Bleak Optimism

Holidays

bleakoptimism — Tue, 18 Jan 2011 11:44:30 GMT

So now I have a large piece of spinal disc removed, some scar tissue muscle stuff and some nerves chucking a few hissy fits, but I can sit and do and move about somewhat. Apparently I can not do massive amounts of housework at once, but thn again I have barely been out of hospital a month so I guess trying to make the house sparkly and good in a day or two is kind of silly, oh well. Seeing a bit of actual summer which is great, I can almost enjoy getting sweaty and sunburnt after long months of shivering my titties off.

Also been enjoying the goodness of Mona Foma, I mean who can go past a mostly free two weeks of festivities.

We shall not dwell on that which was my christmas/new year break, but to say I atleast had the opportunity to start using my wee wobbly legs again.

I would just like to take a moment to thank wine, "thank you wine" you have been a good warm friend, and a big cheerio to your friend cider, cheers bigears!

Vroom

bleakoptimism — Tue, 19 Jun 2007 09:22:11 GMT

I had my first driving lesson today, 3 hours and 20 minutes, Started in Brighton, through broadmarsh, Elderslie, Pelham, into Hollow Tree (it got scary up this way), back to Bothwell, out to the highway and back down to Brighton, I swear I was driving for almost 2 1/2 hours before I could find a public loo cause I wasn't going to pee on the side of the road >.< I drove backroads, I drove gravel roads, I drove roads that didn't even quite resemble roads anymore, and scary SNOW!
Ok I am kind of chuffed with myself, I even got brave and did up to 70km/h on the highway.
I got overtaken a lot today

Firday already

bleakoptimism — Fri, 08 Jun 2007 06:08:24 GMT

Well its friday, I am sitting in my PJ's waiting to go do housework/coven readyingness stuff and finishing my setlist. Today I discovered a bunch of remixes of Emilie Autumn songs prompted by something snipribbon found, there is one by Angelspit and I found one by Brendon Small, the creator of Metalocalypse, lmao, that one is great, but not sure if I should play it or not. Should be some goodness in the set though, Patsi approved of all of it.
Sat up until 3am last night to get mahhrat to lvl 58 in WoW so he could see the outlands for his birthday HAPPY BIRTHDAY dude. Made an awesome Kangaroo Spagetti Bolognaise for dinner last night, and it was quite tasty, but I waited until Mark had commented it was good before I told him what it was, just in case ^_^;;
Gotta go do some dishes soon cause there is a lass crashing here tonight, and first impression I don't want her to know I am a bad housekeeper and have a messy kitchen >.>
Off to make descisions now, why why is it soooo hard *cry*

bleakoptimism — Wed, 06 Jun 2007 03:35:39 GMT

I recieved my swap from lullaby_villain for the Spooky Mail community Victorian goth swap today, and OMG I nearly crapped my pants!!!

I think the postman who delivered it was wondering why it ponged so much of Anise, maybe he thought I am a licorice addict, at first I thought someone had been attacking my fennel bush

-Absinthe Incense
-Absinthe Lip Balm
-Absinthe Oil (someones gonna smell good enough to drink)
-Absinthe Candle
-Amphigorey, 15 combined books of Edward Gorey (I have been eyeing the Ghastlycrumb Tinies book for months)

So heres a pic of what the loot looks like, the lovely paper under it is what they all came wrapped in!

The Absinthe collection

Ghastlycrumb Tinies!

More lovely Gorey goodness

Yayness, I gonna smell like booze, pour some redbull over me and I will stick a straw in me and have a drink

:|

bleakoptimism — Wed, 23 May 2007 13:11:20 GMT

Well, the doctor says it looks like I have Fibromyalgia, hard to explain so Wikipedia definition
I got anti-inflammatries, not that I am sure they will do that much, and they are making me feel pretty ick, but they said they would. Not sure my doctor knows much about it, so may try and find one who does.
And feeling like shit whilst in pain, I must go off and work for the dole tomorrow, pffft

Blurg

bleakoptimism — Mon, 21 May 2007 07:18:49 GMT

For some reason LJ keep setting my posts to friends only, yet I post them as public, bah, I don't understand, today has stressed me out immensley, I shall be going behind the couch to have a minor breakdown, don't mind the noises, its just me. So to cheer myself up I set up a new mood theme thingo, took forever, but I eventually got somewhere and understood it, a shame nothing else I have done today has gone anywhere nearly as frustratingly well

Updatieness

bleakoptimism — Tue, 15 May 2007 04:03:49 GMT

Ahh interesting last few days so far, as usual, money SUCKS!
Sunday we did go for a Mothers Day lunch with Mum, Arch and their car club, went to the Black Buffalo.... Oh dear lord I learnt a lesson, when it says Monster Schnitzel on the menu, they don't mean larger than average, they mean MONSTER in the truest sense, it was like 4 schnitzels all melded together with a delicious mushroom sauce, oh god it was good, but there was not a hope in finishing it.

