Wanna Always Feel like part of this was mine

bittybecky — Mon, 23 Oct 2006 16:02:08 GMT

Confessions of a Failed Fashionista

Something intersting I ran across in my daily wanderings.

Move along....nothing to see here

bittybecky — Wed, 11 Oct 2006 15:37:37 GMT

Something I’ve noticed in the recent months is that I’m sadly slipping away from LJ. My coms seem to have slackened off and my time to devote to keeping up with all of it has dwindled to something nearly nonexistent. It makes me profoundly sad to admit to myself that soon I may have no more use for it all. Even my Myspace has suffered. Anyhow, that’ll figure itself out one way or the other.

So an update on the past few days. Got notice on Monday that my term is extended through December. Went on a celebratory shopping spree at Woodfield with Christie. Enjoyed it, but was still finding it difficult to pull myself out of the funk I've been in over this job for almost a month. Enjoyed Cheesecake Factory scrumptiousness in celebration. Planted flower bulbs yesterday morning, returned home yesterday afternoon to see the squirrel munching on my bulbs. He had dug up half the pretty black irises I planted. DRAT! I retrieved the anti-squirrel device (an old aluminum bat) while Dad laid out mousetraps to catch the bushy tailed rat. Mom and I checked them this morning, they were thankfully empty. Would’ve served him right to catch a skunk or something. There’s a fleet of 7 sleek grey tour buses in our lot this morning for tonight’s Stones concert. It’s gonna be heck getting off campus this afternoon to get home. I smell a fist shaking at the CTA coming on. Skipped down to the President’s address which was surprisingly informative and non-dull.

I get to keep my JOB!!!!

bittybecky — Mon, 09 Oct 2006 14:17:10 GMT

Dad left the coffee on the burner this morning so by the time I got to my second cup it was bitter sludge, ick. Couldn’t figure out what to wear cuz I wanted to dress nicely today (not jeans) and all the pants that were clean are black. All the shirts that are clean are either black or the fall/winter stuff I had two years ago before I left for Memphis which are now out dated and too big. Nothing fits and even some of my belts are no longer doing the trick. I keep forgetting to weigh myself, it’ll be very gratifying to finally see how much I’ve lost. Although there’s something to be said for maintaining a steady weight-you actually have something to wear when you look in your closet. Vive le stairs and their slimming properties!

Passed the staging area for the Columbus Day parade this morning. Festive crepe paper draped Nina, Pinta and Santa Marias lined the LSD this morning. It was an odd sight.

And While I was writing this, the most wonderful news of all: I can STAY!!!!!!

I GET TO KEEP MY JOB!!!!

Apple cookies

bittybecky — Fri, 06 Oct 2006 14:41:58 GMT
Went apple picking yesterday. Took forever, stupid mapquest gave us bogus directions so we drove around on 64 forever. Gave up and went to the Plank Road orchard. It was fun, less than as cool as the other place was supposed to be but still nifty. We picked tons of apples-a 5lb bag of tasty crisp looking apples. I brought one for a snack today so we'll see how it actually tastes. Got some gross apple cider there too. It tasted like apple cider vinegar, wretched. Ewa popped into the library yesterday to visit, yay! I haven't seen her in ages. She brought pictures from the wedding and a book about Marie Antoinette I'm borrowing. Looks pretty good. Fighting with the external hard drive now so I must dash.

Just call me, Bond....James Bond

bittybecky — Wed, 04 Oct 2006 17:20:07 GMT
Ever had a moment in a meeting when your brain glitches and you hope to holy heck that no one noticed? I ask because it happened to me earlier this week. I’m sitting in a meeting, discussing our communication initiatives when a coworker’s shirt sleeve rode up, revealing a previously unseen tattoo circling his right bicep. Upon noting said anomaly my brain kicked into foolish unadulterated lust mode (I’m such a sucker for a tasteful tattoo) and I had a ga-ga moment that made me feel like a pubescent teenager. I have to giggle about it cuz that is so outside the realm of possibility.

Spent yesterday running around Stratford looking for a dress to wear to Jess’s wedding. Upon shopping with Shivangi for something for her I came to a sad conclusion that the one I was planning to wear was way too fancy, so I launched into a search. Ended up spending almost an hour at Forever 21 while we tried on practically every appropriate dress they had, and some inappropriate ones. The fitting room lady was super nice and helpful, finding us all kinds of stuff we hadn’t seen or hadn’t thought of, even to the point of pulling stuff out of a shipment waiting to go on the racks. I ended up with this fabulous black and white and grey floral print dress with a floofy skirt and tulle peeking from its hem. Bought the new Evanescence, it rocks. Also got two kinds of black dye. Will see how this bridesmaid's dress I've got takes color...I have a costume idea.

Am trying my damnedest to work around not knowing my future here. I’m supposed to be up on Oct 20 but there’s been talk of me staying through December. I want to so badly and this uncertainty is killing me. I was up half the night listening to my heart hammer with nerves. I’m certainly gonna give myself an ulcer over this.

