Just Keep a Hold On Me

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blackjacks — Fri, 20 Mar 2009 17:59:26 GMT

lol idk. I was bored. Here you can tell me what you want me to say if I make another one. Maybe I'll even SING!
....lol or not

blackjacks — Sun, 23 Nov 2008 05:03:11 GMT

Today was one of the best days of my life. I woke up around eight, but I was feeling lazy, so I didn't really get up until 10:30. I had french fries for breakfast, then I went to the Y. Steph had this get together where we all played on a giant inflatable slide and inflatable obstacle course. It ended up just being me, her, Brad, Joe, Caitlin, and Pat Coit, oddly enough. We jumped around and slid and raced and just lay around and it was fabulous and we were all six years old again. Steph sprayed the slide with Pledge so it would be super slippery, and it was amazing, and I even managed to run UP it once!!! It was epic. But of course, there were giant-inflatable-slide burns. lol. I have one of my hip, and one on my elbow, but whatever. And when we weren't playing, we were dancing around like fools or beating the crap out of each other with giant Q-tips. An epic afternoon overall.

Then it was time for stage crew. We really don't do much of anything, so we just sat wayyy down the hallway while I read everybody crap from the College Humor Guide to College Book. NEVER accept a backscratch from a boy. NEVER EVER! haha. And then Steph gave me a makeover.
Steph and I snuck in the back of the auditorium to see the crucifixion - it gave me the chills, ngl. Though it could also have been the fact that the fence was rattling and little kids were singing, and it kinda creeped me out. idk

Thennnn we air banded for like ten minutes - Steph, Caitlin and I just danced around. It was fun. Any day you dance more than you walk is a very good day, imo. Then we went to Friendly's and were really obnoxious and ate ice cream and it was just wonderful.

Today was a day where I just really loved all of my friends. It was an awesome day, and I am going to miss everyone. Even though I guess there won't be anyone to miss except all my underclassmen friends. Pm all of us are going to Boston or near it - Steph, me, Caitlin, Brad, and JOE! because he is NOT ditching us for the South anymore. You have NO IDEA how happy this makes me.

This summer is going to be epic - just great days like this, all day, every day.

and now with that lovely thought, I think I am going to go to bed. I mean, I DO have to be there tomorrow at 11:30! haha

blackjacks — Sun, 08 Jun 2008 21:34:43 GMT

so I never update....whatever
I guess this is the opposite of last year, when I was all, "omg let's post FOUR TIMES A DAY!"
cause really, no one cares about my random ramblings about stalkers. lol

so it's fucking roasting here....and it was cold and rainy 2 days ago! stupid New England weather
at least I have an AC in my room
I'm never coming out!
haha

and now I'm really hungry, but idk what to eat
we have hot dogs, but no ketchup. BOO!
and everything else requires too much thought
um....maybe spaghetti? idk
but enough about what I'm going to have for dinner. lol

Within the last like three days, I've REALLY gotten into the Beatles, and I kinda feel like a poser now. idk why
it's not like ANY people my age can be all, "well, I knew them when they weren't famous!"
or any of that shit
I'm just weird, I guess
but whatever
they're really really catchy, and making me happy
so idc

so yea...that's my life right now
FOUR MORE DAYS! then two finals
then I'm DONE!
FINALLY!

and being able to wear shorts and a tshirt to school tomorrow and monday is making me WAY too happy
my life is small, I suppose

and I realized that I might be able to upload vids from my camera onto like youtube or something! the thought just hit me like yesterday.....now I just need to find the cord and see if I'm right
if I am....oh man, the stupid crap I might do.....haha

I really need to go to the bookstore...I am in dire need of new things to read
I should do that tomorrow

guess I'm done now

is it possible for the world to look this way forever?

blackjacks — Fri, 18 Apr 2008 23:53:25 GMT

I spent today with Marina...as I spend most of my days now....lol
and we wonder why people talk....
haha

anyways, today was gorgeous - 80 degrees, but not humid AT ALL
perfect beach weather, I think

