yes, I wasn't sure if it was REALLY you", sweet...

that was unexpected, but soooo great... I mean, I love to meet new people and Martin has been on my f-list for quite a while, so that was a nice surprise to see him there. He only had a 1 day ticket and he was there to take a picture with David. We chatted quite a bit during waiting for David, but unfortunately, I didn't see him again afterwards since I had other things to do and he couldn't attend the panels with the 1 day ticket...

Something else that just came back to my mind was something from Torrey's panel. I wanna share it anyways. Someone asked Torrey how she deal with the fact that millions of girls love Paul, and she said something like "at the end of the day he's coming home to me" or such, but that she totally understands that. And that she's completely willing to share him. She said something like "If someone wants him, I say, sure, just give him back in 24 hours" ... she was so funny. She was also asked how it is for her to watch his love scenes, if that doesn't hurt, but she said, it's not even a little bit romantic, and that she knows it's "just" a job and nothing else, and that there kisses and such are really technical. She also said that sometimes she tells Paul what girls like and what he could make better!

The woman rocks! :-)

That's all for Day 2, and now I'm tired... I think I've written this report for the whole day now, so I'm gonna take a break and will write Day 3 tomorrow! I hope you don't mind :-)

I wish you all a great rest of the day! The last part will follow tomorrow :-)

Bloody Diaries Convention - Day 2 (08.06.2013) (Part 1 because it's looooooong XD)

bm_shipper — Mon, 10 Jun 2013 16:20:34 GMT

Okay... onto Day 2, are you ready? XD I hope so... :-P

Like I already mentioned in "Part 1" of my report - the day started fairly early and so before my alarm had the chance to go off, I was woken up by Marie's birds around 6 a.m. but since I went to bed not THAT late, it wasn't that bad and I wasn't even so tired... =)

I stayed in bed until like 7 a.m. until Marie got up as well... she took a shower and I checked Facebook and such and got dressed while Marie was in the bathroom and afterwards I went in there and brushed my teeth and my hair (of course not with the same brush XD) and put on Eyeliner and mascara (I never wear more make-up than that) and then we ate someting and left home around 9:00 a.m. to be at the Convention hotel in time for David's Panel which would start at 10 a.m.

There wasn't THAT much action when we arrived there, and we looked around a bit and when the Panel Room opened, we went upstairs and fortunately got the same seats than the day before. We sat on the "edge" of Row 13, Block B, so that was mostly in the middle, and we had the perfect view to the stage again.

First, Mark Ferguson came on stage and said a few words and then he announced David and there he was... "my" guy... *sighs* I was seriously NERVOUS... MORE than just nervous, because I had planned to ask David some questions during his panels and I wasn't sure whether I would be "brave enough" to do so. I never did that before and even though my english is quite good, it still cost me quite an efford to actually go for it. I waited for a few people to ask question and since one of the microphones (there were 3) was standing right next to me, at some point I was like "Fuck it, Let's do this" and stood up.

If there were people on all 3 microphones, they went from te left to the right and back to the left, so I waited until it was my turn and I asked my first question...

I asked David "How was it to work with Sebastian Stan? What's their relationship on the show?" and he was like "You wanna know what kind of relationship we have? Like me and Sebastian?" and I was like "yes" although it wasn't EXACTLY what I wanted to ask *lol* XD Anyways... he was like "Sebstian is one of the greatest guys I've ever met and we're like best buddies and always hanging out when we're both on sets and oh, we're big huggers. We always hug, we can barely keep our fingers off each other"... *coughs* (He wouldn't have said that if he knew what "it" did to me, I'm quite sure XD) He was also going on saying that he loves to work with Robert Carlyle as well, and I had to interrupt him asking "even when he beats you up?" and he was totally amused saying that this episode was "embarrassing" and that he hasn't even announced it on twitter like he usually did, because you could have missed him in the blink of an eye. I was talking about an episode where he was mentioned in the opening credits and I was like "OMG, a david episode" and then he was there literally 10 seconds, being beaten up by Rumpelstilzkin (Robert Carlyle's character), and then he was running away... so that's the story behind that! XD

I sat down again, but I had 3 more questions in my mind (I SERIOUSLY did that 4 times), so after a while I got to the microphone again to ask my next question.

Which was "Do we see Victor again or is his story told?" and he was like "His story definitely isn't told, but I don't know when I will be back. I haven't gotten a call yet" - so well... he hopes to be back soon, but he doesn't know when.

My 3rd question was: "Is there any actor you like and would love t work with?" - and he named a few like Marlon Brando and such (which isn't possible anymore of course) and I didn't know all of them, but then he mentioned Johnny Depp (and people in the room where cheering because of it, because seriously, it's Johnny Depp!!!) and then David started to tell "his story" with Johnny Depp, because he actually had had the chance to meet him one day when he was filming somewhere and found out Johnny was filming closeby too and went there to meet him and Johnny's agent really brought David to Johnny's trailer and when the door opened, Johnny was eating somthing and he invited David in and they had a smoke and David was totally excited like "OMg, it's Johnny Depp", but he had only good things to say about Johnny. About how cool and nice he had been and how "normal" and that it was just seriously great and that this was an awesome moment for him. He was like a "fanboy" telling this story, so I'm quite sure he knows exactly what "we" (aka his fans) are going through meeting him... :-)

My last question was about ARROW. I was asking him if it's possible that we see his character again on the show, even though he's in prison, and he was like "I'm not dead, so you never know. Not right now, but if the writers want, they'll find a way to bring Cyrus back"... that was quite awesome! :-)

Funny thing is: When the first "Arrow" related question came, he was like "Right, I was in Arrow too. I totally forgot" *lol* And that wasn't a joke, I'm quite sure in that very moment he REALLY didn't have this role in his mind XD

He got asked if he's afraid of death and such, and he was like "no, I'm not" and he mentioned a quote... he said something like "Dream as if you live forever and live as if you die tomorrow" and that this is kind of his motto. That he tries to live like that and make the best of every moment. He said if he's on a plane and there are turbulences he's not like "OMG we're dying", he's like "If something happens, I had a good life" and such... I was pretty impressed by tis answer to be honest. Maybe that's why I remember it so well...