Made a lunch and forgot it, drat! Shall now scamper down to CB for a long line resulting in a tasty expensive and bad for me lunch. Yum!

i want you to want me

bittybecky — Fri, 29 Sep 2006 15:26:56 GMT
I am desirous of a better cup of coffee.

Contact Spaz strikes again

bittybecky — Wed, 27 Sep 2006 14:06:23 GMT
I think my left eye is defective. Any thoughts?

I'm beyond mourning not seeing HIM next month, or Kill Hannah or Lostprophets or Papa Roach. Glum it is.

watch out silly, here i come

bittybecky — Tue, 26 Sep 2006 21:03:40 GMT
Meg and I decided it was too nice of a day to go home after the retreat. So, after we left the windowless conference room we snagged a Herald, traded it for a Sun Times at Union and found a show of Jackass. OMG-that was the funniest movie ever. I haven't laughed that hard in I can't remember when. Got home, watched half the premiere of Heroes and chatted with Christie.

Finished watching it this morning. Drank many cups of sister made coffee-good! Popped over to Tower to pick up a couple magazines and score, they had Escape from Earth (the opening band I liked this weekend). Snagged that then off to the mall to find a thingy to go over my dress to make it fall wedding appropriate. Got a black shawl, not sure if I like it but we'll see. Some lipgloss and a coldstone splurge. Finally figured out why my eye was spazzing-contact in backwards, duh. Now I'm off to eat leftovers and then dash on up to work. Whee. or not.

The Rasmus Rundown

bittybecky — Sat, 23 Sep 2006 23:24:26 GMT
Went to the Rasmus show last night. They were great! All in all it was a pretty tame show- small crowd and no pit. Shivu and I got there late cuz we’re us annnndd cause the red line got stuck for a while. The tornado sirens went off while we were walking over there and it began to pour. We got fully and completely soaked – so wet that the heavy bottoms of our jeans were dragging them down and off all night. The first couple bands were good – I’d never heard of them, even now I don’t remember their names but they were pretty ok. The last opening act – Escape from Earth rocked hard. They were fun. After them, Shivu and I left Nikki to ru n downstairs and call Josh to find out what times the trains left. Milling about downstairs was Dan from Kill Hannah. I managed to not run shrieking up to him like a fangirl thank goodness for that –but mostly I’m too shy to. So I bought a tshirt, we got hold of Joshy and went back up. Sat down for a few seconds then the Rasmus came on. They were incredible! I tried so hard to take pictures that I wasn’t really seeing the show – I thought about all the stuff we discussed in visual class and tried to tuck the camera away. I got some good shots and some really terrible ones – I have got to learn how to use my camera. Towards the end of the set the security guard handed me a pick that hadn’t gotten thrown far enough – it ended up being Escape from Earth’s – mad cool! So, they played Shot, Immortal, First Day of My life, No fear, some others then Johnny Radtke came on and sang In the Shadows with them. It was AmaZING! I screamed then and rocked out like a crazy. I had no idea that Lauri played the guitar part for Immortal it was indescribably sexy – dark and riveting. As if you should be quiet and just listen. They even played a Finnish song, no idea what it meant or anything but it was fun. Lauri is just so cute – bouncy. He seems sweet and maybe a little high maintenance. He never held still long enough to get a picture except when he posed. It was kinda thoughtful, like he knew we wanted pictures and he knew we couldn’t get them. He did indeed have the crow feathers in his hair – all done up and into his persona. I will never understand how he makes that look sooo sexy – feathers in his hair, how does it work? I dunno but it really really does. And on the topic of hair, the poor guitarist kept flipping his poof of curls out of his eyes. I know exactly how he feels and I just wanted to go up there and pull it out of his face. I got a kick out of how little Lauri actually said – I think his English is very thin, it’s somehow endearing. The show ended promptly at 10, we said bye to Nikki then hustled out, caught a cab and managed to catch our respective early trains. So verdict is: It was an awesome show and I’m thrilled beyond measure I got to go!

bittybecky — Fri, 22 Sep 2006 20:47:11 GMT
I need to mainlain caffeine. I'm not gonna make it. I don't even want to think how hard tomorrow's gonna be. I'm soooo sleepy.

Thank you Christie

bittybecky — Fri, 22 Sep 2006 14:17:34 GMT
I have developed a new mantra:

I will not dye my hair.
I will not buy a coat.
I will not smoke.

My hilarious sister left me notes with this scrawled on it, everywhere! On top of my alarm clock, wrapped around my car keys, in my coffee cup, in my hoodie pocket, in my wallet...thank you sister. Let's add one more to that list: I will not remind mother I smoke. The whole morning was spent telling discovery channel special kind of stories about people and their lung cancer or making jokes about the rain putting out my cigarette and smoke getting in her eyes. Mama is not pleased.

