let’s meet on the other side wait am i typing this or okay the floor is cold or maybe thats my face i cant devastated i am devastated i know that partis real i… read more

20th february, i was blaming you. for leaving. for not being there. i was in the worst place i’ve ever been in my life, i came close to ending it twice, and even then,… read more

i finally ran out of ways to bleed on the page.it was something, wasn’t it?the hurt knows no language now. i said everything i could,the rest will keep bleeding somewhere no language reaches. read more

Nobody tells you that the last time is always disguised as a normal time. I wanted to make myself a cup of tea. That’s it. That’s the whole plan. Tea. Milk. Walk to the… read more

its tough i can feel it coming i can feel it feeding on me i dont want this today im very tired im weak i cant tolerate it i want a human being beside… read more

Or does the damage just stay? I don’t have an answer. I wish I did. I wish I could tell you that every bridge you burned can be rebuilt, that every person you pushed… read more

I almost died. My mother didn’t know. My close ones didn’t show up. And everyone who ever said those four words to me, I’m not sure a single one of them meant it. I… read more

Content warning: This post talks about a suicide attempt, panic, and intense emotional pain. If that feels like too much right now, please skip it or reach out to someone you trust first. I… read more

i know you can read every word of this and still never understand how much it hurts. im not even sure youll ever find this, and maybe that’s the point. but if anyone finds… read more