He was also asked about Meghan Ory's character on "Once Upon a Time" and if he's sad that she's gone, because he seemed to like the idea of being paired up with her, and he said, that he would have loved to play that out, but that there are enough "single ladies" in Storybrook, so he'll find someone else XD But he also said how great Meghan is and how proud he is of her and that he wishes her the best of luck with her show. And he said that their chemistry was great and he felt it too and tried to transport it on the screen!

There were a lot more questions I can't recall right now, but I think that's enough anyways... XD

A few of my best Pics of David's first panel :-) God, I love this guy soooooooo much!

After David's Panel it was Malese's "turn", but since David's photo shooting would start at 11:30 (his panel was from 10 to 11) and Malese's would be from 11 to 12, I knew I wouldn't be able to watch the whole... I stayed in the room for a bit - until like 11:20 and then I went to the photo room (this time the 2nd) to line up for David's 2nd photo-shooting, where I decided to take my other 2 pictures... and AGAIN I was extremely nervous... AND it was quite bad, because actually, I wanted to do some other pictures the first day, but I wasn't brave enough to ask him, so I was scared I wouldn't be able to do it, AGAIN... There were less people this time, I had pictures 33 and 34 this time, so it was my turn quite early...

When it was my turn and I walked over to him (telling the guy and David again that I had 2 pictures) I said "Can I have a handkiss?" and he grabbed my hand and was like "sure" and I was like "and can you go on your knees for it?" and he was like "You want me on my knees?" and I replied "Please?" and he was like "Yeah, sure" and knelt down, kissing my hand once... twice... three times, and AGAIN nothing happened...

Seriously, I don't know what it is with this photographer and why that always happens with me, but this time there were some problems with the camera, so we waited, with my hand in David's and yeah... he kisse my hand a 4th time for the picture... not that this is a bad thing, but it made me nervous like hell... you have NO idea... especially because he was looking at me the whole time!

It turned out quite nice, I think... And when I was collecting the picture later, literally EVERYONE wo saw it was squealing over it and telling me how adorable it is... I grin like crazy again, but I like it XD (the story with the autograph on it will come a little later XD)

Just like the day before he was like "So, what pose now?" and I was lost for words for a moment and NOT doing what I usually wanted, saying "Can you hug me from behind?" and well... of course he did that... and even though that pose wasn't planned at all, I still love that picture VERY much. I think it's one of my favourites :-)

I love the way David looks... he looks quite satisfied XD

I came out of the photo room fairly early, and so I went back to the panel room and even got a little more of Malese's panel. She is so cute. She was asked if she wants a family some day and how important family is for her, and she replied that she DOES want kids and a family one day and that she even might do less acting once this happens, but she doesn't even have a boyfriend because she's quite a handful and she has to find the guy that can keep up with her. She also totally enthused about a show called "Nashville" and said that she would do literally everyting to work in taht show because she loves it so much. She was also asked why her faith is so important to her, and she said that Jesus always was her anchor and that she's just a very strong believer and that she never feels alone because of it... So yeah, from what I got of her panel she was adorable :-)

Right after Malese it was Torrey's panel from 11 to 12. Her shooting would start right afterwards (at 12), so I wasn't sure if I should stay until the end, because I didn't want to miss out on her shoot and I wasn't sure how many people would line up for it, but I stayed until 11:50, so I don't think I missed all too much.

You have to know: It was Torrey's birthday that day. I found it rather adorable that she spent her birthday "with us"... at the convention. Instead of being home with her family and such, and Mark Ferguson and the people on the room already arranged a "code word" and when the code word came we all had to sing "Happy Birthday" to her... she was sooooo cute, she started filming it with her phone and was really touched. And she looked SO beautiful in that dress... which was from H&M by the way :D She was asked where the dress is from and she told us "H&M" and that she "Just" bought it... such a great dress and she looked so awesome...

During her panel, literally every 2nd person asked her if they could come on stage to give her a present... and she was totally happy and adorable and jumping in happiness when she got that little plushie pony or what it was running around "I have a pony and you don't" and such... and was just soooooo great... I have to admit: at SOME point I found it rather "annoying" that instead of asking questions they all just wanted to give her something - they could or should have used the autographs for that - but since she was so sweet about it, I didn't mind all too much.

She was also asked if Paul got her a present and she said that she indeed got a really nice present from him. A bracelett, but that she isn't wearing it, because she has so thin arms and too many braceletts look good on it.

I asked her 2 questions... first it was about "Pretty Little Liars" and I wanted to know if we'll see Melissa again in Season 4, because in Season 3 she was barely there. She said she WOULD be back, but only for 2 episodes, since she's a series regular in "Army Wives" now and most of the time it would collide with PLL... but that Army Wives of course has priority now. Which is quite a shame, because I love her in PLL...