But wheeeeee....I get to see the Rasmus tonight!

Stalemate

bittybecky — Mon, 18 Sep 2006 18:47:39 GMT
I’ve been working on our template all morning and have reached our most challenging program year and am therefore at a stalemate. Taking a little brain break to check the friends list, mem what I want to come back to, check the email and-score! They've changed our retreat to a place in the city, a 12 minute walk from the train rather than out in Evanston. Wow, a decision that makes sense for all involved, whudathunk it?

bittybecky — Wed, 13 Sep 2006 01:08:09 GMT
My grandpa just died. On my Daddy's birthday. Sucky. We're sad.

It's Fall!

bittybecky — Sun, 10 Sep 2006 22:24:56 GMT
Tis time to put the tank tops to bed for the winter and pull out my lovely fall clothes. It's been so long since I've gotten to see them. And oh, do they smell fresh. I can still smell the lavender fabric softener I used, mmmm...I'm oh so happy. My closet is happy and all is right with the world.

bittybecky — Wed, 06 Sep 2006 14:15:24 GMT
It’s been one of those mornings. Spilled foundation on my shirt, wiped it off as best I could and thought the vest will cover it. Ate strawberries for breakfast and dropped one on my shirt, it left a nice red pink stain at which point I decided to throw in the towel and change.

Rant:
So I was already aggravated but then Mom starts to prattle on and it just irks me. Everything with her is “god wouldn’t do that” or “have you talked to god yet?” I get so tired of hearing that, you can’t ask her for advice or a problem because her answer is invariably “Trust it in God’s hands, he’ll help you figure it out.” Get off it. She talks like some loopy fanatic. When I was younger she tried to get me to read some stupid book about the Christian life and how the devil is everywhere and we must guard against it, so out there. Of late the statement has been “why is my sister so evil?” Evil, not rotten or bitchy or stupid or mean but evil-like she’s possessed by something that makes her so foul and the sad/funny/scary thing is, she actually believes it. And above that she says she can sense people; that she can tell when people have an evilness about them, that’s what she says: her sister has an evilness about her. Of course she can’t say the word evil like a normal person, she says it how she says all cuss words: weird. She can’t just say Oh fuck, she in fact hardly ever says it and when she does she sucks the last syllable back in so that it’s all stilted and wrong. It drives me up the wall. Since Grandpa has been dying she went up there and she’s been “praying” with him and at one point she even had all her sisters praying with them. But Aunt Peg has told her she shouldn’t do it cuz Grandpa doesn’t like it which sent mom into paroxysms of loathing. How can I blame them, she’s as nuts as can be and even though it hurts her I can’t help but be on their side on this one. When she starts talking about how wonderful church was or how blah blah blah she says now I know you don’t like hearing about this but…yammer yammer anyway. She’s a kook!

Coworker arrived so now I’m off to work-ish.

quote

bittybecky — Tue, 05 Sep 2006 21:12:18 GMT
"You were almost about to use tape, it made me nauseous."-Christie
As I was wrapping the shower present to Jess and Aaron I began to put ribbon on the package and in my proven ineptitude I was removed from bow detail. I will be paying her to bow my christmas gifts cuz we all remember the stick on bow fiasco.

Death by T -Rex

bittybecky — Mon, 04 Sep 2006 23:03:55 GMT
I would also like to draw attention to the fact that the Crocodile Hunter got killed by a sting ray on one of his ridiculous animal escapades. Since that is pretty much as funny as it gets, I would like to remind you all that I want to die by t-rex...start working on it.

annnnddd the weekend

bittybecky — Mon, 04 Sep 2006 22:59:25 GMT
Bummed around on saturday with Ewa...viva la woodfield! Got a Bebe top on killer clearance. Went shopping with Christie that night-got dad his birthday gift and some random other stuff. Sunday daddy and I got up early! early! early! We went fishing!! We did not catch a single thing. But the morning was beautiful, the mist floating over the water and catching the slanting sun rays was breathtaking. Got home to get ready for grandma's 80th birthday. Took her out to celebrate, she was loopy and the cake Aunt Peggy made tasted horrid. Mom said that the recipe she made (some graham cracker thingy)isn't normally fantastic but that woman canNOT cook. Dad and I left, fast, off to errands. I got a new pair of converse - black with a hot pink stripe, pretty pretty. Moved the new fridge in. Changed the door handle and put it on, realized we effed it up so we took it apart. Then we put it back together only to screw up a second time, so I again took it apart, tried a third time then called in reinforcements. Made me very sad. Very very very sad. Grilled tasty chicken and tomatoes for dinner-I'm a goooood cook. Cut my hair, it's happier with all the split ends gone. Grocery shopping, panera and stuff today. Still can't look at that damn fridge. And, I still have one more day of sleeping in tomorrow! Wheeeee!

