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bleedforyou1
01 January 2031 @ 12:00 am
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ditzy19 January 2015 @ 01:48 pm
How's life everyone? Mine is obviously pretty... wellllllllll crazy. I'm working a full time job and am still living at home because the economy BLOWS and apartments are too high -sobs- so yeah anyway i miss my lj community -clings-
COME BACK TO ME MY FRIENDS I'M SORRY I LEFT YOU
COME BACK TO ME MY FRIENDS I'M SORRY I LEFT YOU
17 May 2014 @ 10:40 pm
Sooooooooooo! I finally graduated from college today :) I'm a pretty happy new car owner and alumni now. Have a four year degree in English Literature from one of the best universities in my state! :D Hopefully I have more free time now but I'm looking for jobs and hopefully find one soon so we'll see how that all works out. Love all of you! How are you all?
<333
-Bleedy
<333
-Bleedy
20 March 2014 @ 09:12 am
Hey everyone,
Long time no see, I know. My last update was nearly a year ago smh. So what's been going on in my life the last couple years? College. No, seriously, the ups and downs of college life have turned me away from Livejournal and yeah, I mean, I've been solidly on Tumblr, but I understand that it's just not the same... I can't have the same types of friendships that I had here. I just can't, and it hasn't happened. Last night I dreamt about a friend on livejournal and I woke up crying because I missed everyone here so much (and because I got my period, shocker). I miss all of the fun I used to have here... the relationships I developed here... the fics I read, the art I saw, the icons I made, the comments and love and support that everyone on my f-list gave me. I will never forget <3 I love everyone here, but the specifics I remember especially... the ones that cheered me on and gave me love... I love you guys so much I can't even describe it.
Last semester, I went through one of the worst periods of my life... I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety, and had to attend therapy for self harm and thoughts of suicide. It's just one of those things that you think could never happen to you and then... it happens. It was the hardest thing I've ever had to do in my life, to struggle every single day to survive. Every single damn day I felt alone and miserable and just... so unbelievably full of hate for myself and guilt over what I was doing to my friends and family. It's going better now thankfully, I've gotten help and I'm at a better place now, but it's still hard sometimes. I've just this morning thought of livejournal and the community I had built here and how I wish I had reached out here... I know something would have given, something would have helped me. But I just... I couldn't reach out because I was frozen and lost, unable to see anything but darkness.
But now I've seen light too and finally I want to just thank everyone for what they gave me here and hopefully rekindle some friendships. I'm going to try really hard, because I miss all of you so much.
Love you all,
Bleedy
Long time no see, I know. My last update was nearly a year ago smh. So what's been going on in my life the last couple years? College. No, seriously, the ups and downs of college life have turned me away from Livejournal and yeah, I mean, I've been solidly on Tumblr, but I understand that it's just not the same... I can't have the same types of friendships that I had here. I just can't, and it hasn't happened. Last night I dreamt about a friend on livejournal and I woke up crying because I missed everyone here so much (and because I got my period, shocker). I miss all of the fun I used to have here... the relationships I developed here... the fics I read, the art I saw, the icons I made, the comments and love and support that everyone on my f-list gave me. I will never forget <3 I love everyone here, but the specifics I remember especially... the ones that cheered me on and gave me love... I love you guys so much I can't even describe it.
Last semester, I went through one of the worst periods of my life... I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety, and had to attend therapy for self harm and thoughts of suicide. It's just one of those things that you think could never happen to you and then... it happens. It was the hardest thing I've ever had to do in my life, to struggle every single day to survive. Every single damn day I felt alone and miserable and just... so unbelievably full of hate for myself and guilt over what I was doing to my friends and family. It's going better now thankfully, I've gotten help and I'm at a better place now, but it's still hard sometimes. I've just this morning thought of livejournal and the community I had built here and how I wish I had reached out here... I know something would have given, something would have helped me. But I just... I couldn't reach out because I was frozen and lost, unable to see anything but darkness.
But now I've seen light too and finally I want to just thank everyone for what they gave me here and hopefully rekindle some friendships. I'm going to try really hard, because I miss all of you so much.
