ok, i know you hate me for this, BUT.....
i will seriously send you guys a dollar if you click on the lil' faery below and just sign up for neopets. you don't have to actually do anything but sign up and make a dumb pet! it's free, no junk mail, HONEST! i just wanna get 10 people to do it (PLEEEEEASE!) so i can get some free shit. c'mon you LOVE iT !

music: la la la, i'm retarded mood: determined

This is Poomablu, my green blumaroo friend. It's super-fun and addictive and you can torture and starve them, too!





I'm tellin' ya.. even Charity would want one of THESE bad boys: (it's a red korbat)



so anyway, that's pretty much all i've been doing for 3 days now. my niece is into it and now my brother and i are playing, too. hopefully i'll be going home sunday or monday, woop woop!!!! LATE!




(if you decide to sign-up for these, please use the link above or click Poomablu to join so i get points --- thanks)

mood: hyper

new stuff in the store, if anyone cares.....

http://www.cafepress.com/bluerthnu

music: Walkie Talkie Man - Stereogram mood: tired

ok, i need to stop! bought more STUFF today. i guess it's fine - i mean, why not treat myself to some stuff, fuck it! anyway, i got....

More ART & some frames:


"Cupidon", William Adolphe Bouguereau


"Stars:Moonlight-Clair de Lune" aka "Moon", Alphonse Mucha


"Tori Amos Fairies Commemorative" aka "Tori Amos 1999", Bob Masse

An alarm clock (didn't have one)



Boring grocery type stuff, KRiSmas cards, headphones...

And some fun fun CRAFTY stuff (cuz i am retarded):
I'm gonna make a box for my jewelry so it doesn't have to live in a grocery bag anymore. So I got a lil' unfinished box with a hinge top and some wood stain and OH MY GOD, decoupage materials!
How lame am I, really? but it's cool, cuz they're faeries, right???














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Whatever, I just gotta keep a few hundy for my trip to la la land in Dec., and I can't think of ANYTHING else I want... Hmmm, maybe a new digital camera. hahahahahahaha
~ K-Money

mood: creative music: The Girl From Iponima is stuck in my head OH LORD!

some quotes from my fave movie, which you still NEED TO SEE!!!! GARDEN STATE

Sam: Hey, I recognize you.
Andrew Largeman: Ooooo, from Columbia High?
Sam: No not from high school, from T.V. Didn't you play the retarded quarterback?
Andrew Largeman: Yea.
Sam: Are You really retarded?
Andrew Largeman: No
Sam: Oooo, great job man I really thought you were retarded. I mean, you're better than that Corky kid and he's actually retarded. If there was a retarded Oscar you would win, hands down, kick his ass!
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Karl Benson: I thought you killed yourself.
Andrew Largeman: What?
Karl Benson: That wasn't you?
Andrew Largeman: No, no, tha-that wasn't me.
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Andrew Largeman: You know that point in your life when you realize that the house that you grew up in isn't really your home anymore? All of the sudden even though you have some place where you can put your stuff that idea of home is gone.
Sam: I still feel at home in my house.
Andrew Largeman: You'll see - when you move out it just sort of happens one day and it's just gone. And you can never get it back. It's like you get homesick for a place that doesn't exist. I mean it's like this right of passage, you know. You won't have this feeling again until you create a new idea of home for yourself, you know, for you kids, for the family you start, it's like a cycle or something. I miss the idea of it. Maybe that's all family really is. A group of people who miss the same imaginary place.
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Sam: You're in it right now.
Andrew Largeman: What?
Sam: My mom always says that, when she can see I'm like working something out in my head, she's like, 'you're in it right now' and I'm looking at you and you're definitely in it.
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Mrs. Lubin: Oh... guys? Don't stay in here all day. I had to take the batteries out of the carbon monoxide detector; it was beeping all night.
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Dr. Cohen: Mister... Andrew Largeman?
Andrew Largeman: Yes?
Dr. Cohen: There's absolutely nothing wrong with you.
Andrew Largeman: Really?
Dr. Cohen: Just kidding; how the hell would I know?
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PS Charity is ignoring me and I'm going to bite her.