She was also asked about her favourite pairing in PLL and said that it was Aria/Ezra and Emily/Paige, because she thinks Paige is one f the cutest girls...

I don't even remember my 2nd question... damn, where's my brain... I know I asked her 2 questions but I can't recall my 2nd one... well... maybe it'll be on the Con DVD when it comes out... XD

Anyways... it was a great panel, but I left a bit earlier to line up for her photos... I got numbers 81 and 82, so there were already quite a few people waiting, but not THAT many...

And this time I was pretty nervous again, because I seriously love that woman SO fucking much. I had printend out the 2 poses I wanted to do wit her, but I wasn't sure whether she would do it or not... and when it was my turn I showed her the pictures saying "If it's okay for you, I'd love to have those 2 poses" and she was like "Oh, sure, why not?" and then she stood in front of me... ACTUALLY I wanted the pose te other way round, but in that moment I wasn't really "brave enough" to ask her so, so I just thought "whatever"... I wanted HER to hug me from behind, but in the end *I* hugged her from behind... and I think the picture turned out quite nice anyways... I seriously love bot pictures I have with her...

After the 1st picture Torrey looked at me and was like "Excuse me, you have to help me, what was the 2nd picture? Back to back?" and I was like "yes" and then we stood there and Torrey was like "With hands holding, right?" and she entwined her fingers with mine and was like "Like that?" and was like "Yeah, exactly like that" :-) I love our picture! SO much! :-)

After the photoshooting there was some kind of "break"... They were preparing for the autographs and so Marie and me decided to get something to eat in the shopping mall. I wasn't sure if we would be back in time for the autograph session. It was about 12:15 when we left and signing would start at 13:00 but I said, if I'm nt there in time, I'll get my autographs on Sunday since there was another possibility then. Plus: They would go with numbers - first 1-250, then 251-500, and so on... Ihad 568, so I thought I would be later anyways... And yeah, after we came back, the autograph session had barely started... and even though they had only called numbers to 400 in yet, they let me in because most people were there for Ian and Paul and David and Torrey had a very short line, so they asked "Is someone there for..." and when I said "I only want Torrey and David" they let me in... and when I reached David's table there were only 4 or 5 people standing in front of me... I had my autograph picture prepared in a casing and I had my pictures of the photo shootings in it, too. The one with David kissing my hand on top!

An autograph from David cost 25 bucks... so when it was my turn (and I was standing there ALONE, there was no one behind me) I gave David the picture and he grabbed it, asking for my name and I spelled it to him, and then he noticed the picture of him kissing my hand, grabbing the casing and looking at it, saying "Oh my god, this is awesome. This turned out quite nice. I should always do pictures like that, not looking into the camera, because I look awful looking into the camera" and I was like "No you don't", and he was "I do"... he pulled the picture out of the casing looking at me saying "Can I sign it?" and I was like "I only have 1 autograph coupon" and he was like "Can I sign it anyways?" and I was like "Usually I don't let my photos get signed" and he was like "Please?" and so I gave in...

Yeah, that sounds awful, but I usually don't like my pictures with anything scribbled on it. But I couldn't resist im asking so sweetly. Plus: Usually it would have cost me another 25 bucks and i was fairly afraid that they would charge me another 25 bucks or that David would get in trouble, but nothing like that happened... but seriously... isn't he the CUTEST? He did this just like that and I simply love him for that. Even more now... :-)

That's the story of how the signature got on my picture with David :D

After David, I lined up for Torrey with only 2 people waiting in front of me, and Torrey was just sooooooo great! :-) When it was my turn she looked at me saying "You German Girls are soooooo pretty"... I mean, how ADORABLE is that? I said "I wanted to wish you a happy birthday" and she was like "Oh, that's so sweet of you", and it just made me seriously happy! She then asked me for my name and signed my picture and I told her again how great I think she is.

She also remembered me from the photo sessions obviously, because when she signed the picture she said "Where are our photos? I can sign them too!" and I was like "They are not finished yet unfortunately (which was true, I had looked right before the autograph session), and she replied "Oh, that's a shame, I'd love to see them", and I was like "I can tweet them to you when I'm at home, if I don't have another chance to show you" and she was like "yeah, please do that"... I thanked her again and said my good-bye and went out! :-)

And because a lot more happened that day (and 2 more photoshootings) I will split Saturday in 2 posts, because LJ won't let me post an entry if it's too long, so more a little later - if you want :-)

Bloody Diaries Convention - Day 1 (07.06.2013)

bm_shipper — Mon, 10 Jun 2013 14:14:44 GMT

So... let's start with Day 1 - shall we? ;-)

I was rather nervous the day before, always scared I might forget to pack something and such, and so I checked my suitcase like 10 times at least. And I went to bed way too late... around 11:30... my alarm went off at 4:00 a.m. the next morning and I slept like 3 hours at most.. .but I DID get some sleep, so that's good XD

Around 4:45 I left home with my dad. He offered me to bring me to the airport so I won't be late since the public transportation simply sucks where I live. There was no traffic jam whatsoever, so we got through pretty good. My father got a cup of coffee when we arrived there and we talked a little bit and then we said good-bye and I went to the "Security Check"...

I had already checked in online the day before (thanks for that possibility) and so I just had to go through that (which wasn't much of a problem. It beeped and I got checked, but since there was nothing on me, I could go through... I had to go a long way too my gate, though... It felt like I was walking for hours (maybe because I was so tired), but when I finally arrived there, I took as seat and yeah... I started getting nervous again. it didn't take long until we were allowed to board the plane and then my journey REALLY started...