Sunday night watched Eurovision, and it seems I won it, I don't remember being Serbian or entering, but yay, go me. Alas I don't think it was the best song of the night, but it atleast wasn't bad either. Think it was just a little low tempo for a Eurovision winner.

Been reading a book called Running with the Demon by Terry Brooks, wow, damn its good, so addictive

Went to the doctors on friday and they parted me with 7 vials of my own hard made blood, it took me a lot of effort to make those little globules and they just up and took them :( Anyhow should have a better idea what the hell is wrong with me by the end of the week, and be on the path to knowing why I am in so much pain constantly.

Yesterday I not only washed, chamoied and made pretty 2 cars, I stripped the pain of a FC Holdens roof, aswell as some of my skin, and ruined everything I was wearing, but I shoveled horse turd off a trailer and somehow ended knee deep in the stuff O_O ewwww. Lots of little bugs then decided to bite me cause I had been dgging through their moist warm poopie home, and were not pleased I had disturbed them. All I can say is thank goodness I had a change of clothes and didn't have to catch the bus smelling of poo.

Trivia #1
What's the name of this potion?
This potion has the colour of molten gold, and while exposed to the air, large drops will leap like goldfish above the surface without spilling.

Felix Felicis Potion would be that one

Trivia #2
Which book is this line from?
"Harry and Cho were now too embarrassed to look at each other, let alone talk to each other; what if Ron and Hermione started going out together, then split up? Could their friendship survive it? Harry remembered the few weeks when they had not been talking to each other in third year; he had not enjoyed trying to bridge the distance between them. And then, what if they didn't split up? What if they became like Bill and Fleur, and it became excrutiatingly embarrassing to be in their presence, so that he was shut out for good?"

Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince

Who utters these words?
"Oh I am glad I'm not on duty. I wouldn't fancy having to go and tell the Irish they've got to stop celebrating."

Twould be Arthur Weasley at the Quidditch World Cup

bleakoptimism — Sat, 05 May 2007 13:59:55 GMT

Coven was good, but had the floor not been wet and icky I would have been ripping my boots off, Oh how nice that would have been, but I also knew that once they came off, they would not want to go back on. Could have done without the staircase from hell, or the rain, but oh well. Could have done with reaching the drunkie drunk threshold, but twas not gonna happen for long.

I don't understand people, I've been one for about 26 1/2 years, but I still jsut don't get it.

On the other hand, although I have had to drop from the swapping itself, I am still there to do my huffliepufflie duty

"You will have your reward, Wormtail. I will allow you to perform an essential task for me, one that many of my followers would give their right hands to perform..." Who is speaking? 5 House Points Awarded

That would be Lord Voldemort speaking to Peter Pettigrew that would be there.

Whippet puppy dog :)

bleakoptimism — Sat, 28 Apr 2007 04:41:13 GMT

Well this looks like a cool movie and they gave me a whippet so yay. Atleast soemthing has made me relatively cheery. Money sucks and so do a vast majority of people. Blarg

Meep

bleakoptimism — Fri, 27 Apr 2007 06:06:22 GMT

Holy crapoli, I am knitting a scarf and just realised I have forgotten how to cast off, sheesh I am either going to have to keep knitting forever and ever, or pull out one of my nifty books and check, which is probably the easiest to do

Friday goodness

bleakoptimism — Fri, 27 Apr 2007 05:03:25 GMT

I am less sore now, and might I just say Cascade Sparkling Apple Juice ROCKS!!!! Oh god it was too fizzy to drink so I had to lick the bubbles off the side of the bottle, mmmm apple flavoured bubbles.

Been a lazy bum bum the last few days, but I can so I will :D Lots of stuff to do, also good to get motivated to hang out a wash after you do it so everyones undies aren't soggy in the morning 0:) oopsie, thank goodness for the 'hidden stash'

On to my awesome sock swap, I need to do the Trivia Question, which is odd seeing as I am a hufflepuff prefect and checking my own blog, 50 points to Hufflepuff I say!!!!

