Yes, this is a real post. Do not attempt to adjust your compy.
1) GUYS. I am basically TRIPPING BALLS about how intensely phenomenal my Big Bang artist is. TRIPPING BALLS!!! I do not know what I did in a past life to deserve such incredible luck, but I think it probably involved saving several busloads of nuns and orphans and kittens from certain doom. UGH WHAT MY FIC IS NOT GOOD ENOUGH TO DESERVE 
salty_catfish. I AM NOT WORTHY, ETC. Seriously I am going to have to do some extensive construction work on this sad sad fic to get it in reasonable shape so that I do not explode with shame in the face of the art. I hope my posting date is...never. I will need eternity to merit this. COME ON, SAM 'N' DEAN. INSPIRE ME.
2) The penultimate episode of House is tomorrow night D: I cannot handle it. I watched House religiously for years but then stopped after the end of season 6 and just sort of forgot about it even existing at all until I randomly caught episode 8.18 because my roommate was watching it a couple weeks ago, and it sucked me back in BODILY and now I am freaking out and peeing myself and obsessing and went on a massive bender to catch up with the seasons I missed and I DON'T KNOW I DON'T KNOW IT IS ENDING COMPLETELY FOREVER OH GOD THE FEELS.
I have (had?) been watching House since DAY. ONE. It is completely insane to me that it is ending. EIGHT years of House, that is longer even than SPN so far. I'm not sure I've ever lived through a season finale like this before. I wasn't into Smallville extensively, so not that. I was never into Buffy when that was on. Queer as Folk was only five seasons. I feel like this is Particularly Significant for me!! And I HATE that I got bored and stopped watching because it is like cheapening the experience that I have not technically been watching it every week since the beginning, and also because when I went back and caught up I LOVED IT ALL and I was so confused as to why I stopped watching. I mean I distinctly remember how bored I was after the season 6 finale and how much I was unenthused by House/Cuddy (WE DIDN'T CALL IT HUDDY BACK IN THE DAY, OKAY??? GET OFF MY LAWN.) but I really like it a lot in retrospect.
Anyway, it is super nostalgic and reminding me of writing hilarious House/Wilson "fic" withlazy_daze during lectures and how lizardspots fell into the fandom too and recced me fic and drew art and just. IDK. SIGH. I really loved House. It wasn't perfect by any means (WHY HAVE THEY BUTCHERED WILSON, WHERE DID THE STICK-DRIVING "DR. PANTY-PEELER" GO AND WHY DID HE NEED A BALD CAP TO HAVE A THREESOME WHEN HE IS WORLD-FAMOUS FOR PHILANDERING), but it is still imo one of the smartest shows on basic cable. And I have loved Sherlock Holmes since watching several previous incarnations religiously as a child, so of course I will always have a soft smushy place in my heart for it. It is HILARIOUS TO ME that there was a spate of people on the internets who ONLY JUST NOW realised that House lives at 221B Baker Street and OMG thats liek wher Sherlock lives n stuff. Durrrrrrr.
I have been trying desperately to find good long House/Wilson fic these past couple weeks, because as you know if you have been watching, THERE ARE TOO MANY FEELS. So I have pretty much been reading ANYTHING I CAN GET MY HANDS ON, and even though I have only picked what appears to be the best stuff (with my admitedly limited knowledge of what is out there), it is all just not...quite...smart enough. It's difficult to get the banter right and the imagery right because it is such a snappy show, but also silly and medical-jargon-y and sometimes really subtle. Hugh Laurie and Robert Sean Leonard can do things with their acting that makes the crappy dialog SO MUCH BETTER than it would be just written on a page, and that is nigh impossible to capture in fic. So yeah, PLEASE REC ME HOUSE/WILSON KTHX. It doesn't need to be porn, in fact I would sort of prefer if it was not porn?? I know, I know, who am I and what have I done with Lucy, but really I just want eternal love for them :( I want clutching and glass cases of emotion but still IC and without schmoop. IT IS A TALL ORDER, I REALISE, BUT IT MUST EXIST??? I MEAN IT IS CANON, SO...
Ugh I am so panicked about tomorrow :( :( :( And next week, but rn I am like going to go to sleep weeping because I can't handle not knowing what is going to happen tomorrow. WHAT IF WILSON DIES. WHAT. IF. WILSON. DIES.
I CAN'T.