I'm getting into Jack's Mannequin now
I really really like music with a lot of pianos, but I don't listen to enough of it

I'm getting mozzerella sticks! yay
but I'm in this mood where I just...DON'T wanna eat...ya know?
the mere idea of putting food in my mouth right now is just....not appealing. not one bit

I should write more.....I'm seriously my worst critic, then I feel ridiculous, then I don't write
I should just get over that

so....yea
I'm just laying here on my bed....the house is silent and empty....but not for long
birds were singing
all is right in the world

have a good vacation everyone!

blackjacks — Sun, 02 Mar 2008 05:39:28 GMT

Can I just say that I love Ellen DeGeneres?
Not trying to be....anything
I just agree with what she said

blackjacks — Thu, 14 Feb 2008 22:32:27 GMT

that says it all.
I love Valentine's Day - it's like Halloween - only you don't have to dress up! I don't get why people get so bent out of shaper over it. Honestly

So.....nothing much is going on. Just school, life, stuff. Vacation starts TOMORROWW!!!!!!! I am SO pumped! Steph, Dubey and I are going to see Jumper - ahhhhh. haha
Then....a week cram packed full of action! Driving lessons, sleepovers, dropping eggs - hopefully I'll get some time to breathe in there. haha
I guess that's it.......for now
hope you guys got lots of love and chocolate!

blackjacks — Mon, 04 Feb 2008 05:32:50 GMT

I don't know what to say
Things just....are
damn Pats LOST the freaking Super Bowl. booo
(and I don't even like football)
and I think I'm everything I hate
I'm super bitchy, I"m vague, I AM an obnoxious 12 year old, I can be a hypocrite, I'm uppity, I'm gossipy
ok...maybe not everything (for one, I'm not slutty)
just some things
so I guess that means I don't really hate them
cause I don't hate myself
not by a looong shot!
so...um...I guess that's it

(not EVERY day can be a rant. jeeeeeeeeeez)
haha

AHEM

blackjacks — Tue, 29 Jan 2008 02:31:03 GMT

Panic at the Disco has a NEW SONG UP!!!!!!!!!!!
on their myspace
I HEART IT! so much
I can't stop listening to it
go listen
make your ears happy
the end
DO IT!

blackjacks — Mon, 28 Jan 2008 23:09:52 GMT

today was a REALLY GOOD day
out of dress code for mock trial, and I got to miss physics!
No matter that we lost the trial...whatever. It was just 6 points. And I got NINE OUT OF TEN points! on my first trial EVERRRR!!!!
do you know how happy that makes me???? woo!
that's really all I wanted to say today
now who's ready to get TACKY? haha

today was a total waste of clean clothes

blackjacks — Sun, 20 Jan 2008 23:53:24 GMT

yay! midterms are over! (did I already say that?)
I went to bed around 3 THIS MORNING, so I'm a little wonky right now. ugh
AND my cousin's here. I don't wanna say I'm anti-my family but.....I'm anti-my family. They are....bleh
I prefer to think I'm an alien, or I sprung fully formed from the ocean. ANYTHING
plus, she still likes Hannah Montana. She's TWELVE. That is NOT ACCEPTABLE. haha
Anyways....I went to Wrentham yesterday - YAY new jeans! I had to buy them "tall," which I find funny cause I'm only 5"8 (ok, so I'm taller than Tom Cruise and 95% of the women in Hollywood...but STILL! I'm shorter than Brad, Katherine, Joe....basically lots of people. haha)
urghjlfksdjigenfij.......I'm mad.
but I'm not telling, cause then you'd think I'm an evil selfish bitch. More so than usual.
so there! *sticks out tongue*

and I got my hair cut. Google Christopher Gorham. When he had long hair? It looks just. like. that.
Even when I try to look like a girl, I STILL look like a fucking boy. jesus
(not that that's a bad thing)