"There is nothing worse than death, Dumbledore!" "You are quite wrong. Indeed, your failure to understand that there are things much worse than death has always been your greatest weakness."
- Dumbledore (that bit is easiest) and Voldemort/Mr Riddle/He who must not be named... blah blah whatever the hell ya wanna call the guy, and it is from The Order of the Pheonix, which will be on at the cinemas soon :D

Ok off to prod my hufflepuffarians into doing what they need to

Working for the man...

bleakoptimism — Wed, 25 Apr 2007 05:43:51 GMT

Oh lordy lord, I am so sore, Started working on Monday, then got old to come back on Tuesday, I can't remember it being so hard to get out of bed for some time. My hands are all black and there is car paint that seems to have melded under my nails, not to mention I sliced my fingers before I really started when I picked up a car door to put on some stand things and it had sharp metal bits from the mould and they got filled up with crap both days OW Might I add, paint thinner hurts when it gets in open wounds!
Day 1 - Was slow and sanded back the primer on a new back hatch and only got both sides done (so slow - poop) but it got done and got painted on one side on Monday night, yay I didn't screw it up I don't think
Day 2 - worked on the '53 Voxhaul and pulled off the door rubbers, scraped back the glue left, used a LOT of thinner to get paint/goop off (think I was getting high towards the end hahaha) and sanded everything and thinnered and sanded and thinnered and sanded some more, got 1 1/2 doors done.

So sore, and I don't think my hands will ever forgive me for this. Oh well. Off to play some WoW and do stuff

Rainy Wednesday

bleakoptimism — Wed, 18 Apr 2007 07:43:56 GMT

Woot got some work coming my way, hard crappy work, but probably cash in hand, and if I do ok at it, then it could be a permanent thing, ohhh yes I could be a grease monkey in training. Get me a spanner, hand me the overalls and lets get covered in muck!

Something most of my friends list won't understand so completely ignore:

Hogwarts Sock Kit Swap

"You know what, Harry? If he doesn't stop trying to save your life he's going to kill you." Who said this and about whom? 5 House Points Awarded

Ron said this to Harry about Dobby in the the second book The Chamber of Secrets

I have been busy crafting all day and have 3 swaps almost ready to send out. I almost hate making things for people incase they don't like it.

The weather is getting far more poo, booo to winter, boo I say!

Monday

bleakoptimism — Mon, 16 Apr 2007 00:52:21 GMT

Monday morning, my heade is pounding like it has been the last 2 days when I woke up, but today I won't take painkillers, it better go away soon though.

Yesterday I woke up and some icky wee beastie had bitten me on the eyelid, thus resulting in a rather unplesant swelling of the eye, which was a freaky way to wake up "honey I can't open my eye, what's wrong" Most of the swelling has gone down, and I don't look freaky anymore (well no more than normal).

Saturday the lovely snipribbon came knocking on my door with her company and a packet of tim-tams, oh but who could resist. Was a lovely afternoon indeed as she seemed far more interested in my garden and crafts than Patsi does... he tries, the enthusiasm is just not there much unless I am gluing and painting minatures or terrain.

The Hogwarts Sock Kit Swap
Yes, I don't have a clue how to knit socks, but that seems to not matter, I can knit, socks are just new curve up from scarves and toy dinosaurs, and I feel a renewed bout of harry fever coming on >:)

Washing and other domestic things to do today, just going to cross my fingers this headache subsides

bleakoptimism — Sat, 14 Apr 2007 12:44:30 GMT

The sorting hat says that I belong in Hufflepuff!

Said Hufflepuff, "I'll teach the lot, and treat them just the same."

Hufflepuff students are friendly, fair-minded, modest, and hard-working. A well-known member was Cedric Digory, who represented Hogwarts in the most recent Triwizard Tournament.

Take the most scientific Harry Potter
Quiz ever created.

Get Sorted Now!

It was close, this one Ravenclaw almost won, but badger power won, hey badger are cool, noone messes with a badger. Would have probably prefered to be a ravenclaw, but what the sorting hat says goes right?

bleakoptimism — Thu, 12 Apr 2007 08:07:30 GMT

Easter egg hunts with little kids rock, their faces when they were told the Easter Bunny had made a quick stop by and they had to go egg hunting, and the thrill when they found them. Enjoying those moments with other peoples childres rocks, you get the cool stuff without the crappy nappies and such.

Anyhow this told me I had to post this for getting it filled out, so here goes...

