dreams and catching up
I haven't been around much on here ever since the wedding planning kicked into high gear, and now that I'm working full-time. I hope everyone is doing well. I really miss you guys and LJ and reading wonderful amazing fanfic in general, and being part of fandom. Man, I wish I had time to vid.
Just popping on quickly to talk about the most peculiar dreams I had last night. Throughout the whole night, it was crying dreams - you know the ones where you're crying so hard in the dream, there's this huge ache in your chest that you can feel, and you actually cry for real in your sleep. The strange part of it was? I was crying over fandom (the shows, the characters), and one in particular I remember was Supernatural, being completely erased. They no longer existed, ever, and I cried over that loss. Over the loss of Sam and Dean as characters, over the storytelling, etc.. I wonder if this is reflective of my self-conscious fear of losing such a big part of my identity???? Of losing fandom? I could never give it up.
Just popping on quickly to talk about the most peculiar dreams I had last night. Throughout the whole night, it was crying dreams - you know the ones where you're crying so hard in the dream, there's this huge ache in your chest that you can feel, and you actually cry for real in your sleep. The strange part of it was? I was crying over fandom (the shows, the characters), and one in particular I remember was Supernatural, being completely erased. They no longer existed, ever, and I cried over that loss. Over the loss of Sam and Dean as characters, over the storytelling, etc.. I wonder if this is reflective of my self-conscious fear of losing such a big part of my identity???? Of losing fandom? I could never give it up.