lights blink in a crowded room

bittybecky — Fri, 01 Sep 2006 16:42:04 GMT
Met up with Shivu, Josh, Ishani and Alicia up at Gameworks last night. I had never been there before which is kinda surprising considering I have a near permanent residence in woodfield. We played all kinds of games-this hot air balloon thing where you bounced up and down, tons of air hockey (Josh killed us at that), this snowboarding thing-that was hellafun but the best of all was DDR!!!! I haven’t played it since Matt brought one to me for college graduation over 2 years ago. It wasn’t quite as fun as those first times in Adam’s room spazzing wildly playing but it was still good times. Ishani and I totally sucked at it and at one point there were 3 of us doing one pad and we still couldn’t get a decent score. But, we had FUN! I’ve got a couple pics on my camera from it which I hafta upload, particularly cuz Ishu’s wearing MY shirt! Well, it isn’t really my shirt but it did live in my closet for a long while in the dorms, mainly because I stole it from Shivangi all the time. Looks a helluva lot better on her anyway, skinny little teenager.

squirm

bittybecky — Fri, 01 Sep 2006 00:13:11 GMT
I'm excited about tonight but dreading tomorrow. Going up to gameworks to hang with Shivu and co. but it's gonna be late and I know tomorrow will be rough. Perhaps I'm just mixed up.

We saw granpda today and he looks more like death every moment. They're (my aunts and the attorneys and hospice people) are pow-wowing this evening to determine what to take out, what to leave in. I hate waiting and I can't imagine anything worse than waiting for someone to die. At least I don't care so much, I don't even want to think about when I have to watch someone die whose death is more sad and not so much of a "phew, finally" thing. He looks so miserable, I keep thinking I want to explode at 60....forget all this infirmary.
And then to top it all off coworker guy came in tonight covered in hickeys. And the idea that he has someone to give them made a little tug in my stomach. I didn't think I cared. I had chosen to not care anymore. Why does it make my eyes sting and my head get all wibbly?

To top it all off, I'm having a fat day. I know I've been eating crap again lately but yeesh, none of my pants fit today. I brought leftover pizza for dinner but maybe I'll have a walk instead. Diet coke for dinner anyone?

soundproof or three revelations in the bathroom

bittybecky — Wed, 30 Aug 2006 14:31:16 GMT
A conversation overheard in the public toilets this morning:
"...love mine. It has tassels and silk loops."
"I just love my fanny pack. I have one in black and one in brown."
People please. Fanny packs are not the answer. They're on the same list as mullets. A definite no!

And, upon reflection of this event, as I've said before. All bathrooms should be made soundproof, completely. Above and beyond protecting you from the embarrassment of sounds you make while doing what must be done in there, soundproofing will prevent that awkward conversation you enter into when in the bathroom. You know the type I mean. The conversation you and your potty buddy start while waiting in line which carries over as you two enter the stalls, which continues in stilted awkwardness or ceases entirely while you and friend do your necessary. Soundproof walls would inhibit any attempt at carrying over the conversation.

And finally, the outer door and walls of a bathroom should contain some sort of cell reception deadening device. There is nothing more bizarre than someone talking on their mobile the entire time they're in the bathroom-line, business and washing up. Just because you feel comfortable letting the person on the other end hear your business does not mean that they are comfortable listening or that the rest of us in the bathroom are comfortable with it. When at home, do what you like: Hold a press conference from your toilet seat if it catches your fancy but when in public DON'T.

Phooey

bittybecky — Mon, 28 Aug 2006 14:05:39 GMT
Today is the first ever first day of school where I haven't actually gone to school. Bumped into Carrie on the train, she's out at Roosevelt now and starting her MLS tomorrow. I've known her since the glory days at Bartlett when Patti was still alive and running circ. She seems good, quiet in her own Carrie way.

Weekend was quiet. Flyers game on friday, fun. Work on saturday and sunday with Dee, who despite being nice always makes me feel like the snot-nosed upstart. Got fed up with Brian, guys are worthless till about 6 months after their 21st birthday, he's got a year and 6 to go.

Started watching Brick last night, finally. I'll finish it tonight, it's pretty good so far. Am exceedingly moist right now as I had no idea it was supposed to rain. Discovered my purple cons have a hole in the sole (ha, I rhymed!) by dint of a very wet right foot. And despite a time consuming get-ready this morning the humidity and dripping rain has done a number on my hair so it's frizzed and poufy in spots and wet and sticky in others. Yuck. My sweatshirt and umbrella are ranged around the office drying out and I've already paper toweled the hems of my pants...what I wouldn't give for a hair dryer or a dry pair of socks!

oh my god when do i ever get any work done?

bittybecky — Fri, 25 Aug 2006 15:22:10 GMT
(Click here to post your own answers for this meme.)

× I miss somebody right now. ✓ I don't watch much TV these days. ✓ I own lots of books.

✓ I wear glasses or contact lenses. × I love to play video games. ✓ I've tried marijuana. (Once, and it was legal where i tried it...I'm such a badass)

✓ I've watched porn movies. × I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship. × I believe honesty is usually the best policy.