I hate flying, but the flight to Dusseldorf was pretty okay, and we arrived there in time...

Still, the day started out with me being pissed off like crazy. There were 2 girls I was talking to over Facebook the weeks before the Con. Both would come with the same flight and we arranged to take a cab together once we land in Dusseldor. Only they were NOWHERE to be found... I didn't see them before the flight and I definitely didn't see them afterwards. When I got off the plane I waited in the Arrival area of the airport for half an hour, looked outside and went back in... they were nowhere... (they DID take the flight, though, so I have NO idea where they were) and so I decided to try to get on public transportation, because 30,- Euro for a ride to the convention hotel was waaaaaaay to expensive for me... I went to the information center and they told me USUALLY, I only have to take the cable car to "Rheinpark Center", but there was some kind of construction site, so I had to switch trains in between.

But at least THAT worked out pretty well...

But with all those things I arrived at the convention hotel a lot later than I expected. Not that this was a problem.

They wrote before that Check-In would start at 10 a.m. and my flight arrived at 8:45... I thought - with the cab - I would be there around 9:30 or such. In the end it was more like 11.

And from the cable car station to the Convention hotel I had to walk for like 10 or 15 minutes, so it was quite exhausting.

Still, once I arrived there, everything went smootly. There weren't many people there yet and I was able to register immediately.

But then the next thing happened.

I "pre-ordered" 8 photos, and they handed me the photo coupons in a little bag... I couldn't tell how many it were, so I went a step aside and said "I'm gonna count them" and I'm GLAD I did. Seriously. I am!

There were only 6 of them. The girl on the counter told me "I don't know, go over there to Dirk", so I went to the next table and "said Dirk" told me that I only ordered 6 pictures, 2 with David, 2 with Torrey, 1 with Mark and 1 with Jim!

No! Seriusly, NO!

I ordered 4 pictures with David.

Fortunately, I printed everything. My orders AND The confirmation of payment I got from them. This Dirk guy wasn't very friendly, though. Yes, I got my coupons in the end, but I almost started a fight with him right there. That's NOT what I call "good customer service", but anyways...

Since my friend I would stay with for the 3 days wouldn't arrive at the Convention hotel before like 4:30 p.m. I didn't know what to do with my luggage, so I asked around and one nice girl told me, I should ask at the reception of the convention hotel if they can put it somewhere. Which I did. I got a little piece of paper with a number and they told me they can keep my luggage there as long as I want. Which was GREAT! Now THAT was great customer service, because I wasn't even staying at that hotel, so yeah...

Got rid of my luggage and went back to the entrance hall for the convention where they were just about to open the dealer's room.

I waited for my friend Anna (who's from Austria too and who I've met a couple of times and who I was at the Elisabeth musical with 3 times XD) and when she arrived we decided to get some lunch in the shopping mall that was close by.

The "real action" wouldn't start until 3 p.m. anyways...

The whole program would start with David Anders' photo-Shooting at 3, so you can imagine how nervous I was that the first thing I would really do at this convention would be meeting David... Seriously, I was SO scared that he would be in a bad mood or not nice or whatsoever, but all my fears were for no reason, because David is the nicest guy on earth and so much better and sweeter than I could have ever imagined.

Anna had a photo shooting with David, too, on this day, so - fortunately - I wasn't completely alone when we started to "line up"...

We were allowed to line up at 2:45 and there were already some people there waiting... I'm not good in evaluating, but it must have been about 50 or 60 people, because my first pictures with David had the numbers 81 and 82 and the gold and Platin attendees didn't have to line up, they were moved to the front of the line immediately.

Once David started his photo shooting, it went fairly quickly, and there was my "next fear"... that I wouldn't be able to tell him what poses I want. But another causeless fear. The thing is: literally NO one asked him for anything, as far as I could tell and from the people I watched, so I wasn't sure whether it was even allowed or not, but when it was my turn and I went to him and he wanted to put his arm around me I said "Is it okay if we do a picture with you hugging me and us looking at each other?" and he was like "Oh, sure, of course" and then he put his arms around my waist and I put mine on his shoulders and he looked at me... (Damn, that was intense)... and then... nothing happened. For Several seconds. So David turned his head to the photographer saying "Just in case you haven't noticed, that's the pose and we're ready", and then he looked at me and the photographer said "Three, Two, One" and clicked - something he always does.

And that's the result:

I'm not so sure whether I like the picture or not... I look way too happy, no? XD *lol* I should learn to compose myself a little better XD

Anyways... I decided to have 2 of my 4 pictures that day, and I had to tell the person controlling the line beforehand that I had too, and David too, which I did before the first picture and once the first picture was shot, David asked "And what now?" and I said "Can you take me on your back?" and he was like "Really? Okay, I'll try"... *coughs* Yeah.. He bent down, and tried to lift me up, but it didn't work the first time... He had one leg and it took me quite some time to get the 2nd leg up... god, that was embarrassing and probably something I'll never do again XD

I think he looks a bit tortured in that picture, but somehow I like it anyways... XD

I definitely like it better than the first one... I think I look better than him on this picture :P

After the David Photoshooting "my" next "appointment" was the Jim Beaver fotoshooting. Anna didn't have a picture with Jim or anything, but we decided to drink something until I had to line up again at 3:45, and so we did, and talked a little bit and a while later I left to go to Jim's shooting. It was in the same room David's was (there were 2 rooms, a big and a small one, this was the big one), and when I arrived there - again - people had already started lining up. Must have been about the same amount because this time I was picture 80! ;-)

I have to say: I wasn't even a LITTLE nervous with Jim... maybe becaues it was "just" Jim, but when I lined up I was just like "oh my god, I wanna meet him now" and really looking forward to my picture with him.