blackjacks — Fri, 18 Jan 2008 04:03:33 GMT

so I just watched Mean Girls...wow I love that movie! haha
but the end just made me kinda mad
SCHOOL DANCES ARE NOT LIKE THAT!!!!!
they're messy with crappy music and lots of drama. More people crying and less people wearing shoes.
Or maybe that's just the people I know...we can be a pretty dramatic bunch.
ha
so that was it
PreCalc midterm I didn't study for tomorrow! oh joy
I'll be ok though
I hope

blackjacks — Wed, 16 Jan 2008 01:11:51 GMT

two midterms down, four to go!
I totally rocked out Mr. Macek's essays.
So I just spent the past half an hour reading ALL my old LJ entries. A year in my life, chronicled for the world (ok, like 7 people) to see. Whoaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.
It made me realize a few things:
-I've actually grown up quite a bit
-I repeat myself. A LOT
-I really like bright colors. REALLY.
so....yea (oh, yea, I say that a lot too. haha)
The rest of this week should be pretty chil
Physics study party at Marina's tomorrow? hells yes! Even though it probably won't help. Can she just give me a 50 and be done with it?
So Caitlin's writing a semi - biographical book about us. That should be pretty fun. It's turning out pretty dramatic - cause we ARE pretty dramatic! haha. I think someone should get married in Vegas. That would be pretty kickass. haha
so I've been online for like FIVE HOURS (!)
and my back/legs hurt
and AI is on (yes, you can make fun of me. But I don't care - not much else is on!)
so....peace out, girl scout!

blackjacks — Fri, 11 Jan 2008 03:55:48 GMT

I should be sleeping, dreaming of Amish kids and other weird crap, but I'm sitting on my bed - very much awake. ack
Fingers crossed that the cast list is up tomorrow! Though I doubt it - it'd be nice, right?
Today someone threw a Diet Coke can from the 3rd floor girls bathroom down to where Nate and I and some other people were standing. Nate got hit in the head and soda got all over my skirt. We're all fine, but we couldn't find who did it so we could kick some ass. poop
Ugly Betty was new tonight (*happydance*) and it made me realize - I could never be a model. Cause I'm too fat. That is just disgusting. When a size four is considered fat......argh. that's just messed up, man
so yea...I guess that's my mini - PSA for the day. haha
My eyes are starting to hurt - that's my cue to try to sleep.
but Panic at the Disco (no ! anymores kiddies) are headlining the Honda Civic Tour this year - possibly with The Hush Sound??? AWESOME!!!!
(yes, I'm sooo dorky, I know)

Title? who needs a stinkin' title?

blackjacks — Tue, 08 Jan 2008 00:34:49 GMT

so I auditioned today, and it was nowhere near as bad as I thought it'd be (though Adia and Katie and whoever else dancing helped =] )
ahh.......FRIDAY!?!?! crazy
it so doesn't feel like Monday. More like...Wednesday or something. I wrote Friday on my history notes; I think I'm cracking up. haha
now I'm procrastinating - physics review? no such thing!
religion test - what?
history assignments - what's that?
um....yea
I should probably get to all of that
and someone STOLE MY PHYSICS BOOK!!!!! *shockhorrordisaster*
whoever did it must be Houdini or something, cause my locker is one of the few that actually closes all the way, and I keep it locked. ack
nah...I probably left it in the classroom.
we shall see tomorrow! *dramatic music*
I NEED TO GO!!!!!!!!!!!
farewell for now
*is off in a flourish*

(um...I seriously need help. I find all of the above slightly hysterical)
PS: have you ever read Mugglenet's Wall of Shame? I'm dying over here.

blackjacks — Fri, 04 Jan 2008 23:55:33 GMT

ahhh I'm making mac and cheese, and I just went in the kitchen and there was SMOKE EVERYWHERE!!!
except it was just steam
then I freaked out and spilled a bunch of the noodles on the floor
wow

that wasn't how I was going to start this, but anywho...
2008, eh? I guess this'll be a big year for me - turning 17, starting my senior year of highschool. But I don't know...things never seem to go as planned for me. ugh
but I made resolutions! Does anyone actually do that anymore? seriously...I never do. But I figured, what the hell. Here they are:
1) stop being so damn angry! In case no one noticed, I was mad a lot. It's not really who I am - I need to chill out more
2) stop being so neurotic about everything. I'm a professional nervous-breakdown haver. It's stupid - I need to stop
those are really the two big ones. There's the superficial "like omg I need to lose weight!" one (but in my case, it's more like gain muscle - haha) and some other things I've been working on for a while (like swearing - I don't really do it anymore! yay!)
so I guess things are ok now - physics is still impossible, but the year is almost halfway over! woohoo