✓ I curse sometimes. (SOMEtimes? How bout allla the time.) ✓ I have changed a lot mentally over the last year. (gradumatataion will do that to you) × I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.

* * * * *

× I have broken someone's bones. ✓ I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal. × I hate the rain.

✓ I'm paranoid at times. × I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free. ✓ I need/want money right now.

× I love sushi. ✓ I talk really, really fast. ✓ I have fresh breath in the morning. (Yeah, and you should see me walk on water)

✓ I have long hair. (and CURLY hair) × I have lost money in Las Vegas. ✓ I have at least one sibling.

× I was born in a country outside of the U.S. × I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past. ✓ I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.

✓ I like the way that I look. ✓ I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months. ✓ I am usually pessimistic.

✓ I have a lot of mood swings. × I think prostitution should be legalized. × I slept with a roommate.

× I have a hidden talent. ✓ I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have. × I have a lot of friends.

✓ I have pecked someone of the same sex. × I enjoy talking on the phone. × I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.

✓ I love to shop and/or window shop. ✓ I'm obsessed with my Xanga or Livejournal. (I'm looking for a 12 step program for this.) × I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.

✓ I have a mobile phone. ✓ I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months. ✓ I've rejected someone before.

× I currently like/love someone. × I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life. ✓ I want to have children in the future.

✓ I have changed a diaper before. × I've called the cops on a friend before. × I'm not allergic to anything.

✓ I have a lot to learn. ✓ I am shy around the opposite sex. × I'm online 24/7, even as an away message.

✓ I have at least 5 away messages saved. ✓ I have tried alcohol or drugs before. × I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.

× I own the "South Park" movie. ✓ I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on Xanga or Livejournal. ✓ I enjoy some country music.

✓ I would die for my best friends. ✓ I'm obsessive, and often a perfectionist. ✓ I have used my sexuality to advance my career.

✓ I think Halloween is awesome because you get free candy. (I think Halloween is awesome cuz you get to wear a costume!) × I have dated a close friend's ex. ✓ I am happy at this moment.

✓ I'm obsessed with guys. ✓ Democrat. (Hell yes!) × Republican.

✓ I don't even know what I am. ✓ I am punk rockish. × I go for older guys/girls, not younger.

× I study for tests most of the time. × I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met. ✓ I can work on a car.

✓ I love my job(s). (Only one of them...Viva Le Field Museum) × I am comfortable with who I am right now. × I have more than just my ears pierced.

× I walk barefoot wherever I can. × I have jumped off a bridge. ✓ I love sea turtles.

✓ I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup. ✓ I plan on achieving a major goal/dream. (I'm already halfway there baby!) × I am proficient on a musical instrument.

× I hate office jobs. ✓ I went to college out of state. (A coupla times.) × I am adopted.

✓ I am a pyro. ✓ I have thrown up from crying too much. × I have been intentionally hurt by people that I loved.

✓ I fall for the worst people. × I adore bright colours. × I usually like covers better than originals.

✓ I hate chain theme restaurants like Applebees and TGIFridays. × I can pick up things with my toes. ✓ I can't whistle.

× I have ridden/owned a horse. (I've only ever touched one once.) × I still have every journal I've ever written in. ✓ I talk in my sleep. (Yes, ask Christie what I say.)

✓ I've often thought that I was born in the wrong century. × I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions. × I wear a toe ring.

× I have a tattoo. ✓ I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with. ✓ I am a caffeine junkie.

× I am completely tree-huggy spiritual, and I'm not ashamed at all. ✓ If I knew I would get away with it, I would commit at least one murder. × I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.

✓ I enjoy a nice glass of wine with dinner. ✓ I'm an artist. × I am ambidextrous.

× I sleep with so many stuffed animals, I can hardly fit on my bed. ✓ If it weren't for having to see other people naked, I'd live in a nudist colony. × I have terrible teeth.

× I hate my toes. ✓ I did this meme even though I wasn't tagged by the person who took it before me. ✓ I have more friends on the internet than in real life.

✓ I have lived in either three different states or countries. × I am extremely flexible. ✓ I love hugs more than kisses.

× I want to own my own business. ✓ I smoke. (erm.....yeah, damn that enabling Joe) ✓ I spend way too much time on the computer than on anything else.

✓ Nobody has ever said I'm normal. ✓ Sad movies, games, and the like can cause a trickle of tears every now and then. × I am proficient in the use of many types of firearms and combat weapons.

× I like the way women look in stylized men's suits. ✓ I don't like it when people are unpleased or seem unpleased with me. ✓ I have been described as a dreamer or likely to have my head up in the clouds.

✓ I have played strip poker with someone else before. × I have had emotional problems for which I have sought professional help. ✓ I believe in ghosts and the paranormal.

× I can't stand being alone. ✓ I have at least one obsession at any given time. × I weigh myself, pee/poo, and then weigh myself again.

