life blah blah college blah blah
Cut for those of you who don't know me personally and otherwise wouldn't really care! hehe.
So yeah. Umm. I don't want to go to college. All right, so maybe I do, but just the thought of college is frightening. I know I should be working on college entry essays and applying for colleges and the like right now, at this moment, but I'm not. It's...daunting. There are so many different roads you can take after high school, and you'll meet so many other people in college. It's hard to imagine that life doesn't stop with high school - that there's more out there in the world. But I'm scared because it's all unfamiliar to me, whereas high school is like this little bubble of familiarity, you know all the kids at school and they know you. Once you start feeling at home, you're growing out of the home, and it's time to move onto college. Gargh. Isn't life always like that though? Change is just an inherently frightening concept.
My two main colleges I'm keeping my eye on are UT in Austin and A&M. A&M is my second choice if I can't get into UT, and if I can't get into A&M, then UTSA will be my alternative. Just thinking about it - the money, the change, where I'll live, what part-time job I'll be working - during college is scary. I think the main reason why it's so scary is that you'll lose most of your high school buddies. Sure you'll get college buddies, but by that time, everybody is going their own way, having their own lives. In high school, you can still bum around if you like, and you really don't have a "life", per se.
I guess I've been thinking about this for a while now, just haven't really talked much about it. It's been festering in my brain-juices. Andy told me today - it might've been jokingly, it might've not - that he wanted to go to A&M. That's like 9874112315 miles away from Austin and UT (IF I get in, which is doubtful. Competition is fiercer than ever). That's just scary to me...other people may be able to blow it off, but us girls, girls like me - I would feel like my heart was 9874112315 miles away. I would go crazy if Andy wasn't in the same city as me. Gah. Must not think about that....
But yes. Onward we march, dear friends. Into the maelstrom we go. Fun fun fun. *sigh*
While discussing college apps and financial aid:
[09:35] plasticine23: we should like work on that stuff sooon
[09:35] plasticine23: the prob. is... no motivation. lol
[09:36] Sa3lyn: seriously..
[09:36] Sa3lyn: we need like a mentor
[09:37] Sa3lyn: to poke us with a cattle prod
[09:37] plasticine23: LOL
[09:37] plasticine23: yes we do.
Financial aid and money and scholarships. Pssh. That's a whole 'nother bitch-fest. I'll save that for later. @_@
So yeah. Umm. I don't want to go to college. All right, so maybe I do, but just the thought of college is frightening. I know I should be working on college entry essays and applying for colleges and the like right now, at this moment, but I'm not. It's...daunting. There are so many different roads you can take after high school, and you'll meet so many other people in college. It's hard to imagine that life doesn't stop with high school - that there's more out there in the world. But I'm scared because it's all unfamiliar to me, whereas high school is like this little bubble of familiarity, you know all the kids at school and they know you. Once you start feeling at home, you're growing out of the home, and it's time to move onto college. Gargh. Isn't life always like that though? Change is just an inherently frightening concept.
My two main colleges I'm keeping my eye on are UT in Austin and A&M. A&M is my second choice if I can't get into UT, and if I can't get into A&M, then UTSA will be my alternative. Just thinking about it - the money, the change, where I'll live, what part-time job I'll be working - during college is scary. I think the main reason why it's so scary is that you'll lose most of your high school buddies. Sure you'll get college buddies, but by that time, everybody is going their own way, having their own lives. In high school, you can still bum around if you like, and you really don't have a "life", per se.
I guess I've been thinking about this for a while now, just haven't really talked much about it. It's been festering in my brain-juices. Andy told me today - it might've been jokingly, it might've not - that he wanted to go to A&M. That's like 9874112315 miles away from Austin and UT (IF I get in, which is doubtful. Competition is fiercer than ever). That's just scary to me...other people may be able to blow it off, but us girls, girls like me - I would feel like my heart was 9874112315 miles away. I would go crazy if Andy wasn't in the same city as me. Gah. Must not think about that....
But yes. Onward we march, dear friends. Into the maelstrom we go. Fun fun fun. *sigh*
While discussing college apps and financial aid:
[09:35] plasticine23: we should like work on that stuff sooon
[09:35] plasticine23: the prob. is... no motivation. lol
[09:36] Sa3lyn: seriously..
[09:36] Sa3lyn: we need like a mentor
[09:37] Sa3lyn: to poke us with a cattle prod
[09:37] plasticine23: LOL
[09:37] plasticine23: yes we do.
Financial aid and money and scholarships. Pssh. That's a whole 'nother bitch-fest. I'll save that for later. @_@