Again, literally no one asked him for anything and people were just standing next to him, so when it was my turn and Jim put his arm around me, I was like "Can I please have a hug picture? Only if that's okay!" and he pulled me close and said "yeah, sure!" - I seriously love my picture with Jim! I think it looks awesome! :-)

He is SUCH a great guy :-)

Next program thing was e first panel - or rather, the first panel I was interested in. The first ever panel on this convention was from "Hillywood Show" - those are 2 girls who make parodys of famous movies and tv-shows like Hunger Games and Vampire Diaries and such. they are very well loved and a lot of people really adore them and think they are funny... sorry, guys, just not "my" kind of humour. They might be nice girls and might be your kind of thing, but I didn't like the videos they showed very much (Sorry!)...

When I arrived in the panel room the Panel of Hillywood show was still going on, so I just sat down in my row and listened, waiting for Trent's panel, because for that day there wasn't any photoshooting for me anymore (there were shootings with Malese Jow, Mark Ferguson and Hillywood later, but none of what I'm interested in)...

You might want to know that no one with a ticket had a "seat" - we only had a row. The panel room was parted in 4 blocks - A, B, C and D... There were huge sinds behind every block of seats to know where I had to go. I was in Row B 13 - which was seriously not bad at all. I had a good view to the stage :-)

Those are the girls from "Hillywood Show" - just in case you're interested. They are pretty popular on Youtube and have 80 million clicks on their videos or such.

After the Hillywood show left the stage Mark Ferguson came on stage explaining a few things, asking for a few things (like how to behave when we see the stars, not to bother them with asking for autographs whatsoever), and I have to say: he's such a great guy, and he definitely knows how to handle the audience. I had never seen him before and so I didn't have any opinion, but after this convention I can say: He's great, an I'd love to attend a convention with him as MoC again :-)

Next panel was finally Trent Ford. I mean, I don't even really know him, but I was sure I would be a lot more interested in him than the girls, and he was SERIOUSLY awesome. He was only in 1 episode of Vampire Diaries (I think) and he was killed fairly quickly. so anyone who can't remember him can't be blamed - he said it himself - but seriously, the guy is ADORABLE... He talked German a lot during his panel even though he doesn't really speak the language and I might have fallen in love with him a little bit that day.

by the way: My friend finally arrived shortly after Trent's panel had started. She sat down next to me and we enjoyed the panel together, and yeah, we both felt the same way. Trent is just such a lovely guy. He talked about his girlfriend and replied to all the questions with a lot of patience and there are only good things I can say about him. Such a down to earth and nice guy. I have to say a few more good tings to say about him, but those things mostly happened on saturday, so I wait and see until I post my report for Saturday XD

The adorable Trent Ford :-)

After Trent's panel there was the presentation of the "Video Contest", but since my friend was hungry and I also wanted to pick up my pictures we decided to leave the Panel room until the Opening Ceremony (which would start at 7 p.m.) and while Marie (my friend) got something to eat I went down in the Dealer's room searching for my pictures. Funny thing: I found one with David immediately, the other was like "gone"... there were SO many pictures everywhere and it took me a while to find my 2nd David picture... and yes, the one with Jim was there, too!

Afterwards I went back to the Panel room, watching the end of the video contest and waiting for Marie who came back shortly afterwards and then the opening ceremony started... :-)

Gil and his band "Acht" were at the Opening Ceremony too! Gil is a German Rock Singer. He was famous around the time I was 13 or 14 and I had a huuuuuuuuuuuuge crush on him. He was doing "pop music" back then and had pretty long hair - longer than now. But I didn't stay a fan of his or such, so I didn't know he still makes music until last year when he auditioned for the German Version of "The Voice" with his own songs and I fell in love with him all over again, so "meeting" him there at the convention, too, was such an awesome thing. His concert was on Saturday evening, so again, more to tell in the Saturday report XD

Of course all of the other stars were "invited" to the stage, too, one after another. Okay, all but Ian, Paul and Torrey. We found out right then that they hadn't arrived yet, and wouldn't be "there" (aka at the convention) before Saturday... but I seriously didn't mind much :-) (Didn't miss them XD *coughs* XD)

Gil & his Band "Acht", Hillywood Show, Mark Pellegrino & Jim Beaver

Don't ask me, because I have NO idea what happened there and why trent knelt down in front of David when David was called in. I seriously have NO idea what happened there XD

Last to come on stage was Malese Jow! Such a sweet girl! :-)

David tried to open the coffin, and Mark was like "man, do you have to touch EVERYTHING?" :D

After the opening ceremony, there was the last panel for this day - Jim Beaver's first panel. And the guy is awesome. Not that I didn't know that before - I did - but I just wanna repeat it all over again. He was awesome, he IS awesome... parts of the panel were REALLY touching. He was asked about his book he wrote, why he wrote it, what he thought, and he explained that he wrote it when his wife was diagnosed with Cancer, and that it wasn't supposed to be a book. That it was more like e-mails and letters to friends and family to let them be a part of what he and his family are going through. And he also talked about his daughter who is autistic and so this time had been pretty hard for him, especially with his wife dying of cancer and such. During him talking about that sensitive subject his eyes were shining a couple of times and he looked like he was about to cry any minute... it was REALLY, really touching but I'm admiring him for even answering all those questions about his book He could have said "I don't wanna answer that" or such, but he really did, even though it was hard for him.