3) I have been pondering Tumblr. Should I get one? I don't even know how to Tumbl. It is such a mystery to me. I often will look at other people's Tumblrs and get sucked in and realise seven hours have passed and all I have done is stare at Sam Evans in gold shorts and plaid shirts, or perhaps watercolor paintings of birds, or gifs of the Hulk vomiting rainbows onto Ironman. It seems dangerous out there. But all the cool kids are doing it??? I DON'T KNOW. Clearly I am bad at the internet these days so probably I shouldn't attempt to keep up with yet another medium in any sort of official way.
salty_catfish. I AM NOT WORTHY, ETC. Seriously I am going to have to do some extensive construction work on this sad sad fic to get it in reasonable shape so that I do not explode with shame in the face of the art. I hope my posting date is...never. I will need eternity to merit this. COME ON, SAM 'N' DEAN. INSPIRE ME.2) The penultimate episode of House is tomorrow night D: I cannot handle it. I watched House religiously for years but then stopped after the end of season 6 and just sort of forgot about it even existing at all until I randomly caught episode 8.18 because my roommate was watching it a couple weeks ago, and it sucked me back in BODILY and now I am freaking out and peeing myself and obsessing and went on a massive bender to catch up with the seasons I missed and I DON'T KNOW I DON'T KNOW IT IS ENDING COMPLETELY FOREVER OH GOD THE FEELS.
I have (had?) been watching House since DAY. ONE. It is completely insane to me that it is ending. EIGHT years of House, that is longer even than SPN so far. I'm not sure I've ever lived through a season finale like this before. I wasn't into Smallville extensively, so not that. I was never into Buffy when that was on. Queer as Folk was only five seasons. I feel like this is Particularly Significant for me!! And I HATE that I got bored and stopped watching because it is like cheapening the experience that I have not technically been watching it every week since the beginning, and also because when I went back and caught up I LOVED IT ALL and I was so confused as to why I stopped watching. I mean I distinctly remember how bored I was after the season 6 finale and how much I was unenthused by House/Cuddy (WE DIDN'T CALL IT HUDDY BACK IN THE DAY, OKAY??? GET OFF MY LAWN.) but I really like it a lot in retrospect.
Anyway, it is super nostalgic and reminding me of writing hilarious House/Wilson "fic" with
lazy_daze during lectures and how lizardspots fell into the fandom too and recced me fic and drew art and just. IDK. SIGH. I really loved House. It wasn't perfect by any means (WHY HAVE THEY BUTCHERED WILSON, WHERE DID THE STICK-DRIVING "DR. PANTY-PEELER" GO AND WHY DID HE NEED A BALD CAP TO HAVE A THREESOME WHEN HE IS WORLD-FAMOUS FOR PHILANDERING), but it is still imo one of the smartest shows on basic cable. And I have loved Sherlock Holmes since watching several previous incarnations religiously as a child, so of course I will always have a soft smushy place in my heart for it. It is HILARIOUS TO ME that there was a spate of people on the internets who ONLY JUST NOW realised that House lives at 221B Baker Street and OMG thats liek wher Sherlock lives n stuff. Durrrrrrr.I have been trying desperately to find good long House/Wilson fic these past couple weeks, because as you know if you have been watching, THERE ARE TOO MANY FEELS. So I have pretty much been reading ANYTHING I CAN GET MY HANDS ON, and even though I have only picked what appears to be the best stuff (with my admitedly limited knowledge of what is out there), it is all just not...quite...smart enough. It's difficult to get the banter right and the imagery right because it is such a snappy show, but also silly and medical-jargon-y and sometimes really subtle. Hugh Laurie and Robert Sean Leonard can do things with their acting that makes the crappy dialog SO MUCH BETTER than it would be just written on a page, and that is nigh impossible to capture in fic. So yeah, PLEASE REC ME HOUSE/WILSON KTHX. It doesn't need to be porn, in fact I would sort of prefer if it was not porn?? I know, I know, who am I and what have I done with Lucy, but really I just want eternal love for them :( I want clutching and glass cases of emotion but still IC and without schmoop. IT IS A TALL ORDER, I REALISE, BUT IT MUST EXIST??? I MEAN IT IS CANON, SO...
Ugh I am so panicked about tomorrow :( :( :( And next week, but rn I am like going to go to sleep weeping because I can't handle not knowing what is going to happen tomorrow. WHAT IF WILSON DIES. WHAT. IF. WILSON. DIES.
I CAN'T.
3) I have been pondering Tumblr. Should I get one? I don't even know how to Tumbl. It is such a mystery to me. I often will look at other people's Tumblrs and get sucked in and realise seven hours have passed and all I have done is stare at Sam Evans in gold shorts and plaid shirts, or perhaps watercolor paintings of birds, or gifs of the Hulk vomiting rainbows onto Ironman. It seems dangerous out there. But all the cool kids are doing it??? I DON'T KNOW. Clearly I am bad at the internet these days so probably I shouldn't attempt to keep up with yet another medium in any sort of official way.