✓ I consistently spend way too much money on obsessions-of-the-moment. ✓ I'm a judgmental asshole. ✓ I'm a HUGE drama-queen.

✓ I have travelled on more than one continent. ✓ I sometimes wish my father would just disappear. × I need people to tell me I'm good at something in order to feel that I am.

× I am a Libertarian. ✓ I can speak more than one language. × I can fall asleep even if the whole room is as noisy as it can be.

✓ I would rather read than watch TV. × I like reading fact more than fiction. × I have pulled an all-nighter on an assignment I was given a month to do.

× I have no piercings. ✓ I have spent the night in a train station or other public place. × I have been so upset over my physical gender that I cried.

× I once spent Christmas completely alone because there was a miscommunication on which parent was supposed to have me that night. ✓ There have been times when I have wondered "Why was I born?" and may/may not have cried over it. × I like most animals better than most people.

× I own a collection of retro games consoles. × The thought of physical exercise makes me shiver. × I have hit someone with a dead fish.

× I am compulsively honest. ✓ I was born with a congenital birth defect that has never been repaired. (Does the empty space between my ears count?) × I have danced topless in front of dozens of complete strangers.

× I have gone from wishing I was a girl to revelling in being a boy to feeling like a girl again in the span of five minutes, and not cared a whit for my actual sex. × I am unashamedly bisexual, and have different motivations for my desires for different genders. × I sometimes won't sleep a whole night or eat a whole day because I forget to.

× I find it impossible to get to sleep without some kind of music on. ✓ I dislike milk. (UGH!!! Milk is for BABY COWS....not adult people!) × I obsessively wash my hands.

× I always carry something significant around with me. ✓ Sometimes I'd rather wear a wig in day-to-day life than use my own hair. ✓ I've pushed myself to become more self-aware and thereby more aware of others.

× Even though I live on my own I still cry sometimes because I miss my mother. × I hand wrote all the HTML tags in this document. ✓ I've liked something which a majority of people claimed was either bad or weird.

✓ I have been clinically dead for a brief period of time. (yeah, but it was while I was being born...does that count?) ✓ Instead of feeling sympathy/empathy with people and their problems, I simply become annoyed. × I participate/have participated in auto drag races and won.

× I do not 'get' most comedy acts. × I don't think strippers are money-greedy or slutty for dancing. × I don't like to chew gum.

✓ I am obsessed with history/historical things and can't wait for someone to build a time machine so I can be the first to use it. (Dinosaurs...HERE I COME!) ✓ I can never remember for the life of me where I parked the car. (It's genetic) ✓ I had the TEEN ANGST thing going for at least 2-3 years.

× I wish people would be more empathic and honest with each other. × I play Dungeons and Dragons weekly. ✓ I love to sing.

× I want to live in my mother's basement when I grow up. × I have a custom-built computer. ✓ I want to create a certain someone's babies, even though there's a 0% possiblity of ever achieving it. (*koff*villebamtrentbillyjohnny*koff*)

× I would be in a relationship with one of my pets if they were human. × I've gone skinny-dipping. × I've performed in three plays.

× I enjoy burritos. × I'm Irish and loving it. × I have a thing for redheads.

× I am a twin! ✓ Most of the times, I'd rather do something intellectual instead of doing something generically 'fun'. × Once I set out to finish something, I always stay at it until it is completed before I move on to something else.

× I wish there were a way to erase past mistakes. ✓ I sleep more than 12 hours a day. (Gawd, when I can get it.) × I wish I could be prouder of what I've accomplished, but it's never enough.

✓ I need more time to myself. × I wish I was more open-minded. × I hope that I go really prematurely grey.

✓ I download songs from the internet. × I've just reenacted chapter 58 of Death Note with my best friend. ✓ I say random things to freak people out.

× I'm still a little mad about the ending of Death Note. ✓ I love playing Truth or Dare. × I love listening to slow music, but I hate singing to it.

✓ Music helps me remember that I am not alone. × Playing my favorite sport makes me temporarily forget my problems. ✓ I think this survey is particularly long.

✓ I prefer my LJ friends to my real-life ones. ✓ I can only hate someone that I love. × I've ordered an extra two shots of espresso to an Americano at Starbucks.

Stolen from gal8028

bittybecky — Fri, 25 Aug 2006 15:02:41 GMT
01. Name:
02. Age/Birthday:
03. Single or Taken:
04. Favorite Movie:
05. Favorite Song:
06. Favorite Band/Rapper/Artist:
07. Favorite Book/Comic Book:
08. Tattoos and/or Piercings:
09. Favorite TV Show:
10. Favorite Video Game/Board Game:
11. Do we know each other outside of Livejournal?
12. Would you give me a kidney?
13. Tell me one odd/interesting fact about you:
14. If you could change anything about your current life, would you?
15. Will you post this so I can fill it out for you?

comment fill it in yeah yeah yeah

Red faced? Who Me?

bittybecky — Wed, 23 Aug 2006 16:21:32 GMT
Don't I feel foolish. I've been having issues getting on to the storage site and we thought it was a problem with the computer but no, I had input the address wrong. The tech guy came all the way up here to fix my problem and poof, there was no problem. I fear I'll be the butt of the tech folks' jokes today. My bad.