On another note: when Jim started his panel he was eating gummi worms *lol* It was quite funny, because he was even asked what his favourite flavour is and he was like "They all taste the same" +lol+ Jim is a guy who can be GREAT fun, but also be very serious!

He was also asked what the most romantic scene (I think) of the show was and he was like "I don't know", running up and down" and then someone screamed "the kiss with Crowley" *lol* Well... he actually doesn't like to be adressed about that subject, but his reaction was just REALLY funny... XD

It was a great panel with Jim :-)

After the last panel ended around 9 p.m. there was a "1920 party" which would start soon so Marie and me decided to get my suitcase and bring it to Marie's car, which we did without any problems. :-)

We went back to the convention hotel and waited for the party to start, but seriously? we found it kinda lame... There wer MANY people in the "party room" - all dressed up 20's style, and it was nice to see, but there wasn't much "action"... maybe we were too early or such, but I was very tired and Marie didn't quite enjoy the party either, so we decided to leave around 10 p.m. after we drank something and looked around a bit more.

We went to her place where Marie offered me to use her wireless connection to have internet on my phone, so when I was at her place I was able to check my e-mails and Facebook and such - which was pretty awesome.

I took a shower, we ate something and becaues were were both extremely tired we decided to go to bed around 11:15. Which was a good thing, because Marie has 3 budgies and they started to make noises around 6 a.m. so yeah... the night hadn't been particularly long XD

(We decided to get up around 7:30 the next day and wanted to leave Marie's place around 9 since the first panel for Saturday would be at 10 a.m. and it would be David's... we didn't want to miss THAT of course XD)

So... that was the 1st day... more later... maybe... XD If you WANT to read more after that already long story... XD

Has the boy not been through enough already? -.-

bm_shipper — Tue, 02 Apr 2013 11:25:24 GMT

I've just watched "The Following" 1x11 - I liked the episode, but to me it felt like some kind of "filler episode" and not much "progress"... and not much happened... and then I've watched the "preview" for 1x12... and I don't know if I should be happy or angry about it... I'm happy because Mike seems to be back... I'm angry because it looks like he won't be for long -.- meh... I just hope, it looks worse than it is in the end...

I can't help it, I still like the show SO much, even though I think it's stupid... I mean, why didn't they put a GPS on the guy's car instead of putting the girl in danger? *rolleyes* Seriously, Sometimes I think cops can't be this stupid, right? But they obviously ARE that stupid... at least in the show...

"Turning the Pages" - Jacob centric "The Following" One-Shot

bm_shipper — Sat, 23 Mar 2013 17:10:40 GMT

I did it... I really wrote the One-Shot of "The Following" I intended to write ever since I've seen 1x09... I'm still not very confident if it's the "right thing" to post it and if it's any good, but stargazer60 helped me a WHOLE LOT with it (Thank you SO much, dear) and she encouraged me to post it, so here it is...

English isn't my first language - as some of you probably know - but I'm really trying and I couldn't have imagined to write the story in - for example - german :-)

Title: "Turning the Pages"
Writer: bm_shipper
Pairing: Jacob/Paul - kind of, but it's mostly Jacob centric
Rating: I would say PG-13, but there are mentions of death and sex - nothing explicit, though!
Word count: 2,813
Language: English
Summary: Jacob's feelings after what happened to Paul, plays after 1x09 and is some kind of continuation for the last scene of this episode
Disclaimer: If they were mine, things would have happened differently, I guarantee you that, so no, they are not mine and I don't make any money with this fic
Warning: SPOILERS UNTIL 1x09 - so if you haven't watched it, you better NOT Click the Link!

Turning the pages

“Jacob, please wait. Let’s just talk,“ Emma shouted after him, but the moment Jacob had seen her come his way he turned away and made his way into his room.”

Fortunately, he was in there before she could reach him, and he shut and locked the door.

Ever since he had arrived at Joe’s house he had ignored her and shrugged off every single one of her attempts to talk to him. He couldn’t face her anymore, couldn’t face the one person that was responsible for Paul not making it here to the house alive. He didn’t know what he would do to her if he did. Killing her had crossed his mind a couple of times, because every time he looked at her he got reminded of his loss. He didn’t want to hear any of her excuses, because there wasn’t one that would justify her cutting him and Paul loose.

Paul was dead because of her.

If they had arrived here in time he could have gotten the help he needed. At least that was what Joe had told him, and there was no reason not to believe him.

There were many reasons not to believe Emma, though.

Jacob remembered every single one of his desperate phone calls, begging her to call him back, and he would never forgive her for ignoring every last one of them.

If it hadn’t been for Roderick he had no idea where he would be right now. If Roderick hadn’t replied to his e-mail, telling him that he would come and get him, get them, he probably would have just given up and let the police find him. He had been desperate enough to stop fighting. Especially with the knowledge that Paul wouldn’t last much longer no matter what he did.

He had tried so hard to save him, but it had all been for nothing, and the only thing he could do for Paul was to put him out of his misery, out of the pain he had been in.

A knock at the door pulled Jacob out of his thoughts and only then did he notice that he was standing in the middle of his bedroom. That he hadn’t moved an inch ever since he got in there.