Post a comment and I will:
1) Tell you why I friended you.
2) Associate you with a song/film.
3) Tell a random fact about you.
4) Tell a first memory about you.
5) Associate you with a character/pairing.
6) Ask something I've always wanted to know about you.
7) Tell you my favourite user picture of yours.
8) In retribution, you must repost this.

Time to go cook some dindins.

bleakoptimism — Fri, 22 Sep 2006 19:46:52 GMT

Ok at the request of some, I will post some pictures, the new stuff is uploaded here Pictures of boringness, lots from the zoo, and for all you sickos out there, here is a taste, the first two reminded me of elrando

This here is a pair of evil cows

Oh No LJ cut sorry, be glad I didn't post the lot on here, just the link to the album, Oh and I am now the proud mother of This Little Lass
Canada is funky

Shooting Men

bleakoptimism — Thu, 14 Sep 2006 17:16:45 GMT

Just to prove it wasn't me here is a piccy and article, oh god its going to get stupid now, he was a "goth" because he had a vampire freaks account..
Quote:"Work sucks ... school sucks ... life sucks ... what else can I say? Metal and Goth kick ass. Life is a video game, you've got to die sometime."
http://www.citynews.ca/news/news_3542.aspx
blah blah blahdy blah

dooblies

bleakoptimism — Wed, 13 Sep 2006 22:42:20 GMT

WellI have been reading everyones posts, just been lazy about my own :)
Canada is coolness, except for the wierd differences like not a single power point here has a switch on it, nope, you just rip everything out of the socket... O_o
Been doing losts of stuff, Had dinner in a fancy revolving restraunt, went up the CN tower which is apparently the worlds tallest building apparently at 553m, and they have a glass floor on one level, that was kinda scary standing almost 350m above the ground and looking straight down.
Saw Crank at the movies last night, was wierd, but cool, lots of gore and gratuitous action, found out Scarborough is not the place to leave your payments on the dinner table after a meal, or your car window down, not that anything happened, just a few rules, like if you pass through Gagebrook, don't get out of the car. Weather here this week is a bit poo, but hey thats Autumn for you, be good to go stright from end of summer into spring, hehe. I was told not to bring soft fuzzy things back on the plane by my mother or they'd get destroyed, but I can't find anything online about it, and I don't want to leave my Moosies :'( *cry cry*
Oh and I am staying until October 1st now, so no coven for me *cry cry some more*, but I hope we can all do something festive involving updates and alcohol and merriment k :D

Peektures

bleakoptimism — Fri, 01 Sep 2006 18:31:41 GMT

Well I am alive and well, I finally got some sunburn :( booo.
I uploaded my pics and they can be found Right Here.
Just as a teaser I shall excite you all with the filth that is Willy Dog

MWAHAHAHAHA
Goth shops here aren't that exciting, just lots of them with the usual Lip Service and Demonia stuff etc, just bigger ranges and there is a bunch of them all withing 2 bloacks of one another, almost every goth friendly store is on Queen Street West, which makes it easy, but hell I tell you my feet got sore walking around everywhere on Wednesday, saw pot smoking street artists, evil seagulls of doom, some scary black dude, preaching very loudly about Christmas and New Years, and I didn't hear the rest cause I ran away. Some manky homeless dude on the subway creeped me out, then I transfered to go south and a dude wearing a t-shirt with a Mr Men on it creeped me out cause he was like late 30's and it said Mr Bubble O_o
I finally got sunburnt and I think I am getting a tan, this lovely UV mild sun is lulling me into a false sense of security I think.

bleakoptimism — Mon, 28 Aug 2006 16:28:22 GMT

Well productive weekend, Saturday had some time to kill, 3 hours to be exact while Travis' car was having a window fixed, so I got to go to a propper mall, booyah, that fucker was huge, but I can now say I have been to a Wal-Mart which was good as they sold Firefly boxset for $25!!!! I saw a hamster and they had budgies in a petshop and I walked a lot, then sat and laughed at funny suburban people hehehe. Got car, came back here for a quick pit stop, and then off to Niagra Falls, wootage, that was cool, I got a bit wet, and the Canadian Side of the falls is way bigger and meaner than the US side, haha in your face america. I thought I was going to go insane from tourists >.< Lots of wetness from watching the falls, I got me a moose, then went and had something to eat in a place called Ferkins, a european styled pub, but they had a big Fosters flag >.< ewwwww
I was absolutely buggered, and slept in til like 2pm on Sunday, didn't do much else.
I was awoken by phone I am using here going off and it being another wrong number (had like 10 in the last week) and foolishly I answered it, and got chatted up, some dude telling me he knew how to operate a kangaroo and did I want to go for a drink some time, so I hung up in the fuckers ear >.>