mood: contemplative music: Our Retired Explorer (Antarctica)- The Weakerthans

So since the gov't gave me all kindsa free money, I went on a shopping spree for things that make me happy:

Got me some Paulina Stuckey artwork, cuz she rocks....










and i found this awesome poster at target - it's by Conny Dempsey, called "Evangeline"






and then i got one of those memory foam mattress pads.. the nice thick ones. oh those are sooo great. i have fond memories of embarrasing abby by jumping, no leaping, no FLYING onto one at the mall.. and the sales guy just looks at me like, *um, hey fatty.. you break it you buy it* :)




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good times, good times. i still have over $1000 left. i'm gonna buy a plane ticket to la for christmas... oh shit, maybe i can see my chaz-titty, too! john's gonna drive me back up for real this time. (fingers crossed, everybody)

oh, and i got cable. i was watching my gross medical shows in la while i was down there and i just can't deal with the lack thereof anymore. can't wait till wednesday when they install it, woop woop!

OK, that's enough materialism for a while. bye bye butterflies!
*KRiS*

music: some horrid sheryl crow song stuck in the noggin mood: bouncy

Hi everyone, it's me, Tweak. Mommy always gets to tell you how she is and what she's up to so now it's MY turn! ha!

Ok, first of all... What's up with this biatch??? She keeps leaving for days and leaving me with that fat guy. Then HE leaves and I'm all alone except for random strangers who come feed me. Now every time someone leaves, I get so SCARED they're not coming back! BASTARDS !!!!

And yo, mom, can we say STRING CHEESE OBSESSION here?!!! I mean, yeah, it's good, but you're kinda fat still... the least you could do is share. I try to play with it constantly and she yells at me. Arrrgh.

Then there's the new desk. It's got a kitty shelf, right? But she keeps putting the keyboard on it. As if the keyboard needs it's own shelf more than ME! Where is the love, ma?

Anyway, I'm pretty sure she's not going anywhere soon. I heard her talking to someone named "John" who she refers to as my "daddy" sometimes. Hmm.... I don't get it. I've got an Uncle Matt (aka the fat guy) and and Uncle Phil (who I've managed to IM all on my own, but I never see anymore)... but what makes this guy my "daddy", eh? All I know is that he's planning on coming up here soon and if he takes my spot on the bed, he's gonna get it! Oh I WILL bust out the bunny feet!!!

So, yeah.. that's what's new with ME. Me, damnit, ME! The freakin' one-eyed wonder cat. And let me just mention, Just Because YOU can't see the bugs I chase, doesn't mean they're INVISIBLE, guys! Maybe my lack of distance vision means I've got the X-RAY scope instead... ever think of that?!!!

TWEAK

music: i'm purring, and it don't mean i'm happy either mood: frisky

I guess Charity wanted the world to see this, lol:



I'm doing good. The gov't mailed me a $1207 mystery check today. That beats the $309 last month. I love it when that happens. New clothes for me!!!
Matt and I are dieting and excercising, cuz our dad's death gave us mortality issues. I mean, my mom weighs like 500 and Matt was up to 395 a while ago, so now's a good time. I'm at 180 and proud, but I still have at least 25 to lose to be considered at the top of my weight range or whatever. ugh.
Anyway, I gotta go make some new LJ icons! It's been too long. *muah,
KRiS

mood: calm music: Dear God ~S. Mclachlan

i am home.
my cat and i are in love today.
ATA airlines is the shit....
...United can suck my left one.
there are approximately 1800 people in Dixon, IL...
...1700 of them are Youngmarks, the rest are Reagans.
Is it wrong if you buy clothes to wear to a funeral that double as clothes you really want to go out in?
cat + miniblinds... good times

thanks you guys for the empathy and sweet comments

oh i almost forgot, i had my confrontation with my abuser. i think i'm gonna feel really good once this grief stuff passes.

music: i friggin' love the garden state soundtrack mood: weird, detached post-nap daze