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!! (even though it's a little belated. ha)

oh, and the macaroni I mentioned? When I went to put butter in it, I stupidly put the plastic lid of the tub on the HOT BURNER!!!! there is now a gray circle of melted plastic on the stove. oh joy
I'm so stupid

Can you believe...

blackjacks — Sun, 30 Dec 2007 03:04:33 GMT

that I'm already sick of vacation? Christmas is over - let's just go back to school!
ok...maybe I don't mean that. I'm really not ready for Macek or Physics or midterms 4 days in a row (*dies*) - I just miss everybody! But I don't think they miss me - I haven't gotten a single phone call, text, or IM. hmph. Guess my New Year's shall be spent alone on the couch. again
But I'm not really mad - just bored out of my freaking mind. I'm an only child. My mom likes to go to the gym. A LOT. My dad works. I'm home alone. It's really boring. And seriously - "500 channels and there's nothing on" isn't just an expression. IT HAPPENS!
Thank God for the Internet, or I would have jumped off my porch just to see if the snowbanks would soften the fall. ha
But even that gets boring! ack.
Which brings me back to the beginning of all this - school. At least there, I know what to expect (for the most part), and have people to talk to.
So yea....three more days. I'm counting.
I think that's it
oh, and I'm painting my new room BRIGHT YELLOW!!! yay

Happy Festivus!

blackjacks — Mon, 24 Dec 2007 04:10:47 GMT

but only for one more hour.ha
it's raining.....I like the sound it makes against my windows. it's...peaceful
so today the parents and I went to IHOP. lord I love that place
and then I did nothing - wrapped some presents, talked online....blaaaaah
so tomorrow goes as follows:
-probably get up when dad leaves to go to work (yea, my dad has to work on christmas eve. sucky, eh?)
-do paper for spanish - email to ms. nelson (as attachment or copy and paste? still don't know)
-hang around and be lazy - but not for long
-clean room for "santa"
-bake cookies/help mom make coquito?
-drop off presents at grandma's house
-get ready for dad's friends's christmas party
-above mentioned party
-go to other grandma' s house at around 9PM (after church)
-go home around 11ish
-exchange pjs
-go to bed
-try to sleep (I'm like a little kid; I can't sleep on christmas eve...still)
-then...........CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!!!! *happydance*

so as you can see, very very busy. I probably should have started some of this today, but too late to do anything now

hope everyone's christmas is very merry, and if you go shopping the day after, I hope you don't get trampled and find lots of great bargains
I should probably go to bed now - if I want to complete the above list tomorrow
night!

PS: I saw I Am Legend yesterday - it was pretty good, but sad. really good special effects

blackjacks — Thu, 20 Dec 2007 02:58:58 GMT

today I passed out my presents - HOMEMADE COOKIES, YAY!!! Everyone liked them, which made me happy....but now all the cookies at my house are gone =( I need to make some more.
and then I got a text from Lauren asking me if we had had school today, cause someone told her that we didn't. I shouldn't find that funny, but I do. I mean, did she not check the news??? ack
Anyways...it's SNOWING! or at least, it was. *happydance* We haven't had a white Christmas in a while.....this should be fun.
and...OIJKFDjsIOJNFKDSLFJKDSLMF Christmas is in FIVE DAYS!!!!!!!!! omigosh. I'm still like 4 when it comes to Christmas. I can't get to sleep on Christmas Eve, then I'm up at like 6. It's ridiculous.......but I love it.
The sad thing is, I already know basically everything I'm getting (cause I peeked - I'm sooo bad): some books, makeup, a combo CD/cassette/record player, pajamas, and a stuffed giraffe
I just hope there's more than that - I'm pretty sure there is.
TOMORROW LAST SCHOOL DAY OF THE YEAR!!! omigossshhhhh
haha
I'm not making any sense anymore - I'm too hyper
what the hell is going on with drama?!?!!?!?!?!?!?!?
and my cat is only half shaved (long story) and he's trying to keep warm - it's sad