× I miss somebody right now.	✓ I don't watch much TV these days.	✓ I own lots of books.
✓ I wear glasses or contact lenses.	× I love to play video games.	✓ I've tried marijuana. (Once, and it was legal where i tried it...I'm such a badass)
✓ I've watched porn movies.	× I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.	× I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
✓ I curse sometimes. (SOMEtimes? How bout allla the time.)	✓ I have changed a lot mentally over the last year. (gradumatataion will do that to you)	× I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.

× I have broken someone's bones.	✓ I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.	× I hate the rain.
✓ I'm paranoid at times.	× I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.	✓ I need/want money right now.
× I love sushi.	✓ I talk really, really fast.	✓ I have fresh breath in the morning. (Yeah, and you should see me walk on water)
✓ I have long hair. (and CURLY hair)	× I have lost money in Las Vegas.	✓ I have at least one sibling.
× I was born in a country outside of the U.S.	× I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.	✓ I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
✓ I like the way that I look.	✓ I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months.	✓ I am usually pessimistic.
✓ I have a lot of mood swings.	× I think prostitution should be legalized.	× I slept with a roommate.
× I have a hidden talent.	✓ I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.	× I have a lot of friends.
✓ I have pecked someone of the same sex.	× I enjoy talking on the phone.	× I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
✓ I love to shop and/or window shop.	✓ I'm obsessed with my Xanga or Livejournal. (I'm looking for a 12 step program for this.)	× I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
✓ I have a mobile phone.	✓ I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.	✓ I've rejected someone before.
× I currently like/love someone.	× I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.	✓ I want to have children in the future.
✓ I have changed a diaper before.	× I've called the cops on a friend before.	× I'm not allergic to anything.
✓ I have a lot to learn.	✓ I am shy around the opposite sex.	× I'm online 24/7, even as an away message.
✓ I have at least 5 away messages saved.	✓ I have tried alcohol or drugs before.	× I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
× I own the "South Park" movie.	✓ I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on Xanga or Livejournal.	✓ I enjoy some country music.
✓ I would die for my best friends.	✓ I'm obsessive, and often a perfectionist.	✓ I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
✓ I think Halloween is awesome because you get free candy. (I think Halloween is awesome cuz you get to wear a costume!)	× I have dated a close friend's ex.	✓ I am happy at this moment.
✓ I'm obsessed with guys.	✓ Democrat. (Hell yes!)	× Republican.
✓ I don't even know what I am.	✓ I am punk rockish.	× I go for older guys/girls, not younger.
× I study for tests most of the time.	× I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.	✓ I can work on a car.
✓ I love my job(s). (Only one of them...Viva Le Field Museum)	× I am comfortable with who I am right now.	× I have more than just my ears pierced.
× I walk barefoot wherever I can.	× I have jumped off a bridge.	✓ I love sea turtles.
✓ I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup.	✓ I plan on achieving a major goal/dream. (I'm already halfway there baby!)	× I am proficient on a musical instrument.
× I hate office jobs.	✓ I went to college out of state. (A coupla times.)	× I am adopted.
✓ I am a pyro.	✓ I have thrown up from crying too much.	× I have been intentionally hurt by people that I loved.
✓ I fall for the worst people.	× I adore bright colours.	× I usually like covers better than originals.
✓ I hate chain theme restaurants like Applebees and TGIFridays.	× I can pick up things with my toes.	✓ I can't whistle.
× I have ridden/owned a horse. (I've only ever touched one once.)	× I still have every journal I've ever written in.	✓ I talk in my sleep. (Yes, ask Christie what I say.)
✓ I've often thought that I was born in the wrong century.	× I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.	× I wear a toe ring.
× I have a tattoo.	✓ I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.	✓ I am a caffeine junkie.
× I am completely tree-huggy spiritual, and I'm not ashamed at all.	✓ If I knew I would get away with it, I would commit at least one murder.	× I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
✓ I enjoy a nice glass of wine with dinner.	✓ I'm an artist.	× I am ambidextrous.
× I sleep with so many stuffed animals, I can hardly fit on my bed.	✓ If it weren't for having to see other people naked, I'd live in a nudist colony.	× I have terrible teeth.
× I hate my toes.	✓ I did this meme even though I wasn't tagged by the person who took it before me.	✓ I have more friends on the internet than in real life.
✓ I have lived in either three different states or countries.	× I am extremely flexible.	✓ I love hugs more than kisses.
× I want to own my own business.	✓ I smoke. (erm.....yeah, damn that enabling Joe)	✓ I spend way too much time on the computer than on anything else.