1. YOUR MOVIE STAR NAME: (grandmother's/father's first name + favorite snack):
Daisy Twisty

2. YOUR FASHION DESIGNER NAME: (first word you see on your left + favorite restaurant)
Home Anatolia

3. YOUR SOCIALITE NAME: (silliest childhood nickname + first town where you partied):
Scurve Hobart

4. YOUR "FLY GIRL/GUY" NAME: (first initial + first three letters of your last name):
Lnad

5. YOUR DETECTIVE NAME: (favorite animal + name of high school):
Giraffe Ogilvie

6. YOUR BARFLY NAME: (last snack food you ate + your favorite drink):
Turtle Zero

7. YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME: (middle name + street where you first lived):
Anne Quail

8. YOUR

ROCK STAR NAME: (favorite candy + favorite 'popular' musicians last name):
Old Gold Spears

9. YOUR OPPOSITE SEX NAME: (name of [opposite sex] friend + cell phone company you use):
Nick Optus / Nick Rogers

10. YOUR STAR WARS NAME: ( first 3 letters of your last name+ last 3 letters of mothers middle name /+/ first 3 letters of your pets name + first 3 letters of the town you live in):
Nadley Phetor /Nadley Phehob

Ride the Rocket

bleakoptimism — Fri, 25 Aug 2006 17:38:55 GMT

Well last 2 days I seen a squirrel in the backyard when I was out having a smoke, he's pretty cool, I like him, watched him clean for a bit and then he ran off over rooftops.
Yesterday I spent the afternoon in bed after colliding with a particulary nasty pice of pointy metal that I collided with, it made a nice big eggy wegg on my head and I felt a bit funny, so I took some pain killers and slept it off, now I think I just have a bruise, the egg-man has gone away. Despite being a boring turnip all afternoon, in the evening I went on the subway... ohhh wheee, well not as such, it was just underground trains, and street cars are like trams... but their tokens are wierd ass.
Anyway after I "Rode the Rocket" I went to the big HMV store downtown and found me a goth/industrial section for CD's... just purely dedicated to it, I even found IKON in there, Combichrist, VNV, Covenant... fuck just about everything I could have wanted
I came away with Kidney Thieves - Zerospace, Gothika 2CD of remixed covered songs, M.S.I-Frankenstein Girls Will Seem Strangely Sexy (faggot!!!) and MDDMK's nameless album, and there was sooo much more I wanted, but I couldn't decide, then the cashier asked me "Did you find everything You were looking for?" hahaha I laughed, but for the delightful snipribbon I founded the Hedwig and the Angry Inch soundtrack, so the movie is probably there somewhere too! Caught the street car to China Town and had dinner at some Vietnamese place, which was tasty, but I had to do the stupid white girl thing and eat with a fork, my vermeceli kept running away, I could only eat my pork and spring roll bits with the chopsticks *hides under the table*
Umm thats about it. It rained for the first time since I have been here, and as of tonight it will have been a whole week. If the weather is good will probably be going to Niagra Falls on the weekend, ohhh lets hope I don't injure myself or fall over or anything dumbass like that ^_^;;

bleakoptimism — Wed, 23 Aug 2006 16:40:32 GMT

You can buy KMFDM on the shelf in the rock section of chain store music departments for like $20. Imagine walking into K-Mart and picking up Siouxsie, KMFDM, NIN backcatalogue etc.... its way cool, I am going to go to HMV at some point and drool over CD's mmmmmmmmmm

bleakoptimism — Tue, 22 Aug 2006 20:08:13 GMT

I found Dr Pepper... BOOYAH!!!!!

bleakoptimism — Tue, 22 Aug 2006 17:13:46 GMT

Nothing much to report since yesterday, getting into the swing of this timezone difference stuff, today is going to be oficially LAZY DAY!!! I am going to the shop for smokes, a lighter and some milk, looking in a bookshop... and that is about it.

Pizza joint down the road serves vegetable sticks with .... liquified blue cheese, damn that stuff is good, and I am not even a fan of blue cheese, but to put it into a good gooey liquid form is perfect.

My skin is not friends with the weather change and humidity, I have spots everwhere... ok not everywhere, but they are rampant... bleh.

I would love to hear an aussie accent.