oh, and this is random, but I was looking at this list of the 100 sexiest celebrities - and ZAC EFRON WAS RANKED SEXIER THAN JAMES DEAN!!!! I was appalled

and I forgot how much I liked this song

blackjacks — Fri, 22 Jun 2007 18:27:18 GMT

I'm not sick anymore! woo! just in time for my big partaaaaaaay weekend - but the weather has me worried.
*crosses fingers* please don't rain on Sunday

anyways, I'm just sitting here.....and my bike is next to me. It's taunting me, "go for a ride!" But I can't. Besides the fact that it's raining, the tires are flat. argh. When I move I'm finding a park and going to ride my bike ALL the time - I don't do it as often as I'd like.

Wow...this is the first FULL week of summer, and yet it feels like we've been out forever.

um......this was basically pointless. whatever

blackjacks — Wed, 13 Jun 2007 14:16:41 GMT

no more chem!
no more Mr. Gravel!
no more Mr. Paul!

I DID IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Today was a good day

blackjacks — Tue, 05 Jun 2007 01:06:47 GMT

My Spanish project is done (!), I got new music, school's almost over......and someone made an offer on the house!!!!!!!!! yes!

Johnny Depp on an elephant?

blackjacks — Fri, 01 Jun 2007 23:50:50 GMT

today we FINALLY finished our Spanish project......kinda. I still have to do like 2 tiny things and put it together -but still! And Caitlin's party is tomorrow! This weekend is gonna be fun - good thing, cause next weekend is going to be study filled. ugh. I don't even wanna THINK about it.
I cannot BELIEVE school's over in less than 2 weeks. holy bejesus!
well....pizza calls!

I hope the dare isn't too too bad. I mean, I DO wanna be able to show my face in the world

blackjacks — Wed, 23 May 2007 20:54:53 GMT

These past couple of days have been icky. But I'm trying to get over it and be more positive. I mean, honestly, does it matter what stupid thing I did or said months ago? NO! so I should stop feeling bad about it.
I tried making a list of the best moments of my life, but I could only think of a couple. How sad is that? And really, only one wasn't from this year. ha

anyways....Pirates is Saturday! I'm superpumped...even if I will be in the company of 2 girls wearing shirts that say "I Want Your Booty" . Not to mention the apparantly horrendous dare Adrienne wants me to do. ack.
I used to be innocent before I met that girl! now.....ah! I NEVER should have told her about top or bottom. NEVER. ugh

I think that's itfernow. the week's almost over! YAY! except for on Friday it's supposed to be NINETY and we're all gonna be in the gym. funnnnnn

the word of the day is..."sketchy"

blackjacks — Sun, 20 May 2007 13:32:42 GMT

A bunch of us were at Caitlin's house last night. We FINALLY made it through The Shining!
but after someone (I think it was me haha) came up the the wonderful idea to play Truth or Dare. funnnnn! only not really. Stupid me picks truth, and Adrienne asks THE question. I answer and she doesn't believe me! honestly, what's the point of asking a question if you're not gonna believe the answer? and now she has me second-guessing myself. *facepalm* ugh
Everyone else's life is an episode of Degrassi - does mine have to be too?

yea I know, it's supervague

singing cards = AWESOME!

blackjacks — Tue, 15 May 2007 20:38:43 GMT

school's almost over! but not soon enough....argh
this year has been the worst year of my life, academically speaking, but the best in every other way. So I guess they balance out. I just need to stop the the self-loathing - EVERYONE says stupid shit all the time.
it's no big deal
I should probably stop running into things, too. My face still hurts from yesterday. ow