bionic 😲sick

So I thought I was feeling better. Turns out I still have a high fever...I guess I've just gotten used to the feeling. I'm on a billion types of medications, and eating cough drops and throat lozenges or what have you because my throat is so inredibly fucking sore.

My mom wanted to take my pulse to see if I had a fever - your heart rate speeds up when you do. My pulse was way too fast...I think the average heart rate is like 72 or something? Well anyway, she said my pulse was 120. She says she's had the same problem when she was younger - malnutritioned, not as healthy as she could be, and heart trouble. So I have heart trouble. I think she wants to get me into see a doctor sometime soon.

God I hate this. She's always nagging me to eat more - and I will, and I do, if I would eat anything that we have at home. Blegh. If I ate out all the time - ate steaks, chicken, shrimp, etc., more iron - I would probably get the nutrition I need. At home though, I can't eat half of what my mom cooks. I just...have lost my appetitie for it. So my temporary solution? Eat out as often as possible.