“What?” he spat out, running a hand through his hair.

He didn’t want to see anyone right now, needed some alone time to think.

Being with Joey had lightened his mood quite a bit, but colliding with Emma had brought back all the pain full-force.

“Are you okay in there, buddy?” Roderick’s voice came from the hallway and Jacob let out a breath he wasn’t aware he had been holding.

Thank god it wasn’t Emma trying once more to make him talk.

Considering for a moment to just keep silence and say later that he must have been asleep, Jacob finally turned around and unlocked the door.

“Is something wrong?”

Tilting his head, Roderick looked at him.

“Shouldn’t I be the one asking you that?”

Jacob forced himself to smile.

“I’m okay. No problem. It’s not like Paul and I were a couple or something like that.”

Even though all he actually wanted to do was cry, he wouldn’t let down his defenses. He had promised Paul’s dead body that he would stay strong, and he planned on keeping that promise.

“Okay…” Roderick replied, burying his hands in his pants pockets.

“You know I would have gotten you earlier if I had known where you two were, right?”

Nodding, Jacob looked at him.

“I know.”

“Good. I just want to avoid any misunderstandings,” Roderick assured him.

“No misunderstandings,” Jacob confirmed, watching Roderick turn around and walk down the hallway, leaving him alone again.

Jacob closed the door again and leaned against, taking a few deep breathes. He had no idea how long he was able to maintain this façade, but he wanted to at least try his best not to show his true feelings. Because it made him weak.

Crossing the room he sank down on the bed and grabbed the dark grey jacket laying in the middle of it.

He pressed his face into the fabric, inhaling the scent that was still lingering onto it, Paul’s scent. It made him feel like Paul was still with him, even though he wasn’t. Not really.

His body was buried outside the house under a big oak tree, though.

Jacob couldn’t just leave him in the summer residence of his parents, couldn’t leave them cleaning up the mess he had made. Besides, he wanted Paul to be close to him so he could visit him whenever he wanted to. Literally speaking.

Feeling the tears burn in his eyes, Jacob fought back a sob that was threatening to leave his throat.

Holding Paul’s jacket like that, smelling his scent made him almost feel close to him again. As if he was still there with him.

Squeezing his eyes shut, Jacob imagined Paul holding him close, just like he had done so many times, and for a moment there he could really feel it. Feel him.

“Shhht… I got you…”

That was what Paul would have said. What he had said whenever Jacob had needed to hear it. Paul had always known what he needed and when he needed it. He had understood Jacob without words, as if they had some kind of invisible connection.

Jacob had tried to resist it, he had tried really hard, but he had failed.

Pushing Paul away hadn’t made Paul give up on him, even though he probably should have. Paul had always found a way back into his heart. He had tore down all the walls Jacob had built around him over the years, and he was the only one Jacob had ever really been able to be himself around.

He should have told Paul that he had loved him just as much as Paul had loved him. That the feelings had always been mutual, but he was terrified that if he did the pain would kill him. If he didn’t say it out loud, it wasn’t real, right?

Wrong.

Not saying it didn’t make the feelings just disappear. They had always been there ever since that moment on the couch of their living room.

What had started with fooling around and tickling each other had become much more serious the second Paul had kissed him. They could have left it at that, could have declared it as a mistake, but they didn’t. Instead, Jacob had kissed him back and with crossing that line Jacob had known that there was no way back.

It had scared the shit out of him, especially when he had realized that their kissing and touching had affected Paul. He had pulled back, had alienated Paul by pushing him away all of a sudden and then he had just ran away, trying to wrap his mind around the fact that he had not just kissed a guy, but that he had actually liked it. That it had turned him on to feel Paul’s hands on his body and that he wanted more of it, much more.

Paul had never held this incident against Jacob, quite the opposite. Instead, he had welcomed Jacob with open arms when Jacob had approached him in the shower about two hours later. And he hadn’t pressured Jacob to do anything he didn’t want to do. They had made out in the shower, making each other come and then they had gone to bed and Paul had held him in his arms the entire night, just being there. They hadn’t spoken a single word that night and still, Jacob had never before felt closer to anyone in his entire life.

“I wish you would be here with me right now…” Jacob whispered with tears in his eyes, taking a deep breath to calm himself down, but it didn’t quite work.

It was like Paul had left a hole in his heart and he had no idea if he was ever able to fill it again.

“I am here,” a voice sounded from behind him, making Jacob twitch.

Turning around knee-jerky, Jacob looked into Paul’s deep brown eyes that held a loving gaze.

“You’re dead,” he stated, way too afraid to touch him, because he didn’t want him to disappear again. “You can’t be here.”

“I will always be with you, Jacob, no matter where you are. I promised you that, remember?” Paul asked, flooding Jacob’s mind with images of the first time they had slept with each other.

“I don’t wanna loose you,” Jacob whispered into Paul’s ear when they were laying in each other’s arms, feeling Paul caress the back of his neck.

“What makes you think you would?” Paul asked, lifting his head enough so he could look at Jacob.

“This… this whole fairytale will be over soon. You know that,” Jacob replied, feeling vulnerable and fragile all of a sudden. And he hated it.

“I’m not going anywhere, Jacob. I will always be with you, no matter what happens,” Paul smiled, pulling him close and pressing a soft kiss onto his forehead.

“Promise?” Jacob couldn’t help the relief washing over him.

“Promise.”

“I remember,” Jacob replied, sliding closer to Paul who was just looking at him.