Love you all,
Bleedy
20 June 2013 @ 01:17 am
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14 June 2013 @ 11:04 pm
Title: Paint me in your skies
Author: 
bleedforyou1
Pairing: Arthur/Merlin
Rating: PG
Beta: noooooooooooooo one sowwy
Summary: It's been a long time, but Merlin knows when his King is coming back.
Word count: 533
Warnings:
Note: JUST A SHORT LIL THING I DID A LONG TIME AGO AND FORGOT TO POSTTTTT. Reincarnation. Slightly based off this ?
( Paint me in your skiesCollapse )
21 April 2013 @ 01:59 pm
Hey everyone! Long time no post :( Crazy semester!
But guess what! I've been Podficced! The lovelysnugglemint podficced my fic "Not Today"! Listen to the awesomeness HERE and be sure to leave her lots of love!
But guess what! I've been Podficced! The lovely
snugglemint podficced my fic "Not Today"! Listen to the awesomeness HERE and be sure to leave her lots of love! 14 February 2013 @ 05:33 pm
Hey everyone! Just wanted to share a few things with you lovelies <3
FIRST OFF, HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!!!!!! I LOVE YOU ALL AND YOU'RE ALL MY VALENTINE'S WHETHER YOU LIKE IT OR NOT <33333333
Next, I got a job!!!!!!!!! I'm now the Copy Editor at my campus newspaper, which is just perfect because I want to hopefully go into editing anyway xDDDDDD
Third, I won a free tshirt at the career fair lecture.... random but yay? hahahaha
Fourth, my bff and I are spending the night watching movies and eating lots and writing our papers due for tomorrow... Not important but just wanted to share an idea for other Singles or Long Distance people xD Not a bad way to spend the day!
Love you all,
Bleedy
FIRST OFF, HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!!!!!! I LOVE YOU ALL AND YOU'RE ALL MY VALENTINE'S WHETHER YOU LIKE IT OR NOT <33333333
Next, I got a job!!!!!!!!! I'm now the Copy Editor at my campus newspaper, which is just perfect because I want to hopefully go into editing anyway xDDDDDD
Third, I won a free tshirt at the career fair lecture.... random but yay? hahahaha
Fourth, my bff and I are spending the night watching movies and eating lots and writing our papers due for tomorrow... Not important but just wanted to share an idea for other Singles or Long Distance people xD Not a bad way to spend the day!
Love you all,
Bleedy
02 February 2013 @ 12:20 pm
hey everyone :D
Just a few things really quick
-- I'M SO EXCITED COLIN MORGAN WON AT THE NTA'S FOR BEST DRAMA PERFORMANCE MALE <3 My baby (yes i'm still crying about it) and his boyfriend "beaming with pride" HOURS later ;P
--I'm back at school and classes are difficult but I'm getting through it one day at a time.
--my happy jar still only has one note in it *headdesk*
-- I'm writing fics for my friends' bday but they're all RP related so I can't link them here or you guys wouldn't understand :( But I do want to write more and keep at it, so if you have any drabble/short fic ideas that you might want to see, leave them here and I may pick it up xD
-- There's a photography challenge going on that I'm participating in on my personal tumblr. Watc this tag if you want to see it! (theres also other photos that i've taken on there because I just got a new camera and I'm an amateur wanting to practice xP)
-- I'd like to say I'm over Merlin being over... but i'm not *goes back to sobbing in a corner*
Anyway, how is everyone here? <3
Just a few things really quick
-- I'M SO EXCITED COLIN MORGAN WON AT THE NTA'S FOR BEST DRAMA PERFORMANCE MALE <3 My baby (yes i'm still crying about it) and his boyfriend "beaming with pride" HOURS later ;P
--I'm back at school and classes are difficult but I'm getting through it one day at a time.
--my happy jar still only has one note in it *headdesk*
-- I'm writing fics for my friends' bday but they're all RP related so I can't link them here or you guys wouldn't understand :( But I do want to write more and keep at it, so if you have any drabble/short fic ideas that you might want to see, leave them here and I may pick it up xD
-- There's a photography challenge going on that I'm participating in on my personal tumblr. Watc this tag if you want to see it! (theres also other photos that i've taken on there because I just got a new camera and I'm an amateur wanting to practice xP)
-- I'd like to say I'm over Merlin being over... but i'm not *goes back to sobbing in a corner*
Anyway, how is everyone here? <3