Entry from 11/30/00
[Reading this made me sad because I haven’t done many of the things I planned to do.]
From today I am going to try doing the “morning pages” as described in “The Artists’ Way.” I woke up this morning when Kathy called. She wanted to know why I said I don’t want to go to Las Vegas with her and Jen. I explained that I haven’t been feeling well and that I expect to be feeling worse later (when the trip was planned). My energy level seems to be steadily going downhill. When spring comes around, I should be able to start to feel better. Kathy asked if It would be better if the trip was one day shorter. I said, “yes.” She told me that she really wanted me to go and may be I’ll feel better once I’m there. I agreed that may happen, but I’m worried about putting a damper on things if I’m too tired to go out. She said it’d be okay if I stayed I the hotel if I’m not feeling well, and she and Jen won’t change their plans because of it. So I agreed to go for 2 nights.
Today I plan to finally fill out the necessary forms for the COBRA health insurance, my exit interview, and medical bill reimbursements. Around 5:30pm, Soyoka should come over. We’ll study for an hour or so then head over to the Vallco Ice Chalet to skate. I need to sharpen my hockey skates before Sunday (1st class for ice hockey lessons). I’m looking forward to the skating.
If I finish all of the above, I’m going to clean my room some more and sketch Fishbone as he plays. [This is when I still thought Fishbone was a boy]
I wonder what the ice skating classes are going to be like. I’m so physically unfit right now! Sometimes I worry that I’m going to be so low on energy that I’m not going to be able to attend all of the lessons. I’m determined to go through with it. Also I would like to just exercise more, in general. It’s sad how quickly I run out of breath. I need to take things slowly at first. Don’t rush it. Be patient. Don’t try too many things at once.
Food—I need to eat better. Lately, I’ve been eating too much sweets and just eating larger servings at mealtime. It’s a good thing I like oatmeal and veggies.
Once my room is clean, it’d be cool to design Fishbone’s play area. I miss Pecha so much. Fishbone’s been good for my depression though. He’s quite fearless of people and smart. I’m very thankful he’s very good about not pooping or peeing when he’s out of the cage. It makes things so much easier.
Next quarter maybe I’ll sign up for 1-2 classes at De Anza. I was surprised to see so many new classes. Many of them seem like they’d be cery useful to me.
Oh, no. Christmas is coming around and I need to either design a card or go out and buy some. This year I’m determined to send out Christmas cards to my friends. I’ve neglected it for so long (3-5 years?). I wish I knew Cristina, Azmar, Justin, Rafeeza, Sarah, and Eli’s current addresses. I’ll send it to their parents if I know the address, I guess.
Do I need a more ritualized daily routine? Sleeping earlier at night is definitely a good idea. I don’t need to be up at the crack of down, but I need to be awake in the morning and take a walk in the park to start my day.
From today I am going to try doing the “morning pages” as described in “The Artists’ Way.” I woke up this morning when Kathy called. She wanted to know why I said I don’t want to go to Las Vegas with her and Jen. I explained that I haven’t been feeling well and that I expect to be feeling worse later (when the trip was planned). My energy level seems to be steadily going downhill. When spring comes around, I should be able to start to feel better. Kathy asked if It would be better if the trip was one day shorter. I said, “yes.” She told me that she really wanted me to go and may be I’ll feel better once I’m there. I agreed that may happen, but I’m worried about putting a damper on things if I’m too tired to go out. She said it’d be okay if I stayed I the hotel if I’m not feeling well, and she and Jen won’t change their plans because of it. So I agreed to go for 2 nights.
Today I plan to finally fill out the necessary forms for the COBRA health insurance, my exit interview, and medical bill reimbursements. Around 5:30pm, Soyoka should come over. We’ll study for an hour or so then head over to the Vallco Ice Chalet to skate. I need to sharpen my hockey skates before Sunday (1st class for ice hockey lessons). I’m looking forward to the skating.
If I finish all of the above, I’m going to clean my room some more and sketch Fishbone as he plays. [This is when I still thought Fishbone was a boy]
I wonder what the ice skating classes are going to be like. I’m so physically unfit right now! Sometimes I worry that I’m going to be so low on energy that I’m not going to be able to attend all of the lessons. I’m determined to go through with it. Also I would like to just exercise more, in general. It’s sad how quickly I run out of breath. I need to take things slowly at first. Don’t rush it. Be patient. Don’t try too many things at once.
Food—I need to eat better. Lately, I’ve been eating too much sweets and just eating larger servings at mealtime. It’s a good thing I like oatmeal and veggies.
Once my room is clean, it’d be cool to design Fishbone’s play area. I miss Pecha so much. Fishbone’s been good for my depression though. He’s quite fearless of people and smart. I’m very thankful he’s very good about not pooping or peeing when he’s out of the cage. It makes things so much easier.
Next quarter maybe I’ll sign up for 1-2 classes at De Anza. I was surprised to see so many new classes. Many of them seem like they’d be cery useful to me.
Oh, no. Christmas is coming around and I need to either design a card or go out and buy some. This year I’m determined to send out Christmas cards to my friends. I’ve neglected it for so long (3-5 years?). I wish I knew Cristina, Azmar, Justin, Rafeeza, Sarah, and Eli’s current addresses. I’ll send it to their parents if I know the address, I guess.
Do I need a more ritualized daily routine? Sleeping earlier at night is definitely a good idea. I don’t need to be up at the crack of down, but I need to be awake in the morning and take a walk in the park to start my day.