Listens: Feel To Believe - Beth Orton

Song Remains the Same

So I'm old enough by now that I shouldn't still be surprised when my tastes in romantic narratives are so consistent and predictable over time. But the recent return of Roger Howarth to my favorite soap One Life to Live has reminded that what I'm a sucker for, I'm a sucker for again and again and again.

I've sailed some ships in my life, Spike and Buffy, Mulder and Scully, both about equally, but both PALE in comparison to my now 17 year investment in Todd Manning and Blair Daimler. Oh how I have tried over the years to quit them, to walk away, but then



And the needle is back on the record just like *that*. I can not resist that chemistry, I can not resist that history, I can not give up on their story. Other couples talk about being soul mates but TnB just ARE. And I've been in nostalgia overdrive ever since the Really Real Todd Manning came back, consuming youtube clips like crack. In the midst of one of these bouts of nostalgia I came across this clip of TnB, and was shocked how much it reminded me of my all time favorite S/B scene in Touched. Sigh, Touched:



"Will you just hold me?"

The whole TnB clip is great but if you pick it up at the 3:15 mark, you can see Blair say almost the exact same words to Todd: "Will you hold me?"



Superficially there is not of comparables there, though Todd is a killer and rapist, he is not an actual Vampire, and Blair while I love my bitch she is as much an anti-hero as her man. BUT contextually the power of both scenes lies in the same gesture, made after two prickly people who don't trust easily have forged a bond and an intimacy they've never had with anyone else, not even each other in their previous sexual encounters. It was really nice WOW moment for me when I saw that, I rewound and re-watched like three times.

In the great re-watch I also found this TnB scene with echoes of S/B like dialogue @ around the 5:23 mark.





IDK the whole thing gives me a gigantic kick.