“I wish I could turn back time and do things differently. I would never let that fucking cop stab you again.”

“You couldn’t have done anything, and at least you didn’t run away like some coward. If it wasn’t for you they would have caught me and I would be in jail now,” Paul said.

“But you would at least be alive,” Jacob gave back, feeling another well of tears in his eyes.

“We would never have seen each other again,” Paul objected. “I’m okay with everything that happened. At least you were with me the whole time. I was your first.”

Jacob couldn’t help the small smile that crossed his lips.

“In more ways than one.”

Jacob thought back to the moment he had decided to visit Joe in prison. It hadn’t been some spontaneous idea he had just happened to act on. In fact, he had been on this website where people who admired Joe could meet for a couple of months before he took the final step. He had always wanted to be a part of something and Joe seemed to be able to fulfil this need inside of him. He hadn’t been part of his own family. He wasn’t even sure his parents really loved him. Not the way he always wanted them to love him. They had never been there for him when he was a kid. He had practically been raised by strangers, nannies, Au-pair girls whatsoever. His parents had thought they could buy his love with money, but they had been wrong.

When Joe had introduced him to Emma and Jacob it had been the first time in his life Jacob had felt like he belonged somewhere, and even though he hadn’t been sure if he was capable of really going through with it – especially with the whole playing gay thing – he had at least wanted to try. He didn’t want to disappoint either, Emma nor Paul and most definitely not Joe. Of course there had been times Jacob had doubted his decision to join Joe’s cult had been the right one but one smile of Emma or one gentle touch of Paul’s had been enough to convince him otherwise. They had been good for him, in completely different ways, and even though he had loved Emma, Paul had been the one to catch him when he fell. Paul had been the one he had let his guard down with. Paul had been the one who knew everything about him and took him the way he was. He wasn’t sure Emma would have done the same.

There had been times their whole gay-couple-façade had felt so real, that Jacob had almost wished he could live like this forever, but reality had caught up with them way too soon, and then he had been reunited with Emma, not being able to deal with all those conflicted feelings inside of him.

Part of Jacob had always loved Emma, even during this whole time of him living with Paul. And he had blindly trusted her.

He should have listened to Paul when he had told him that Emma was bad news. That she playing some kind of sick game, but he had thought it had just been Paul’s jealousy talking. He should have known better, but he had been so torn between his love for Emma and his feelings for Paul that he had always wanted to do them both justice. Being in the middle of those two courting for his attention had put a toll on him, but in the end he had to realize that Paul had been right all along.

Emma might have loved him in some kind of sick, twisted way, but the moment she had gotten the chance, she had dumped them both to be with Joe.

Jacob wasn’t stupid, he had always known that Emma had a thing for Joe; he just hadn’t expected it to go that far. He hadn’t expected for Emma to live that obsession at the expenses of him and Paul.

How wrong he had been.

He knew better now, though, and he would make her pay for what she did to them. To Paul. One way or another.

Another knock pulled Jacob out of his thoughts and instinctively, he turned towards the door.

“What is it?”

“Dinner’s ready, if you’re hungry. I just wanted to let you know,” a female voice said. Jacob didn’t recognize the voice, but he hadn’t met everyone living here just yet, so that wasn’t very surprising.

“I’ll be down in a minute,” he shouted, turning back to where Paul had been laying just seconds ago, but he was gone.

Shaking his head, Jacob sat up and wiped his eyes.

He was obviously going crazy, seeing dead people and even talking to him, but feeling Paul’s presence like that made him feel a lot less alone, and probably it was just like Paul had said. He would never completely leave him as long as Jacob kept him in his heart.

Getting off the bed, Jacob made his way to the door and left the room just in time to run into Emma.

Again.

It was like he couldn’t escape her here, but he would at least make an attempt.

Pushing his way past her, he was already a few feet away when she caught up with him, grabbing his arm.

“Jacob, wait!”

Jerkily, Jacob turned around, his hand finding Emma’s throat and pushing her against the wall.

“Don’t you dare touch me.”

She obviously hadn’t expected him to react that way, and seemed surprised for a moment, if the struggling and trying to get his hands off her neck was any indication. But then a cocky grin appeared on her lips.

“Come on, kill me,” she said and she looked very confident saying it. “But I know you; you don’t have the balls to do so.”

When Jacob put more pressure on her neck, making it harder for her to breathe, the smile died on her lips and she just looked up at him.

“You’re too much of a coward to kill anyone, to kill me.”

Her voice had become restrained, raspy even and Jacob knew it was because he was really starting to choke her. Jacob could tell she started to get a little nervous even though she tried not to show it and he enjoyed every little second of it.

It was as if with killing Paul something had awoken within him, a side he hadn’t even been aware he held inside of him. It should scare him, but it didn’t. Instead it made him feel powerful.

He could kill her right there, right now, but he wouldn’t. That would be way too quick and she wouldn’t get away that easy.

“Stop it, Jacob. That’s not you,” Emma coughed, causing Jacob to let out a laugh.

“No? Then what is, Emma? You think you know me? Well, Emma, think again!” Jacob blurted out when he finally let go of her, staring at her coldly. “The Jacob you knew is gone. He died the moment Paul took his last breath.”

Taking a few steps away from her he turned around once more.

“You will pay for what you did, one way or another. This is not over, Emma, it’s just the beginning.”

And with that he made his way downstairs, feeling her stare after him. He would get his revenge eventually and he would savour it once it happened. He would make her suffer. For Paul. His death wouldn’t stay unpunished.