✓ Nobody has ever said I'm normal.	✓ Sad movies, games, and the like can cause a trickle of tears every now and then.	× I am proficient in the use of many types of firearms and combat weapons.
× I like the way women look in stylized men's suits.	✓ I don't like it when people are unpleased or seem unpleased with me.	✓ I have been described as a dreamer or likely to have my head up in the clouds.
✓ I have played strip poker with someone else before.	× I have had emotional problems for which I have sought professional help.	✓ I believe in ghosts and the paranormal.
× I can't stand being alone.	✓ I have at least one obsession at any given time.	× I weigh myself, pee/poo, and then weigh myself again.
✓ I consistently spend way too much money on obsessions-of-the-moment.	✓ I'm a judgmental asshole.	✓ I'm a HUGE drama-queen.
✓ I have travelled on more than one continent.	✓ I sometimes wish my father would just disappear.	× I need people to tell me I'm good at something in order to feel that I am.
× I am a Libertarian.	✓ I can speak more than one language.	× I can fall asleep even if the whole room is as noisy as it can be.
✓ I would rather read than watch TV.	× I like reading fact more than fiction.	× I have pulled an all-nighter on an assignment I was given a month to do.
× I have no piercings.	✓ I have spent the night in a train station or other public place.	× I have been so upset over my physical gender that I cried.
× I once spent Christmas completely alone because there was a miscommunication on which parent was supposed to have me that night.	✓ There have been times when I have wondered "Why was I born?" and may/may not have cried over it.	× I like most animals better than most people.
× I own a collection of retro games consoles.	× The thought of physical exercise makes me shiver.	× I have hit someone with a dead fish.
× I am compulsively honest.	✓ I was born with a congenital birth defect that has never been repaired. (Does the empty space between my ears count?)	× I have danced topless in front of dozens of complete strangers.
× I have gone from wishing I was a girl to revelling in being a boy to feeling like a girl again in the span of five minutes, and not cared a whit for my actual sex.	× I am unashamedly bisexual, and have different motivations for my desires for different genders.	× I sometimes won't sleep a whole night or eat a whole day because I forget to.
× I find it impossible to get to sleep without some kind of music on.	✓ I dislike milk. (UGH!!! Milk is for BABY COWS....not adult people!)	× I obsessively wash my hands.
× I always carry something significant around with me.	✓ Sometimes I'd rather wear a wig in day-to-day life than use my own hair.	✓ I've pushed myself to become more self-aware and thereby more aware of others.
× Even though I live on my own I still cry sometimes because I miss my mother.	× I hand wrote all the HTML tags in this document.	✓ I've liked something which a majority of people claimed was either bad or weird.
✓ I have been clinically dead for a brief period of time. (yeah, but it was while I was being born...does that count?)	✓ Instead of feeling sympathy/empathy with people and their problems, I simply become annoyed.	× I participate/have participated in auto drag races and won.
× I do not 'get' most comedy acts.	× I don't think strippers are money-greedy or slutty for dancing.	× I don't like to chew gum.
✓ I am obsessed with history/historical things and can't wait for someone to build a time machine so I can be the first to use it. (Dinosaurs...HERE I COME!)	✓ I can never remember for the life of me where I parked the car. (It's genetic)	✓ I had the TEEN ANGST thing going for at least 2-3 years.
× I wish people would be more empathic and honest with each other.	× I play Dungeons and Dragons weekly.	✓ I love to sing.
× I want to live in my mother's basement when I grow up.	× I have a custom-built computer.	✓ I want to create a certain someone's babies, even though there's a 0% possiblity of ever achieving it. (koffvillebamtrentbillyjohnnykoff)
× I would be in a relationship with one of my pets if they were human.	× I've gone skinny-dipping.	× I've performed in three plays.
× I enjoy burritos.	× I'm Irish and loving it.	× I have a thing for redheads.
× I am a twin!	✓ Most of the times, I'd rather do something intellectual instead of doing something generically 'fun'.	× Once I set out to finish something, I always stay at it until it is completed before I move on to something else.
× I wish there were a way to erase past mistakes.	✓ I sleep more than 12 hours a day. (Gawd, when I can get it.)	× I wish I could be prouder of what I've accomplished, but it's never enough.
✓ I need more time to myself.	× I wish I was more open-minded.	× I hope that I go really prematurely grey.
✓ I download songs from the internet.	× I've just reenacted chapter 58 of Death Note with my best friend.	✓ I say random things to freak people out.
× I'm still a little mad about the ending of Death Note.	✓ I love playing Truth or Dare.	× I love listening to slow music, but I hate singing to it.
✓ Music helps me remember that I am not alone.	× Playing my favorite sport makes me temporarily forget my problems.	✓ I think this survey is particularly long.
✓ I prefer my LJ friends to my real-life ones.	✓ I can only hate someone that I love.	× I've ordered an extra two shots of espresso to an Americano at Starbucks.